#ooc: on ken ahd...she really tried whats best for him. because no matter what

[yourlocalmechanism-dr-carmilla]

..neither do I....partially its the "i have to fix whats broken. Its the coldness of doctor ans scientist...a coldness...that was misplaced in such situations...

If they wouldve been face to face, she wouldve avoided eye contact with him. Admitting this mistake is a step she had taken, regardless if jonny notices or not. And if shes true to herself...some surgeries werent necessary but jsut becasue she wanted to make improvements. A scientists nature doesent mix well with human beigns, she thinks.

I suppose i cant, id have no right to it either....

She's silent for abit. Dealkng with chronic pain, she knows what its like. On some days, shed rather avoid doign certain things to avoid the pain altogether. But its not a option for the longterm.

....Atleast that. There's no point for me to say anything else, youre right. I just hope they can fix it, I really do.

Her last words arent condescending but more a matter of fact. She knows she could argue to no end with Jonyn, but shes grown tired of it. She knows, he doesnet often knows whats best for him, but he has his crew for thst. Still, his words sting, a sharp reminder thst things will never go to be back the way they were. A feeling of regret blooms inside of her-mayve she shouldve never meddled with death and the human body. She wonders, what couldve been if she hadnt started to mechanize them. But she shakes her head, no time for that. She wonders kf she should say anything else-but doesent find the words.

With all the chaos abroad our dear ship, I am making the executive ship decision and I am overriding the set course. We are pulling over on an abandoned ship, I fear as if this gets more out of hand, it could turn grizzly.

I don’t want any complaints, do I feel safe currently? No. But fucking hell, I am not going to be cutting any more losses. Also, the pace is picking up, I apologize for any motion sickness but we need to dock somewhere as fast as ‘Rora will go. Anyone who tries to stop me, I will be drastic.

Gods speed to us all.