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❪ ♛ › * ✰ ❫ ⁖ ⁀ ➴ just to live! ░. ꒱
GRAPHIC CONTENT AHEAD: extreme violence, gore, moral ambiguity, blood, major character death, lots of death in general, complete mindfuckery, tons of dead dove content everywhere you turn (well, that had been the idea, I can't remember if I ever wrote that far), anarchy reigns, tough decisions, wrong decisions, mental illness, trauma, graphic depictions of everything uncomfortable minus sex.
The audio logs of Vil Schoenheit as he finds himself in an unorthodox scenario.
Log: 000001
Ha... ha... ha... It's been a long while since I've had to run so fast. In case the person listening has no idea who I am, which is unlikely, my name is Vil Schoenheit. I am twenty years old. A model, actor, skin care and makeup artist — but I guess that's not exactly important right now. What's important is the fact that the world has changed. My life will never be the same. No one's will. Monsters. They're monsters. Everyone's a monster. I'm a monster, too. Ugly. Unsightly! Ha... I'm sorry. I'll be okay. If anything, at least I am positive, that I will survive. I am strong. I have knowledge on how to survive. It's almost like I was prepared for this from childhood. No, so long as I remain vigilant, I will survive. But, will I live? I don't know. I can't tell if I've really ever lived up to now, so how would I know if I'm living or not? How do I know that I can make it out of here alive?
Vil put the recorder back into his pocket and checked his surroundings. The coast was clear. He could make a break for the trees, get some much needed cover, and hopefully find some food.
He controlled his breaths and checked his pulse. So far, so good. He was okay. He was going to be okay. If he pretended this was just another movie script, he would be okay.
Everything was alright.
After all, he was the villain.
Always the villain.
But, he would prove himself! He knew that he could. Vil Schoenheit was nothing if not a survivor. He would get past the ugliness of the world and stand on top, sparkling and beautiful, like the rarest jewel. The most beautiful person on planet Earth.
He wished Rook were here with him. He already missed the dear hunter's presence, and having a hunter by his side would have been so very useful, as well. In any survival situation, Rook Hunt was a good man to pick. When the going got rough, Rook got serious and was an amazingly gifted man — but ever since all of this had broken out, Vil has not been able to get in contact with Rook at all, though he assumed it would be like that everywhere for everyone.
The Fae Valleys would have the most advantages in this sick twisted world. Not only had they never relied upon technology, they thrived with their own two hands. They had been born stronger. More durable. Beautiful and fair in their darkened nature.
At the same time, Vil knew that if he tried to go venture into the Fae Valleys without an invite, he would get destroyed from all sides, so it was not an option whatsoever. Also, due to their lack of technology, it was impossible to tell whether they had been affected by the calamities or not. They were so secluded from the outside world that it was impossible to tell.
He was at the trees when he heard it. The sound he desperately did not want to hear.
Vil sighed as he shut his brain off, cut his emotions from his actions, turned around and shot a gun directly into a woman's skull.
No.
That was not a woman.
That thing could not be a woman. It was a monster. For his own survival, to keep pressing forward, he had to do this.
The blood pooled to the ground and would feed the earth.
Vil rifled through her bag. her purse, and found things he deemed would be useful to him. The monster had terrible taste in color coordination, but it was of no matter now. It has no consequence in the end, because Vil had shot her point blank. He had killed her — it.
Better that he think of it as a thing and not a person.
I am ugly.
I will be beautiful.
In a world such as this, even just to survive would be beautiful. Vil could do it. He had to do it. For everyone he was close to and could not find — he would survive. It was all he could do now. There was no other option. To lay down himself, to give up and die, it was something that was unacceptable in his own eyes.
The world had changed like this, but even so, he would keep pressing forward.
So, even though he was in shock from what he'd seen back in the cities, he got his bearings and began to run again, getting as far away from regular civilization as possible, because nothing about the cities were safe anymore. There was only fire, and smoke, and the sound of people screaming, of blood and corpses filling the streets.
There was nothing else for him back there. The only thing in the cities was soon to be gone and Vil knew there'd be nothing left for anyone. If they all survived a few decades, perhaps things would change, and he could go back to scavenge for supplies, but it was far too dangerous to go there, now.
The Internet and cell service was still active, but there was no guarantee that would last forever, but just in case, Vil kept his phone and a charger on his person, because he wanted to hope, he wanted to believe that there would be a silver lining somewhere in this bleak life he was now preparing to live. He wanted to trust that someone he knew would come and find him (and come in peace), and that he wouldn't be so... so very...
"Alone," Vil Schoenheit whispered as the sky bled a thousand different colors, a beautiful sunset tainted by the earth bringing forth chaos, black acrid smoke, and its own central red flames. Flames that weren't hotter than the sun, but just as damaging — far more devastating.
Vil trembled, but he straightened himself out within seconds.
Only the strong survived. He had to keep his wits and remain as calm as possible.
He pretended that his hands didn't shake after killing that woma — that thing. He'd never actually killed something before. He wasn't a hunter like Rook. He hadn't taken life with his own two hands, watched the light in their eyes fade away and seep out. Vil had never actually harmed another being before, but now he had, and it was just day one.
The time to play nice guy was over.
It was the villain's world now.
#&. ❪ starlesswritings. ❫#twst#twisted wonderland#disney twst#twisted wonderland fanfiction#&. — ike's fics.#&. ❪ vil schoenheit. ❫#dead dove fic#maybe#vil schoenheit#this used to be on ao3 but i got rid of it#i'll just leave this here#only wrote two parts to it anyway#part 1
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[ cw: nightmares / trauma / ]
Post-invasion, Mikey sneaks into Leo’s room and when asked by Leo what the problem was, Mikey just smiles and says since he’s awake and knew Leo would be too, he didn’t want either of them alone. Leo laughs and lets Mikey stick around, both of them clumped together on Leo’s bed, watching grainy compilations of old Lou Jitsu commercials on Leo’s phone.
Technically, Mikey didn’t lie. He just didn’t explain everything that led him to Leo’s room. He didn’t explain the nightmare of his arms burning up too bright, too fast, destroyed before Raph and Donnie have a chance to help. He didn’t explain how he woke up with a wail caught in his throat, phantom pain in his arms and chest alike chasing away any semblance of exhaustion. He didn’t explain how his mind made sure he knew, vividly, that if one thing went wrong with his portal, then he would have never seen Leo again.
He didn’t explain, and he didn’t have to. Leo knows his brothers better than he knows himself, and Mikey has always been easy to read. So it’s no trouble to let Mikey know that he’s still with them, that Leo is here and alive with everyone else. And when Mikey finally regains his exhaustion and falls asleep leaning against Leo, Leo simply maneuvers him into a more comfortable position and stays by his side.
He doesn’t move, doesn’t go to sleep - not that he could, anyway. He just mindlessly scrolls on his phone, the soft snores of his little brother filling the room. He stays in place, awake, because he wants to be sure that when Mikey wakes up again it’s to the immediate sight that Leo is alive and well and home.
And, if Leo’s bring honest, that’s a reminder not just for Mikey’s sake.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt mikey#rottmnt leo#rise mikey#rise leo#portal pals#one of my favorite things about Mikey is how self assured he really is not only in his skills but in his sense of self#but no matter how confident you are how much faith in yourself and others you have anyone can be struck by what ifs#and trauma isn’t so easily brushed over#so I can easily see Mikey struggling occasionally with the notion that ah. I did it. but what if I didn’t.#bros the worlds best mystic warrior in part because he can do real miracles#but miracles are only thought to be so because they’re near impossible feats#and with the knowledge that he is capable of opening timelines…I wonder if a part of Mikey fears falling into one where he failed#now - Mikey is not one to get wrapped up in insecurity he really isn’t#but for something so important and such a possible fear? at the very least I can see his subconscious manifesting a nightmare or two#most likely more - he’s a kid after all#they all are#ANYWAY love this duo lol#almost positive I wrote something similar to this wayyyyyy long ago but bleh I’ll write it again idc idc
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3rd one!
"Please, you've seen the skies from my angle plenty-- what I'd love to know is: how's the view from a parachute?"
The paratrooper's smile twitched, nearly dropped, then reasserted itself on his face. An odd, wistful, sincerity colored the edges of it, like Bucky had broken through the posturing facade and was glimpsing some true and tender part of the man's soul.
"Beautiful. Endless." He laughed, a bubbling sound of embarrassment as he heard the longing in his own voice, but continued anyway. "It's the most peaceful place I think in the whole damn world."
Months later, when Bucky was tumbling out of his fort, when the ground was rising to meet him, when he was wondering if this was the last thing Gale and Curt and all those other boys had seen, he had just enough wherewithal to remember that bright eyed corporal and think 'liar'.
#i carrion started playing as i wrote this and i had to take a minute#anyway. technically a part two to the other prompt? but only vaguely.#nathan writes#ask game#mota#also its more than five sentences sorry i needed a lil extra room
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"I don't wanna write smut- but the parasites in me (tbz) want me to write smut."
#since i don't post on tiktok other than “unboxing” little merch thingies i get#this is where this “audio” will be going#(this is shouting out to the 3 or 4 tbz smuts i have in progress when up until now i've only wrote fluff due to trauma the past 5 yrs)#i don't want to eat candy- but the parasites in me want the candy- i don't wanna drink liquor i don't like liquor but the parasites-#the demon in me- IT wants the liquor- you understand what i'm saying#*i took out the part about not liking smut because well- if you've seen my recs- you'll know that'll make me a liar*#kate rambles after here#i originally wrote this post when i had only two smuts in progress.... anyways i'll be posting fluff soon but i first have to get#rid of my migraine to edit the thing *rip it apart until it makes me happy*#also all of the smuts prior to this don't feel like my good works... pls don't go digging for them i wish to light them on fire but#sadly i won't do that :)#kate rambles#it was all because of fixing that one kiki fic and writing that one h.one smut... and now with tbz- here i am spiraling#it seems i continuously spiral#esp with those *lovely* weirdos who i can only seem to write about anymore
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i found a notes app draft written up of all my thoughts abt being on-stage for a little life and thought it was worth sharing here:
- food on the stage smelled SO good
- dettol, on the other hand. did not. and there was so much of it before the start of act two.
- i kept getting distracted by the lone black olive on the stage that wasn’t cleaned up after jb’s outburst
- i couldn’t help but think “his ass is NOT reading” every time willem sat down to read a manuscript
- that being said, willem’s arm obstructed my view of what jude did to himself at the end of act one and if you’ve seen the show, you’ll know this was a merciful view obstruction
- had to stop myself from laughing during the scene where willem kept hitting the sofa cushion bc every time he hit it, our seats in the front row kept vibrating
- THAT scene between jude and caleb was even worse on-stage because all the action happened very close to the back of the stage and i was just sitting there like ☹️
- probably one of the worst things about being onstage was being aware that the whole audience can see ur face which made certain scenes (caleb, dr traylor, everything after willem’s death) really difficult because i could not control my facial expressions. sat there looking either like a deer in headlights (literally at one stage) or like i’m abt to burst into tears
- also speaking of the ending, it was even more difficult bc the lighting onstage was VERY revealing and i was so aware the audience could see me
- you can really see the little subtleties of their performances- jude and harold were particular standouts but they were all amazing
- one little moment i loved was seeing malcolm mouth “be careful” when a group of them were carrying jude over to the hospital bed at the end of act one (although it could’ve been out of character to make sure none of them dropped their costar lmao)
- seeing those little moments was esp fun before the play started and they're just milling around and chatting (one moment i loved was when jude changed the music from contemporary to classical, willem noticed and changed it back and teased him abt it)
#a little life#its been like two weeks since i saw it but i wrote up all of this when i got back to my hotel room that night#anyways 10/10 experience i would go back and get traumatised again if it was running for longer#honestly the only real negative was that you aren't able to see jb's paintings#like there are a few parts that the cast is facing away from you but for the most part you don't miss that much#txt
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"One hand at a time! Wait your turn!"
"Tough shit, I'm the one holding the bag."
"Calm your mullet, I bought it!"
"I never said you could call me 'mullet'."
"I said calm your mullet."
Keith frowned and stretched his hand away from Shiro, hoping to put the bag of space trail mix out of reach. In all honesty, Shiro did buy it, but there are these little things called M&M's that Keith wasn't willing to give up. It's an addiction he's…not proud of. Before he died, Texas would always buy bags of trail mix and Keith would always dig out the M&M's, leaving everything else behind. The raisins went to Texas, hence why they didn't just get a bag of the chocolate candies (besides, the trail mix was slightly cheaper).
M&M's held the place of first and favorite candy. Keith didn't share them with anyone, and he wasn't about to change his ways either.
Shiro yanked on Keith's other arm and nabbed the bag, purposefully taking an M&M (okay, how dare he) and chewing it extra loud and obnoxious for emphasis. "Mmm…"
Keith slumped back on the couch, muttering choice words to himself that his brother doesn't bother to correct. "Gimme a handful."
Reluctantly obliging, Shiro glares at Keith and plops a robotic handful of mostly-almonds trail mix in his hand. That bastard. Keith considers separating the less important things from the candy and throwing them at his brother. He almost does, before he remembers the last time he tried pulling something like that (in which saliva covered pretzels were thrown right back at him) and decides maybe he doesn't need a shower that day.
(At a time like this, Keith would note the sun coming in through the windows because it feels like a Tuesday afternoon. However, they're in space. There's no sun nearby at the moment. So instead, Keith notes the fluorescent lights overhead and dark void outside the castle and pretends it's a Tuesday afternoon. In space. Anyways.)
Shiro left for the kitchen, probably to grab a drink or another snack. Keith stayed behind on the couch, tossing some of his trail mix in the air before catching it with his mouth. He missed a lot of them, but that's not important.
What is (somewhat) important is that he ate the trail mix in order of Very Bad Stuff to M&M's. More specifically: almonds, then peanuts, then cashews and raisins, then M&M's. Also, he lined up the chocolate candy in rainbow order. Just saying. Keith popped the first red M&M in his mouth and fractured it with a satisfying crunch. Sounded nice, really. Kind of like an enemy's neck snapping.
But let's not dwell on that. Let's dwell on the fact that Lance had just walked into the common room after an unforgiving session of combat training, all sweaty and tired and face flushed that did not, in any way, make Keith think that he looked cute when he was exhausted. Because he didn't think like that, he scooted to the far side of the couch when Lance sat down. Enjoying his candy in peace would have to wait.
Lance side-eyed Keith and his small handful of M&M's. "...What are those?"
"None of your business."
Keith attempted to shield the candy further by leaning away, only resulting in Lance leaning to stretch over him and oh God what the fuck is happening Shiro come back (or maybe don't, it'd be super awkward and Keith is not up for losing any more of his dignity) and save him why is Lance so close why can Keith feel his neck getting hot-
"Are those M&M's? Can I have one?"
Well. Fuck Lance and his stupid puppy eyes. Keith quickly glanced at his hand, which only held five more M&M's that he was not intent on giving up. Lance wasn't worth even half an M&M, really. He's his rival! He shouldn't be forced to give him any! So why does he feel like he should?
Probably because Lance is leaning over him a little too close and that is the only reason Keith will cave in. Definitely the only reason. Maybe.
Keith shoved Lance back to his side of the couch and threw two M&M's at him, instantly regretting it and cursing himself for not giving him just one and furthermore for not licking it first. Lance being Lance, caught one in his mouth and one in his hand, thanking Keith with that dumb smile that was not endearing whatsoever.
And then Shiro decided to make his entrance, casually walking in with a bottle of water (was it?) in hand and muttering to himself, something about "who put the water in the way back of the fridge behind all the food goo because I swear-"
And then he noticed Lance, M&M still in hand, sitting in Shiro's previous spot, with an oblivious smile on his face and Keith looking grumpy and glaring at the blue paladin.
And then he decided to open his big stupid fucking mouth to inquire about Lance's food. "Is that an M&M?"
Lance nodded enthusiastically and ate the said M&M. Shiro bit back a smirk as Keith narrowed his eyes and slowly started rising from the couch. "I can and will kill you in your sleep so you better- Shiro. Shiro, stop backing away oh my God-"
Such an innocent question. With such humiliating consequences for Keith.
Pidge was gonna looove this.
#its a rewrite of the m&m fic which i will not be linking because i wrote that months ago and its embarassing so#only rewriting it because i got a request for a part two#me? getting requests? it does happen although it only ever comes from vee lmaooo#anyways enjoy#i do stand by the belief that this one is much better than the original#this is proof i have been writing btw#just saying#voltron#vld#voltron legendary defender#keith kogane#lance mcclain#takashi shirogane#klance#my fics#vld fic#broganes
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The evil slow creep of it being like "haha these will just be quick little side quests, not much effort at all!" and then noticing each one is getting progressively longer than the last, thus no longer being minimal effort.. auGh....
#The jump of 76 for the first one to 275 for the most recent ghghjb#what can I say.. I am.. The Elaborator.. The Detail Giver..#number six will HAVE to be shorter....!!!!!! !!!!#I fear it's going to look this way but opposite with some of the main character quests. The first character I ever worked on. like their#first quest I added wayy to much information and detail and side options and etc.#Once I got done with all their stuff I was like.... if they're all like this I will NEVER finish.. So then I tried to be very short about#it all. EVERY single interaction cannot have 10 branching dialogue and 5 different endings and blah blah blah.. as much as I wish it could.#Hiring a butler to stand over me all day shouting ''NARROW the scope!!!! REDUCE the options!!! CUT the dialogue!!!'' whilst I sob#and hit backspace on everything once every five minutes#But that means probably the first character I worked on will be very obvious because their quests might have a different#feel than the others and be longer.. I just CAN'T make ALL of them that long. but maybe I could choose one..#Like out of the four characters that will have full quests for them upon release.. maybe I can add another one thats long so at least#TWO of them have weirdly long quests and the one first character doesnt seem so singled out lol#I hear this happens in real life professional games as well (like people complaining that X character doesnt have as much#content in an RPG as some other one does. etc.) so.. perhaps my fears about everyting not being exactlyliterally equal#are not even that worrisome or something that's a major factor. Still lol#It's not really that concerning to me anyways from a 'how will people react to it' perspective (very niche game. hardly anyone#will play it i'd assume. its not like thousands of people shall desscend upon me to criticize even if something was weird like that.#it'd be like. out of the 25 people who ever play it. maybe one of them is like 'yeah it was kinda weird that thosequests were so much#longer than the others. but idk' and that's the extent lol). My concern is more like.. Writing time..#the more I add. the longer it takes for me to finish. So if I keep ednlessly making things forever longer and longer. then it becomes The#Forever Project. which it kind of already is. considering I started it in 2018 and then forgot about it for the most part of 5 years and am#only resuming it now LOL.. I cannot bear to add MORE forever onto that which already is quite Forever-ish#If I wrote everything the ideal way I wish it were then I would either need a full team of writers. or I would finish the game in 2085#so.. alas.. cut cut snip snip..#ANYWAY lol
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might have stayed up past my bedtime writing last night and this is all i have to show for it (also the fact that i woke up at 1)
#styx says#come hell or high water#snippets#these are two different sections btw . i originally wrote the first one then when i went to sleep i got tormented by visions so i had to ge#back up and write the other one too orz#anyway these are like. the only funny parts dfghjg the rest is All angst babyyy B]#(sorry elliot i know i said i was gonna go to bed </3 in my defense i got possessed by a fictional character again)
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Just found out my childhood best friend is engaged... logically this makes perfect sense considering she's only a few months younger than me, completely normal thing to happen, but considering she is and will always be either 8 or 15 in my head, this is fucking bizarre.
#we haven't talked since we were 19#since she sad drunk messaged me after we fell out and I replied and never heard back#only found out because I was actually looking up someone else I used to know and clicked onto her facebook by chance#I'm very happy for her I'm just also kinda stunned like#isn't it bizarre that your favourite person in the universe from ages 6 to 19 is going to marry someone they met after you left their life?#and you won't be there? isn't that weird?#yes yes it is#isn't it weird you fell out in part because she stood you up two days before you moved country#after you'd cancelled on your grandmother to make time for her? just to get told you never made time for her?#so you didn't get to say goodbye to either and now it's 9 years later and they're both gone (in different ways)#but you're still here in your kingdom of burned bridges#the passage of time is bizarre. anyway I hope he makes you happy girl#sorry everyone loves that poem I wrote about you#thanks for being my bi awakening
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string lights and sleepovers
okay so once upon a time, like literally ages ago, i reblogged this fun prompt list and wrote all but one prompt i was sent. then Stuff Happened irl and i kind of stopped writing for a little bit entirely, which was not great, but i'm back now!
this is for @michelangelinden, who requested “you looked pretty lonely in there, how about a sleepover in my room tonight?” for willex! i'm sorry it took so long, but i hope you like it! the full thing is over on my ao3, i'll put a link in the reblogs!
Sometimes, when it’s late at night, Alex stares at his wall and wonders when his wallpaper will come to life.
Okay, it sounds weird when you say it like that. He’s not a young woman on bed rest in a Gothic story, after all. Wallpaper coming to life doesn’t tend to happen often. Not to him, at least. No, what Alex means is just that sometimes, he can’t sleep even though he knows he should, and instead of letting himself freak out about that too much, he rolls to his side and starts a staring contest with the fake bricks on his wall and imagines them coming loose one by one and building a tiny castle around his bed so he’ll never have to leave again.
See? It sounds at least a little bit less concerning like that. Maybe. Hopefully.
A light knock on the door startles Alex out of his thoughts. He blinks. Looks like the wall wins that round.
Alex sits up and turns toward the door, looking at the silhouette standing in the door opening.
“Hey,” Willie says, voice pitched low. He sounds sleepy, leaning against Alex’s doorframe. Looks sleepy, too, with his hair gathered in a loose braid and his sleep clothes rumpled. “You okay?”
“Sure,” Alex replies automatically. “Why wouldn’t I be?”
Even in the dim lighting of his bedroom, Alex can see the eyebrow Willie raises at that. It makes him smile. Willie always sees right through him.
#jatp#julie and the phantoms#willex#alex mercer#willie jatp#michelle does things#fic prompts#fun fact i apparently wrote two halves of this like a month ago#they did not match up whatsoever and also i only remember working on like part of one of them#weird stuff#anyway this took some useable bits from one of those halves
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Btw truly the worst part of writing ROTD is remembering where Pumpkin is at all times.
#ROTD#Ok so Pumpkins actual movie counterpart is a dog named Scraps#Kevin = Victor and Dan = Emily#But scraps is only in two scenes in the entire movie#When Emily gives him to Victor#And one brief throw-away that's like three seconds long near the end of the movie#(around chapters 16-18 for comparisons sake) (I'm not sure because I added a chapter)#And it's like. Did Tim Burton forget about him or#And I'm following (for the most part) the pacing of the movie#And when planning I sat down and meticulously wrote out every plot point of the movie after forcing my parents to buy me the DVD#And then I fleshed out the plot points#This took like four days and SEVERAL rewatches of the movie#ANYWAY#BECAUSE SCRAPS ISNT IN ANY OF THESE SCENES (NOT EVEN LIKE. IN THE BACKGROUND) IM CONSTANTLY FORGETTING ABOUT PUMPKIN#WHICH IS BAD BECAUSE SHES MY BABY.#AND IM LIKE SHIT WHERE DID I PUT HER AGAIN#WHERE IS SHE.#The answer btw is that I left her with Gabriel lol
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The female character who moves me the most in recent times is Molly O'Shea. She deserved everything better. I wish more than anything that she could've been happy and had someone who genuinely loved her. Even if that was only a friend.
#I am very much in love with her#shes the only female character who I've ever successfully written x readers for#it used to break my heart the shit people would say about her in the fandom#she was literally the victim of abuse but god forbid her fandom sexyman bf be held accountable for it#no no she must've deserved it 🙄#at least in my canon she escaped with my oc at the end along w Keiran#and they lived all the way into the 1940s together happily#thats how it ended for me 😤#I actually debated whether or not my LA OC knows the adult children of my red ded OC#I mean itd make sense#plus that ties my two r* plots together#however what makes that weird is that Roy is a big part of my rd oc's backstory :)#this is the issue with constantly including the same guy in every story for 5 years#anyway Id die for Molly if I had to#thats the point of this post I wanna kiss her and send her love letters like I did in 1 of the fics I wrote like 3 years ago#sunny speaks#tw abuse mention
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bad memory + pretty alright at poetry = crying when i reread stuff ive written
#oughhh like. this hits so close to home. because it is home and u wrote it dumbass#when i had covid i wrote a piece and part of it was like#'ill tell you a secret. its been two weeks and im still sick. its been sixteen years and im still sick.' AND IF THAT DIDNT FLOOR ME.#'my ribs...work tirelessly for little victories' WHO ARE YOU!!! GET OUT OF MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!#'i want to tell you about it but even saying those words is a death sentence' like . fuck me#i am the fragile insides of the flower and the child tearing it apart. et fucking cetera#IDK SORRY LMAO im like my only fan i have to hype myself up sometimes ......#mannn so much of my work is just so raw and personal and i have convinced myself i can never ever share it </3#idk why i have such a stick up my ass abt it. its like embarrassing? i guess?? and i dont want ppl to worry#but like. THEYRE KINDA GOOD. SORRY.#i think its just awkward bc i have this chill guy persona but im umm tortured. by the ghosts#q dicit#anyways. just thinking abt it. one of these days ill post more poetry
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I’ve been listening to endrinas the language of flowers fic, and in the authors notes of chapter 1 of part three, they mention how the book never explained how Sirius got his wand back, and my immediate reaction was “I always assumed they never bothered to take it off him”.
#anyway point is: new universe hc.#Azkaban is a magic dead zone so#they don’t even bother to take wands of prisoners#in part two endrinas wrote about how lax their security is outside of the cells because of the dementors and prisoners becoming either#completely dispondant or insane and escape isn’t really conceivable#so having their wands still kinda follows that logic I guess#the only magic that can exist are inate ones like creature transformations— lycanthropy and animagus (?) or creator characteristics#ie Being A Dementor or like#being veela or half giant#which are all magical creatures#but being in a magical dead zone wouldn’t mean the complete ceasing of their existence#unless of course we are existing within a universe like stardust where that’s exactly what happens#anyway#fun thoughts#this is a post from like a year ago I never published but also it’s something I think about a lot so here#have it
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If you write fanfiction, how do you get people to care about you as a person as well as your work? What do you need to do? Also, how do you make writer friends for the fandom you're in and meet really cool people who treat you like a celebrity?
um. what
#i think youve got an oximoron or two to sort out there#namely “cool people who treat you like a celebrity”#anyways the short answer is that i dont know.#the long answer is that i started adding ideas to posts in the fandom and got “yes and”-ed into writing actual scenarios.#for the most part the cool fandom writer friends (or at least mutuals) came before the writing fanfiction#but ive tried a little bit of community participation with things like WIP Wednsday (which im way behind on) and that one fic exchange#so that probabhopefully helps.#as for getting people to care about me and/or my work? no fuckin clue how that came about.#especially since i tend to avoid posting about myself (because im afraid of doxxers) and ive barely posted any of the stuff ive written.#now. i might be overstepping the privacy of anon asks. and/or the bounds of my meager intellect.#so forgive me if im assuming wrong#but if youre who i think you are?#youve got nothing to worry about on this front.#ive seen you around enough to know youve got a few people in your corner already.#and while im not exactly in the target demographic for the only work of yours im aware of#im still glad you wrote it.#and im sure that the ones whove read it are even gladder.#so keep it up!
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Ok so I first wrote a mess in the tags but by the end of it I realized the actual answer, for me, is not just following impulses for who I want to play but also: spreadsheets.
My boyfriend and I make spreadsheets almost as a hobby. We have... a lot of alts, so to make it easier we have spreadsheets for things like which alts we've done holiday events on, and which trade-able cosmetics we've unlocked on who so we can pass extras around without having to log into everyone to check (not that I collect anything in a completionist sense with so many alts).
I also made a spreadsheet that lets us mark which WT stickers we need that week and it will flag which ones we have in common with each others alts so we can pair them off to do them more efficiently if we want.
I realize it's excessive but it's a kind of fun project and I love all of my characters and my bf dearly so playing with them no matter who I'm on or with is fun and there's always something to do.
people who have alts on ffxiv
how do you do it /g
#i have 19 characters#but some are concepts i havent developed past lvl 15 and others are npcs#so the real number is 11#and of those 11 i only work on 6 regularly and of those 6 only three i consider to be WoLs#i stay on top of it by playing with my boyfriend (most of our characters pair off into duos for leveling/questing)#i tend to focus on very specific things i want to do on very specific characters based on their stories/personality/etc#like example: Rat is my main and original WoL and he is also from a family of woodworkers in ishgard#so it was very very very important to me that he be not only saint of the firmament but also number 1 on ranking for carpentry#and other alts i will aim for very specific glams or hairstyles. ill pass things on my 'main's to give to my alts if it fits them better#the less played alts still get dragged out for every holiday event - so during that time i glam them and gpose and adore them#rhika was shelved for years as a holiday alt. she is a heel at the uldah arena so seeing the arcadion got me wanting to play her REALLY BAD#so now im working on her#but mostly its just playing 1-2 mains and 2-3 alts and rotating who those 2-3 alts are#i also dont raid so theres that#the part that isnt fun though? ive done island sanctuary 4 times. i plan to do it at least two more times..........#re-aquiring some glamours and cosmetics is just needlessly tedious... this game is violently hostile toward players who enjoy alts#but i do it anyway because my characters are who they are#im the polar opposite of whatever is going on with fant addicts#the alt addict#i had to stop being a completionist. i dont want to do everythign on everyone#i just want to do what each character needs and is true for their character#sometimes that means saint of the firmament or farming a cassie earring or sometimes it just means grinding a specific mogtome or pvp rewar#choosing what to do and letting go of completionism is what let me do it tho#the only reason it wasnt an issue in wow was because rewards were all account-wide. SE catch up please gods#idk why i wrote all this in the tags...#im sleepy and cant formulate a proper response#also spreadsheets#we have so... so so many spreadsheets to track things for our characters it is. its a hobby.
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