#only smart thing i can come up with is rafe being dorian gray but if he had low self esteem and believe the paintings | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

futuremrscameron · 2 days ago

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many thoughts (positive)

so often i think about how when rafe gets fucked, he lets it happen like a burden. like it’s genuinely painful for someone to want to entangle themselves so intimately within him. like he isn’t all muscled limbs and sharp cheekbones and pink lips, something grotesque and gnarly instead. he has an inclination to hide his face: under a sinewy forearm, pushed into a sweaty pillow. mute his voice completely. he would erase his own existence if the pleasure he was feeling wasn’t so palpable, and his passive reception any less than tolerated— usually another hand coming to knock his own forearm away, or tugging at loose brown strands to pull his head up, oppress a reaction out of him even if it’ll make him cry afterwards.

#only smart thing i can come up with is rafe being dorian gray but if he had low self esteem and believe the paintings #were how he looked not just on the inside but the outside too #also rafe is weird about sex #he doesn’t particularly like it though he does get pleasure from it #he feels like it’s something he has to do because he’s a man but he doesn’t care for it unless it’s to keep his image #not to make this about rafebarry but….#he actually enjoys fucking barry cause barry sees him for what he truly is #in rafe’s eyes a rabid dog that needs a firm hand and discipline #cough cough like his dad does cough cough #he doesn’t need to worry about keeping the facade of kook king rafe cameron who is an upstanding citizen (pre s1) around barry #obviously later on in the seasons barry starts seeing him as a fragile puppy that bites people to get affection/attention #but that’s neither here nor there #tldr; rafe doesn’t care for sex but hates himself and wants to be punished so he lets barry fuck him however he wants unfortunately he likes #it which makes him hate himself more and he lashes out at barry which leads to him being punished (read:fucked) and it’s a cycle #rafe likes knowing where he stands with people #thinking thoughts💭

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