#onlince classes SUCK

[horrorwebs]

im sorry i cant do the online classes i have bitch baby disease

[straighttxhell]

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Tagging: I’d tag dramaposting but she was already tagged so lmao no one cuz i still dont talk to anyone here

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My sleep schedule is the messiest thing you’ll ever see, these days I go to bed around 7am and will wake up until 2 or 3pm. When I was still in onlince classes I would have class from 7am to 1pm, so as soon as class finished I would pass out, wake up at 5pm, have my only meal of the day and do homework until 7am. I ended up losing like 8 kilograms with online classes.

I’m so mad I’m such an introvert, I want to party but I don’t know how lmao, I can’t socialize without getting extremely uncomfortable and wanting to leave, everytime I try to leave the house and socialize with more than 3 persons I end up replaying Here by Alessia Cara in my head over and over again.

I really love drawing but I kind of suck at it and cry a lot over young artists being crearly better than me but oh well. Anyway, I figured out to not push myself to draw and practice if I don’t want to because I just end up drawing worse.

I hate physical contact. I’m very picky with who touches me and it’s gotten to a point where I don’t let my dad or my sister hug me. I hate it when people hug me cuz they feel like it, I don’t like getting hugged, I hate mouth kisses because all my previous experiences with that have sucked terribly. It’s a bit selfish but if I want to hug someone then it’s okay but if I don’t, then no. But consent amirite???

This one is way darker than the previous so I apologize about that. I’ve always dealt with depressive episodes and I’m kinda used to them. But what gets the worst of me are always stress and anxiety thoughts, I suck at handling stress so must of the times I’ll end up harming myself to relieve stress. Anyway, that dialed down a lot when I ended the semester but my depressive thoughts have come back and right now I guess you could say I’m having suicidal thoughts. I’m mainly writing this for myself so I can look back in the future and know that I got out of this. But yes, I am dealing with suicidal thoughts right now, my brain just likes making me think a lot about the idea and don’t worry, I’m not getting anything done but it still bothers me quite a lot.

Thanks for tagging me and sorry for making the points so damn dark. 💖

[crazydamnrebel]

If I have only given a chance to go back from the past, I will study harder coz it really suck right now how the system of onlince class are much harder than the face to face, I really cried everynight to the point that I’m seeing myself as a useless bitch that didn’t know much faster and a slow witted one.