#oneawkwardcookie

[aashiqeddiediaz]

of biting goodbyes

she's back with ill-advised tragic i-don't-want-you-to-go sex and angsty feels.

Pairing: Evan “Buck” Buckley/Eddie Diaz

Rating: E

Chapter: 1/1

Word Count: 5,524 words

Snippet:

“Buck.” Eddie reaches up to cup his face, tilting their heads back so he can look Buck in the eye, his gaze unguarded for the first time since Eddie told him he was moving to El Paso. He doesn’t like the despair that lives there, but he knows that it’s the same one that lives in his chest right now, the same serrated feeling that’s been tearing him apart since the day Christopher walked out the door. Somehow, this feels like acid on a wound that refuses to heal. He reads the desire in Buck’s eyes, the desperation that lives there. He sees the way Buck’s eyes track all over the walls in the same way Eddie’s had been doing only minutes ago. And he realizes that Buck feels the same way he does. That maybe they’re together in this, too — realizing when it’s far too late to do anything significant about it. But then—  Buck tilts his head, moving closer like he’s about to kiss Eddie, and Eddie tightens his grip on his face, his brow creasing. “Buck, we can’t,” Eddie says quietly, his thumb circling the bolt of his best friend’s jaw. Buck’s cheek jumps against his fingertips when he grits his teeth, but Eddie doesn’t let up with the soothing movements, fingers tracing and memorizing the planes of his face. “Give me this. Just once,” Buck pleads, his eyes falling shut for a brief second as he pulls Eddie in closer. “Please, Eddie, please .” He knows what Buck wants. He knows the absolute fucking irony of both of them being on the same page at this moment, less than 12 hours before Eddie gets on a plane to leave his life behind. He knows this is a bad idea. He knows that there will be nothing left of him once he gives in to Buck. Knows that this is a step they will never come back from. “You’ll hate me tomorrow, Buck,” Eddie whispers, leaning up to press his mouth to the birthmark that steals his attention 90% of the time.

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[alkaysani]

LOU FERRIGNO JR. as TOMMY KINARD - 9-1-1: "MASKS"

[deadpoets]

CASSIAN ANDOR & JYN ERSO ROGUE ONE (2016) dir. Gareth Edwards ☆ happy (belated) birthday to the so vv lovely sissi @andorerso <3

[henwilsons]

SUPERNATURAL 1.22 — Devil's Trap

[bieddiediaz]

i miss the seasons in missouri / my dying town

[fabines]

[reedsues]

@swsource​ star wars week: day 6 – may the 4th be with you!

the force is with me... and i am one with the force.

[raviposting]

DEAN WINCHESTER & EDDIE DIAZ PARALLELS ↳ Alternatively:

[Image ID under the cut]

GIF 1: A square gif of Dean Winchester from Supernatural 10x16. He is in a confessional booth, and the light from the confessional booth is shining on him, causing a crosshatch pattern to show across his face. He looks sad, saying: "There's things, there's…people, feelings, that I-I-I want to experience differently than I have before, or maybe even for the first time."

GIF 2: A gif of Eddie Diaz in 911 8x06. He is in a confessional booth, red orange toned, and he looks guilty. He looks down and then up, as he says: "I put my desires before his needs."

GIF 3: A gif of Dean in Supernatural 1x18. He is in a blue-green denim jacket and he looks down, saying: "He gave me an order and I didn't listen, I almost got you killed." Sam, offscreen, says: ["You were just a kid."]

GIF 4: A gif of Eddie in 911 5x17. He is in a black shirt, speaking angrily to his father (offscreen). Eddie says: "Why don't you tell them about the time you pulled your 10 year old son aside and told him it was time to step up, be the man of the house?"

GIF 5: A gif of Dean and Jack Kline in Supernatural 15x11. Dean cups Jack's face, searching his eyes, while Jack looks back at him.

GIF 6: A gif of Eddie and Christopher Diaz in 911 3x04. Eddie is speaking to Christopher and making eye contact with him, and puts his hands on Chris's shoulder.

GIF 7: A gif of Dean from Supernatural 4x10. It is close up on his face, and his eyes are teary, and he's shaking his head. He says: "How I feel...This...inside me...I wish I couldn't feel anything, Sammy. I wish I couldn't feel a damn thing." As he speaks, a tear rolls down his cheek.

GIF 8: A gif of Eddie in 911 5x13. It is a close up of his face, and Eddie's face is red from crying. There are tears in his eyes and he shakes his head. Buck, offscreen, asks: ["What are you afraid of?"] and Eddie replies: "That I'm never gonna feel normal again."

GIF 9: A gif of Aaron and Dean in Supernatural 8x13. Aaron is sitting at a rounded table with a drink. He awkwardly touches his nose and says: "I thought we had [...] a little 'eye magic' moment [...] I figured I'd wait until you were done with your meeting and then maybe we might..." Dean nods slightly and says: "Yeah. Uh, okay but no - uh, no moment."

GIF 10: A gif of Eddie and Father Brian from 911 8x06. They are outside, sitting at the juice bar table. The priest sips his coffee and says "You come here often?" Eddie leans in and waves his hand defensively, saying, "Oh, uh, listen uh, no offense, I'm straight."

GIF 11: A gif of Lisa Braeden and Dean hugging in 5x22. Lisa holds onto Dean, closing her eyes, and readjusts her hand to hug him tighter. Dean closes his eyes and leans in closer.

GIF 12: A gif of Kim and Eddie hugging in 7x09. Kim holds onto Eddie, readjusting her hands to hold him tighter. Eddie's eyes are closed and he's leaned in close to Kim.

GIF 13: A close up gif of Dean in Supernatural 3x10. He is listening to Dream Dean (offscreen), who says: ["He knew what you were. A good soldier and nothing else."]

GIF 14: A gif of Eddie in 911 5x15. He is on a hospital bed with a lot of wounds and bandages and looks weary. Offscreen, someone says: ["You got them all out. Staff Sergeant Diaz...you did good."]

GIF 15: A gif of Castiel and Dean from Supernatural 10x22. Dean's face is bloody, and he looks up at Cas, who is holding a knife. Dean says "We need you. I need you." Cas starts slowly moving the knife away.

GIF 16: A gif of Buck and Eddie in 911 4x14. They are at the hospital, Buck in a mustard button up and Eddie in a black tee shirt. Eddie looks forward, saying to Buck: "You act like you're expendable, but you're wrong." Buck looks at him when he hears this.

GIF 17: A gif of Dean in Supernatural 10x16. He is at the confessional booth, and he speaks for a moment before stopping. The shot of Dean is obscured by the pattern of the confessional booth.

GIF 18: A gif of Eddie in 911 8x06. He is at the confessional booth, and he speaks for a moment before stopping. The shot of Eddie is obscured by the pattern of the confessional booth.

CAPTION IMAGE: A screenshot of a discord message stating: "They’re the same person. Tragically, Dean was born in a show created in a pre-Glee world."

/end image ID

[olisgifs]

I need you, you know that. I need you too.

[danburys]

BRIDGERTON SEASON 3, EPISODE 4

[dailyflicks]

SUPERNATURAL 2.22 — All Hell Breaks Loose: Part Two

[aashiqeddiediaz]

hot priest: oh, believe me my son, there's nothing i haven't heard. narrator: there was, in fact, something he hadn't heard.

(this show is a comedy afjdksfjalsf)

[ID: three gifs of Eddie Diaz with the priest in a confessional box.

GIF 1: Eddie staring off into space as he tells the priest, "Came home and found me with his dead mother." about Christopher.

GIF 2: The priest's smile fading into shock as he listens to Eddie's confession.

GIF 3: Eddie looking towards the partition, stammering out an explanation, saying "She wasn't his actual mother, she just looked like her. I mean, exactly like her."

/end ID]

[alkaysani]

darling, i am smitten with you

[deadpoets]

ROGUE ONE (2016) dir. Gareth Edwards

[henwilsons]

SUPERNATURAL 1.22 — Devil's Trap

[bieddiediaz]

come here.

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