#one of my uncles isn’t doing well atm and it’s also coincidentally the one who abused me and I’m like. @ the universe do not do the

[dykesynthezoid]

Sometimes there are too many coincidences in life not to make you superstitious even when you know that it is a very silly thing

Basically. In the fall/winter of 2014 and the fall/winter of 2019, both times I had two family members die within a month of each other. I haven’t had a family member die outside of those times, not since I was a child/didn’t really have a concept of grief. It’s just been those occurrences.

And then I got a text from my dad this morning letting me know one of my uncles (by marriage) has passed. And on its own it’s not terribly upsetting bc we weren’t really close at all. But unfortunately I know I’m going to spend the the next three months feeling like the other shoe is about to drop. Which is frustrating bc I know that it’s not logical and I know that I’m not actually ~cursed or anything and it’s all probably just a bunch of coincidences. But it’s still there. And I don’t know what to do with it