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Breast implants can be haunted and/or cursed just like any other object. People don't realize this and it always comes back to bite them in the clit

Can you come off anon and talk better yet start a podcast with me

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interview with the vampire (2022-ongoing) // big little lies (2017-2019)

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You ever forget about some ocs you have and then go ohhhh that’s right I made that little guy. Throwback to when I was wanting to create an immortal jewish character but felt very cognizant of the myth of the wandering jew and so decided an interesting subversion would be if this guy was an agoraphobe who hadn’t left his archival bunker since the crusades. And honestly yeah idk I might’ve been cooking there

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Yknow what’s crazy is I’ve generally attributed any feelings of physical fragmentation and bodily disconnectedness to the combination of hypermobile joints and chronic pain (and also psychological aspects like dissociation), and, therefore, the way they impact the conceptual relationship with the body— but bc connective tissue disorders can lead to more easily damaging nerve tissue (most commonly resulting in peripheral neuropathies) it’s like ohhh that is probably also a factor.

Specifically, issues w proprioception are v common in eds and other related disorders, but it’s interesting to consider that these issues are coming from not just the abnormal ways in which a hypermobile body tends to move and adapt, but are occurring in part bc of literal nerve damage.

Like how many times can I temporarily compress a nerve or easily give myself parethesias without causing actual lasting damage? I know it’s causing some lasting damage bc once I’ve compressed a nerve, it gets even easier to compress it again; seemingly for forever. Little pieces of the web of nerve connections in my body are being damaged. Exactly like a low-level fragmentation.

Ofc the upside is that some degree of that can absolutely be healed. Perhaps never back to 100%, but those connections can be strengthened and improved with the various exercises that improve proprioception (as well as safeguarding and taking necessary precautions to prevent further damage). Which ofc is all easier said than done, especially with a body that’s not great at healing to begin with. But the potential is there.

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“One major concept on the origin of hallucinations is the idea that hallucinating individuals may misattribute internally generated speech (or sensory stimuli) as coming from an external source. Interestingly, Blakemore and colleagues suggested that looking at why you can't tickle yourself may provide a window on this phenomenon. They propose that our experience of a self-generated tactile or other stimulus (e.g., tickling yourself) is attenuated compared with an externally generated stimulus (e.g., being tickled by someone else) because we anticipate the sensory consequences of a self-generated stimulus.

“They showed that healthy controls experienced self-tickling as less intense or tickly than tactile stimulation by an experimenter. In contrast, participants with auditory hallucinations or passivity phenomena (i.e., loss of the sense of boundary between self and others) did not discriminate between the 2 types of stimuli. The underlying mechanisms for such misattribution of self-generated acts are not yet understood. It has been hypothesized that such deficits in self-monitoring arise from a lack of connectivity between brain regions that initiate an act and regions that perceive the sensory consequences of the act (i.e., a failure of corollary discharge mechanisms).

“In support of this concept, several studies have found evidence for reduced functional frontotemporal connectivity in patients with schizophrenia who were asked to speak or complete sentences, and this was particularly pronounced in those with auditory hallucinations. Blakemore and colleagues have provided experimental evidence that another required element enabling one to discriminate between self-produced and external stimuli is the correct placement of sensory stimuli in space and time. Recent studies have indicated that individuals with schizophrenia, particularly those exhibiting passivity symptoms, show deficits in judging time intervals, and it is hypothesized that this may contribute to dysregulated temporal coordination of information.”

from this editorial article in the journal of psychology and neuroscience, by Patricia Boksa

this is so fucking interesting actually. like holy shit.

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I remember learning about the third man phenomenon for the first time and being like oh I mean I experience a mild version of that kind of voice in my head all the time, isn’t that normal? I thought everyone was like that. And it’s like no babygirl you actually have a dissociative disorder. Hope this helps

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hate when people are like "trust your gut! listen to your intuition!" like okay well my gut is telling me every person i lay eyes on is hunting me for sport and my intuition is saying i should find a secluded cave and live there forever so what do you suggest i do with that information

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One really awesome thing about being a Jew is how widely accepted it is in our people that we all have very complicated and personal feelings about the idea of a god, or any sort of religious concept at all. I love being able to explore my own beliefs as a person who doesn’t believe in a higher power, and I fucking love seeing those beliefs represented in so many Jews, in so many theological Jewish sects and schools of thoughts, in so many centuries of Jewish history. Judaism is all about those in-betweens, it’s all about complex ideas and shades of greys and personal understandings of life

Above all else, there’s always a search in Judaism for meaning, for purpose, for the human experience. And wether that manifest itself into ideas of a tangible higher power, or some vague feeling of something making existence meaningful (like for me!) or anything in between or outside of that— it’s all accepted, it’s all genuine and okay and valid interpretations of Jewish beliefs. And it’s also accepted to not believe in any sort of spirituality or religion, or to not know, or to not care! We’re all just Jews and we’re all just walking through the world together! I just love it so much, words escape me when I think about it

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sorry i was passionate & intense & insane. it will happen again

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I love pretending to be normal in social settings bc it’s like how long will it take until they find out a screw is absolutely loose. how long can I keep this going for

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say something funny

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Daniel Craig explaining Luca Guadagnino what a snowball kiss is.

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we need more jerk off scenes but ones that are depressing, pathetic, and lame. I wanna see the next it boy sobbing and stroking his shit face down

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The Four Sacred Artistic Motives:

-what if this bad thing was good instead

-how about Make-Believe Land can have whatever I want

-would that be fucked up or what

-I think that shit's hot

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“Somehow we slowly realized that we had to create our own promised land, that from now on we would be responsible for our own lives, and that there would no longer be any convenient excuse is with which to ease our troubled consciences. Democracy is not like an unexpected gift that comes without effort. It must be fought for. And that is what makes it so difficult.”

— Slavenka Drakulić (via mariacallous)

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One of my biggest anthropology-derived pet peeves is when people call any society that’s matrilineal or even just mildly egalitarian a “matriarchy.” I am bonking you on the head for that one. Like wow it’s so crazy that when you go to look at the actual political leadership in these cultures the people in power are still largely men. Like woahhhhh that’s so wild dude. It’s almost like you saw a community where women are granted a modicum more respect than in your own and you immediately decided that was the same thing as if Women Did Patriarchy. And also the collective “you” had already imperialism’d that community into at least partly relying on exploitative tourism to sustain themselves all so you get to cannibalize their culture while you giggle and joke about the fetishized narrative you’ve made up in your own head bc you refuse to conceptualize the idea of empowered women without objectifying them into something you can get off to. But that’d be crazy haha.

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partygoer: I miss tumblr

girl who has at least 20 hours screentime on tumblr per week: yeah me too crazy how no one uses it anymore