#one million kissies for the devs

[madamemiz]

votv is really clever in how it makes you care about dr. kel as a protagonist despite that he barely has a tangible presence in the game

for the first few days, aside from a name in an email, you don't have much to go on. there are what appear to be fun/nerdy stickers on his suitcase and he brought emergency toilet paper and a plushy with him to his solitary job in the middle of nowhere. so he's maybe a bit practical, a little quirky, but those are just crumbs of information, and these sort of first person games tend to lean a little more on the self-insert side anyway. without much else to go on, the next handful of quiet days proceed with you easily slipping into his shoes, forgetting he exists as the protagonist. you're doing the job, you're cleaning your base, you're getting creeped out by every random noise. you live here now. the game is clever about making you care about the base too, but that's a post for another day

time passes, and little by little, you notice small details that add up. the strange and specific nightmares about work and drowning and mannequins. the roaches you can eat with no ill effects that give you a food boost to boot. the clumsy tendency to trip and fall over pretty much anything, the pickiness over food

you save up enough to get a kerfur, have the bright idea to check their camera while they're in the room with you, and there you see it in the camera; not you, but him. maybe he looks the way you imaged, maybe he looks completely different, but suddenly you're very aware that dr. kel exists

then you start to get a glimpse of how other people perceive him--croissants snuck on the drone for him by a friend who brags about her cooking, sushi snuck to you by another friend who calls him an asshole and says she misses him, both of whom are presumably his colleagues and both of whom seem worried for him. the smiling plushie of him the arirals gift if he gets on their good side, their note calling him cute attached to it along with an ominius offer of help in bad times. kerfur calling him a dumbass if he makes them do the reports twice, but also leaning down to his eye level to happily get pets

he's endearing in an odd sort of way, and people in-universe care about him. you start to care about him, which makes it all the more troubling when he makes pained sounds when he falls from too high, or starts coughing out of the blue. makes you wince when he falls off the radio tower or gets launched from the atv. makes it downright horrifying when he's caught by a wisp and torn apart limb by limb while you as the player can do nothing but watch

you find yourself wanting him to succeed, to be safe, to get out of the situation he's found himself in. or at least, i do. there isn't a ton to go on aside from some environmental storytelling and a breadcrumb trail of personality tidbits, but I personally find that trail to lead to an interesting and compelling character with enough wiggle room for further interpretation. i'm very excited to see what else we learn in future updates

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TMI

I decided to answer all of these because I have no followers yet and I just wanted to.

1.Who was the last person you held hands with? my mom probably 2. Are you outgoing or shy? somewhere in between 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? my friend, Tom, at lunch 4. Are you easy to get along with? sometimes, I’m stubborn 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? I like no one 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? people who are socially aware and genuine 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? hah 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? my friend because I’ll see him tomorrow and I haven’t seen him in years 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? No, I’m comfortable with my sexuality 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? don’t recall 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? a kissy face emoji to my best friend 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Slide- Calvin Harris, Cringe-Matt Maeson, Redbone-Childish Gambino, Feel it Still-Portugal the Man, Devil Like Me- Rainbow Kitten Suprise 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? luuuv it 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? ehh I believe in the law of attraction though 15. What good thing happened this summer? I got my first job 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? not in a million years 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? probably but it freaks me out 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? I sometimes talk to my first “boyfriend” 19. Do you like bubble baths? luv em, makes me feel like a kid 20. Do you like your neighbors? some of them, one of them is nosy 21. What are you bad habits? oh boy. One of them is biting my nails. 22. Where would you like to travel? Spain, I’m half Spaniard. 23. Do you have trust issues? yeah, thanks to my last relationship 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? rose hip oil 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? my boobs 26. What do you do when you wake up? go back to sleep 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? sometimes I wish I was more tan but I’m happy with myself and everyone should feel content with their skin. 28. Who are you most comfortable around? my mom 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? once but then they did it again so 30. Do you ever want to get married? if it’s the right time and person 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? yeah 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? dev patel and shay mitchell 33. Spell your name with your chin. szazb 34. Do you play sports? What sports? nope, I’ve tried every sport under the moon 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? definitely 37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing, I let it linger until we suffocate from the silence 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? educated, honest, loyal, compassionate 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? pacsun, tilly’s, h&m 40. What do you want to do after high school? go to college and study who knows what 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? some do, some don’t 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? that I’m thinking or uncomfortable 43. Do you smile at strangers? yeah 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? neither, both are terrifying to me. if i had to choose I’d say the ocean because space is just too much. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? my terrible attendance 46. What are you paranoid about? ghosts 47. Have you ever been high? a few times 48. Have you ever been drunk? nope 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? not really 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? grey 51. Ever wished you were someone else? sure, most people have 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my acne scars 53. Favourite makeup brand? ABH or NYX 54. Favourite store? target, ulta 55. Favourite blog? I like studyblrs 56. Favourite colour? green or blue, I actually don’t know 57. Favourite food?  mac n cheese, tacos, carne asada fries 58. Last thing you ate? a popsicle 59. First thing you ate this morning? eggs, a bagel, and sausage 60. Ever won a competition? For what? The spelling bee, Mock Trial 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? never, I’m a goody two shoes 62. Been arrested? For what? nope 63. Ever been in love? no 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? It was my best friend at the time’s brother and we flipped a coin to decide. 65. Are you hungry right now? nope, I just ate 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? I have none 67. Facebook or Twitter? Twitter 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Twitter 69. Are you watching tv right now? no 70. Names of your bestfriends? Caro, Susy, Mari, Luz, Jenny, Jess, Elizabeth, Bri 71. Craving something? What? nothing 72. What colour are your towels? pink 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 1-2 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? two or three 75. Favourite animal? a panda or dogs 76. What colour is your underwear? ..... 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? mint chocolate chip 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? grey and black 80. What colour pants? grey 81. Favourite tv show? atm it’s Shameless 82. Favourite movie? The Dark Knight 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? #1 of course 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21 Jump Street 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Gretchen 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? the turtles 87. First person you talked to today? my mom 88. Last person you talked to today? the groupchat with my best friends 89. Name a person you hate? I dislike a kid in my classes who is racist 90. Name a person you love? my mom 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? the above kid 92. In a fight with someone? no 93. How many sweatpants do you have? two or three 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? three-four 95. Last movie you watched? Lion, I highly recommend 98. Do you tan a lot? I tan when I’m in the sun for longer than 30 minutes 99. Have any pets? a female teripoo named Georgie 100. How are you feeling? a little stressed but okay 101. Do you type fast? I’m probably average 102. Do you regret anything from your past? most things in life serve as valuable lessons 103. Can you spell well? yes 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? no 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? yeah, they’re my favorite 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? maybe 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yeah 108. What should you be doing? doing homework 109. Is something irritating you right now? not really 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? definitely 111. Do you have trust issues? 100% 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? my mom 113. What was your childhood nickname? Sammy 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Yeah to Arizona and Washington 115. Do you play the Wii? a tennis pro 116. Are you listening to music right now? no 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yes 118. Do you like Chinese food? yes 119. Favourite book? hard to pick 120. Are you afraid of the dark? yes 121. Are you mean? I’m sort of blunt and really sarcastic 122. Is cheating ever okay? no, just end the relationship 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? nope 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? No, you can’t know a person by looking at them 125. Do you believe in true love? maybe 126. Are you currently bored? is there any other reason for answering 150 questions no one asked for? 127. What makes you happy? a 4.0 gpa 128. Would you change your name? no, I like my name 129. What your zodiac sign? Pisces 130. Do you like subway? yeah, it’s pretty good 133. Favourite lyrics right now? “She said my spirit doesn’t move like it did before” 134. Can you count to one million? no 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed, I don’t play with ghosts 137. How tall are you? 5′6 138. Curly or Straight hair? on me? wavy 139. Brunette or Blonde? brunette 140. Summer or Winter? summer 142. Favourite month? October, Halloween is in the air 143. Are you a vegetarian? no, but I’ve tried 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? I’m not a huge chocolate fan, but white 145. Tea or Coffee? tea, coffee makes me anxious 146. Was today a good day? it was okay 147. Mars or Snickers? snickers 148. What’s your favourite quote? “We stopped searching for the monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside us.” 149. Do you believe in ghosts? yes 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line? It’s my mom’s bible, it says “I am above all things: your problems, your pain, and the swirling events in this ever-changing world”