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ngl i get that people hype up hating writing for the bit but like. idk. yall i Do actually really like writing. it is so satisfying and fun and rewarding and i get to look back what i made over and over again and get joy every single time.
yes writing is hard but if you hate it more than you love it im kinda like. idk. find another hobby?
#also the planning parts and the daydreaming is part of the process so idk#yall it is getting exhausting seeing all the quirky see how little iām writing shit#like what if for once i am writing and im having a grand time!!#what if not being able to write isnāt a fun joke it is honestly detrimental to my brain!!!#what if writing has been my friend when i never had any and it is the love of my life and love language and i love actually doing it perhap#talking#ren hot cakes
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Hey folks i am DE-recomending Reedsy now :) because you have to pay for a bunch of features now :) that were previously free :)) and also they don't even work properly half the time so why would you even PAY to use them :)) if anyone has a different place to write, i'd greatly appreciate it because i have to move everything over to a new place now. Also i refuse to use anything that includes AI in any way, shape, or form
#reedsy#fucking sellouts#ābuy my product!ā when i can handwrite if it really comes down to it?#do they want me to start writing in the ao3 draft space?#cause i'll fucking do it#i'll live on the edge like that#y'all won't even know the word count anymore we'll be rawdogging it#what's the word count? who knows anymore.#everytime a pay to use tier is added to something another baby dies#they're killing our babies#maybe i can make people actually believe that and we can get rid of this shit once and for all#since they care about the babies SO much#sorry im so mad about this im biting everything in sight#writing#writing tools#writing help#if it's overly complicated i likely won't use it :/
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"WHERE IS DARRY?" Soda is on his feet before the screen door slams, Steve jumpin' off the sofa beside him.
"What is it, Pony?" Pony rounds the corner with a wide, crazed grin 'n Darry comes barrelin' down the hall. "What's wrong?"
"Darry- they fuckin' broke up!" A brief wave of confusion passes across the panicked plains of Darry's face before his jaw drops open in delighted shock.
"No." He snatches Pony's arm, leads him back into the kitchen 'n plops down at the table. "Carrie-Ann? Are you sure?" Darry leans forwards, elbows on his knees, eagerly. Pony cackles at havin' got exactly the reaction he wanted.
Steve shoots Soda a glance 'n Soda rolls his eyes fondly, crashin' back down onto the sofa. Steve shuffles around the arm, clearly listenin' in but tryin' to be the nosy allegations. "What are they on about?"
Soda cranks the volume of the TV waves a hand dismissively. "Some couple at school. God, you would think their lives depended on it the way they talk about it."
"Hush, from the peanut gallery in there." Darry shushes him from the kitchen 'n Soda wiggles his eyebrows.
"Not our fault you don't got the attention span for a good story." Soda clutches his hand to his chest in mock offense 'n it's Pony's turn to roll his eyes.
"Wait, Carrie-Ann 'n Tommy? Ain't they been goin' together for a couple years now?" Steve stops pretendin' to be indifferent, drifts into the kitchen.
"Steve, not you too!" Darry splits into a grin and Soda sticks his tongue out.
"Yeah! But only 'cause she told him she was pregnant last year! He was gonna leave I swear! I heard Jerry tell Susan in my math class." Steve scrunches his face up and Pony shakes his head earnestly.
"Well, it would serve him right. Tommy was in my English and he'd bat those stupid eyes at anythin' that moved- even when he was pinned. That Carrie girl deserved better." Steve hops up onto the counter with a firm nod 'n Soda throws himself dramatically across the couch with a groan.
The back door swings open 'n Dallas appears in the living room, glancin' into the impromptu gatherin' around the table. "Woah woah woah, y'all talkin' about me? I'm sure it's all good shit."
He ducks over to Soda, jabbin' him in the ribs and slidin' out of the way when Soda kicks at him. He misses but rolls off the couch and dives for Dallas' knees. Dally goes down hard and Soda howls his laughter.
"Nah, one of the couples up at school broke it off." Steve leans dangerously far over Pony 'n snatches one of the grandma candies Darry loves so much from the bowl.
"Who?"
"Dallas!" But they all knew it was a lost cause. If Darry 'n Pony were drama fiends, Dallas was a hound for the stuff. He was always showin' up with some new juicy tidbit. Sometimes Soda would swear Pony loved Dallas more than him solely for the fact Dallas seemed to have his nose in everythin'.
"Carrie-Ann 'n-"
"Tommy? No fuckin' way." Dallas detangles himself from Soda, shoves Steve over, 'n climbs up onto the counter. Soda shoots him a glare he misses entirely. He flops flat onto the floor, tucks his hands under his head, and refocuses on the beach flick. Or tries to.
"I heard she cheated on him." Dallas leans forward conspiratorially and Pony 'n Darry's jaws fall open in twin shocked expressions.
"No way, really!"
"I'm sorry, you're sayin' Carrie cheated on him?" Dallas raises an eyebrow haughtily and leans back on his hands.
"Swear to God."
"Wait." All four heads swivel to Soda as he sits back up, somethin' prickin' at his memory. "Tommy. Tommy Dil- somethin' right? His daddy owns the car lot close to the river, yeah?"
"Dilon, yeah." Darry leans so he can better see Soda through the door at the same time Pony says,
"Yeah, the one that looks like a Soc 'n talks like a greaser but ain't either." And Steve leans traitorously far again and adds,
"The one that thinks he's a lady-killer but nobody wants him but Carrie." Dallas puts both hands on Steve's back 'n pushes him over so he can get a good look at Soda and hoots,
"Not even his mama wanted his busted ass. That's why he only lives with his dad." Steve shoves him off and Pony momentarily whips back around with wide eyes.
"Wait, really?" Darry bats him up the side of his head, the shit talkin' goin' a hair too far for him, apparently.
"What is it, Soda?" Steve quickly redirects the focus back to him before Pony can whine 'n Soda forgets what he was gonna say completely.
"I saw him at the Dingo with Cheryl last week. 'N they weren't just holdin' hands if I'm being delicate." He wiggles his eyebrows 'n the tips of Pony's ears go all red. Dallas howls and grabs Steve who is so bewildered he forgets to shake him off.
"Cheryl? Ain't no way! I never would have-"
"Ain't she goin' with Benny?"
"Man, I thought she was catholic-"
"I swore she didn't come to this side of town- didn't wanna dirty those damn gogo boots-"
"Soda." Darry fixes his middle brother with a look that could pin him straight to the wall. Soda blinks big, innocent eyes at him. "That true?"
"Hell no." He splits into a big mischievous grin and Pony lets out an indignant wail, launchin' himself out of his chair 'n onto Soda. Soda flips him onto his back easily but Steve is on top of him before he can blink, jabbin' him in the ticklish spot under his ribs so Pony can wriggle out.
"Since when are you 'n Pony on the same side?"
"Since now! Get 'em Pone!" Steve pins Soda's arms above his head and Pony goes to town ticklin' every place he knows will make Soda holler until he's red in the face. Soda rips one hand free and Dallas comes up behind Steve, liftin' him straight off the ground with the kind of wiry strength they all forgot Dallas had.
Darry instantly takes up Pony 'n Steve's side 'n it doesn't take long until there are no sides at all- just them all rollin' around and laughin' so hard their sides all ache.
"You know, I think I get it now- that drama shit is fun!"
#AGH!!#actually having fun writing the sillies for them#i give them too much angst sometimes#i need them to be kids now#darry n pony drama hounds truther#it's Darrys' most childish habit#he is SAT for some good drama#pony n him do this shit once a week#soda thinks its sweet that theyre bonding#but that man cant focus on other ppls business for SHIT#he cant even focus on HIS business#pony tries to fill him in on lore#n hes like uh huh yeah im listening uh huh#n ponys like GOD why do i even TRY#WHERES DARRY#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#darry curtis#sodapop curtis#dallas winston#steve randle#the outsiders fanfiction#my writing#writers on tumblr#ALSO!!#a lil reminder my inbox is still open to one shot requests!!!
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itty bitty minuscule sneak peek of the sukuna x reader fic Iām working on.
You lay beside him now, watching the slow rising and falling of his back, quietly contemplative. Is it worth it? To lay here and let your heart waste away beneath his hand? Is it worth it, to let yourself rot in return for the simple warmth of his breath against your neck?
As if he can hear your thoughts, Sukuna shifts beside you, one large hand coming up to slide against the dip of your waist, pulling you in to his side. A harsh breath stutters in your lungs, and your hands come up to curl against his chest. His face is pointed towards you, rough edges softened by sleep. In the moonlight that peers through the window, he looks soft. Made vulnerable by the intimacy of this moment. The greedy thing inside you, the one that covets every piece of him, purrs in contentment. The heat of his palms thaws the winter hidden beneath your skin and warms you from the inside out.
Now, the decision is made easy.
Dead, rotten, maggot-filled. Iāll hold on to you, you think, arms curling like chains around him. Dead, rotten, maggot filledā¦
youāll never get away from me.
guess what lana song this was inspired by teehee
#honestly itāll probably be different once uploaded idk#first thing Iāve written in 8 years Iām actually so nervous eek#sukuna x reader#yandere reader perhapsā¦?#lowk why are they giving uraume š#jjk x reader#angst#jjk angst#does this have grammar mistakes?? probably..i tried my bestš¢#probable passive voice active voice clashing too.. i hate that shit but whatevr#lujuria writes: sukuna#cw angst#cw unreliable narrator#cw yandere#ryomen sukuna x reader#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk x you#yandere jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen angst#jujutsu kaisen sukuna#jjk sukuna#sukuna x you#sukuna x y/n#jujutsu kaisen x gender neutral reader#jujutsu kaisen x you#jujutsu kaisen x y/n#sukuna ryomen#sukuna ryoumen x reader#lujuria writes: cuz im pretty when i cry
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:) i certainly have no issue dressing in drag :)
^guy who has no issue dressing in drag btw
glenn said that dennis' drag name is victoria von hemen btw
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#glenn howerton#guy who should get to dress in drag#im just. ill never be over the fact that glenn wrote Two episodes in season 3 that involve dennis doing drag#i know he doesn't really want to write for the show but there's something so special abt how early sunny was an actor's sandbox#esp hearing glenn talk abt how den is like. an outlet for him and a way to play around with shit he would never do for one reason or anothe#my point being that i think its been a while since he was able to utilize dennis again in that way#but 16 was a definite change. especially with dtamhd it feels like dennis is becoming more glenn again. like he was in the early days#theres a pretty good stretch of the show once it got into the double digits that feels like den was. co-opted.#but like i wonder how it feels to explore sexuality and gender via your character#it must be similar to doing that through fandom and OCs but there's a whole other layer to it here#esp when its not Just being presented as comedic as it was in past seasons. like dennis is Actually queer and this is a normal plot point#its not the punchline like den's femininity often is its literally just part of what makes him able to help mac and dee#id argue we've gotten this in the form of. dennis doing dee's makeup and shit. but#anyway. glenn. now that you have two of your former writing assistants in that writers room i hope you get to do drag again š#its been 16 years. show us the new and improved victoria.#i honestly can't imagine pitching something like that to a room of people Without some sort of comedic twist but#man.#ada speaks#iasip#it's always sunny in philadelphia#rcg#i won't ever forget the way he lit up talking abt queer dennis jhksvfjhksvdfgjhkds#love u king...... i hope you get something in s17 that you Certainly Don't Mind
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DATV explaining the 'Regret Prison'
A REGRET PRISON IS STUPID AND I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT ITS NOT
TL;DR: a prison can serve as a metaphor but it shouldn't be entirely comprised of a metaphor.
From what I understood from what the game gave us: Solas has made a new prison to move the God's too - since bringing down the veil would free them from the Black City. This new prison is separate(?) from the fade or so far removed/contained that bringing down the veil would not compromise it...apparently. We interrupt his ritual, Solas gets sucked into the new prison he made, and the elven gods are free.
When Rook gets kicked into the fade they're physically there - which means it's a physical place in the fade, like how it was a mixture of physical/thought when we entered it in DAI. Which makes sense - the gods are real and living beings, they need to be in a place, there must be some aspect of physicality to it.
Alright, cool, it's a Black City 2.0 - I assume it's better defended to prevent people breaking in/out again?
NOPE.
We get there and it's a 'regret prison'?? It's tied to the regrets of those within it? Composed of regrets??? Solas had to wait for the right moment for Rook to be sufficiently 'full of regret' that they could switch places?
So is the prison tied to Solas's regrets? If so, how can Rook escape? The prison seems to work around the idea that it relies on the regrets of the person it's holding to work - which is how/why Rook was able to be trapped and later free themselves (along with whatever remains of the team apparently being able to do something on their end, not that we hear about it).
WHICH IS STUPID!
Are you telling me the prison intended to hold to megalomaniac elven gods was going to imprison them based on their own regrets? Is Solas assuming that Elgar'nan and Ghilan'nain are as self-pitying as he is? They'd break out quicker than Rook did! He made a time out corner for the elven gods to sit in and gave them an out if they reflected on their emotions/regrets or decided that they don't regret what they did. Elgar'nan, a spirit of tyranny, is not going to 'regret' his actions - he is going to justify them by telling himself and others that he knows what's best.
We can come across some of Solas's regrets in the prison if you run around a bit and explore:
Remnant of Failure - talking about the orb from Inquisition.
Remnant of Parting - talking about Mythal
Remnant of Reflection - more vague, talking about the Titans I believe.
So maybe he altered it - maybe he intended the prison to be 'locked' with his own regrets because after a millennia of having a pity party he still can't bring himself to self-reflect and look to the future. But what if Solas died? Or if his guilt lessened - would it diminish the strength of the regret prison?
We already have pre-established lore (though DATV has shown they don't really give a crap tbh) that once the being that has claimed/altered an area of the fade is slain, it's influence diminishes both in and outside of the fade. So if the prison was tied to his regrets then it would require Solas to basically live forever to keep it stable - especially if he brought down the veil and removed the one barrier that kept the world and the fade apart.
Rook and Solas needed some assistance to exit - but it doesn't seem like it was much! Solas used his dagger and Rook just...got out through a fade tear? This is Solas's 'more secure' second prison? It has a worse track record than the Black City! If Rook - who is not an elven god - managed to escape the regret prison what is to stop anyone else from breaking in and out of the prison?
And what did Solas intend to do with the blight - the bulk of which is apparently in the black city?? If bringing down the Veil would free the gods in the black city doesn't that mean that the blight would also be released?! Did he have a plan? Why does he go fully ahead with bringing down the veil at the end if the black city is still there and filled with blight?!
I get it: the 'regret prison' is a metaphor for how Solas holds onto the past and how Rook can move past their regrets and grow. He's trapped by the past - it's a prison. Cool. But this prison is supposed to by a physical place to contain the gods - not just to solely contain Solas. The mission is literally called 'A Cage for Gods'.
The Black City is an actual place that's so far out of reach of anywhere else in the fade that no mage can ever reach it while in dreams - let alone physically, which was only done once and took tremendous effort/blood sacrifices. It made sense - it was cool to see floating in the sky in DAO!
Though it's not said specifically, it's strongly implied that Arlathan is the Black City. You can see in the concept art that floating elven city is exactly the same as the black city in DAO! It's this foreboding thing just lurking in the sky - a constant reminder of the sin that led to the horrors of the blights and darkspawn. A real place with lore and history that also serves as a metaphor for the hubris and destruction of those who call themselves gods and act as tyrants -> for both the evanuris and the magisters.
I WANT TO UNDERSTAND THIS BIOWARE!
WHAT IS THIS KINGDOM HEARTS NONSENSE???!!
#we'll need Mickey and Donald to break us out of this one#this screams 'this sounds so cool lets put it in' and not 'how can we do something cool that works with the world we've established'#āit's metaphorical-ā it can be metaphorical and make sense!!!#trying to invoke 'emotion' with that black and white tone and only succeeded in getting me to feel pure confusion and rage#THE FADE IS GREEN TINTED - THE LAST GAME WAS LITERALLY COLOUR THEMED AFTER IT#i'm passionate about the fade being green the same way i'm passionate about Aurora's dress being blue and Cinderella's being silver#solas's more secure second prison literally has a worse track record than the black city - why is he so dumb???#I regretted no choices in datv besides the decision to actually play this game lmao#if the game actually acknowledged that Rook's actions led to thousands of people dying maybe I'd feel something in the regret prison#no mention of treviso/ minrathous/ or southern thedas??#the team all knew the risks of what they were doing! they volunteered/made their own choices - ME2 did this so much better#played as an elf so I didn't even feel bad when Harding died because of the weird elf specific dialogue she had#I'm not sorry for the titans/what Solas did - I wasn't even there! Doesn't justify the shit that happened to the elves after either!#this game made me apathetic to LACE HARDING and i loved her in Inquisition#i'm sorry but I had more regret for choosing to speak mean to Merrill once than anything I did in this game#currently writing about the magisters sidereal in my lore post and I needed to blurt this out because its so stupid#typed out the word 'regret' so much is has no meaning in my head anymore lmao#datv critical#datv spoilers#bioware critical#dragon age the veilguard#veilguard critical
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Silly/Clumsy WB boys HCs
I see hcs like this and theyre always fun/make me laugh o(ļ½ĻĀ“ )o
Sakuraās food went down the wrong pipe at a restaurant and when the waiter asked if it was because it was too spicy, he insisted through coughing and tears that that definitely wasnāt the case (he could tell they didnt believe him though)
Tsugeura sometimes lets one rip by accident when heās exercising. Not even a little fart either, the kind that stops everyone from what theyāre doing.
One time Nirei stubbed his toe so hard, he fell and grabbed onto the nearest object. Unfortunately that was the back of Sakuraās pants, making him accidentally moon a few people in class.
Word recall is hard sometimes. So when Choji calls an ambulance a āhospital truckā really what can you do? At least heās using words. Sometimes he just mimes the shape or action of the thing and insists that you know what heās talking about. Will draw a picture if he gets frustrated enough, but if itās something intangible? Well itās a guessing word game. (Togame is the best at it, but Inugami is on Chojiās wavelength enough that heās pretty accurate too)
Hiragi calls the first years by the wrong name sometimes, like a mom with too many kids. Heāll yell and say Sugishita when he means Sakura, but he does apologize before yelling again.
Because heās around older guys a lot, Togame sometime uses really old words or sayings. You havenāt hear the saying āItās raining cats and dogsā or heās ābleeding like a stuck pigā in years until youāre stuck under an awning during a passing storm or he comes back from a rough fight, nose still bleeding profusely. Also keeps bag balm/cetaphil, some other really good lotion for calluses and dry skin and just kinda slaps it on whatever shishitoren member he sees whoās hands are cracking, saying that the skin wonāt heal as well when theyāre older so they better take care of it now.
Umemiyaās got the worst habit of losing, dropping, or sitting on his glasses. He doesnāt realize it until he hears the snap and heās got them taped up until he can go get them fixed again.
Kajiās kind of a messy eater. Especially with ice cream or food with sauce on it. Started to get better with checking his face after eating after Hiragi slapped a wet wipe on his face after he devoured a rack of ribs, leaving him looking like heād cannibalized someone
#i couldve sworn i did ones like this before butā¦if i did i didnt put them in the masterlist#mari writes#wind breaker#wind breaker headcanons#sakura haruka#nirei akihiko#taiga tsugeura#umemiya hajime#togame jo#hiragi toma#choji tomiyama#i actually wasnt gonna tag them all butā¦im trying to be better with tagging#writing these helps clear up some writerās block i think#getting silly with it is my favorite thing#ive done and do most of these EXCEPT tsugeuraās#the boys at work are constantly doing that shit.#was thinking of doing piercing/tattoo hcs but this is way better#togame is old man coded once again but do you know how many guys i have to chase to moisurize their cracked hands and elbows????#esp in winter when we handle the sidewalk salt?? Its stronger than regular salt and burns my hands smth fierce#i got off topic i should do more of these
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I hate the insistence in pushing Jason into the batfamily.
If he doesn't wanna go to dinner, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't wanna hang out with them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't want to see them, he doesn't have to. If he doesn't even want to contact them, he doesn't have to.
It's so annoying to read fic and always see it presented as his Family Knows Better. Jason is just being silly by not realizing how much they love him and he just needs to let them break into his home and comms and life because they want him there.
#my dc posting#jason todd#red hood#batfamily#like genuinely how do yall write this shit n not realize how fucked it is#i hear jason say he doesnt wanna do something w his family and im like HELL YEAH ASSERT UR BOUNDARIES#him being strongarmed into dinner despite knowing its gonna be a shitshow n judged heavily if he doesnt show is like. a fucking staple#of fic and im SOOO done w it#do none of you think? really do you even think??#ig its the difference in perspective between viewing the batfamily as the Ultimate Good thing. the place they all should strive to be#instead of the mess of toxicity and stalking n abusiveness it is#and even in content where the batfamily is actually as healthy as they can be jason still doesnt have to do anything w em!!!#hes completely justified to not contact them. thats his fucking choice and boundary n writing his family prancing right past all that#does Not endear me to them sorryy!!#i once saw someone explain jason as low-contact and i was like. yeah. i love that. let me have that please#its not that i hate seeing him in the batfam. i just think it should be HIS choice
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I'm gonna be honest guys... I have never needed encouragement to write a fic with a popular trope.
Love all the positivity posts going around that are "Two cakes!!!" and "For anyone worrying that someone else has written this before, I just spend hours reading the same trope again and again" but for most of us... writing something that is already popular in fandom needs very little encouragement?
I write a trope that others have done a hundred times when I want 600 kudos and 15 comments. It's most often a fast food fic and it's a fast food fic I write because I know people will read it and enjoy it and have a good time because it is just like all the other fast food fics they read and loved and enjoyed a hundred times before.
You know what needs encouragement?
The niche fic.
Writing the fics that are WEIRD and UPSETTING or so deeply personal, you can't ever imagine anyone else reading it and really understanding you.
The fics that are just a tiny bit strange - or super specific.
The fics you KNOW will only be read by three people because it is NOT the popular ship. NOT the popular trope. NOT the popular cookie-cutter set of set-up and expectations.
And we need those weird fics!!! Write them!!! Because the three people reading your Abortion Fic or the ten people making it all the way through the Coffee Shop In Space But It's Linguistics (We're Doing Linguistics) Fic are going to remember your weird fics for years longer than they'll remember yet another popular fic.
(not that those aren't great -- and really, everyone who cheers one Two Cakes is absolutely right, I'm just saying... who is pouring it out for the freaks?)
Write about the kinks only you have. Write about that conversation you had with your mom in a Honda Civic in 2006. Write about knife throwing and the etymology of Jamaica. Write about microbiology and actually historically accurate Regency AUs.
Don't let the knowledge that you're writing the weird cupcakes with ketchup for the podluck be what stops you -- some freak is gonna pick up your cupcake, give it a change, and fall utterly in love with it.
Because we're all happy about two cakes. But some of us prefer trying something new every now and then.
#writing#ao3#fanfic#fanfiction#rant?#mostly just needed to get that off my chest#i have never once thought#'Oh I better NOT write something popular'#but I have had to fight myself#to write the niche shit I actually like#more people need to get weird with it
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Due to recent experiences, I am feeling an urge to make an anti-drug-style PSA except it's warning impressionable machine-learning-curious teens to never, ever try a thing called "Huggingface transformers Trainer"
Not. Even. Once.
#and don't even get me started on āunslothā#this week i learned what āunslothā actually does when you import it and... man.#i thought i'd seen the worst of āhacky brittle 'it-just-works' (by doing the most cursed shit imaginable) ML python codeā but no.#no. unsloth was Worse#and huggingface Trainer is bad enough by itself#did you know it has 131 (one hundred and thirty one!) config arguments and yet it cannot log *more than one loss number at once*#(for like multitask training or whatever)#i don't just mean it's hard to do - i mean its logging mechanism is built from the ground up on the assumption you would never do this.#you'd have to rewrite a bunch of internals to get it working - i.e. basically write a new nontrivial feature on HF's behalf#and just writing your own damn training loop is easier than that lol#it's not that hard kids. take it from me. dataset + dataloader + model(*args) + loss.backward() + opt.step() + opt.zero_grad(). that's it#it'll take you 30 minutes and save you a billion hours down the road#i do not understand computers#(is a category tag)
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erm- hi. hereās whatever this is lmfao /lh

Uzi is caught off guard. She has never seen her dad cry before. It felt very strange to her. It was essentially the re-discovery of a side of Khan that Uzi only remembers seeing vaguely when she was very young.
The first thing that Uzi thought was āWoah..ā but then she thought, āWhy?ā
āWhy with me? What makes me of all people so special that he would feel comfortable to show this?ā She thought.
Uzi already knows that Khan doesnāt tend to show vulnerability. She doesnāt know why. Although, from what Uzi has gathered, whenever Khan does, he seems visibly uncomfortable. Uzi canāt fully tell if itās embarrassment, or shame, but she doesnāt need to be able to tell. She somehow already knows enough.
The other part of Uziās thinking is realizing that she doesnāt mind that this is happening, and is in fact more concerned. Again, she doesnāt know why sheās feeling this way. Was it because it was her father of all people? The overly optimistic door-enthusiast? Who seems to never let himself be bothered by anything? Maybe. Or perhaps itās because--
No. Enough. Stop thinking so hard. She doesnāt have the time or patience right now for a deep analysis on anotherās emotions. Sheāll figure that all out later. But for now, she just wants to focus on the here and now; willingly for once. She wants to be here for her dad. If her presence is so comforting, and if that is what makes Khan feel better, then so be it. That is what she will focus on.
#yup commin in with the angst once again lmao /silly#i finally wrote some Uzi and Khan development lmao (basically a character study for the both of them lmao š /lh)#decided to do an actual caption for a drawing lol /lh#i say that i canāt write for shit but then i proceed to write something im actually proud of ššš /lh /hj#murder drones#murder drones angst#murder drones khan#murder drones uzi#ruf draws
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Hirano can be very based sometimes I think
#very poor handling of DID tbh but I kinda fuck with the concept actually#'penis!' same dude#hellsing#kouta hirano#heinkel wulf#yumie takagi#'why did you include this' 'i wanted to' ass response. based as fuck#hirano is off the shits in 99% of his writing. shit happens bc he had an idea at 2am once and he thought it was funny or cool#i think we should incorporate yumie's DID in a more realistic manner. actually I should absolutely explore it
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ok i got home and basically spent the entire afternoon thinking about the au. so uhhhh,,, here's some character sketches and notes
(click it for better quality cuz TUMBLR FUCKIN HATES ME OH MY GOD WHY)
btw for context, MePhone gets kicked out of Meeple headquarters for failing a mission near the start of the story. that's basically his drive, he wants to prove he's a good hunter so he'll be let back in and get his old life back. (bad idea lmao) (it does NOT end up going the way he wants to)
#its not their final designs btw#this is just so I have an image of them in my head while I write#I'll go insane if I dont#well. more insane than I currently am#I SWEAR THEYLL LOOK BETTER ONCE I ACTUALLY PUT EFFORT IN#anyways Ive started writing...#mostly just character profiles#but that's step one#next up is plot outline and ideas#were cooking guys#alien hunter au#<- again that's what I'm calling the au#bfdi tpot#tpot au#tpot fanart#two tpot#tpot#two bfdi#tpot two#twophone#ii mephone4#inanimate insanity mephone4#ii au#ii fa#crossover#bfb#ig#its sorta relevent#not yet tho#why do I have a million tags holy shit I'm losing it
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anyways, i genuinely like bella as casting for ellie.
i think they're fine as her, some of the writing is just a bit not great compared to season 1 + whoever is doing makeup/hair/clothing is not doing them and most of the cast justice. especially the female cast having obvious makeup and perfect hair. not to mention most of the cast in general looking like they just grabbed new clothes off the rack.
#it feels like theyre not sure how to make ellie 19#i agree with a couple people that it feels like theyre still trying to write ellie like she's 14#and its screwing over bella's acting#plus a couple odd story choices with disjointed scenes :(#theres a few times i thought bella couldve been mistaken for ingame ellie!!!#im so sad people are so mean to them#i was iffy at first and didnt like the casting#but once i watched it i instantly warmed up to them#dina having ultra curly shampoo commercial hair and looking like she just slapped on a layer of makeup#maria having so very obvious eyelash extentions#im sure if abby actually had mascara or not#i dont hate the actresses but why are they being done dirty#twd could weather them and make them look dirty why cant tlou make them dirty too#i dont need them instagram ready#dina annoys me the most like this girl should be getting her hair YANKED by infected n shit#why didnt they put it up in a bun or high ponytail :((#i know people complain that bella's hair is a bit long for the half up style but i saw somebody say they didnt want to touch it#thats lowkey how my hair looked when i cosplayed ellie so i cant criticize it lol#tlou hbo#the last of us hbo#the last of us season 2#the last of us#tlou
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AO3 Milestone: 100,000 hits <3

Thank you so much to everyone who has read my works, who has left kudos and comments! It means so much. It is actually kind of insane to me that so many people have read my fics.
For my own documentation and for those who are curious, these are my current top 5 most read fics:
you don't need no air (you can just breathe me) ā Galinda/Elphaba (Wicked)
i'm always afraid (but never to die) ā Galinda/Elphaba (Wicked)
lately i've been crying (like a tall child) ā Rhaenyra/Alicent (HOTD)
A Thin Line between Love and Hate ā Penelope/Josie (Legacies)
tripping, falling with no safety net ā Galinda/Elphaba (Wicked)
On that note, I am so grateful to Rhaenicent and Gelphie for inspiring me to start writing again. It has been amazing. I am currently on a short break, but I have a lot more ideas to write for both of these ships and I look forward to writing them.
Special shoutout to my friends who read and comment on everything I write! Reading your thoughts and discussing my ideas with y'all inspires me so much. Thank youš @invisiblue @anticurses @dykefyre @mistoffeleesisawitch
#gelphie#rhaenicent#posie#ao3 milestone#writing#my fics#this is actually so insane to me like holy shit how did that happen?#i was just posting my silly fics and then suddenly bam here we are#i cannot even visualize this number in an actual crowd#i know multiple hits can also come from the same person but that is still thousands upon thousands of people which is wild#anyways i wanted to make this post to document this for myself and to thank everyone who has read my work#100.000 hits man.... here's to many more stories to come once my hand injury leaves me alone <3#to my friends if you read this far love y'all thank you for your continuous support and for listening to me yap about my favorite character
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it's a shame that some folks forgot that the mystery shack fam don't see the tbob pages that we the readers see (except for the letters written by characters that aren't bill) because it's different for everyone
#ford himself mentioned that his was a bunch of convoluted riddles#and once again with bill not bothering with soos you can't convince me that stan wasn't making his section up#cos i doubt there's any way in hell that bill is trying to convince stan for help lmao#a shame that dipper didn't mention what he saw but also being reminded about him going 'i can write in code too bill you aint shit'#honestly his might be more conspiracy stuff#would love to see a story of stan improv-ing his version to his family while actually reading the words DIE DIE I HATE YOU DIE
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