#once again spending my best years inside & alone 🙃

[fishylife]

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[canonicallyobserving911]

“I do need you.”

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Where CANON and FANON collide!

New Buddie Fanfic in the "What do you want?" A Series of Fics and Ficlets

The 7th fic in the "What do you want?" Series in now available on AO3. "I do need you." - It’s late and after being on the road from Los Angeles to El Paso for more than 12 hours, Eddie and Buck are tired but they aren’t sleeping. Instead, they’re continuing to discuss things they’ve left unsaid.

"I do need you."

5.0K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences

Please note: the fics in this series were season 8 speculation before it began; however several things I included in the first 6 fics/ficlets, i.e. Buck's breakup with Tonsilitis along with Eddie going to visit Chris in El Paso, TX and taking Buck with him either haven't happened yet or they won't. Therefore, these are now solely based on my head FANONS and they include things I wish would happen in CANON. The CANON BT breakup is coming but I REFUSE TO WRITE ANYMORE FICS WITH T.K. 2.0 IN THEM. I’ve written two and a couple of others where he’s mentioned but I don't like the character; in fact I NEVER have and I'm too tired of Buck’s tragic repeated relationship with him to write about a character just to end up writing him out of the fic anyway. Also, as I've stated many times before, I write Buck and Eddie so they're getting ready to enter a relationship or when they're already in an established one.

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Here's a snippet of a conversation Buck and Eddie are having while they're in their hotel room.

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“Can we talk about something?”

“Of course.”

Buck nods and he takes a moment to determine the best way to say the things he wants to say.

Eddie doesn’t rush him; he just patiently waits for him to continue.

Once the words and sentences formulate inside of his mind, they begin to fall out of his mouth unbidden.  “Uh, ever since Friday morning… two times you’ve said you need me.  Once was when we were at the firehouse then you said it again a few minutes ago but um, I have to ask… do you uh, just need me to be Chris’ guardian or do you need me for you too?”

Eddie eyebrows go up so high on his forehead that they almost touch his hairline because he thought he made it crystal clear that he needs Buck in both of their lives.  Without breaking eye contact, he admits, “Buck, I need you for me and Chris and I want…”  He trails off because he was about to say he wants to spend the rest of his life with him.  Also, he was about to admit that he’s in love with him but he caught himself since he still has a lot of work to do to fix the things he broke earlier this year when he emotionally cheated with a doppelgänger and when he lied to the two people who mean the world to him, Buck and Chris.  He refuses to be in a place of mental despair when he tells the man of his dreams that he wants them to spend the next 50 or 60 years together.

He turns on the lamp, stands, walks over to Buck’s bed and stands in front of him.  After he places his hand on his shoulder with his thumb on his pulse point, he looks into those ocean blue eyes he loves so much and explains, “Buck, you’re mine and Chris’ family and I—I need you to be with me because I can’t do this alone.  You’ve been co-parenting Chris with me for the past 7 years and you’ve been part of his life longer than his mother.  You’re not a guest in our house and Buck…”  He pauses then says, “Ok… listen.”

What is Eddie going to say next? 👀

How will Buck respond? 🙃

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"What do you want?" - A Series of Ficlets

Currently 7 works completed; 46.4K Words: Rated; Teen and Up Audiences:  This is a series of “Fics and Ficlets” that I’ll be writing over the course of the next few weeks and my goal is to keep them under a certain number of words. I’m challenging myself to do it this way for multiple reasons but mainly because I want to see if I can write a full Buddie story by including smaller fics in a series in comparison to the multi-chapter fic I’m still in the process of writing titled, “I’m still in love with you but… I needed to learn how to love myself too!” I began writing it last year after season 6 was an epic disaster, however this time I started with my dislike for the way season 7 ended. Finally, I have several WIPs that I want to finish and I figured I can turn them all into one shot fics or ficlets to build the full story for Buck and Eddie.

Since these ficlets will be posted in order, it’s imperative to read them one after the other. Each part ends at a specific point with a cliffhanger and the next part will begin with the ending of the previous part. Therefore, parts 1 - 6 should be read prior to reading part 7 and the series will continue in that manner until it’s complete.

"You don't know math!" - 3.3K Words; Rated Teen and Up Audiences: Buck is forced to choose while Eddie might be presented with another option.

"Math is a universal language." - 5K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences: Eddie reconnects with an old acquaintance and they spend a lot of time together. However, now that Buck’s single, he finally tries to understand math is a universal language but when he sees Eddie talking to another guy, he wonders if it took him too long to figure it out.

“You know, it’s like that thing when you meet somebody and you just… click.” - 5.1K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences: When Buck comes face to face with Eddie’s new friend; he hates it but since he’s only told Maddie about his breakup with Tommy, Eddie’s still under the impression he’s taken. Therefore, Eddie makes plans to spend even more time with his new acquaintance.

"I can't stop thinking about him." - 8.1K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences: Buck and Eddie are trying to move on but they can’t stop thinking about each other.

“How I hide my true feelings from others.” - 9.6K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences: Buck and Eddie return to therapy but they’re both not telling each other about recent events that happened. Will they finally have an open and honest conversation before it’s too late?

"We need to talk." - 11.4K Words; Rated: Teen and Up Audiences: After Eddie and Buck decide to take a weekend road trip to El Paso, TX to visit Chris, during the 12-hour drive, they talk about a lot of things they’ve left unsaid.

"I do need you." - It’s late and after being on the road from Los Angeles to El Paso for more than 12 hours, Eddie and Buck are tired but they aren’t sleeping. Instead, they’re continuing to discuss things they’ve left unsaid.

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[roxannepolice]

hi! any thoughts about thirteen/dhawan!master for the ask meme? ❤️

Thank you very much for the ship and this is also for @veraynes-blog who asked for them too!

Who’s the cuddler? Huh, good question, I don't think either is very touchable on regular basis... But if you got them drunk to the point of honesty or put them to sleep together, I'd say Thirteen

Who makes the bed? Well, the Master has spent a few decades intermingling with humans, sometimes posing in the military, but the Doctor spent her sweet time in space prison, both circumstances that would train some self-discipline... But I also think if they were on their terms neither would be exactly keen on that, so probably the dubious honour falls onto Yaz 🙃

Who wakes up first? Thirteen strikes me as a heavy sleeper, so probably the Master this time 'round

Who has the weird taste in music? The Master might appear as the obvious option thanks to dancing to Rasputin in front of second-hand embarrassed Cybermen and Daleks, but I think this piece is objectively a banger, so there's nothing weird about the taste itself. On the other hand, the short story in I am the Master collection puts him in USSR during the cold war, and I can see him developing a soft spot for all those lovely songs about people loving their beloved leader and singing how great their beloved leader is, and how happy they are to follow their beloved leader, etc etc

Who is more protective? I don't think "protective" is the best word for either of them... they're both very defensive about themselves and that sometimes floods onto other entities, more so for the Doctor, though not necessarily in the Master's direction

Who sings in the shower? Again, heartwarming songs about people being happy to erect a new statue for their beloved leader tends to flow out when the Master's taking a shower

Who cries during movies? Both, though not exactly movies as tv series. Thirteen cries like a baby during cheap norwegian lesbian melodramas (all the rage around 2070s) while Spymaster gets deeply moved by thousands episodes long soaps where it turns out someone married their parent, but the next season reveals this was not so, but yet next states that yes, it was so, and in the meantime the character died in a shark accident but not really

Who spends the most while out shopping? Spymaster, absolutely. He actually needs to present and, again, 70 years of human fashion can't just go unexplored. He tried taking Thirteen shopping once and Gucci boutique cashiers still need a therapy

Who kisses more roughly? They're both very rough and desperate, provided enough alcohol to get them honest was provided

Who is more dominant? I think the Master has always had some traces of authoritarian personality, so after the TTC revelation he'd want to go very submissive to the Doctor, but seeing as the message she got had less to do with natural right to universal domination over all of time and more with human dellusions of belonging and identity determined by biological parenthood, he got very frustrated, so they're stuck in the kind of conflict that very loud chihuahuas engage in over the fence and neither exactly dominates, one just gets carried inside before the other

My rating of the ship from 1-10. Writing alone would keep them at a weak 4, but actors make it a solid 7 👍