#once again please keep this ALTRverse spoilers free Im waiting on my issue to arrive

[kalcifers-blog]

A lot of you really like when I go into my deep dives with the Egos and talk about them under a horror lens

But I've mostly only focused on Chase or Anti whenever I've done this so today I'm focusing on Jackie >:))

(Please keep in mind I haven't read the comic yet and I would like to keep this spoiler free of it as of now!!!!!!

I am in love with the idea that Jackie is a silent sufferer. He's someone who will hurt and keep hurting until it's unbearable and he still won't show that he's suffering. It's just his nature to not let anyone see how much he's in pain, whether that be physical or emotional or otherwise.

If or when Jackie starts to get targeted by Anti- he wouldn't ask for help. He wouldn't even admit to himself how wrong it is- I genuinely think he'd brush it off, creating excuse after excuse to himself to avoid ever admitting anything was wrong.

It'd only be until he physically couldn't keep it up anymore that he'd finally crack under the pressure. And I can only imagine how much Anti would absolutely relish in his pain breaking out.

I feel like the likes of Marvin would recognise it immediately, Marvin's an observer and would notice the little things most people would probably overlook- like just how fake Jackie can be when it comes to his politeness and overly nice demeanor.

It's not to say Jackie isn't a nice person- but Marvin can see just how much Jackie plays pretend, how even without the superhero schtick he is constantly hiding behind a mask. Never truly speaking his mind or showing how he ever really feels about anything, and I think there's a genuine fear in Jackie that even he doesn't fully know who his true self is anymore because of how much he hides.

Anti would absolutely feast on Jackie not knowing who he really is- completely isolating him in his own misery, trapping him in a maze of mirrors with false perceptions on who he is- only showing the worst aspects of Jackie that only Jackie knows about- because of course only Jackie knows about any of it, he refuses to let anyone else see it.

I think Jackie wants more than anything to be able to let people in- but that felt near impossible before he even got his powers or to be a hero. Every time Jackie looks for a genuine human connection all he's faced with is this inescapable feeling of him never being able to ever fully open up, there's just too much to lose and he'd much rather him take the brunt of absolutely everything than risk anyone getting hurt.

So of course Jackie would eventually break, there is so much for Anti to feed off of him that it is only a matter of time before he would completely crack under everything going on behind closed doors, doors that he locked, bolted and nailed shut before even he couldn't open them anymore.