#on their own. but if i wasnt writing an se fic i would not know what gun safety actually does or what desert storm means

[ink-asunder]

I am unironically learning a lot about weapons, world history, and military history from reading this Stupid Manga

[girlcomputers]

in my head there lives a 50k slowburn bb bomr fic but i cant write for the life of me so heres some spare hcs

- they met when black mesa assigned them as lab partners. bubby was 36 coomer was 33

actually here's just the age ref

- they didnt like eachother at first and had something of a rivalry going on. coomer is very annoying and bubby is very stubborn

- coomer found out bubby was a tube baby completely randomly when he wondered into biological research. the interaction went something like "omg hiii :D" "How Did You Get In Here."

- coomer was married when he first started working at black mesa. he then divorced her and remarried someone else later. then divorced again. i call gordon an epic divorce man but really its coomer

- lets get this right out of the way just so you know where i stand: Dr. Harold P. Coomer is a whore. thats a slutty old man.

- bubby and gman are buddies. have been for a while. gman doesn't act as a wingman but thinks that them dancing around eachother is amusing

- little tommy, however, did act as a wingman

- coomer Hated working at black mesa because he had to drop his boxing career and it was his first wife that made him do that. which is why he later founded the underground boxing ring and made some actual friends there

- bubby was coomers best man at his second wedding because of course they were. they actually had a pretty good time there tho

- bubby has always been a rebel and a hellraiser at heart but it was actually coomer who made him loosen up more, earlier when bubby was still trying to appease to black mesa and being fake polite and trying to do everything they assigned him and be a ""good prototype"". coomer didnt make him Realize that black mesa was bullshit per se, but he definitely influenced bubby to go "hey. this place fucking sucks."

- when they became good friends bubby would often sleepover at coomers dorm room

- obligatory point about sneaking out to stargaze. bubby infodumping about space and coomer listening intently and chiming in once in a while with his own little fun facts. after a while harold notices the stars reflecting from bubbys almost unnaturaly cyan eyes, and the way they grin when talking about their interest so passionately.

- they've snuck out to go to rock concerts together and fuck around in the nearest town

- bubby can turn into any car he wants if he knows what it looks like and what its made of. but it can only be a shade of blue

- despite knowing a lot about cars and how they work and also being able to turn into one, bubby is absolutely horrible at driving. you can drive him tho

- bubby didnt think he can be gay. he knows its a thing and knows about sexuality and gender and stuff like that, it wasnt programmed into his brain like most of his knowledge but a few kind scientists talked to him about it when he was younger, and he knows hes neither a man nor a woman. but he didnt think he was like. allowed to be gay. its not internalized homophobia he just didnt think it was an option. he's just stupid

- coomer has accidentally thrown bubby into a wall at least 20 times

- obligatory when bubby would get put in the tube coomer would visit them as often as possible to keep them company and sometimes he'd stay the night in biological research falling asleep while talking to no end

- black mesa was studying benry long before rescas when they got them from xen. at one point benry escapes their containment and starts sneaking through the vents of black mesa. bubby finds them but decides not to return them or tell anyone about them. i believe bubby loves kids but has no actual idea how parenting works and with his inherent scientific curiosity still sees benry as something to study. its much more comfortable than their first containment though, partially because bubby knows what its like being an experiment

- while they still had benrey, black mesa was trying to replicate its sweetvoice. coomer was one of the first few people they tried it out on. it worked kind of, its something close to sv. while natural sv is fluid in shape, this one produces perfectly round balls like soap bubbles. its also always deliberate, like a whistle, while sv may sometimes be involuntary and dependent on emotions. coomer can make something that looks like sv but the color possibilities are limited (only cold hues) and it doesnt actually have a meaning. he doesn't understand benrey's sv and cant make actual sentences. but its fun to do

- sometimes bubby would babysit tommy and thats how tommy and benry became bffs :)

- benrey is the only one who can somehow help coomer calm down when hes in a fit of existential dread

- after causing a lot of trouble in the facily and a big mishap they get forcibly seperated, bubby is under tube arrest for several months and harold is only allowed to work under surveillance and they cant see eachother. this goes for many years until the restrictions get looser and bm half forgets about it and they accidentally meet again

- obligatory point: they love arguing about stupid stuff for fun. most of the time its something so nonsensical no one else but them can understand whats even the point of their debate

- they like to fight too. impromptu wrestling and boxing matches and surprise attacks. theyre gay idk what else do you want me to say

- bubby has bad blood circulation and coomer being half cybernetic basically makes him a living heater. perfect cuddling formula!

- bubby has an absolute shit taste in music. this isnt related to anything else i just think you should remember this

- coomers favorite color is red

- bubbys favorite color is green

- bubby purrs (either like a cat or a car engine you decide)

- i already made a post about this but coomer has adhd and bubby is autistic. I Know This.

- bubby has used a cane since they were full time out of tube (about 20)

- present time coomer has hearing aids (ive had this hc for a while now i just forget to draw them a lot im sorry :( )

- bubby likes to play with harolds hair and honestly who can blame him

- coomer thinks bubbys sharp teeth are very cute and he loves it when they smile. kissing is also cool id imagine

- so we've already established that when bubby gets flustered or overwhelmed he accidentally burst on fire or turn into a car. what does coomer do when hes flustered or overwhelmed? he starts punching

- they like to go fishing once every few weeks. come on they are retired! coomer catches the fish with his bare hands and eats it raw. sometimes he eats the bait too. bubby doesn't like fish he just likes the process of fishing (normally) itself

- bubby has a model train set :]

- neither of them can cook for shit. coomer would eat Literally Anything, and bubby eats literal garbage (canon). the rest of the science team go over for dinner to their house and its just slop

i ran out of things to say theres more obviously but i cant remember it now and this has been in my drafts for a while point is theyre madly in love ok whatever BYE

[caparrucia]

@na-yserin replied to your post “I do feel kind of stupid for following her for at...”:

sigh* my adhd is showing sorry for flooding your comments. I ment the comparison as it wasnt so much about FT's fanfiction as much as the amount of people that buy her brickspace book. this has been some pretty strong advertisements for it for any of her fans that dont have it and want to support her through this mess ><

​It's okay! Don't worry about it. It's never fun when you find out someone who did something you liked, or worse, someone you might have liked, turns out to be an asshole or a bigot.

I think I got the gist of it, and genuinely, I'm sorry something that once gave you joy turned out to be associated with this kind of thing. That's never fun to deal with.

While I think there's a level of irony between FT's behavior being traceable back to HP fic... I don't think it's appropriate to make a comparison to JKR. For one thing, as much as FT has monetized her fic, she's still a very small fish in a very small pond: she's a self-published writer making a living out of donations from her fans because they like the fanfic she writes. Even if she's a BNF, with a platform of thousands, that's still pretty small-fry, even by profic standards.

JKR is a billionaire with a massive platform and excess resources that also legitimately influences public discourse and ends up influencing actual literal legislation that is in the process of criminalizing trans existence in the UK.

Even if you think their actions are similar, their consequences are not, and it would be extremely poor taste to equate FT's small time fuckery with the absolute public hazard that JKR's radicalization has created. It's not a difference in MO, it is a difference in scale, and out of respect for the people currently affected by JKR's dangerous, persistent bigotry, it's important to keep that scale in mind. Fandom disagreements are absolutely nothing compared to the kind of absolutely abhorrent shit JKR has been supporting.

That doesn't mean there's anything wrong with noticing the similarities, per se, but it's again... not great to actively equate them. Because the consequences and the scope of harm is just... incomparable. My thing is, let's try to minimize harm, and bringing JKR into the conversation doesn't really minimize harm, it merely amplifies it, because now the people who are suffering under her, might feel slighted or dismissed by having their very real life or death struggle compared to fandom wank. So I don't think that's the best approach.

Ultimately, I think everyone has to make a choice about where they stand on this and what they consider to be the right thing to do. And the thing about that kind of choice is that everyone has to not only make it on their own, but know their choice will be seen and taken into account by others. And I don't mean that in a threatening way, but as a not-white person, well, this gif explains it all:

Y'know? The targets of bigotry people are willing to overlook for their own benefit see and remember that sort of shit.

It's kind of self-preservation on our end to do it.

I appreciate the good wishes! I hope you're doing okay too.

[justsomegruviastuff]

Loosing control / gruvia fic part 2

This is the last part of the fanfic ! It look me a long time to write it and I wasnt able to draw a good picture I tried 2 ideas and they both ended up trashy so no drawing in this one ! I hope you enjoy it and thanks for all the love in the last one 🌹

Seing Juvia on the ground unconcious with her neck covered in bruises drove Gray crazy . The strange marks started once again appearing on his body . He stood up and saw Laxus maniacally laughing from afar and the thunder legion standing ready to attack .

" You're going to regret this " Gray hissed and he was now fuming . His fists clenched the second Freed approached casting a spell in the process. He quickly dodged it and in a split second he grabbed him by the neck and threw him on a wall leaving him unconcious since he was already badly injured . Evergreen was next , she used her wings and flew near Gray but before she was able to attack he froze her wings with a swift hand motion and she fell to the ground . Bickslow came running towards him and his babies circled around him . Before they attacked he covered the space around him with ice walls and pushed them hard in their direction , smashing Bickslow and his babies .

" Oh finally , I was getting bored " Laxus smirked as Gray walked step by step near him .

" Come on Gray ! Or should I say demon ?" Gray stopped moving slow . He punched Laxus with an ice fist .

" Is that all you can do? " Gray casted a spell that surrounded Laxus in an ice circle and was ready to smash him but with his lightning he destroyed the ice .

" Come on I'm sure a demon can do better than that " Gray hissed and punched Laxus .

" I'm not a demon " he screamed. Laxus grabbed his fist and gave it a hard squish.

" We both know who you really are Gray ! You're just like me , you're evil you were always evil! You might be fooling everyone else but I know how it feels , to have this darkness inside you that urges you to do horrible things ! You seek for blood just as I do , I tried the nice act but it didnt work ! The white doctrine showed me a better path and you should be a part of it ! " with every word he squished Grays knuckles.

" I'm... not like .. you " Laxus laughed

" You're worse than me " Gray was struggling but he managed to escape Laxus grip . He stood in front of him .

" You killed your own master . You tried to kill your father and you went completely demon on your best friend Natsu . You're trying to protect her from me ? You should be protecting her from yourself, you left her alone and completely shattered her ,theres a reason why you always fail to keep her safe . Drop the goody -two- shoes act Gray you're not fooling me , you're pure evil . "

Grays mind went blank his head turned when he saw Juvia coughing and Laxus smirking .

" I'll show you evil " in mere seconds he froze the whole landscape , encasing half of Laxus body in ice . He smashed the ice with his fists and sent him flying to a wall . He punched him twice in the face and kicked his ribs , Gray was so fast with every attack Laxus wasn't able to react . Grays fists hit Laxus again and again and he was tossed around by smashing on the wall and falling on the ground . He was now seriously injured and bleeding but that didnt stop Gray .

" You're evil "

" you're a monster "

and other things that Laxus said were ringing in his head replaying every second . He had seriously injured Laxus and he wasn't going to stop there .

" Gray - sama " he barely heard her voice and he continued beating Laxus . He punched and punched until he heard footsteps approaching.

" Gray - sama .. stop " all he was hearing were Laxus words again and again .

" You're a demon "

" You're a monster "

his body shivered when he felt a warm hand touching his shoulder, he quickly turned around and with his fist encased in ice he scratched Juvias body .

" I'm not a monster !" He screamed while he ripped Juvias remaining clothes with one hand motion . His eyes widened and his blood went cold , he shivered and his heartbeat increased. In front of him was none other than Juvia , she clearly had struggled to get near him. Her neck was badly bruised and she was coughing blood . Her clothes were ripped and covered in dirt .

His heart skept a beat when he laid his eyes in the direction his hand went . The ice part of his hand was covered in blood , juvias stomach was bleeding and she had a hand over it trying to stop the blood from flowing . What made his heart burst was the spot that he had cut , memories flew through his mind when he saw the familiar scar that he had just reopened.

It was like the whole world had stopped moving it was just him and her . He was unable to move , unable to breathe , he couldn't believe what he had just done . No , that wasn't him, he would never , ever hurt her, not in a lifetime . He was not a monster and only monsters hurt the ones they loved , he wasn't one of them , or was that what he thought? Because the picture in front of him said otherwise.

Finally he came to his senses and reached to her , trying to help her . What made his heart ache was that when he reached his hand she jerked away terrified . Her hands were covered in blood and she was groaning in pain, he did that to her . Grays gaze was focused on Juvias scar that was now covered in blood . His head turned immediately when he heard a sound coming the other way . He saw Laxus groaning, laying on the ground badly injured , he was bleeding everywhere and he was covered in bruises .

Gray then realized , he got up from his feet to look around , the whole landscape was covered in ice . From a far he could see Bickslow covered in scratches and bruises laying on the ground unconcious, in the same condition were Evegreen and Freed , his friends , that he just hurt , he did that to them . Gray hated himself even more with each passing second,he tried reaching to Juvia but she would jerk away scared.

" You're a monster" he heard Laxus whisper before he completely lost conciousness. Gray lifted his hands to his head and started shaking . His whole body was trembling. Suddenly he punched the ground and started screaming.

" I did that ! I'm a fucking monster ! Why did I fucking do that? " he was pulling his hair maniacally and punching the ground while screaming. His body froze when he felt her touch again , even though it wasn't warm like before because of the blood covering it , he still recognized her touch .

" Gray - sama ? " he turned his gaze towards her and when he saw her his body immediately relaxed . She wasn't jerking away , she wasn't afraid of him . His eyes fell back to her scar . He reached his hand on top of it and froze it so she wouldn't lose too much blood, even though she already had .

" I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry " he whispered to her and his voice cracked , a tear rolled down his cheek . He felt her thumb wiping it away and he let himself enjoy her touch , but it didnt last long, he quickly realized . He suddenly jerked away .

" No ... you shouldn't be .. comforting me ! I ... this is my fault ... your bleeding because of me ! " juvia had a sincere expression on her face .

" It wasn't you Gray - sama ! Whoever did this to Juvia wasn't you! " Gray raised his eyebrow confused.

" It was me , I lost control and I hurt you... and everyone else ! You should hate me right now " Juvia gently cupped Grays cheek and removed another one of his tears .

"Juvia will never hate you Gray-sama ! Juvia loves you too much to do that !" Gray was looking her straight in the eyes .

" Then why did you jerk away when I tried to help you ? " juvia didnt answer , she couldn't. Gray got up from his knees and still kept his gaze towards Juvia.

" You see ? You know that I'm a monster ,you just cant say it !" Juvia suddenly got up herself struggling a little because of her wound .

" No no ,that's not true ! Gray -sama is not a monster! "

" Then why were you afraid of me ?" Juvias eyes fell in the direction of his body , she gulped loudly.

" Juvia wasn't scared of you ! Juvia was scared of that... " juvia pointed towards Grays body , where his marks were . Gray was once again confused.

" But.. that's a part of me !" Juvia gently grabbed his hand .

" That you have to learn to control or it's going to control you , like it did now! "

Gray started caressing her hand . More tears rolled down his cheek .

" I'm never going to be good enough, am I? Juvia came closer to Gray and grabbed his other hand too .

" Good enough for what darling? " he raised one of his arms and started playing with her locks .

"You! ... you deserve so much better than me " juvia chuckled.

" Gray -sama , you made Juvia better ! "

"What do you mean ?" Gray asked concerned .

" Juvias wasn't always like this ! Juvia was a horrible person once , I was moody and depressed and mean , Juvia wanted to hurt people, make them suffer like she did !" Gray cupped her cheek and brushed some hairs and dirt of her face .

" But you're not like that now ! Now your cheerful and full of life . You give nothing but love and happiness to everyone and you dont expect something back" Juvia smiled .

" Gray - sama you did that ! You made Juvia the person she is today ! If it weren't for you she would have lived her life thinking that she didnt need love " Gray slowly got closer and he gently rested his forehead to hers .

" You deserve all the love in the world " Juvia caressed Grays cheek .

" Gray -sama does too . So please let Juvia show you that you deserve love , like you did to her " Gray finally let out a sincere smile and admired Juvias ocean blue eyes .

"This is a dream " he chuckled and so did Juvia .

" And we deserve to live it , toghether! " Gray smiled and their lips were now a centimeter away .

" Yes , yes we do !"

And finally he did the thing he'd been dying to do for ages . He kissed her. I'm not going to say that the kiss was magical because that's an obvious understatement.

•~ Let's just say that her lips were for only him to kiss , her scent was for only him to smell , her taste was for only him to taste and her heart is for only him to keep .•~

The end

Yep I wrote that last paragraph and I'm proud of it just as I am for the rest of the story so I really hope you like it 😍🌹

@sweetmemories2606

@juvialos-blog

@lovelocksers

@allie-and-her-fandoms ahhh I cant find you its frustrating sorryy !

Thanks to all of you for all the love in the last one I appreciate it I hope you like this one !🌹

[audiovisualrecall]

So I started making my comic of part of my story, because I figured im not a writer, I wouldnt have a clue how to write this, but I have the plot, I know what happens (for at least this whole first part, enough to draw and write brief descriptions and fill speech bubbles) in the story, and I think visual's the way to go. So I sketched out the whole plot of part 1, and started making the pages, and I then got distracted after doing page 2, and I still have page 3 and then the 2-4 over the years pages that come before what I dubbed 'page 1' to do. But I got distracted and I figure I'll go back to it sooner or later, nbd. But then we rewatched the hobbit and the fellowship of the ring, and I started rereading the hobbit and even though I've been reading fics - many very very good, amazingly well written fics - theres just something about Tolkien's storytelling style/narration that really just. Inspired me. So I wrote an entire random scene from part 2 of the story, which doesnt have half as many definite details as part 1, which again, I was doing as a comic book. And now im really excited about the idea of writing part 2 of my story as an actual story. Just going for it. Because I really liked the snippet I wrote. It didnt borrow from tolkein so much as his writing woke the writer part of me back up, and it was like the way I used to write before I decided I wasnt any good at it after all. And so I was sitting in bed wondering how I would make it work, because if part 1 is a, like, 10 pages maximum visually-focused comic book, and part 2 is a novel, how does that work? If I wanted to publish it, eventually, if it ever comes to be anything. Part 1 isnt long enough to be anything on it's own, but it's weird to stick comic pages at the beginning of a book and then change to text. And then I had an idea, so part 1 would be a free comic book story online, and I could also do as a thin little book people could buy from my shop, but I could also write a novella of part 1 as well, which would be it's own book or be in the same book as part 2. And im not only thinking like this because publishing but because I want the parts of the story to fit together, to be the same form of media, without making the comic book a waste of time or forgetting about it, because I definitely love it and I think part 1 needs to be a comic before I can write it tbh, though i have more ideas for part 2.

Im also rethinking some things about part 2's story a bit, like some of the worldbuilding I did, im changing or expanding on. Im inspired by escapist fantasy that simultaneously deals with realities that arent fun, but focuses on the light in the dark.

I doubt mine will be like that per se, because I'm not really a great writer, but. It's still inspired by the feeling I get from stories like that. I still have a lot of things to figure out, including the names if everyone including the damn main character themself. Names are hard! I keep balking at even thinking about it, because I dont know enough about the world the story is set in, and I need a name for the world too. And what year of their calendar parts of the story take place during. So many things. (I do want my culture - Judaism - to be a part of it, despite it being an entire different universe and world than our own.)

Also the story is going to balance identity and specifically nonbinary experience and transphobia, sexism, gender, along with dragons and dragonriding and a world that isnt ours and has different culture. (Some things stay the same and other things are different, but their society is changing and the main character is going to stir things up on purpose once they realize that they can make an impact)

[pumpkinsy0]

summary in case u dont wanna read: y does this fandom COMPLETELY ignore the racial tensions in the 1960s, especially when this book takes place in TULSA

hey guys uhhh ik this acc is always all “happy happy joy joy” but to be serious w yall for a second

why does this fandom ignore the racial aspects if the 1960s????? like ofc ik it wasnt a big part of the story like at all, but it was still a BIG part of their time period

and yea ik it was kinda brushed on in twttin it wasnt rlly talked about more by the book OR the fandom

and no this isnt me saying “u should always be focusing on the racial aspects in ur fanfics of the outsiders!!!!!” what im saying is stop completely ignoring it, it was a very much real thing

and for the love of GOD dont treat it like just a regular old angst prompt, treat it like a real thing bc it was and IS a real thing

also the book is in tulsa fucking oklahoma yknow, where the tulsa race massacre occurred??????where a white mob attacked black owned homes and businesses for 18 hours straight?????it literally happened in 1921 the people who lived through and witnessed all that happening in tulsa were most likely still very much alive while the events of the book was happening and passing in their racist beliefs onto their family

and yknow what im gonna say it, i feel like the fandom doesnt rlly talk about racism in the 60s when it comes to the outsiders bc half of this fandom is white people, ur either 1) to scared to talk about the topic bc ur afraid ur gonna offend poc or just dont know how to or 2) u just straight up ignore it bc its fiction well heres my rebuttal 1) u can talk or write about racism in ur fanfics without saying slurs, derogatory, terms etc., you could literally just show the experience of a poc in the 1960s, just read real accounts from poc in the 1960s or somethin 2) this book is realistic fiction, the characters and plot lines r all fiction, but the actual setting, time period, n all that jazz are all REALISTIC the racism didnt just magically go away

and ik niggas r gonna go on and say “just ignore it it wasnt a big part of the story🤓” “SE Hinton didnt talk about racism in the book” se hinton is a white woman who made the book in 1967 i can assure u she didnt even give a second thought to talk about it in her book and im a poc and i dont have the pleasure of “just ignoring” the racism, Mackenzie , this post might not get a lot of traction like my other post for obvious reasons but at least you cant say i didnt say anything, plus if that happens all that would do is prove my exact fucking point

and ik some of yall r gonna b uncomfortable reading this but i cant find a singular fuck to give so take it up w ya mama or somethin🤷🏽‍♀️

PS dont make a white savior fan fic