#oml i have sm on my mind today😭😭

[batshikns]

when i think of Chuuya, I can't decide if I think of the elegant, lovely(?), dangerous, sharp mafia executive or the (tiny) himbo who wears baseball caps and baggy tank tops while sharpening rock into a dagger

[2truehearts]

kassie omgg!! 😭💗 missed you more <3 dw, i’m alright and we don’t need to kick ass today, hehe. (/lh) it’s literally 3 AM and i’m not able to sleep as of rn, it’s so cold for no reason & i have to be up at like 7 🫨.. ooh, also my mom randomly got a baby western painted turtle from her job!! we’re planning on letting her loose after a while since it’s a bit expensive to take care of one as a pet 😿

i never thought i’d see the day where i’d find a good ship name for cyno & i, but i randomly had the idea to use a name combiner and i quite like this one!! i present to you, my dearest bffl, my bestie . . . cynna! out of the possible options i liked this one the most 😽

this is getting a lil long, hope you don’t mind!! 🫂 but what time is it for you rn? i swear, the absolute majority of my moots are 7-12 hours ahead of me, it’s cruel. 😾

NAUR I MISSED YOU MORE END OF ARGUMENT 🫵😠 (/lh). HELP YONA SJJFDJJK babe pls sleep soon YOU HAVE LESS THAN 4 HOURS TO SLEEP PLEASEDHFFDHJK 😭😭😭 and OH MY GOD THAT'S LITERALLY SO COOL AAAAAAA and NOOOO that's so sad but yeah i get you, having any pet is kinda expensive BUT i hope y'all enjoy your time with her before she goes !! i'm sure she will too 💕💕 OML CYNNA I JKHFDSHJKJJFSJS ITS SO CUTE AND PERFECT FOR YOU TWO AAAAA MY HEART IS MELTING you have great taste for choosing that option bffl fr fr WOOHOO!! cynna is just so,,,, JFKSDJHDFKFDS ADORABLE I LOVE IT SM ☹️🫶🫶  NOO I DON'T MIND YONA PLEASE I LOVE IT ACTUALLY DW!! and my time rn is exactly 3:27pm !! and yeah i get you, timezones suck ass so much they can even beat me ugh 😕😕 /hj

[justalildumpling]

HAHA OFCCCC, i love sending u asks you're so nice, you're so fun to talk to oml

Gonna share something i find so funny bc you're my bff 🫢

So like this popular girl who is a narcissist, i met her on the first day and she had to be the first person omg i hate my life sm i regret talking to her but anyway-

She is always making everything like a "i am/have better person/thing" like everytime we talk she is always like that and I'm tired, I'm an extrovert but she knows how to drain all of my energy 😔

Like everyone asked me why am I so quiet today bc im always so loud 😭

So basically she listens to bp and before she went full on narcissistic, she was like rly respectful, not like hating me for listening to kpop, she didn't like it much but she was respectful about it so i was like all happy and stuff, but mind YOU she listens to bp

Anyway so she played blinding nights by the weekend and i was like i love this song and he is like my fav pop artist and she was like same, i like Bruno Mars too and i was like "i like chase atlantic and the neighborhood" and she was like "no one cares about your k-pop bands" BRO i literally was fighting the urge to slap her face but i was like "chase atlantic and the neighborhood aren't k-pop bands" and then she was like "oh" and rolled her eyes. Tbh it was peak comedy to me cuz she was annoyed by me today and she tried to insult me but she insulted herself and she thinks she has the best taste out of all and says Taylor Swift's music sucks, i was like girl-

I'm tired, i cant break my friendship with her but I'm struggling to continue it and there is so much more, she once was like when we were allowed to wear our own outfits for a special occasion she went "today, i was judging everyone's outfit in my mind, my eyes were bleeding bc how awful everyone looked, you can ask [her boring bff], i teared up" and i was like fighting the urge to say "you literally look like a clown but ok" everyone looked so good but it is just her fashion sense ig 😭

Yeah there is more but I'm tired of her

And lastly don't you think swim by chase atlantic gives like hyuck vibes? Am i the only one like every time i hear that songs i think abt him lolo

And how is your day !!!

holy shit. ok first of all, remaining to be friends with her is only going to hurt you even more in the long run so no matter how hard it is, it's probably best that you let go because you do not want to be friends with a narcissist (speaking from experience) and even if she isn't, she still seems v toxic and do you rlly want someone like that in your circle?

anyways, CHASE ATLANTIC OAFOWFBWF I LOVE THEM!!! but now that u mention it swim does kinda give off hyuck vibes!!🤩

but i've been pretty busy today, had to go to some class for like 6 hours but it wasn't too bad actually🤔

[early20sfailingplenty]

(Sorry my response is so late!! I hate timezones sm😩 I'm glad you're okay!!! hhhhh sounds like yesterday was a good day!!!!🥰I hope today goes well for you too!! I'm okay thank you - drowning in uni work as always & my WIPs are keeping me sane lmfao).

Thank you for such an in-depth response!!! I adore your thoughts oml please🥺😭

I do wonder sometimes (read: every time I write for the brothers) how a healing process would go for them as individuals; it would be a long, hard road but I like to think that if they had someone outside of Ambrose who came in and bonded with them and helped them to realise just how bad it is - their childhoods, the depths of depravity they live in and such. I mean, I'm sure they're aware of it, but sometimes having it pointed out from someone who wasn't there makes you realise how bad it is. (I can relate to that, too😩😩😩 it's scary sometimes to look back and realise what was actually going on, though in our memories it just seems normal or not a big deal at all. I'm so sorry you've had these experiences). I don't mean uwu swoop in and save them uwu (love doesn't fix; it eases the way somewhat haasdfghjk you know what I mean!) but I just... the Sinclairs being loved genuinely and finding healing and peace over the years together omg please they deserve that.🥺🙏

You have such a strong grasp of their characters omg it's incredible!!!😍💗 I think you're right! It's like when he trauma-dumped on Wade and Carly (though Brian confirmed Bo's just making it up, there's still a clear tendency there to spill things in a story-type way when he gets asked a question or sees an opportunity to do so); he was all blase and casual about it but Carly and Wade were like, "that's terrible", so Bo's almost certainly detached from it all. hhhh I wonder if he'd think your tears are fake? Like depending on how long you've been together (long enough that his walls are crumbling), he might wonder if there's some kind of fear that you're joking or faking the emotion because he just doesn't see what the big deal is and he can't compute at first how bad things are. hhhhhh that's very true!!! Same as, if it's that bad, the mind naturally blanks traumatic events out as a way of protecting itself, so there might even be gaps in Bo's memory which perhaps his brothers can fill in.

YES omg I agree about Vincent and Lester too!! Vincent saw everything which was going on and undoubtedly did what he could to soothe Bo's cries and such when they were alone in the bedroom (omg please I'm so soft for their dynamic🥺) and while he knows where his parents fucked up (like teaching him that he needed to hide his face rather than helping him to accept things he can't control and teaching him to love himself like they should have done), he also wants to remember them. It's a complicated relationship with their memory but the brothers work so hard on finishing their momma's legacy so there's also love and such there. hhhhh please! Lester could probably help Bo and Vincent to deal with things from the past which are hurting them now; he seems like he's detached enough from the past to be able to objectively help the twins when/if they needed/wanted it.

I adore your thoughts sm omg thank you for sharing them with me!!!!🌸

Kosh ~ 💕💕💕💕

Okay so you know we sometimes go uwu soft over the Sinclairs; getting upset because of their childhood, the reality of their lives etc. All that fix it fic stuff and I just... I wonder how they'd take it. If they told their s/o the things we see unfold in canon, and s/o reacts like we do - 🥺😭😍💖 - getting upset for Bo, wanting to give them love etc etc like??? I don't think they'd know what to do, especially Bo. What do you think? I realise how out of field this is so you don't have to respond if you don't want to, I just wanted to ask because your responses are always golden hhhhh🥺💕

(How are you? I hope you're doing well!!💕)

(I'm good!!! I had a really good day going to estate sales and hanging out with my roommate. How are You?)

This is... such a good question omg. To be honest coming from a family of abuse my first instinct is to say they'd react much in the same I do to things like that. For YEARS I've just been telling stories about my fucked up family like 'oh you know that's the way it goes' and then only recently I realized I've been kinda suppressing the memories and feelings about those experiences and really took in how absolutely fucked my life has been and what that stuff did to me long term.

So uh yeah I think to relay his life and what he went through when he was younger is something Bo does without considering the reality behind it. He states it all as just the facts of his life and when you react appropriately I think it would catch him off guard. "It was years ago, you don't have to feel sorry for me." But the more you're soft with him the more he starts to see just how right you are and how fucked his life has been. He doesn't regret the later parts, when he and Vincent decided to take the town as their own and all. He didn't consider his childhood to be happy, but you can push down the worst of every memory with enough effort and anger.

Vincent and Lester are sliiiightly more well adjusted. Vincent prefers to dwell on happy memories of his parents but acknowledges their extensive list of mistakes and every terrible thing they did to Bo- the memories he holds dear are ones he holds for himself. Lester has fewer memories of his parents and the ones he has are primarily not the best. I don't think he was very old when everything went really wrong in the family, but I also think he's more easily able to come to terms with it. He seems like he'd be proactive about his past and problems, and just like he's got his own stuff going on outside of the town (whether picking up roadkill is his official job or not) he'd probably have worked through his past on his own or have had a bit of therapy.

I hope this helps maybe it's a bit opinionated but yeah