#omg its so close!!!!111!!! /pos

[starriestn1ghts]

idk what to call this

who was gonna tell me bdays are scary???

-Isaiah

[emogen-heaney]

List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last 10 mutuals who reblogged something from you. Spread the happiness and positivity!!

(skip to end for a tl:dr ("too long: dont read"), aka a summary of the list if you so please your majesty)

1. listening to music with headphones by myself or through a speaker with my friends

2. my friends!! ik that sounds basic but my friends are genuinely my biggest source of happiness, i love that many of my close friends are okay with me being physically affectionate and with my love languages, theyre seriously the absolute best <33

3. seeing angel numbers!! lately ive been seeing a LOT of 111, but ive also seen a bit of 222, 333, 444 and ik its not an angel number but ive been unintentionally catching the time as 11:11 more often than usual so thats fun

4. PHYSICAL AFFECTION i sound. like a fucking 2014 slightly less emo version of my oldest sister (derogatory). anyways i love physical affectionnnn!!!!! i love hugging my friends SO much i do it literally all of the time i love having my arms around their lower half, tucking my chin on their shoulder and (with whom are comfortable, aka one (1) person) kissing their cheek as they work or explain to you gay nerd shit™ you dont understand and i loOVE kissing my bffs in platonic places oh my mmmmmm!!!!!!! /nsx. i love kissing!!!! but like, not with two mouths!!!!!!! omg places like forehead, cheek, nose, chin if im at an awkward angle, back of their neck (like at the top, not where its seen as sort of sexual or anything), collarbone, shoulder, arms, hands, oh my god THATS MY SHIT!!!!!! /POS

5. being alive. mm yeah okay lemme get sappy w you for a bit bare (/ref you're welcome @curious-georg) with me here; i am happy to be alive. a year ago, two, probably even fucking three by now, i didn't think i'd be able to even think that. i didnt think that would ever be me, that i would ever think living was worth sticking around for. i thought it was troublesome, burdening, annoying and overall stupid that i had to live and it was a lose-lose situation—living im miserable, but dying i make everyone who actually gave a shit sad for a while and trust me i. know. that. shit. hurts. and long story short i didn't wanna fucking live. as depressing as that sounds, its honest. but now? i am happy to be alive. im happy that i get to see people laugh, smile, their eyes, holding hands, bubbles, alley cats, color changing speakers, jack daniels, movies from [totally not illegal websites] and rewatching my newest comfort movie, being in love even if yes its 100% with my ex and i am genuinely not ashamed of that, i am happy that i am here to live through those the good and bad and i am happy that i get to experience these things. life can be really worth living, when you think about it.

tl:dr version of list

1. music

2. my friends

3. angel numbers

4. physical affection

5. being alive (/srs)