#olivia jane penpraze

[bulimic-x-kittens]

in australia where livvy was from & where her family lives, it's her birthday.

February 2nd, 1993, Olivia Jane Penpraze was born. She would've been 31 today.

happy heavenly birthday liv, we love & miss you so much. 💖

[never-just-another-dead-girl]

"Remember yourself as a little girl, she is counting on you to protect her" - Olivia Penpraze

These are all photos of Liv when she was younger, and they really hit you hard knowing she grew up to hate herself so much that she resorted to taking her own life.

Never alone；never just another dead girl.

[wkpenpraze]

5 Years have past, we will never forget you.... love you always  xxx

[ilragazzoluna]

Il bullismo deve essere fermato.

Nessuno merita di soffrire di bullismo, nessuno! 

Per favore, ponete una fine al bullismo. 

E ricordate che io vi voglio bene e così tanti altri.

[ripbullying]

Olivia Jane Penpraze, fue una chica australiana de 19 años quien sufrió de bullying, desencadenando en ella muchos problemas psicológicos, paranoias y delirios.  Se suicido el 08 de abril del 2012. 

[barakatandcookies]

I just saw a picture of Vic Fuentes and Olivia Jane Penpraze (the inspiration for the song Bulls In The Bronx) and I'm crying. That girl was stunning, absolutely gorgeous, yet people made her feel horrible. I have no words. We live in a world full of monsters, monsters who put kind people down. I didn't know Olivia personally but seeing that picture, the way she's hugging Vic and smiling, I can see she was a living angel. Now she got her wings, she's at least happier where she is but the world lost a wonderful person when she decided to end her life. The world in which we live is pure hell, I have been through some rough time myself, but I'm finally getting better because I've had people around me to help me, Olivia had no one, and that makes me sick because someone as beautiful and great as her deserve to have someone. I wish I could've known her and helped her, even though my help might not have made everything better, but it would have shown her that she could get through it. Instead of that, she took her life because we told her to do so. Humans are horrible creatures and I have something to say to the people who pushed Olivia to kill herself: don't you ever think you're going to get away with it. When you do bad things, bad things happen to you. At some point in your life, something bad, really bad, is going to happen to you because you decided not to help a poor girl who desperately needed something to hold onto to keep on breathing and you just made her feel even worse than she already felt. Olivia, I hope you're in a better place now, that you don't suffer anymore. I wish I could've known you, I wish I could've helped you. You were an amazing person and you didn't deserve any of the things you went through.

Rest in peace, Olivia. 1993-2012

[bulimickitty]

I miss Olivia so much...

[bulimic-x-kittens]

Olivia's sister in law and friend were at the Pierce the Veil show in Australia. The sister in law made it to the front row, the band and crew saw her sign and went to bring them backstage but she and the friend left right after the gig. If you didn't know Hold On Till May and Bulls In The Bronx is inspired and dedicated to Livvy.

[never-just-another-dead-girl]

^My header image

I think making collages is a beautiful way to remember Liv, her personality leaks through all these photos she uploaded and its a truly special way to remember her light and humour while she was in such a dark place.

The song lyric " 'cause with out you there is no me" is from a tattoo Liv had on her wrist, from a song called The Boy Who Could Fly, by the band Pierce the Veil, who both me and Liv have a special connection with.

She was human, she liked certain songs, and took photos of herself eating ice-cream with friends.

Never alone；never just another dead girl.

[too-nice-for-punk]

Olivia Jane Penpraze.

I see posts every where from people saying they wish they could have helped her, how bullying killed her. I never met her. But it irritates me enough to hear this. I can't even imagine being a member of her family/friend. I used to talk to her though. Every day. She would message me on tumblr, asking how my day was and how I was holding up. She was caring. Naturally I would do the same. She told me the bullying was tough but that's not why she's not here with us today. She suffered from multiple mental disorders, including schizophrenia. Nobody can even imagine how tough that would be. Not being able to tell the difference from what is real and what is a figment of the imagination. She would tell me over and over again that this was the number one reason she wanted out. Of course I always tried to convince her to stay strong, I told her she could fight it. Pull through. I told her this because that's what I wanted of her. Did I think it was possible? That's another story. I don't know what it's like to suffer from schizophrenia. Unless you have it you cannot even begin to imagine... I think she knew I thought that... That I wanted her to be safe but I wasn't sure if she ever could be. It really hurts to see the sudden movement and talk about stopping bullying because they obviously never knew her. I say this and I never even met her; yet I can still feel so strongly about it. I can't imagine what being a close friend or family member would be like. Suddenly seeing all these people talk about how beautiful she was and how she didn't deserve it. Which is true, she was beautiful; she is beautiful. She didn't deserve the bullying, nobody does. I hoped that with the way everyone was talking maybe bullying would die down a bit... But it didn't at all. I personally didn't see any difference. There's a boy in my school, he showed his class the video of her and talked about bullying. While in reality he was going home and typing multiple people "kill yourself". He only spoke lies. I'm sure he's not the only one. I wish he was. I wish nobody was a bully. Bullying does kill. It destroys you from the inside. It's not something you can stick a bandage over. Words are always there. Being repeated and repeated in your head. So imagine being Olivia. Just for a second. You have schizophrenia, enough words in your heard? Nope. Add on the bullies she had to suffer to. Olivia was and always will be, a beautiful girl who did not deserve any of the pain she went through. I miss her every day. Talking to her, cheering her up, being cheered up by her. But she's not the only one. People need to remember that. Now, she wasn't a stranger to me. If someone like me can say that people need to remember she's not the only one then I think strangers can too. Mourning is expected but it's been a long time. 90% of mourners didn't even know her. We need to move on, not forget, no never forget her. But we need to move on and concentrate on the bullies of today and those who suffer. We need to be putting our effort towards helping them. Never forget Olivia, but remember every one else.

[twerkthirty]

Everyone, this is Olivia Jane Penpraze, the inspiration for the song Bulls In The Bronx off of the album Collide With The Sky by Pierce The Veil. She had posted a video on her Tumblr saying good bye and how much she could not take her depression, psychosis, or how ugly she thought that she was, but you see, she wasn't ugly. She was amazingly beautiful and stunning and I wish, I fucking wish that she would have stayed alive just long enough for her to see that. To see that not only is she beautiful, but it gets better. After the video was posted, people watched, and then they told her to just do it. They egged her on, and that makes me completely sick to my stomach. They could have saved her, I could have saved her, WE could have saved Olivia. There was a tiny possibility that in which any of us could have helped, regardless if we were strangers. But instead of helping, we as humans chose hate. This leaves me with the feeling of being hallow. I'm not saying we, as in you or me or him or her but someone: Someone human like us chose to hate instead of help. Olivia, I wish I knew you. I wish I could have helped you. Even if the help was small, and didn't do very much, at least you would have known that someone cared about you. Olivia, you are so beautiful. Rest In Peace Liv, 1993-2012

[okaypapergirllabyrinthsuffering]

Hi, we dont know you, but can we say thank you for your lovely note, containing all of Olivia's friends names here from Tumblr that you left at her memorial site. Please all be safe and take care, look out for each other, and dont be afraid to contact family in times of need. As parents we would have liked to have known when things were at there lowest, only because you are all very good at hiding your emotions. much love to all of you. Kellie & Warren

I don’t know if you’ll ever come back to my page, but thank you for this.

Guys, this is a message from Liv’s parents to all of us who had our urls on the note I left at her memorial yesterday.

Live for Liv.

[lame-errante]

[littlemissnoteverything]

Found this on a memorial website, made me tear up. Had to share. 

[bulimic-x-kittens]

12 years and you're still my sleeping beauty.