#oliver is like “he did the reading?? 😮‍💨😮‍💨"

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cattonquick meet ugly: illegal foxhunter x animal rights activist

A/N: So, apparently, some rich people in the UK still do illegal foxhunting - and they clash with hunt saboteurs who try to prevent hunting through direct action. My "knowledge" of this comes from having chatted to @leiflitter about it and having seen like two docs on youtube

„Sabs!!! Disperse!“

„Fuuuck,“ Felix groans. He had hoped to get through the day by trailing along listlessly and letting the rest of the riding party get into it while he nursed his hangover. Which was hard enough to do on horseback, mind you.

But now, there's a general sense of commotion, and when he sees three people dressed in black appear on the clearing, he instinctively steers Bubblegum Prince into the woods.

He wonders where he put his phone, because now he is gonna have to navigate back by himself, when suddenly, a guy appears in front of him.

Dressed in all black, face covered, feet planted firmly in the middle of the trail, blocking his way.

"Dismount!" he yells, some kind of stick or baton in his hand, as Felix desperately pulls on the reigns to keep Bubblegum Prince from trampling the guy.

"Are you insane?" Felix yells back.

"Dismount the horse!" the guy yells, causing Bubblegum Prince to rear. Felix clamps his thighs down and holds on for dear life.

He gets seriously jostled as Bubblegum Prince lands on his feet again, but he's still up there. "Fuck," he breathes. 

He takes the moment to get himself down before he can fall. He stumbles as his feet hit the ground, and Bubblegum Prince immediately takes off into the woods.

Which leaves him with his next problem. "Real animal lover you are," he says. "Shut up," the guy spits. He hasn't moved but he seems a little rattled, too.

Fucking lunatic, jumping in front of a running horse with a telescope stick. Which he is still gripping like he is ready to fight.

"Do you have a death wish?" Felix demands.

"If I have one, so do you. Capitalism is a death cult." Felix blinks. What?

The guy lowers his weapon. “Capitalist production is doomed because it progressively destroys the original sources of its wealth – nature and the worker.”

"The soil," Felix corrects before he can help himself.

"What?" The guy seems taken aback. His blue eyes narrow between his cap and the scarf that's covering his mouth and nose.

"The soil," Felix repeats. "Nature is such a 70s holistic hippie way of looking at it. Anachronistic, really."

He steps closer. "Marx thought in terms of material. Grit, oil, muscle, sweat, steel mill fires. The raw material and the vulgar means of production." He pauses. "Soil."

The guy is staring at him.

"You of all people should know..." He takes a breath before the pièce de resistance. "Oliver."

***

"I don't know what you're talking about", Oliver lies.

But Felix's eyes glint. "Oh, yes. We're in the same class. Introduction to Economic Theory."

This is highly inconvenient. Of course they're in the same class. Oliver knows this because this is Felix Catton. Who is everything Oliver is opposed to - generationally wealthy, heritage student, doesn't give a shit about class. And apparently, goes foxhunting, too.

Problem is that even though he despises Felix Catton and everything he stands for, Oliver has had a demented, nasty, shameful crush on him since they started at Oxford this autumn.

And what's worse, he is proving Oliver wrong because he apparently did the reading.

"No, we're not," he attempts.

"Professor Ware, I have another question. Actually it's more of a statement..." Felix imitates. It's a truly horrid impersonation.

"You're like, prolonging the class everytime," Felix continues. "All my friends hate you."

"Must be doing something right, then" Oliver mutters.

"So it is you," Felix says, victorious.

"Ok, so what? What's much more interesting is THE Felix Catton on an illegal foxhunt..." Oliver tsks. He takes one step towards Felix.

"You're trespassing," Felix says haughtily. "And you're in violation of the Hunting Act of 2004."

Before they can think of a way to continue, there's a sound a few meters away. Someone on a horse, breaching the area.

Felix grabs Oliver and pulls him behind a tree.

"What are you..." -"Shhh."

Felix is clearly hiding from his own party. They're pretty close together.

"You think being able to quote some "Capital" absolves you of the exploitative nature of your class position?" Oliver hisses, as Felix's fingers dig into his biceps.

Felix looks at him. Up close, his eyes are so pretty.

"You were misquoting," he says.

"And you correcting me is just you trying to assert your class position by trying to demonstrate that your kind is better educated and that I'm stupid. When the truth is that it is only because of that position, not because of intellectual merit, that you even go to Oxford."

Felix smiles. "Can't imagine how embarrassing it must be for a nerd like you to misquote the thinker you like to wank off to."

***

This is fun. Well. Fun-er than whatever he was doing before. He watches Oliver pull down the cloth from over his nose and mouth.

"So...is it true what they say about you?" Oliver says.

"What?" Felix asks, even though he has an inkling what he is referring to.

Oliver sticks his tongue into his cheek while moving his hand suggestively. Miming a blowjob. Referring to a widespread rumor that Felix sucked off one of his teachers to get a better grade.

Oliver doesn't look all that high and mighty though. He looks...intrigued.

"Why?" Felix says, smiling. He leans a little closer to Oliver. "What's it to you?"

***

Felix smells like the woods, but not the real woods. A fantasy version. Perfume ad version.

He smells like the fake woods and his eyes are so pretty and he is close. Real close, and tilting his head.

Oliver's eyes flutter shut. He can hear Felix breathing, he can feel it.

And...nothing.

Nothing, and then: Laughter. Oliver's eyes fly open.

Felix is still close, too close. "Fucking loser," he whispers, then withdraws his face.

Oliver's blood turns cold.

"This is not only despicable, but illegal, by the way," he says.

"Cool. But you're not gonna tell on me, are you?" Felix puts a hand on his own heart. "I would hate for your saboteur buddies to know how much you'd like to...You know." His hand on Oliver's cheek. "Eat the rich."

[bigblab-talktotalk1]

I feel a lot of people misunderstand Portia in why she ask about Colin's love

One thing I find really disheartening about reactions/opinions on this episode is the conceptual clap backs of "Did Debling love her?!?!"

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Because that response makes me feel someone is missing something in the storytelling. As a response, it has never made sense to me, because.... he never had to!

'Lord Debling was a reasonable match." This guy has acted in every single way The Gentleman. This guy has money, this guy came to Lady Featherington like a respectable adult and asked for Penelope's hand, this guy will be absent, and so THIS guy also Won't Hurt Her! She laid this out in episode 4, To Portia he is an IDEAL catch.

Then comes this news of Bitch-boy Colin (painting from a Portia-esque perspective), that she read IN WHISTLEDOWN!! He does not hold water with her 🚫 This Season, all she has seen of this dude is that he is a flirt. "The most desired man of the season." Regardless of what she thinks Penelope's feelings likely are, she only sees that Colin is NOT serious about her. Freshly back from galavanting across the sea, she does see Colin as serious PERIOD. All the letters Pen wrote, All the teas at Bridgerton house....for years Portia has watched him NEVER WANTING HER! Yet somehow an engagement occurred some time between her daughter leaving a party and family breakfast the next morning... 🤨🧐 Chat shit right?? Her mind must be screaming: HELP ME UNDERSTAND! (In a snarky, passive aggressive way - because she's the one)

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Portia has a right to feel awful disrespected that Colin "I'm a gentleman" Bridgerton didn't come to her first. Like they don't have beef!! 😳 He's been engaged to someone from the Featherington household before, yet... there was no wedding. But Pen (who she thinks of is having less attractions than Marina) somehow is different?

You know who extended the olive branch to the Featherington name to help saved them from drowning in the social ruin of the reveal of Marina's pregnancy? DAPHNE! He was mad at Marina sure, but you know who he showed he didn't care what happened to while he turned his back? You Penelope!! 🤷🏻‍♂️He could have helped soften the blow like Kate, Edwina, and Anthony tried to do after their failed wedding. But he didn't. And that's who Pen threw away an entire future to gamble on?? 🫨😣

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And while Portia doesn't know it yet, the fault for them being in that super precarious social is the SAME EXACT fucking person who is standing in front of her like she don't smell her own shit!! (personal mad when sitting in Portia's perspective)

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THAT 'S the guy Pen wants Portia to celebrate, who Pen believes is a better choice. Portia's looking for the better. "What more can you ask for?" she says an episode 4. The only thing Penelope seemed to believe held her back from commiting to Debling as her husband is this 'Love' nonsense. So if Colin is the Superior choice, he must be giving her what she thought was missing from a marriage, something she thought Debling couldn't provide!

"You have it?" - Portia.

Penelope says she's SURE he CARES about her. But 'care' wasn't the exceptional parameter? To be so certain that you just threw away a good 90% qualification-meeting gentleman, you must have heard this truth that gives you that 10% to match the fantasy were "LOVE"(which Big P don't believe in) is. Right? You thought, you know, but what did he say it??? Has he told you he's giving you what makes choosing him over Debling worth it? Are you getting what you gambled for?!

Portia looks DEFEATED because Pen is betting on fantasies and wishes, without even the vocalized proof of Colin's feelings!!!!!!

"Oh Penelope"= "Girl I feel bad for you", "you sweet summer child." She's repulsed that Pen was SO short-sighted.

I feel like while her reaction is extreme and harsh, it really isn't too difficult to imagine a semi-reasonable parent (with Portia's trauma) may be distraught hearing that their daughter chose to follow a career in ..... like the Arts, that she loves (Colin), when she already had a place at Yale law School (Debby). Without Colin's declaration it's like she mailed in her withdrawal letter and is packing to move into an artist collective commune -- without a lease! Not even guaranteed a spot, setting fire to your previous life plans! It is not right, and it is not okay to treat your children as if they need to live their life as you would. However, for someone who holds security above all Pen has thrown away her last chance at a good life. Pen has shattered a chance at bedrock that Portia knows Pen don't even understand how much she should value! Portia has shielded her from how it feels to watch the ground you've built your life on crumble from underneath her. The fear of having no husband, no son, and no money. Which I think adds to the anger in her tone.

Debling never NEEDED to love Penelope. Why he was a better, more secure match than Colin was everything BESIDES love. What makes Debling a valuable prospect has a very little overlap with what makes Colin Penelope's first choice. Therefore trying to grade them on the same standard..... it doesn't matter if Portia cares about love, it doesn't matter if Debling would EVER say he loves Penelope. So while it matters if Colin has told her that he loves her, he's the only one who has to.

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I do not think she is right all the time, or even often. But one can likely tell from the above that I'm a Portia Featherington fan. I'm a fan of food in tummies and shoes on feet. Did she decide she needed big bucks to eat and dress the way she wanted.......👀🙄

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As someone who looks at Colin as an insecure 23-year-old male... He is my baby. I defend all his big emotions. When he's having a temper-tantrum, I let him kick himself tired. I'm never villainizing him for basically anything he says or does because..... I know he's really a soft boy. And I know Pen doesn't mind. But that doesn't mean we can blame Portia (without having the audience view) for seeing him differently.

[laylawatermelon]

Buddie: it's The Way It's Played

Aka don't hate the player hate the game or whatever.

(i promise the is Buddie at the halfway point if you just want meta)

I woke up pondering about edy's comments and found it a bit funny and ironic because she probably doesn't know just like we don't know.

Oliver recently talked about how he wasn't heavily involved in this upcoming episode 2 so he'll be getting to watch it for the first time with us.

It's the same case with her. In her eyes she does her few scenes and goes home.

In her head she is the chosen love interest and she is indeed being asked to come back.

The second half of the season hasn't publicly been announced (or fully filmed I assume) so she's just as oblivious as we are.

What I will say is that celebrities should know to not be in the spaces of fandom and don't get heavily involved.

Especially with shippers.

As a fangirl I have always been protective, I would say, over my stuff but I made like a rule that I don't reply or have online arguments.

(mostly because i get riled up easily in real life and it's dangerous imagine doing it with a complete stranger or a mob of them if we're being fr because there's never just one person arguing with you.)

It's likely millions or billions 🙃

Also as a fangirl, I don't mind shipping or not shipping.

Do what you want, I don't care.

I grew up in the good ole don't like scroll away time.

What I'm getting at is that some people are more comfortable on online spaces. Some are more quiet (like me) but they're there.

I've recently become disillusioned slowly over the years of Hollywood ( all the woods honestly) glamour so when they are shown or said to be bad people I treat them as such.

Cause they're that.

People.

Who do good and bad stuff all the time.

Granted we don't a camera or constant surveillance or record (or funds) all the time, but I'd bet we said/did bad stuff.

Now in Hollywood's case their stuff is mainly criminal/jail/wtf is going on over there?!??!

In her case, I'm not surprised.

There's people who are homophobic/transphobic and everyphobic (and -ist!!) in the world so of course they would be in show business.

Cause they're people. We got people (like millions of them, a concerning number in worldwide leadership positions but that's a story for another day...) like that all over.

Celebrities are not and never will be role models. They are public images projected onto a pretty body.

That's also the reason why I'm saying that she should shut her computer and cut her losses.

(a lot of celebrities should do that honestly)

But, it does let you know who to support and who not to.

And I'd rather know my enemy rather than worship a perfect image honestly.

I also think it's unwise to fight the people who are literally indirectly paying your bills.

There are 93k people (just on Tumblr) who ship the guys.

Even I know better and I'm a fan.

(i think it's because I'm a fan and ik how it can get I'm just an observer cause whew 😥😮‍💨)

That's not counting the ones not active here or casuals who agree with the pairing.

If they pay your bills walk on eggshells ma'am. You're job quite literally hinges on people liking you.

So be likable.

(once again I will reiterate as a fan/human with a heart let me know how bad you are so I don't give you my love if you're a bad person with shady morals.)

But as an observer it's like just shhhhhh. Please. The Internet is forever. There is no timeline for it. What are you doing??

If I'd say it it's like watching you drive a burning car driving down the street and you're sitting in it proudly waving and hitting people but insist you're right or a good person.

I'm just shocked at some people's let's say narrow thinking aka limited timeline thinking.

Fans and the Internet didn't forget. They will find you.👹

But I wanna talk about Buddie now!

Okay.

Now that we've criticized celebrity culture and the response of ms. Edy and her bad mindset (aka lack of critical reading and decision making with fandoms and responses in general also queerphobia?!) that honestly I appreciate.

Be a bad apple in public.

Imma stand on business.

Expeditiously 😤.

Bye bye support and hello uproar.

But back to Buddie 😘😚🤗😝, I wanna be clear I am a fan but I am also very critical of media.

It's the way they act.

Literally.

The reason Buddie even exists and is accepted is it's literally there. (Their fault)

There is no subtext.

The actors play it as such, the directors direct it as such and the marketing play it as such.

I'm a bit upset seeing y'all called clowns (although i hope it's said affectionately cause tone indicators or the lack of) because you're not crazy.

They quite literally put the battery in y'all backs so it shouldn't be surprising if the battery is more high powered than expected.

You are not misreading anything.

Most people just choose to ignore the signs because

(the church! Homophobia! All rhe -ias and ists!)

Truly our downfall as a modern society.

Anyways, as a writer and heavy media consumer there's no mistakes.

Every wprd is carefully chosen, every shot has a purpose and every cut is done. These things are practiced a thousand times, edited, retaked a thousand times if they have to.

There's no mistakes in media. It's literally made to influence, persuade and educate.

Nothing is a coincidence!

But after reading a few interviews and listening to the fandom I think we can also say with confidence they've been playing it as a romance.

There's nothing platonic.

They have platonic couples on the show.

That

is not it.

Even if you see it as pure writing without the context of their acting choices.

Let's say kitchen scene.

You wanna work it out in the ring (throws playful punches)

I'd take you.

I wouldn't do that. You're on blood thinners.

Buck steps closer to playfully intimidate him.

You wanna go for the title?

Now pause.

Ik we all know that scene religiously and can only see it as insane (because they are. It is.) but I read it in my mind as a blank sheet of paper and couldn't help but wonder.

Why would you say it like that?!??!!?

Mr. Oliver Stark and Mr. Ryan Guzman I sentence you will eternal jail cause wtfff?

I imagined it more platonically. You can quite literally put, let's say, Hen and Chim in that same scenario. Damn even Eddie and Chim.

Their acting choices would reflect that. Hell, read the lines without looking (or hearing their insane intonation) and imagine your best friend. Any friend for that matter.

It wasn't playful, it was well, sexually tense. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Ps i love buck 1.0 and was shooketh to see his return because i watched the show backwards. i did season 2-6 in like a week then begrudgingly did season 1. Me nah like abby ...

They are choosing to act it out as a romance.

Now that could lend itself to male partnership in movies (and real life) where they went to war together that were usually where gay/queer men had partnerships/relationships in every sense of the word.

The shows ain't got it from nothing. 🤷🏾‍♀️

There's always truth in fiction.

I also find out a bit hilarious to imagine the director tried to get them to stop but the takes were either too good or they kept pushing the envelope and the editors were like yes. 🤗

I will put this shot of them longingly staying at each other instead of the slightly less neutral one.

Or cut when they say we're the only ones who don't have kids (+buck) then cut to Buck being a good dad! 🤗

On a bit of a more serious note let's say it is a bit of manipulation of the masses marketing wise.

The show is very queer friendly with a (black!) lesbian couple, a gay man, an engaged (black!) gay couple and many queer stories of different races in their cases that are told wonderfully.

I acknowledge and comment them for it but ..

The big problem is how Buddie is treated. (Or rather the very rational people who ship them)

(which their name is kind of funny because I link it to buddy cop movies that can be homoerotic when they feel like it and buddie is technically that trope)

Homosexual media (in the case of film) has always been subtext, hidden, stereotyped, twisted or been outright secret messages for the girls to uncode (cause religion 🤷🏾‍♀️).

It has only been like very recent that queer people have been gaining respect in media so it's not surprising.

What life was like in 2019 to now in terms of queer media is like night and day. The same would be for the 2000s. Gay was used as an insult. The world is quite literally changing before our eyes.

In their case, the elf scene is said to be a wink at the audience.

But the actors took it seriously. So we do as well.

Aka the battery put in they back.

They respect the same vision. 😤goated

The chemistry is undeniable, and the tropes they have parallel a lot of romantic things used historically in media. (And in the show *bathena* but🤷🏾‍♀️)

It's not an accident to say that if one of them had been female (aka the "acceptable" pairing) they'd have been together.

You could argue that if he'd been with Maddie like intended they'd be together. And little jiyun would be a sister.

She might be a Jane actually??

Back on topic.

I found it interesting when watching like a compilation (cause i did nawt watch the show before become a buddie fan) and found it hilarious because it was like their normal behavior and i felt the romantic tension shift. It was like whoooaaa holup. The air shifted.

It's very easy to spot it because at the first few episodes it was very platonic then it became very side eye....

What do you mean he's cute? What do you mean wanna go for the title?

(That scene is eternally insane)

What do you mean with other couples they're paired as a family? Consistently?

What do you mean the kid and you go on solo family outings to the zoo? Constantly? For years?

You take care of him like all the time?

What do you mean he's your kid's legal guardian and partly the reason you lived after being trapped in a well?

The actors play it romantically. Ryan does cause I remember step up.

After like a year together? Over his family? Who are not firefighters??

Ik how he is when he's flirting.

The show also (unfortunately) writes their love interests as tools of self growth for them (which can be a bit problematic cause the women aren't being treated three dimensionally characters men get to be. the two who were closest were abby, and Taylor. Shannon was so so for me personally. Which is odd because they have complex main females it's just unfortunate that the women they have for them are rarely people outside of the relationship and that's why it falls apart in the case of their relationship/people getting invested).

Nobody is quite literally written as important to each other like them. They are in a relationship no doubt. We can say queer platonic now (as they are raising a kid together?!??!! Like come on. Chim and Hen aren't like Buck and Ed. Also the good cop bad cop scene?)

It's just not sexual I'd say.

Cause emotionally, mentally all that is there.

And they could absolutely play it "straighter" 🥴 cause I've seen a plethora of male friendships (slight side eye ry we got buddy cop movies galore don't play with me!!!) where they support each other.

They don't act like that!!!! Look at this and tell me I'm wrong!

(i feel insane but I'm not i swear)

the lighting, the cut, the conversation im melting~~~!!!!

It's not inaccurate to say that the way they're written (and acted!!) is more romantic than platonic.

I'd assume they couldn't let the two hot men who represent "manliness" be together because they didn't fit into a (gay) stereotype.

But they will gladly let you advertise their show to the high heavens and bring in millions of dollars in revenue, which does upset me ngl but 🤷🏾‍♀️ hey, can't hate the player hate the game right?

[captainaikus]

I am. I just. I cannot. BREAKING MIRRORS???? ADHKHHIJJDJHDHRHHHRHEH. Comfort? I feel like it’s been so long since I’ve read comfort on your blog 💀💀. Not that it’s a bad thing, the angst is exquisite, but like hurt/comfort is one of my favorite tropes. This was also exactly what I needed. I’ve been feeling really down abt my body lately how it’s too big and not proportioned right and how my face looks gross. Stuff like that you know? I was not expecting to be hit with this kind of comfort. It’s exactly what I needed so thank you so much for writing it.

Shirtless fictional characters are always a great motivation 😌. Oh speaking of which i might just hop on Pinterest and start looking for Izana fanart 👀👀. I WILL NEVER BE ANNOYED IF YOU START POSTING TR CONTENT ON YOUR BLOG WHETHER THEY BE FICS OR MANGA PANELS ILL TAKE THEM ALL. *ahem* Also. I went into the episode expecting to fall harder for Nagi. But no. I fell for Reo as soon as I saw him. THE HECK WHAT IS THIS SORCERY I DONT KNOW A SINGLE THING ABT HIM AND IM IN LOVE HES JUST AADGJKHFHHFRR YES. When you say you’re excited abt posting your angst wips my guard goes up immediately it’s not even funny anymore like pls I wanna say spare me but I also need more at the same time 😭💀. I read your post and I’m so excited for more Bachira and Chigiri content!!!! Bachira being my favorite character and all. And also Chigiri during the last episode shot an arrow into my heart. Even tho I had some reservations abt him before watching the episode its all good now. I have another pretty boy to love 🥰.

DUDE I NEED TO TALK ABT THE FIC CAUSE IM JUST ASTONISHED. Like Nagis was so so so sweet if made me go awww so many times. And Oliver made me giggle a lot it’s adorable. And Rins? Phew sir no need to mess with me like that 😮‍💨. I also really liked how you described all the negative thoughts of the reader. A lot of them are what I think abt myself when I’m not feeling the best so it was really relatable reading it. Thank you again I don’t think you know how much reading that meant to me it’s exactly what I needed seriously.

How are you btw? How’s uni? Also I’ve been meaning to ask but what’re some of your favorite things? Like in general? Shows and mangas and books and snacks etc? I always get on here ranting abt stuff but I wanna let you know that I wanna get to know you too. It’s a two way straight you know? Only if you’re comfortable sharing ofc. I hope you’re taking care of yourself and that you have a good day!! *sends virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

Starry! ♡⸜(˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝ I hope yk i changed the screensaver of my phone to tr - I blame you for that (lovingly ♡)

This is gonna be a long ask ;

So i had this idea for a while and since I have a hub of angst works on my blog, I wanted to try a hand at comfort but with an angst to fluff (yeah i love that troupe as well) the reason I made this piece is cause of both, to indulge myself in writing comfort as well as to comfort people who are reading it and another element was capturing the realism of it... like. Usually when I read body positivity fics... the details of it are very vague. I wanted to put in something that was more descriptive, reasons why you hate that part of yourself- tiny details that do matter; and I ended up creating this. I was hesitant in posting this at first but then I reminded myself that it was for me and for a person on the other side of the screen who could be comforted by it when they couldn't really talk about these to someone or just in general.

And I'm glad it worked ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡ And I hope you feel better now

I plan on making more editions and going further, it might include more sensitive topics as well-

Istg. When i saw kunigami without a shirt *saves image*, and Rin *saves image*, Nagi *saves image* but I really wanna see Oliver

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Oh god Izana fanart. I did find one on twitter and istg the amount I- reason for my laughter. (contemplating if i should make this my screensaver or not)

I have a tr content supporter!! I had an idea in mind for the tr boys in mind- and since i got hyped for it. I'm gonna start working on that once i read the manga cause i wanna make sure this fits in the character analysis as well. Rindou came to mind for some reason

Chigiri is pretty! I can't stress enough on how he looks good and I even figured the footballer he is based on- Reo is officially Nagi's caretaker; so mature.

Oml i'm making a reputation for myself with the angst i write... but there's the thing; for every angsty piece i write, i always make sure to put a sequel that is equally satisfying and comforting (in a weird way and not in the complete lovey dovey way) it takes time to make those because if I rush it, it doesn't end well with me being angry about the low quality I wrote and the readers being unsatisfied as well... but yeah I know what I wanna write for Bachira and Kaiser (yes. Kaiser is arriving on his royally spoilt ass on this blog)

Going back to the fic, so on how I write nagi I use a lot of the "..." cause I imagine him to be a timed pause speaker; as for Oliver. He is playful and yeah that made me giggle too. (its the 'cold cup of water' isn't it?) as for Rin go to horny jail *bonk* i couldn't imagine him to be the type to talk these kinds of problems out cause he is rude. and he knows it so he dommed his way through it (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) and i am not sorry.

So i know that my bio says 'part time model' but truth is; most of the content is based on my experience. like i mentioned before, the details of body positivity fics are very vague. But what I wanted to do was get down and dirty with it, expose everything and not keep it under wraps because it continues to be hidden yk? people can't openly talk about it when these kind of minor things do exist and they can cause a person's confidence to tarnish and maybe have other people think less of them. And I hoped that this would make someone's morning read when they're getting ready for college, uni, work etc. when they aren't feeling their best and need that kind of confidence... even if it is just from reading my works. and always, you're welcome !! it means a lot to me when my writing helps someone even in the smallest ways ♡꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱

i'm doing pretty well, working on some research papers and stuff, working out as well just having a slow and easy week and keeping everything in balance yk? Roomies are helping me with the weights at the gym- said i was a pussy if i didn't get another lift in. istg i'm gonna smack their ass with a wet towel this week

As for uni, new story. Another classmate of mine, lets call him victor, tall as a tree just walks up to me during recess the other day and goes 'that is one ugly shirt.' he looks like he hasn't even showered for a month and turned up to class wearing pajamas. fucking. pajamas. ugh. (I did tell him that if that's the way he flirts, I'm surprised his ex didn't break up with him sooner- i am not sorry. )

Some of my favorite things... hm. That's a tough one.

I like rainy days, dogs (i want a cerberus so badly- ⸝⸝⸝╸▵╺⸝⸝⸝; i'm good with cats but some of them like to scratch me for some reason?- childhood memory unlocked), pink shirts - i have a lot of them and my roomie steals them, warm blankets, swimming, basketball (i play), red roses, oceans, perfumes, plushies, bears and whales, music, working out, sketching, traveling, reading and just... talking to people.

Shows : I was watching skam (not the french one- the Norwegian one), normal people, extraordinary attorney woo young woo, dark (that. show.), sense8 is on my watchlist- i did watch a bit of it but never got to complete it, the tail of the nine tailed- i wanna finish it but it was stretched out and i didn't want to watch after a bit (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

My roomies are into k drama and they think anime is 'cartoon.' - when they see the budget used int he eps tho (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ)

Anime : there is a lot since I've been watching anime since i was 5, Zatchbell/ gashbell was my first and i watch it sometimes, sailormoon, bleach (never got completed), Jojo's bizarre adventure (watched it all the way to stone ocean- god. the joestar fam is so blessed, Lisalisa (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ) , Tokyo rev (i was watching it with my mom and she got mad when I watched an ep without her), death note (my dad got invested with it and then dropped it- let me see if i can get him to watch bllk this christmas cause he is a football maniac), kaichou wa maid sama (my fav misaki is my idol), blue exorcist, hanayori no dango (this was used to make boys over flowers), kuroko no basuke, Kamisama Hajimemashita (my mom loves it -), Tomie, another, naruto, yamishibai, AOT ( my siblings just have debates about the whole conspiracy on the table and this time,,, I know its gonna be about tr) - there are a lot more animes so i might have to make a separate post abt that

Snacks : Since I'm part asian... ik you guys are (probably) gonna figure out a bit of my ethnicity cause of it Guava with chilli powder and salt. It tastes amazing and its healthy too; pears, apples. Pocky, pringles, coke (yeah i have an unhealthy side too) and meiji's yan yan a lot of chocolate.

Manga/ books : Blue lock (caught up with it), slam dunk, tomie, chainsawman, tokyo rev - i think i have some panels saved, black butler, bleach, your lie in april, skip beat, nana, don't bully me nagatoro - yeah i've read one too many manga (even that hentai one that released earlier this year) and I bought one- confidential confessions

Books : my fav is probably anne of green gables - read it when i was younger but it is still fresh in my memory, reading Sigmund Freud (interpretation of dreams...), memoirs of a geisha (a gift from my aunt), verity (something that kinda but doesn't haunt me), sherlock holmes and the hounds of the baskerville was my first novel, it was kinda a picture book.

It's a mess ik. but i mostly read non fic works as i grew older. And yeah it goes both ways! idm sharing !! ꒰ᐢ. ̫ .ᐢ꒱

Tell me about you! Only if you want to tho!

*sending back big hugs*

Presenting Bachira in a b day suit \(//∇//)\

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Typing this on my school computer because I’m bored and I’ve finished my work. Just saw your announcement about having a holiday, so I'll be writing all the parts but I'll send them in one at a time so they dont get muddled up in your inbox.

So, where were we? Yn has received a gift from a secret admirer and is now on a quest to figure out who this secret admirer is. After harassing a chocolaterie employee into telling you who bought the chocolates, you have narrowed it down to 5 people. Specifically 5 members of the volleyball team 😏. Honestly, kinda girlboss🤔. You went from an entire school being on your suspect list to just 5 people. I respect you for not just waiting for whoever it is to come to you, you’re about to go to them. Because the volleyball team DOES need a manager and who better than you? (a lot of people but hey, you’re the most fun🤪) One small hitch😬. You don’t really know a lot about volleyball.

Yeah, that’s gonna be a problem. You watched an anime about volleyball 😏 one time but you were too busy staring at the hot characters to really focus on the rules of the game. But hey, you’re a smart person yn. Even if you don’t understand sport, you DO understand maths 😌 and maybe an olive branch in the form of some spreadsheets and data about their games will impress their grumpy coach into letting you be the manager. Then you can start messing with the boys to see who slips up and spills the beans first😏. A truly foolproof plan. Unfortunately, life doesn’t go to plan.😬

Now we cut to the next day, where the boys are practising in the gym. Ushijima just finished his round of spikes and is having a drink by the benches, Semi is glaring at Tendou 🤪 who keeps making faces at him between blocks, Shirabu is very tired and wants a break from setting, because not only was he just setting for Ushijima, now he has to deal with Goshiki, who's just starting his round of spikes. Now Shirabu could have just kept his mouth shut and NOT provoked Goshiki but hey, he’s been working the whole afternoon and he’s still annoyed at him for taking the last of chocolate coated caramels when they went to that chocolaterie last week. 🙄 So it really wasn’t his fault that he said-

“Are you still warming up? Ushijima’s spikes were way better than yours.” 😐

Okay TO BE FAIR, Shirabu thought that this would just make Goshiki hit sloppier spikes, so the coach would start yelling at him and he could have a nice break from setting. But no. Goshiki proceeds to glare at Shirabu while considering violence, but considering Ushijima is there, he thinks again.

I’ll just hit an amazing spike! 🤩 The best he’s ever seen! 😡 I’ll dent the floor and Ushijima will tell me how cool I am 😍 and- (not the greatest logic, but that’s fine. For the moment😮‍💨)

See, the problem with being annoyed at someone you’re playing sport with is that the moment you try to do something awesome to shut them up, you completely forget the more important technical parts of the sport. Like, I don’t know, where the ball is aiming😬? So does Goshiki hit an amazingly strong spike. Yes! (of course😊) Does it land within the court? No. 😐(If you’ve read enough of mother’s headcanons you know where this is going.)The ball goes flying past Tendou’s hands, straight towards the closed gym door. Or at least it was closed a second before.

“Excuse me, can I-” 😊🥺

BAM! Goshiki’s monster spike hits you directly in the face, sending you tumbling back, splayed starfish style across the ground, looking very much dead. 💀☠️💀

There is silence for a moment as you try to comprehend what just happened. 😦😧😨😱

*Hysterical sobbing* “I KILLED YN!” (Spoiler alert, he did not) 😭😭😭

As you lie on the ground in defeat, reconsidering your life choices, a face suddenly pops into view and a shoe nudges your side. 🤨

“Yeah, she’s dead Goshiki. Congratulations, you’re going to prison.” 😏

*Hysterical sobbing intensifies* 😱😱😭😱😱😭

Another head pops into view.

“You should not joke like that Shirabu, he will believe he actually killed her.” 😐

Two more heads appear.

“THAT WAS SO COOL YOU WENT FLYING!”🤪

“Tendou, shut up. Goshiki, she’s not dead.”🙄

As you lift your head, you are greeted with the sight of 4 volleyball players standing around you, with a 5th curled up in a ball crying, while being angrily berated by the coach. 😡🤬😡

“What was your reason for coming to the gym?” 😐

“Ushijima, she just got hit by a volleyball, I don’t think she should be answering questions.” 😬

Now. Obviously this does not seem like an ideal situation HOWEVER you see the opportunity in this moment and burst into tears 😭. Which is very easy because taking a ball to the face hurts like a bitch (i should know, I played netball for 4 years and I had to be taken off multiple times for crying because i got hit in the face).

“I’m s-sorry. I was just c-coming here to ask if you g-guys were looking for a new m-manager.”

Lay it on thick yn, make them feel guilty😏🤭. By this time Coach Washijo’s joined the boys at the entrance of the gym. Sniffling you get to your feet, picking up your perfectly curated spreadsheets as you sway slightly on your feet. You hand the papers to him as you mumble out what they are. Now Coach is in a difficult position. Because on the one hand, he would have liked to hand pick out a manager who he is certain can do the job to the best of their ability.😇 But on the other hand, you just got hit by a volleyball and handed him a pretty awesome looking spreadsheet😬.

“Well, we are… Look, how about you go to the nurses office and tomorrow you come to practice and we can discuss you being the new manager.”😮‍💨

“Thank you!” That was truly masterful yn. Maybe getting hit with a volleyball was for the best?🤔

“I’M SO SORRY! I DIDN’T MEAN TO HIT YOU! I’LL DO ANYTHING, PLEASE FORGIVE ME!” (goshiki has finally stopped crying on the floor) 🥺🥺🥺

“It’s fine really. I forgive you.” An absolute angel, we don’t deserve you yn. 🥰

“Thank you so much! I promise it’ll ne-” 🥺😢

“Wait, how did you know my name Goshiki?” 🤨

“H-huh?” 😬😳

“Oh, well when you hit me with the ball, you said-”

"You should go to the nurse now yn, you two can chat tomorrow."

The plot thickens. How did Goshiki know who you were? Who covered for him? Will you get the job as the new manager? Why does yn always get hit by volleyballs? Some of these questions will be answered next week tomorrow on ‘A Secret Admirer’.

👀👀👀 pt 2 people 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻

[savi-of-ithaca]

oh YAY :33

ahem!

mohinuddin.

he is my son. i got him as a secret santa gift from a friend at school, immediately was overjoyed. THE SKRUNKLY. HE'S SO. AHSGSJSHSH

i cradled him around swaddled in my jacket for the rest of the day like a baby. in library my teacher was genuinely so tickled pink by it. i sang him lullabies and everything. everyone loves mohinuddin

a random avocado.

t'was a birthday gift from the lovely @satosuguhastakenovermylife

funfact they did not expect it to have arms and legs and we both broke down laughing when it arrived just looking so AKSGSJS look at the little limbs. its in his lore that he runs very fast but bc his steps are so tiny he covers no amount of distance more than a normal person. it does not have a name but if you so wish you can do the honours or offer suggestions. just not guacamole because...that is morbid 😭

timmy.

ALSO my son. he is tiny baby. he is the softest and sweetest and you have to say his name with an indian accent, it's just mandatory. go hard on the t and the second m in his name. timmy. my mother got him for me at miniso after much begging from me. "but, savi, you're too old for these thi-" WRONG.

he has a sister named crappy (who was named that after an unfortunate misheard question) and is very good at guilt-tripping people we have learnt

savi jr.

he is...you guessed it. my son. this was a gift from my ex we spent a whole 1 hour arguing over whether we'd pool our money together to buy this large purple unicorn that was 5 feet tall or multiple little things...finally we settled on multiple little things. my ex is really bad at names so she would just name everything savi jr so we started having "savi jr the sequel" and "savi jr the....triquel???" and "savi junior the quadruplquel"

she said he must be the true savi jr because. look at him. little pengu. gay scarf. thats me

(my ex gf also once ended up upset while doing a project on call with me because she read an article about baby penguins dying in an accident and i had to comfort her. it was so heartbreaking 🫠)

alexander.

he shares ur name! funnily enough he did not originally. he was named after a good friend but due to some...circumstances that didn't sit right with me so i named him alexander a few months ago. he's got lil magnets in paws so he hugs things!!!!!! honestly so real of him. such a cutie. he is a gift from a friend who came back from china! pandas are such wonderful animals

and...atlas!

he's grumpy. my ex has his little brother oliver (who is usually on the happy pink side). this one is my oldest son. his name originates from colleen hoover books i said something along the lines of "why...would you name your son...atlas" and just to mess with me my ex proclaimed "IM NAMING OUR FIRSTBORN SON ATLAS". and...here he is 😮‍💨

bunininoninyoyo (or some variation of the same).

this is just a plushie i saw at archie's and went NEED

he says ily!!! because ilyy!!! and i love all my moots!!! and all the pugs!!! and all the dogs!!!! and all the things!!!!!

my dog, bruno, (hence the name), really enjoys attacking this one if he gets the chance 😨

now there ARE more but i'll let you decide if you care enough to hear about...them....they're like the Ancient Ones We Must Not Speak Of

what are ur thoughts on them

do you have inanimate objects that you've named?

I haven't personally named any objects, but I do have Nigel the koala

(I hate his face deeply)

We also have the "cupboard of doom" (the pantry) and the "(lower) drawer of doom". Not really proper names, but I don't have any named inanimate things otherwise.