#okay we done with tags and can finnaly post after fucking MONTHS of procastination and work lmao

[s0lar-ch3ri]

(eye brow raise) this was a surprise, and im months late but i need to distract myself from everything else i wanna do (plus the jrwi adhd polls. im in pain currently)

okay so lil note btw is its kinda late, and i am ever so dead brain. oh and also im a couple minutes only into ep 106 (so no spoilers for me but enza being here is a spoiler so if you want no others gooooooo)

ALSO I BARELY HAVE A GRASP ON HOW THE BLACK SEA IS SO IM SORTA PROJECTING ON JAY WHAT ID PROBS BE FEELING

Jay was tired. This place felt too dark, too moist, too dry (how could the ocean be fucking dry?? how could it feel anything but moist??), too loud, too much, too little. Gillion was a little too happy. Gryphon was a little too annoyed. Chip was a little too...Chip. Queen was a little too worried.

"Are you sure your feeling fine Captain?" Queen inquired. "I could-"

"I'm fucking peachy," Jay snarled back. It didn't even occur to Jay how callous she had sounded until Queen had nodded and walked off. Fuck, Jay thought. One more problem to add in.

Yeah, life sucked and Jay wanted out of the dark sea hole, next Riptide adventure ple-

"Jay, your conch's been going off, quick!" Gillion called out, making Jay slightly flinch (why'd she flinch? she's heard him yell before, what the fuck is this place doing to her) as she scrambled to answer. The thing with conch phones is they only get one use. Considering how Gillion never really got calls himself (he'd mostly use it to call Caspian or Edyn before...maybe she wouldn't bring that up), it was the first time someone had contacted them first. Normally it's the other way around.

As she brought the shell to her ear, hoping she wasn't too late, she recognized the instantly. It was Ensa, Jay's inventing buddy and-

"Oh shit, Jay has her girlfriend on the phone!" Chip called out, unknowing that his jokes were truth. God Jay wanted nothing more then to punt that little fucking shit into the black sea where Arlin probably is rotting away and he's just too ignorant to accept it-what. Jay doesn't think like this. God this place was getting to her.

"What's that your murmuring Jay, speak up! Which girlfriend is it?" Chip continued to tease.

"Whoever it is, it's someone I'd have more a chance with then you have with anyone, now fuck off!" Jay stormed off for a second to breath. Unknown to her, Chip and Gill went off to talk. It was important to mention that they had found land in this area, apparently it wasn't all water (woahhhhhhhhhhhh) and there were people down here too. It was a good rest stop, at least to Jay. Then again, anything down here didn't feel good.

"Sorry for the surprise Jay-bird, everything alright? You sound rather..."

"Pissed? Yeah, no, the Black Sea definitely is unexplored for a reason. It just..." Jay sighs. "I'm changing against my will. I'm getting angry at yelling at people without realizing it, my thoughts are more violent and the slightest bit of doubt is twisted and malformed into some shit hole string of hatred."

Ensa listened intently, being silent for a second to process. "...So it sucks."

Jay couldn't help but laugh at the silly joke. Suddenly the black sea felt a bit better. Gillion didn't seem too positive. The looming dread turned to a smaller anxiety. The ick of this place faded slightly with her here, on the phone, calling her.

"Do you want me to come down there?" Another pause. This could have lasted weeks and Jay would have sat there still, contemplating.

"No."

"You were pretty hesitant...sounds like you want me there."

"I do, and that's exactly why you shouldn't come."

"But your mentioning twisting and-"

"I'm not wanting to be contortioned in a way that harms you, and I don't want this place to get you. I can manage, it feels better that your right here with me."

Jay could hear her smile. Goddesses, what Jay wouldn't give for that smile. Like when Aster's warm rays hit her skin, Jay felt her cheeks heat up.

"If you even for a moment change your mind, contact me. We'll get the teleporter running quicker then you'd want to be leaving, which is now I'd guess."

"Okay, yeah, that's great." Jay paused. "I love you so much Ensa. Thank you, for everything." Jay was slightly stunned at her own sentiment, but she didn't question where it came from. This place was the scariest shit Jay had ever seen. And she wasn't even sure how they'd leave, or even leave alive. Yet, on call with Ensa, imagining her standing next to her, holding hands and talking cool gadgets they'd want to try making, it made everything not seem like shit. The world was more then tolerable with Ensa, and maybe after all the nightmares Jay had early on in their adventures, to the real nightmare moments that have happened since, Jay deserved this girl. No, Jay knew, she needed Ensa.

"No problem Jay-bird, I love you too. When your back, I'll probably have something cool to show you. Or something you could help me make. Whatever, just, don't fucking die okay? Promise me. I know those other 2 can get carried in a current, and you can sometimes go along with it too much, so just...if they're being stupid, remember this fucking promise. If you die, I will grab your body and put your soul into a robot just so I can tell you how stupid it was that you died...not really. I miss you too much. I guess cramping myself in a work room is twisting me too, haha." Jay let her talk around. "Okay, but promise me, I'm not kidding about that. Jay-bird, promise me you'll return to the great seas of Mana alive and intact."

"I can't promise I'll ever not be stupid, I can promise that when we're out, we'll go on a special date, one with inventing and doing all sorts of shit. I'll find a way to tell my family, my sea family, about us, one that won't feel super awkward. I won't die on you, that's my oath to you as Jay Ferin and as your love."

Jay wanted the call to last forever, to never return to the Black Sea and it's horrors. She couldn't find the words now, but Jay had so much to say to Ensa. So, she did as her sister did years ago, this time with confidence she'll come back to who she's left behind. She forced herself away from the conch and as though she had to cast command on herself, her thumb rigidly moved over to the end call button.

"See you soon." Beep.

im gonna be really honest rn

navyseal is off-limits pistolwhip is off-limits all the others are off limits because ENSA

ourhghhhghghh jay needs to kiss her right now wouruhougroh

sure the others are nice and all but ensa shes so perfect for jay smh my head i dont see enough art of them