#okay this is definitely not based on an exact situationship i had last year
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hedghost · 2 years ago
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what do you think Less would be like with the first time spending the night with reader, like she’s all nervous asking if they’re okay and then when they cuddle all the nerves go away
this is VERY cute lemme think
okay so you and less have been friends for a while, maybe you started out as teammates but over time you’ve gotten closer. you made the move to ask her on a date after a few weeks of flirty back and forth between the two of you, and alessia was thrilled. since then you’ve been on a few (very successful) dates, shared a few kisses, and been practically attached at the hip.
it’s after your third date, when you’re both certain it’s going very well, when you ask her to come back to yours. you have no intentions, and you make it clear that you aren’t forcing her into anything, but neither do you want to leave the other just yet, and so you invite her to come back for a film and some drinks.
you’re still figuring each other out, in that beginning phase where everything is new, and everything is exciting. you let alessia into your flat, and beam a little at the nervous smile she gives you.
you head into the kitchen, and less doesn’t know if she should follow you, or sit, so just stands there. she takes the time to look at your home, to take in how very you it is. this is your little space, and you love how you’ve made it your own. you love even more how alessia marvels at it, taking in every little detail with a smile, running her hands over your furniture, gazing at each little item, soft fingers touching gently at each photo.
you sit on the sofa and pat it to signal less to join you, which she does in a heartbeat. you hope she’ll sit right up against you, but she perches a little awkwardly away from you.
you smile, because you can tell she’s nervous. you want to reach for her, but you don’t want to overwhelm her, so you pass her a glass of wine, put on a mindless film, and lean back.
the night continues much like that, lessi wanting desperately to make a move but suddenly feeling too awkward. she doesn’t know what’s gotten into her - she’s never ever felt awkward around you before.
the conversation flows easily, and slowly, very slowly, alessia migrates towards you on the sofa. you make the move to sling your arms around her shoulders, feeling the tension in them loosen a little as you do so. she not so surreptitiously shifts into you, little by little, until she’s lying against your side. with every little inch she moves closer, she looks up at you and asks if it’s okay. you nod each time, slowly gaining confidence to wrap your arm around her chest fully. she takes your hand, playing with each finger, and her eyes tell you that she’s still asking the same questions. you answer by playing with her hand in return, soft strokes against her palms, entangling and untangling your fingers with hers over and over.
it’s getting late, and you’ve had a bit to drink, so you suggest alessia stays over. she agrees readily once you make it clear you want her to stay, but as you get into bed she’s unsure if she should cuddle into you or not. you lie on the bed, still chatting animatedly, and in a burst of confidence she entangles her legs with yours. you swing her legs back and forth with your own with a smile, just enjoying the overly flirtatious nature of it all.
she itches to close the gap between your upper bodies, but there’s still some nerves about this sort of situationship. sensing her hesitations, you beckon her over, and she nestled into you, head in the crook of your shoulder, arm hanging around her waist. you trace patterns into her shoulder, scratch her back lightly, and she replaces fully, breathing you in and closing her eyes.
you’re talking about nothing and everything, still enjoying getting to know each other, still in those early stages where you just want to hear the other talk about anything, just for the sake of hearing their voice. alessia’s starting to drift off, but still chatting. she opens her eyes to watch you as you talk about something or other, gesturing with the hand that isn’t wrapped up in her hair as you talk. she leans up, cuts off your talking by pressing her mouth to yours. you both smile into the kiss, hearts fluttering as she does what you’ve both been eating to do all night, but both been unsure where the other stood. she pulls back with a lazy smile, and it’s the most relaxed you’ve seen her all evening.
‘enough now, i’m actually tired’ she grins, and you laugh and pull her back into you, as the two of you fall asleep in sync with one another, arms and legs not unraveling from each other.
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kingstonjael · 8 years ago
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Finally! The SINGLES are emancipated! No more hiding in the shadows! It’s February 15!🙌🏽 Couples won’t be popular again until Thanksgiving and Spring is on its way! Perfect time to say….SINGLES RULE! 🙌🏽 Now because I do believe in marriage…but am not sure if it’s the thing for me…there’s only SINGLE and MARRIED in my book! Dating is just dating! 🙄 I have felt that way since I started dating Julio when I was 15 years old. Here I am now at 35 and not much shit has changed. If I don’t have a ring AND a deep commitment…you are just my current chapter. Julio and the Ex Factor are my longest chapters….though Julio and I were in a real relationship during our 10 years on and off. When I was with Julio, I was in a huge self exploration phrase so it just seemed like I couldn’t stand still with one person or in one state! Lol. Even with being as assertive and proud of my singleness as I am…I have to admit that Thanksgiving through Valentine’s Day is fucking hard! It’s no easy task to stay secure in yourself while the world and Hallmark keeps selling love during that season! Plus it’s Winter and I’m already grumpy! Not easy at all but SINGLES we made it! To celebrate today, I’m going to count down the top 10 things I’ve grown to love about my singleness! 10. MARRIED FOLKS DO NOT HAVE IT EASY! For every person sad that they are single….there’s like three marriages falling apart! 😳 Now I don’t have that down to exact statistics but I’m giving my singles a graphic picture of why shit is hard if you choose wrong! Marriage takes so much work and many are not even half equipped for the journey! Long lasting relationships take more than all the “feels.” It’s more like you need to put your blood, sweat, and tears into that shit! And even if you do…it could still fall apart because it takes TWO! 🙌🏽 So rest assured that if you are still single…you still have the opportunity to choose well but more importantly….the opportunity to choose a partner AFTER you have fallen completely in love with yourself! 9. I WOULD HAVE BEEN DIVORCED! I have said this time and time again…relationships have never been my thing! There were 3 times in my life I could have been married to three different men…but I knew myself all too well! I would be fucking divorced all three times! I wasn’t in love and while I respected two of the men…they deserved a woman who wanted to be their wife! No need to settle for my confused ass! 😂 Two out of the three are married…and for a very long time. So happy for them! 🙌🏽 We all made the right choices for ourselves! No regrets! 8. I HAVE DEEP SEEDED COMMITMENT ISSUES! If you have been following the blog from the beginning…then you already know that there are certain things in my childhood that make me hesitant to choose any man! I know I whine a lot about the Ex Factor not committing to me but truth be told…I chose him for a reason! I can love…very confusingly…but I don’t have to give more of myself than I’m willing to. If he had committed to me (seriously)…before trust was broken…I don’t think our relationship would be much more different than it is now. I’m not trying to be his mama and I already got a Daddy! ✌🏾I imagine that we would check in with each other like we do now…and life would go on with its normal ups and downs. A serious commitment (a title with action to back it up) would have proved to me that he loved me and made it that there was no uncertainty between us. But he chose this route and since I seem to not be able to find a detour…I’m along for the ride…for how ever how long I can stand it! Lol. I rest well at night with the thought that if he never commits to me or I completely get turned off from the idea (dangerously close to that point)…it will be his regret..not mine! ✌🏾A man can find any woman…but a woman that loves him unconditionally and is willing to grow with him is hard!!! Or so my male friends tell me! Such is life! All I can do is work on me and enjoy life! And I damn sure plan to! 7. I AM NOT SURE THERE IS A “ONE!” I started writing to my BOAZ in September 2016 for many different reasons. Mainly to stay happy, open, and hopeful as I anchor my way in the dating world. For all I know…BOAZ is a man that will take me through certain phrases of my life. He may not be one great man but may be a combination of many. And I’m okay with that. 6. I CAN STILL FALL IN LOVE AGAIN! Falling in love with the Ex Factor was the BEST feeling ever!!! Just think…I’m going to get a chance to love even more deeply! 😍 I AM GOING TO LOVE AGAIN! 🙌🏽 While the marrieds have to keep finding ways to fall in love with the same person over and over again…us singles have a shot at new love! Take that shot and be glad you have been given it!🙌🏽 5. I LOVE HAVING THE FREEDOM TO TRAVEL! Being single means…I never have to check in with anyone when I book a trip. For example, I randomly had a week off from work in July. On the MONDAY, I booked a trip to fly to Chicago on the TUESDAY! I text the Ex Factor from the airport and FaceTime him once when I was out there. My money and my time…I do as I fucking please and that kind of freedom is priceless! 4. ALL OF MY TIME IS FOR ME! Similar to traveling when I want to…I plan each day based on myself! 🙌🏽 Hmmm…what’s going to make me happy today? Whatever it is…I get right to it! Don’t have to divide my time with a man. It’s just me and my career. And we definitely FLEX! 🙌🏽 3. I HAVE THE ABILITY TO BE UNAPOLOGETICALLY SEXY! 🙌🏽 Once you are a mother and/or wife, society wants us women to wear a brown paper bag over our heads and hide our bodies! No way! I totally disagree with this stigma for my wife and mommy friends! But society judges them so hard anyways! I, on the other hand, am SINGLE so society cannot tell me to go hide! I’m in this bitch!🙌🏽 And I define what I should wear. I exude confidence…even though I’m seen as “a woman of a certain age.” They want me to hide too because I’m 35 and not married with children! 😳 Well…guess the fuck what?! I’m here and I won’t hide! I won’t excuse myself or talk myself out of “a seat at my own damn table!” No way! I’m 35, SINGLE, and confident…so deal with it! 2. HEARTBREAK WILL NOT LAST FOREVER! As a SINGLE person, heartbreak is still inevitable! Either for the relationships that didn’t pan out or the loss from ones that we have yet to get over! But as I said in number 6, we still have the ability to fall in love again as long as we are open and are loving ourselves through all the hurt and pain! All is not lost forever! It’s not our wives/husbands who take us for granted…it’s our girlfriends/boyfriends/situationships! WE CAN AND WE WILL LOVE AGAIN! 1. SELF LOVE! We have been blessed with this time of self exploration! Sure we have been given more trial and error time than most folks around us but that’s not a bad thing. Every year I learn something new about myself that I did not know before. The newness of each stages of our lives can sometimes threaten the relationships we have…especially marriages…if there is not safe space to grow and learn that is filled with patience and understanding! In our singleness…it’s just ourselves that we have to be patient with! Just us! 🤑 So we can grow easily and be at peace with the new level we reached in our lives! We won’t have to apologize to anyone…that we have changed and that we love our change! WE ARE UNAPOLOGETICALLY SINGLE! 🙌🏽 ~KJM on Hump Day 😘
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