#okay so i’m posting these a liiiittle early

[destinationtrekk]

domestic wesker headcanons (amab!reader)

a/n: i wrote an amab!version of my domestic headcanons! please let me know how this reads and if you guys like it :) if so i will definitely be posting amab versions of my smut going forward!

nsfw below the cut, 18+ only

amab!reader, descriptions of choking, penetration, dacryphilia, unprotected sex/finishing inside, probably more i’m missing, not beta read

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sfw:

After the whole ‘Spencer/Wesker Project debacle’ (as you had dubbed it in your head) ended, Albert opened up to you a lot….like surprisingly a lot.

you had noticed a lot on your own too though. the first being that he was a smoker

you could smell it faintly on his coat after a long day at the labs, and on his breath when he woke you to kiss you goodbye in the early mornings

you finally brought it up one day, casually asking if you should pick up a pack for him on the way back from running errands

you’ll never forget the way his face lit up red and how he sputtered like a fish out of water

he ignored you for a few hours, and then finally asked if it bothered you, avoiding your gaze

you laughed and told him you didn’t really mind, and over time you found out more

he was a chain smoker at the peak of Umbrella, right before they had perfected the T-virus (it was the ‘80s after all) but he had stopped when he joined the Army.

Then while he was in S.T.A.R.S. the stress of being a double, then triple agent got to him. He didn’t smoke nearly as much, but he couldn’t help a cig or two after a hard day

something else you’ve noticed is that he’s a perfect driver. You don’t think he even speeds, or rolls through stop signs when he’s in a hurry.

You think those are perfectly normal things, but he is very adamant that you should not be reckless in his nice cars, which, okay yeah

but he explains that he was mainly escorted during his Umbrella days, rarely having time or need to go somewhere alone until the end of it all

then he had been reprimanded for cruising a liiiittle too much in his S.T.A.R.S. cruiser, and that had been that

you do appreciate his driving when he’s taking you home after you’ve had too many drinks though

nsfw:

despite everyone thinking he’s a sadistic machine, I think he is very much the opposite

growing up sex was the last thing on his scientific mind, and then he was much too busy for anything other than a one night stand every now and then

now though, he comes home so tired he can barely keep his eyes open

It’s not like you two never sleep together. Quite the opposite in fact. Albert is a very generous lover, going as many rounds as you ask until he’s either too tired or you’re spent.

he’s got amazing stamina, even when he’s mentally drained. he prefers to take his time with you, making you finish at least once before he even touches himself

looooves to just grind against your ass and get himself soaked with lube before he thrusts inside - he uses enough lube to hear the wet slap of his hips and balls on your ass 

adores the way his cockhead catches on your rim and just teases the sharp stretch and how you moan and clench around nothing

he also loves to push in as slow as he can, making you feel every inch of him stretching your hole

this man whimpers! he moans and whines and pants in your ear like he’s been starved of touch and it turns you on just as much as his calloused hands do.

he doesn’t actually talk all that much, except to encourage you with that’s it, fuck, I’m close, let go, baby, or he’ll ask what you want him to do - unless he’s feeling fuck nasty (love that phrase)

sometimes he just needs a release, to expel all the pent up frustration, and you’re the perfect solution

he won’t even say hello when he gets home, just finds you and paws at your body like an animal until you tell him yes or no

if you say no, he respects you. completely, one hundred percent. you’re the most important thing in his life, and it’s not even enjoyable to him if you aren’t eager and willing

if you say yes though, he will be all over you. Clothes are flying off and somehow you’ve made it across the house into bed without his mouth leaving your lips and skin

he loves to take you face down when he’s like this, your ass in the air so he can lean over you and pin you down with his weight, groaning and panting in your ear while he fucks you so hard you can barely even make a sound

even when he’s tearing apart your insides, he still likes to intertwine your fingers where you’re gripping the sheets. he just covers it up as needing to hold you still

this is when he really talks, he actually won’t shut up, not that you’re complaining. he’s telling you how tight you are, how you squeeze him like a vice and he can barely pull out. the slick sounds of your hole are driving him crazy, he can’t wait to see your pretty tears when you cum around him, loves how your cock leaks a puddle under you cause you’re so desperate for him 

sometimes he likes to be rough, pulling your hair, wrapping his long thick fingers around your throat to tug you up into a sloppy kiss, gripping your hips and waist in a bruising hold, so tight you can’t even meet his pounding thrusts

always asks to finish inside you. He wants to see it drip out of your ass and down your balls and mix with your cum on the sheets he’s fucking filthy

surprisingly good at aftercare, cleans you up and holds you until you decide to get up or eventually just fall asleep on top of him. he secretly loves this part just as much as the sex, but he won’t admit it

but that’s a whole other post

[sapphicgardensinmymind]

the costumes from the gentleman jack exhibition!! seriously walking into that room and seeing these all right in front of me was so. magical. omg. my Facourite favourites (because they are all my favourites) are Anne’s wedding hat because it’s ridiculous and i love it and also the wedding rings omg <3

peep the gondola pin on Ann’s wedding outfit ahh my poor gay HEART

every costume does have a lil description but i didn’t take pics of all them because i know someone’s gonna make a much better post than this one which will probably include those

anyway, i’m so grateful that i got to be the first member of the public to see these, seriously, how wild is that???? omg thank you bankfield museum i had the best time and the costumes are truly magnificent, the detail is on another level!! the buttons on Thomas’ costume are encrusted with the Lister crest even though they knew no one would be able to see it on screen anyway! that’s amazing and just shows how much thought and care went into this show that we all love so much <3<3<3

[bonkusdonkus]

Now before I say anything, I wanna start off with the disclaimer that I’m fully aware that game development is difficult and expensive, and as such not everything I want is going to make the final cut. Larian has done an excellent job so far with the game, and given their past games I trust them to make Baldur’s Gate 3 a satisfying experience.

That being said, I have a wishlist of stuff I would love to see in the game , and I’m gonna blather about it because I can!

More races! Kenku and Tabaxi would be my first picks, but I’d also love to see Aarakocra, Kobold, Dragonborn, Genasi, Firbolg, or Lizardfolk. There’s also whispers out there that Larian is trying to sneak Warforged into the game, and I want it! Granted, they’d have to do some brain bending to find a way for them work into the story of the game, but they’d also have to do that for a bunch of these races, so they could probably pull it off they wanted to.

More Good Aligned Companions! Listen, Larian has done a really good job with the companions so far. They are complex, deep characters with all kinds of interesting baggage,but... I’d like to have some more people on side my who aren’t either seconds away from turning on me the moment I am no longer useful, or smug, condescending assholes! Okay, maybe that’s a bit too harsh, but still. Most of the current companions seem to lean towards evil alignments, and when you do selfless things, they get pissy. Or, are just pissy in general. As someone who pretty much always goes for good alignment in video games,(doing bad things in video games makes me feel bad, okay?) it’s kind of frustrating to be surrounded by a bunch of people who keep getting mad about it. I’m not asking for perfect goody two-shoes characters, I honestly think that would kind of ruin the game, but maybe a some one a liiiittle less edgey would be nice. In summary, more companions would be great, preferably some that lean a little more on the nice side.

Monk! Monk is probably one of my favorite classes, and it’s definitely one of my favorite non-caster classes.It’s the class I’m most looking forward to, and I can’t wait to kick goblins in the nards with the power of E N L I G H T E N M E N T! That’s it really. No dream features or anything here, I just wanna do some Kung-Fu fighting with expert timing. Moving on!

More weird side stuff! I’m not saying that there isn’t already a lot of weird side stuff in the game, because there is. You can walk in on a bugbear and an ogre ‘doing it’ and can get a magic spell/potion that lets you just walk up to any random animal and talk to them. No, what I’m saying is I want more. This weird optional stuff that encourages the player to check every nook and cranny of the game is basically Larian’s hallmark, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. More please!

More Class Archetypes! I honestly don’t think we’ll be getting any subclasses outside of the PHB, at least not during early access. I’m pretty sure that Larian is just trying stick with the basics for now, at least when it comes to classes. Which, fair enough, but I think it might be kind of cool if we got some dlc post release that added stuff from Xanathar’s Guide, or maybe even Tasha’s Cauldron. Speaking of which...

Post Release DLC/content updates! Baldur’s Gate 3 is already MASSIVE and it’s not even finished. There’s so much content, with even more to come!... Buuuuut Dnd as a whole is still waaaaay bigger. Inevitably, there’s plenty of stuff that won’t make the final cut, because Larian only has so much time and resources. Which is why I would like to see some dlc or something. Once the game is out, hopefully they can come back later and some stuff they couldn’t fit in the base game. New races, new subclasses, new companions, new spells, maybe a new area to explore, that sort of thing. Heck, maybe they could even slide the Artificer class in there, if they were feeling ambitious!

[unnaturalsolace]

Summer 2019 Anime

I passed the 3-episode limit for this season, so I figured it was time to talk about what I’m watching and what I dropped. 

CONTINUING FROM LAST SEASON:

Kimetsu no Yaiba: Still loving the anime, still my favorite manga (as you could probably tell). Aside from that episode 13 (you know the one), it’s still been a great adaptation, especially since this is where things really start to pick up in the manga. I am literally just counting down the days of the week until Saturday arrives, no joke. And I really do think a season 2 is possible since the manga sales have picked up a lot, although I don’t know how anime sales look like yet. I am sooo hyped for all the pillars to appear!!

Amazing OP, amazing ED 

Fruits Basket: Also loving this adaptation as well. I think they are doing a really good job, especially with some of the details (I reblogged a post before about Yuki and Kyo’s anger marks that actually started out as animals). I actually got into Fruits Basket more than a decade ago, and it was pretty much my favorite manga until KnY. So the fact that they’re both getting adapted at the same time is pretty awesome for me. I never watched the first adaptation, and I probably won’t tbh. 

Comfy OP1, comfy OP2, comfy ED1, comfy ED2

CURRENT SEASON:

Araburu Kisetsu no Otome-domo yo.: I’ve been reading the manga and it was interesting so I decided to watch the anime as well. Adaptation has been great as well, everything looks really good. As for the story itself, I liked the manga at first, but the scanlations haven’t gotten that far so I don’t know much beyond what’s aired so far. However, I have heard that there’s some NTR in the future so I’m not looking forward to that. The manga only has one chapter left so we’ll see how it all ends I guess. But I think overall it tackles some good themes, although I feel too old to relate to them lol.

Bem: This anime kinda reminds me of Gegege no Kitarou, mostly just the supernatural aspect. I did end up dropping Kitarou at some point, and I feel like I’ll probably do the same for this one. It’s been okay so far, but nothing special I’d say. And it seems like every time there are supernatural protagonists, the human characters are always relatively dumb.

Amazing OP

Cop Craft: This is a nice buddy cop anime I suppose, although one of the MCs looks like a 13-year-old which is a liiiittle weird. So I really hope the MCs don’t end up together. The story is a bit cliche but I think I’ll continue watching for a little while, although I may drop it depending on if my interest wanes.

Dr. Stone: One of my other favorite WSJ manga. I think it’s really hilarious, and I’m liking the science promotion, although I know some people think it’s a little childish. I recently started collecting the manga too. I think the anime has been doing a good job with all the expressions, and the manga has a lot of great expressions to look forward to. 

Dumbbell Nan Kilo Moteru?: I read Kengan Asura (which is also getting an adaptation) and I heard this was by the same author, so I decided to check it out. It’s actually quite fun! I tried doing some of the exercises myself but I got really lazy and gave up after a few days lol...but it did motivate me for a little bit. I think it is definitely very educational (edutainment?) and also funny.

Very catchy OP

Enen no Shouboutai: I read some of the manga, although I think I dropped it like a year ago or something. I also read the author’s previous work Soul Eater, and I feel like these are both kinda...meh. I dunno, I feel like something is missing for me to like the manga. There’s not a lot of memorable characters, and my favorite (that I remember) is probably Arthur. Also the series has some really dumb fanservice, so that’s definitely gonna come up a lot in the anime. (Where’re all the anime DUDES with lucky lewd syndrome? I wanna see a guy trip and accidentally shove his ass in someone’s face, c’mon.) I’ll keep watching for now for Arthur, but I have a feeling I might drop this in the future too.

Given: I remember reading 1-2 chapters of this, then I guess I forgot about it. But I am liking the anime so far, it’s got a good sense of humor and hooray for more BL anime! I’m liking the characters, although I hear there’s some drama in store for the future. But it’s pretty comfy so far.

Comfy ED

Kanata no Astra: I read the manga since it’s a pretty short series (5 volumes). Overall I thought it wasn’t bad. I think my problem with this is how someone else put it: the idea and plot are good and serious, but the execution is rather childish. But it does get better later (from what I remember), and the climax is good. However, the resolution is just waaaay too easily settled. Kinda spoilers, but all the bad guys are just taken care of like an unimportant afternote. I guess the focus was more on the interpersonal relationships, but the manga was way too short for that to be really effective.

Nakanohito Genome [Jikkyouchuu]: I think I was pleasantly surprised by this. I went in expecting another death game/survival anime, and I got a rather funny show that isn’t taking itself too seriously. And even though there are 8 main characters, I think it’s been doing a good job of making each of them unique in a way. Also there is a tsundere boy, and tsundere boys are always the best characters (Exhibit A: Kyo). I really don’t know what direction this show will go in tbh.

Tsuujou Kougeki ga Zentai Kougeki de Ni-kai Kougeki no Okaasan wa Suki Desu ka? (AKA Okaa-san Online): I started watching this because I saw a funny clip. I think that overall it’s pretty self-aware of what genre it is, especially with the latest episode and the hot springs. But I definitely can see that it dips into pandering here and there. Personally there’s too much mom-pandering for me (and she can be real overbearing, but the show doesn’t seem to count that as a flaw and kinda portrays her as without any faults), although I guess that’s the point of the show. I’m more interested in the other characters, and I hope it stays self-aware. I hope it stays a wholesome mother-son relationship with no actual serious incest vibes...I like that the son is actually worn out by the incest moments without any blushing or anything.

Comfy ED

Vinland Saga: A good manga, and WIT is doing a solid adaptation. Not really sure what else to say except that the animation is great, and I’m looking forward to Thorfinn growing up. I’ve been keeping up with the manga weekly, but I haven’t reread it, so I’m kinda fuzzy on most of the early stuff (although I remember major events). 

DROPPED AFTER ONE EPISODE:

7Seeds: I remember this was a great manga (and Basara was too), but I kinda stopped reading a couple of years ago. I think it actually ended recently? I tried picking my interest back up with the anime, but the direction of the first episode was just so weird that I had to drop it. I mean, I read it, so I kinda knew what was going on, but for people who haven’t, it was probably confusing as fuck. I have no idea why they directed it that way, what’s wrong with just following the manga?

Ensemble Stars!: I wanted to give this a try because there are some great doujinshi out there, but I am honestly not that into idol anime (I think Idolish7 was the only one I ever finished). I’m not really into otome anime as a whole, it just makes me feel old.

Toaru Kagaku no Accelerator: I used to like Accelerator as a character, but I never got into the whole Index franchise. I tried giving this a shot but I think my interest is gone by now.

So that’s what I’ve been watching the summer, hopefully some of you guys feel the same about some of these. Just wanted to give my 2 cents on some shows, and also advertise great OPs and EDs.

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[Review] Kamen Rider Build (Overall thoughts)

It's that time of the year where Rider fans become emotional, potentially sad, potentially thinking about the future. Here, we’ll be talking about the setting, characters, plot, and really dig into that ending. 

But I guess first off, I’ll say one thing here: If you’ve followed the blog closely, you know that I really fell behind on the show a lot. That has nothing to do with the show, it’s just a me thing. When I watched, I was enjoying every episode, and kicking myself for letting so many episodes go by without watching it. 

With that said, let’s get into the reasons why I found it entertaining. 

Kamen Rider as a whole has all of these tropes and recurring themes going all the way back to the Showa era, and while Build has those things, it creates a unique setting around it. 

We're introduced to the world of Build after what is essentially a post-apocalyptic event, at least for Japan. The Skywall left them separated, with hints of a war in the midst due to the item that would grant any one of them absolute power.

At best, most Rider shows have a mysterious event took place in the past, more often an isolated incident that doesn't really have that much of an impact until the end of the show. This feels like a more impactful version of Kabuto's "A meteor previously destroyed one of our cities" opening premise, as it gives us a very unique setting where Japan is split into three types of nations, with robot sentries and abnormal mutations running around. 

More importantly, we aren't even halfway into the show when a status quo hits us and we're put into a proper war between the nations. It leaves us with empty cities for most of the show's run.

I know I commented on this a while back, and I kinda feel like it needs a followup now that the show is over: The show was dabbling in a lot of what I call "Real world monsters". Back when Gaim was going on, I recall thinking it was unexpected for a character to comment so realistically about how humans are always at war with each other, because it seemed like a heavy subject for a kid's show. Fast forward to Build where that's just the entire show. 

We spent the last year with a kids show dabbling in war and conspiracies, and when it became apparent that they were leaning heavily into these subjects, I wondered if maybe the show would take a much different direction in the end, causing us to go “Yeah it was weird when the show talked about war for about 1/3 of the story”. But as it turns out, that theme stuck and resonated in the characters. They go through a lot over the course of 49 episodes.

It's not uncommon for a Rider protag to be affected by a death, but Sento actually causes the death of a human and is legitimately haunted by his actions, not to mention the baggage of being the brainwashed creator of a combat system that started all of this fighting. It's also not uncommon for the protag to frequently hit an emotional rut that leads them to a newfound resolve, but I feel like this show really justifies it.

Sento frequently struggles with the idea of heroism because he keeps being challenged by these contradictions about himself, and the idea of heroism is constantly being mocked by the more cynical enemies he faces - even so, he kept fighting. He was once a member of Faust, he lost control and took a life, his father turned out to be one of his enemies for a bit... The dude went to hell and back, and I feel like his final form debut - as late as it was - felt so earned because of all he went through.

And this is to say nothing about his genius! I love Sento because he lives up to the hype. Before Build began, they talked about how Sento was the smartest of all the Heisei Rider leads, and it shows. He not only made his own Rider gear, as well as gear for other people, he also FREQUENTLY displayed his intelligence by planning ahead outside of battle. The dude would plan ahead by a couple episodes, even. He accounts for a lot of things and it's so satisfying to watch him get the upper hand, especially knowing just how much emotional baggage he has to carry. It’s beautiful catharsis. 

When it comes to the amnesia angle, followed by the Katsuragi reveal, I figured it was a nice twist. It makes more sense once you get further along in the show and learn more about who Blood Stalk was and why he had these powers. It was also interesting to have Katsuragi exist in Sento’s head after a while, giving him more staying power than I actually expected. I also must commend them for not only doing the “Katsuragi remembers who he is” subplot, and doing it for more than one episode. I’m just overall really pleased with how those things all worked out. 

It also must be said that the show did a great job sticking to this "The hero is created from evil" trope from the original Kamen Rider. They said from the start that this show would be focused on that idea, and they never strayed from it. Pretty much all the Riders (save for the villain) are kind of a different flavor of that idea. Just in general, I think it can be said that the show was consistent. 

And I can't talk about Sento without immediately talking about Ryuga. Along with the things mentioned about the main character, they also said that this show would be about “the feelings between these two men!” (context~), and once you see the first couple of episodes, you get what they mean. It's clever to have two leads who are such opposites, the classic Brain VS Brawn. The two played well off of each other til the very end.

Ryuga was also nice to have in the cast due to the (at the time) lack of background for Sento. The main character already had his origin story a while back, so most of the early episode were just about him doing his usual hero thing. Ryuga, on the other hand, gave us an on-screen origin story. We actually get to see his transition from a selfish hothead to a hero who wants to fight for the sake of others, and by the end of the show he goes out of his way to sacrifice himself like Sento would’ve.

Knowing where the plot eventually went with Evolt, it makes so much sense why Ryuga got this much focus, right down to the winter movie teaching him more about why a Kamen Rider fights for the sake of others. It just all worked out so well.

Kazumi was a character I was super interested in. I loved the actor in Kiva, and when he was introduced, it seemed like he’d be playing a charming character once more. But as we learned more about him, I think he turned out to be a character with more depth. Don’t get me wrong, Otoya is the best thing about Kiva, but I think of him as a cartoon character with some hidden depth, whereas Kazumi feels like a human being. 

I was a little uncertain on what they were gonna do with him at first - he was treated as a soldier of sorts who had amnesia like Sento, and his trio of Hard Smash bros seemed upset that he didn’t remember them. But as you kept going, you learn that he was just pretending to have amnesia for a reason, which is clever. 

Kazumi is tough, but you realize that he has heart once you see his friends get killed off one by one. He will show no mercy towards the people who caused him to lose his only friends, and that sense of heroism eventually made him a part of the team. 

The transition from antagonist to hero was natural, and I loved the character, whether he was being comical or serious. The actor knew how to play both. 

Gentoku is where things get a little more shaky. 

I’m sure I’ve said before, but Gentoku was a character I didn’t put much stake into because his role as Night Rogue was obvious, and to me, Night Rogue’s role in the story was obvious: He was the strongest villain we had as of episode 1, meaning he would be killed off by the first power-up Build obtains. That being said, the character stuck around, which makes sense in retrospect since Build’s not about killing. 

Gentoku went away for a while, then came back as an edgelord. While I found some part of him interesting and thought he rocked that look pretty well, the backstory was just a little too over-the-top edgy for my liking. It honestly felt pretentious in a way. I kinda just let him do his thing. 

Then they did something interesting with him, revealing that once he became Rogue, the nebula gas that made him so villainous was wearing off, and he was now starting to show some heroism as he rescued his father from the people he was taking orders from. Then once his father died in his arms, his transition into a hero would begin. 

And, okay. Okay. The comedy they use on him at this point is a bit out of place, as fun as it was. It’s one of those things where, if you want to you can form a headcanon to make sense of it, but it’d be nice if they addressed it themselves. When he was just being a good guy, I found him really endearing. 

Oh and since he was palling around with the gear bros, I guess I’ll just say that... I said what I needed to say about them in their last episode. They were badass but a little too cool to have any personality outside of being a duo, so they didn’t do much for me as characters. But they looked cool. 

Utsumi is a character i don’t have as much to say about, but since I’m talking about Riders I guess I’ll reiterate what I said before. 

Like Gentoku, I didn’t have much stake in Utsumi at first, but I figured since he was working with Gentoku, he probably had something to show. When he ended up getting shot and fell off a bridge, I thought it was a lil weird he came back without seemingly being hurt. Then that one episode addressed it by saying he was a cyborg now, a twist I was not expecting, but it was an interesting choice. 

I was honestly hoping that Utsumi would come back as Rogue, only because it’d be fitting if Night Rogue got killed off by Utsumi using a name stolen from him. But it made sense for Gentoku to be Rogue, of course, and Utsumi had some fun moments as the man giving him orders. 

Once he turned to Evolt, after seeing his mentor die, I thought it was a liiiittle forced, and honestly thought he just cracked. But once again, that one episode addressed it by revealing that he was still loyal to his mentor’s cause and was... kind of a secret hero all along. 

Utsumi turned out to be more interesting than expected, and it’s a bit of a shame he’s-- well I guess he’s fine now thanks to the ending, but I wouldn’t have minded him being fixed if we weren’t aiming for that kind of ending. 

Now... we talk about this guy. 

Okay, so, Isurugi is an interesting character on his own. He’s an astronaut! He makes coffee now! He has red shades! He was a super fun supporting character, and I think it was brilliant(ly heartbreaking) for him to turn out to be a villain. It makes up for how obvious Night Rogue was. 

Blood Stalk was definitely the more interesting villain to follow because he was playing a much different game than the other groups in the show, and he seemed to have a lot of power on his side that wasn’t totally explained for a while - a friend and I figured he was actually an alien just screwing with humans, and I can’t believe that was such a perfect prediction. 

I suppose once his role as Evolt is revealed, he sorta sssstops being interesting in that regard, because he’s no longer mysterious. A good way to put it, which I saw going around, is that he feels like a Dragon Ball Z villain. Not too much depth, just an uncomfortably strong guy that’s toying with people and will be destroying this planet once he’s had his fun. And I’m fine with that I suppose, I like a DBZ once in a while. 

About this point in the show, I saw some fair criticisms about the pacing of the plot that suggested it was getting dragged out, aaand I kinda see that but kinda disagree? It definitely feels like Build and Evol keep getting the upper hand on each other, but I think of that as a display of their intellect. They’re playing this big game of chess, and sure, that can elongate a plot, but I found it entertaining at least. 

Now if there’s any criticism I have about the show by this point, it’s that we never really get a true followup on Isurugi once Evolt leaves his body. Like, we know that he was chilling out in the hospital, unconscious, but the next time we see him is in the ending when everything has been fixed. 

Supporting characters next. 

Misora is a character I don’t have a whole lot to talk about, she was fun when she delivered deadpan comedy, her connection to Isurugi (and thus, the villain) was interesting, found the Mii-tan stuff a little unnecessary but it provided some fun banter with Kazumi... decent gal. It was heartwarming seeing her live a normal life in the ending. She’s been through as much emotional turmoil as the Riders. 

Sawa was interesting, because I expected her to just be a journalist, but she turned out to be a huge player in the villains as a spy. She was eventually caught, and I thought it was both surprising and impactful when she remarks that she was actually supposed to kill herself at one point and couldn’t bring herself to it because spending time with the heroes made her realize what it was like to have real friends. She was used cleverly, even if her backstory seemed pretty crazy. 

As for other characters, man there’s a lot. I think it’s enough to say that what I talked about in previous reviews is still applicable now. Namba was interesting, and the way they bring back previous victims is clever. I don’t think there’s anyone that didn’t serve a purpose. 

Hoo boy, been going for a while... I think it’s time we wrap this up and talk about the ending. Well, at least saying things I didn’t talk about in the last review. I’ll assume you know where all the characters are as of this change in their timeline. 

It was THE cathartic moment for the show, because leading up to the final episode, you really see everyone drop like flies. Kazumi knows his fate and goes in for one last rodeo, Utsumi sacrifices himself, Gentoku tries to live up to his father’s legacy as a man of the people, and Ryuga attempts to send Evolt away for good. Even Sento started to get some of that death aura in the final battle... 

A common complaint for a Rider show is the undoing of death. The best known example of this is in W, and I’d also put up Fourze. That moment when they kill off a character in a big dramatic way only to undo it in the next episode. It’s a tad cheap, and while you could say Build did that, I think it did it well - it creates a new world where all our favorite characters didn’t go through all this turmoil, while still making it a bit sad by not having them know each other. In that sense, they did die, but at the same time, they live. 

I guess the first thing I wanna bring up is... wow we did the Ryuki ending, huh? Ryuki is like 2002 so it should be okay to spoil. Unlike Ryuki, the protag(s) remembers what happened, so that makes things more interesting and opens the way for future crossovers, albeit without a huge cast. 

Zi-O is using time travel to work in Build (so they just went to a time when Build and Cross-Z were still rocking their first forms), we don’t know what the upcoming winter movie will be doing, so all we can look forward to for the moment is the Cross-Z movie. Very interested to see how that goes. 

I will also address that there’s some weird implications to this new timeline that unfortunately haven’t been addressed in the show, and I HOPE they do in the movie because this is a big burning question: Is the technology still the same, and did the Mars mission still happen? Because without Evolt’s presence, Mars would presumably still be a planet with life on it. 

Well, okay, I’ve done some thinking and can kinda address that, but not really. 

Namba was involved with Japan’s unmanned space probe. As we see in this new world... I guess Namba is a non-military company now, meaning they probably wouldn’t have contributed to the space mission? I dunno, that’s my best guess. It’d probably also explain why we don’t see Guardians. 

It’s a bit of a stretch if that’s the intent, just arbitrarily retconning Namba, but I guess it serves as an explanation. Still, unless life on Mars just ceased to exist a long time ago, someone has to have seen something when they looked into a telescope. 

With that burning question out of the way, I dunno if there’s much else to talk about with this new world. It exists, and I wanna see what they do with it. 

And that... finally, is all there is to Build. 

I enjoyed the hell out of this show. It was dark, it was emotional, it was funny when it wanted to be, and it was solid all the way through. Well, okay, like any show, it has flaws. But I think that when a show has so much positive stuff going for it, that can negate the flaws. I consistently had fun from start to finish and I don’t always get to say that. 

Whenever a Rider show ends, I come back to my little list of shows. I’ve seen all of the Heisei Kamen Riders, so I like to make a list of which ones are my most favorite to least favorite. Here’s the top 5 of that list, in descending order. 

Gaim - Solid story, solid characters, just a fun trip all around.

Build - Unique premise, strong characterization, consistent.

W - Nicely written plot with fantastic monsters and memorible characters.

Ex-Aid - Great concept, good characterization, pretty solid execution.

Den-O - Fun and funny, interesting cast, compelling story.

It’s really lucky that the shows I’ve made blogs for are ones that I enjoyed enough to put so high above the others. And as I’ve said in the past, I’ll be stepping away from doing new blogs, especially since a big crossover show would be insanity to keep up with in the style of blog I like to do. 

With Build basically over, I’ll pop in now and again to do an occasional review of the movies/bonus material. 

Thank you for following up to this point. It’s been a fun ride. 

[imawriteriwrite]

I'm currently trying to write my first lengthy fanfic, and I keep getting stuck. I've scrapped my writing so many times because it simply doesn't feel right. Do you have any tips for a beginning author? Specifically pace-wise, I feel like I'm either writing too much about a scene or too little and I can't seem to find the right middle line.

I LOVE being asked for advice, it makes me feel like I at least appear to know what I’m doing. First of all, congrats on working on your first long fic! Whatever you do, DON’T give up on it!

The MOST important thing, in my mind, for a beginning writer is just don’t give up, don’t stop, just keep going. Here’s a secret: there will always be something that doesn’t feel right, there will always be times when you think everything is perfect only to glance at it the next day and think it’s absolute crap. The thing is, you can’t really see what’s good and what’s not good until you’re completely done. That can get complicated with a fic if you’re posting chapter by chapter so whether it’s just finishing the first chapter or the whole entire thing just finish it. Even if it feels like crap, even if you hate every word, just push through, finish that chapter and maybe even the next, just keep writing because eventually, I promise, you’ll hit your groove and then you can go back and see if that really is crap and rewrite it and play with it.

Pacing can be a pain, like I know I was terrible with pacing at first and it’s honestly something I still have to focus a lot on because I have a habit of drawing things out a liiiittle too long. In my original novels, it’s something I fix in revisions, in fics I mostly just let myself ramble because whatever. But the main thing I do to help myself is to OUTLINE. I would not survive without an outline. Usually, chapter by chapter but at least a basic plot outline so I know where I’m going and get an idea of how long it should take to get there, if that makes sense?

So pace-wise… Okay. Let’s say you think you wrote too little about a scene that’s, in my opinion, the easiest to fix. Because, when you read through, you just add to it. After you’ve finished a chapter and you’re reading back through it, I usually find, it’s really obvious where you need to add too. And same with where you’ve rambled on longer than needed, you’ll see that when you read back through it a few times, try to notice if you’ve repeated thoughts or feelings or anything like that, just using different words. You want to spend time on descriptions but you don’t want to ramble too much. With pacing, for me the general rule is: don’t linger so long on something people will get bored but make sure you’re not going so fast that it’s confusing. Some scenes, need a little lingering, I personally like to draw out kiss scenes or emotional scenes but you also want to make sure you aren’t lingering so long that it’s annoying and you’re just restating the same thing again and again. I’m not sure this is helpful? Ugh. And I feel like I’m just repeating myself but again after you’ve forced yourself through a few chapters and gotten into the groove of things and go back and reread it will be easier to see what needs work. Where to cut some. Where to add some.

Also, if it doesn’t feel right maybe try starting it differently. Maybe you’re starting the story too early or too late. Maybe you need to start it from a different characters POV. If something isn’t working, you don’t necessarily need to rewrite the same part again and again, you might need to try something completely different.

A lot of pacing is very instinctual for me at this point but I say that knowing I drag things out too much sometimes and I especially sucked at pace when I first started writing and I’ve been writing for over six years now. Of course, an important piece of advice is making sure the scenes are needed. Having scenes that don’t contribute the plot moving forward or important character development will seem slow and unneeded and just drag the plot down (I’m terrible at doing this) so that’s why I outline! Outlines are my best friend, they help you keep things straight and figure out what needs to happen so it’s much smoother when you’re actually writing (in my opinion). 

And I’m rambling, sorry, I’m tired! SO yeah, outline, WRITE, and don’t scrap things! Try something new if this isn’t working, maybe you’ve already outlined but something isn’t right. Maybe you should attempt outlining or you just need to try starting the story in a different way. 

Those are my top tips. I know it’s hard but things always suck at parts and you always hate bits and pieces. I’ve personally been rewriting my newest chapter of Paparazzi, again and again, I must’ve redone the ending at least a dozen times cause it wasn’t GOOD. So like you just have to write through that and then go back and fix it once the chapter or whatever is done.

I hope this helped some, if you have any other questions I’m willing to do my best to answer and provide advice! Happy writing!  

[das-roog]

Star Wars Thing

So I love Star Wars. Big surprise, I know. I have a shrine to the original trilogy in my closet, rage-vomit when I think about the prequels and I’m very happy with the trajectory the movies seem to be taking recently, with “The Force Awakens” and, more recently “Rogue One: A Star Wars Story”, both feeling like a return to form in a galaxy I feel more at home in than the one I’m actually from.

As such, I like to keep reasonably informed about what’s happening with it without spoiling myself silly. It’s a delicate balancing act, especially on the internet, which tends to be a spoiler minefield. Even trailers are becoming increasingly reliant on showing too much. 

Movie posters, however, are a completely different matter. They’re juicy morsels of information, tantalizingly promising space adventure without actually telling you anything; you can indulge as much as you want because they have little substance to them. 

I, like many of you, salivated over the newest little nugget released a little bit ago concerning Episode VIII: “The Last Jedi”. For those who don’t know what I’m talking about, here’s the banner that was recently revealed: 

Cool, right? That looks pretty badass and it’s got me pretty pumped. There’s not a lot of information to glean from this piece, considering it’s kind of just our three heroes in action poses, but it still gets me excited. So, I’m going to talk about it and make some observations. 

Overall Presentation

I like how sleek this looks. It’s designed really well and the eye is really naturally drawn from Poe, past Rey and along her lightsaber to Finn. I like the warm color scheme of the poster, with the reds, browns, tans and blacks. It contrasts really well with the stark white background, which I also really like. It gives this a cleaner sort of look. Not the sort of sterile feeling I get when I watch Star Trek, but clean as in the design is simple, smooth and strong. Star Wars promos and posters tend to be really busy and epic, and I’m sure the final poster for “The Last Jedi” will be also, but this image really works for me. The weird red fragments in the background are strange, but it feels like it’s part of a larger design, so I don’t have a problem ignoring it, for the most part. 

The Characters

The banner features our three heroes from “Force Awakens”: ace pilot Poe Dameron, Jedi-in-training Rey and ex-Stormtrooper Finn. The banner is effective in communicating their basic characteristics; they look ready for action and each communicated pretty effectively their roles. Poe is pretty clearly a pilot, Rey’s obviously a Jedi. Finn’s has the least to communicate in that regard but it’s okay; he’s still got an action pose, though it does look like he’s the only person concerned with whatever’s going on to the left of them. 

A few things to take away and, warning, this is going into speculation territory and I’m 100% about to drop some spoilers about “The Force Awakens” so, uh...you know, if you haven’t seen that movie yet, turn back now. Abandon all hope (of avoiding spoilers) ye who enter here. 

Poe’s presence as one of the three characters featured on such early promotional material suggests that he’s going to play a bigger part in Episode VIII. Now, as a guy who ranks Wedge Antilles in his top 3 Star Wars characters of all time (he’s #2 if you’re wondering; Han Solo is #1, obviously), this is nothing but good news; Poe was probably my favorite character in Episode VII and more of him in the next episode can only be a good thing. Thankfully, it appears his capacity as a badass pilot seems to be intact and hopefully we can expect more X-Wing awesomeness. Also preserved, I hope, is the buddy-dynamic between Poe and Finn, which was one of the more enjoyable aspects of “The Force Awakens”, at least in the early parts. 

Finn is still wearing his jacket, which is good because that jacket is rad and I want one in real life. Again, his pose is the least telling of the three. I’ve seen it said that the shirt he’s wearing in the picture looks like a Jedi robe, but it actually looks more like Han Solo’s shirt from “The Empire Strikes Back” (pictured below). 

It’d be cool if that suggested his turn as a sort of psuedo-Han smuggler in the wake of Solo’s death at the end of Episode VII but I doubt it. I mean, it’s probably just a shirt. I’m all for nitpicking the tiny details to make outlandish claims but it’s only a shirt. Not much to glean there, I think.  

Rey, though, looks absolutely radical. I love her hair style change. I’m not a hair guy so I can’t tell you why it works, but I can tell you that I like it a lot. Her pose is confident and powerful. She’s got a firm grip on the Skywalker lightsaber and an expression that dares you to try to duel her. It’s an awesome hero pose and I’m looking forward to seeing how the character grows under Luke’s tutelage.

The Story?

So I don’t know what the story for the next episode will be. I’ve read a bunch of weird theories, like Rey being the reincarnation of a Force-Tree or something (really!), but none of them seem likely. The story for “The Force Awakens” left things open-ended but vaaaaague. We know there’s more to the story (outside of the fact that it’s a Star Wars movie and Disney loves the Scrooge McDuck-style pool of money it’s going to make them). Kylo Ren escapes the destruction of Starkiller Base and the nature of Supreme Leader Snoke is largely a mystery. Luke’s whole deal is a big question mark, as is the identity of Rey’s parents (a question I care less about than most people on the internet, apparently). If nothing else, none of the characters really finished their arcs (not in a bad way): Finn’s in a coma, Poe’s...I don’t know, making a sandwich or something and Rey ended the movie on that powerful moment with Luke. 

Soooo yeah, there’s a lot of open story threads but no clear indication of where the story is going outside of basic presumptions one can make based on the earlier films. For example, this one will probably be the darkest and might not have a happy ending (being the second in a trilogy). 

But there are a few things to consider. I don’t claim to know where the story’s going or what’s been happening but I have some mostly-baseless speculation. After all, Lucas has said that the movies are supposed to “rhyme” and Episode VII sure did rhyme with Episode IV, so one can assume that Episode VIII might rhyme with Episode V. By “rhyming”, I mean that certain themes, plot elements and tone are similar to the other episodes in that position in their respective trilogies (As the first episode of their trilogies, for example, Episodes I, IV and VII all had a lot of similarities, which I might cover in a future post). 

Baseless Speculation!

So while I don’t have much concrete information to go on, a lot of my speculation comes from A) What I’d do as a writer and B) The fact that I read somewhere that “The Last Jedi” is supposed to pick up like, literally where “The Force Awakens” left off.

Finn’s main thing at the start of the story is looking for Rey.

Poe is probably going to drag Finn along on a mission for the Resistance. I doubt the movie will have the “war movie in space” feel that “Rogue One” did, but Poe’s involvement outside of working for the Resistance feels out of place at this point, especially if little to no time has passed between Episodes VII and VIII. 

Kylo Ren will be much more intimidating this time around due to his “increased” training. Odds are low that he’ll kill Luke, though. He just might end up maiming Rey, however, considering main characters tend to lose hands fighting the Big Bad Guy in the second chapters of these movies. Anakin lost most of his friggin’ arm to Count Dooku in “Attack of the Clones” and Luke famously lost his hand to Darth Vader in the iconic Bespin Duel in “The Empire Strikes Back”. It’s not terribly out-there to suggest the same might happen to Rey. 

Rey and Luke are going to have some philosophical training sequences and will become involved in Poe/Finn’s mission through sheer “The Will of the Force”. Possibly (hopefully!) because she has similar force visions of Finn and Poe suffering, as Luke once did. 

Luke will be awesome, I hope. Though he’ll probably be a little unwilling to train Rey at first because of what happened to his last crop of new Jedi (hint: the movie is titled “The Last Jedi”). 

Speaking of the title, “The Last Jedi” does not refer to either Luke or Rey; it’s referring to the both of them together. The plural of Jedi is Jedi, after all. Just another thing they have in common with Moose. 

While I have little doubt that the movie will be the darkest of the third trilogy, I don’t think it’s going to go too dark. Like, it’s not gonna pull a “Rogue One” on us. Whatever happens, even if the good guys technically lose, I think it’s going to end on a slightly hopeful note, much like the end of “Empire”.

We’re going to get some answers regarding Rey’s parents because apparently people care about that. That’s fine, you need to expound on that a little bit for sure since you set it up in “The Force Awakens” but I just hope to god she isn’t a Skywalker. I know the main trilogy is the Saga of the Skywalkers but like...I don’t want Rey to be a Skywalker. I have a bad feeling, though, that Luke being her father is going to be a funhouse mirror to the Darth Vader being Luke’s father reveal. But maybe that’s too obvious, I don’t know.

We’ll get a liiiittle more info on Snoke, but I think any big reveals about his character will come in Episode IX, where I think stopping him is going to be a bigger focus. 

There will, without a doubt, be BB-8 + R2-D2 duo shenanigans for the kids. Search your feelings. You know it to be true.    

Wrapping Up

Well, that’s my two cents on the whole thing. Feel free to share your own thoughts, theories, speculations and opinions on anything I talked about here. I love talking Star Wars, so you know.

Thanks for dropping by. 

[biancagarciacruz-blog]

OKAY. So, How in The World Did I Meet Martin Garrix in Taipei???

I’m not saying I’m a stalker, but I’m kind of a stalker. 

Before I go ahead and tell you the story of how I met the love of my life (don’t fight with me on this), I’m gonna give you an idea of much of a psychotic fan I am. So, here’s a little trip down memory lane.

THE LOVE STORY

****WARNING! You are about to witness some borderline psychotic shit! 

2013

It all started when I was just a freshman in college. One night, I was doing what college freshmen do best, getting wasted AF. It was on a Thursday night, and we had a thing we called “Happy Thursday”. It was when all the students from the the colleges and universities nearby hit the bars literally right beside one uni to challenge the legal alcohol limit simply because there weren’t any classes the next day. Aaahh, education.

Anyways, in that one particular night, I just remember being really, really drunk and everyone around me just passed the fuck out. It was only around 23:00 and the party was basically over. Mind you, I wasn’t one of those responsible types who’d go home when they knew they’ve had too much. I’m was more of a “let’s rob a Jollibee!” kind of chick. Not proud, but damn it, it’s the truth. So, I grabbed my school bag, got a taxi, and headed to the then clubbing strip of Manila.

When I got off the taxi, the first thing I noticed was a really long line at this one club called Privé. I went on over there to check what all the fuss was about. I bumped into some people I knew who let me know that Martin Garrix was going to spin. And I was like, “Martin who??”. And they said, “Si ano, si Animals (his track that blew up and really put him on the scene)”. We all know that that track is **sick **and they also let me know that he’s really cute, and that was enough to get myself to pay a PHP 1,000 entrance fee to watch the show. So, i get my drunk ass in the club, squeezed my way to the very front (which I wouldn’t have had the courage to do if I wasn’t so intoxicated), and waited for the show to start.

Just moments later, they dimmed the lights and it was showtime. The lazer lights went wild and the crowd roared. I kept it cool because i was just trying to see if this guy was really cute. I looked up and saw a guy and said to myself that “hmmm, yeah, he’s pretty cute”. But theeen, I took one step back and realized that I was just too short to see the DJ and I was just looking at one of the members of his crew. So, when I finally saw him, I was like, “DAAAMN, Papiiii! HE REAL CUTE!”. It was fangirl at first sight. I remember thinking to myself that if Narnia has a Prince slash DJ, he would definitely look like him. I basically spent the whole show on my toes and my arms extended towards him so that he would touch my hand. Which he did, by the way! Thrice on my right hand and once on my left!!! #achievementunlocked #neverforget

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, pathetic! 

After his set, I went over to the entrance of the DJ booth to say hi. I shouted “Hi, Martijn!!!”. He just awkwardly smiled and waved at me. He was probably thinking “who the fuck is this ugly chick with orange hair in house clothes???”. I am 99.8% positive his thoughts were somewhere along those lines. No regrets!

2014

The following year, he had a much bigger show in Manila’s #1 club. I was lucky enough to get a free ticket and to be listed under the cocktail table at the very front and right in the middle. And of course, in true fangirl fashion, I was prepared with a sign.

It was around December and I wanted my Christmas present early *wink wink*. I pretty much spent the whole time with my sign up trying to get him to notice me, even after he’s already noticed me. He made a cutesy little heart symbol with his hands and pointed towards me. I had a mini heart attack and started annoying my friend Pam with the classic “DID YOU SEE THAT??? DID YOU SEE THAT!?!?”. And she was just like, “Yaaaas girl, he noticed you. No one can deny.” (More like, Okaaay, B. You can shut the fuck up now). He pointed towards me once or twice more for the rest of the show and that was definitely enough to end my year right! #hoehoehoe #merrychristmas

2015

****This is where it gets a liiiittle psychotic**

The game plan was clear. Stay sober, look cute, prepare a sign, and fight my way to the very front once his set was about to begin. And it was exactly what I did.

Once I reached the front, some really tall French guy, probably a guardian angel sent by the fangirl gods, randomly asked me if I would like to be carried by him on his shoulders once Martijn came out. He probably felt bad for my lack of length and inability to be seen by the #1 DJ in the World no matter how long I put my sign up. Being five foot nothing, it was an offer I couldn’t refuse. So, once they hit the music and hit the lights, I climbed my way up to the Eiffel Tower and there was my baby!

Martijn’s birthday was just a day or two prior to the show, so I couldn’t miss my chance to greet him. It didn’t take him long at al for him to notice me and my sign. He put his his hands on his lips and sent a kiss my way! And he even mentioned the birthday greeting on his Instagram!!! #achievementunlocked #telleveryone

If you ask everyone I know how I told them how the concert went for me, it would be everything stated above. Buuuut, there’s a little more to the story. What you’re about to learn next is only know by a handful of my favorite people.

Martijn’s set was coming to an end and the inner fanatic beast in me came alive. Like, really, really alive. As he played his last song, a crazy idea just popped in my head like ~LIGHTBULB~! I thought to myself, “So, if I pretend to faint now, the bouncers will carry me over the barrier and I will have the most fantastic view of my bebeluv”. Yeah, don’t really know where the fuck that came from either.

So, pretty much like everything else I do, without giving it much thought, if not at all, I just did it. I then grabbed my friend’s shoulder for her to look at me and I dramatically pretended to faint just like Snow White did when she took a bite of that poison apple. I’m quite an amazing actress, actually. Which pretty much explains why I spent half of my high school life in the clinic and why I always happened to have my period every week when we had swimming for gym class. What I’m trying to say is, they believed that shit.

With my eyes partially closed and my head going “What the fuck are you doing?”, my friends were in a HUUUGE panic. All i heard was them shouting at the top of their lungs “KUYA!!! KUYA!!!”, trying to get the attention of the bouncers for help. I swear to god, I was trying so hard not to laugh my fucking brains out.

Soon enough, the bouncers came and just like I planned it, they carried me over the barrier and right into the middle section of the two VIP crowds where only photographers and bouncers were allowed. Then there were fireworks, explosions, and confetti everywhere and I had the most perfect view of my baby basking in his glory. And I just thought to myself, “Great job, crazy bitch”.

And in a fraction of a second, the music was gone and the lights went off and the show was over. I then realized that i was supposed to be unconscious and my show isn’t over yet! *Snow White takes second bite off the apple*. There were a couple of bouncers around me at this point and they were all trying to move the barrier for me. Once moved, one bouncer carried me princess style (because how else are you supposed to carry a princess?) and rushed through the big crowd to bring me to the first aid booth. While going through the crowd, I can hear random people shout “Bianca?!?! Is that Bianca?!?!” “BIANCA!!!”. And again, I was just trying so hard not to laugh. The rest is history.

2016

Music Festival was cancelled a month prior to the show due to “the changes in political climate”. In other words, Thanks a lot, Duterte!

2017. The Meeting.

Here we go, here we go! About a month prior to my Taiwan trip, my friend, Keich, found out that Martijn was going to be in Taipei the same time as us. Coincidence?!? NAAAAAAAH.

On the first day that Keich and I spent together, we went to a handful of places far away from the city. By 18:00, we were extremely exhausted and didn’t have the energy to do anything but chill at our hostel’s lounge. While scrolling through Instagram, I came across a selfie that Martijn posted with a bunch of fans welcoming him to Taiwan in the comment section. FAN GIRL MODE: ON. I jumped off the couch and said, “KEICH. MARTIN GARRIX IS HERE. LET’S GO!”. She stood up right away because she knew I would do the same for her if we were in the same city as Kygo.

I messaged every fan who was welcoming him to Taiwan and I sent every single one of them a message asking if they might happen to know what hotel he was staying at. Most of them did not know but a lot of them just guessed for me. Keich and I rushed to the MRT station feeling more alive than ever, as if we didn’t have such a long day. We then rushed to the W Hotel where a few people suggested me to have a look since a lot of celebrities stayed there. We got in the lobby and waited a bit. THANK THE HEAVENS they had free wi-fi because I then received this message from yet another guardian angel from the fangirl gods on Instagram:

“KEICH! LET’S GO!!!!!!!!” We rushed over to the Gran Hyatt, which was just a few meters from Taipei 101. We had absolutely no idea where he was or if we were even going to see him. We were just thinking that if it’s dinner time right now, he would probably go out right after to see more of the city. Orrr, if he was having dinner outside the hotel, then of course at one point he’d have to go back to his room.

So, we waited for HOURS. By the third hour, we noticed different DJ’s walk in one by one with wristbands from the music festival. My heart was beating faster and faster. The next thing we knew was that the hotel lobby was empty and it was already past midnight. A young boy and his mom sat at the same sitting area as us and then I heard the words “Martin Garrix” in their conversation. I asked them if they were waiting for someone because I was guessing that we were all waiting for the same person. Damn, these two were so freakin’ cool. The kid is fourteen years old and is #ballin, selling Yeezy’s online. And his mom.. Well, his mom is waiting with him at midnight to have a photo with his favorite DJ. Ummmmm, can anyone say MOM GOALS!?!

Since we were all having such a great conversation, my eyes weren’t pinned at the entrance of the hotel anymore. I glanced behind me for a second AND HOMYGAAAHAAD I CANNAAAT WITH YOUUU!!!!! IT’S FUCKING MARTIN FUCKING GARRIX IN THE FUCKING HOTEL LOBBY ASDFGHJKL;’SFHDKFHD3487fgwbfd!!!!!!!**

I wasted NO TIME. In a blink of an eye, I found myself rushing towards him and saying “Martijn! I’m your biggest fan from the Philippines!”. One of his bodyguards was very quick to stop me and he blocked me with his arm. Martijn then blocked his bodyguard with his arm and said “No, it’s okay.” (HOMAGAAAAAHD!!!)

He looks over at me and says, “Really? Give me a hug!”. And then we hugged. (HOMAAAHGAAAAHD!!!!)

See, I really wish that I could all tell you how the whole meeting played out, but I just DON’T REMEMBER SHIT after that hug. I don’t remember Keich having a photo with him. I don’t remember the teenage boy having a photo with him. I don’t remember saying goodbye. And I don’t even remember leaving the hotel. SHIT WAS INSANE.

According to Keich, he hugged me four times and gave me a kiss on the cheek. The kiss, I kind of do remember it happening. I remember it like getting punched in the face right after I just blacked out by getting punched in the face. And I am soooo lucky for having such a supportive friend who remembered to take a video of me towards the end of our meeting!!! Check it out:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5vFlByvrMI

(HAHAHAHAHAHA I’m too new for this shit to embed a video, so here’s the link, mofos!)

So, they didn’t allow to give him a pretend kiss on the cheek, so, HE GAVE ME A REAL ONE INSTEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Martijn was much taller than I thought he would be and he is sooooooo much more good looking in person. It was literally a dream come true and was probably one of the best birthday gifts given to me by the universe! THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!!!!!

AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVERY AFTER. THE END. 

Or is it? ;)

[zingzapped]

Interview with your Muse!

Tagged by: @alola-dad​

Pick one of your muses. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your muse in a new post.

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1. What is your name? “...Sophocles.”

2. What is your real name?  “You just asked that. Are you trying to mess with me? Is this whole interview just gonna be some dumb prank?”

3. Do you know why you were called that? “Nope. I never thought to ask, ‘nd my parents never thought to tell me.”

4. Are you single or taken? “Single. There’s... kinda someone I’ve got my eye on, but it pro’lly won’t ever happen. They’re too good for me.”

5. Have any abilities or powers? “I can build stuff, I guess. I don’t know if that counts though...”

6. Stop being a Gary/Mary Stu/Sue. “I just said that I don’t know how to do anything special. Get off my back.”

7. What’s your eye color? He just stares at the interviewer for a moment, before rolling his eyes.  “Black, I guess. There’s pro’lly a fancier word for it, but it’s escaping me right now.”

8. How about your hair color? “Okay, yeah--you’re either colourblind or you’re messing with me.”  There’s a pause as he runs his fingers through his hair once. “--but I’ll play along. Orange. Ginger. Whatever you want to call it.” 9. Have you any family members? “Big Mo’s the only one I talk to these days.”

10. Oh? What about pets? “She’s not a pet, but my Togedemaru is constantly around me. She’s.. basically my best friend.”

11. That’s cool I guess, now tell me about something you don’t like. “When it gets too dark to see. When some of the people from team Skull try to mess with me or stuff belonging to the observatory--all of that equipment is really expensive, y’know.”

12. Do you have any hobbies/activities you like doing? “Kinda. I like to work on designs for stuff in my free time, but I’ll probably never build most of the things I’ve thought up. ......I sometimes draw a little bit, but I’m... not very good...”

13. Ever hurt anyone before? “Dunno. If I did, it was unintentional.”

14. Ever….killed anyone before? “ ‘course not. If I ever kill anyone, it’d pro’lly be myself in a accident caused by something I built. Wouldn’t surprise me if that’s what eventually ends me.”

15. What kind of animal are you? “Human. ..Do humans count as animals?”

16. Name your worst habits. “I mumble a lot, second-guess a lot of what I do, ‘nd sometimes it’s really difficult for me to look someone in the eye when I’m talking to them.”

17. Do you look up to anyone at all? “Yeah, actually! Molayne is the person I look up to the most ‘cause he’s so smart ‘nd funny, and a lot of people like talking to him. He’s such a nice person to be around. I guess you could say I also look up to Professor Kukui some. After all--On top of being really smart, he’s really brave ‘nd strong. ..I wish I could be like that.””

18. Gay, straight, or bisexual? “Dunno yet, ‘nd I don’t care. That stuff’s not my biggest worry now anyway.”

19. Do you go to school? “*Sometimes, yeah. But when I can’t make it there--whether it’s cause Trial Captain duties keep me away or whatever else--I’ll do stuff for school on a computer.”

20. Do you ever want to marry and have kids one day? “I think it’s a liiiittle too early for me to think about that stuff.”

21. Do you have any fanboys/fangirls? “Look at me and then ask yourself that again. ......No, of course not.”

22. What are you most afraid of? “Being alone. The dark.”

23. What do you usually wear? “Clothes that are easy for me to work in. Loose sleeves can be dangerous around machinery.”

24. Do you love someone? “Guess so. Depends on what you define ‘love’ as.”

25. When was the last time you wet yourself? “Assuming one’s time spent as a baby doesn’t count, then never.”

26. Well, it’s not over yet! 

“Wonderful.”

27. What class are you?(High class, middle class, low class) “I.. don’t actually know. I guess high? I have a successful, um.. invention that brings in more than enough money for me to live on, ‘nd it doesn’t look like that will be over any time soon. And as for where ‘Trial Captain’ would land me out of those choices--I still don’t know. Being a Captain is different.”

28. How many friends do you have? “I could pro’lly count them all on one hand.”

29. What are your thoughts on pie? “I don’t care much for sweet foods like that.”

30. Favorite drink? “I don’t--stop asking me about food. It’s weird.”

31. What’s your favorite place? “My work station. Nobody but Molayne ‘nd I can easily get there.”

32. Are you interested in someone~ “I, um--That’s hardly useful information to you. ..........Yes.”

33. What’s your bra cup size and/or how big is your willy? “Unless you’re a specialized personal doctor, you shouldn’t be asking a minor that kind of thing. There’s a police officer not too far from the observatory, you know...”

34. Would you rather swim in the lake or the ocean? “I’d probably drown in either one, so I don’t care.”

35. What’s your type? “Electric?”

36. Any fetishes? “No.”

37. Seme or uke? Top or Bottom? Dominant or Submissive? “What’s wrong with you--”

38. Camping or indoors? “Indoors..?”

39. Are you wanting the quiz to end? He started to walk away before the question was even fully spoken.

40. Now it’s over! Tag five people: (,,꒪꒫꒪,,)