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I have some Colin headcanons because it's 1am and apparently, this is what I'm thinking about tonight. Headcanons based solely on the show - Book!Colin is just a different animal.
Some time after the whole Marina incident, he and Anthony had a very uncomfortable conversation about how and where he can go get laid. Benedict found out about it, and finds it hilarious
He totally lost his virginity to the Contessa. Like - he DOES NOT shut up about her.
And she seduced him - because I just cannot imagine him ever having that much game. (Colin is not a liar, but he is kinda dumb and rather pretty, and I'm sure this woman knew what she was doing.)
She also is the one who taught him how to properly pleasure a woman (c'mon, he had to learn that from somewhere and I highly doubt /that/ was something Anthony or Benedict was going to go into-though that'd have been a hilarious convo.), plus, while the European Tour was definitely his slut era, I'm guessing 99% of that was at brothels.
(Though, I am amused by the idea of Colin asking so many questions at the brothels and the sex workers being like... okay, my dude, usually sex does not include this much talking.)
Also, slut era isn't as slutty as he lets on when he gets back. I mean, he only keeps telling the ONE story. And sure, discovering sex is fun, but as he writes in his journal, doesn't stop loneliness or provide genuine connection.
How many times did he end up at a brothel after he wrote to Pen and thought about the fact that he's been hearing nothing back from her?
#bridgerton#colin bridgerton#it's now 2am and i should sleep#the whole contessa thing just was a fascinating point#was this a book related easter egg?#or just isn't into slutting it up the way his friends are doing#it's a rhetorical question#the idea of what anthony and benedict could have taught him is kind of a hilarious side tangent#okay i'm really going to bed now
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Swiftli week, day 4
Free theme! (Laser tag)
Summary:
“I’d easily get more hits on you than you on me!” Taylor claims.
Lincoln’s smile turns into a playful smirk. “Oh is that right?”
Taylor leans in, standing on his tiptoes to get a little bit closer to Lincoln’s level. It makes him think of those professional boxing stare-showdowns. “Yea, that’s right, Mr. Li-Wilson.”
“You’re on, Swift.”
“Guys, we literally just finished the first game,” Normal tries to pipe up in between the two, “Maybe it's time for a little break first?”
“No! Someone has to taste true defeat,” Taylor shouts and points to the air, like an anime character ready for the fight, and picks up his laser tag armor again.
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Lincoln and Taylor get a little too competitive in a game of laser tag and are willing to do everything to win
#I'm so so tired#not going to write and edit a fic again in like 2 days in combination with theater preperation stuff and university stuff#but wooow yeaaa a laser tag fic with swiftli#dndads#dndads s2#dungeons and daddies#swiftli#taylor swift#lincoln li wilson#fanfic#my writing#dndads swiftli week 2024#anyways I'm going to sleep now good night#i might reread the story again tomorrow and make a few more edits because I don't believe that all spelling errors have been taken out now#okay I'm really going to bed now
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I love ur artstyle they all look so squishy and cute <3
Ahksbjdbkjbdkjbdkj thank you!! ;-; I do want everyone to look kinda round and squishy and plush and I'm really glad you like it ^^
Also, because I actually had time for once and I wanted to do a doodle, attempted squishery:
#UTDR#Ask#toffeebrew#In the end he was indeed squished#Rip in pieces Killer you will be squished- I mean missed#But for realsies thank you!!! That really means a lot <3#Also I love how you draw Cross with his lil fangs showing so so much#Like it just activates something happy in my brain#And the comic of Epic telling how Killer and Color met is so funny I'm still not over it#It's going in my forever memory for this fandom#Okay now I gotta go to bed for realsies goodnight everyone!!!
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the fallen angel
#i will NOT be working more on the background of this; i have a con to go to tomorrow and i'm tired#and sorry if my shading's not the best 👍 but i did it at least#despicable me#despicable me 4#dm4#despicable me 4 spoilers#maxime le mal#ibispaint#the fallen angel#the fallen angel by alexandre cabanel#okay my vision for this. is that it's right after the scene where he escaped from prison#and he's hiding out in the sewers and plotting#it didn't really turn out how i wanted it to but it's already done now and i'm going to bed
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this is a drawing please don't come after me
#käärijä#häärijä#khaarija calendar#digital art#is this okay to post? i really don't know#i'll delete it if it isn't#i've overdone it again with the details#(also it looks like jere is making a peace sign lol)#okay i'm going to bed now#i did not plan to spend four hours on this lmao
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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eepy author
the author is very tired, she is eepy. the author has had a very long day of writing and wants to take just a smol sleeb. She eeby and neebies to sleeby.
#okay i'm really going to bed this time 😂#needed to answer this#goodnight everyone#the author is going to sleeby now#answered
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Woah Nellie, so I got around to writing REDACTED today and even though I didn't do any this morning the ideas were flowing this afternoon and I've got five and a half days worth of posts. And I've still not gotten the whole goal ticked but to be fair it is one box for several things. Plus there's me liking adding extra bits. It'll make sense when we get there I promise.
Mad About Dodo finale! Tune in to see if Shay can even attend or if her food poisoning has her back in the hotel over a bucket... Maybe they'll have to CGI her in for that one 🧐
#ramble ramble ramble#before bed thoughts#I think the words were flowing because I've been imaging the scenes for so long#anyway goodnight#less nauseous today which was great#last night it took forever to get to sleep#okay I'm really going to sleep now#maybe
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Okay I did get distracted by a grade being posted and I am about to be both a nerd and a millennial but god ngl I do hate classes where you get full points on all your assignments but don't actually get any actual feedback on them. What is the point. If it's a class where everyone gets passing grades for making the effort but you get actual feedback and comments, that's great! But I would genuinely rather get points docked and get extensive comments on what I did well and what needed improvement and why than this.
#what is the POINT#like at that point it feels like busy work frankly! it doesn't feel like anyone's worrying about whether or not I learned something!#and like I can self reflect on my own learning. I'm good at that. that's fine. but a) not everyone can#and b) it REALLY does not help the perception that a degree is something you pay for but don't actually need to learn anything to get#which is a MASSIVE problem rn. there's no actual value placed on LEARNING THINGS.#like I know for a FACT that I have turned in B+ average assignments at best in this class.#just cuz I only have finite time and I gotta stay sane and it's not an area I'm going to go any further than surface level in.#the overview is good and important! but the work I'm doing is reflective of my investment and frankly it should've earned a B+ at most.#like at least if you're docking a point and telling me what for I know you READ the damn thing. christ alive.#you may ask yourself 'oh my god why are you like this' and the answer is. have you looked at my blog.#anyway. okay nOW I'm going to bed.
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I'm so exhausted but here's a recent doodle of my pookie <3
#I'm stressed about things and drawing him helps me calm down but it also costs time so I'm more stressed again ughh#why is it already 3am again time is going by way too fast these days#anyway at least I have something pretty to look at now💕#I love myself a man with a slutty waist😌👌#the final drawing is supposed to be for an artstyle challenge so I tried to stick fairly close to his canon look#but honestly I think I could've still pushed it a bit more even just to make him look hotter#okay typing all that took way too long I really need to go to bed now💀#f/o: 🚂#2nd dimension doofenshmirtz#2d doofenshmirtz#heinz doofenshmirtz#dr doofenshmirtz#phineas and ferb#across the 2nd dimension#at2d#villain f/o#fictional other#sketch#digital art#selniasart
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Fighting the battle against the brain weasels tonight, who are busy trying to convince me to do the thing that I know (think? hope?) I'll deeply regret come morning. Not sure if I'm winning or losing right now.
#airas life#the brain sucks sometimes#need to work through whatever is in my head right now#probably shouldn't delete everything I've ever written#and disappear#I actually like most of it you know?#and would be very sad in the morning#I don't think this is burn out#because I'm still enjoying writing and sharing and the process#I just... don't really know what's going on in my brain right now#but I shouldn't make choices like this when sick and tired#I'd say it's time for bed but that would require getting the brain weasels to shut up#and to stop crying#i don't even know why I'm crying#or why I feel this way#came out of nowhere#okay I'm done#I just had to say this somewhere#it was getting suffocating#but who am I supposed to talk to?#anyways the tags felt almost safe#pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain
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i'm so confused that your ask didn't appear in my inbox but instead appeared only in my notifs. wild. ANYWAY I LOVE THIS GIF I'M KISSING U ABOUT IT
EDIT ur ask didn't actually appear on my dash when i posted it so i have cunningly screenshotted
ANY-ANYWAY. Since I'm a liar who said I was going to bed and then didn't, how about AkkAyan dressing up? It's THEMATIC. Also I made that little gif for my ask to you and ended up rewatching the Our Skyy eps in the background, then remembered I wrote this!
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Wat threw a costume party. That’s how it had started. That was the reason all of Ayan's friends were mad at him.
In his defence, Wat clearly hadn’t thought through all potential permutations of a costume party for his birthday. He’d given them the prompt of old Thai movies and left them to it.
It had surprised Ayan how little convincing it had taken to get Akk into the ridiculously tight shirt and pants that predominantly made up his costume. He'd rolled his eyes and fussed and turned his single syllable nickname into a three second groan, but he'd let Aye pick, and he'd certainly voiced no complaints when Ayan had pointed out he’d be wearing something similar, just in black.
It also shouldn’t have been possible to look good in a ridiculous all-yellow outfit. That was part of Ayan's defence too: nobody but nobody should manage to pull off being dressed head to toe in banana yellow in lieu of gold.
Akk could, it turned out. Akk did. Ayan was man enough to admit that at least half the reason he'd taken the black outfit was that he knew he'd be entirely unable to control himself around his boyfriend in form fitting black. Akk, at least, could usually be counted on to act appropriately.
Usually.
Anyway, it was Wat’s fault. All of it.
It was Wat's fault they'd even heard of The End of the Red Eagle in the first place. Ayan would have never paid it any mind were it not for Akk insisting that their friendship with Wat depended on it. Ayan did sleep through most of Wat’s suggestions and although Akk ragged on him for it, he thought Akk enjoyed it when he was curled up sleeping in Akk's arms rather than awake and pointing out logical fallacies in any given film just to annoy him.
So, Ayan had little to no real idea what the plot of Red Eagle was, but Akk hadn’t seemed overly fussed when Ayan suggested the hero and villain as their costumes.
Ayan suspected Akk had also fallen asleep. He did it more than he'd ever admit to, because Ayan had woken up to him fast asleep under him several times while one of Wat's recommendations played on his laptop next to the bed. Akk would never admit to it, and Ayan found it too endearing to challenge: he knew Akk's phone browser was full of tabs on for various movie pages so that he could refer to them if Wat ever asked.
By the time they arrived at Wat's, Ayan had reevaluated every choice he'd ever made that had led to that moment. He loved Akk for far more than his physical attributes, but the costume was serving as a brutal reminder of many of those attributes. He loved Akk's legs, which were normally a mile long anyway but were at that moment torturously accentuated by the bright yellow fabric clinging to them.
Akk's body was already something Ayan was used to thinking about - and wanting - but the frankly obnoxious belt Ayan had picked out had turned his hips and waist into features specifically designed to test Ayan’s ability to keep his hands on the wheel on the drive over.
Ayan had to unclench and clench his fists several times to get circulation flowing through them again after they’d parked up.
Akk caught him staring a couple of times and had just laughed at him. He’d leaned in as they waited on Wat’s doorstep and reached around to check Ayan's mask was secure, using the excuse to run his fingers through his hair.
Akk had started it. That was for sure. It was all Wat’s fault, but Akk had started it by flirting with him so openly. Ayan would have been just fine if Akk would have just kept his hands to himself.
Whether that was true or not, nobody could prove anything.
#sollucets#ask post#so it is decreed#tuserrowan#ficwit#akkayan#the eclipse#halloween 23#okay now i'm really going to bed#fun fact the entire fic is actualy 6k and still unfinished#i am not likely to finish it#but here's 700 words of it <3
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Sending good luck for getting unstuck! For the prompt game:
“Don’t look down”
Or
“I can’t do this on my own”
💚🌹💚🌹💚
From this prompt game.
“Don’t look down.”
Jamie immediately looked down, turning a shade of green that Kermit the Frog would envy.
“Why would you say that?” Jamie groaned, and Roy felt the bones in his hand creak under Jamie’s tightened grip.
“I told you not to look down, you idiot!”
“Everyone knows as soon as you say don't look, you're gonna fucking look!”
“Look at me then,” Roy said, gently guiding Jamie’s head and gaze away from his mangled ankle to Roy’s face. “Just look at me and breathe. You're going to be okay.”
“Okay, gonna be okay,” Jamie replied, trying to match Roy’s exaggerated breaths.
Try as he might, Roy couldn't convince himself the same.
#thank you wonderful friend#for your wishes and the prompt#might return to the other tomorrow 👀#jamie tartt#roy kent#whump#writing prompt#This is almost a drabble#getting closer#okay now I'm REALLY going to bed :)
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frostbitten
(alt versions under the cut)
different color scheme:
full pages of both:
anyway haha. who's feeling normal about this scene. me probably
#baby's first digital comic and it fucking. good god my spine hurts so bad#not even remotely my first comic but I'm outta practice and also. stupid#anyway thinking about this scene thinking about kiryu's deep frostbitten black fingertips all bloody and horrible#YAKUZA 5 REALLY PUT ME THROUGH IT WITH THIS ENDING OKAY#and I'm kinda shocked I've never seen fanart of it before because it's one of my favorite main story scenes#trying new things. ow. but it's neat anyway ig#alright tag time you know the drill#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza#kiryu kazuma#sawamura haruka#ykz#like a dragon#yakuza 5#yakuza 5 spoilers#haruka sawamura#kazuma kiryu#didn't turn out how i originally planned so i might go back and do a more faithful standalone piece. but im going to bed now :p#ALSO DON'T MENTION THE FUCKING. LAMP POST DISTANCE FROM KIRYU OKAY. I KNOW#I ONLY NOTICED IT WHILE MAKING THE POST AND THIS SHIT TOOK ME LIKE TEN HOURS IM NOT FIXING IT NOW. SOBBING WAILING#graurfghhgh y5 saying dream this dream that just to kill me by bringing it back at the end. hell#but like with a different use of the word's meaning. i literally eat that shit up HOOUUGGHHH#me: yeah i made the panels all stiff and boxy and boring because he's stiff from freezing to death and it's an impersonal unengaging style#(<- ignoring the other reason: something more dynamic would've probably been harder to map dialogue to and it was already a dense spread)#anyway. got a dip pen yesterday and wayy too many nibs so im thinking about doing a happier kiryu + haruka piece with that. go crazy#real ones can see how this developed from the gifset of this scene to the wtf his hands are ourple post. it's been fermenting#happy with the reblogs so far bc it's all like HEY HEY HEY. OUCH. OWIEEEE and this is good (ik bc i also say owwie ouch when smth is sad)#skrunkart
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Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...
#Definitely not going to be able to stick with it just due to like... being realistic about my energy levels and etc. ESPECIALLY as we#enter the Evil Summer and it becomes hot all the time. But... one can attempt.. at least...#I'm also a very slow writer since I tend to re-read and edit while I write. and only move onto the next section once what I'm writing#seems okay. Which is easy for visual novel type stuff. since ''sections'' of a conversation are more clearly marked (like if you#have a menu option with 5 different dialogue choices. finish the character's response for choice 1 before moving onto 2. etc.)#Especially since when I'm done with a whole quest I always follow it up by playing through it and picking every option and making sure it#actually all works okay and etc. So I am already going to see it all a second time. Then I can go back and reorder a few words or remove#certain sentences that don't sound natural when I read them out loud (I always read it all outloud to myself since it is... just peple#talking.. it should sound like natural dialogue in their voice. etc). But my ''first draft'' is kind of not as first drafty since I pause t#edit a lot as I go along. So it also takes longer probably than it would take other people who I think treat a first draft as more#of a loose guideline or something. AANYWAY...#80F in my bedroom right now again... huzzah... I did end up finishing and recording that sims build video before the heat wave (or is#it really a heat wave if it's just summer..?? lol) came in.. but now... augh.. the editing... plus the costume photos and all else... Much#to do as always.. Often such a long todo list.. a giant scroll hung upon the walls of the evil hermit wizard tower..#Anyhow.. I hope I can finish getting ready for bed early in time to reward myself with a game of tripeaks solitaire whilst I snack on#cheddar cheese and some of those preserved artichokes in a jar. hrgm... I actually have nasturtiums (ultimate best flower) on the#deck again this year but I had to move them all into a corner today because the leaves were getting burnt by the sun lol.. Also am now more#cautiously weaving through social media to ignore all dragon age news. NOT bc of spoilers (I actually love spoilers/literally never play#any game until there's full guides on it I can read to plan my entire playthrough based on knowing exactly what I want to happen lol + mods#and etc.) but just because I'm so busy with my ownprojects I simply do not have the brainspace to dedicate... Yes I love to think#about elves and fictional universe lore. but no.. I pretend I do not see it. Does not exist to me actually. ghgj.. OHH also took som#cool pictures of flowers in the garden section of a store and I wanted to do like.. character designs based on the colors of the flowers o#something. but that might just be another unnecessary project to add to the pile.. I want to commit to the daunting task of dyeing my#hair again some time.. hrm.. this is all of the updates I can think of. As if a bunch of random tags make up for never posting anything for#weeks on end lol.. alas.. too warm to think properly I suppose.. .. I neeeeeed a long lost relative to leave me some million dollar#estate in their will so I can have the resources to move to a colder climate or something ..augh#.. but for now.. I shall toil away in my little wizard tower trying to write 2000 something words a day whilst sweating and such ghbj
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