#okay i'm gonna be. an adult now.
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figuring out an injection schedule through clenched teeth and a haze of tears 'cause if my body's gonna fuck something up it's gonna do it at the least okay time possible
#changed my set earlier because there was a problem with the last one and like. it hurt so badly i almost passed out lmao#i had to put my face on the floor#and sensitivity is fucked there apparently because my blood sugar isn't coming down#and i don't have another set until APPARENTLY WEDNESDAY when i put this order in thursday#my blood sugar's been high long enough that i'm so so angry but also in tears it's so frustrating#i really. really don't want to do injections for three days#i have so much to do this week and now it's just gonna be that i don't have enough brain to do more than be alive when i have to manually#wanna break something but like. a bone.#/rational fucked up blood sugar impulses#i don't wanna use the insulin pen agaaaaaain i hate the fucking insulin pen#okay i'm gonna be. an adult now.#three days is so long i don't think i have enough lantus for three days.#actually i have so much lantus this is a miracle
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thinking,,,,,,,, darling who has a cryptic pregnancy....... [insert twst character here] reacting to it,,, maybe you and floyd and you're both a little dense because neither of you could have ever guessed. T_T
"what do you mean you were pregnant this whole time???? i thought shrimpy just got softer. :D" - floyb mindset.
in floyd's defense, he has no idea how human pregnancies work. he slept through that part of land boot camp!!! fell asleep the minute the professor started droning on about how humans don't lay eggs like mers do. jade can only chuckle (maybe he knew, but in classic jade fashion he won't tell because it's much more entertaining to sit back and watch everyone slowly figure it out) and azul is shaking his head in disbelief. had he known, he would have prepared well in advance to lend a helping hand. and you're just so amazed because maybe you were told you're unable to get pregnant, but somehow it happened and you had no idea all this time.
thank you to floyd and his mer virility for doing what was thought to be the impossible!!!!!! <3
#meraki mumbles#tw: pregnancy#conversely this happens with rollo and he's convinced it's a gift from god LOL he feels very blessed <3#OOOOO THIS CONCEPT WITH CATER#i need to write something with cater....... he gives me many thoughts but i never write any of them >_<#WAIT. CATER BEING SOMETHING OF A CRINGEFAIL#he kinda sorta sucks at adulting but he's trying and you're his roommate and you're not in a relationship but you fuck#and cater's okay with it because it's easier when he's not attached#but then cryptic pregnancy happens and now he's hit with the weight of: 'wow..... i'm going to be a father'#cater definitely goes to trey for advice#omg cater inviting riddle and trey to breakfast and being like 'sooooo what if i said cay-cay's gonna be a dad? :3'#he catches both of them so off guard...#AAAAAA SORRY FOR RAMBLING IN TAGS OTL
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Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)
Lighthearted bonus:
#enstars#hiiro amagi#rinne amagi#i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well#also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester#if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience#anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes--#--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah?#and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay#but you won't get that for whatever reason#sincerely: an adult in their 20s#....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now#anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably-#-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story#if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do)#if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad.#she'd throw hands with niki's parents#imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that)#meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could#also posts with her will be tagged mamagi#if you read all that <3#mamagi#she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too#imagine if they got their singing skills from her#also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal)#rinniki
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reread charles soule's daredevil run and I am thinking AGAIN about sam and this fucking line:
"three, mr. murdock. that's the number I came up with. I would have let three of those people die to save my eyes from muse."
and jesus christ. he's like nineteen. he's nineteen years old and he's weighing everything his mother taught him (we look out for ourselves, because who else will?) and everything daredevil taught him (don't die, don't let anyone else die, but at some point you're going to have to choose) and trying to figure out where they intersect.
and he comes up with an answer. the answer is three.
and daredevil? matt murdock? he would give up his eyes to save anyone, ever, in a heartbeat. he exists to sacrifice. he saves others by sacrificing. (it's a very audacious jesus parallel, in some ways, and some authors are more hamfisted about it than others) hell, the whole reason he's blind is because he pushed someone else out of the way of that truck.
matt gave up his eyes to save one person. sam would have let three people die to keep his.
and it's fascinating to me because these characters are basically perfect foils (oops literary analysis sidequest unlocked) like. matt is a hero because his ideals and his virtues will not let him be anything else. he's tried not being daredevil and it makes him feel guilty. he wants to help people because he feels like a piece of shit when he doesn't. but sam? sam saw the shit going on in his community and he built an invisibility suit to fight it. despite his mom trying to convince him that he didn't need to be a hero. he chose it. he chose it over her. and then he went the fuck back and chose it again. stick was like "here's a sword, guard this cave in the middle of nowhere in japan" and sam was like yeah sure. I'll vibe in the wilderness in a tent for an indeterminate amount of time.
he got his eyes back (kind of) and he's still doing this.
#actually sam and matt are such good foils on multiple levels#matthew “law school” murdock and samuel “homebrew invisibility” chung“#father and brother vs sister and mother#matt isn't disillusioned but daredevil is and it's the opposite for sam and blindspot#matt is Catholic™ and sam was in a cult#<- also building off this one#their moms being a part of the religious structure that inspired them to be a hero#(albeit for very different reasons)#matt's depression and sam's young adult tendency to Feel Everything Viciously#this literary analysis sidequest is getting out of hand#I'm gonna stop now I need to go to bed#matt murdock#daredevil#sam chung#blindspot#I got Real Carried Away here but it's okay#kili is rambling again
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We saw one of the hedgehog kids today again! This time I had my phone so could snap pictures.
I wouldn't even have noticed it if Sammy hadn't stopped to poo (right beside it... lol) and Bats went straight to the little one to have a sniff 😅 Didn't allow the contact, but he noticed it earlier.
Once we had left it seemed to look back at us from afar haha. Cute thing ❤️
#wildlife#hedgehog#on the way back I checked if it was still there but it was gone so I'm guessing it's okay and can fend for itself#will keep my eyes open now that the colder season is approaching but not gonna 'help' then if they're fine on their own#also I saw an adult there a while back during our night potty so I'm sure they're just doing their thing
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me, hyped up about Star Trek Enterprise again after finishing my beloved season 3: I wonder if there are any posts about it on tumblr *searches*
me, twenty minutes later, closing the results: ah. I see. it has suffered from fandomification, where fans threw out canon and replaced it with fanon. one hundred and thirty seven polls asking "what was your first/favorite star trek" and it is at the bottom of every one. this between 14million other posts about every other star trek series. some funny memes thrown in for ~flavor~. great. wonderful. I'll just go back into my happy little corner with my parents who unironically enjoy the show with me then.
#star trek enterprise#I don't know what I expected#I mean I didn't really expect anything I was shocked and excited to see posts... at first#now I'm just sorry I asked#for the purpose of answering every poll I came across: star trek enterprise WAS my first exposure to star trek#and yeah it imprinted on me a little#I was definitely in a space era after watching battlestar galactica (1978)#and I loved it#I still unironically love it#not a single post I saw talked about how amazing season 3 is I must fix that#if I have to see one more post talking about how captain archer is an idiot I will go insane#people can be smart and intuitive and still make stupid decisions sometimes without being 'himbos' internet#the man managed to befriend at least 47 different species of alien INCLUDING establishing an alliance#with the aliens who wanted to DESTROY EARTH#Idk maybe I'm just relating to the show on a subconscious level now#because I'm an adult who has been thrown into situations over her head and been forced to use intuition#because no one trained me or guided me#AND THAT'S LITERALLY THE WHOLE POINT OF STAR TREK ENTERPRISE#IT'S HUMANITY'S FIRST TIME IN SPACE AND THEY HAVE HAD NO TRAINING#OF COURSE THEY'RE GONNA MAKE MISTAKES#'star trek enterprise is funny and stupid uwu' THEY HAD TO STOP THE XINDI DEATH STAR SHUT UP#THEY SURVIVED THE EXPANSE THAT THE *KLINGONS* WERE AFRAID OF#HHHHHHHHHHHH#ugggggggh okay I'm getting worked up I should stop
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Lads i have Fucked Up Big Time
#somehow I just. Fuckin. Forgot. That if I wanna switch my major that I have to do a bunch if shit#and I missed the deadline for it because I didn't realize that I needed to do it and also forgot to reach out about it until WAY too late#so now I can't do anything until the spring#which is also bad because I don't know what the fuck my class schedule should be!!!!!!!#advisor told me that I can talk to her after the enrollment period and schedule a meeting and we can figure out what I'm doing from there#but like. ouggggggghhg#Im so worried there's gonna be some fuckup with my schedule and I won't be able to register for enough classes to be a full time student#which would be so bad#idk should I just wait until AFTER the enrollment period??? and just have no classes???#I'm gonna try and register for a few classes so I at the very least have Something in my schedule#mainly ones for my current (old) major and a few of the new classes#because multiple classes that I need to take I can Only take them IF I'm enrolled in that major. Which I'm currently not because I'm stupid#im just stressed now and unfortunately there isn't much i can do 🥰#i don't even know which classes I should be trying to take. I can GUESS but like who the fuck knows#so i can't even try and plan out a potential schedule i just get to sit on my ass and stress#sighh. im gonna try to not think about it bc its gonna stress me out#on one hand it's tempting to blame like. idk. literally every adult i talked to because none of them actually told me#“Hey btw you actually need to go to this office and fill out this paperwork and submit it by a due date”#they were just like yeah okay u can take some classes. and then we'll figure it out later#like. i would have gone and done the shit if I knew I needed to do iT!!!!#but also I should have sat down and looked more into it to so#bleughhhhhhhh#I'm just stressed. and annoyed. at myself mainly because like. duh of course I'd have to go fill out paperwork but I just was like#“Yeah I'll talk to my advisor later” and kept pushing shit off until it was too late <3#idk man im. so tired#hopefully it'll all work out okay and fine and i won't have the shittiest schedule on earth next semester#and hopefully the classes i need won't fill up!!!! :))))))#ahahahahahsh#im fucked man#lilac post
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HI I'M NOT DEAD I SWEAR. I'VE BEEN SUPER BUSY WITH SO MANY THINGS!!!
I can't make any promises cuz I'm still pretty busy but I'm gonna try to be more active again!!!! and!!!!! I finally have au stuff I'm working on!!!! I'm not gonna reveal what it's about yet but it's a short little encore au fic :D
ALSO. GUESS WHAT I FINALLY BOUGHT.
I can play it now :3
#I'm not gonna play it like. right now#but I will soon!!!#I'm gonna be so bad at it probably but that's okay#I finally have things to post lol#pro tip don't become an adult /j#ALSO I MISSED EVERYONE HIII#I missed my mutuals man </3#chimera babbles
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not me being fully transparent about law school life as a queer woman of color, but like. literally started tearing up in front of my school’s dei officer lmao
#caroline talks#i mean. okay hm.#the kind of hurt you feel when you're a kid in an all-white town#is p different i think. from the hurt you feel as now a grown ass adult in a professional setting#because at least when you're a kid being bullied because of your race. you can lift your chin#and say that. well they're immature and they're stupid and you're gonna get out of this town.#and when their parents say the same things about you and your family you can still lift your chin and smile and go 'well. i'm gonna grow up#so big that you can't even hit me'#and then you're an adult. and it hurts bc these are people who are might hire you one day#and you can't do anything but just smile politely when they say something about 'your people'#alexa play you're on your own kid by taylor swift or whatever#because truly!!! the jokes weren't funny i took the money my friends from home don't know what to say!
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*dusting off this old blog* Well it's been a while, isn't it?
#hello :D so I've been missing since September- scheduled queue aside#Life was stressing me out and I needed to cool off to focus on wrapping up the year else I'd lose it#then Life got worse by Sep-Oct (y'know. horrible real life events + personal stuff + holy shit I need to learn how to Adult)#forgot my password for a while so I was mostly on Twitter and it was Not Fun (and it still isn't)#and I remembered it by the end of January where I was getting most of my shit together and was mostly on Discord with friends#who were the reason I wasn't completely losing it so if you're reading this. thank you and I love you very much <3#but I missed being on Tumblr and the friends/moots i made. just got nervous to come back here. idk why. brain works in weird ways.#it looks like I'm justifying why I wasn't here and on one hand. yeah it's kind of an update#but it's mostly because I don't like going out and returning like stuff wasn't happening so it's really a me thing so anxiety won't spike#idk if I'm gonna go missing like that again or not but. yeah i'm still alive#(felt good to write that last phrase so maybe *something's* going right in life)#but yeah i think i'm back (not 100% because. Life) and will do a pinned. if you read all of it thank you! :D#okay i'm gonna post this now before my brain decides it's a bad idea-
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The main thing about IDW OP that I'm on my hands and knees begging people to understand is to actually treat him like a fucking character and give him the nuanced understanding that this fandom gives to other characters just fine. Like, I s2g the reason no one even talks about IDW OP is because at the first sign of him making mistakes or having a flawed worldview (you know, like a REAL PERSON and not a cartoon caricature) they instantly bail and go "zomg worst Optimus ever".
Like please for fuck's sake IDW1 is a story steeped in realism and moral grayness can you stop for ONE SECOND and realize that IDW OP being a little bit of an asshole or making big mistakes doesn't instantly make him the worst character ever and maybe take the time to actually read his story? B/c half the shit people say about IDW OP makes it obvious that they've only read MTMTE and LL (badly, might I add) and it annoys the shit out of me
#discourse#squiggposting#in the eyes of this boring ass fandom the ideal OP is a literal cardboard cutout#because no one wants him to do anything except stand in the background and smile and be some Good Guy#i mean for fucks sake it only took 10 episodes of ES a literal children's cartoon for people to instantly be like#'goo goo gaga OP works with a shady organization for the sake of maintaining peace with earth's citizens'#'on a planet that cybertronians came to by force bringing war and destruction with them'#'omg this children's cartoon OP is so bad because he wants to protect humans and makes compromises he doesn't like in order to do so'#like sorry i'm just really mad bc the reason ppl reject IDW OP isn't because of who he is as a character strictly#it's just because he's op/timus pri/me (TM) and he's not allowed to be anything else but perfect and good#that's why mfs are out there stanning objectively shitter characters and acting like adults about it#but when it comes to idw OP being more morally gray they flip their shit or pretend he doesn't exist#baby shhhh it's okay let OP be a person it's fine you'll survive#one single OP who doesn't cater to geewunners and the sensibilities of children's cartoons isn't gonna kill you#we can have more adult transformers stories but god forbid OP be more adult too. he has to be his g1 self now and forever#and if he ever makes compromises or questionable decisions or mistakes then throw him right out of the window. lmao
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#alright so like... i think i'm gonna move back home actually soon and i think i finally know what i wanna do#and it's weird right because i'm actually excited for this new start#and just comparing with the way i felt in 2020 when i had to leave this place the first time and how depressed that made me#idk man like i'm scared i'm gonna regret it but also i feel ready to move on and like be an adult#and i wanna be closer to my family and honestly that's good enough of a reason#i'm just gonna miss the trees and this city a lot but maybe that's okay#maybe she can be that old friend i only get to see every few years and who carries some of my fondest memories with her#anyway had to put it out there because it's all i've been thinking about for the past 2 weeks and this is a lot#but in a good way i think#and now maybe i can just chill and enjoy the rest of my time here
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#getting scolded for my fingers again#they're not even nearly as bad as they used to be btw i talk ab bleeding semioften but they look fine rn#and i still got told off bc it's ugly or whatever okay#and i loooove how me saying i do it bc of stress throughout my entire childhood+adolescence#it was met with ''you have nothing to be stressed about''#and now when i say ''i'm stressed bc of finals'' it's ''you're an adult now'' alright#like can we not do this can we not do this when i'm having a difficult enough of a time#i'm not gonna let it get to me tho actually i'm literally too exhausted to evem be angry i'm just venting for venting sake#i'll finish my coffee and then i'll go start reading dias.omnia
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I love being the only not-cis person in group therapy, btw. Love it. I tried to bring up how dysphoria is contributing to my difficulty with mood regulation and like, absolutely no one in that call understood wtf I was talking about, lol. That weird, pervasive gendering of Cluster B happened last session though, and it was viscerally uncomfortable on my end, but everyone else in the fuckin' Google Meets room or whatever just nodded in understanding like that shit was scientific fact. Like it got fully bioessentialist up in there for a minute. Cis people are so fuckin' weird.
#our t#TT.txt#I s2g there's this weird cis-person gendered power dynamic happening too.#Because- okay. There are two liscenced therapists leading this group but only one of them does all the presentations & the DBT#aspect of this shit. DBT group therapy kinda half runs like a course. We're takin' notes and everything.#But this fuckin' guy I swear to god. He whittles on and on and does this thing where someone else - who is a cis woman#important to keep in mind here - responds with a very real and emotional epiphany she's having in the moment as he's talking.#Which is like- I mean that's just kinda fantastic to be around. Those are the parts of this I stick around for. That feels like *progress*#And he'll like- I don't even know how to explain this. He agrees that what she's talking about is important but then he'll start rambling#about how what she JUST SAID usually IN TEARS isn't *fully* relevant to what he's talking about right now. Even when it very obviously is#I guess it's mansplaining?? I don't really understand the term mansplaining as a hard concept <- learning disability#But it definitely feels like smth related to mansplaining.#I dunno. I'm gonna continue this until the end bc I need these tools but goddamn I would ask to be reassigned if I had that guy alone#He just Presents[tm] it never actually feels like progress happens unless he's Presenting The Material. It's kinda weird to be around#And it's just like. My queerness is very obviously being carefully tiptoed around. And it's not like I'm not clocky y'know#Lets just say thank god I also go by they/them. Seems like its the ''most comfortable'' set for these people to use 🙄#Yes I am still judging them for that. Cis people need to rack up a good ally score before they can usually Officially use they/them on me#Only other queers get that for free. iykyk#We're at the point where both he/him & she/her confuse cis people so. Which feels great most of the time but on the other hand...#And I mean dear god if we bring up any neopronoun I think someone would have a confused meltdown#I'm a lil too close in age to some of these people's adult kids and they've got bad relationships with each other I ain't taking any#fuckin' chances.
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Ok so angrily bitching about this is Spanish wasn't enough so I gotta say it here as well--
My brother was talking to a friend of his on call and I was there in the same room, right? And I could hear what they were talking about. And the friend was raving about how vivzie pop is a horrible story writer and while I won't get into her as a person I will say that it's fucking tacky as all hell to compare art of 2 different people, no matter how much you're doing it to praise your favorite series. It. Is. Tacky
But that's not what I'm here to talk about — that's just the appetizer
So this guy keeps it up and then drags not only Hazbin Hotel but Helluva Boss as well — them's fighting words bc I love Helluva Boss I'd die for those characters. And what was his criticism of the series??
"Manhwa of two gay demons." That's what he fucking said
HELLO????
Like it's okay if you don't like manhwa (I don't know what in the FUCK that has to do with anything but aight) but the gay comment??? Where in the HELL did that one come from??
And just to prove a point I looked up what the episodes for Helluva Boss were and (from memory) tallied up which ones were Stolitz related and which ones weren't.
Y'all... It's 4. This man was crying over FOUR FUCKING EPISODES. FROM A CURRENTLY 17 EPISODE LONG SERIES. THAT ISN'T EVEN HALF — IN FACT IT AIN'T EVEN A WHOLE FUCKING THIRD OF THE TOTAL RUNTIME. it's fucking 24% (23.529% more specifically) OF THE SERIES SO FAR WHAT IN THE FUCK
brother mine. P L E A S E find better friends istg
#I'm also pretty sure the guy is an adult#and that I'm younger than him#like idk WHAT is going on in his house but PLEASE someone teach him some media literacy#or AT LEAST teach him that he can just. NOT watch stuff if he doesn't like it??? 😭😭😭#loke it's okay babygirl. you don't gotta watch the “gay demon show” if you don't like it#I'll singlehandedly drive up the views for it anyway so your support ain't needed 🥰#like seriously.#get a life#anyway#demon rambles™#also the way he said the whole “manhwa of two gay demons” comment???#homophobic much??? 🤨🤨#it's not like it's in your face my guy. it's just another relationship they're developing around blitzø bc GUESS WHAT BUCKO#HE'S THE MAIN CHARACTER#has this man ever even heard of a main character within a protagonistic group in a series????#idk i got WAYY too tilted at what in the end was a convo i was NOT part of lol#but seriously i find that man irl and he makes that comment again...#I'm punching him in the jaw is all I'll say#I'm not surprised it's a discord friend#bc OF COURSE it is#of COURSE it had to be a discord friendship#and the way he was praising rick and morty like it was THE BEST series ever created like stfu#sure it's good. and sure it has great characters. can you stop smelling the guy's farts and get your nose outta his ass now???#you're gonna end up finding fucking truffles there. pig wannabe#that's it. I'm done yapping
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Random advice: if you have a surgery involving bones and surgical hardware (screws, plates, etc..) and you're worried something is wrong, ask for a CT scan. You want a CT scan. Push for a CT scan.
#{domino talks}#i had a surgery and within the first four months or so worried something was wrong#we did x-rays and those were fine. i was 17.#ten fucking years later and i find out the fusion isn't complete#all these years we didn't do a ct scan until the neurosurgeon needed one because we're leaning towards surgery#prepping for future surgery - that's the only reason i'm finding this put#ask for a ct scan#maybe we would have done more for my pain#but at least now i have proof that “yeah no my pain isn't mysterious generalized pain”#can we please remove fibromyalgia from my diagnosises and put something more accurate! thx#i'm angry and honestly lucky that i lasted ten years (even if things sucked more than they should have)#i feel like at one point my mom was worried but since i was already brushed off about it i had to defend my health in order to be okay?#anyway shit's fucked and as patients this knowledge isn't our responsibility because it sounds a lot like common fucking sense#from a medical standpoint!#goodnight#realizing how much adults and medical professionals failed me really sucks#and now i'm the adult 😭 gonna try hard to not fail myself
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