#okay for realz goodnight

[predoom]

ohoneohone

Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006 4:19 pm "baby im getting on a plane in a minute i wanted to say bye and i love you..." its funny the way being young exaggerates everything. when we fall in love or fall apart its all magnified. ive been waiting on a change. ive been waiting for you to not give up on me. i should have bet against myself and thrown the game. its always the same. the same people that are not me with the strange coastal breeze and the strange coastal boys. the truth is even funnier. its slippery. it looks different at 1am than it does at 10am. it looks different two weeks later. you know what the fuck i am talking about. its always new names and numbers. but its the same. and i am dirty, forgetful, lonely, arrogant, stubborn, secretive, and many other things i hear in whispers. but my heart is fucking in it. you could set your watch by it. and that has been thrown out and trashed. lied to. ignored. run away from. i have the opposite of midas' touch.

no matter how you spin it- it hurts. words cannot explain- congratulations! you did it again.

but being in the bitter boys club just keeps the cycle spinning. so this is me walking away. this is the closure i needed. or close to it.

i want to be in love again. she is the start of it- she reminds me of sweet child o'mine and staying up all night talking and the truth and winks that are just for me.

there are no futures here. there are no more second chances or arkansas- or wrong text messages. 'the girl i loved never really existed at all'...

this journal doesn't really make sense anymore. the purpose i started it for is out the window and out of my mind. this will be the last entry in here. its gonna be okay.

"its not that id die for you, its that i already have."

next time try telling the truth.

Current Music: "wish you were here" pink floyd Saturday, March 4th, 2006 3:15 pm i know its true because i read it on the internet and everything on the internet is true i am sick in new york city. watching top model. i loved the secret show at knitting factory. its like someone hit the rewind button on my life. perfect. i am in love with my band at times like this. they get me, i get them. words fail me right now. my head gets to me sometimes. congratulations. you hurt my feelings. yep. thats right. ive got feelings (barely hehe). threw up right before we went on and fell asleep right when we got off. down with a sickness. natalie portman thinks we are geeks. i think she is right. time to eat grilled cheese and tomato.

santino > pete wentz.

for realz. Thursday, February 23rd, 2006 1:50 am "just like in the 1 9 9 9- before model chicks were bending over..." its late. i cant sleep. when i have noone to turn to, i usually turn to the words. right now the words disappoint me. just like everything else. i always said that when this stopped being fun and cathartic that i would walk away. it seems as though this time is quickly approaching. i tired of the endless explanations as you tire of the excuses. nothing is ever good enough on either end. i have not changed the way i think or feel any more than anyone has. i am ordinary- i am just some boy. be careful what you wish for pete.

i will write more here only tommorrow. hopefully the sunlight will change how i look at things. its funny i think that our video contains some predictions of the spirit of where we are now. if this doesn't get better then...

im sorry. i am not equipped for this.

goodnight moon. Sunday, February 19th, 2006 11:34 pm we put the f.u. back in fun so ive been reading many peoples diatribes lately. about what punk rock is and how bullshit this whole scene is. about how we all need to fuck off and die. well the truth is youre so fucking brave and i am so fucking cliche. i am okay with that. but i believe in these songs and these eyes and these sweated out rooms. the words your write hurt my eyes and my back is sore from being hunched over the screen all night. you cheapen what i do by casually throwing barbed statements at my friends and fans. leave. we don't fucking need you. we dont care what you think about us. we dont need to sit in clubs and watch you excuse yourself to the bathroom every 20 minutes, just cause we know how it goes. we dont need to watch you onstage. the best songs sing themselves. ive said it since day one. this is my rushmore. this saved me. fuck you for trying to ruin it.

new songs are my middle finger back to you. im sorry youre gonna have to wait awhile to hear yourself called out through the speakers.

i love the way they always ask to see my room key when i walk into my hotel at night. like i do not belong. because i do not belong. i love opposition. i love the haters. i love mondays. i love accidents. i love "no more chances". i love walking through this city at night where i do not know anyone. because i do not know anyone. i love secret shows. i love coded messages. i love the way you have me figured out so much better than i have myself figured out.

xo

peterabbit Wednesday, February 8th, 2006 5:04 am so you want the truth been living just outside of okay for awhile now. but its changing. whatever story you heard about me is not true. im pretty sure im not gonna bring home a grammy tommorrow. but i will have lots of good pictures. how i am feeling about someone is always changing. except i am allowed to be happy inside my head right now. ive been scared of everything for far too long. i haven't let myself be alright. but ive done alot of thinking on the 12 hour flight here. i just like being around certain people. new friends make my heart flutter. old ones make me feel homesick. been going to grammy parties all week. yeah im that guy in the corner lurking hard. its kinda creepy. ive been training the last month for our video- however i think i may have sprained or fractured my foot in the last day. if this thing turns out the way it is supposed to- it will be the most epic thing fall out boy has ever done. i dont miss you but i do miss the idea of you. i went and looked at houses out in california again today- i want to get a dog and a backyard. maybe not just yet. but maybe. my clock is ticking on your pretty face. my dad got drunk tonight and talked shit to all of my friends. pretty amazing. i wish i had it on video. total release the bats two material. i want to do a tv show like the wonder years starring fall out boy. i don't think any networks would be too interested. dont call it a comeback.

put pennies on my eyes when i die.

you are new moons and fresh sheets and the end of that one dream.

love the fancy kid.

[lenawin4]

I’ve started a collection of ellick drabbles...y’all can check them out here muahaha. Taking prompts on Tumblr and through the comments, haven’t had a lot planned out yet, but will be posting whatever comes to my mind here. Will be hecka unbeta-ed but hope y’all enjoy nonetheless. Okay I should go sleep now XD

[def-sol]

Rubyyyyyy~ How is my favorite gem doing? ❤️ how was your week so far? Did anything fun happen? Did you get some sunlight? ~ Rai

Raaaaiiii I miss you so much! I was thinking about you today! My week has been okay, my s/o is back at work so we're readjusting to a normal sleep schedule and I'm all at my lonesome during the day. A little sunlight yes but it's been lurking at 40 something Celsius with multiple heat warnings ☀️ the most fun thing this week was s/o surprising me with ork models to get me into the tabletop game he loves! Building them looked super intimidating at first but it's actually something nice to hyperfixate on! Putting on a fan definitely helps prevent headaches from the glue. We've also been rewatching a show that's funny but also HURTS in every. single. episode.

Thanks for checking in, I hope you're taking care of yourself and remembering to hydrate! I know tumblr was pulling some bullshit on you again but I'm excited to read the Jaehyun fic!

[j-klingers]

The one fun thing about late games is that I can feel the sleepy energy amongst us. It's like we're all happy the Stars won but we all also lowkey wanted to go to bed an hour ago.

[karumashadowchicken]

Yandere Hawks x Reader, Fem pt.1

Yandere Hawks x Reader 'Talk'

You had woken up after sleeping in again. You got up tirdly, and put on your casual outfit. Sighing, you put your ear uds in your ears and started walking. You exite your house quiely, as it was 11:50pm. Walking through the city was nice, as there weren't many people. Most people would be worried about their health, as crime was quite common. Although you had a quirk, and a pretty strong one at that. You never showed it off, some of your friendsdiden't even know you had a quirk. As you walked you put your handsin your pocket, the wind was howling, but it wasen't an unwelcomed sound. It was quite relaxing, and it made you feel a little calmer. Cars still went by every fe minutes, and the city lights were still bright. Walking throught the city wasalways something you liked, it was calming, and just a good way to get some alone time. As you walked around the block you eventually ended back at your apartment building. Walking up the stairs you climbed to the roof. You always liked the way that the strs looked from the roof top. Sitting atop the building you could see the stars so clearly, you could see so much more than you needed too. You kicked your feet over the side of the building. Moving your head lightly from side to side, you looked at the sky. Only yo be spooked. "Whater you doin on a roof top at midnight?" Hawks was dressed casual, his red wings puffed up a little, " Your not causing trouble are ya?" Hawks questioned. You sighed, " Nope, I just need a break fro all the hussle and bussle of city life." Hawks sighed sitting dowm beside you, "Me too kid." You two sat there silently. He humbed a soft tune. "Its not as easy as people make it sound, is it?" You asked. He quirked an eyebrow." Being a hero." You continue, " People make it sound like a dream come true.... Its not is it?" Hawks sighed, leaning back, putting his legs back, rocking back and forth. "I guess its a lot more complicated then people think, all worth it though." Hawks continued humming, until he turned to you, "Do you usualy sit up here, I mean, its kinda late?" Hawks queastioned. You looked to the sky smiling lightly. His head followed were you were looking, turning the the sky. " Its kinda nice out here. I big bustling city, and the calming night sky. It really is something ien't it?" Hawks smiled lightly, "Yeah it is, baby bird." you turn your head, "Hm?" You raised an eybrow and continued, " Do you call everybody baby bird?" Hawks face when white for a split second, not realising he called ya baby bird. "ha, sorry Y/N. diden't mean to call ya that." He almost paniked when he realzed that he said your name, but you diden't queastion it. "Its fine honestly." You continued, " a careing nickname isen't the worst thing in the world." you and hawks looked at the sky for a while, having a light conversaion. "Hey baby bird?" you turned your head, going 'hm?', "If ya ever wanna talk, heres my number." Hawks handed you his phone, wanting your number too. You two exchanged numbers, before you sighed getting up. "sorry Hawks, I should get to bed. That was  nice talk." You frowned, realizing you probley wont see him again. At least not without it being him on the news or something. "I'll see ya again." You smiled lightly, a sadness in your eyes."Yeah..." You followed your way down the stair case, stoping at your apartment. You opened the door and walked in. Turning the lights on and closing the door behind you. Your phone 'dinged'causing you to look at it. Its said, 'GoodNight Baby Bird', from 'Hawks'. You smiled, remembering that you two did exxchange numbers. You siled, typing back to him, "GoodNight, Hawks." He smiled looking at his phone as he sat on the roof top. he had been crouched on the roof,bt got up and punched into the air,. His wings flapping like a pretty bird. A featherof his 'fell' from his wing and 'landed' on your belcony. You diden't think about the fact that he could control his feathers at the time, now you wish you had noticed. Seeing a flash of fluffy red you opened the belcony door, looking out. Only to see a single red feather. You picked it up and felt the feather. It wasso soft and pretty, you placed it on your table and got yourself dinner. Simply eating your favourite snack. You finished quickly and turned on the tv, putting on Animal Planet. You fell asleep lisening the animal planet in the backround. *Hawks Perspecive* He made sure you saw the feather, as it 'landed' on your belcony. He flew back to your apaertment minutes later, he was exited. He had finally got to talk to you! You even exchange numbers, and responded when he said good night. Hawks smiled softly to himself, it looked a little bit like a sadistic grin, but it wasen't. He looked threw the belconys glass door, finding you fast asleep he starts to pick the lock. When he got, which was suprizigly easy since you forgot the ock the door, he stepped inside softly.He looked at your cute sleeping form and took a few cute pictures of you cutlt cuddled up. He moved to your washroom. You had bought new shampoo and conditioner, he neededto see what brand it was. Once he did he sneaked bad, leaving a bit of money in your wallet along with a note reading, 'Sorry for the trouble, baby bird.' Once finished he closed the door, using the feather on the inside to lock it. He hoped to run into you in the morning. *Your Perspective* You woke again, having a relativlynormal morning. Making sure you had your wallet you headed to the mall. You needed to picked up a few foods, snacks, clothing, and a few other things. Getting dressed you put on something casual. The weather was okay, fo the season. You sighed, moving throught he crowds of people. Not carring for whatever had interested them you just walked through ignoreing them. You were walking in an empty part of the mall now, put still somehow you ended up bumping into somebody. "Uh! I am so sorry!" You said fumbling. You had fallen to the floor. "Hey, you should watch where your going." You fumbled out another apoligy. You looked p to the man, scared face, staples in his face, black spiky hair, and a lot of peircings. You sighedhelping yourself up, " I am so sorry, can I buy you a coffee or something?" You asked. He sighed looking behind him. Dabi, not wanting to cause trouble just waves you off and walks by. You calmed your breathing, happy that you diden'tcause any trouble. Walking around the next corner you walked right into someones chest. You almost fell back, but he reached forward and caught you, "Hey Baby Bird." You looked up and smiled at his voice, "Hawks!" You said smiling. Hawks smiled lifting you too your feet completly. "What are ya doing here Baby Bird?" You sighed, and explainedyour shopping trip so far. You included the man you had bumped into just a minute ago. He sighed, "Oh, did you get his name?"you sighed and explained that you haden't. He sighed putting his hand around our shoulder. *Hawks Perspective* "Where ya headed now, baby bird?" I asked. She smiled beutifuly,sighing again. they do that a lot, I noticed that since  met them. I looked into her beautiful face, as she eplaned she was shopping, "Need any help?" I asked. She waved me of, explaining that it was fine, and she diden't wanna waste my time. Shes never a waste of time, I love her so much, I thought while taking her hand. "None sense, I'll carry your basket for you." I contined, "Nothing like quality time." I smiled at her as she blushed. her hand was so beautifl an soft. They are amazing, and beautiful. I used this as the perfect chance to find out what kind of things they buy. *Your Perspective* "Okay, Uh.. Follow me I guess." You said, still blushing. You pulled you hand away lightly while looking at products. You stoped at a sweet isle, and bought your favourite. You and hawks headed to the bread isle next, a got some fresh bread. In the end you hand gotten all the things that you needed. Then you headed to another store, buying: -Your Favourite Food, Snack, Drink and Chips. -Your Favourite Heros Mug. -A Stuffie Of Gang Orca, and Best Jeanist. -Some Stuff For Writing, and Drawing. -A Few New Outfits. -whatever else. Hawks smiled, taking in all the knowlege of what you bought. You smiled, stopping at a cute cafe inside the mall. "Wanna chat, and get some snacks?" you asked. Hawks nodded his head and smiled at you, "Of Course."

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[loves-the-game]

okay goodnight for realz i love you @taylorswift im always proud of you

[2918miles-blog]

June 20th 2k17 take 3

Hahahahaha. Okay, so my first one posted anyway. I'm still going to play it safe and copy text just to be sure. Anyway, I also just learned that it's always better to keep your cool, let the anger/frustration (or any negative emotion for that matter) pass, and figure out what your best option is in the moment. Take action and things will work. This too shall pass. What a crazy world we live it. K I'm tired now for realz goodnight :)

[briannasun]

and she was like "WHY ARE ALL THE FRESHMEN SO MUCH COOLER THAN LAST YEAR LIKE DAMN GIRL." thank you thank you i try