#okay and this is jaejoon ..

[sab-teraa]

https://youtu.be/xTtLErBr5HY

[oyunjae]

For @wardog-of-the-endless who wanted a mix “for science” lol I’ll try to get a better one someday. Yunho’s NWL melody with Jaejoong’s All Alone ahhh love the chorus <3

Lyrics to both songs ^ (Jaejoong and Yunho both wrote their own) Yunho’s was released 1 year after JJ’s in the beginning of 2014

Original post:

[lastblossoms]

‘ ♡ ‘ « @vliants »

      ❝ what the HELL are you saying ? what makes you think that i’m interested in you ? tch .. nothing happened last night --- absolutely nothing. i was drunk, you were ... whatever. you were obsessed with me, followed me home, and apparently passed out beside me. ❞

[taejoonws]

𝐈𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞. 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐦𝐞. 𝐓𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫. 𝐀 𝐥𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐥𝐢𝐦𝐞.

CLOSED STARTER for @wsjaejoon.

Despite the seemingly never ending busy schedules for the duo, it was thankfully almost always possible for them to find a day where they had a little availability to see one another. There had been times where Taejoon had to cancel plans at the last minute and as much as it broke his heart to do so, he trusted that his baby brother understood and never took it personally. As a member of the industry himself, there would be times where Jaejoon would have to do the same.

Taejoon ventured out into the brisk evening air, a black mask covering the lower part of his face and a black ball cap atop his head. Phoenix’s dorm wasn’t far from his apartment building, but shortly after his commute started he had pulled his hood up to keep the light wind from touching his neck and ears.

( Okay, maybe it was a bit far, but Taejoon didn’t mind the walk, even if it was a little too chilly for his standards. )

His current, carefully curated, playlist was blaring through his AirPods, keeping his mind occupied until he reached his destination. Finding a spot to stand near the entrance, he leaned against the cool surface of the building, pulling his phone out of his back pocket to text his little brother.

﹝  ✉  TO: 재주니  ﹞ ➞ Hey, squirt. ➞ I’m outside. ➞ If you aren’t down here in exactly 5 minutes or less I’m eating dinner by myself. ❤️

[hoplessdreamer9796]

BTS 8th Member - Profile

Name: Kim Y/N  Date of Birth: 16/09/1996 Ethnicity: Half Arabic and half Korean Nationality: Is British but after moving to Korea obtained dual citizenship (I don’t know if this is a thing but if it’s not let’s just pretend)

Appearance: > Navy Blue eyes > Dimples > 5″8 > Light golden tan skin > Curves and athletic > Looks Korean due to eye shape and Arabic due to eye colour. Mainly looks Korean but it is obvious she is half.  > Tattoos:  1) “Familia Super Omnia” (”Family Above All” written in Latin on left shoulder blade). 2) Initial and birthdays of her younger brothers on left wrist and older brothers on right wrist (Just her brothers... For now...). “No oppa I don’t love you that much I just often forget your existence.”  3) Matching tattoo with Hanbin of the Neverland stars on right shoulder blade.  4) Matching tattoo with Shinhye of a forget me not flower on their upper thighs.  5) ARMY written on both sides of her index finger because, “Now they can see my love from both angles,” cue Jin face palming.

Basic Information:  > Born in England moved to Korea when 11 years old.  > IQ of 162 and has an eidetic memory but terrible at remembering birthdays. > Can memorise choreography after seeing it once.  > Is a main singer of BTS, like Jungkook, and is Hoseok’s second dancer in command.  > Graduated high school after the first grade at age 16 (international age). > Was on the track and swimming team during high school and middle school. Could not attend practices as she had to work so much but the coaches still allowed her to be on the team as she was advantageous in competitions. She has always been first in every swim and track meet she competed in. > Was not able to go to university at first as her family couldn’t afford it. But when BTS and her company was stable and doing well she was able to get a physics degree from Seoul National University (mainly online classes due to schedule, they normally don’t allow this but they decided they wanted her to attend the school due to her IQ and status. She attended classes when she could and did exams at the school) Got her degree in one year.  > Speaks 7 languages: English, Korean, Arabic, Chinese (both Mandarin and Cantonese) Thai, Japanese. (Learnt Chinese, Thai and Japanese in order to connect with fans better.) > Can play the piano, guitar, can beatbox, can play drums and also the violin but doesn’t like playing the violin (will be explained later). > CEO of Jeonsa Corporation which is comprised of Almira’s (a restaurant franchise where her mother created all the recipes) and Jeonsa cosmetics.  > Became world’s youngest self-made billionaire at the age of 21 in 2017 (In this AU Kylie Jenner became billionaire at 22 and was the world’s fastest self-made billionaire).  > Terrible with feelings in general. > Is okay at showing affection with people but as soon as the conversation starts to get deep and emotional, she spazzes out.  > Drinks way too much alcohol and loves clubbing. > Only likes casual flings as she’s too busy and doesn’t want to commit. (For now...) > Even though she has more than enough money she won’t leave BTS as she loves what she does.  > At first didn’t want to join BTS (will be explained later). > Very charming and charismatic, flirts with anything that breathes.  > Hates her birthday. > Buys way too many cars and drives too fast.  > Owns a lot of real estate. > Terrified of bugs mainly spiders (will be explained later).  > Swears way too much and it triggers Jin.  Family:  Grandmother (biological fathers side) - Kim Soojin (17/07/1953) - Unemployed Grandfather (biological fathers side) - Kim Woosuk (23/08/1952) - Unemployed  They both allowed Y/N, Adriel and Adonis to live with them on days when their mother would work nights. Y/N mainly looker after them as they weren’t able to find much work in their old age. Some of the most precious people in Y/N’s life. Grandfather (Stepfathers side) - Kim Wonshik (30/06/1955) - CEO of Hanam Hospital (I made it up)  He thinks of his son’s stepchildren as his own grandchildren. He loves them very much. Whenever his grandchildren are free, he likes playing golf with them. Y/N at first was nervous that he wouldn’t accept her and her siblings as they were not fully Korean and poor. But she was surprised how much he loved and accepted them so easily. Mother - Kim Almira (21/03/1974) - Head chef at one of the branches of Almira’s in Seoul. She has not been able to be a part of her Children’s lives as she would have liked because when she was not working at the restaurant she was working somewhere else or sleeping. She often feels guilty at how much of her childhood Y/N has missed out. It also makes her feel grateful for having such amazing children. She often blames herself for Y/n being so emotionally closed off but it’s as if her daughter knows when she’s feeling like this and will take her mother shopping in Milan and Paris. A life that she didn’t even think was possible. Or even just spend the day helping her cook. And she thanks the stars for giving her 7 amazing children. Stepfather - Kim Haeil (24/07/1973) - Cardiothoracic Surgeon who met Almira at the restaurant. He quickly became mesmerised with the foreign beauty with the light hazel eyes. He often found himself stopping by Almira’s more and more often. Having little dates in the gardens halfway between the hospital and the restaurant. They fell in love quickly; He grew to love her kids that he saw when he went to the restaurant to visit Almira. He became protective over them especially Y/N who’s eyes looked far too old to belong to a teenager, seeing how much their family struggled he wanted to marry Almira a few months after they started dating and help them, he cared for them greatly. Y/N told her Mother that she didn’t want him to pay off their debt out of pity. They were working so hard what was the point if someone did it for them. She didn’t need someone to take care of them. In reality she was worried he would be like Insu. Y/N had no problem with Haeil, you hadn’t seen your mother so happy for years and you didn’t object to their relationship, however you didn’t need someone’s charity, which back then due to your pride was what you thought of it as. You also reminded your Mother that she had only known this man for a few months and asked her to get to know him better before considering marriage. Your mother although saddened by your inability to take the easy way accepted your decision. They waited until you had paid off all of your family’s debt before he had taken her back to their special garden and proposed to her there. It’s easier to call Haeil Dad than Insu. You love him very much at first it was weird having a father figure that actually cared and you never really got used to having a protective father who loved you so much. Biological Father - Kim Insu (13/03/1971) - Unemployed. Abusive to Y/N and Almira. When he would try to hurt her little brother’s Y/N would never let him. He never hurt her older brother as he claimed that his son never did anything wrong. Elijah probably hated him the most because of this, if he tried to protect his sister his father would just hurt her more. He felt powerless as he was not able to protect his younger siblings. As Almira was at work most of the time Y/N got the worst of his treatment. The only thing he cares about is money, women, alcohol and gambling. In England around Y/N had just turned 11 he got a divorce and left them, much to everyone’s relief. However, after you had started making a lot of money after debut and when the restaurant started doing well, he showed up in your life again. Your grandmother was so happy. He threatened to tell his parents the truth about what he did unless you paid him. The thought of your grandparents knowing what kind of a monster their son was sickened you so you struck a deal, he stays away from the rest of you family and spends two hours a week with your grandparents in order to get paid ₩250,000,000 every week. He accepted and now your grandparents are happy to be in their son’s life with you protecting them from the real him the best you can.   Stepbrother - Kim Jaejoon (23/07/1991) - General Surgeon. He met Y/N at the hospital when he went to visit his father and Y/N was dropping off food for her future stepfather that her mother had sent. He had recognised her from how his father’s at the time girlfriend had described her. Her blue eyes standing out in the sea of ordinary brown. He introduced himself to her and told her he was her mother’s boyfriend’s son (cringing inwardly at how awkwardly he said that). Y/N had just smirked in amusement at his awkward state trying to hold back her laugh and introduced herself. The more he talked to you the more he realised how smart you were. You could easily keep up with him when he talked about his job. He also met his future brothers that day when the two family’s got dinner together. It was surprisingly easy for the two families to integrate. He quickly grew protective of his future younger siblings. He wished that Y/N hadn’t been so stubborn and had let their parents gotten married in order to make things easier but understood that it was something she had to do and his sister is the most stubborn person he knows. He is very protective over his sister and often lectures her on her drinking and clubbing antics. He nags at her so much it’s ridiculous, fuck when he saw her first tattoo, he threw a fit it was hilarious. He can’t see her as anything other than that wide eyed teenager with sad blue eyes, she’s gotten to good at hiding that look. >Sister in Law - Jeon Haeun (12/08/1992) - Vascular Surgeon  >Niece - Kim Seoyeon (29/01/2018) - N/A  >Nephew - Kim Youngsoo (31/05/2019) - N/A  Full blooded Brother - Kim Elijah (17/03/1993) - Cardiothoracic Surgeon. He is very grateful to Y/N as she is the one that practically had to force him to go to university for medicine. He didn’t want to leave his family and he also knew that their family wasn’t financially able to send him there. Y/N told him that they’ll manage but he still refused. But when you told him that when he becomes a doctor and starts earning money he can provide for their family; he was determined to do this. He said that he would get part time jobs and send money, but you told your mother and him that you’d take care of everything and for him to focus on school. You had to cut back on a lot of thing but were able to get him into a student dormitory, a small and cheap one but that's all you could do, a food budget and a bus pass. He was very grateful and guilty. He was determined to succeed and help their family. But it turns out that you managed to do that before him. Years later he found out that after you graduated high school at 15 you had been offered a full scholarship to Seoul National University for medicine but you had declined as you had to help your mother provide for your family and pay off your debts. He was especially angry since he also went to Seoul National University (like all of your brothers who went to university) and felt like he robbed you of the opportunity. He got into a huge argument with you when he found out. After the fight you two drank and reminisced about the few good childhood memories you had. He babies you a lot and is very overprotective of you. Stepbrother - Kim Taejoon (27/04/1993) - Trauma and Orthopaedic Surgeon. He’s the kind of brother to randomly stop by your office and force you to lunch with him. He’s the cliché overprotective brother, glares at any boy that looks in her direction and hates basically everything she wear unless they’re baggy. A part of him hates Y/N’s noncommittal attitude to relationships because well that’s his sister and well eww but the other part of him is glad. Glad that his sister will never allow herself to get emotionally hurt but it also saddens him that she won’t ever open herself up to love. He coddles her a lot always texting if she’s had dinner and checking on her when on tour. As much as you complain when he coddles you love it. Full blooded Brother - Kim Adriel (18/02/1997) - Footballer plays for Liverpool, (I have no clue I legit searched premier league football clubs and picked the first one) is the youngest Korean ever football player to make it into the premier league (Don’t know). Lives in England most of the time. You are the most precious person in the world to him. He is a lot more intuitive that his twin brother and was able to find out sooner than Adonis about their financial situation. After finding out he started waking up earlier to make his grandparent’s breakfast to let you sleep a bit more. At first you protested but the thought of even an extra hour of sleep sounded heavenly. He felt so guilty about how he acted before he knew and so when he found out he sobbed in your arms apologising. And your heart broke you always wanted to shield him from that. When he moved back to England, he was very anxious at the thought of living far from you. He texts you every single day, needing at least some form of communication to stop him from worrying about you.  Full blooded Brother - Kim Adonis (18/02/1997) - Youtuber and is living in England. He moved back there when he was 16 in 2013. His channel had 500,000 subscribers but was not making any money. He played games online with different youtubers and became close with them. They explained how they make a living off of YouTube and he became excited at the thought of pursuing this career. While it was a risk especially with his family’s financial situation at the time, he knew he had to do it. While his entire family was against it, especially Adriel, you convinced your mother to let him go and used all the money you saved for a rainy day to buy him a phone and a plane ticket on the condition that he attends online high school. He lived with a family friend until he could start supporting himself. As of now has amassed seventeen million subscribers. He visits Korea whenever he can, if you’re there, to see you. He’s regretful about how much pressure he put on you in order to achieve his dreams but whenever you tell him how proud you are with that glint in your blue eyes he knows that you mean it. Adrien and Adonis are fraternal twins. When they were young, they were very close. However, when Adonis wanted to move to England to further his YouTube career, Adriel was vehemently against it. Not because he didn’t love his brother and of course he’d miss him but because of the fact that Adonis wanted to make their situation even harder than it already was. That he wanted to make his sister work harder than she already did on something he wasn’t even sure would work. Due to this difference of opinions Adrien and Adonis grew apart and when Adonis went to England, they didn’t contact each other unless you made them. However, after Adrien moved to England they began to reconnect and slowly but surely their relationship began to heal. Much to your relief. The twins are the most attached to you as you are both a mother figure and sister to them. There is an unspoken rivalry and tension between them and Jungkook as they all get jealous and territorial over you. Stepbrother - Kim Hanuel (25/06/1997) - Studying Law at Seoul National University. He graduated high school a year early, then attended university for a year before enlisting in the military as soon as he could. He wanted to get it over with so he could focus on his future without it looming over his head. He finished his university degree in two years with a bachelor’s in law. He graduated at age 22 (International age) which was the same age as most people who were graduating however he had the advantage of having completed his military service. He is the younger brother Y/N sees the most as he lives in Seoul. You have sacrificed a lot for your family and would do anything for them.

[kpopnstuff1]

Unrequited Love PT6

AN: Hope you find this Namjoon x Reader fic intresting. I worked hard on this and I hope you like it. Sorry if there are mistakes. Please send feedback and or requests. BORAHAE <3 <3 <3 <3

Read PT1 PT2 PT3 PT4 PT5 PT7 PT8 Finale

NPOV

“Its time, Y/N  you are fully dilated. On the next contraction i’m going to ask you to push with all your strength.” You nodded. “You can do this. You are strong and brave and I believe in you.” Everything had happened so fast. You were struggling to push your baby out, but suddenly the pain disappeared and you felt a great relief. You heard a loud cry, which was always good news. “Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Kim. Welcome your baby boy to this world.” The doctor laid your baby on your chest. “You did great mama. I Love you.” Namjoon kissed your forehead. You were surprised by his words, but you knew they were only said because of the moment. “Let me get baby, to clean him up. We will be right back. Daddy do you want to watch.” Namjoon nodded and followed the nurse. In that moment you felt truly happy. You started to cry. You had never imagined this would ever happen to you. And especially not with Namjoon, but now you were glad it was with him.  Your happiness washed away as soon as you noticed Jimin sitting in the corner. His eye cold and sad. “Congrats.” he mouthed as he stood up and left. “So what is this little guys name?” The nurse asked Namjoon. He turned around and looked at you. “ Kim Jae-Joon.” I said with a huge smile. “Kim JaeJoon, that’s his name.” Namjoon said as he picked up his son.

Being home with a newborn was a bit strange. Namjoon had taken time off to be with the two of you and it felt nice. You were a little surprised when Jimin wasn’t home, but your heart broke into a million pieces when you noticed all his things were gone as well. Namjoon was catching up the nanny on the things she should help with and the things she needed to ask you before doing. He knew you would be a very hands on mother but he wanted someone helping you while he was gone. “Y/N, I hope you don’t mind if I move into the spare bedroom. I just want to be with Jaejoon as much as I can.” “It's okay Namjoon. You don’t have to ask. This is your house.” “Yes, but you and Jimin live here and I don’t want to make things awkward.” He joined you on the couch with Jaejoon in his arms. “Jimin is gone, so are his things. I guess he didn’t want any part of this weird family.” Just than Ana walked in “Mr. and Mrs. Kim, Mr. Park is here and would like to see the both of you.” “Let him in.” Namjoon said in a stone cold voice. “Thanks for seeing me.” “Please sit down.” You said in a trembling voice. “What are you doing here?” “Look, Namjoon I don’t want any problems with you. But this is between Y/N and I. You don’t have to leave but please let me get everything out in the air.” Namjoon nodded and looked at you. “Why did you leave?” “I wasn’t sure you wanted me here after what happened. Look I’m not gonna say that i’m not a piece of shit because I am. I felt so excluded from everything. I craved attention and I wasn’t getting it at home.” “So you went and fucked your dance partner...In my house.” You were now shaking. Namjoon placed his hand on you knee sending quivers of jealousy down Jimin’s chest. “I know that it was wrong. I regret doing it. I love you Y/N. Even if you had a baby with another man. I love you.” “Well I don’t know if I can give you another chance. You showed me that you don’t love me with your actions. And if you don’t love me how are you going to love my baby. You left as soon as he was born! You don’t even know his name.”

Namjoon’s POV

I could see the pain in Jimin’s eyes. He was truly sorry. Part of me wanted Y/N to send him away. To make her push him away. But I could see how much it hurt her as well. I know I have feelings for her, but i’m not sure they are as strong as the feelings they have for eachother. Jaejoon’s happiness should come first, and if his mother isn’t happy neither will he. “Y/N I think you should give Jimin another chance. I know what he did is wrong, but in his defense I did keep you from him through the whole pregnancy. I can tell that he loves you. Or else he wouldn’t have come to clear things up with you. As for you Jimin, you have to leave that insecure bullshit out of your relationship. Y/N loves you , and if she for some reason didn’t have time for you it doesn’t mean that she has stopped loving you. I won’t be in your way like before. All I ask is that I have equal legal custody of my child. I want you to be good to him. I want you to be good to Y/N. If you ever hurt my son, or Y/N again I will make sure you never come back into their lives.” I looked down at Jaejoon. I knew this was for the best. Even if my heart felt on fire. “Y/N as soon as I can I will make the arrangements for a divorce, and a public announcement will be made. Your family will be able to do whatever they want and you will be free to make what you want with your life. All I ask is you let me be in his life. And maybe we can be friends.” I could feel the knot in my throat. I pushed it back trying hard not to cry. “Namjoon, I can’t ask you to do this. You have given me so much and I have been an ass to you for the most part. I can’t let you do this. I know how much your family name means.” “I don’t care about any of that. All I care is that Jaejoon and you are happy.”

My mother was upset about my divorce, but she was more worried about my father to nag me about it. My father had told me to do whatever made me happy. And even though none of this made me happy I was going to keep my promise.

NPOV

Namjoon had indeed kept his promise. He had submitted the divorce a couple weeks after Jaejoon was born. Things went smoothly with the divorce. Some investors did decide to leave from Namjoon’s company but it didn’t matter to him. He knew he was good at what he did and he wasn’t going to let that change anything. Jimin and you were better than ever. He was a great stepfather to Jaejoon and you loved him for that. You did try your best to forget Jimin’s unfaithfulness but when he would come home late it would come to mind. It also didn’t help that he saw his partner everyday. It made your skin boil but you didn’t have the heart to tell him to quit his dream job. Namjoon was sad to have let you go, but he knew in his heart that Jimin made you happier than you would ever be with him. When he thought his life couldn’t get better he found Kyungmi working with him. Ironically she became his secretary. The same position you had once applied for. She was sweet and caring. And very strong minded. She never let him put her down and always voiced her opinion. She reminded him of you at first. That is why he had asked her out. But this time he didn’t make the mistake of being an arrogant asshole about it. He never expected things to get serious with her but after a couple months he introduced her to Jaejoon and he knew then that she was the one.

Your son was growing so fast and you missed him being small. You couldn’t believe he was turning 4 years old in less than a week. It was going to be special because it would be the first time Namjoon invited his new girlfriend. They had been dating for a year now but he had never introduced you to her. He said that he would only do it if it were serious and it seemed it was going that way. “Hey Y/N, how are you doing?” Namjoon said as he kissed your forehead. “Hey Namjoon please come in. “I love your new place! It’s so you!” “I know right! I’m happy to see you! How was your business trip?” It was good, boring but good. So where is my little man? Joonie!!!!!!” He screamed. You could hear two tiny little steps running towards the two of you. “appa!!!!!!!!!” Namjoon swooped Jaejoon into his arms and showered him with kisses. “How’s my little man? Did your mom tell you we were going to spend the week together?” “yes daddy, mama said I could do whatever I wanted because it was my birthday soon.” “I don’t know if you can do whatever you want, but we can do lots of fun things.” He giggled as Namjoon tickled his tummy. “Is mama Kyungmi going to be home with us appa?” “What?” You looked at Namjoon angrily. “Honey why don’t you go pack some of your toys.” you said as you took him from Namjoon’s arm. “Okay!” he ran off and as soon as he was out of earshot you almost screamed at Namjoon. “Why is my baby calling Kyungmi mama?” “Y/N, I don’t see anything wrong with that. He does see her a lot and when i’m not home she takes care of him. Plus Jaejoon call Jimin dad and I don’t mind.” “Namjoon! Thats different. Jimin was there when he was weeks old. You have only known Kyungmi for a year.” “Well we actually have been dating for almost 3 ½ years.” You felt your blood rush to your head. But you didn’t know why you were getting so angry. “Why did you lie to me. Why did you say you had only been dating a year?” Namjoon turned red as he spoke “I didn’t want you to be worried about our son meeting my Kyungmi.” “So you thought hiding it from me was the best thing?”

YPOV

My heart was pumping fast. Why would Namjoon lie to me about his relationship with Kyungmi. I didn’t care about that. I just want to know who is around my son. And it hurt that Jaejoon was calling another woman mama. “Look Y/N please be okay with it. I didn’t just come to pick up Jaejoon. I wanted to let you know something. You’re  my best friend and I wanted to get your opinion.” I was a little confused at what he was saying and I guess it showed on my face. Suddenly Namjoon reached into his pocket and pulled out a small box. My heart sank to my stomach. I knew what that box was. And honestly my heart told me to run. To avoid the situation, but my legs wouldn’t respond. “Do you think it’s too much? Kyungmi doesn’t like flashy things and I thought this was nice.” You didn’t know what to do so you just nodded. “Y/N are you okay? You look pale. Did you eat today?” He led me to the couch as he called for some water. “I guess I should have eaten a bit more during breakfast.” “Y/N, please take care of yourself. I don’t know what we would do without you.” He said as he kissed my forehead. “So when are you doing it?” I whispered. “I’m actually asking her tonight. I’m making her dinner and well That's why I came for Jaejoon. He loves her so much and she loves him with all her heart.” “Well I think everything is perfect. She’s a lucky woman.” I said, not knowing if I was talking about the ring or Namjoon.

Namjoon and Jaejoon had left a while ago and I was still in shock by everything. I had pushed away my feelings but I couldn't do it any longer. I knew I had these feelings for Namjoon after the divorce. After seeing how different it was to have only Jimin in my life. But I never thought I would be feeling this bad. It felt as though Namjoon pulled out my heart and shredded it into million pieces. It literally hurt to breathe.

[arasokanbina]

More comments on Hesitation Before Going to School (My Teenage Girl - After School Excitement)

This is a very long post.

I like the vocal teacher Youngji* I think I've see her before? And dance teacher Aiki is good too, I've seen her lots before not properly but I know of her.

A lot of the teachers are nice, when they are a bit harsh or the trainees get emotional from their criticisms they tend to not go harder and compliment them or encourage them. Of course they're not perfect, like Lisa kinda mocked Jaejoon for getting hyped and I felt super embarrassed for him like don't make it awkward it feels stressful.

I know it's a moment passed and I'm sure he's stronger than I, but embarrassment especially public shaming upsets me a lot. But as I said its whatever, its over and maybe she was a bit rude but it's not that deep. Btw I like Lisa and all the teachers I'm just addressing some issues I've had.

Lee Eunji (sister) is comic relief but it's a bit over done, like I girl I know you're being silly but I've seen your silly twerk 20 times lol. And how many times must they surprise us with mum and sister haha! Like we know it's gonna be them! It's not really a big deal and I like them both a lot.

So far the production has been great, the staff seem to actually give a damn about the girls and I'm still so greatful to mum. I think I'm also soft because she reminds me a bit visually of my grandmother on my dad's side. Of course she's not Asian but you know many people regardless of race have similar faces in some way. Yeah. Anyway enough rambling lol.

*A little tidbit of a rant that I have to mention. Mentions: Blackface

So I looking for pictures of the teachers to add to this post. I started with Youngji as I firstly spoke about her. It was taking me some time for pictures because she's not as big as the other teachers (soon coming Queen Soyeon and my lovely Yuri) and I don't know Korean so I've been searching for the past 20-30 minutes trying to find her name in Korean and so forth.

I could have taken a screenshot but I didn't want it to be blurry and well I was hoping it'd be faster lol. Anyway, so I find she was in a group called Bubble Sisters and that their first album cover art was the members in full blackface. I mean seriously I'm so bewildered (not surprised though) by.

Here a quote by the group about it from generasia:

Bubble Sisters (버블 시스터즈) is a 4 member Korean pop group. Their debut became infamous in the west as on their debut album cover (and it's promotional activities) they were sporting blackface makeup. However, they justified the makeup as being a gimmick after their management agency told them that despite having great powerful voices, they were too ugly and/or fat to success.

I do belive that it was forced upon them however this isn't acceptable at all. I get it, trying to get famous in 'pristine' Korea is a nightmare but that doesn't excuse this behaviour, its not worth it like have some morals. Most even in Korea would probably not even pay attention because even though if offensive (most Koreans probably won't know it's seriously offensive but it's poor taste at least they should know that) it looks silly. Like do you really want to get famous for looking like that?

And the blackface 'makeup' is a proper job! Like I'm gobsmacked, like they seriously went in on the blackface I just... Wow. Like the styling 'artist' put EFFORT in. If the shoe was on the other foot would they be okay with the 'gimmick?'.

Anyway I'm letting it go because its sadly a long line of ignorance that I do believe as a whole they (Korea/Asia) will grow out of and get better with because of the new diversity of eyes they have on them. Perfectionism can work well in this case for them to improve because they won't want to look ignorant and thus it will actually help.

Plus young people are always the best, each generation regardless of the dumb shit we've all done are better because of the teachings of other generations. Btw I'm not looking down upon Korea I love Asia and Korea very much, but like all countries in the world and people there are problems some worse than others that need to be called out.

Btw I'm still hoping it's not actually her lol and say if it wasn't I still wanted to talk about it. I'm not reposting the picture just Google Bubble Sisters group you'll see it. But yeah I like her as a singer, and teacher but not what she did. I'm sure she's probably embarrassed and ashamed by it. I'm very hopeful and do believe things will get better, not just in Korea but around the world as we keep learning more about each others cultures.

But yeah that was a thing! Lol, what a weirdly upsetting route but whatever. But I did finally her name in Korean lol! Gotta take the good you can get! And I found an easy picture of all the Hesitation teachers. It's from [here].

영지 She is pretty, I do believe and hope she and the other members have learned not to do this again even if they can't fully comprehend the full issue. Anyway I'm done back to the show lol. Oh and of course AIKI is a babe.

Just one last thing, I'm half black so I'm not just shrugging it off and even if I wasn't I'm not an idiot and that goes to being blind to reason too which I am not.

🗒Note: Sorry for any spelling errors this was an unexpected dive lol.

[baeyunaa]

About to reach her door when his arm stops her, Yuna stops and turns her head to look at him. A brow raises st his words and with a taken back look she blinks. She honestly expected him to get annoyed with her for Teasing him.....but there he was....being nicer than ever. “Can I?” She soon curls the corners of her mouth into a smile once again. “You can’t take it back! Okay??” Grinning she nods and hurries inside.

As soon as the door closes, Yuna leaned against it and sighed. Her heard was beating like crazy inside of her chest.

He’s so....cool!!!

Placing both of her hands over her face she jumps up and down giggling. “How can he be so handsome?!” Whispering so he won’t be able to hear, she slips off her shoes and hurries to the kitchen to pour herself a glass of water and drink it up in one gulp.

“Woah...can my heart take it? Can it take Oh Jimin?!” She asks herself breathlessly. As soon as those words come out of her mouth she pauses and bursts out of laughter. “Oh my god You’ve lost it Yuna, you’ve completely lost it.” She sighs fanning herself.

The ringtone of her phone draws her attention. Reaching to her pocket she pulls it out to read the Id “Aish..”

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Music blasting, the smell of alcohol and cigarettes and a ton of people dancing everywhere. Yuna used to enjoy these parties. But honestly she’d rather not be here right now.

Pushing her way through the crowd, she brushed her hair back and looked annoyedly for someone.

“Yuna!!! It’s been forever!” A blonde haired girl runs to her, wrapping her arms around her. “Jaejoon said you’ve found yourself a new friend I thought you’ll never come again” The girl pouts cutely looking up. Rolling her eyes, Yuna heaved a sigh giving the girl a pat on her shoulder. “Don’t listen to that jerk, Suji. He’s just jealous.” She assures the girl and smiles.

The two go to their usual table and there of course Jaejoon is sitting on the leather couch smoking and laughing with some girl. Yuna clicks her tongue disgustingly and stands infront of him with crossed arms. “Is this what you called me here for?”

Taken by surprise Jaejoon looks at her raising a brow. “Yuna! You really came?!” His face lighted up. He pulled the girl off of him and got up. Wrapping his arm over her shoulder he placed a kiss on her cheek. “I knew you couldn’t say no to clubbing even with your new toy.” Yuna raised her brow. “Toy?!” Jaejoon chuckles and take another draw of his cigarette. “That guy, you’re obviously not serious about him.” What?! Is he an idiot? No she’s an idiot for even coming. “Ya Kim Jaejoon! You threatened me saying you’ll let our pictures on the internet if I didn’t come, is this a game for you?” Slapping his arm off of her, she crossed her arms again. “Of course. Your life is a game too. Or did you forget Yuna? Did you forget what you’re like?” He smirks leaning forward and closer to her face. His breath reeks of alcohol causing her to sigh.

“Guys don’t fight, what is wrong with you?” Suji pouted pulling onto Yunas arm. “You two used to get along so well.”

“What did you call me for?”

“Lets have some drinks.”

“I don’t feel like drinking with you.”

“I called you for drinks, you can’t just leave..” he chuckles with a hint of annoyance. “I’ll drink with Suji.” She bites and grabs her hand. “Don’t you dare get close to my table.” She threatened him with a scary look and clicked her tongue before walking to a free table.

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Who does he think he is?! She’s stupid for even coming....but leaked pictures would bring so much work and trouble for manager Kim...

“Yuna , you’re drinking too fast and you’re already pretty drunk... you should stop.” Sujin watched the cup being filled and drained from soju over and over again in a matter of minutes. Ignoring her, Yuna took another shot, wincing at the strong liquor burning her throat. “I’m not drunk...I’m just sad Sujina. “ she muttered softly, slowly pouring herself another glass. As soon as she mentioned the word sad, Jimin’s voice came to her head. “He said I can call him...should I call him Sujina?” Drunkly she leans back and pulls her phone out of her pocket. “Who are you calling?” Suji asked concerned.

“My man.” The words roll down her tongue and a cheeky smirk appears on her face. Narrowing her eyes she tried finding his phone number. “Where are you my man??” She asks her phone annoyedly but soon after finds the number. Smiling she calls.

“Jimin oppa~” as soon as he picked up she spoke. “Jimin do you want to drink together? I already started without you...but I can wait for you! I can always wait for you..” Grinning she giggles.

003 | This is war.

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Okay my actual baby Jaejoon was saved while the annoying Jaejoon was eliminated bless.

[kpopnstuff1]

Unrequited Love (finale)

AN: Hope you find this Namjoon x Reader fic intresting. I worked hard on this and I hope you like it. Sorry if there are mistakes. Please send feedback and or requests. BORAHAE <3 <3 <3 <3

IF YOU HAVE READ THIS FAR...THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. ENJOY THE LAST PART TO THIS STORY. 

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7 months had gone by so fast that I didn’t have time to breathe. Even though my heart ached for Namjoon, I couldn’t help but become friends with Kyungmi during the wedding planning. I was happy that Namjoon had found her. She was a great woman and she was going to be an especially great step mom to Jaejoon. It only made me feel worse for wanting her future husband. “Y/N I'm so nervous, I hope everything goes right tomorrow.” I was stuck in my thoughts when I noticed her looking at me. “Y/N are you okay? You seem a little off today.” “Ahh yea I’m good, I’m just a little tired. And please don’t worry, the wedding planner and I have everything under control.” “I’m so happy to have you. I don’t have lots of family so it’s nice being part of yours.” Her smile broke my heart even more. “Well, I’m gonna get going. You get some rest and please don’t worry.” She nodded and I gave her one last hug before leaving.

To:Y/N

From: Jiminie

Baby what time are you coming home? Jaejoon is in bed and I wanted to spend some alone time with you!

To: Jiminie

From: Y/N

I’m sorry Jimin, I have to finish some stuff up before the wedding tomorrow. Rain check?

To: Y/N

From: Jiminie

Alright love, don’t worry. If I’m asleep just let me know you arrived home safe.

To: Jiminie

From: Y/N

Don’t wait up love. I’ll see you later.

I couldn’t handle my emotions right now so I decided to go to a bar/club to drink them away. I had called Mark to join me but he was busy with his girlfriend. I was on my 5th drink when I felt a tap on my shoulder. “Y/N!!! What are you doing all alone over here?” Namjoon said while going in for a hug. “Namjoon? What are you doing here?” “It’s my bachelor party! I’m here with my boys! Come join us!” He smiled at me. That smile could make me do just about anything. “Fellas this is Y/N! She’s gonna join us! Y/N this is Hoseok, Yoongi, and Seokjin. They are my best friends.” It was strange because I had never met them before. He had never opened his world to me and it felt a little strange that he was doing it now. “Wow Namjoon, this was your ex wife. Why did you let her go!?” A drunk Yoongi slurred. “Yea Namjoon! She’s so pretty.” Hoseok said as he came closer to you. “Thank you. But today isn’t about me! Today it’s about Namjoon!” I screamed as I downed my shot of tequila.

NPOV

The night went by so fast that you didn’t have time to think of your troubles. Seeing Namjoon so carefree and having fun was something you had never seen before. You were having so much fun going club to club that you hadn’t noticed the time. “Gotta go, Jimin is waiting for me.” You slurred. “What you’re leaving now? You can’t!” Namjoon held on to you to keep you from falling. “ I have to, you should go home too. You get...married tomorrow.” You gulped. Namjoon laughed “ Y/N you can’t even stand up right. Come on. Let’s go home.” You felt sudden panic “wait Jimin can’t see me like this.” “Fine let’s just go to our old condo. I’m staying there since I can’t see Kyungmi until tomorrow.” Namjoon quickly dialed his driver while you said your goodbyes. The boys didn’t want to leave so they stayed in the club. “C’mon Y/N the drivers here.” You nodded and went with him.  

“Namjoon I don’t feel so good.” You said as you reached the door. “It’s ok hun. I’ll give you some coffee to make you feel better.”

After a trip to the bathroom and a cup of coffee you felt much better. “Y/N I'm going to bed. I’ll stay in the guest room. You can stay in my room.” “I’m going to shower first if that’s okay.” He nodded and went toward the stairs with you in hand.

You stayed under the warm water for what seemed like an eternity. You were about to walk into the room when you heard soft music coming from the guest room. You quietly walked towards the room and peered through the cracked door. “Namjoon?” “Hey hun.” “Weren’t you going to bed?” You asked as you walked in. “I just needed a couple more drinks. I’ll be going to bed soon. You walked up to him and caressed his cheek. “You should get some sleep. You have a big day ahead of you.” He smiled and nodded. “Come, I’ll tuck you in.” He nodded, but right as he got up he almost fell over you. “Woah, I guess I’m a bit tipsy.” He gave you a small smile that melted your heart. You got him on the bed and sat him down. “Here I’m going to undress you okay. You took off his shoes then started for his dress shirt. Once you finished with the last button you could only hold your breath. You had forgotten how good his body once felt under your fingertips. Once you were about to reach for his waist you saw a bump starting to form, making you automatically stop. “I should get to bed. You can finish right?” You said a little blushed. “Wait.” Namjoon said as he grabbed your wrist. “Stay with me.” “Namjoon you’re drunk. Please lay down ok.” Just then Namjoon pulled you on top of him. His lips smothering yours. It felt like soft honey covering your lips. His breath scented with the smell of alcohol, yet still very appealing. His kisses were small and sweet at first. Then getting much hungrier filled with lust. You were consumed by your feelings when you suddenly came to. “Namjoon...I can’t.” You breathed out between kisses. “Please, I need you now.” With that he pulled open your bathrobe. He quickly placed kisses along your jaw down to your collarbone to your chest. “ I can’t wait any longer I have to have you.” He paused looking at you. You nodded and with that he pulled you to the bed. He completely undressed and got on top of you. “I need you.” You whispered. That was all it took for him to comply. Everything felt so wonderful in that moment. Your body filled with lust and desire. Namjoon’s moans made your body ache for him even more. “Namjoon please don’t stop” you panted. He bit your neck and kissed your cheek. “I love you Kyungmi.” It took you a second before you registered what he had just said. You quickly stopped him and pushed him off of you. “I’m sorry Namjoon. This was a mistake. We shouldn’t have done this.” You said with tears in your eyes. You wrapped yourself in the sheets and ran out of the room before he could see your tears.

YPOV

I couldn’t believe what I had just done. I ran to the room and put on my clothes. I waited for a second thinking Namjoon would run after me. But he didn’t. I got an Uber and ran downstairs to wait for it. I slowly walked into the house not wanting to wake up Jaejoon, or worse Jimin. “Y/N?” His voice made me jump almost sending me to the ground. “Jimin what are you doing up?” “Well I was worried. It’s 4 in the morning. Why haven’t you answered my texts or calls? Come on let’s go to bed.” He was about to lean into me when I moved away. “Have you been drinking? By yourself?” I nodded. “I’m sorry. I just wanted to relax a bit after a long day of planning.” I held back the lump in my throat. I was happy that Jimin couldn’t see my face in the dark. I couldn’t look at this sweet man in the eyes. Not after what I did. We may have not ended things but I did start them. And that alone was something I could never forgive myself.

“Y/N, honey wake up. It’s time to get ready. We have a wedding to attend.” Jimin was giving me kisses on my cheek and once again I remembered what I had done the night before. “ I’ll be up in a second. “I’ll meet you downstairs. I’m making pancakes!” Jimin left me alone with my thoughts. And before I knew it my tears were pouring out of my eyes. “Mommy you okay? Why you sad mommy?” Jaejoon climbed on top of me and kissed my cheeks. “I’m okay baby, mommy just doesn’t want to get up.” “It’s okay mommy, I sometimes no want to get up too.” He smiled and wiped my tears away. Seeing him only made me want to cry even more. He looked more like his father everyday. He even had the same gorgeous dimple smile.

NPOV

Getting ready after breakfast took a lot out of you. You were nervous for today. You had to see Kyungmi before the ceremony to make sure things for the party were all set. “Jimin I’m leaving. I’ll see you and Jaejoon there okay.” I kissed Jimin on the cheek and pulled away quickly. But he was too quick and grabbed my hand. “I don’t know what’s been going on with you love, but know that I’m here for you. I love you and I will do anything for you my love.” I nodded and kissed his lips. “I know, sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve you.” “Don’t say that. Now go on!”

YPOV

“You look stunning Kyungmi.” I said as I walked in on her getting her make up done. “Thank you! And you haven’t seen it all together! Thank you again for being here. Means a lot to me.” I felt the tears coming again. “Oh don’t cry Y/N.” Little did she know, it was because of guilt. “I’m sorry. I just wanted to make sure everything at the venue was good for you?” She nodded. “Okay then, I will be downstairs with the guest. Congratulations again.” I said with a shaky voice. I couldn’t look at her any longer or else I would spill the secret and I couldn’t afford to hurt so many people on such a special day. I was mid thought when I was yanked into a room. “What the fu- ” “Sorry, I just needed to talk.” “Oh, Namjoon. Look let me go fir-” “No! I’ll go first! Look I’m sorry things happened the way they did last night. I was a bit tipsy, drunk actually. I didn’t mean to give you the wrong idea. I love Kyungmi and I have so much love for you. Please don’t misunderstand the situation. I don’t want our relationship to suffer because of this. And I don’t want to hurt Kyungmi for something stupid that happened between two drunk people. I’m sure it meant nothing to you as well.” There was a long pause. I was so stunned by what had just happened that I couldn’t think straight. How could he be this way. I actually thought that at least it meant something. Or at least caused him to feel some of what I felt. But I guess I was wrong. “Don’t worry Namjoon. It meant nothing. Like you said, we were both drunk and didn’t know what we were doing.” I nervously laughed. “I’m glad we understand each other.” He tried to reach for my hand but I stepped back. “I better get down there. Jimin is waiting for me. Good Luck, and congratulations.” I quickly left before he could say anything else.

“Y/N, there you are. Let’s go find a spot before things begin.” You nodded and followed Jimin with your son in hand. It was a couple minutes before they announced that the ceremony was about to begin. “You be good Jaejoon! Your job is very important ok baby!” Jimin told Jaejoon as he tucked in his dress shirt. “I’ll be back love.” I had to place Jaejoon at the beginning of the isle to walk down with the rings. I was crouched down when I saw Namjoon step by the aisle. Just then Turning Page started playing. “I love you guys.” Was the last thing he whispered to the two of us before he walked down the aisle. I then sent Jaejoon after Namjoon reached the front. I walked back to my seat to sit next to Jimin. “He looks so handsome.” I nodded. Knowing that Jimin was talking about my baby. “He is.” I said while staring at Namjoon’s smile. Everyone gasped in unison making me turn around. Kyungmi looked so gorgeous in her dress. When I looked back up at Namjoon my heart stopped for what seemed like forever. At that moment I knew deep in my soul that i had lost my chance with one of the most wonderful men on this earth. I couldn’t help but cry. I was sobbing when Jimin reached for my hand. “Are you okay?” “I will be” I whispered.

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Unrequited Love PT7

AN: Hope you find this Namjoon x Reader fic intresting. I worked hard on this and I hope you like it. Sorry if there are mistakes. Please send feedback and or requests. BORAHAE <3 <3 <3 <3 It makes me sad but this one is coming to an end. Thank you for reading this far. 

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NPOV

The night was perfect. Namjoon was so happy that he had gotten the green light from you. He would have never imagined he would love someone as much as he loved Kyungmi. He had planned everything to perfection. He wasn’t much of a cook so he had hired a chef to prepare everything. He himself had decorated with roses upon roses. Red and white rose petals scattered everywhere. He knew Kyungmi was sentimental so he had hung up pictures of the them on the ceiling. He was so proud of his hard work. Jaejoon was happy about what was happening. Namjoon had sat down and talked to him about Kyungmi becoming his official second mommy. He was so happy he could hardly contain himself. Namjoon was so happy to see his son as happy as he was. They were both matching in a navy blue suit anxiously waiting for Kyungmi to arrive.

Kyungmi had arrived to Namjoon’s place. She was surprised to find everything decorated. “What’s all this for?” She looked at Jaejoon in his suit. “Joonie! Aren’t you the most adorable little boy in the world. I missed you my Joonie.” “How was your day honey?” “It was busy, i’m just happy to see the both of you.” “mama we are happy to see you too. I’m happy you are gonna be my real mama too.” Namjoon quickly ran to Jaejoon trying to stop him but it was too late. “Kyungmi was confused and looked at Namjoon. “Well, the cat’s out of the bag now.” Namjoon kneeled down and grabbed Kyungmi’s hand. “Choi Kyungmi, You came into my life when I needed you the most. You have been the light in the darkest of my times. I don’t see anyone else when i’m with you. It would be an honor to be able to call you my wife. Will you marry me?” Kyungmi knelt down to look Namjoon in the eyes. “I would love to become part of your beautiful family.”

Jaejoon’s party was in about an hour. The house was decorated to the top with Elmo. Guest had started to arrive and you were so excited to see Jaejoon’s reaction. He hadn’t been home since Namjoon had taken him a couple days ago. The doorbell rang and you jumped up in excitement. “I’ll get it!” Jimin said as he ran to the door. As soon as Jimin came into view Jaejoon cuddled up to his leg. “Dad!” “Hey buddy! How’s the birthday boy!?” “I’m so happy dad! It’s my birthday and I got a new mama.” Jimin looked at him a bit confused. Namjoon Walked in with 4 birthday gifts in hand. Kyungmi followed behind carrying another two bags. “Hey guys, sorry we are a little late. Joonie couldn’t pick out his clothes.” “Here let me take those out back.” “Thank you Ana.” Namjoon said. “So Namjoon this must be Kyungmi?” Jimin asked as he shook Namjoon hand. “Yes this is Kyungmi. Kyungmi this is Jimin and this is Y/N. Jaejoon’s mother and step dad. ” she bowed and then hugged you. It’s so nice to finally meet you. “Nice to meet you too.” You said in a harsh voice. Namjoon Gave you a side eye glanced. “Well as Y/N already knows. I actually proposed to Kyungmi a couple nights ago and well she said yes. That’s why Jaejoon keeps calling her second mommy.” “I hope you both don’t mind.” She said. “Not at all, welcome to the family.” Jimin said as he hugged her. You nodded “Welcome.” You smiled and left to find Jaejoon. “Did I do something wrong?” Kyungmi asked Namjoon. “I’m sorry about her. She is just stressing about the party. But please go on in the party is in the backyard.” Jimin said as he led everyone out back.

YPOV

I was cursing at myself for acting stupid. I was in the bathroom when the I heard a knock. “Y/N? Are you in there?” “Yes Jimin, I’ll be right out. I don’t feel so good.” “Open the door. I can help you baby.” “NO! Its okay, go find Jaejoon and show him around. I’ll be right out.” Jimin sighed “Alright. We’ll be outside okay, don’t take too long.” I hadn’t noticed I was crying. My eyes were swollen and red from the tears. I felt like my heart was on fire. I acted a fool in front of Namjoon and his girl- I mean fiancé and it made me feel so shity. I guess I liked Namjoon more than I let myself feel. Way more. I walked out of the bathroom after a couple minutes only to bump into Namjoon. “Hey are you alright? You acted a bit mean with Kyungmi. What’s wrong have you been crying?” He said as he rubbed your arm. “I’m fine, I’m sorry I was rude. I just have a lot on my mind.” I said as I tried to avoid his eyes. “Okay, but if you ever need anything I’m here for you.” He smiled wide making his dimples more visible. “Thank you. So I’m happy for your engagement .” I said in a small voice. “Thank you Y/N it means a lot that the mother of my child approves. I actually came to see if you could help me with something. I know how you started your party planning business and I was wondering if you could set something up for the engagement announcement party?” I gulped and put on a fake smile “oh, of course. I’ll set it up with...Kyungmi. When is it for?” “Well we want to make things official as soon as possible. So maybe in two weeks? Kyungmi wants a fall wedding so we have no time to waste.” “Wait...so you would be getting married in about 6 months?” “Well more like 7, in September.” He smiled. It hurt my heart to hear all of this, but at the same time I felt so happy seeing him like this. I had never seen him smile this much other than Jaejoon’s birth. “Well I guess we better hurry with everything.” “Thank you Y/N.” He kissed my forehead and led me to the backyard by my hand. How could I have not seen it before. How perfect this man was.