#okay I’m going back to bed so I can watch my man pitch later 😍

[letstrywritingmaybe]

I just finished reading Lolita mostly because I see the term more often than I care for in fics, so I needed to know the source of it, and it’s definitely not for me. I get the importance of it and why it’s controversial, but again this is one of those classics that I’m like eh. Like tbh the fanfic with the same title was way more enjoyable than this literary classic. But that’s because I don’t vibe with the character, and while I can understand him in a way, I don’t really care to. I don’t think the book is horrible, but it’s passable.

But now that I see where the term comes from, I can confirm what I already knew. I don’t care for the ShinAi dynamic as much as the rest of the fandom. Then again I never did like any types of “forbidden love” (though in the novel it was definitely not love, but that’s an argument idc to go into. Though I suppose if you believed it was love then maybe it was real in a way, but it’s real an illness. Which again people have compared love to)

Unrelated update: I strictly read CoAi fics yes, but I do dabble in other Shiho ships as long as the canon ship is not also tagged cause fuck that noise. Plus I need to see a jealous Shinichi over my queen. Unfortunately we don’t have enough fics of other Shiho ships. Which needs to be remedied for sure. Since I’ve been writing a tiny bit of these ships, I decided to poke around the tags and see what was out there. I’m glad I did cause I just read the cutest Shigo fic and I’m so here for it. Honestly if this was the endgame I wouldn’t be mad, I know so many people hate on it. But as a fangirl, I really love the idea that my queen is good enough to get with her celebrity crush. Also as a massive sports fan, which none of you are, you really just don’t get it. Which is insane to me cause it’s the same as being a fan of anything else! You get excited and emotional and want to be better for the thing/person you love and you can be irrational and jealous. Hello yall over here with your ship wars, be for real, you’re not better than any of us for being open with our fangirling. So yeah when I see people criticize Shigo it just makes me want to ship it more. People claim it’s ooc, but it’s really fucking not. She’s still a teenager, she’s allowed to have these kinds of emotions. Heck even if she were to be into boy bands instead I would support it. We have layers, we’re more than just one thing. Don’t just shove her into the emotionless scientist corner cause she’s a cool girl. She can be both, and she is. Let her live. Literally just let her live, it’s all I ask from canon