#ok rant over i just needed to get thay out of my system

[officerdougeiffel]

I should recieve an acting award for not losing my mind when the girl who's made fun of my special interest (punk culture and music) tells me she wants to go to a punk rock concert because she likes one limp bizkit song

[themothermary-blog1]

you call this a education

i would like all of you  to look up desegergation in the cleveland public school system   the casewestern reserve  facts about cleveland  and reolise  the black kids didnt want to be bussed eathor    and the situation  promoted predigedous i liked the black nurses my mom  worked with   we were poor so this dont pertain to me  thay by way of bussing rubbed the poverty the black kids were living in in there faces  bussing them into our nice neghborhood  and trust me thay got even for it  they were mean       thay made us mean  and we all knew the school system only cared about that court order of complience   thay got us all equal  the rich whites moved out (white flight)   rented there houses  to anybody bit off absontee lanloard    so we all got a shitty education in a all around shitty place in a flat ass broak   school system   we went to school to fuck with eachother and our shitty teachers and  eat  free lunch  it was shitty too but warm   for me atleast the school fernnes   worked   ours    didnt   it gets cold as hell in cleveland  i lived with a working single mother in a big old ass house i was jullous of the project kids   thay had a appartment attendent  daddy   and there moms   were home and jenerally nice   my mom worked 3 to 11  and had to take a bus cross town to work   she was  washing her nursing uniform /on the way to work/ at work/ on her way home from work/   sleeping for work     all that and nothing at our house worked   and we were poor as hell       nowonder   i dont want to work it dosent get you anywhere   i wanted my mom to go on welfair when we did see her  she was primaraly bitching about us cutting out of that shitty school system  my mom was a   L.P.N   in a black neighborhood  hospital   her  tough black head nurse mom   went and taugh our mom the Aretha franklen song     R.E.S.P.E.C.T      and gave her a lether belt she wore on her night gown boy did she sock it to me  and my smart ass brother tommy     it became her hard working mother theam song     funny thing is i sure do miss my mom  i was a ass hole tendencys like my dad  who didnt give her a penny of child support       hats off to my daughters dad  he didnt quit his job, he saw his kid and  his support was 500  each for 2 diffrent mothers   it did make me have respect for him i had the other kind of father   he had a lot  of say in my house and she came from a one night stand      isnt life funny     i origanally came from a outstanding cathlic family   at one time my mothers side of it was filthy rich and lived on millionars row on the east side of cleveland   where the poor black kids live when i was a kid    that where the jewish hospital she worked at was    we lived on west 101 next to west Bolavard   She worked on east bolavard   100 west streets downtown 100 east streats  it took her a oher and a half each way.   we usto joak about our visatations with her for the most part we didnt have parents my dad called about twice a year  i think to argue/upset  her    and to make me miss him i was his little baby before he replaced me with my half sister. the town did a flip over  when the blacks migrated up from the south thay moved to our neighborhood.    whites  have this bad tendency to move out   first to the west side then  east bolavard (now marten luther king drive) to west bolavard our side then thay ran to the suburbs  welthy blackes ran to places like east cleveland  only the  the harty   had no choice but to just stay alive in the city of desegergattion and poverty         hats off to my black poor brothers and sisters we are alive not nessasaraly ok but alive   Right!   only we know what it was really like to be a poverty stricken fatherless kid being bussed all over hell to make the  God knows who happy certainly not any of us our high school was old ass too one of the first in cleveland its now a appartment building  thay could have made the black schools better got them some new buildings  there was a lot more black kids  got them new teachers  and we could have got togethor at the (i loved it) suplamentary center  we all behaved there it was cool and fun and a musical cultural experence  now that was the only bussing we every really needed.  that should have happened more often insted of it being a field trip we didnt need a black white mix  thay needed better schools and we needed cultural awarness ( all of clevelands vast nashanalitys) multi cultur school in appropreatly down town cleveland it was usually saturday  or pay day  it should have ben each kid one week day  and fix  the damn schools     does anybody elts have     p.t.s.d.     from  desegergation   and our collager ramedial classes when you realised what thay did to you post tramatic   the after  imbarasement i went to  community collage  and the high school kids were making fun of me and im the one that was invited to join the smart chick  sawaraty     thank you cleavand public schools you should have focused on spelling not bussing  and this is a blog not a collage paper i had my tuter check that shit  im not learning too spell in collage  i had more important things by them management and accounting    oppertunity lost   i graduated with gold ribbon and tastle ohness  i like school so much i stayed  4 insted of two years and got a dubble associat degree in business management and marketing  

 can i get  a    AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA men!

by the way i prefer black church music  its just got more sway to it like our nith grade graduation quire  we didnt learn a damn thing but buddy could we sing black music     i liked it   i liked it       I liked IT       amazing grace never sounded so good    and swing low sweet charit me  the fuck out of bussing!!!!!!!!!!!

i learn some  good dancing moves   an all kinds of ways to cuss and make fun of people   and how to  fight  tooo    it  was a education im so unapreshetive  down right un gratefull         i thought it was soposto be a usefull one  well its all in how you look at it i guyes   my city black ways did attract my daugters father and i had a beautifull daughter  and  found out what child support is i thought it was a cuss word  the way my mom always said it   it was usualy  sorounded by lots of cuss words   and we certanly never benifited from that damn word that made my mom so mad.   my daughter deffonety  had  a better experemce with that word its  not  a post  tramatic  my mothers about to throw a fit shut off notice child supprt rants about my pece of shit father  his  bitch and her bastard kids    (memories there so beautifull and yet  how do   i clasify the child support rants)

THANK YOU ROGER  (for not being a pece of shit father) I couldnt help but love you yes  i knew i benifited too thats why she didnt have to do shit  crazy as it sounds  i needed and found a daddy  it was you   and not in some hoker way i didnt want you to be pissed at me and quit your job   it did make me behave trust me  it was part of the reason i marries brian he didnt piss off you

west bolavard  should be named( i will survive or shackleton bolavard) inspite of it all my mom did eventually thrive     and this bitch is still alive  trust me its a marical   but thats another story    we will just call that the year of divorce and psyco kenny    by the way im writing  a book   its called  A SERIES OF TRAMATIC EVENTS    a thriller biography with out the real names