#ok mild insanity over. sorry for the weird post guys~~~ carry on~~~

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when things be that way yk—

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A Bullet Post: The Final Problem

LONG POST AHEAD.

This would be my third time viewing it now and I think I gathered my final thoughts on it.

●Literally Bond Air though. 

●Mycroft watching family video clips though. (No matter he wasn't as freaked out by his movie interruption though)

●IT'S A SWORD.

●And it was at this point the first time viewing it I thought "what the actual fuck am i watching?" Plus I laughing my head off as well.

●NO IT'S A GUN. 

●Trying to justify the umbrella sword gun and basically it's just Mycroft wanting toys and to protect himself in the most James Bond way possible...because he's the fucking British Government. No matter how hilarious this is.😂

●I can't justify WHY killer clowns though.

●And it was here where I genuinely thought it was a nightmare and that Sherlock will turn into a vampire.😅

●"HEY BRO!😄" But Sherlock is one to be...eccentric and elaborate. Killer clowns, though.

●Now...tranquilizer. And just...John laying there in that office. A person like Eurus doing that. Never mind kidnapping him for the game or anything. That's a little anti-climatic and a wasted opportunity really. (Not that I want anything bad happen to John or to be the damsel in distress but should the stakes be higher?)

●Client!Mycroft finally.

●TWINNING BECAUSE OF MRS. HUDSON. DON'T LET THIS GO.

●THE HAIR GAME IN SEASON 4 IS STRONGER THAN ANYTHING.

●There was no way in hell that they didn't know about Eurus' brother Zephyrus.

●"John stays." "This is family." "That's why he stays!" DON'T LET THIS WONDERFUL THING GO.

●IT'S NEVER TWINS IT'S GONNA BE TRIPLETS FROM THE SHINING IF SHE JOINS THAT CREW. SHE FITS IN.

●"In the early days I suppose he was an emotional child." DUDE, THAT CHILD'S BEST FRIEND WAS BASICALLY MURDERED BY HIS SISTER. NOT A DOG. ANOTHER BOY. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TRAUMATIZED IS?!?!? (Apparently he does in that first Eurus Challenge.)

●Ohhhhh. That's not Sherlock then. Neat, neat.

●Wish we could learn a lot more about Rudy Holmes. 

●HELLO, TOM HIDDLESTON. ARE YOU GONNA BE PLAYING JAMES BOND TOO?

●For some reason...no, I don't feel threatened. Question: So are Sherrinford people doing this for her? Like somewhere manning this drone.

●Season 4 is Mrs. Hudson's season I tell you.

●Ok...ok. Did Eurus had the full intention of killing those three right there and then? What if they could've moved to the kitchen for tea and then the aproximate distance to those windows wouldn't be enough for 3 seconds. And no, Eurus couldn't even predict that. I don't care how cool it looks or badass or how expensive without any casualties after and we were not given any aftermath of that like "John and Sherlock on the pavement holding in to their sprained limbs and bodies smoking along with their flat. They will make his sister pay." I have an assumtion they just added this scene to follow up on their ending, could always be wrong of course.

●I'M BATMAN.

●Their camera work is always impeccable when it needs to be. I love it.

●EVERYTHING IS COMPRIMISED. Also once again a Eurus parallel play with Mycroft's lines about disguises to what she said in TLD.

●A call back to Moriarty in Baker Street when Sherlock was playing and took a pause knowing his presence. 

●Unnerving.

●With Sherlock completely forgetting about his sister and re-written his memories (so this is what they were implying all season about Sumatra and editing evidence) he has done it before, the solar system and all.

●"Didn't notice in the heat of the moment and afterward well you really couldn't tell. Is that vibrato or is your hand shaking?" *Eurus smirks* Hmm. Making a decision: Parallel moment but with emotional diferences on this regarding Sherlock.

●Sherlock took a break from deducting for a moment because this is the first time he has thecnically "met" his sister. He got carried away like the rest of them.

●Sherlock's clever boy, Watson dropping those truth bombs.

●First reaction: FUUUUUUUUCK YAASSSSSS😭🙌😭🙌😭

●Second reaction: Fuck.

●I don't know why the hair color was nesessary. He hasn't changed his hair color in the last five years before. For the initial realization before the shock of the 5 years bit?

●I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE DEAD. THE SHOW NEEDS YOU.😢

●Given that this scene is beyond odd as it is but then again these two are just out and beyond this world weird anyway but that was the general impression of it.

●Makes me wonder where did he find the time to do this? Makes me wondeer how the conversation went? Makes me wonder who filmed it all?

●Sherlock does know John. He knows he's not going to do it.

●By this point I was feeling their stress. Jaws were dropped and breathing heightened. I just couldn't believe they got themselves into situations like this. Or better yet that situations like this are presented to them in this way as we move forward.

●I think we already know waaaay before about what the last challenge was for sherlock with that one bullet. And I have Moriarty in my head like "No NO NO THIS IS TOO EASY SO PREDICTABLE"

●"She's very clever" "I'm begining to think you're not" Basically.

●"We have more to worry about than her choice of color scheme" BUT WE CAN. I'm thinking someone else did it. So...I'm guessing there still are people on this island. And did she really talk to every single employee to cast a curse on them? A big chunk of how it all happened is missing. The full on take over. Shame.

●"This is inhuman! This is insane!" ⬅ Eurus Holmes. And this episode is insane! We know.

●It was usually John to call Sherlock into order. They lean on each other. (Bless ya, Martin)

● In every challenge they have done...they are MEANT to loose. And he did. And he was so angry about it. Molly is who Molly was in the beginning ever since. Kind, observant, quiet but a force. There is nothing wrong of her loving Sherlock but it is how Eurus used her. How Eurus used Sherlock to cause more damage to everything and he had enough right there because it was to someone he truly cared about. Why he was so upset? Because he wasn't sure as he would like to be. Mycroft and John knew how hard that was for him. Eurus knows what she did. As a mild sherolly shipper as myself, no, this is fucking depressing. I can't find no beam of light in this. She deserved better. I'm not done with this yet.

  ●This is the scene where I actually thought it has to be a dream, it has to be. What the fuck was Mycroft saying? 

●He did a double take to John when he said he should take the bullet. Sherlock wasn't even considering it, of course.

●RELEASE THEM FOR THIS HELL. WHAT IS THIS? WHAT IS THIS STILL? (My god, Ben)

●And then Mycroft. A character has layers and layers and it was nice seeing him weak in this episode and very flawed to which he doesn't consider himself so and with a heart at most.

●.....Listen, I can't even justify this even if these two are in shock right now. Why the fuck doesn't anyone move between the two of them or at least shout at Sherlock and then mayhem insues and arguments and such. I would imagine that she would find it entertaining. And then Eurus just tranquilizing them because at that rate things are not getting done. I was expecting that instead of them just standing there at least.

●WHAT DOES THIS EVEN MEAN? 

●The bones: you guys, it was dark. Yup, that's all I can think of to back that up. But damn you, inconsistency.

●Sherlock still keeping his voice leveled and soft for the girl though dispite his heart hurting. Bravo, Ben👏

●Best friend = pet. I think that's the point for me to be upset by this? Also the water filling up the well, HOW?

●Supposedly this was the rug pull of the finale? I think a vast majority knew that it wasn't a dog but it still hurts though because of Ben's performance showing Sherlock's pain. But it wasn't surprising.

●The deep waters clip thing was an attempt for us to connect this moment to years of writing before that it was just hinted at on season 3 like it's Doctor Who. Ehhhhhhhhhh....

●Sherlock loved Victor, loved him so much and it fucking hurts where it hurts because Sherlock had filled that hole after so many years with John coming into his life. And then he got so much more from John which is what he needed after a loss that was so special to him. So much more was possible. *SCREAMS*

●Second time watching it I was looking for her equipment. But nothing, okie dokie then.

●I loved this moment. Caring is an advantage for one. But it was brought upon us too soon though. Eurus could've been more leading up to this moment. Not done with this yet. But bless Ben and Sian for their amazing performances.

●The rope: you guys, it was just misguided directing. They should've just thrown down metal chain clippers and a rope, or a rope and a person going down on it. One of many errors of this season as it is.

●GREG.😢❤

●"He's a great man sir." "He's better than that he's a good one." Thank you, Greg. Kinda sucks they made this moment all about Eurus though.

●THE ENDING SOUNDTRACK SOUNDED BEAUTIFUL. 

●"I know you two and I know what you can become."

●AND THEN THE NEXT MOMENT LATER "Listen to me. It doesn't matter who you are. It's all about the legend, the stories." Umm. No? Who they are MAKES the stories? How they had evolved and changed MAKES the legend. RIGHT? 

●NEVER LET THIS DIE. FOR THIS I AM STILL GRATFUL. SHERLOCK IS A PART OF JOHN'S LIFE NOW ON A WHOLE NEW LEVEL BECAUSE OF LITTLE ROISIE. This is what it is then.

●I'm forever thankful for them no matter what happened or will happen.

My jumbled up feelings and last thoughts of messy paragraphs of emotion are under the cut because no post can be this long already as it is. Imma sorry.✌

Final thoughts on everything: 

My first reaction to it was that it was clever, it was strange and it was tense. I didn’t cry surprisingly in my first viewing than in my second one but I was hella stressed and pulling on my hair with my heart beating miles a minute. But then...maybe it was a bit too much of everything and to a point it became an entirely different show. And they were trying to avoid that but...all throughout I was thinking “what am I watching?” and “what the fuck is going on?” every few minutes. Was that the desired effect? The episode was not terrible, it visually looked stunning as always to display the creepiness of it which they were going for (I don’t know why they were going for that) and the depth and it was emotional, it played with you and gave you anxiety and made your skin crawl for the middle part of it because of how the actors performed and my God were there were some performances here that were so awesome. 

Now, OOC performances on the other hand is another story which many are telling already and which I agree upon, that they just turned a 180 when season 4 started on some circumstances that I mentioned and seen throughout here. This final episode seemed out of character for the entire series even. It was different, it wasn’t awful, but it didn’t feel like Sherlock. It doesn’t feel separate it just feels metaphorically like you got an arm amputated and then have to get a new one that’s not your own but it’s still an arm and you need it but you’re unfamiliar with it and have endless hours of therapy to make it work for you. *SIGH* I’d like to argue that T6T still felt like Sherlock regardless of those reviews but TFP feels stuffed with ideas that it all clashes but at the same time it lacks the time to breathe. Were we supposed to breathe? The characters they are their own, they have the right to be flawed or damaged. But it’s about how anything gets resolved or the lack of it that puts me a off a little.

I’m not even talking about Johnlock I’m talking about Sherlock and John themselves. Their years of the relationship that they’ve built barely survived this season without somebody telling them to do this or do that and practically force them back together and thank god for Sherlock that no one needs to tell him to go over and comfort John at least for that hug. It’s unfortunate that it doesn’t translate to TFP that it was a poor decision for either John or Mycroft not do or even say anything to get the gun out of Sherlock’s chin and made it like Eurus had some humanity instead when she killed 5 people on the same day. Why were they that hasty to make us sympathize with her? But save that Victor=John part because that hits well. I’d to think John filled the hole from to Sherlock’s childhood when John came into his lonely picture and gave the man so much more.

I knew it wasn’t going to happen. Was I hopeful though, yes, but still forever in doubt. But what disappointed me is how they handled these boys like they were so worried about everyone else and let, Mary, Victor and Eurus revolve around Sherlock and John instead of it just being about them. They don’t want to give the “wrong impression” (Edit: I don't think so with the impressions thing. They don't mind us and just let us do what we do anyway) because of the “running joke” that they consider they were doing on the show for these past years. Implied sexuality isn’t a “running joke”. A running joke is when The Doctor mentions how cool his bowtie is, that’s a running joke. You just don’t do that and be oblivious to your own writing. I feel bad for those fans that people say they’re wrong, that there wasn’t any thing between the lines and even directly in the line itself to begin with. No one is wrong it’s just how you see it through the layers and this show has layers and layers and you just can’t look at something and just go “Sure. Ok.” unless there is nothing else to see. Because what’s the fun in that?

But that’s why we loved the show in the first place it’s because of these two men, give them a crime scene and watch them dance together through it and around it while learning more a little bit about themselves ad each other every time. I love Molly Hooper. And I want the best for her. That scene wasn’t the best for her. Was that the point? It was meant to be depressing and tense it was meant for them to break no matter how that means and for me both of them lost. Molly wasn’t sure if Sherlock meant it and Sherlock wasn’t sure himself but cares a lot for Molly and had no choice but to use it against her to save her own life or so he thought. I mean the first scene they considered was Molly should be inside the fucking coffin and solve a puzzle but still meant to lose, I presume, because that’s how the other two challenges went. But I’m proud of Molly though that she stood up for herself countless of times against Sherlock and did the same thing here. But why do I think she doesn’t deserve this is? Because again there is no resolve. And that interview, holy shit, no. NO. She shouldn’t be fine after that and probably got over it and shagged someone. That’s the most thick answer ever. Pretty upset by that. 

Their decision on what they did to Eurus. I was damn excited and floored when I knew she was three people. She was a better chameleon than Moriarty was. She was dangerous and sly. But then they reduced her so quickly as being helpless and more mentally unstable as I thought. The main antagonist is helpless and I thought there would be more to it. I’m not saying that Sherlock shouldn’t forgive her. I just wish they didn’t do it so soon. She could be compared to Moriarty and almost an be equal from how she was in TLD and how ruthless she was in TFP. How can they jump back on that when she was there enjoying a violin duet with her big bro?

But the thing is...I want more. I want to see what they will do, and how they will improve with their characters and with the relations they have towards each other. What stories they would tell. I’m still thankful for series 4 because we have something at least, it’s not perfect, not by a long shot but it’s a comforting thought to know that Baker Street is home, Rosie has two incredible dads (PARENT!LOCK IS CANON) in her life and that the boys consider themselves as a family and as home I should say as well. I’m hoping for a series 5. Hell, the conspiracy theories about a 4th episode are damn smart though very, very unlikely at this point that’s saying something that the audience wants improvement. I’m so grateful for this show and to the people involved as well though they are not perfect, but who is? I’m not giving up or letting go.