#ok im good nlw

[corntort]

reminder 2 self to ask someone abt a chord progression im rlly struggling qith

[reki-of-the-valley]

I'm screaming at the French version of We Don't Talk About Bruno, it has no business being this funny

"Isabela ton homme arrive" 😭😭😭 NOOOOOOOOOOO

[cornflowercanine]

i dont f33l safe iding as a les8ian anymore (8cs a good half of all les8ians i s33 do not want me here 8c im akoiro) 8ut for me to not 8e a les8ian i’d have to reside just in the nlw/nln “communities” and uh. ah. well. -gestures at the fact that looking up the tags on TUM8LR garners little to no results made 8y other nlw/nln people, and flat out doesnt exist anywhere else On Fucking Line- well. um. so im kinda just in this awkward lim8o of 8eing a les8ian 8ut knowing im not welcome or wanted or wholly cele8r8ed here 8c i dont force myself into unhealthy ro8otic rel8ionships anymore like :terezismiling: hi .  everyone .

[cornflowercanine]

fussing a8t l3s8ian stuff dnt r8 this isnt lik3 a V3NT v3nt im just putting it und3r a cut caus3 i dont think ppl would lik3 to casually s33 it whil3 th3y ar3 c3l38r8ing l3s8ian day XD

i f33l w3ird wh3n3v3r th3r3s smth c3l38r8ing l3s8ians 8c of th3 3xt3nt to which i am only a l3s8ian catagorically lik3. y3p. thats m3. non-man attract3d to non-m3n with som3 l3v3l of conn3ction to f3mininity/girln3ss/womanhood/what3v3r you wanna call it. i hav3 and do 3xp3ri3nc3 comp h3t. 8ut th3 only r3ason i 3v3r start3d iding as a l3s8ian, and kinda th3 only r3ason i still (w3akly) do, is 8c >i fit it catagorically, >th3r3 is no actual, r3al, solid, r3cogniz3d or r3sp3ct3d nlw community anywh3r3 8ut 8OY HOWDY is th3r3 a l3s8ian community+8oy howdy do nlw g3t thrown und3r th3 l3s8ian catagory anyway, >3v3ryon3 was calling m3 a l3s8ian alr3ady at that point! and i dont 8lam3 3m for it, its short and 3asi3r than announcing out N3ptunic or trying to find n3ptunic prid3 stuff 3v3ry tim3, 8ut. yknow.

so i 83cam3 a l3s8ian caus3 th3r3 wasnt anything 3ls3 r3ally 8ut th3 mor3 i sp3nd tim3 h3r3 it just. sucks for m3. its lik3 3v3ry oth3r part of my id3ntity Too Fucking Many l3s8ians activ3ly h8 and/or mak3 fun of, and 3v3ryon3, l3s8ian or not, is constantly fighting ov3r what do3s and do3s not a Good Prop3r L3s8ian mak3. and som3 of its right ex. 8i l3s8ians dont 3xist, and som3 of it is a8solut3ly fucking 3xhausting m3ntally and oth3rwis3 3x. asp3c ppl ar3 th3 3n3my of l3s8ians and th3 ~3vil Asp3c La83ls~ ar3 K33PING pur3 innoc3nt good l3s8ians from th3ir TRU3 id3ntity!!1!111!!! and im awar3 this is kinda stupid 8ut god. th3 last straw for m3 was wh3n i d3cid3d to actually r3ad all th3 starting t3xt in th3 l3s8ian mast3rdoc inst3ad of going str8 to th3 8ull3t3d lists, and it vagu3s akoiromanticism 8y going "or you think your3 som3 mad3-up id3ntity wh3r3 you'r3 not attract3d to som3on3 wh3n th3y lik3 you 8ack," (not 3xact wording o8vs) in r3f3r3nc3 to comp h3t, it's so. if a corn3rston3, lit3rally d3fining k3y pi3c3 to th3 l3s8ian community and l3s8ianism and who is and is not a l3s8ian do3s all 8ut m3ntion m3 8y nam3 as an 3XAMPL3 of a "mad3-up" Symptom of comp h3t that shouldnt 3xist and s3rv3s no purpos3 and is antith3tical to l3s8ianism, why!! am!! i!! h3r3!!!!!!!!!! what support and room is th3r3 for m3 h3r3 if smth as int3gral to how i f33l attraction as akoiromanticism is only 3v3r shown h3r3 as a 8ad 3xampl3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8ut no matt3r how 3xhaust3d i am or how passiv3 aggr3ssiv3 l3s8ians at larg3 ar3 for m3 83ing a l3s8ian in "th3 wrong way", that do3s not chang3 th3 fact that th3r3 is no r3al, solid, r3sp3ct3d, r3pr3s3nt3d nlw, wln, or nln community. it do3snt chang3 th3 fact 3v3ryon3 will k33p calling and catagorizing m3 as a l3s8ian anyway!! so im a l3s8ian!!!!!!!!!!!!! i fucking gu3ss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! which mak3s it f33l.... idk th3 word, d3tach3d? dissonant?????? wh3n3v3r th3r3s l3s8ian stuff going on caus3 im always lik3 haha y3ah this is cool and im happy for you guys 8ut im gonna sit this on3 out 8ut 3v3ryon3. k33ps coming up to m3 lik3. omg clov3 its for you congrats its you!!!! and its lik3 :t3r3zismiling: thanks li3g3 8ut i am only at this party caus3 3v3ryon3 k3pt asking m3 if i was going and now that im h3r3 im just sitting in th3 corn3r anyway lik3... what ar3 you 3xp3cting from m3 XD