#ok i do have some theories but considering how much tamer everything is currently it. does not convince me
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the wall of not doing things has been absolutely awful lately and i genuinely have no idea why anymore. like i am just stupid why do i feel like i'm being crushed by a mountain every time i try to focus. what is going on lol
#ok i do have some theories but considering how much tamer everything is currently it. does not convince me#like maybe it's the fact that i'm putting 90% of my mental energy into um. both thinking and avoiding thinking about certain things?#idk it's weird. i'm trying to keep myself from spiraling and so far maybe it's working? but i wouldn't say i'm not doing any obsessive shit#like currently i just spend most of my days being nervous and tense and not doing anything and sometimes i. remember and go#'ooh that's right this is where all my brain cpu is going'#but idk. again i'm not spiraling it's way more manageable than it has been other times. but maybe that's exactly it#i am managing and it's taking. a lot of effort. that apparently i cannot put into studying anymoree#i kinda wish i could just have a mental breakdown about it and move on but history has shown that this doesn't work <3#anyway. i hate to say it but honestly part of it could be that i have not seen my therapist in two weeks#too much bullshit thoughts nowhere to vomit them so now they're just. festering#i mean i am very obviously currently trying to exteriorise a bit with those way too long tags#will it work since etiquette is keeping me from being specific. who knows#anyway trying with the linguistic again. goodbye
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Why do you ship Jadam? I'm not asking this in like a mean way, I'm just curious. Sorry if it sounds mean. But yeah.
Youâre one of the far tamer anons Iâve gotten about Jadam, Anon, do not fret! I keep getting told Iâm wasting my time and reaching to be a special snowflake on sarahah from all of my compulsive heterosexual Instagram followers, lmao
Really, itâs the developing relationship between John and Adamâs characters that I sort of slept on in the wake of other ships that really pulled me in hardcore? An RP a few friends and I run really started the while analyzing process tbh. Like, for example, Stohn is rough and tumble, itâs a strong trust ship built over several trials and errors and has these two sort of opposite personalities learning to fight together and be equal to each other instead of be a leader and a second in command and then Adive is like these two lost souls learning to love themselves after everything theyâve endured as well as each other after coming together over their paralleled means.
Jadam is one of the most open and communicative ships Iâve considered tbh, itâs softer and gentler than y'allâs average MLM ship, itâs a lot of bantering, playful humor and late night conversations over things that only they can talk to one another about. Like John and Adam? Relationship or not, these two have an understanding of the other onesâ story that the rest of the Garde and their other shared friends won��t understand. These two were drawing ever closer in general since they first initially met at the end of Fall of Five, theyâve always been up front and bone brittle honest with each other about the little things and the deeper ones.
In United As One, Adam is one of three characters who(though yes he does ask John if heâs ok but also *knows* itâs a dumb question as soon as he asks it)doesnât completely blank or shut out on Johnâs darker changes, he understands them. The only other characters who donât ask and donât press it are Nine and Five, the two who both sort of crave or currently live in chaos. Sam is Johnâs best friend and he honestly doesnât really⌠do much for John when he loses Sarah, UAO really focuses Sam on his relationship more so.
John couldnât fall sleep no matter how exhausted he was alone but he collapsed in seconds next to Adam.
John literally argues with Adam over his choice to stay in the Arctic with the other Mogadorians but tries to understand it. He goes out of his way to make sure Adam is comfortable and at his best, always. Johnâs first concern when Adam struck the General was if he was ok with killing his own father, even after Adam was so open about his hatred for the abusive asshole. Not to forget John makes an extra ass scene in front of Lawson because of what happened to Adam at the military base.
Theyâre just. Theyâre good shit. I know one reason I keep get rudely asked about Jadam(again Anon, not you but others from Insta mainly) is thereâs a wing of this fandom thatâs so hellbent on Oadam and the straight canon ships(though the Jarah defenders didnât come up until Jadam surfaced a few weeks ago so Iâm guessing itâs more Oadam drama using Johnâs relationship with Sarah as nothing more than a reason to refute any and all LGBT ships so, you know, nice bi, demi, and pan erasure, you fucking assholes) that the mere idea that anyone in your ship can be paired with someone else is like poisonous and they want content for their ship and honestly thatâs why people stop making content. I also never liked the idea of âsince half of my ship is dead and actually can never come back, I guess the other person can never love againâ that this fandom does with Adam and Marina, lol. Like. Thatâs cruel and unusual but itâs one of the negative aspects in all around fandom culture.
I also never was super into Oadam? I like never read Adamâs novellas either though, Knave is pushing me to do so trust me. I just got more into Oadam by reading fanfics and seeing the edits and work for it, but in the main timeline I never really⌠got a âstraightâ picture about Adam either. Not entirely gay but definitely not dead set vagina only. I liked Adive way more when it surfaced, Adarina and Adix are both good options too, and I was open to the idea of Nadam when Knave tried that out, but never heavily Oadam. Like, I felt like especially then, the ship of Adam and One was put on this pedestal by the fandom with Navrina so high that I stopped paying attention to it unless one of my friends made something for it. Like Iâve never been a Navrina super fan either, just casual for it.
I ship based off chemistry completely, not gender because thatâs glorifying the sexualization of LGBT people and that is FUCKED, and Iâve never personally read any of Oadamâs chemistry in its source material; now, granted, Adive has no in book chemistry and that one is more of a theory based chemistry ship versus context one. Nadam had some playfully bickering but not a whole lot extra to go off of.
Now, Jadam does have something going for it.
Jadam has crazy chemistry but itâs constructed way differently than the ships that have to have fire and ice to survive.
Iâm so sorry this is long omg, a lot of thoughts on ships here in this head of mine apparently!
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