#ok but genuinely a lot of these are cool
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alright this one is a bit dark but. current spin sooo . out of the following options how would you most like to be remembered & reasoning if you'd like
sentient ai of you in a big computer
tree grown out of your grave/with your body
ashes scattered (where?)
bones fossilized for display
buried regularly / mausoleum
used to grow biodegradable bricks out of mushrooms
traditional burial
other?
FOSSILISE ME CAPTAIN
#asks#ok but genuinely a lot of these are cool#sentient ai might be fun but i fear that my postmortem conciousness would be used for bad...#tree is alright!! but i would have a difficult time choosing the type of tree etc and it seems like a logistical nightmare#im actually more familiar with the process of cremation but its not really my thing...#regular burial is EXPENSIVE and also the whole thing where you have to go clean the headstones or nameplates -#is kind of inconvenient. sure i love cleaning headstones but i wouldn't wish it on anyone else#the bricks one is so interesting... mushrooms pale in comparison to museum though#and then yeah same thing for traditional burial its just too formal and boring to me#<- guy who's been to enough funerals etc#anyways MUSEUMS.#now that's a real cool thing#i have actually been to a museum near me that had people's organs and bones and even preserved muscles in there#and i was like woah hell yes. all of that is me#so yeah. scientific donation is for me.#and also if possible i would love a little plaque or note by my bones that reads like. idk something nice or thoughtful#anyways. intriguing ask thanks anon
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imo jax has no clue that hes miserable. like hes putting on a face for sure but i dont think he actually has the emotional awareness to know WHY hes doing that. he just wants to look cool and masculine and thats as far as he thinks on it. theres more to it but he doesnt know that. being sad isnt cool so he wouldnt even entertain the idea that hes secretly sad
#tadc#hes absolutely miserable but he doesnt. realize i dont think#i think he knows when hes Currently unhappy but i dont think he like#realizes that theres an underlying misery to his entire existence#hes trying to be cool and is forcing himself to have fun all the time#the man is desperate to be happy and laugh and has found a way to do it#its not viable and also its a bandaid on his problems but he doesnt realize#and also hes a piece of shit#i hope he one day recovers because its tragic and also bc for the others' sake he should stop being an asshole to them#hes more ok expressing negative emotions if theyre like. angry or frustrated. he just ignores sadness. its not cool of him#idk if im wrong or if i jsut interpret him differently but genuinely#to me he is a guy more obsessed w looking cool than almost everything else#a bold move when he doesnt respect anyone around him#then again he knows(?) thers an audience so . maybe its for them#or maybe he wants the illusion of superiority over the others#they all might be jumpy and mopey but hes above that and wants them all to know#its just one way to have control over literally anything in the circus#and i think thers struggles every chracter has in come way and like#i think i should look at how the charcters interact w the concept of their own autonomy#bc theres something there#esp given a lot of gangles actions in ep 4 revolve around her finally. finally having literally any control over how ppl treat her#even if its not actually 'real' control#and smth smth caine getting rid of zoobles option to not participate#pomni getting dragged places CONSTANTLY#ragatha trying to maintain the other characters emotional stability#which reads as a desperate desire to stop players from abstracting. to me. which is in itself#a desire for control in a bad situation#then theres kinger.... i cant think of much for him. in terms of control#he doesnt seem to have control of anything but he has a surprisingly large amnt of authority#circus discussion
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Some season 13 episode 1 studies!! Simple screenshot redraw on the first one, and i just wanted to have a bit of fun with like 5-10 minute studies of the boys! SO excited for episode 2 to come out in less than 24 hours?!!!!
#feels good to be back!!#i can finally tell yall about my break!!#i went to new orleans!!#helped out with some hurricane relief and just general volunteering stuff!!!#had such a blast#it was genuinely so so so awesome and fun and cool#and i learned SO much!!#THE FOOD#oughhhh ive missed southern food yall#that shit was GOOD#so glad i didn't explode#yes im going to bring up me almost exploding again#cause that shit was wild#0 oil pressure make car go boom ig#im still recovering#need to catch up on my sleep and stuff#plus i think i twinged my wrist#so im trying to take it easy and do my physical therapy stuff#but its finals season#yay.... :(#so yall will probably see a lot less art from me in the coming month and change#i also gotta prioritize my schoolwork especially if my wrist keeps acting up#dont wanna overwork myself#ok ill stop yapping but im so so so happy yall#for everything. things are really good right now!!#jet lag the game#zeph's art#sam denby#ben doyle#adam chase
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keefe was actually insane for this

#I've been slandering keefe a lot lately so.... here's some keefe appreciation!#ok but srsly#other than sophie obviously being the main unfortunate victim#keefe is also a victim with the way the fandom barely pays any attention to his character and only focuses on his good looks and sokeefe#like yes he is loved but do y'all ever see people actually CARING about his character?? other than yk...sokeefe#don't come at me for this one i know shannon has been focusing the last few books on him#but im deadass serious when i say that barely anyone talks about his character as a whole#keefe is genuinely an incredibly cool character#and i legit screamed when i read this part#“I could keep it with the jewel I sliced out of Dimitar’s ear when I beat him at sparring.“ is SO CUNTY LIKE#the girls who get it get it#kotlc#keeper of the lost cities#keefe sencen#kotlc flashback
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tangentially its really funny how it took me thinking digital circus is really mid to realize how much i actually fucking love ena
#previously i'd been more of a passive enjoyer of ena. like i'd thought it was neat but it was a thing i'd just like see get posted#in the group chat and be like 'oh cool it's another one of those' and watch it and then forget about it#and then digicirc came out and everybody started losing their minds about it and i was like. its just ok.#and the elements i liked the most about it --the surreal medium-blending self-aware game abstraction type beats--#i was like. this really just feels like worse ena. maybe i have not appreciated ena enough.#digicirc is of course not nearly as focal on those elements and is a lot about actual characters and storytelling and shit just as much#as feeling out its weird world and its rules.but like. i dont care about tadc characters that much[or at least not their current direction]#[it's showed hints of stuff i genuinely think is neat but i don't think it's really the place the story is interested in heading]. anyway#ena is very overwhelmingly about being surreal and off the wall and it is very very very very very good at it#& now with the game.....fans of OFF and hylics rejoice we got a new kid on the block and it's the best it's ever been#bweeeaaahh
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#when i’m in a#mentally ill about sunny#competition and my opponent is me#O.O#idk.#ik a lot of people here#but at the same time i feel like im more mentally ill about this show than anyone ever#which is like.#lol… damn how do i account for that#i think its genuinely really true#and its probably an issue#but here we are and here we stay#so what now..:.#and why am i continuously indulged#why is this entertained?#cos it doesn’t harm anyone i suppose#and it helps…#hm.#ok it’s fine truly#it just is weird to consider#the spectrum#that i’m at the top lol#and it’s good for me#but it.. probably is strange…#or like. the most it could be.#but it is what it is…#hmmmm#oh well#i’m chill#i’m cool
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he bites
#redacted asmr#redacted audio#redactedverse#art#illustration#redacted quinn#vampire#quinn is a lot less defendable than blake but CMON HES COOL TOO#ok so he “murdered three people” who hasnt had a bad day#he's so funny and for what#david physically holding sam back while quinn smiles and waves is fucking great#go eat my adam post for my thoughts on quinn bc he's a fantastic character who's also a genuine threat and it's delicious#i want him to crash the wedding like shrek
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I'm so looking forward to iroh and zuko properly talking and seeing irohs reaction to zuko being gay.
Like we all know he doesn't agree with the fire nation rn but how will he react?
Will he not support him cause sokkas a guy? Will he not support him because it's SOKKA? Will he accept him? Will he reveal he's known for years zuko was gay?
Especially with everything that happened with zhao, regarding to what jee said to bato on their date. (Which is a very understandable perspective, zuko just got out of this very sexually traumatising situation and almost immediately starts a relationship (his first relationship) with sokka, but then again it is a very unique situation)
One thing I love about some atla fics is how they portray the FNs thoughts on queerness, cause on one hand they were one of the only country's (I think) that treated men and women the same but then again it's also the fucking fire nation.
And I also think zukos whole canon arc can be very comparative to queerness,
His dads an asshole and after speaking out against him he throws him out, and zuko try's for 3 years to regain his father's love and acceptance, and then faced with the opportunity of regaining it takes it immediately regardless of who or what he may hurt (iroh, his own morals etc) but once he makes it back home realises how fucked up everything is and eventually confronts his dad and openly tells him he doesn't agree with him then runs aways.
I also wonder if iroh secretly knows jee is queer it doesn't seem that likely to me but it also is iroh so who knows.
<3
I do think Iroh’s reaction will be a big moment for not only the story but for Zuko’s character development. Right now, Zuko’s technically still a prisoner, holding himself there by assuming Iroh will not understand or judge him when in reality he’ll never know what his uncle is thinking until they TALK ABOUT IT. (Which the FN royal family is just sooo good at healthy communication I don’t understand why this is so hard for them lol?!)
I do agree that the suddenness of the relationship combined with the intensity from both zuko and Sokka is very alarming for people looking at it from the outside (I mean we all totally get it cause we were there but others are like uhhhh hmmmm ok this might be concerning) so I get them gossiping and wondering if this is truly real or what the fucks going on with those boys.
I love Zukos canon arc because there’s just so much about zukos story that can be relatable no matter who you are and I think that’s why he is a fan favorite (it doesn’t explain why we torture him the way we do but ehhhh it’s fine haha)
Hmmmmmm does iroh know Jees gay? Depends on how saucy those music nights got ;)
#HAHAHA DO SEE THE JEEROH JOKE SOCKS?!?! I hope you see it through all your House reblogging nonsense haha#Jk you obsess over your new blorbos I support you!#I love this ask thank you#I also love that canon gave us so much to work with but left it loose enough we could do what we wanted#like I’ve read the fire nation written so many different ways in fics it’s insane#And I love all the unique thoughts!#I will continue to flesh out the FN little by little as we progress#An azula pov (or someone from her squad) will be part of every new chapter until the end#She’s a coming haha#I don’t know if iroh knows Jee is gay#Or that jee is like one date away from hooking up with bato haha#Or that zuko is already kind of hooking up with sokka (not really but I mean they’re getting prettttttttty snuggly haha)#But yeah idk I’m excited this next chapter it is A LOT#& we will be SUPER CLOSE to getting some answers to your questions lol#Thanks for this cool ask these are my favorite asks#Sorry if you’ve sent me an ask lately and I haven’t responded I’m getting better at that I promise#I will say though that I don’t respond to asks if I genuinely don’t know what to say or if I feel I might come off too mean or rude.#So yeah sorry anyone who’s ask I didn’t respond#(I also forget them in drafts and then feel weird about posting it after it’s been a month so I’m sorrrryyyyyy…)#Ok phew this was a lot of tags sorry#monsieugrgraves#Leaving it all behind#LIAB#ITF#ask
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Hey you. Stop scrolling. I need you to look at this.
So apparently back in the 1860's this Japanese individual named Kanagaki Robun published a book of art depicting the American Revolutionary War, and I just found out about this thing today.
And I know that it's been talked about on Tumblr before because of course it has but I want to talk about it on my blog in my own words because oh my fucking god.
The illustrations are wild.
Like, here's George Washington just fucking punching a tiger:

And then here's a giant snake consuming John Adams' mom:
And the thing is these are real actual images that exist. Made by a real actual person. You can look it up and Google will show you! This is a real thing! And it's so fucking funny to me.
This is the equivalent of an American trying to write a manga with only pieced-together information about Japan whispered to them from the voices in their walls and a whole lot of assumptions.
This is like fanfiction about American presidents.
They gave America a goddess for fuck's sake. It has no fucking right to be this funny.
Thank you for thinking our country is so awesome, I guess, Kanagaki Robun. It's honestly not, founding fathers didn't punch tigers or fight giant snakes or mess around with giant eagles, and we have no goddess here (unless you count Lady Liberty) but it seems like you had fun so thank you. Now I feel at least a little better about this stupid country and its problems.
#the best part is that until more modern communication this was probably what Japanese people genuinely thought of America#can you imagine that?#like man I wish we were that cool#I wish John Adams fought a giant snake#this was a lot of fun to learn and do a little digging on#history#america#Japan#revolutionary war#george washington#john adams#american history#fun facts#today i learned#the more you know#ok that's enough tags
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actually honestly yeah theres def some sort of rotation system my brain has for discussing tadc characters.... pomnis always in the middle of the circle but whatever character i am drawing a lot is is arranged nin a circle and i just loop thru them. that or its more like a spinning wheel and it randomly selecte a character every 1-3 days for me to draw a bunch and then draw someone else
#theres some it lands on more....#ragatha and kinger and gangle....#aside from pomni but also even when im not actively drawing her shes still at the forefront of my brain#i need to think abt zooble more desperately considering how attached i am to them. i wish i knew more abt them#even a yr ago before i was super into this show zoobles design has always been like. l#like one of my favorite things established from the pilot#i heart weird character design and i was obsessed w their design immediately#but i dont know a lot abt them. like i have a feeling abt most things... but its not as like#concrete as the others...#which makes me sooo sad. zooble i gotta study you one of these days#but. yeah. i think i landed on kinger a couple days ago#character who id normally be ambivalent to the concept of bc im not super into when shows have like#'man who has a dead wife' as a huge aspect#bc often that character is so gruff or sarcastic or cool. but kinger is just.... nice#and that fact is what makes him stand out to me tbh. and also makes the rest of his character work SO WELL#he genuinely makes me very sad. hes so well executed. imo#i like when a character evoked genuinely strong emotions in me Conceptually#so i guess it makes sense that ragatha kinger n gangle show up in the rotation the most#deeply tragic characters who are tragic in unique ways with a complex personality that compliments#their unique problems and tragic elements#esp with how these problems tie into overarching themes of the show#i heart narratives and when characters personalities and struggles tie into important themes#in a meaningul way that enables that character to be#effectively a unique lens into discussing said themes#idk if any of that makes sense. tired and just qoke up#dunno if i can fall back asleep actually but its whatever im thinking abt weird circus guys#that tag where i say kinger n gangle was also supposed to include ragatha. whoops#i jsut woke up ok... also im on my phone so i cant fix it#but know she was part of that#circus discussion
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zeno's ultimate pokemiku tierlist ⁉️(it's all his opinion and he loves them all regardless⁉️)
#like arrfgggdiakaktmcksmsama this was literally all for me like they knew what they were doing#i love character design i love pokemon i love miku. and then you put ALL THREE TOGETHER....#i will explain some of my choices here#poison miku is just too good but also i am a big sucker for freaky scientists with constant “worry” eyebrows#her design is just so out there and crazy (this is about the shoes. some understand the greatness of the shoes and some dont. and thats ok.)#every other miku in peak i think establishes their theme exeptionally well especially ghost bug and fighting#for ghost i already love spooky and gloomy looking characters and that miku delivers tenfold (of course shes designed by the GOAT take)#esp with the mix of ghostly and electronic/digital regarding the glitchy parts n the 01 hologram#she looks like shell invade my computer and give it a virus if i dont send the chainmail about her tragic file corruption to 10 friends#(in the best way possible)#for bug miku the big dress is a huge plus but also i just think shes adorable nuff said#for fighting - i love a delinquent character and she fits that really well. the half coat thing is a big highlight for me#also the leek theme is absolutely iconic#for the ones i didnt like as much - i honestly just think the koraidon one is a leeeeetle bit boring#dont get me wrong. it has really cool aspects like the hair and the koraidon like cape but idk#it feels like theres a lot going on but not that much at the same time? its still a really nice design tho esp the hair color#for the ones in yellow tier - i just dont like the color palletes very much . theyre still really nice designs esp fire miku#but all in all these are genuinely all amazing designs and i dont want to be too critical or mean to any of them esp seeing im not a pro#but this was really fun to see unfold!!! cant wait until the songs start dropping#in the topic of miku as well - hey muse dash where's my miku on the switch version....#please dont make us wait too long 🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
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its dark out and i just had a thought abt riftlore again. i cant EXPLAIN currently what implications it'd actually have it's only more of a realization. that i have not thought much on because it Just entered my brain, but i am in fact going to ramble about it anyway
was thinking more about the relationships between the deities. how they see each other. and they definitely do have a small hierarchy based on age, that's smth i thought of a long time ago. going snake god <- xeilren <- whisk <- lakuta <- terchu, because that's age order. and snake god is a superior to all of them, though she tries her best to make sure everything is balanced there isn't much she can do, she made all of the others, and is typically final say. if there was anything she could do about that perception the main conflict probably would not exist, it's a major source of lakuta's frustrations that ended up corrupting him. it's definitely something i see as important
however, there is an exception to this - snake god and xeilren. in my eyes, with the other three deities, snake god is clearly an authority even though they're all peers. but i think snake god and xeilren are probably the closest to being on truly equal standpoints to each other, on account of the fact xeilren is extremely wise and mature compared to any of the other deities. not only are they oldest by a very sizeable margin, they're meant to be the most distinct from any of the others in general. the first is something completely alien to all those that came after. and also because i think snake god made xeilren's image out of nostalgia for an old friend of hers that i haven't touched on much. simply bc i haven't touched much on snake god's past in general, it doesn't have a lot of relevance and even she's generally moved on by the time anything happens in the rift. point is, xeilren and snake god relied on each other a lot
and each deity learned from the others that were around before them. yes, snake god taught/guided them all when they were young, but they primarily looked to whoever came before them. that's why i noted age order, because it was only one made at a time. i see that part as important for why terchu takes to mindlessly following her brother as well despite the obvious feeling that his side is extremely wrong, both because they're family (none of the others are) and because he was the main one she had to look up to when she was young.
so with that context, if wisdom or guidance were needed from their peers, the other deities would probably have been more likely to reach out to xeilren for advice than snake god. (that's one of those newer parts i'm thinking on) because even though snake god is trying to level the playing field, xeilren is closer to understanding them than snake god is - snake god doesn't exist to fulfill any roles or represent anything other than being a leader, and filling in the broad range of gaps that the other deities don't cover. xeilren is one of them, snake god is also one of them but less so.
and then. well before lakuta became corrupt by his own whims, probably around the start of actual tension between him and the others, xeilren steps down. they become entirely uninvolved in the others, still doing some tasks just to not be doing nothing, in a small pocket dimension. they won't take sides in any discussion, they're minding their own business as a former/retired deity someplace else. it's a decision that they don't explain, though a strong sense of foresight is something that comes with them as it relates to their role. and so, while it is accepted without fuss, and snake god doesn't demand an explanation, they leave. and that's also been established since i made xeilren, basically
but even if it's without fuss, even if snake god accepts it gracefully and allows them to do so, and even if the others don't speak much on it. it absolutely has to have an effect on them ALL. (that's part of the new thought.) while they're, by that point, fairly matured in their perspectives and they're settled into what their lives are. that now, if they need advice, if they have an issue or concern or anything, they can only go to snake god. xeilren doesn't want to be bothered and while they can be helpful, they aren't going to give real answers to problems that involve even the slightest amount of taking sides. i dont think they'd actually notice that it's a major effect on them all, they've got other things to think about, maybe a comment or so about it, but it definitely affects them. whisk adjusts to it a decent amount, maybe with a bit of unease, but he respects snake god enough to settle into that change. lakuta, however, having his main grievances being all against snake god, would probably be more negatively impacted. i don't think he'd adjust to that at all and it'd drive tensions further. that'd also hurt terchu, because if the brother that was a role model for her previously isn't adjusting, she'd absolutely struggle to figure out how to adjust either. on her own she probably could just fine, i think she'd be nervous to, but considering she also goes to him more often than she'd go to anyone else, and he's not going to help her in an unbiased way, she'd take notice to his tensions and apprehension to reaching out to snake god. and probably go from very torn on what to do to not being able to adjust at all in a similar way
idk rn im super tired its been dark out for a few hours. got me incomprehensible and sleepy. i don't have the energy to think on this more, hence the statement about the implications . furthest i can go is how they adjust and even then thats kind of ehh barely anything currently. i'll think more on it later i think maybe idk. this could be one of those things that i come back on later in the future with a whole other conclusion simply cuz its so small too
#riftlore#feel free to interpret this as you will i'd love to hear if anyone does have thoughts. it helps a lot with solidifying the details#i really wanna talk abt rift stuff more right now too also feel free to prod /lh /gen#i want “would/could you forgive him for what he's done” to be a genuinely hard question to answer in regards to lakuta its a need#NOT from the perspective of the other characters (ok. maybe from his own could be cool too.) but from the viewer's perspective#oc
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#okay this is such a niche thing to complain about but ive always struggled to stick with hobbies because of my adhd right#and whenever i look up advice (specifically on reddit) a bunch of people are like “fluctuating between hobbies is just a part of adhd!-#ive learnt to accept it!!“ its like ok cool but im wondering how to FIX IT NOT BE FUCKING CONTENT WITH IT.#adhd is not a fucking “”superpower“” like u idiots are saying#i dont like constantly cycling between hobbies and dropping them before i actually become good#its not fun.#its genuinely infuriating.#like yeah sure i know a little about a lot of things (like crochet writing drawing etc)#but i want to be able to master at least ONE without getting sidetracked#FUCK.#actually adhd#adhd#vent
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Trying to invest myself in my reading by making it about DnDads but then I get horrifically sad bc it's a SUDP textbook
#PULLS AT MY SHIRT COLLAR. WINCES. YEAH.#Listen i.........theres a lot to say about Nick and Glenn in regards to genuine addiction and substance dependence.#tw drugs#cw drugs#tw substance abuse#cw substance use#JUST IN CAAAAASE#unrelated but related but i ALSO.#Will Campos if you're out there. You inspired me with the “ its alright to be angry but its not ok to be cruel”#LIKE OH MY GOD..... i hope i get a chance to write a paper with a section about emotional intelligence one day bc OUGHHHH#dndads is a cool study on emotional intelligence and coping. genuinely.
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re: the music rant I tagged you in I am so sorry for tagging you in my double-dose caffeine fueled haterism explosion post. truly was off the shits and did not realize how much random garbage talking points I was ready to spill on the first person to ask
but i love haterism…..
#truly i really don’t care if ppl like those artists. they do so for good reason#but it’s just impossible to see it as like. particularly noteworthy and countercultural or anything anymore?#like obv it’ll never be on the same mainstream level of like taylor swift or w/e#but as far as being ‘weird’ or ‘fringe’ it’s like. safe weird. safe fringe#mainstream weird or mainstream fringe to use an oxymoron#there’s nothing wrong with enjoying something with a large community that makes you feel something#but it just isn’t particularly striking as far as making a statement about how unique you are#not that you need to be unique to be cool#but i think a lot of people truly do see it as a thing that makes them special or even superior#it’s not harmful at all just a little silly#and truly when every young neurodivergent well-off internet dweller is doing it. well it’s not totally weird is it#safe and sanitized weirdness#either that or to get back to the point if it is true weirdness then it’s like yeah are you sure this goes on that character playlist LOL#maybe the other bigger threat is when stuff is genuinely good and raw and unique and strange#art that’s screaming something out#and it gets watered down into something incredibly generic#like this lament about the singer’s very real life is like ‘woagh this is just like these two fictional white men who have never met’#less ‘morally wrong’ and more ‘hardcore cringe at best and in poor taste at worst’#or like. what if it is an EXTREMELY specific situation genuinely#why is it on every playlist 🤔#the answer is bc it goes hard of course so who am i to say they’re wrong for having fun#but behind the scenes in secret i’ll be laughing sinisterly#like everybody in the world thinks Their Artist is the most freakish unique and special artist. including swifties#fact of the matter there’s always something weirder. even the stuff i listen to i am well aware could be so much freakier#is there really any point in making it a competition of how weird you are#just listen to what appeals to you and stop acting like you’re the main character idk#asks#dj-of-the-coven#ok i’m done now. hope none of this sounded too bitter and judgmental
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the thing with autism right. is i know if i was having a full mental health crisis what i would end up doing is going to the emergency room and being like "hello, my name is (x) birthday (y), um i was hoping to talk to you about potential mental health inpatient care? i'm currently having a mental health crisis and don't think i can be trusted on my own" like if there's one thing i can be sure will live on in me no matter how hard the brainworms try. is my fucking customer service voice
#like itll be busted as fuck because ill be freaking out but you bet ill be sobbing my way through verbally drafting an email#ive done it before‚ like im a frustrated crier and once i start crying i cant turn it off so ive had a couple times where i had a breakdown#at work‚ cried about it a lot‚ and my lead pulled me into a meeting room after i calmed down to check in#and as soon as i started talking it just started again so i had to be like 'sorry th-this is just something m-m-my bod-dy does‚ i-i'm calm#m-mentally but i just c-cant turn this-is off‚ just try to i-ignore HIC it and f-f-focus-s on the w-wwwords‚#(tired of crytyping so just mentally fill it in yourself in everything else i say)#n they offered me more time to chill but im like no really i genuinely am calm‚ i calm down wayyy before my body does its gonna#keep doing this on and off all day‚ it takes hours for it to fully calm down and is on a hair trigger the entire time#so thinking about this will make it kick back up again no matter what unless we talk tomorrow‚ so if youre ok with bearing with me then cool#and theyre like. dang ok and just focused on what i said#or much more recently i was talking to my roommate‚ stopped‚ held up a finger + stood there silently for ten seconds‚#then was like 'sorry about that‚ i think i have to throw up. excuse me for a moment. what was that? oh gotcha yeah i'll message you if i#need anything‚ thank you'#and just typing it out like that it sounds like i was fine and just saw it coming a ways away. however that is not the case#i had had my covid booster and some other vaccine earlier that day‚ lost 5 vials of blood‚ eaten Nothing‚ drank only#acidic-ass apple juice‚ and had just hit my vape too hard#keeping it in once it made its presence known was a feat of will the likes of which have never been seen before#and still my sentences prevail
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