Completely unrelated to the rant post I just posted.
I finished the 10-hour's worth batch of driving lessons I'd paid for and oh god I just paid for another 10. These are so expensive what the fuck do you mean $870 AUD???? On top of the other $870 AUD I paid for the previous batch? So $1,740 AUD so far?????? This is why I've had to wait until I got a full-time job to work on getting my license 😭😭😭
At least my instructor thinks I probably only need a couple actual lessons and then I can use the rest of the hours to do mock driving tests with him and borrow/rent his car for the actual tests because I need a car to do the test in.........
Although statistically I'm likely to fail my driving test the first couple of times and then I'd need to pay my guy again for the mock test and to borrow his car again 😭😭😭😭
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hi welcome back to leanne rewatches deadpool & wolverine and goes insane about every single detail in this movie. in this edition: how logan's clothes reflect the trajectory of his character
1. the suit—inside
so we start off with the scene in the bar where logan appears to be wearing what we're used to seeing him wear. flannels, leather jackets. his outfit and even the setting is not at all unfamiliar for him. but, as we later find out, he was wearing the suit underneath all those layers the whole time.
during his talk with laura, he reveals that he wears the suit to remember those he'd lost, and as a reminder of what he'd done. he's had the suit on permanently for god knows how long, hidden under his clothes. at this point he bears the suit like a cross, suffering in silence under the guise of normalcy, yet sacrificing what's left of his identity by reducing himself to what the suit represents; by taking all the jabs and nasty looks people throw at him that he thinks he's too deserving of to combat.
2. the suit—outside
after wade pulls him out, he has the suit on display for quite a while. on one hand, it shows the fight that's in him now as a contrast to his passivity in his own world. on the other hand, it's also a sort of vulnerability: what that suit stands for and by extension what he himself is is now laid bare to the world. out in the open for people to question. maybe that fight that's in him now stems precisely from this vulnerability.
this vulnerability is both good and bad for him: it causes him to lash out at the questions from wade that he's not ready to answer. it also leads him to open up to laura and finally speak about what happened—who knows if he's ever said any of it out loud before. fun! even with just the suit, we're already seeing some development.
and THIS is where it gets interesting.
3. the white shirt—his mind
the first time we truly see him without the suit is when cassandra nova looks into his mind. i've been going back and forth on whether this is logan's own manifestation of himself or if it's cassandra's, and i still don't know. i think the distinction does matter, but in the end what it conveys is the same.
firstly, another layer of vulnerability again. he's already on his knees for cassandra, submissive—now in his mind he's also stripped as bare as he can be (i think we all know white shirts can sometimes leave little to the imagination). cassandra looks at him and says "you're hiding ... from all the ones you let down." how interesting is that?? if we go all the way back to the first scene, he hides his suit under normal clothes. and he hides this version of him in his mind even further underneath all of that.
secondly and as an extension of that point, white symbolises purity. cleanliness. even a promise of new beginnings. let's tackle this from the two possible perspectives.
if this is logan's manifestation of himself, it would be so intriguing that this is how he appears. maybe it means that despite it all, there's some good in him. maybe it means that deep, deep down, past all the shame and the guilt and the grief, there's still a part of his mind where he can just be.
on the other hand, the white could also symbolise a second chance—like i said, a promise of new beginnings. i made a post about this scene here, but the basic point is that cassandra is offering him something that no one else may ever be able to offer him. a chance to fully be himself, to silence the voices. the white is such a stunning visual representation of what she is saying logan could be if he stays with her. which makes it even more poignant that he doesn't.
4. the time ripper
after this scene, he's in the suit again, necessarily. but then! BUT THEN!!!!! the time ripper!!! y'all need to understand the significance of this scene in all its nuances FR! here you can look at his abs again:
but the thing is we know by now what the suit represents. all his failures, all his guilt, his inability to let go of his past. it represents him. isn't it just so fitting that it's at this point where he saves the fucking world that the suit breaks away. it breaks away from him. he's free. this not the same as him just taking it off, because with it breaking into pieces he literally cannot wear it anymore. this is not just a hugh jackman body appreciation, this is logan finally moving on. this is him realising that he is not a failure, that he is not his failures, that he has something else to live for.
5. him
and oh my god, we finally make it to the extremely satisfying ending. after all of that, we finally come full circle. he's in his normal clothes again, the wife beater and the flannel, except this time without anything underneath. he's no longer defined by that one incident, defined by his mistakes and the people he let down. he is just him.
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the way gwen just accepted that the love of her life came with a weird possessive servant attached at his hip, like. "okay he's waiting for his quest to be revealed to him in a vision, big deal. are you going to stay here and watch" and merlin's like "gwen this is one of the most important days of his life??? of course I'm going to stay here and watch. loitering outside the hall, peeking at him through the door. where else would I be"
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ok repeat after me guys!!! I'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREEI'MCRINGEBUTI´MFREE
Anyway… Since everyone is making their own version of the goat universe Nari, I also wanted to make my own version 👉👈....
their name is Cerberus and they use she/they pronouns.
they revived goat as a way of rebelling against his brothers or something like that, i'm still working on their backstory
anyway here are some doodles i did whit young gideon and leonidas because i hate them and they mean nothing to me/pos/silly
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