#ok I'm at cringe capacity

[beebopurr]

Green that's it that's the post

[calware]

thoughts and feelings about equius ?

he is very interesting to me.... like i can SEE HIS POTENTIAL. if he had the chance at growing up he could really change and grow to be a better and mature person......... but alas he died as a cringe 13 year old 💔 so that opportunity never even came to pass. i do think his character does a really interesting job at showing how a cruel society affects the people living in it (even if it's wildly uncomfortable at times)... i often i see narratives that are like "ok well all legal minors in dystopian settings are all Normal and Good and then at ~some point~ they turn into Evil Adults" but i think the way characters like equius are presented is way more interesting and engaging

i'm going to be real. i think the premise of a 13 year old character exploring and expressing their sexuality in both healthy and unhealthy ways is great and important to write about... when you are normal about it. andrew hussie loves doing this thing where she is simultaneously serious about something while also having it be an elaborate joke, and for the most part it works. i do not think it works when he does it with equius; it just makes me uncomfortable 🫡

equius and vriska are like sisters

wish people knew how to draw him looking 13 years old (i say as i have only drawn him once, and it was so stylized it doesn't even count)

this is a problem many characters have (cough jake cough gamzee cough jane) but i also wish people were able to both see him as the 13 year old whose character flaws are largely a result of growing up on that nightmare planet who had the capacity for kindness and even growth if he got the chance... while also accepting he was a bigot and a creep who treated others horribly. nuance? never heard of her....

i love his relationship with nepeta. they are so funny and nice to each other in their own weird and special way

[coffeeandbatboys]

The Art Of Stupidity (Peter Quill x Fem!reader)

In which Peter nearly gets killed because he's a dumba** so you do a lot of screaming at him.

Warnings: swearing (whaa ikr?) Injury, insult to injury, Rocket being himself, Peter being an idiot (aka himself) mebbe some slight foreshadowing for vol. 3 but it ain't a spoiler if you don't think too much about it.

"Rocket, where's Peter?" You gasped.

In your glorious retreat back to the Bowie, you'd lost him in the chaos that he caused. How does the idea of stealing a heavily secured antique piece of junk sound now?

"He had to go and get the damn Zune he dropped in the hallway of that security station."

"He told me he was down to one blaster!?" You shrieked, realizing that this was not, in fact, going well.

"And he's the lazy asshole who didn't charge them up!"

"You didn't think to, I dunno, COVER HIM?" You flapped your arms in disbelief.

"Hell no, you're the girlfriend!." The insufferable Raccoon snarled. "If you wanna go get Star munch, he's all yours missy."

You muttered under your breath as you turned to go get your boyfriend. "That stupid Zune is gonna be the death of him someday I swear. Thanks a lot, Yondu."

You readied your blaster and dodged bullets in the space between the ship and aforementioned security station, before kicking the door open to find an incredibly absurd sight.

The Doobie Brother's 'What a Fool Believes' blasted from the ridiculous object he went back for, as he was trying in vain to fight off the security droids. Sighing, you stepped in and blasted to your heart's delight, until the two of you (or, mostly you) successfully eradicated the rest of them.

"Thanks, babe." Peter offered a sheepish smile and you just rolled your eyes in frustration.

"Let's go before these guys blow a freaking hole in our ship!" You growled.

His eyes widened and the smile dropped. "Ohh ok yeah you're like really mad."

Once again you we're crossing the distance back to the ship, only this time, you didn't dodge one of the bullets as it lodged itself in your calf. You were already frustrated beyond rational capacity, and physical pain just added insult to injury. But you were too hyped up on adrenaline to care. Tumbling into the ship, Peter in tow, you sat down and glared.

He wasn't sure whether to apologize or leave you be, when he noticed your leg trembling. That's when your world went fuzzy and you sorta just, checked out of reality while somehow staying conscious.

"Shit! I need a med pack and a pair of tweezers." He hollered for anyone in earshot as the ship lifted off and set out for Knowhere. Soon, the bullet was pulled out of your leg and the med pack placed over the hole.

And this...this, is where you snapped back to reality.

"You asshole!" You screamed, "You could've gotten yourself killed!"

Kraglin, who had brought the medical supplies, just cringed and stepped away, leaving you two alone.

"I'm sorry, y/n..."

"Sometimes I feel like that stupid thing is more important than any of us!"

You regretted the statement as soon as it left your mouth. The Walkman was one of the only things he had left of his younger years, and when his father had destroyed that, the Zune was all he had left of Yondu.

His eyes fell and your heart broke. He moved to stand up, but you stopped him.

"No—wait. I'm sorry. I shouldn'tve said that. I'm sorry." You repeated.

He relaxed and sat back down, giving you a lopsided apologetic smile.

"I'm sorry I freaked you out. I wasn't trying to get killed back there. I feel like it was my fault that you got shot, too."

"Its fine, baby." You smiled sadly. "If I hadn't been seeing red, I probably would've payed more attention."

The med pack needed a bit more time, and Rocket was calling for him, so he kissed your forehead, then your nose, before finally catching your lips in a sweet, tender kiss.

One that would take priority over anything else.

Star Lord fics are back in business baby!!

[djevelbl]

Also just finished watching a video that made me ACTUALLY ANNOYED at the guy who made it and like. ok if you don't want a story told through Minecraft that is made through the lens of content creation in ANY capacity then don't??? watch stories told through Minecraft????? Cuz like. they're mostly like that; even parkciv which is still good IS done through a content creation viewpoint — either as a parody on the medium it was being told through (scripted Minecraft content/Minecraft storytelling) or just as a result of telling the story and like. needing to pay the bills or whatever is a bit up in the air I guess BUT STILL. don't sing praises to a series that's GREAT in all cinematography aspects that JUST SO HAPPENS to be told through Minecraft all the while you're saying "oooh Minecraft storytelling shouldn't be scared of being called cringe just bc it's embracing roleplay to tell it's narrative, it shouldn't pretend to be non-scripted when it so clearly is" which true, JUST TO THEN critique parkciv for...

*checks notes*

... Embracing its medium AND its limitations to tell its story, JUST bc it didn't necessarily strive to be groundbreaking??? What??????

From what I understand, the series the guy was singing praises to like it was his own child at the local school's dance recital, Whitepine (which I'm currently watching so I'll just come back to this once I've finished — let's see if I'll eat my words [doubt it]) is GREAT in terms of visuals, audio and the likes — it obviously takes great care in forming its atmosphere and from the little I've seen the youtubers are genuinely being actors, not just their normal selves masquerading as characters (something that, admittedly, happens A LOT in scripted Minecraft content/Minecraft storytelling like SMPs or solo series [I'm looking at you, later half of the DSMP]). But it isn't Minecraft storytelling — in my opinion, at least.

Minecraft storytelling implies that it includes Minecraft and its mechanics in some way, shape or form that becomes impactful to the story that is being told — it isn't just a REALLY good story that just so happens to use Minecraft as its movie set. This, ultimately, is why I think the guy was wrong — not necessarily in the idea that the stories he critiqued had more room to grow (which parkciv at least does. I haven't watched ParrotX2's Unstable Universe videos and I don't really plan to; they're not my thing) but in what "Minecraft storytelling" should strive to be.

I have a vivid memory — trust me, this is related — of when I was younger (they say, like she's an octogenarian instead of not even being halfway through his lifetime. anyway) having played Minecraft Murder Mystery with my friends in the playground bc I really REALLY liked Gona89's video series on it. This is like, not really the same storytelling but they did have a sort of story — the chemistry between the youtubers felt like watching a series of characters interact with one another, and certain jokes from one video would seamlessly move into the next as well.

And y'know what? IT DIDN'T FUCKING WORK — playing the thing in the playground, that is. Because the thing wasn't made for that; stories have their medium of expression because they're tailored to it, or the medium is tailored to that story — if your Minecraft story can be told perfectly fine when divorced from its primary medium of expression (Minecraft), then it's LITERALLY not a Minecraft story: it just happens to use the game as the backdrop

... Kinda like The Lego Movie: a lot of the mechanics within the movie CANNOT be divorced from lego that easily BECAUSE it's a fucking LEGO MOVIE — partially related but not really the point of this rant: this is why A Minecraft Movie's trailer fucking FLOPPED. It showed absolutely NO POINT in being made bc it's NOT a Minecraft movie (pun accidentally stumbled upon but I shall confidently roll with it, actually), instead it JUST SO HAPPEN to use the videogame as its set.

TLDR: IF YOUR STORY DOESN'T INCLUDE MECHANICAL ELEMENTS THAT ARE INTRINSICAL TO THE GAME YOU USE TO TELL IT, THEN SAID GAME IS JUST THE FUCKING SET. IT'S NOT A MINECRAFT MOVIE JUST BC IT HAPPENS TO BE RECORDED IN MINECRAFT FOR FUCK'S SAKE

[coralsgrimes]

Ok I'm sorry but the music video is so lame and cringe. But holy fudge, the max quality is 480p??? Was this recorded on a potato??? Ben, I hope this cost you 20 bucks cuz YIKES. (PS. Now I'm scared my shrink will throw her cardigan at me and turn the room into a karaoke, then try to kiss me. Thanks Benny).

CORAL DOES NOT RECCOMEND WATCHING ESPECIALLY WITH THE SOUND ON!!1! BEWARE HEALTH HAZARD

So after reading the lyrics to that song and watching the music video without sound (imma not a masochist muffins) am I right in thinking that the message is supposed to be about music being a form of therapy and self love shite cuz Benny decided based on a feeling and having parents with some degrees that music can help you just fine enough ye just gotta love yourself well enough? like similar to ye know just random example like dancing can help you cure incurable disease. Idk how came with that statement exactly tho, a NOTbel prize winner probably.

Yeah I appreciate the message but it feels like it's done with the sensibility of a brick thrown at a car from a highway overpass, and emotional capacity of 14 yo girl who believes she knows the real world cuz she watched Euphoria while mommy picked her up from school so the poor baby won't have to walk home on her own......

Like for fucks sake the intro seems like an opening to a bad porn, it's like a fucking fanfic opening paragraph #pornwithouplot #deaddove

Yeah I would say even though he be running around screamin that his parents are therapist, I doubt he ever been to actual therapy lol

It's actually very ironic coming from Benny cuz at the core he's a whore. Like literally he's a presentational performer - what he's doing is ego driven, his need for acclaim and being noticed whatever whatever. He's a try hard. You can clearly see when he actually performs, he's doing it to get his dick hard and elevate himself, not to make audience engage and feel like a representational performer would. Look at all the overexaggerated faces, all weird dances (both made it to the mv too!) and making the audience believe that they have deep connection with him by telling them what they wanna hear exactly. He needs them to be in awe. No catharsis from Benny, just a show pony and not even a very good one. Check that out actually, there are papers about it lol

Oh and obvi everyone can tell that the budget was 100$ and a shoestring glued together with chewed up gum. Another freebie from the last friend he didn't get to fuck through yet, and he paid the director with experience time for portfolio... And yeah Imma gonna save ye the trouble, the max quality is indeed 480p. Tangerine was done with iphones and it was good, but this? This is just worse than film student second year project lol that homemade porn singing he made in his bed was better quality for fucks sake

And that grandpa cardigan x.x Imma out

[eclipsecrowned]

s.tormlight for the fandom meme 🩷 & stormlight! (for the fandom thing) // @dcviline + @weavinglight

The first character I first fell in love with: Jasnah. It was immediate, and I never recovered. Her poise, her wits, her Ace rep, her capacity for good as well as her ability to be that bitch. Will not lie, my bestie hyped her up and she has not disappointed me once.

The character I never expected to love as much as I do now: He was just one-armed comic relief. Now I muse the little bastard. I thought he might be somewhat cringe comedy and tbh as it was my first Sanderson outing I didn't know what to expect when I heard 'Mexican-coded comic relief' but tbh? He's my one hand arm man, my confidant, my best friend, my silly mink. Love The Lopen, no notes.

The character everyone else loves that I don’t: This is such a cop out but I can't think of any universally beloved characters I don't like? One of the gifts of the series to me is the nuanced and thoughtful characterization of each main player, making them feel more well-rounded than a lot of fantasy without any of them bleeding into each other/relying on authorial tropes. Even stuff I don't like about them, I understand or respect from the sense of 'this character is a tool of the story and is performing that function spectacularly.' The work is put in such that I don't really dislike any of the fandom favs like the Kh0lins, Bridge Crew, Sz*th, etc -- I just side-eye some of their choices.

The character I love that everyone else hates: Moash, and it's downright pathological how much this fandom has it out for him. I get he's a villain and makes some really selfish, awful, narrative-redefining decisions, but there's some takes out there that frankly make me wonder if people read the same book I did. To wit, there is discourse surrounding if this man kicked a literal infant. I, meanwhile, am damn near his public defender at this point. He has layers. He's so Cool Motive Still Murder coded.

The character I used to love but don’t any longer: Dalinar is really one of those characters where your feelings about him get more complicated on a reread. He's still wonderful in narrative and a favorite because no one else in the genre is doing it like him but... Holy shit dude. The way his flashbacks reframe everything. Where is the justice for my girl Evi --

The character I would totally smooch: OK SO FUNNY STORY ax the bestie that got me into the series called my dyke ass would be bewitched by Jasnah. She's so my type it hurts. But they forgot a core aspect of my being: I'd do anything for a MILF. I love Jasnah -- twenty years older and a little more plush, since it's established she's a younger version of her mother. The LOML. My queen. Navani. I get choked up remembering she wasn't getting the good good for 6 years --

The character I’d want to be like: The way I actually want a Dalinar quote tattooed on my body. The way I strive for that level of getting my shit together and turning it around. The way I want to be Evi and Navani's husband. Wait what no delete that footage --

The character I’d slap: Can I lovingly backhand my beloved Moash just to try and convince him he's in a cult and needs to get back on that whole 'destroy the system' wagon? Not even like a hard slap. Just something less taxing than killing one of his buddies to realize how far he's fallen.

A pairing that I love: Have you heard the news of our lord and savior Szopen -- Jokes aside, I am not immune to mad scientist war criminal crab milfs and their captive engineering genius morally complex human milf. Navaniel or bust. It's everything I have ever wanted in my life.

A pairing that I despise: SHALAD1N. Obscuring it so I don't post negativity in the proper ship tag but oh my God my genuine fear is that given the nature of Sandertropes Adolin is gonna be the deadpool for KoW, Shallan will be our grieving widow protag, and 15 years later she and Kaladin hook up. Don't get me wrong! I love their dynamic platonically! I'm not even opposed to Shakalodin! But they NEED that buffer, I can't stand the thought of them 1:1'ing this ship. There's too much between them, too much trauma overlap and high key inflicted on each other, for me to see the endgame appeal. I think it'd self destruct messily and leave them both worse. They need sunshine boy or the romance will tear itself apart.

[south-sea]

listen. cringe is dead and staying dead, but i'm still going to make some disclaimers. the multiverse is an already established/accepted thing, and is a running theme in my AUs. in fact that's kind of the whole point of them: that the multiverse exists, and its worlds/people are there to play with. second chance au exists literally just to enrich my enclosure and spoil the absolute hell out of shadow. ok? good, ok, listen

some truths in the context of second chance au:

shadow is the equivalent of an adopted child

he does not have the context of the events of his namesake game

he does not have access to his own medical/creation records on account of not being able to revisit his (or any adjacent) timeline/world. the most he knows is what gerald told him, which is effectively just "you were made (to be perfect)" (there's nuance to this fact but don't worry about it for the sake of the argument here)

this is the multiverse, remember, where several iterations of shadow already exist, and at least two of his timelines have already overlapped/split off from the other. so it stands to reason that there are other iterations of the black arms, right?

eclipse is a literal child soldier, made in a way mirroring shadow, who was mistreated in nearly the same way, and deserved better

so now let's imagine an alternate take on the black arms, where:

their diets still consist largely of meat, but they don't prey on sapient species. like, maybe they did in the past, but realized hey that kind of sucks, we should maybe not do that to things we can literally communicate with (still need to survive, though)

the paternal qualities eclipse displays is now species-wide; a majority of them are extremely protective and caring of their young. they're an incredibly social species who look out for one another. think of them as rats in that regard

while they still share an at-will hivemind, they are not a homogenous species and in fact have as much of a physical/class diversity as shown in canon. black doom and black death share one such particular class, for example, rather than black death being intentionally made to replace doom in the event of his demise. this particular class is one of "royalty", in that if the current leader dies, the next one in line takes their place

the role that black doom holds is more of a title, in that upon his demise, whoever takes his place also gradually inherits his personality/values/takes on his appearance/etc. this ensures that the person in power maintains a consistent mindset, that overthrowing the previous leader is effectively pointless, and that the concept of "black doom" always exists at some capacity, even if the "original" has long since passed

regardless of generation of black doom they're on, the guy is comparatively peaceful and practical. he's not a doormat, but he's also not going to steamroll someone/a whole species just to get what he wants. he'll attempt to find a compromise if possible (and if not, then too bad. i said he's practical, not perfect. maybe you can see where shadow gets it from) (there definitely exists a timeline where, in the context of this alternate take, he provided his DNA for shadow's creation because he was intrigued by humanity in general and wanted to see them prosper. the deal would have been "give me the chaos emeralds in 50 years because the power source we're using for the comet will be depleted by then". but predicted gerald would betray him, so they just mutually planned to destroy each other)

their names come from an old tradition of naming themselves/their young after morbid or upsetting things in attempt to ward off said things. even if they don't have this superstition anymore, they still tend to maintain the tradition

they have settled in very small pockets across multiple worlds and such, opening namely restaurants and other shops. they like to interact with other cultures and share their own, but will meet wayward other black arms/descendants/etc in particular with open arms and maybe a little too much enthusiasm

tldr i think shadow should get to meet a version of his biological father (or the closest approximation) who isn't batshit murderous, because he needs a dependable (and unequivocally caring) parental figure in his life who can help teach him things about himself not even gerald would have known, and that eclipse should get a second chance and get to be a normal kid/have a family again alright thanks for listening bye

[pleuvoire]

i used to be so embarrassed about writing nsfw fic... well i wasn't always that way but then i went through a period of not writing any nsfw fic because i was into kids' anime about middle schoolers but then when i got into mdzs i was suddenly writing a lot of that after not having done so for a while and i was so self-conscious that i made a separate ao3 pseud for that stuff. not helped by the fact that i was in a mutuals circle of people whose attitude to nsfw stuff was "omg sex haha so funny 😂 haha penis 😂 omg look at this porn art it's so cursed 😂" that made sincere expressions of horniness feel kind of cringe not to mention a healthy dose of "ewww fujos" mentality that made me worry i was doing it wrong so i got really embarrassed of sharing the stuff i wrote... ok i'm getting sidetracked here but i have to interject to say i really dislike this mentality some people have of "being horny is good! but only if you're doing it in a cool logged-off way and fucking people irl. if you're writing smut fic or drawing porny art that isn't intellectually tasteful erotica then that's cringe joke material" anyway tangent over. so for the first part of my toku era i was also like. gghh i need to space out my nsfw fics i need to make sure there's enough sfw fics in between so i don't look Too Horny because that would be Too Much. looking back at that now i'm like what are you catholic. having friends who sincerely enjoy and appreciate the stuff i write in that capacity and don't have a sense of humor that's 50% "horny stuff is cursedfunnycringe" has helped a lot i'm glad i managed to outgrow that. anyway. soliloquy over

[cheesy-che]

Hi!! I like your oc Mizuiro (hope i spelt it right!!) and knowing that she gets shipped with Leo tbh started giving me the courage to not just go back to my oc x canon ships again, but also the oc's I shipped with the turtle(s) (depends on the version lol).

I used to feel embarassed about it when oc x canon shipping was thought of as 'cringe' and people moral-shamed human x anthro characters but seeing other human oc x Turtles ships out there (yours included) gave me hope that one day I may pick up drawing my old otps again! ;-; Thank you!!

(For those who might stumble randomly upon this ask : This is about Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Original Characters.) Anon, Thank you so much for your message!!! It means the world to me. To know that my OC inspires other people is such an honor. She really is my muse. I'm thankful to be able to share the inspiration she offers me with others. <3 As for the whole "anthropomorphic x human debate", I think it's important to be aware of it for what it truly is : fiction. I've seen a video from a therapist on Tiktok (I know, it's quite vague- sorry I can't find it anymore ;_;) talk about how so many of her millenials and Gen Z patients often asks her if it's ok to be attracted to fictional characters even if they're not our age, if they're not human, etc etc. But her answer was great : It's mostly about treating our fantasies exactly as that, fantasies! Side note > There are so many tropes that are, in my opinion, awfully worse than a consensual relationship between two characters who have around the same age equivalence and thinking capacities but who aren't the same species. Do you get what I'm trying to say? The TMNT fandom, from what I understand, can be divided on that. Some people prefer to create non-humans OCs and some others (like me) prefers to create human OCs. I personally never thought there was a problem with writing a human character fall in love with a non-human character... especially since in the 2012 TMNT series or even the most recent Mutant Mayhem movie, there ARE canonical relationships between Ninja Turtles and human characters. Clearly, the fans weren't the first ones to think of that. I do believe that it is important to ask ourselves questions about our ships and how "healthy" it is, but in the end, you are writing and/or drawing for yourself. I understand that receiving criticism from someone who doesn't share the same point of view can make you doubt yourself. There is a huge fear about being rejected by a community or a part of it. The internet is a place to have discussions, sure... but what I'm trying to say is : If you have fun doing it, if it doesn't hurt anyone and if it makes you happy, do it! I don't know if you ever saw the meme below, but I think I'm going to end with that. When I understood this message, it gave me the strenght to post my art and my writings online. I can only hope it does the same for you. Don't hesitate to write to me again, btw!

Best of luck, Che

[ronaaz]

A big rant/vent incoming:

As of right now, I am the happiest that I've been ever since my life took a nose dive towards misery after my university ended when I was 21. Through a lot of self-analyzing and therapy, medication, and the entry of my best friend in my life 3+ years ago, I've been able to rebuild a lot of happiness and confidence into my own life. After the 'shit times' started, the current present feels like the better version of me, and a version of me everyday more capable of bringing good to the life of others and not just a source of negativity.

The problem is, the more happier and confident I feel, the more obvious it becomes just how deeply isolated I feel from humanity at large, and how it feels impossible to give out positivity, mostly from a perspective of romance and sexuality. Maybe a bit of a cringe thing to admit, and possibly mired in a perspective of ignorance/lack-of-experience bias, but the experiences I've had of romance and sexuality were extremely positive for me, because I felt extremely confident and proud of how well received it was by others. The people that have allowed me to express those sides of me to them have always had good things to say about it, and it left me very prideful and feeling like this was one of the things in life that I was just really good at, much in the same way that people can take great pride in their hobbies and the accomplishments they achieve from it.

But the problem is, as of right now, and for a long time too, I don't have a means of expressing that side of me. I don't have people in my life who 'consent' to me exercising this part of me that fills me with tremendous joy and fulfillment. I don't have it, and the truth is, I also don't know when I will have it, or if I ever will. And because this is such an essential part of the things that bring me pride and peace in the person that I am, I genuinely believe that I cannot be 'happy in life' if I don't have these things. At best, I can coast through life, but I would not define that as even being remotely comparable to 'being happy'.

And a part of the frustration component in this is that I try. Boy, do I (think) I try. Every new connection I build, I very rarely feel like I did not invest enough human contact to try and gauge if there's any 'human chemistry' going on between me and someone else. I try and try and try and very rarely do I feel like the other, just even from a platonic perspective, wants to put in as much effort as me into developing a connection. Maybe other people are just generally much more busy than me, both in a mental capacity sense but also in availability of time, or there is just something 'wrong' about me that I have yet to figure out that is obvious to others and makes them wary of building a connection with me, but none of this makes it feel like it's warranted for me to be ok with connections that in reality are one-sided conversations that bring no genuine happiness to me and I have to keep putting in effort to maintain, or otherwise face the risk of seeing them disappear and have to confront my loneliness as a result.

If it wasn't for my best friend, right now, I'd still be in an enormous pit of misery and have no kind of vision for a happier future. Even if it's just from a platonic perspective, the existence of my best friend proved to me that there are people out there that can enjoy who I am as a person and that I'm not completely a repulsive human being, and that I don't have to be ok with one-sided relationships that just sap happiness from me when i could be seeking out people who can make me happy by just being happy that I am in their lives.

But as of right now, that's the only connection with another person that I have that I am completely at peace with. And one, unfortunately, is not enough. I love my best friend a lot, but if this was the only good connection I had from now until my eventual death, I would not be capable of saying that I had a 'happy life'. I need more, whether it's because, as a human being, we need more than one good connection, or because, from a selfish standpoint, I need more connections than the average human being to be genuinely happy, and even if this is anormal and a bit selfish, it is my reality, and I will not deny my needs for a perceived normalcy than just will never bring me actual happiness.

I can keep coping with these feelings, and I hope that I will never give up on putting my whole into any new connections that I build. But damn, is this 'weight' starting to get really sore. i just wish that sooner rather than later, and necessarily sometime rather than never, I will be in a position where I finally get to put these feelings out from my shoulders and not feel this human unfulfillment that I carry with me every day.

[tartrazeen]

It's my cringe hyperfixation and I get to be hyperindulgent about it 😤

ok so mystic knights of tir na nog again lmao

I never actually want them to remake the show 'cause I don't trust them to capture the magic of what hit my brain and stayed there for 20+ years, BUT.

I just watched a ✨YouTube video✨

It's from a channel I just found called CJ the X, and the video was about Stranger Things. More importantly, while watching it, I was like, "If they ever redo this show or make some sort of modern AU of it or something, this is their new roadmap for Angus. I will not watch it unless Angus looks and acts like this. I am in love."

🤣 Not the best thumbnail but I still love the energy.

Anyway - I LOVE this. Somehow I linked it back to that random post I made about Rohan digging holes if Angus ever went away for some reason, and now I'm picturing a Modern AU with Angus going off to one university and Rohan going off to a completely different one, and the two finally reuniting over a break where Angus comes to visit and Rohan's so excited and all of Rohan's friends are like "who's this guy you never shut up about" and Rohan being like "he's great 😍 he's my best friend 😍 you're gonna love him 😍" and they finally all meet Angus and he's this. And there's Rohan immediately being like "😍 i told you he was great 😍"

Tons of energy, tons of expression, tons of performance, tons of animation, tons of thoughts - just a lot in the best way.

I'm not saying it's an accurate translation of his existing character. But it's definitely the best translation and the only possible translation that I would find interesting enough to warrant remaking the show in any capacity.

I also think it's more tied to one of my earlier head canons for him: him being a bard (very DnD-style, where he can learn magic eventually but he's surrounded by a whole bunch of non-bards who can't inherently help him tap into that). I don't think this lines up with the Fey!Angus concept too well, but yes, Bard!Angus fits this perfectly.

What's great is that I still see him stealing shit, but being a lot more creative in his excuses for how it totally wasn't stealing, does anyone 'own' anything anyway. Like - I don't want him to get out of getting locked in prison every five minutes, but I'd love to have him buy himself a lot of time just to completely fail to come up with a good reason why he shouldn't be arrested or fail to actually reach whatever escape door he'd be trying to inch towards. That's sort of what we're missing in the show: more scenes of Angus completely whiffing the getaway that wasn't just because he couldn't outrun them. He's not a runner - he can run, but he complains about it constantly. Quit pinning everything on whether he can do enough cardio. >:(

Also it was a great video outright, so I loved it for that, but also-also, I am now on the lookout for the perfect embodiment of modern versions for the other four. 🥰

I'm gonna go binge this channel now. There was a lot of good stuff on it. 🥳

ETA: oh my God, the thought of this version of Angus interacting with any version of Cathbad...! 😭 Right now, Angus goes into Cathbad's chamber and fiddles with everything in there. That's actually the safer approach, because if anything goes wrong... well, it's liked getting stabbed at a hospital: you're already where you're supposed to be in that situation. This version? He'd 100% steal ingredients and run away with them to try it somewhere else. That thing where Midar pretends to be Angus and walks in shrunk? That'd be like a daily thing for him.

Technically, doing it this way, I could see Angus ending up self-teaching himself how to make some basic potions. If a remake changed how Rohan's apprenticeship worked, this could be like Angus actively volunteering to do Rohan's homework for him - making the potions after Rohan brings him the ingredients in jail, or Angus mixing something up and getting Rohan to show it to Cathbad so Cathbad "doesn't know" it wasn't actually Rohan who made it (he would still know 😝).

It kinda brings me back to that episode where Garrett's introduced, when Cathbad sends Angus off to collect some herbs. I truly love the thought of Cathbad knowing Angus is the one doing all the powder- and potion-related chores, while Rohan does the more practical stuff and helps test the magic, like by fighting a summoned skeleton or something.

I'm still gonna think about this. :3 I don't want a remake, but I am intrigued by trying to pitch one to myself.

[gyuswhore]

I'm sorry if I'm spamming you ardghjkcg but it's tot ok if you don't like Gidle I was just scared you were one of those big stans that says that GGs are cringe and boy groups do it so much better and I'm glad you're not and that you're a fellow girlboss

its okay, i like it when people spam my inbox its fun lmao

but dw, i do like gidle (and ggs in general) but i just don't have the mental capacity to stan any more groups 😭

[contained-mess]

(not done yet but gonna post what I have for now)

ok at the risk of sounding like "I'm not like everyone else, iM DifFeReNt" ... I think I'm different lmao that's SO embarrassing to even type out like I can feel my face get warm in real time lol but allow me 2 explain let's say that capacity for religious/emotional/spiritual thoughtful and introspection was on one end of the spectrum, and the capacity for, uh, an uncouth? sense of humour and overall silliness was on the other end. kind of rude humour but not rude for the sake of being rude or edgy or mean - rude for the sake of being silly lol ok. so for simplicity's sake I will refer to one end of the spectrum as "Deep" and the other end as "Dumb". I know this is a false dichotomy and there's no reason for this spectrum to even exist lol but just stay with me so my problem (?) is that I don't know anyone else who occupies both ends of the spectrum to the extremes that I do. like I'm both VERY Deep (sorry, cringe) and VERY Dumb alhamdulillah alhamdulillah I've had teachers and students of knowledge comment on and praise my appreciation for Islam and describe it as "unique" (emphasis on APPRECIATION for Islam, like finding it beautiful and really just enjoying it - NOT talking about being the best Muslim at all by any means hope that's clear xoxo). but also a sis enjoys getting a little silly goofy lol I'm hesitant to call this a "problem" bc I actually enjoy this about myself 😭 but the problem is that I find myself like. YEARNING to find this same combination in someone else if I had to define what vibing with someone feels like to me, like if I was to attempt to put this intangible, calm but electric feeling into words, I'd say someone who matched my capacity to be both Deep and Dumb alhamdulillah I have friends that are very Deep and friends that are very Dumb (affectionate) but I cannot for the life of me find both in one person. (well I kiiiinda found it once before but it doesn't count bc it's no longer viable but anyway) bc this was so hard to find, I think for most of my life I surrounded myself with people who would more so lean Deep. and tbst was incredibly spiritually uplifting but in doses. like I could grab a coffee with them and have a great time, great conversation, but I couldn't spend a whole day together w them (recreationally) bc I'd be BORED out of my MIND lol this is not an exaggeration bc it's happened!!

to be continued 🥸

[filthyjanuary]

so what are your thoughts

ok well i'm going to try to articulate them as best i can even though they're very convoluted and mixed. if you follow me you know i'm very new to mcyt/dsmp and only got into it oct 2021 so like obviously i dont have the hindsight of someone who has been following all of this for 2 years but i want to start off by saying i empathize with dream a lot. i do. i think it is hugely admirable to grow out of a bigoted situation and better yourself and i don't think people holding what he's done as a teenager against him are being fair. everyone is stupid and makes mistakes as a teenager, society evolves and so do people, and i think there's plenty to talk about without acting like people are irredeemable and incapable of growth and change. if you are a teenager i want you to know that as wise and smart and progressive as you think you are now, you're going to look back on stuff you're doing in 5 years and cringe and be angry and think 'wow how did i ever do that?'

i also understand that he has had a massive amount of growth in a very short amount of time and is dealing with things in the public eye and with a huge spotlight on him that are frankly impossible for nearly anyone to comprehend. there is not really a playbook for blowing up this fast and trying to navigate that and all things considered yes he's an adult but he's still pretty young and this is not anything anyone could've possibly prepared for and especially wrt his sexuality i can't even imagine how much it sucks to have people constantly putting words in your mouth or trying to make you label yourself in a way you don't want to especially if you're still trying to figure yourself out.

ALL THAT BEING SAID, i think my big thought is dream doesn't actually seem to grasp the crux of the issue? or at least what my personal issue is which is when you wield the influence he does, you have to be responsible with it and that means you cannot just go around on the internet acting like any other person. it doesn't matter what the other person said. someone with 5 mil twitter followers responding to someone with 5 followers is not a fair fight. it doesn't matter WHAT dream responded with, the fact that he did it directly at all puts targets on people's backs and he doesn't seem to grasp that at all and i find that concerning. especially when the people getting targeted are teenagers who don't fully have the capacity to deal with that or are aware of the implications of their own words. no one is saying he needs to take it lying down or not defend himself but there are ways to do that that don't endanger people.

and to anyone saying "well if you post publicly be ready to stand by your words", you are kind of deliberately erasing the role social media has in our society at large now. twitter is basically the public square, like it or not. if you comment on something happening in the public eye in the public square, you are not necessarily expecting the person you're talking about to respond to you directly. if i write a letter to a newspaper commenting on some celebrity scandal, i am not expecting said celebrity to actually respond even if it was published. nor should they. that would be literally insane. people talk about things on twitter because that's largely where a lot of communication happens at large in 2022, and you shouldn't need a private account to be able to talk about things going on in the public eye. the people who are IN THE PUBLIC EYE should know when and how to respond to things. it's not dehumanizing to say that your influence comes with obligations that other people don't have to deal with.

hell, this is obviously on a much smaller scale but i remember one time on twitter i defended aidan gallagher of all people. not because i care about him one way or another, but because people on the internet were bullying him and being too harsh on him considering he was a teenager and still learning and growing. that's all i said. that we shouldnt hold teenagers to the same standard we hold adults to because that isn't fair. and i got a metric fuckton of people including other teenagers calling me transphobic. which i know is blatantly not true. i didn't respond to any of those comments because i knew it wasn't fair for me, a grown adult woman with a blue checkmark to be arguing with a bunch of kids on twitter even if they were wrong. it's not a fair fight. i know i'm not transphobic and so does anyone who is important to me. why would i waste my breathe arguing with people who've made up their minds and are determined to find the most bad faith interpretation of my words?

the other thing is, i understand that dream wasn't condoning doxxing but his attempt at "reassuring" people also completes avoids the crux of the issue which is doxxing is inherently a fear tactic. it doesn't matter how many followers you have or if it's actually going to result in a threat. doxxers do what they do to scare people into silence. it is not reassuring to say "well if you have 5 followers no one who doxxes you is actually going to put you at risk because no one cares enough to put you in danger" because that's not the point? the point is it is a threat that hangs over your head and scares you.

dream is never going to convince people who hate him to change their minds and i think he needs to grasp that sometimes the best thing he can do is just to be quiet. people are always going to misconstrue you when you're in the public eye. you don't need to engage with every single bad faith interpretation of your words because it dilutes when things actually do need to be addressed. people who do support you will continue to do so unless you give them a legitimately awful reason not to. a pr person would help with that and i genuinely find it off the walls bonkers insane that he thinks having someone help him with that kind of thing would render him "corporate" or "inauthentic."

apologies if this is long and not clear, i did my best but i'm still a bit sick and sleep deprived. happy to elaborate on any points. i find myself very in the middle on how i feel about this and frankly am still sorting out my own thoughts so talking about it helps actually. but i think those are my two biggest takeways at the moment. i want dream to succeed. i want him to be better. i think people on here have a tendency to either baby him to the extreme or think the worst of him and i don't think either of those does anyone any good.

[whatiwillsay]

I dunno, Taylor is just very cringe overall at this point. The cage with the books and grammy and stuff? Acting all "gee golly" about her honorary degree. She's a woman in her 30s cosplaying college, not a 22 year old who actually went through it. (I'm not diminishing her work, but like.... That's a whole nother post lol)

She played us for money (Lover, MA, the "quarantine vibe" of folkmore...). I feel like an idiot supporting her in the capacity I did at one point because she's literally just a pop star. She's not even the best, I'm sorry but it's true. She blew up cause she rich white girled her way to the top through Nashville and was young on YouTube and Twitter when that meant something.

I like your blog so I keep coming back when I'm bored, but she's kind of an asshole. Like, she's not evil, she's just a dick like a lot of other rich tone deaf Southerners. She's rich enough where politics don't matter to her, but she baits innocent people for their money and she keeps her conservative base obsessed with her cause she knows they're more loyal. It's so gross. :( I'm so bummed, I really wanted her to be different.

C'est la vie

yeah it just sounds like you're ready for a taylor break. i agree that she's not evil just out of touch. and i feel like these ebs and flows come and go when she releases music and then doesn't for a while.

she did not come up on twitter or youtube though. but i mean yes she is literally just a pop star. though she fumbled her way into badly pretending to be an activist for a hot minute other than that mishap she hasn't really claimed to be anything other than a pop star.

i think it's ok we're disappointed she's not the woke activist we hoped/thought she was briefly and we can sit in that disappointment without completely checking out from being interested in her life and art.

we've been hard on her lately and in some ways maybe it's deserved but i think we should all just try and have neutral/chill/semi positive energy in general in this space if we can manage it.

so i think it's ok to be sick of taylor and her little moves these days and crestfallen about her failure to stand up as a voice for the voiceless but i don't think there's any sense in getting that heated about it. she is what she is- a pop star. she isn't our hero and she isn't our friend. it's ok that we recognize that and still enjoy her art and presence in pop culture.

[daxieoclock]

Also because I'm Here and I've still got an essay to procrastinate...and bc people might ask about the other artists, let me get out ahead and post about em!

I'm not giving people starting packs for Paramore, Lemon Demon and Lil Nas X though. I've gotta draw the "google it" line somewhere.

Left at London How do I even describe her music. Transcendent. Experimental. Funny and dark and raw and beautiful.

Rio Romeo Handsomest voice I've ever heard. Piano-playing butch with an absolutely devastatingly gorgeous range. I might be a little obsessed shut up.

Anamanaguchi Chiptune band who you might know from the Scott Pilgrim video game or their contribution to the new Scott Pilgrim animated show or from the song they did about Miku. I also know them from the fact that Endless Fantasy is one of the best albums of all time.

CW FLASHING LIGHTS

Patricia Taxxon The most experimental and talented musician I've ever had the pleasure of listening to, like, ever. Her music is autistic and trans and furry and BEYOND good, but you've gotta find the tracks that are right for you. A lot of her songs veer into harsh noise territory, and almost all of them are loud in some capacity, either to create an engulfing resonant experience or play with our expectations of what can and cannot be enjoyable music. Overjissel is one of my favorite songs of hers and it's permeated with the sound of loud machine gun firing noises. I would recommend all of Agnes and Hilda to anyone ever though, if you can deal with occasional loudness then like. Listen To Her Songs. Do It.

CW Flashing lights and very loud metronome.

Good Kid This is for my inner child tbh. Good Kid is absolutely the higher quality end of the kind of poppy movie-adaptation-of-a-YA-novel-soundtrack dopamine-fountain feel good songs that I listened to as a kiddo. They're so fucking catchy.

Tom Cardy Yes he's a sillytime tiktok musician but Tom also CONSISTENTLY makes songs that I legitimately want to play on repeat for hours and sing along to and stim the fuck out alongside. He's a very funny man and a fantastic musician.

They Might be Giants No explanation will do them justice. Just listen.

Jhariah The man refuses to answer what genre his muisc is and like g-d I'm going to try and define it. What I do know is that it is the BEST theater kid music I've ever fucking heard in my life, it's dramatic and punchy and poetic and profoundly beautiful. It's also got some distinct big band or klezmer influences which I adore.

The Hoosiers Think "early 2000s UK pop rock" and then swallow your immediate cringe because these guys are actually FANTASTIC. Not all of their songs are a hit, but they've six or seven of the catchiest fucking tracks I've heard in my life.

OK Go They're best known for their absurdly elaborate one-take music videos, but their music is just catchy and fun too even outside of the "holy shit how many fucking props did they buy for this? How much TIME did it spend to set this up???" But don't get me wrong, the music videos are a huge part of their appeal.

I know most of the funny musics you've listed already, but I don't know willow and Yoko Shimomura and Danny Baranowsky and Shiro SAGISU and Masayoshi Takanaka and Lena Raine and Dios and Akintoye and Imogen Heap and Des Rocs and Sarah & the Safe Word and The Sonder Bombs and Rina Sawayama and The Beths and Silversun Pickups(?) and IDKHBTFM and Tancred and the three Starkid musicals(?) Where do you recommend that I start? Is there 1 song from each that you strongly recommend that I open my ears to? :-0

YOU BET I DO OMG OMG

Thank you for the excuse to Musicpost mwehehehehehe

Since it's so many artists, I will send one song each and give a lil bit of info.

WILLOW (aka Willow Smith) Sapphic and an absolute rock star. Her music is generally really high quality punky rock with a poppy appeal.

Yoko Shimomura Probably the greatest video game composer of all time hands down no fucking contest. She's the genius behind the Kingdom Hearts sountrack, and has also contributed her expertise to Final Fantasy XV, the Mario and Luigi games, Mario RPG and Secrets of Mana. Her music can be grand and orchestral or quiet and sweet or energetic and wiggly, and her use of character motifs is something to behold.

Danny Baranowsky Another video game composer, Danny B is known best for his work on Meat Boy, Binding of Isaac and Crypt of the Necrodancer. His tracks have an unmatched energy, from BoI's quiet melodic horror to Necrodancer's get up and boogie beats. And of course, Meat Boy's wiggletastic MOVE YOUR MEAT, BOY tunes.

Shiro SAGISU An anime composer whose work on Evangelion and Bleach is beyond description. And like, I wouldn't recommend either of the SHOWS, but his music is absolutely fucking unreal. Especially his heavy use of Spanish guitar in the Arrancar Arc of Bleach alongside his usual heavy orchestral violins and pianos.

Masayoshi Takanaka A rock and city pop musician in the 80s and 90s, whose music I've heard described as "surf-dude J-rock" which, yeah, accurate. But some of his later stuff is also really experimental, getting a bit into grunge or orchestral rock.

Lena Raine A composer who's made some songs for recent Minecraft updates, but most people know her best for the soundtrack to Celeste. Which is utterly fantastic, it's BEAUTIFUL, managing to capture both the grand scale of the mountain climb and the heavily personal emotional stakes of our protagonist Madeline. Heavy use of gorgeous synth alongside piano and drums and guitar makes the whole soundtrack SOUND magical and otherworldly, which fits the game well.

Dios I discovered Dios through their guitarist, Ichika Nito, whose riffs on Youtube are unmatched. Magic hands, I swear. But Dios's vocalist, Tanaka, also has one of the most unique singing voices I've ever heard, he's got almost an Italian or Spanish rolling cadence to some of his phrases. The guy's also just got a fantastic voice, and Dios's songs are extremely solid poppy rock.

Akintoye A fantastic lyricist with an incredibly fast and articulate voice, a great sense of rhythm and flow, he's also just one of the most charismatic singers / rappers I've ever heard. His energy is absolutely addicting, and he's got such catchy layered melodies it's SO hard to not wiggle my fingers off my hands when listening.

Imogen Heap Most people recognize her from OOO WHATCHA SAY, OOO THAT YOU ONLY MEANT WELL, WELL OF COURSE YOU DID and like. Hide and Seek is an underrated song tbh but Speak for Yourself and Eclipse are just in general fantastic albums. It's impossible for me to describe her genre so I'm just gonna say...music that my very white hippie mom listens to all the time.

Des Rocs A modern day classic rock star. Not much else to say beyond that he's unreal talented.

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