#ohhhhhh I am sooo insane

[chaotic-minds-think-alike]

It’s all about perspective

Bonus without the imagery below

[goldiipond]

was provided with a rough translation of one of the 4th light novels' chapters by bestie rachel fullscoreshenanigans so im dumping a small compilation of don moments that made me chew a hole through my wall

[aq2003]

I listened to the tenth doctor song recs and they were all so fucking on point. Also Inertia as a fourteen song ohhhhhh my god. Amazing. Pompeii is for sure a ten song but also the tendonna of it all. Every Will Wood song was SO spot on. I was going to send my favorite lyrics from one of them, but then it became like half of the song, and then I ended up wanting to do it for each one, so just trust me when I say I see the vision. Flight of the Crows made me insane. Similar to the Will Wood stuff I was gonna send some specific banger lyrics but it was just the whole song. 10/10.

(post for context) YEAHHHHH!!!! i am still trying to clean my ten playlist up ie only let in songs that super fit my very specific meaningless criteria and organize it by each of his three seasons so that you can vaguely string together his arc just by listening to the it. it's a difficult balance so it's def a work in progress hdkgldjhfkw

inertia is fun bc i found it and went "woah, fourteen!" then i later found a fancam of him to it. like so true op we are melding our minds together. and pompeii...ohhhh god the tendonna huh. not even in the sense its about donna but like. this song is in the s4 specials/pre-waters of mars section of my ten playlist bc it's her haunting the narrative so bad. this random song can represent the fires of pompeii/waters of mars narrative connection SOOO well

will wood has so many ten coded songs it's insane i think my favorite one that i listen to and think the blorbo thoughts about changes every week. currently feelings the shrimp emotions about against the kitchen floor though bc. The tenmartha huh. good lord. what the fuck

also a couple of the songs i recced (cicada days and flight of the crows) i originally found from this post from @alexmey-does-an-arts, they've got more ten-coded songs there that you might also like!!!

[anachronistic-falsehood]

I AM SOOO EYES EMOJI @ PATTON RN. HMMMMM. he is referencing philosophers and bringing up smart things. hmmmmm. he wants 2 be director so bad hmmm. he keeps saying "you know how i like x" like. stating obvious facts. possibly suspicious. hmmmmm 🤨🤨🤨🤨

virgil as lights guy. hes just like me fr haha i used to do that <3

"youre lazy AND youre gay??? FIRED" <<CAUGHT ME SO OFF GUARD. THAT WAS SO FUNNY

VIRGIL IS BEAING SO MEAN 2 HIM :(

OHHHHHH THE VOICE SWITCH. OHOHO PORTAL1 GLADOS MOMENT

he can CONTROL THEM???? (<<HAND OVER LOGANS MOUTH??)

OH FUCK ITS THE SNAKE GUY!!!!!!!!! COOL ohhhhh so hes deciet. so hes. lies. ok. ok i get it now. is he like. pattons opposite or something. like morality vs lying .... oooooh thats good . hes evil and silly i like him

THE DARK SIDES ?!?!?HEGDHDGSJSS OH I CAN'T WAIT. THATS SO RIDICULOUS AND SO SO VERY FUN. IS THE PIRATE GUY ONE OF THESE. I CANT WAIT TO MEET HIM.

THAT WAS SO GOOD we love a good moral dilemma. omg. eyes emoji. i love deciets makeup the snake face is soooo cool..... oh theres probably such good fanart of this guy

HEHEHEHEHE :33 DECEIT MY BELOVED!!! yeah “patton” is sososo suspicious in this episode and YOU CAUGHT A LOT OF THE DETAILS!!! there r some that u don’t rly notice until someone else brings it up and then ur like “hey wait YEAH” like “babies come rom messenger falcons” when we KNOW patton thinks they come from storks, and “patton” wearing the old cardigan around his shoulders instead of the cat hoodie, appearing at the beginning of the episode instead of rising up into frame, etc etc THERE R SO MANY LITTLE HINTS AUGH THE DETAIL

joan is so so funny i love them. THE “WHO BROKE THIS VASE” MONOLOGUE IS MY FAVOURITE it was an old fandom meme for a while and it’s so funny. i love joan <3

GRABS U BY THE SHOULDERS. DECEIT AND PATTON NARRATIVE FOILS. THE REPRESENTATION OF C!THOMAS’ FAITH AND MORALITY VS THE SNAKE TEMPTING HIM INTO DECEPTION AND SIN. CAN YOU HEAR ME. and yes. there is INSANE fanart of this guy. fucking pieces of art that look like they should be a museum it’s like c!techno he’s literally Just Some Guy but the art of him is exquisite

[aftrskool]

IF YOU EVER FUMBLE JUST REMEMBER IT COULD BE WORSE BECAUSE I AM LIVING THAT REALITY

ohh OHHHHHH i must put this here so i can hopefully put this OUT OF MY MIND FOR GOOD this is the most insane story i have ever put on my tumblr blog...... i went to a party my friend hosted and said friend has the COOLEST HOUSE & COOLEST PARTIES EVER I LOVE THEIR PLACE AND THEIR FRIENDS AND THEM SOOOO MUCH so i was super excited to get invited again && it was so lovely everyone was so happy to see me which i was surprised about & i brought some drinks and a big chocolate box (i cannot drink alcohol) and it was sooo chill and epic. me and a few other people got on a couch and were playing mario kart and smash poorly. and i was curled up nezxt 2 the hottest pre-t trans chick EVER oh my god oh my GODDDD and her hand was resting on my knee and the way she was holding her beer bottle between her legs was making me go FUCKING INSAAANNEEEEEEEEEEEEE it felt crazy to be like crushing on someone for the first time in so long it was like a brand new feeling it was excited and uncertain and nice. i had been sucking on her hhc vape as the night had gone on every once and a while like im not a smoker nor vaper so i was just like yea && then also when we were gaming i took an hhc gummy from someone else cuz FUCK IT WE BALL i just wanna rlx and have fun with every1 im tired of being SOBER!!!!from all substances

well the night goes on and its past 3am so i get my jammies on (awesome hello kitty fluffy xmas pj bottoms & cool black graphic tee & fluffy hello kitty boot slippers) and we are all still hanging out albeit scattered a good few ppl have gone home and the rest r scattered around .... i sit on the couch again with the super hot chick and its just me and her and she asks me about wat i was saying abt my rel8nship status earlier and i explained im not rlly in anything rn &when she asks me my heart is pounding for some rzn....she gets closer and puts her hand on my leg again and is talking real quiet and i cant even remember what she siad but our faces got closer and closer and my voice got meeker and meeker until our lips met and it was like fireworks went off like O.M.G. it was the most awesome thing EVER and it gets intense so we go out the back to the greenhouse (its more like an awesome tiny dark glass room lounge with long comfy chairs and low lights) and suddenly im on top of her and i feel my tongue against her teeth and im literally trembling i cannot get enough and i fall deeper and deeper into her and for a moment i feel as if my questions have been answered that YES ecstasy is REAL....shes marking up my neck and whispering deranged shit into my ear and i can feel her getting hard underneath me and i can't think & once or twice i had to stop because i was so dizzy from it i couldnt see where i was or if i was gonna fall off and i was just going crazy internally.it was the most amazing thing ive ever felt ever

THEN SHES LIKE do you wanna go back inside WITH AN INSANE IMPLICATION THERE and im like UM OK YES YES ABSOLUTELY and she skips into the kitchen for a split sec and im sitting back on the couch 4 a sec and my head is like...SPINNNING. like it feels like im being spun violently in an office chair but im sitting still.....then my heartbeat gets louder and louder in my body & my face goes numb & my eyes roll back into my head.and my heart is going like 200+bpm and i call out while the world is fizzing away from me 'i think im having a heart attack'

well.

i dont remember much but i remember convulsing and my legs being so exhausted but shaking thru it & every time i stopped talking i nearly saw myself float away from a grey fuzzy outline of my body and i was terrified if i let go then that would be the end& so i just kept talking but i kept making sounds and repeating syllables and going in and out and i couldn't see no matter what & seconds turned into minutes & i heard an AED assessing me & then my whole body was quivering again & i remember blinking in the back of a pleasantly dark ambulance i could see tall cold trees out the tiny back door window & i remember an unfamiliar voice yelling at me to snap out of it and get on with it & calling out my name and address once or twice& then i woke up and i was in the hospital

apparently you are not supposed to take 2 forms of hhc at once .... i was given like 3L of fluid and i was able to open my eyes now but only see for a split moment before it would go again & i caught my mom beside me twice and it was the most incredible feeling when i was able to fix my gaze on her and she wouldnt go away........they gave me a shit ton of benzos and after a long time i was awake and aware enough to start feeling the mortification set in....i was drunkenly explaining to my mom what happened who scolded me , perhaps i explained a little too much but alas , and i was so UPSET I THOUGHT I HAD COMMIT SOCIAL SUICIDE...NO...SOCIAL HIROSHIMA & THAT I WOULD NEVER GET INVITED TO ANY PARTIES EVER AGAIN & most importantly THE GIRL. FUCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

when i was finally completely aware again the discharging dr said to me she sees it at least once a week where someone my age comes into the hospital with synthetic cannabinoid toxicity, has a bit of a seizure, goes into a coma for a few hours, wakes up and is then fine....so that is wat happened to me most likely. and that i shoud be fine but to not mix different routes of hhc again and that id be high for like a day or 2 afterwards. i went and picked up my stuff from my friends place and they were just really happy i was ok and safe but i FORGOT MY FREAKING COAT AND GLOVES(NEW EPIC SKELETON ONES)AND ITS BEEN THE COLDEST WEEK OF THE YEAR and im too embarrassed to ask to come get them again because i dont want2 come off as too messy and never get invited to anything ever again.but i got everything else and in the days that followed people from the party cmae up 2 me on campus and were asking if im ok now and every time someone asks me about it i learn something new about the whole thing ... the saddest was when i was asked who rosie was because apparently i cried out in the middle of it all 'rosie i understand everything now im so sorry' ......... really sad stuff.and also apparently i whistled for a solid few minutes.wtf

soooo ya....since then (that waz last saturday) i havent been able to STOP. THINKING. ABOUT. THAT. GIRL. O. MY. GOD. the whole experience was thebest thing ever and every time i think about it i get weak.....getting marked up by her was so insane and i wanted MORE i wanted everyone to see i wanted everyone to KNOW i want it SO BADLY but now im afraid will she do anything again with me.??????i texted her 2 let her kno im sooo sorry &explained that im safe and fine now (cuz she goes 2 the other college in the area so i cant rlly c her in person) and i couldnt think or focus so i said to her how incredible it was &&she said she was sorry if she lead me on by mistake cuz shes not looking for anythitng atm BUT SHE DIDNT LEAD ME ON!!!!!!!!!!IM NOT LOOKING FOR ANYTHING EITHER SO WHAT IF NOW SHE THINKS SHE MESSED WITH ME AND SHE CANT PLAY W ME AGAIN IM SO SCARED THAT I MESSED EVERYTHING UP SO BAD SOOOOOO BADDDDDDDD OHHHH MY GODDDDDD I WAS ABOUT TO SCORE SO HARD AND I HAD TO HAVE A FREAKING SEIZURE I AM SO MAD AND UPSET AND EMBARRASSED AT MYSELF OH MY GOD AND ITS ALL MY FAUUULLLLTTTTT but not rally & if it was any1 else id feel nothing but concern 4 them and relief that they r ok so i hope its the same with every1 there.and her especially.cuz OGMGMGGGGMMMGGGGGGGMMGMGMFMFGGGGGG

so.that was my week. its been 7days i cant stop thinking about the whole thing and her and i cant focus at allll in lecturessss i have 1wk of lectures left 4 tha semmy but i need to LOCK INNNN but im so desperate to go out and party again .... that was the 2nd party i got invited 2 by that friend the 1st one was for halloween & this 1 was a welcome-home-party 4 another friend who had been abroad for a little bit.so i really really hope they do something for xmas or new years like if they dont im going to tear my hair out ofmy FUCKING SKULL because i have so much fun at their place and i want to help clean up and set up and i want to tell them just how much i appreciate them and their little parties cuz they really r such highlights for me..........and im so grateful that their friends have adopted me and like theyre all such good and genuine people and ugh i cant dothis anymore im so scared i ruined it all i CANNTNTTTTTTT

[pepprs]

putting this under a cut so ppl don’t have to immediately be subjected to it on da dash but. ohhhhhh man this week i have been...... sooo bottomlessly.. idk. just out of it. under a doubt spell detached from myself. i think i am shriveling and shrinking bc there isn’t enough enrichment in my enclosure. only bad enrichment actually and like not even a joke i just. hm. can’t believe covid like... happened. that it is like... happening bc it still is. cant believe it’s been almost 15 months and i am STARVING for... l*ve and t*uch and hope or whatever and i know i have had those things all the time during this in some ways but it’s not... it’s not my main environment here and in my life before it was i think. and like can u believe so fucking much has happened . idk i just get so freaked out and sad sometimes remmebering like omg yeah remember things were one way and then suddenly. and so many ppl have died and so many ppl are suffering and it’s getting better but also it’s not. and ik everybody has it so bad rn and everybody’s mental health went to hell bc of this but idk. i am living in a place where i am not loved who i am and have never been and i can’t heal until im out of here and it’s over and i don’t know when that will be and it is killing me. it really is killing me i lose more of myself every day covid goes on and I am terrified of that. idk my head hurts so crazy bad rn but like. i have been so the pressed this week and ik im not taking good care of myself and im time tangled from journaling so that’s not helping anything but idk how to help myself and part of me is like what’s the point in trying to bc bc nothing will actually stick until august when i move. so then i need to focus on hanging on until then but it’s just so hard. and i DOTN even have it all that bad i don’t think but also i do ♥️ so idk. WOW my head hurts.. but like it’s insane i just have been living like this like ugh not to say it but like one of those lost soul monsters from the soul pixar movie lol. and i am going to be dented from the weight of this for the rest of my life and i already have been and i know it so excruciatingly and feel the effects of it every day and i can’t even begin to heal yet and its been like this for 2+ yrs since i found words for what’s been happening here but the pandemic made my situation so much worse and it made ME so much worse and nothing will be the same again and idk hwl im gonna. omgggggg

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

Things that I have learned about A Stitch In Time after finishing Part II of the audiobook:

Ohhhhhh you are all heartless bastards I cannot BELIEVE none of you thought to tell me about goalkeeper Garak. When I tell you I lost my fucking mind!!!!!!!

HANS JORTS I OWE YOU MY LIFE FOR THAT ONE FR

The Tain reveal. The Tolan interactions. The Mila interactions. The final Tolan reveal. The way this book will not let me rest for a single god damn second.

SHE MARRIED HER OWN BROTHER TO HIDE THE FACT HER EMPLOYER GOT HER PREGNANT??????? NASTY YUCKY TRASHY PLANET <3<3<3<3<3<3

I recently read in an article how Mr. Robinson said the Bamarren bits were his favorite to write and imo you can really tell cause the plot seemed much less tight in Part II but it was still sooooooo good and soooooo much fun precisely because I had no fucking idea what was going to happen from sentence to sentence. I love this book I love this book I love this book I love this book--

PALANTIR X CINNABON 1 CRINGEFAIL MARRIAGE REAL >:3 HUGE WIN FOR ME PERSONALLY even if at least one of them IS still dead and it IS Garak's "fault" (he was sooo right to do that though <3) so I did not get everything I wished for. but still.

Oh hey speaking of weird threesomes Garak gets inadvertently sucked into, remember the judge and his "lady friend" who let Garak live in their house for free and sat there openly leering at their new handsome young tenant doing manual labor out in the hot sunshine? Elim babygirl it was NOT the orchids that got you that living arrangement.........

Ok this isn't funny or relatable to anyone else but as a queer religious person the Oralius storyline makes me so excited and happy I love it I love it I love it it's so much more and better than anything I was expecting I love the Hebitian lore I love Palandine and Tolan being the ones to encourage this in him I love his visions and his nightmares I love him talking to Julian about it I love him singing in church I love Oralius and I love you Mr. Robinson

The way Pythas has been Garak's foil each step of the way, succeeding every time he fails and taking everything that was meant for him. And every time Garak is just like [nodding approvingly] That's my bestie and he deserves nothing less! <3

The Pythas situation and the Palandine situation combined are both adorable and insane to me. Garak really said if you showed me even one single shred of kindness in highschool I am ride or die for you for life. Cinnabon 1 really was the dumbest bitch ever huh

[Dukat Sr. voice] the same people who want us to KISS THE FEDERATION'S ASS!!!!!!

greatest book I have ever read. one trillion out of ten. no notes.

Things that I know about A Stitch In Time prior to listening to it:

Garak goes to spy school, which is for spies (for some reason the idea of this is amusing to me. like I get it duh of course the Order must have some sort of training system but also. fanfic ass trope. Spy School! For Spies! it's even a boarding school and everything. DARKEST ACADEMIA)

Garak performs a classic bisexual rite of passage by falling in love with both members of an older(?) married couple (or well textually probably only the wife. I feel like I'd have heard about it if he were Betacanonically Queer (TM) in this book. but here's hoping I'll be astonished while listening!)

I can't remember if I read anything specific about it or not but just based on vibes alone I do not have high hopes for this couple's like. life expectancy.

Based on vibes alone I do not have high hopes for ANY character's life expectancy in this book tbh. If it involves Cardassians in general and Garak in specific I usually just assume everyone involved is doomed. This is going to be a FUN 12 hours and 28 minutes!

There was a post somewhere that mentioned that some supernatural magical stuff happens in this book and I'm SO FUCKING STOKED. HERE'S HOW GARAK ORB EXPERIENCE CAN STILL WIN!!!!

The entire concept of this book is so funny to me. Garak goes 7 years being ohhh so mysterious to Julian about himself or his past and then just spills his whole life story to him in a letter as soon as they're separated. Babygirl is going through Bashir Withdrawal Syndrome.

Most importantly KELAS MY BEST FRIEND KELAS FROM ONE (1) LINE OF CANON!!!!! I have no actual evidence that he ever shows up in this book but like he has to right. right. he's absolutely everywhere on ao3 y'all had to have gotten him from somewhere. I assume.