#ohhhhh tai i miss you.

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15, 16, 17?

Ohhh these are emotional questions haha <3

15. when and how did you discover the cripple punk movement?

sooooo i was sort of around-ish when it was starting? The person who started it, tyler, was my meta (partner's partner) and tumblr mutual. they started it a while ago, i think around 2015? (Ope looked it up and yeah started dec 2014) But they were my introduction into reclaiming cripple and grabbing onto life with both hands and refusing to apologize for existing, demanding i be treated like a person, and in finding power even as my body was failing me.

i had already had severe chronic pain for several years, I was in college doing a construction management program, and was trying to find a diagnosis. Doctors were awful and had no answers and I was angry at everything. I also was starting to use a cane, and getting a lot of shit for it. Cripple punk as a movement was so powerful for me. It still is, but especially as someone younger and undiagnosed and coming to terms with stuff. And I'll always miss tai. Cripple punk feels like a way i carry them with me, still.

16. have you always been physically disabled?

Maybe? Not really? I guess? Sorta? Idk? I have always had EDS, like, that's true. It also caused me chronic pain from the time I was pretty young (i was complaining about my knees hurting as young as 7). I also was still able to be pretty active. I played sports, but I got tons of injuries that would set me back for many months at a time. I was sort of chronically injured more than I was consistently disabled? Idk maybe they're the same thing. It's all semantics to me. I was a disabled child and a chronically ill child, and I had chronic pain. So. I would consider it very mildly physically disabling at baseline, though with lots of injuries and periods of more intense disability? Idk.

17. when did you start to consider yourself physically disabled?

Probably a bit before the cripple punk movement started, because i remember knowing it was a place for me, but also it was key to me understanding my physical disability too, so I think when I was around 19 or 20, I'd say? At that point I was quite disabled, had severe chronic pain in my wrists that prevented me from doing a lot of stuff, and was having pain in my knees and hips too. So things were rapidly getting worse and it wasn't hard for me to see i was physically disabled.

[hulijingemperor2]

Zixuan: *still on bedrest*

Yao: you did well, Zishie.

Zixuan: thanks Foxy.

Yanli: *holding the twins* A-Yao, hold them nah.

Yao: sure.

Rusong: aww they're so cute!

Yao: really precious.

Ruxuan, Ruming! I'm your uncle Foxy.

Yanli: and Xuan is mama bird.

Zixuan: *pouts* A-li.

Zixuan: I hope our children gets close to their uncle Foxy. Because they'll be around him a lot.

Yanli: they certainly will. And A-Yao would pamper them with gifts!

He already had A-ling pretty spoilt.

Jinling: I'm not spoilt by Xiao shushu. He just buys me things.

Yao: yea.

I must buy things for A-ling. And A-Song too!!

Yanli: I see.

Ruhua grabs Jinling's hair stick and threw it on the floor.

Jinling: Huahua! My crystal hair stick!

Rusong: how did it snap in two?

Jinling: it was a fragile type of crystal. Xiao shushuuuuuuu.

Yao: A-ling, A-ling. Don't worry. I'll buy you a set.

For you and A-song.

Jinling: *smile* thank you Xiao shuhsu!!

Zixuan: he loves to spoil A-ling and A-song.

As he should.

Mo xuanyu: Xuan gege, do you know how to change diapers?

Zixuan: c..change what?

Yanli: diapers, Zixuan.

Zixuan: ohhhhh. No A-Yu. I haven't changed one in my life.

The maids used to do it.

Xue yang: what a diva.

Yanli: so who's going to change the diapers, Zish?

Zixuan: and Huaisang is there.

He'll change their diapers.

When they're older, he'll be their babysitter but he has to undergo severe training.

Mo xuanyu: lol I agree. Where is he anyways?

Zixuan: gave him a vacation.

Because I want my twins to see beautiful things when they're born.

My babies are allergic to negative vibes.

Jiang cheng: *enters* I'm here! Sorry I'm late!

Yao: it took you long enough!!

Zixuan: *crying* Jiang cheng! Where were you!

Meng Shi: Jiang gui fei. What kind of conduct is this.

I'm very disappointed in you! You weren't aren't when my innocent little step son was giving birth.

You're married to two emperors. Act the part.

Jiang cheng: Tai hou and my emperor husbands. This wei wuxian was in lotus pier, and he used my sword~~

Zixuan: not in front the children!!!

Yao: oh my goodness!! How putrid!

Xue yang: wasn't bichen enough?

Su she: you have some freaky family members.

Mo xuanyu: *blocks Jinling and Rusong's ears*

Jiang cheng: that's not what I meant, guys!

He used my sword to cut lotus pods. Then the idiot dropped it in the muddy pond, so we had to fish out Sandu.

Meng Shi: and your sword is a mode of transportation.

Jiang cheng: yes! Taihou.

Meng Shi: why didn't you run or hire a caravan?

Jiang cheng: *facepalms*

Mo xuanyu: Jiang cheng, how could you.

Zixuan: what if I died during childbirth and my children became orphans.

And then my empire lost a super handsome and almost divine emperor with flawless skin.

Yao: and A-li would have sadly become a widow.

Then she would ask me to adopt the children.

Zixuan: it would be hard for them to fit in because they're not hulijings. A-li might become A-Yao's concubine, but she'll become more rich, and depressed cuz she misses me.

Do you know how it's like to be rich, depressed and a hot mess! And on top of that stressed?

Jiang cheng, do you see the ripple effect!

Jiang cheng: stop being dramatic. And look. I'm here.

Zixuan: I haven't had a drop of water or a grain of food, while waiting for you.

Because if I ate I would have thrown up. But read between the lines.

I fasted for you, my husband.

Yao: our confidante!

Zixuan: *sobs* consort Cheng. *sniffles*

Jiang cheng: jiejie. How do you deal with him?

Yanli: *laughing* just fine*

Jiang cheng: uhh.....are you done?

Zixuan: you have broken my heart. I don't think I can forgive you.

Yao: I'm very disappointed in you.

Jiang cheng: Zixuan. I made soup. Do you still want some?

Or are you still feeling nauseous?

Zixuan: gimme that, Jiang. You're forgiven.

Yaoyao!

Yao: poor baby has been starving from his fast.

Zixuan: Jiang cheng, I'm weak. Can you feed me? *bats eyelashes*

Jiang cheng: sure.

How are you feeling now?

Zixuan: I'm still sore.

Jiang cheng: now what did you name them?

Zixuan: Ruxuan and Ruming.

Jiang cheng: sounds ok.

Zixuan: be a little enthusiastic, nah. They're royalty.

They came out from my~~ what's the word?

Xue yang: royal Zishussy.

Zixuan: yea.

Jiang cheng: noted.

Zixuan: A-Yao will let you hold them.

~~~

Next day..

Around midday, a group of beautiful young ladies, all holding fans in their hands,  came to meet their dowager empress Shi.

Greetings taihou.

Meng Shi: greetings darlings. Rise please.

Someone from in front of the crowd: I'm Xu.

And I'm Lu Wan.

We're all aristocratic fox spirits.

Meng Shi: ohh, pleasure to meet you. What brings you here?

We want to see Dianxia!

Also we would love to marry him.

Taihou, I'm good at calligraphy and painting.

And I'm good at poetry and playing the Qin.

Meng Shi: *giggles daintily* excellent.

I always dreamt of Songsong getting a girlfriend, and settling. But then my Songsong is the one who must make the decision right. Why don't you go meet him?

Ladies: *squealing*

*goes to rush outside*

Meng Shi: hey hey wait. You have to go through Huangdi first.

Yes Taihou.

Well we got to meet our inlaws right.

~~~

The group of beautifully dressed hulijing ladies confronted and bowed to A-Yao.

Greetings father-in-law Huangdi.

Yao: *astonished* father-in-law???

Oh gosh, you all saw Rusong, didn't you.

Miss Xu: yes Huangdi, and we're in love!

Dianxia is extremely handsome.

Huangdi are we perfect for future concubines?

Xu: I'll be Dianxia's empress.

Can we see Dianxia?

We miss seeing him.

Yao: hmm sure then. He's in the garden.

Awwwwww Dianxia loves nature?!

We love nature too!

Yao: mhm. He's taking a stroll. And maybe he's going to sit and play the guqin.

*squealing* omg!!! We love music too!

He's so talented!

Let's go look for him!

~

Meng Shi: Yao'er.

Yao: A-niang?

Meng Shi: did a group of ladies come to meet you?

Yao: more like they came to meet A-Song.

Meng Shi: *giggles*

Yao: did you send them?

Meng Shi: yea,. They wanted to meet our little Song'er so I let them. Wangzi needs a Wangfei.

Yao: you're right. But Song'er loves someone already.

She's A-Qing of Yi city.

Meng Shi: A-Qing? Beautiful. I would love to see her.

And why didn't this child tell me? Am I chopped liver?

Yao: *laughing* A-niang, maybe he's shy.

Meng Shi: oh my. This boy.

He's a handful, but a cute handful.

Yao: agreed.

Rusong: *walking through the garden while reading*

Xu and others: *confronting him* greetings Dianxia.

Rusong: *looking up from his book* oh hello. How may I help you?

Xu: Dianxia why are you so hot. 

Rusong: I...I was born like it.

Ladies: awwwwwwwwww!

Rusong: are you here to meet Nainai? May I escort you?

Xu: no no. We met her already. We came to meet you. *blush*

Heehee, how are you, Dianxia?

Rusong: I'm doing well.

Xu: you're really really cute.

And such a gentleman too!

Dianxia what are you going to do?

Rusong: well I was going to play the guqin.

Aww the guqin?!!!! We want to hear!! Play it for us na, Dianxia!!

Please! We would love to hear your music!

Rusong: sure.

Dianxia are you single?!

Rusong: well actually I have a girlfriend. But she's out if town.

Ladies: *disappointed*

Xu: is she even a beautiful hulijing?!

Rusong: no. But don't worry guys. You can still hang with me and listen to music.

*cheering* yayy!! Dianxia!!

We still love you!!

Xu: just saying, we can be better than your girlfriend.

We are hulijings after all.

Rusong: *laughing* I see.

Xu: at least she's taking good care of our Dianxia.

Rusong: *smile*

Ladies: *squealing* dimples!!!!!

Rusong: shall we?

Ahhh right behind you.

Rusong: would you like some flowers? Feel free to pick some from the garden.

You're so kind Wangzi.

Rusong: maybe if you like a certain flower, you can make a bouquet out of them.

Awww!

Anything to remember you by.

You're hella handsome.

Rusong: *laughs slightly* thanks.

I have asked my attendants to arrange tea and snacks.

Aww Dianxia, we were just here to listen to you play. You're too kind.

Rusong: well you're my guests after all.

Xu: so ideal just like Huangdi.

Rusong: us Mengs are known for our hospitality, and we hope that the empire does the same.

Xu: *melting* gosh, that's well said. But i love when your lips move.

Meanwhile, in one of the spring Pavillions~~

Yao: *having tea with Meng Shi and team dimple*

Meng shi: Yao'er, Yao'er, how is A-qing like?

Yao: very vibrant and energetic. Quite mischievous too.

Xue yang: she's a big simp too.

Meng Shi: oh. Lovely. Lol, a simp as well Chengmei?

Xue yang: yea. She popped out of me.

I gave birth to her.

Meng shi: *laughing* awww.

Yao: xue yang and Xiao xingchen are her guardians.

And they're all from Yi city.

Meng shi: ohhh I see. How sweet.

Mo xuanyu: we ship them a lot.

Su she: they make a good pair.

Meng Shi: that's good.

Xue yang: A-Qing is broke by the way, Miss Meng, so I don't know if that might be a problem.

Meng Shi: it's fine, Chengmei.

It's one's character that counts.

Yao: mhm.

Meng Shi: did you give her the thing?

Yao: of course I gave her the thing.

Mo xuanyu: *sips tea* what thing?

Meng shi: the hairpin Yao'er had commissioned for Rusong's soon to be bride.

Xue yang: I hope she didn't sell it by now.

Meng Shi: what?

Su she: it's a joke, taihou. Don't listen to xue yang.

Yao: she's good at heart, and she knows the significance of the accessories.

Meng Shi: oh good.

Yao: she has the same antics as Chengmei.

Meng shi: lol.

Anyways I need to talk to Mr. Dianxia later.

Yao: go for it, A-niang. He didn't tell you about his gf.

Meng Shi: exactly.

A-Yao, I think we should send her some gifts.

Yao: my same thought. And we can give some money to Xiao Daozhang as a sign of courtesy and good relations.

Meng Shi: yea.

Xue yang: what about meeee.

Yao: I'll give you candy, and maybe a new plot of land to practice your fierce corpse.

Xue yang: that's why I love you Jiggy.

Yao: *pats head* love you too, my little gremlin.

Later on, Rusong was walking down the hall, after playing the guqin for the fox spirits.

Rusong: why did Nainai send girls for me? That's so strange.

Oh right.......I didn't tell her about my girlfriend yet.

Rusong: I wonder if she found out? Guess I'll be hiding from Nainai for the while.

Meng shi: Songsong.

Rusong: *turns around* oh...hey Nainai.

Meng Shi: Meng Jin Rusong, the Hulijing Wangzi.

Rusong: (you know you're screwed when she or A-Die calls your whole name and title)

Meng shi: Dianxia *pinches cheeks* you didn't tell me about your gf.

Rusong: yea Nainai. I was going to tell you soon.

Meng Shi: baby Songsong, you're super cute. And I'm so happy for you.

A-Yao told me a lot about her.

Rusong: oh I see. The emperor of Hulijings and Kitsunes, Meng Yao Jin guangyao had let out my secret. *laughing*

Meng Shi: heehee yes. *kisses his dimple* secrets safe with me, Songsong.

Rusong: ok, Nainai. Today I'll spare Mr. Huangdi.

Meng Shi: but it's good that he told me. Because you wouldn't have told me.

Rusong: I would have, lol.

Meng Shi: *pouts*

Rusong: *hugs* Nainai. You believe your Songsong, right. Nainaiiiii.

Meng Shi: *pats head* I can't pretend to be upset with you, can I. You always put on that cute face.

Rusong: nah it's just that I'm naturally cute.

Meng Shi: oh really, Dianxia.

Now what did you do with the ladies?

Rusong: just got them some tea and snacks, then I played the guqin.

Meng Shi: lovely little Dianxia.

~~~

Later in the day......

Yao: Songsong.

Rusong: A-Die. Nainai was in her fox spirit matchmaker mood today.

Yao: *laughing*

Well you didn't tell her about your gf.

Rusong: right.

Xue yang: and you're a supermodel, so.

Mo xuanyu: who wouldn't fall in love with you, little Dianxia.

Su she: you have your A-Die's face after all.

Rusong: yea team d. And I can't help being cute.

Mo xuanyu: exactly.

[bewby]

OHHHHH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!! @followmylane HAPPY TAY DAY!!!!!! I'VE MISSED YOU!!!!! stayblr queen... i hope your day is good and chris magically appears on your doorstep with a rose in his hand giving you real bachelor realness.... you deserve it.... 💗💗💗💗🧁🎂🎂🎂🧁🍰

[franeridart]

*SOBS* IM JUST SO GLAD YOURE BACK

Aw thank you !!!!! It’s really just thanks to the past couple of days of cooler weather tho, ngl hahaha the earth has been indulgent to me, this past week!

Anon said:I really liked that wgole bakushima gem thing! What would bakugou do if kirishima somehow got corrupted and couldnt reverse it? (Without the other diamonds)

Thank you for liking it!!!! And I guess he’d just go ask the other diamonds? Well, he would never let it get to that, but if it were the only option it’s not like he’d leave Kiri like that!

Anon said:Quick, someone put a flashlight on diamond!Kiri

He’d be shinier than Aoyama and Hagakure using her special move put together !!!!!!! v pretty~

Anon said:your kiribaku gem AU inspired me so much that i’m finally watching steven universe just so i can understand it better because what i did understand was that i loved it

OH MAN I hope you’ll enjoy it!!!! It’s a bit silly and all over the place through the first season, but try to give it time !!

Anon said:Hi! I went and checked out your fan art for Kuroko no Basket and I absolutely adore AoKaga! Your AoKaga works make me so happy! I love them all!

Ohhhhh man thank you so much !!!!!!!!!! it’s super old stuff tho how did you even find it hhhhh haha

Anon said:Hello hello! here w bad news a instagram page posted your art and i know you dont like repost so im informing you. The page is kags.fujoshi and it was posted july 23

Yeh I know, I’ve been trying to report it and the other one I’ve been being told about but instagram won’t let me submit the thing so I guess this is how things are and I’ll just die mad about it since instagram likes to make things as hard and impossible to me as it can

Anon said:Bless your art

Thank you ;;;;;

Anon said:Omg literally your kiribaku Steven universe crossover is so fucking perfect thank you for blessing us with it; I’d love to see more if you have anything or feel like ever doing more about it but I don’t want to pressure you or anything, do what you want to do and what makes you happy :) Take care!

Ahhhhhh thank you so much!!!!! I’m super glad you liked it this much!!!!!!!

Anon said:✨Gentle reminder to take care of yourself today ✨

You too, anon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Everytime I see you upload new art I end up looking through and loving your entire BNHA Art tag. It’s so wonderful

gAH thank you so SO much!!!!!!!!!! don’t waste so much time on my blog, tho hahaha

Anon said:heya! I was just wondering if u had any short bakukiri one-shot fic recommendations. i prefer to read short things bc i have some learning difficulties and i was hoping u might know some good simple reads. Thanks! (

Aw man sorry but I really don’t have the time to make a rec list rn ;; if you’re fine with it this is the tag on AO3 filtered so that it shows only complete content with a max word count of 5000 starting from the one with most kudos going down, the first ones showing are all super good fics - in case you’re not okay with explicit content you can filter that too (if youre not okay with mature either just check that out as well) and to go further this is the tag excluding the fics tagged as tddk  cause that’s not what you’re looking for and the tddk and krbk fandom sure like to put each other in the listed relationships even if the fic isn’t about them (it excludes some krbk fics too but what can we do about that)

Anon said:ASDFGHKRNOFNE your last doodle killed me!!!! soft todoroki

AHHHHH I’m super glad you liked them !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;;;

Anon said:I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of your art, you beautiful gift you

Thank you smmmmm ;;;

Anon said:I am taking the SU story down for now. Please, let me know if I have your permission to post it, or if you don’t want me to. // And just to clarify - I’m not deleting the story out of spite or anything. I wrote it as a “get-well-soon” gift, but since you make it very clear you want to know how your art is used and that you must give your approval, I began to fear it would become a source of annoyance to you rather than something nice. I can put it back up if you want me to.

I don’t mind you writing the story or posting it, so if you wanna upload it again go for it! For future reference tho, if you’re in a rush to get an answer out of me (referring to the message where you asked if it was okay) your best bet is to go off-anon since those I always answer privately and as soon as I can. It can take me up to over a week to answer anon asks here, which I’d guess is sort of obvious? so seriously next time you’re in a rush to get an answer it’s better if you don’t go through the anon option!!

Anon said:HI I LOVE YOUR ART IT’S GORGEOUS AHHHHHHH

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

Anon said:How long does it take t draw one artwork for you?

Some things ten minutes, some things three days of work, it really depends on what I’m drawing? If it’s bw or colored, if it has a bg, if it’s a bust or a full body, if it’s one person or five, one drawing or a full comic, how used I am to drawing the character vs how new it is, how easy the clothes are and how many details there are on them - if you sent me an example I could specifically tell you how long it took me!

Anon said:is bakugo ticklish? what do u think?

Bakugou is ticklish but the immediate aftermath of tickling Bakugou is to be blasted into kingdom come so maybe better not to tickle him unless you’re Kiri and can protect yourself

Anon said:Bakukirikami is some good stuff my dude

It sure as heck is! Lately my old stuff for them is getting a bunch of new notes, I’m assuming people are getting into it thanks to the anime haha the magic of the license exam my doods

Anon said:hey I hope I don’t sound creepy but, I just want to say that your art really makes me happy and that you’re one of my favorite artist out there. So even if somtimes you feel like your art sucks I want you to know that I think it’s beautiful! Hope you’re doing well!

You don’t sound creepy at all!!!!! thank you SO MUCH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:i live for ur kamisero art just saying

I haven’t drawn much of that, have I? I’m glad you like it tho!!!! Thank you!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Mako and Tai ♥️♥️

!!!

Anon said:This isn’t an ask, just that I love your art style and it reminds me of a beautiful and cute point and click adventure, “Harvey’s new eyes ” and “Ednas break out” Its very cute and pretty just like your art style and I love both ^^

Oh man thank you!!!

Anon said:Q U O R K

I honestly can’t even remember if this is just a random ask or if it was referring to something specific, ngl (if it’s the second, sorry about my memory being like this orz)

Anon said:Gah I keep missing preorders! I’ve only ever really wanted 2, and each time, don’t have any money, til after they’re done 😢 oh well, I guess. Hope you’re doing well!

If you’re referring to the takemyhand zine, preorders are still going tho!!! and thank you!!!!

[codrin013]

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better

Thank you for tagging me @thelasttimeyoueversawme better late than never right

Gender: M 🚹

Star sign: Aquarius ♒

Height: 5’5 🗻

Time: 11:53 pm ⌚

Birthday: February 🎂

Favorite bands: None, sorry :))) 🎸

Fav solo artists: Tayyyy and maybe Selena and Katy 🎤

Song stuck in my head: dorothea (ohhhhh-ooooooohhhhhhhh) 👧🌟

Last movie: Miss Americana for the 7th time🎬

Last show: Maybe Stranger Things, but I honestly don’t know....🎥

When did I create this blog: To support our queen, @taylorswift !!! 💜💜💜 (Ooops, I didn't read the question: in December, 2019)

What do I post: Tay-related things 💗💗💗

Last thing I googled: “cowboy like me guitar tabs taylor” 🎼

Other blogs: None, again, sorry :)))))) 🚫

Do I get asks: No one even bothers to check my tumblr out, so I don’t think so...🙅‍♂️

Why I chose my url: Cuz I love Taylor and cats and 13, but there’s a twist in there because it has my name too :)))))) 🙀

Following: You’ll kill me for this, but only 53😓

Followers: Not that many, 264 or 265🔢

Average hours of sleep: 6.5 hrs (and yes, I am highly aware of the fact that it kinda looks like sleep deprivation)😴

Dream job: Musician or Doctor🤓

Dream trip: Nashville, US🎵

Favorite food: Don’t have one, I am extremely picky 😋

Nationality: Romanian 🏰

Favorite song: Too hard to answer, so sorry :))))))) 🎧

Last book I read: Literature for school, so I won’t even bother to mention it.... 📚

Top three fictional universes I want to live in: I only have one: Steven Universe ⭐

This was sooooooooooooo fuuun, @thelasttimeyoueversawme !!! Thanks for tagging me... I am REALLY curious what the people I mention will say. So, there fore, @taylorswift, @taylornation, @robswift-13, @octavi26, @taylorswiftfan1974, @forever-evermore-tay-13, @that-starbucks-lover, @biggestswiftie-13, @nicopico13,  @stateofnani13, @maya-is-a-swiftie-clown23, @pharmaswift and @taylorlive, it’s yout time to answer the questions!! Btw, no pressure: if u don’t want to respond, it’s ok!!! 💗💗💗

Rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better

Thank you for tagging me @utolerateit better late than never right

Gender: f

Star sign: Capricorn

Height: 5’5

Time:4pm

Birthday:January

Favorite bands: one direction, Aly and Aj, the pretty reckless

Fav solo artists: tay, Harry, Kesha, and marina

Song stuck in my head: happiness :(((

Last movie: WW84 and it was good okay!!

Last show: tiny pretty things

When did I create this blog: idek y’all

What do I post: Taylor and Harry

Last thing I googled: bath and body works hours

Other blogs: @shesanangelmyonlyangel which I need to start using more again

Do I get asks: 1 every month if that

Why I chose my url: getaway car slaps

Following: 1038 oops I didn’t know I followed that many

Followers: 444 (2/3) of 666 hahaha

Average hours of sleep: 8.5 probs

Drea job: no job just getting lots of money so that I can go on trips and see concerts and musicals all the time

Dream trip: Australia

Favorite food: ice cream

Nationality: USA

Favorite song: IDSB

Last book I read: the good girls you guys should go read it it was goood!

Top three fictional universes I want to live in: the wizarding world, halloweentown, and the mcu

Here’s some people I know and need to know better! No pressure because this is a superrrr long ask game! @reputationn @slowmotiondoublevision @explorerswiftie @lover-chelsea @codrin-cat-13 @because-im-a-mirrorball @nifty-swifty

[tellywoodtrash]

ishqbaaz 03.08.17

brace yourselves. it’s a long one. and i scream a lot. 

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… i’m a teetotaler and a total square, so someone tell me… does weed give you a hangover like alcohol? ���🤔🤔

LMAO BILLU KI BATTI JALIIIII 😆😆😆

what a fucking idiot. kitnaaaaaa confidence tha apne hi plan mein. tai tai phissssssssss. 😂😂😂

THIS FUCKING SHIRT. I WANT TO JUMP INTO THE SCREEN, RIP IT OFF HER BODY AND BURN IT. AND THEN BURN THE REST OF THE HOUSE DOWN TOO, COZ THAT’S HOW ANGRY IT MAKES ME. 😡😡😡😡😡

is it just this shirt, or has nakuul been working out? he looks more… buff? 👀👀👀 #TTkiTharkiAankhein #plotWhatPlot 

lollllllll she fucked you over with her big bambi eyes. you are soooooo fucking easy, man. #frontSeatDimaag my ass. 🙄🙄🙄

great, he remembers ALLLLL this other nonsense. 😑😑😑

Awareness™? 😯😯😯

Awareness™! 😌😌😌

is the tray really necessary for just one cup of coffee? like… just hold the mug in your hand, man. 😒😒😒

“sorry bol rahi hai matlab koi bohuttttttttt badi baat hai.”

maybe anika should apologize more for the shit she pulls. the poor guy is treating an apology like a huge EVENT. 🙁🙁🙁

oh thank god. at least he has the idea of playing along now. it’s what he should have done in the first place when he told her he met tia. yeh naubat aati hi nahi. 😒😒😒

lmaooooo this is supposed to be a serious scene but the faces he’s making as he’s mentally berating himself to remember. 😂😂😂

ok just give up and ask her, you idiot. 🙄🙄🙄

LINE BY LINE??? IT’S NOT A FUCKING POEM OR SCRIPT OR SOMETHING, BILLU. 😕😕😕

god. i’m this close to smacking him. aisa padega, sab yaad aa jayega. 😒😒😒

meanwhile, these other two idiots. it’s like all the oberoi men have taken a kasam to annoy the fuck outta me today. 😑😑😑

allllll these fucking days, and does he even know anything about bhavya’s family???? 🙁🙁🙁

this MAAAAAAAAAAAAAA is so fucking annoying. she has no fucking life. like… WAKE UP LADY!!!!!!!! *clapping in her face* 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽

THE FUCK, OM. HOW THE FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK DID YOU GO FROM “SHE’S NOT WITH HER MOM” TO “SHE WENT TO KALI THAKUR”. I HONESTLY NEED A FUCKING FLOWCHART SHOWING ME HOW YOU WENT FROM POINT A TO POINT B. 😑😑😑

FROM ONE ANNOYING IDIOT TO ANOTHER. I HONESTLY AM THIS CLOSE TO LINING THESE THREE FUCKERS UP AND DOING THIS:

lol, she let it slip that he needs the coffee to clear the effects of what he ate last night. 😆😆😆

lol his consternation at being fed the bhang. 🤣🤣🤣

“kabhi kabhi aap chantumaai banne ki koshish karte hai aur ban jaate hai pappu!” 

pft. what kabhi kabhi. that’s the story of his fucking life. 😂😂😂

ouffff idiot girlllllll. you should also have played it safe and seen what he remembers instead of just parosofying all this in front of him. 🙄🙄🙄

he’s so confused. soooooo confused. 😗😗😗

OMFG SHE JUST SAID “ISMEIN AADHI GALTI MERI HAI.” EXCUSE ME? AAAADHI?????? DID THEY CHANGE THE MEANING OF AADHI TO BE 85.39% COZ THAT’S THE ONLY FUCKING WAY THIS IS ONLY “AADHI” GALTI OF YOURS, ANIKA. 😤😤😤😤

look i’m all about #girlPower and #teamAnika, but this is fucking ridiculous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😾😾😾

lmao, bhool hi toh gaya hai woh. man, what even was in that weed???? like i’ve heard weed makes your brain foggy for a bit, but billu ko toh aisi chaddhi ki eternal sunshine of the spotless mind hi ho gaya.  🤣🤣🤣

MY GOD, ANIKA. STOP TALKING. 😣😣😣

why won’t she fucking stoppppppppppp talking????????????? LIKE HE’S NOT REACTING AND SHE’S JUST GOING ON AND ON. 😟😟😟

finallllllllly. FINALLY SHE STOPPED TALKING AND HER BRAIN GOT SOME OXYGEN AND SHE’S THINKING. 😑😑😑

LMAO. GAPS. SURE BILLU. “GAPS.” that whole fucking space between your ears is one big GAP. 🙄🙄🙄

hahahahahaha, howwwww quickly it degenerated into such a childish bickering waala fight. he can’t help but yell at her for turning his own plan on him and she’s berating him for trying to act too smart when he’s anything but. oh man, these two fucking idiotsssssssssssss. 😂😂😂

“kyun bataon main??” “KYUNKI MAIN KEH RAHA HOON!” waaaaah, what sound reasoning. 

OH MY GOD. RUDRA OPENED THE FRIDGE, AND IS NOW ACTUALLY LOOKING AT AN ANDA WISTFULLY AND REMEMBERING BHAVYA. JESUS. I CAN’T STOP LAUGHING. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

ok why are they playing happy wistful music while bhavya is clearly doing some funeral type rites? 😐😐😐

why is this creepy friend standing around zoooooming in on the shaarth rites???? ugh, buzz off, fucker. 😒😒😒

WHY SHOULD SHE TELL YOU, HUH? HO KAUN TUM USKE? YOU’RE JUST A MISSION SHE’S BEEN ASSIGNED TO FFS. YOU KNOW THIS. 😑😑😑

“favourite colour, khakee? ladkiyon ka toh pink hota hai na?” 

yes rudra. every single one of the  ~4 billion women in the world shares the same favourite colour. pink. waaah! matlab, too good! 🙄🙄🙄

awww. rudra is closest to shivaay. ugh, my heart. *pinches his cheeks* 😌😌😌😚😚😚

see. now i’m starting to feel a connection with/empathy for bhavya. COZ I KNOW SHIT ABOUT HER. WHY DIDN’T YOU ESTABLISH ALL THIS ABOUT HER EARLIER??????? 😒😒😒

great. these two are STILL AT IT. man, you fuckers really need to get jobs. honestly. DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR DAMN LIVES. 🙄🙄🙄

this fight is now bordering on fucking boring. 😒😒😒

oh boy. she said the trigger word. FARAQ. 😬😬😬

“MUJHE FARAQ PADTA HAI, ANIKA. PADTA HAI FARAQ. YEHI SUNNA CHAHTI THI NA TUM? BOL DIYA MAINE.” 

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh. 

oh god, it’s going back to the whole “moved on” nonsense. BILLU WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN STILL PRETENDING YOU’RE EVEN REMOTELY INTERESTED IN RAGINI WHEN YOU’VE ALREADY ADMITTED TO ANIKA THAT YOU STILL CARE ABOUT THE MARRIAGE, AND THAT FARAQ PADTA HAI??????????? 😧😧😧

ohhhhhh boy. 😐😐😐

“ARE. YOU. SURE. YOU’VE. MOVED. ON?” 

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAS, SEXUAL TENSION WAALA ANGST! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

oh holy shit. such sexual tension:

um. dying. 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤

OH SHIT. OHHHHH HOLLLLLYYYY SHIT. “AAPKA KOI HAQ NAHI BANTA YEH SAB KARNE KA.” 

on one hand, YAS GIRL. YOU TELL HIM. YOU TAKE THAT AGENCY! on the other, my god, his reaction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F.U.C.K.

“mera koi haq nahi banta. KOI HAQ NAHI BANTA MERA?!?!” 

jfc, the way he whisper-growled that. 

she says haq nahi banta because of talaq. he’s dilly dallying about the talaq bit but bringing up the fiance. 

things are shaaaaady about the talaq. i still don’t think they’re divorced. maybe that’s his last trump card to play if she tries to marry her “fiance” - pull the SURPRISE! WE’RE STILL MARRIED! trick ala ross geller. 😂😂😂

ohhhhhhhhhh boy. he’s now questioning the existence of this fiance of hers. 😬😬😬

lmaoooooooo she’s such a bad liar. girl just tell him “unlike you, he actually SHOWS UP at his damn job.” 😒😒😒

he knowssssssssssss there’s no fiance. 😊😊😊

my god the way he stepped forward towards her while saying that though. the HAQ radiating off him. 😯😯😯

oh anika. kyun apna hi kabar khod rahi ho???? 😬😬😬

she couldn’t stand the sheer sexual magnetism and haq that was rolling off him in waves and just RAN. THE. FUCK. AWAY. 😅😅😅

honestly girl, #same. 😐😐😐

murderrrrr girlllllfriends on a cafe date! 👯🏽👯🏽👯🏽

i’m loving all these little dates we’re getting in everyday’s episodes! a good break from all the heterosexual angst BS. 😒😒😒

isn’t this the same cafe in the post-leap promo? yup. it is! the oberois seem to love this cafe! 😊😊😊

… apparently you get WINE at this cafe. 🤔🤔🤔

any scene svetlana leaves jhanvi alone, you know shit’s about to go down. 😐😐😐

who dis fighting with security? 😕😕😕

ohhhhhhhhhhhh that moooh-bola bhai of gauri’s! 😯😯😯

waaah re oberois ke ghazab security! actual murderers walk in and out, and nothing. but this guy you’ve managed to catch hold of and are treating as security threat of highest level. this guy. in the shorts. and a fedora. he’s a real dangerous looking one, eh? 🙄🙄🙄

…. wait. how do om and this guy know each other? have they met before?? 🤔🤔🤔

OMFG OM, WHAT THE FUCK, DO YOU NOT CARE EVEN A LITTLE THAT SHE’S LEAVING????? 😧😧😧

I CAN’T BELIEVE THAT THEY’RE MAKING HIM SUCH A FUCKBOY. THIS IS SO NOT OM. OM WOULD BE CONFLICTED AND ANGRY AND SAD AND ANGSTY ABOUT THIS; NOT SO COLD AND UNFEELING. FUCK THE WRITERS. FUCK THEM TO FUCKKKKKKKKKKKK. 😤😤😤😤

OH. MY. GOD. SAY “APUN KI SISTER” ONE. MORE. TIME. ASSHOLE. 

who the fuck wrote the dialogue for this scene???? have they not heard of this handy little linguistic device called A PRONOUN???? 😑😑😑

…. UM. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? IT TOOK LIKE THREE STERNLY SPOKEN SENTENCES FROM THIS RANDO, AND OM IS HAVING AN EPIPHANY????????????????? WHAT. THE. EVERLOVING. FUCK. 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟😟

I… JUST…. THIS IS BULLSHIT. THIS IS SUCH. FUCKING. BULLSHIT.  I’M SORRY. i know the liveblog isn’t the place for deep analysis and shit, but i just can’t get over this. I HAVE TO PAUSE THE EPISODE AND RANT. 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤 

i would have rather that this whole thing have been sorted out by like… ANIKA???? something like, we see gauri confiding the whole story in anika (in a flashback.) anika discovering gauri is missing from the house today, asking om where she is, seeing his asshole persona, and fucking goes off on him and tears him a new one (coz already paara chadha hua hai from his elder brother’s needling.) IT WOULD HAVE NOT ONLY SHOWN AND ESTABLISHED ANIKA/GAURI BOND, BUT ALSO THE OMKARA/ANIKA BOND AND… LIKE… WHY THE FUCKKKKK DID THEY DO THIS WITH SOME RANDOM FUCKING CHARACTER WHO WAS IN DBO FOR 5 FUCKING MINUTES?!?!!?!?!?!? I JUST CAN’T EVEN…. 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡😡

OK. PHEW. RANT DONE. MOVING ON. 😤😤😤

sorry rudra, i really don’t care about you right now. 😑😑😑

ok the sight of svetlana is making me feel a little better. *exhales* 😌😌😌

wait, isn’t this that same oberoi mansion waala bathroom? come on man, at least make it look a little different. 😕😕😕

OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGG IT’S NOT A TEJ/SVETLANA PLAN!!!!!!!!!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

ok these gundas did a really bad job of trying to burn the house down. other than the exterior, everything seems to be perfectly ok. how did they expect these two to die in such a nonsense pheeka fire? 🙄🙄🙄

THIS RUDRA PLOT IS REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY BORING. GOD. I DON’T CARE. ALL HE’S DOING IS STANDING AROUND TALKING OUT LOUD. 😫😫😫

um… svetlana seems to have some kinda thing like the chokey from matilda in her room???? 😐😐😐

(god, what a great book. one of my eternal favs. i think i’ll reread it this weekend! 😊😊😊) 

lmaooooo i think svetlana’s watched home alone toooooo many times, the way she’s booby trapping her house with such ease and expertise to catch tej. 😂😂😂

tilllll now, jhanvi was parroting about how tej was alive. now that svetlana has come on board re: that theory, she’s like YEH TEJ KI AATMA HAI. 🙄🙄🙄

god jhanvi, you’re reallllllly annoying. 😒😒😒

YAAAAAAAAS SVETLANAAAAA, FUCKKKK HIMMMM UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!! 😈😈😈

god. she’s so flawless. i fucking love svetlana with all. my. heart. she could steal MY face and lock me in a freezer dabba and i’d thank her. that’s how much i love her. 😍😍😍

god, get in and leave faster, gauri. before he comes and stops you and takes you back to that hell hole. you honestly deserve sooooooo much better. 😒😒😒

i honestly think fucking “apun ka sister” was right. there’s no difference between om and kali thakur, in that THEY BOTH SUCK AND DON’T DESERVE TO EVEN BREATHE THE SAME AIR AS QUEEN GAURI KUMARI SHARMA. OFF WITH THEIR FUCKING HEADS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😤😤😤😤

FIRST OF ALL, THERE MUST BE LIKE DOZENS OF BUS DEPOTS IN MUMBAI. HOW THE FUCK DID HE REACH THE CORRECT ONE AND GET INTO THE THE EXACT CORRECT BUS AT THE FIRST TRY ITSELF??????????? KUCH BHI. 😒😒😒

LOOK AT ME: i’m perfectly ok with a woman stealing someone else’s face and keeping her in a freezer for god knows how long, BUT THIS?!?!!? THIS IS WHAT I HAVE AN ISSUE WITH. 😐😐😐 waaah. meri bhi buddhi brasht ho gayi hai yeh show dekh dekh ke. 🙄🙄🙄

ugh just fuck offffff omkara. i am so fucking done with you. ✋🏽✋🏽✋🏽

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idhar rudra is STILL talking to himself. man!!!! THIS EPISODE IS REALLY TESTING MY PATIENCE WITH THESE FUCKERS. SHOW ME MY MURDER GIRLFRIENDS. OR ANIKA GOOGLE SEARCHING FOR HOW TO HIRE SOMEONE TO PLAY A FAKE FIANCE. EVEN 10 MINUTES OF GAURI’S BUS JOURNEY WHERE SHE DOES NOTHING BUT LOOK OUT THE WINDOW. IDK, ANYTHING BUT THESE IDIOT MEN. 😑😑😑😒😒😒

thank god, scene switch to svetlana. 😌😌😌

oh ho, now JHANVI won’t believe svetlana. kyaaa chutiyaapa hai!!! 😑😑😑

“oh just shut up jhanvi, aatma-vaatma kuch nahi hoti. agar hoti toh naa jaane KITNIIIIIIIIIIII aatmaayein mere peeche padi hoti. 🙄🙄🙄” 

OMFG HAHAHAHAHHAHA I LOVE SVETLANA SO MUCH!!!!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

good that Awareness™ seems to be a shivaay thing only. i really want my girl to gtfo this city and away from om. 😒😒😒

yeah, zeeeeeeeeero sympathy for you, son. fuck youuu and your der aaye durust aaye guilt. leave my bulbul the fuck alone, you hear me? 😠😠😠🙅🏽🙅🏽🙅🏽

ok the saathiya is making me cry like a bitchhhhhh, but… whatever. i want my girl to leave your judgey ass. *fiercely wipes my tears and pushes the bus outta the frame physically* 🚎🚎🚎 👐🏽👐🏽👐🏽

oh boy. shivaay wants a name for the fiance. 😬😬😬

oh man. his face when she actually gave it to him though. 😥😥😥

OH HO ANIKA. KISI RANDO KO NAHI PAKAD SAKTI THI? YOU HAD TO PICK A TEEN NAAMO WAALA RAEES, WHO THESE PPL SEEM WELL ACQUAINTED WITH????? 🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

[sarahjane0886]

Begin Again 5

Chapter 5 "Momma, see Ewis?" Charlotte said as she ate her breakfast Saturday morning. "Umm, well Mr. Maks and his friend Mr. Noah are going to come help Momma with the living room. Mr. Noah is going to bring Maverick, his son, so you two can play together." "And Ewis?" Lottie asked with a mischievous grin. "I think you're going to see Louis later baby. We're going to go to the park." "Ducks?" "Yeah baby, we'll see the ducks." "Pay in the rain?" She asked with a grin. It took Peta a minute to figure out what she had wanted to play with. "You want to play with the sprinkler?" "Yes, peas." She said as she finished her toast and berries. "Are you going to play nice with Maverick?" "Mav-ick pay rain?" She asked curiously as she tried to figure out what Peta was really asking. "I'll have to ask his daddy." Peta said as she reached for her phone. Last night after Maks had stuck around to help with the car situation, they ended up going for the evening walk with Louis and him. He had suggested swapping phone numbers just in case something should ever happen. Peta had been slightly worried about it at first but after she thought about it, she realized it was silly. Maks had been nothing but respectful of her that whole week and while that could be a façade, she just had a feeling she was safe with him. So they swapped numbers and that was that. 'Hey, do you think Noah would mind if the kids played in the sprinkler? Lottie was asking.' She texted before settling the phone down and looking back at her daughter. "Wing?" Lottie asked as she held her blueberry stained hands up to her mother. "After your hands are clean miss." Peta said dodging the sticky toddler. She grabbed a washcloth and wiped off Lottie's hands and face before sending her to find Lily. She heard her phone go off and reached for it as Lottie appeared back beside her mother. "Wing with Lily now peas?" Lottie said hands up. "Come munchkin." Peta said scooping her up and settling her on her hip. They headed out and she got Lottie swaying before finally reading Maks's text. 'Shouldn't be a problem. I shot him a text telling him to bring Mav extra clothes and a suit. I explained why.' The message said however, a second one came in as Peta was reading. 'Do you need help hooking up said sprinkler?' She sighed and shook her head. Truth be told, she wouldn't mind help. She could handle it on her own but she knew it would get done quicker with Maks most likely. 'Don't judge me if I say yes. And thank you for telling him.' She sent back quickly. She put the phone in her pocket and began to talk with Lottie about nonsense things that 2 year olds talk about. "Never Miss Peta." Maks's voice sounded as he stood on the fence line watching the two. "Aks!!! See Aks Momma!" Lottie said happily. Peta laughed as she halted the swing and gathered the little one up. She carried her over to Maks who happily accepted the munchkin. "You're 2 for 2 sir. She's never stopped swinging for anyone. Ever." Peta said with a giggle. "My, my, that's quite the honor Miss Lottie. Are you ready to have fun today?" He asked as he tickled her making her giggle relentlessly. "Pay in rain with....boy." She said as she forgot Maverick's name. "In the rain? Is it going to rain? We better get inside." Maks teased knowingly. "Nooooooo! Pay rain outside! In swimsuit!" She said as she put her hands on her hips giving him a look. "OHHHHH! That's why I'm going to help momma hook up the sprinkler." He said tickling her again. "Yes! Elp, momma. Peas?" She said with a grin and a smile. "I'm pretty sure I couldn't say no to that face even if I wanted." Maks said looking at Peta finally. "She's got it down let me tell you. Are you sure you don't mind?" Peta asked as she moved to the gate and opened it for Maks since he had Lottie. "Peta.....wait, you know my middle name, what's yours?" "Jane." "Ahhh. Peta Jane. I like it. Now, Peta Jane, I don't mind. At all. Or I wouldn't offer." He said as he followed her to the shed. "I thought you said your momma told you to be polite and help people. How do I know this isn't just you being a good person like your momma taught you?" She teased. "Because I'm pretty sure my good deed would have stopped at showing you around town. Momma says you only have to help some." "Ahhh, I see. Well thank you. As usual. Now, here's the hose and the sprinkler. And I think I'll drag out her water table." Peta rambled. "I'll do it. Just here. Lottie, go see Momma for a minute so I can set your sprinkler up." Maks said handing the little one over. She seemed to realize that was in her best interest so she went with her mother easily. Peta sighed but resigned to holding the shed door open since it wouldn't stay open the whole way. Lottie eventually wanted down and explored the yard, mainly following Maks and rambling to him. Peta smiled watching the two as Maks just took Lottie's nonsense in stride. He talked back as if it was real conversation. "Thank you." Peta said again as Maks finshed up and everything was ready. "You're welcome." He said with his signature smile. "Momma pay rain now?" Lottie asked. "Well, we gotta go get your bathing suit on first and you go potty okay?" "Aks, stay here?" Lottie asked. "I'll be out here when you're back, okay?" "Tay." She said as she held her hands up for Peta who scooped her up. "I'm going to grab my things and tell Noah to come here, if that's okay?" Maks said. "That's fine. We'll be back out in a few." Peta said as she headed in. She got Lottie switched into her bathing suit after she went potty. Then she found her towel and sunscreen. She took the little girl downstairs and filled two sippee cups with ice water as well as grabbed a few small snacks for the kids. She headed back out and found Maks sitting on the stoop. "Aks! Here!" Lottie said happily seeing the man was still there. She wiggled out of Peta's grasp and headed for him. He caught her and sat her in his lap. "Noah and Maverick should be here in a few minutes. He's going to come through my yard and we can just let him in the gate." Maks explained. "Sounds good. So Maverick is 2 you said right?" "Yeah, he's quite shy so hopefully he's okay with you. I don't see why he wouldn't be but we'll watch to ensure that he is before we abandon ship. How's Lottie with new people?" "Uhh, besides you she's usually a little quiet at first but opens up as things go." "I'm the exception to the Lottie rule huh?" "Exactly." "So maybe we should give the kids a bit to get situated before we embark on figuring things out. Do you know where you want everything?" "Actually there's stickies on each of the things. And since I did unpack, the drawers are full....." She said sheepishly. "That's fine, we probably would have pulled the drawers out anyways. Hey man, hey Mr. Mav, how are you?" Maks said as he saw his best friend come into the yard. He went to put Lottie down but she clung to him. Peta saw and was going to intercept her child. Maks however took the little one's displeasure in stride and just settled her on his hip while he motioned for Peta to follow him. "Hey buddy. Mav, can you tell Uncle Maks hi?" Noah said as he shook Maks's hand. "Hi." The little blonde haired boy whispered as he saw the newcomers in his uncle's life. "I have a friend for you. I think she's going to share her sprinkler and some toys with you. Right Miss Lottie?" "Yes, play rains." She said sweetly as she snuggled into Maks's neck however faced the new people in her life. "Ohhh, you love the sprinkler Mav. Are you going to play with Lottie? Right?" Noah said looking to Lottie to confirm her name. "Me is Lottie." She said nodding. "I'm Mr. Noah miss. It's nice to meet you." He said reaching his hand out to shake hers. She giggled and shook his hand but stayed tucked into Maks. "This is Peta too. Noah, Peta. Peta, Noah." "Nice to meet you. I've heard quite a bit about you." Noah said reaching forward to shake her hand. "Noah!" Maks yelled. "What? All I've heard is Peta this, Lottie that. All good things I promise." "Oh my god. I hate you. You better be glad you're my best friend? Peta, I swear." Maks said getting flustered. "Whoa buddy, calm down. I'm teasing Peta. He has told me a little bit but he's not going on and on. It's all good." Noah said as he and Peta laughed. "Introduce your kid." Maks said with a look. "Peta, this is Maverick. He is 2. Mav, can you say hi to Miss Peta?" "Hi Maverick. It's so nice to meet you." Peta said gently keeping her distance. She had learned with Lottie that she did better when people weren't up in your face. Maverick turned slightly and gave Peta a small smile and wave but stayed cuddled into his father. "That's something. He's pretty shy. It may take a bit for him to warm up." Noah explained. "No worries. We can all just stay out here for a bit until the kids are okay." "Play blocks momma?" Lottie asked Peta. "We can get your blocks out baby. You want to come with me to pick which ones?" "No, tay with aks." She said softly as she gripped onto the man. "Baby." Peta said looking at her daughter. "I think someone is jealous." Noah said with a grin trying to lighten the mood. "I think so too." Peta said with a sigh. "I'm just going to pick for you two then okay Miss?" "Wood." She requested making everyone laugh. Peta shook her head and headed into the house. "You weren't kidding when you said she was attached to you." Noah commented as he settled into a chair with Maverick. "Yeah, I know it works on her too so it's hard but yeah. I just kind of go with the flow and let Peta take the lead." "Smart man." Noah said as Peta returned. She settled the blocks on the patio as well as a blanket for the kids to sit on. She and Maks got down with Lottie who started building. After a little while longer, Maverick moved and stood behind Maks eventually moving to play too. After a good half hour the kids were both invested in playing with the blocks and the adults had moved away to the picnic table. "You think he's okay?" Maks asked Noah. "Yeah, Peta did you want to let them do the sprinkler? Or do you want to leave them with the blocks." "Let's ask them. Lottie, Maverick, can you come here for a second?" Peta said. "Momma? Miss Peta?" The two said as they came over to Peta. "Do you want to keep playing with the blocks or do you want to play in the sprinkler?" "Play rains! Peas! Peas!" Lottie cheered while Maverick looked lost. "The water, buddy. You want to play in the water in the yard with Lottie?" Peta explained. "Yes peas." He said softly with a smile. "Let's go get your suit on Mav." Noah said standing up with Maverick's bag. "Peta, can we borrow a bathroom for a few minutes?" "Sure, straight in through the door and then to the left. First door on the left." She said with a smile. "Thanks." He said as he scooped up Maverick and headed in. Peta got Lottie changed out of her coverup and got her sun screen on while they waited. Maks went over and made sure everything was hooked up right. Noah brought Maverick out and they turned the kids loose once Maks turned the water on. He showed Peta how to shut the water off in case they finished before he and Noah were done. "You good?" Maks asked after a few minutes. "Yeah, go ahead. I'll yell if I need you or Noah." Peta said sending them off as she watched the kids as they ran and giggled through the fountain of water. 45 minutes later, Maks and Noah were done as were the kids. They were sitting on a towel in the sun drying as they ate a freeze pop. You could see they were both getting tired and crabby. "Momma, want Lily." Lottie said while she rubbed her eyes. She had just finished her freeze pop and came over to stand in front of Peta. "We can go get her baby. Let's change you first." Peta said knowingly. She scooped Lottie up and settled her on hip before turning to see Maverick was coming over to Noah as well. "Mav is right behind her. Maks I know you wanted to do the park but I don't think either of them are going to make it." "Aks. No." Lottie burst into tears suddenly. "Baby, what's wrong?" Peta said immediately trying to cuddle her baby as her sobs got worse. She started swaying in an attempt to settle the little one. "Aks, no go. No." She wailed and suddenly as if it were contagious, Maverick started crying too. "Mav, what happened?" Noah said shocked. "Maks....want unca maks." He sobbed. "Uhhh...." Maks said softly looking between both kids. "I'm still going to take her in and change her. Maybe she'll calm down. Noah, you can use the bathroom again if you want to change Maverick. I mean, I think they both need naps, but if you're okay with him sleeping either on my bed or the couch, they can nap there and then we can continue the day after?" "Yeah, let's see if he settles any then we'll go from there. Maks I'll be back." Noah said following Peta and Lottie into the house with Maverick. Maks sat there as he listened to the kids wails from inside the house. Mavericks died down slightly and eventually tapered off while Lottie's continued. Maks could hear his name mixed in with Daddy and Lily and some shrieks. "Is it okay if I lay him down at your house? I think that's going to need some assistance." Noah said as he motioned toward the house when he appeared with a nearly asleep Maverick in his arms. "Yeah, the back door is open. What do I do though man? I don't want to impose on her but I also feel bad just abandoning Lottie." Maks said as he looked as his best friend. "I think you can offer. She's let you help her this much. Offer, if she sends you away, respect that. If not help. I wish I had that help sometimes. He doesn't know a mom to miss but there's times when he just needs different comfort than I can provide him." "Uhh, okay. I guess I'll go in. Text me if you need me or when he wakes up if I'm not over there." Maks said as he came into the house. Peta and Lottie were coming into the kitchen. He and Peta met eyes and he could see she was ready to lose it. "Aksssss. Daddee. Want. Lilly." Lottie's wails continued. "Do you want me to try? I don't want to overstep." Maks said gently wanting to show Peta that he was being serious about not wanting to take over. "Yeah....I...." Peta said turning Lottie towards Maks as he accepted the little girl. Her sobs not stopping quite yet but the wails did. He began talking to her in Russian as he walked into the living room and began to walk with her. "Want daddee. Want daddee." Lottie kept murmuring as she slowly started to fade. Maks shifted Lottie so she was in the position she liked as he wrapped her blanket around her. She was already fiercely gripping Lily in her arm. He stopped looping the living room switching to just swaying as he rubbed the little girl's back. She finally fell asleep but he kept moving fully focused on Lottie in his arms. "Thank you." Peta's voice startled him out his trance. He looked over at her and caught her eyes. He could see the tears hanging out in them. "I'm sorry." He said gently. "For what? Because my child is attached to you. Because my husband died. Because she only wanted you right then. Because I'm clearly not giving her what she needs. Which one Maks? Which one?" She said as angry tears started to slip down her cheeks. "Umm, that you have to go through all of this. Alone at that." He said motioning for her to sit. He moved closer to the couch and had intended on putting Lottie on the loveseat but she clung to him in her sleep so he just kept her. Peta didn't move at first, almost as if she was refusing to sit down but then she tucked into the corner as she pulled her knees into her chest. "I shouldn't have yelled at you." She murmured as her tears continued. "Peta, you didn't yell. And you're entitled to lose it. You're going through one hell of a situation. And on top of that situation, you've moved halfway across the country where you know no one except your creepy neighbor who insists on helping you." "He is quite creepy." Peta said through her tears as he got a smile grin out of her. "There's a smile. And you've got this precious little girl who depends on you solely and you're doing everything in your power to make sure she doesn't see this happen, but it's bound to happen Peta. For both of you, you've both been through hell and back. And I don't know what's worse, being you and understanding or being her and not understanding." "I just miss him. I miss his arms. I miss his voice. I miss his smell. I miss everything. It's not fair." She said as the tears started to fall again. This time she didn't fight them as her body racked with sobs. He sat there for a while watching her not sure what to do. Eventually he couldn't stand it anymore. "Come here." He said softly as he reached for her hand. She left him pull her towards him as he tucked her into his side. He held her loosely but tightly at the same time. She knew without a doubt that if she wanted to escape his embrace, he would instantly let her. She however did not want to move. She needed this comfort and at the moment her brain just told her to accept it. So she sat there in his embrace as the tears continued to fall. Eventually she fell asleep. Maks wasn't sure what to do at first but realized that as potentially wrong as this all could be, that was as right as it felt. So he got better situated and held them both hoping that he was giving them both the comfort they needed. **That's a wrap on this one. Hope you guys liked it! 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[atypical60]

It’s now 1:03 on Sunday afternoon.  I am enjoying what most likely, will be, the last relaxing weekend of 2017.  The calm before the Holiday Storm, if you will.  Thanksgiving is this coming Thursday and I’ll be baking all Wednesday.  We’ll be spending Thanksgiving at my sister’s brother-in-law’s home. They live only 20 minutes away from us and I’m looking forward to seeing everyone.

Among the desserts that was requested was a cheesecake recipe that I had made for years.  My recipe was published in the St. Ignatius Loyola school fundraiser cookbook that the parents compiled.  I can’t believe I still have this book–it was published in 1992 and this cheesecake recipe is a great one.  It dates itself in that I don’t use margarine anymore!  Here’s the recipe for you!

I miss the Racanelli ladies–they were a lot of fun.  It’s kind of sad when you lose touch with people…

The book is literally falling apart but it’s my prized possession from my days as a NYC mom!   This recipe makes THE best cheesecake ever.  You can top with fruit too!!

Today I woke up a bit—well, somewhat feeling anxiety creeping into my bones and felt like spending the day in my bespoke pj’s.

Nah!  I did NOT want to spend the day dressed like this–actually, I did want to.

But you know what?  I can’t get like that so I did my makeup, got dressed and plopped some bobbed hair upon my head.  I feel better already!

I dressed in a fun outfit–simple but with a mid-1960’s vibe!  Let’s do the Swim or the Mashed Potato!!

Bonaparte and I decided to spend yesterday saving on spending!

Not only did the outlets have some big sales–but they had rather big balls too!!

J. Crew Factory sent me a coupon for 60% off items that were normally on sale for 50% off—so an extra ten percent was a great deal! We did some Christmas shopping and I walked away with a gray Teddie Sweater, the Factory version of my beloved J. Crew Tippi Sweater.

How pathetic am I?  I sent a photo of this dress to Oona with the message  “I wish you were a little girl again so I could dress you up like this” .   Why isn’t that dress in MY size?

I have to say, Bonaparte is so nice to me.  He called me “Mon Ange” yesterday because he said I looked like an angel.

What a man!  Do angels wear fake hair piled atop their heads in a messy topknot?  Perhaps it’s my halo! (And yes. I went out with my hair like that!)

Even when I look like something the cat dragged in, he tells me I look nice.  That was just very sweet and unexpected!  Others call me much worse!!

Seriously—I’m in a good place having gotten a head start on the Christmas décor in the house.  I can concentrate on the food and what I can prepare and bake ahead of time.

Last night we started our dinner off with Escargot—the remainder from the order that was delivered last week.

Ohhhhh..these little snails were so delicious! I could have eaten two dozen!

We had steak with an anchovy cream sauce and I made Brussels Sprouts with cranberries and a balsamic reduction.

That anchovy sauce is life. L.I.F.E!!!

And this wine.  At under $25, it was really good!  It smelled like dirt and tasted very earthy–with a bit of a smokey taste.  Me likey!

Bonaparte was so excited because on Friday I surprised him with his favorite dessert—Crème Caramel.  But, I felt like having a bit of dessert myself.  Naturally, I’m really trying to watch what I’m eating and I don’t normally have dessert.  However, when I was at Produce Junction on Friday, I spotted Bosc Pears.  They were 6 for two dollars.  Now—I’m not a fan of pears unless they are cooked and I thought I might make a Pear Clafoutis for Bonaparte.

It’s amazing how he never tires of Creme Caramel!!  NEVER!!!

Instead, I got selfish and decided to poach some of the pears.  I love cooked pears!  But I wanted to try something different.  Since the cold weather is now in full-swing, I thought it would be a good idea to try some warm flavors in with the sweet.  I added sliced ginger and cardamom for starters.  The recipe is below.

I only used four of the six pears.  I might cook the others and add to salad with bleu cheese!

Poaching away.  Some turned right side up while cooking–see where I cored them?

Here’s the cardamom.  

I store it in a plastic bottle.  This is such a beautifully aromatic spice!

Can I just tell you that when the pears were poaching the scent of the ginger made the house smell so comfy—it was as though our home had turned into a giant bottle of ginger-ale!  But the end result was terrific.  BTW, I did not add cinnamon.  I’m not a fan of cinnamon. At all.  It’s way overused.  And if you would like to try this recipe, by all means, add cinnamon to your liking!

My pretty pears.  This was delicious…

The remainder is stored in this jar.  I’m almost tempted to make a caramel cream but I’m seriously cutting down before the Holidays!

Back to Friday. My mind is always spinning when it comes to the appetizers that I’ll serve—especially during Christmas week. Oona will be here a few days before Christmas.  I think Jake will too—he hasn’t let me know yet what day he will be arriving from L.A.  I’m hoping Roman comes a few days before Christmas —but I don’t know if Fallon will be shooting through the Friday before.  Or—he may come Christmas day with his dad.  (Yes.  I’ve invited my ex-husband and his girlfriend for Christmas dinner.  It makes things easier since two of the three kids will be traveling pretty far—and everyone gets along so why not?)

Anyway, back to appetizers.  I like to make things that are pretty-much non-fussy.  For instance,  Rillettes because they can be made in advance.  With the bread that I make or with crackers, it’s a win-win situation.  Plus, I can take a few moments to enjoy time with everyone before I go back into the kitchen to finish cooking.

Pâté is always a good choice and many of the pâtés I make can be time consuming.  I want something easier.  I spotted the last container of chicken liver at Wegmans and had an idea.  I could make a chicken liver pâté!  The recipe is below for you.  I call it a “Faux-tay” simply because my food snobby Frenchman said that I didn’t serve it formed as a true pâté, in loaf form.  Anyway……

Don’t forget to strain the chicken livers before cooking!  

It was great!  He loved it.  This will be made in a few—actually three more weeks and stored in the fridge for Christmas Eve or whenever the family want’s it!

I like placing sage atop the finished product for that something extra..

The clarified butter really helps to seal the pate and it tastes good too!

This time of year really brings out the cook in me.  I’m no pro but boy, cooking is just so calming for me.

As I write this, I have chili in the crockpot.  I literally threw everything together.  Here’s what I did.

Chili in the crockpot for tonight!

Atypical60 Chili!

1 pound ground beef; 1 can kidney beans; 2 cans Rotel Tomatoes with Habanero Peppers; 1 large onion; 2 cloves garlic; 3 jalapeno peppers; tomato paste; harissa; cumin; chili powder; salt; pepper

Chop the onion, jalapenos and garlic (I pulsed in the food processor—otherwise I would cry because of the onion).  Put a little oil in a sauté pan and sweat all three till the onions are transparent.  Then spoon them into the crock pot.   Add a couple of tablespoons of tomato paste and the harissa into the onion mixture and stir (I used tubed tomato paste because it’s more economical).

HARISSA!  I LOAD up on this when I’m in France because it’s dirt cheap–I can get two tubes for about one euro!  Here is like four bucks a tube.  If you can’t find it, don’t worry–the chili will be fine! This is just my secret ingredient that is no longer a secret!  

Brown the meat in the same pan that the onions, etc. were cooked in.  When browned, drain the grease of the meat.  Then put the meat into the crock pot.

Open the cans of the Rotel tomatoes and pour contents into the crock pot.  Add the kidney beans—bean liquor and all.  Give it all a good stir.

Add the cumin (I add a lot!) and chili powder, salt and pepper.   Cook it all in the crock pot for a few hours on low.

Serve over rice topped with sour cream and fresh cilantro.

I can tell you this much—this chili has a ton of heat from the habanero’s and the jalapenos.  If you like a milder chili, get the regular Rotel tomatoes.

And that’s about it!  Hope you like the recipes and I hope you are enjoying this calm weekend before the Holiday Storm!

In homage to my outfit today, I give you…James Brown from the movie “Ski Party”!!! Part of the entertainment of this clip is watching the extreme lack of rhythm that white people have–watch the clapping!

  That Last Weekend of Calm Before The Holiday Storm—And a Few Easy Recipes For You! It’s now 1:03 on Sunday afternoon.  I am enjoying what most likely, will be, the last relaxing weekend of 2017.