#oh you know what other texture i can't stand? killmonger's scars in black panther

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(anon about the food texture)

ashley thank you so much for being so kind and validating. i’m so sick of people just calling me a picky eater and making me seem like such a struggle to deal with when i will literally vomit from eating an avocado. i’ve been looking through your autism tags and notice that there are some things on it that directly connect to me. while i’m not sure that i’m autistic, it is very validating to know that there are other people that also have those things they like/hate and that it’s not just me being “difficult” but that there’s an actual explanation for it.

people in my life probably won’t understanding of it ever but i feel so much better knowing at least one person does think i’m being dramatic, so thank you from the bottom of my heart :)

i really really hope you are doing well, and if not i hope things get better for you soon. you deserve only good things

that is so kind of you, darling, thank you. and i'm super glad that you're feeling connected and validated by the autism tags; i think that at a certain point, it doesn't really matter what you "are" so much as it matters that there's nothing wrong with being that way.

i've never had many sensory issues relating to food, but for most of my life i've had a lot of sensory issues about clothes. such as, i can't wear synthetic fabrics, i can't stand button-downs without a t-shirt beneath it, i can't stand my bra sticking to my skin, i can't stand sweaty clothes, and i used to ask my mom to hang up my shirts as soon as they were done in the dryer, because if they sat around they would get this certain texture i hated. she definitely thought that was Weird, but didn't try to force me to be 'normal', thankfully.

i also can't stand it when my skin is covered in sweat (unfortunate, since i live in southeast texas :/) - it seems to trigger a sensory overload where the sticky film on my skin is ALL i can feel and my brain is screaming "bad bad BAD". i don't know why that is, i just know that it's something i have to deal with, and the fact that it's weird doesn't change its existence.

it sounds to me that, for some reason, soft textured foods also cause you some sort of sensory overload, so your brain flips out and tries to get rid of it. the fact that that's an atypical reaction doesn't change its existence, so you have to deal with it, and no one should make fun of you for it or pressure you to subject yourself to unpleasant stimuli. it's not as though you like either vomiting or avoiding common foods, right?

this is just how your body works, so you do what's best for you, dear. eat what feels and tastes good to you, and try not to let anyone get you down. take care of yourself. <3