#oh well I am prone to ramble. it happens

[ambrosiagourmet]

hiiiii i have a quick question about no reason but to starve: when does it take place relative to the postcanon labru comic? i ask partially so i can integrate this knowledge into my understanding of laios & kabru's dynamic in nrbts, but also into my understanding of the diplomatic relationship between malini and kakha brud

(i love your fic so much thank you for your gifts to dunmeshi fandom)

Oooh fun question, thank you!! I assume you mean this comic?

This ended up being longer than intended lol, so tl;dr short answer: it would take place after the comic, though the comic is not necessarily 100% canon to it.

More details and rambling below the cut:

So, in general, I'm trying to write in a way that is compatible with, but not strictly canon to, any post-canon content we've gotten.

In part tbh that's because I had WANTED to construct the timeline with the Kensuke extra in mind but then I totally goofed it and like the story basically takes place at the exact same time that the Kensuke story would. So it ended up more being like handshake meme thematical/character similarities rather than strictly canon.

Also I don't want anyone who hasn't read the extras to have trouble following anything (which is actually why I had to go back and add a bit about the situation w/ KB during editing lol. In the rough draft it was just like yeah yeah the reparations we've all heard of them).

That is all to say the story does more-or-less take place after this comic. The way I'm thinking about it, the initial negotiations referenced in the comic sort of laid the foundation for (relative) peace and cooperation, but there are still lots of specifics to work out - that's what the current delegation is in town for. It's probably less combative then the initial, uh... conversation... but I imagine there's still a fair bit of a "wring everything we can from these people" attitude from KB, so it's a slow process with a lot more smiling and nodding and going back to grumble privately later.

In terms of Laios & Kabru I think the story fits well after the comic for their relationship too... The group of them & Marcille are very much A Unit in the point where the story picks up (with Yaad also included, but not necessarily as close as the three of them). They all have been working together for a little while now, and are all committed to the work. They know a bit about how to navigate each other, and have some rhythms they've fallen into (like Marcille checking w/ Kabru about her hair, or everyone knowing that things are tense between Laios & Yaad wrt Marriage Talk).

What's still left unsaid is a lot of the deeper, more sensitive things. Part of the reason the fic opens on the question of Laios' Political Marriage (TM) is because I think it's a good example of a thing that WOULD remain buried for a while. Laios seems to not have given himself much room to think about romance, so it's something that hasn't been addressed out in the open. But they've got to deal with it eventually!! They have a life long task ahead of them all, and shoving skeletons into closets only works for so long.

(Laios romance tangent: whether or not you read him as aro or ace (and I personally put him somewhere in some grey zone there), I don't think that's a thing he would have realized yet in canon. Repression =/= happily uninterested, and I personally think Laios has repressed that shit hard.)

Anyway, the same goes for various things with Kabru and Marcille, as well. They already trust and care about each other, but being vulnerable with other people is a long, messy process. Especially with all the baggage they have. It's something they still need to figure out!

It is also, conveniently, very fun to write about :3

[kitkatscabinet]

Your aemond in the morning post was beautiful, if you have any more aemond thoughts please share them!

I’m glad you liked my little ramble I have so many more Aemond thots thoughts but here’s some random Hcs for now. nsfw under the cut.

Regarding his blind side. Naturally, he positions himself in a way where he will always have the best view of everyone else, and he particularly keeps you in his line of vision as to best keep you safe.

It takes a long time and all of his trust but eventually he’ll let his partner operate in his blind side, serving as his eye in his stead.

With a partner that he’s truly in sync with it gets to a point where there are no words needed. All it takes is a shared look and you know where you are needed that day.

He's 100% attracted to power and confidence. He adores a challenge and someone that can keep up with him intellectually

yet I honestly believe the best match for him is a) someone that can keep up and b) a caretaker.

Aemond has never really had anyone that has truly unconditionally loved and cared for him in a healthy manner, and apart from his mother he is the primary caretaker of his fucked up family.

yes he needs an equal, a partner in machinations and politics but more than that he needs someone to ground him, to stop him from throwing himself into the fire.

Caring for Helaena is and his nephews is a must as well. He won't tolerate anyone around his sister that would further torment her.

if he is truly in love then Aemond is LOYAL, there will never be any bastard children sired by him if the marriage he finds himself in is one of love.

I am personally an inexperienced Aemond truther. The combination of hating his older brother's tendencies and that forced brothel experience means that until he marries he unfortunately does not fuck.

what he does do in preparation though is find any literature he can for 'research purposes.' He's a quick learner though and oh so desperate to please. he will do what you want when you want, dropping everything just for you.

as your relationship grows and he builds confidence, however, hoo boy.

TEASING. Aemond will 100% rile you up during a family dinner, when he takes you for a flight on Vhagar. He'll tease you awake when you refuse to leave bed and then just fuck off like nothing happened. Forcing you to wait until you retire for the night.

I don't see him as subby in the way Aegon 100% is. No Aemond is mostly in control, except for those few days when he's just so frustrated and exhausted that he needs you to take care of him.

I also don't truly see him as a hardcore dom, his entire life has been violence and I don't see him wanting to bring that into the bedroom and around you unless you specifically want it too.

He can definitely be rough, especially when he's in a mood but I think he'd be prone to dom drops a lot.

Aemond has a temper and he often makes rash and hurtful decisions, and on more than one occasion he has made some particularly nasty jabs towards you.

Something that he regularly grieves about and causes him to dom drop when he might spit some particularly filthy talk your way when you are craving rougher treatment.

I think it also links back to the way he has seen his brother treat women, the epitome of everything he absolutely does not want to be.

[retphienix]

I like playing games years after they are recommended to me :)

I'm not doing a thorough/full blog playthrough because it became evident very quickly this is an "at your own pace exploration" game and I don't have the mental vibe right now to twist that into a fun reading experience when it's gonna be a lot of hours of me wandering- often in circles :P

I'll post what I feel like.

Anyways I spent 10 years and some change exploring the crater and got a quick reminder of something I didn't 100% remember about this game.

It's time loops with the sun exploding- I now recall that I had that spoiled (does that even really count when it's the whole game?) back at launch, but I did genuinely forgor and only half remembered as I booted this up and started wandering and thought "... Oh, isn't the universe gonna pop or something?" yea

I won't ramble on Everything I've found and read so far- it isn't too much- but I will say it's neat to find another person experiencing the loop. Also when the hurricanes hit they literally just stay lounging until it puts them down lol

I will also say I went on the probe launcher thing, read about how they overcharged it and launched, went to the water planet and read more about the same thing, and then I noticed the above which confirmed something I was suspicious of.

When I started wondering on specifics of the loop I thought "Well, it's not the universe doing it, it's Nomai tech.... I need to figure out more on WHY both it's happening and affecting us through the statues."

And my lounging buddy just reminded me that we see the satellite fire on each loop.

And they said 'Maybe we shouldn't say it isn't working- it sure seems to successfully launch each loop'.

So while I don't know why the sun is accelerating it's supernova, or why the statues affect us, or blah blah blah a million things I just started-

I CAN say I have noticed that the probe satellite is launching in a different direction each reset. And since the purpose of the satellite is to launch a probe to find the Eye, and it was activated remotely (I believe, or it was the couple still alive on it but I am guessing not because don't we believe the Nomai are extinct?), I can suspect that a Nomai(s) still exist somewhere and they activated the statues so that they could launch again and again and again until they find it- and if that's the case I'd bet it's less that we were chosen by the statues and more that they activated all the statues and we happened to be there.

Anyways!

Neat game so far. I am beyond relieved that the "time limit" is less of a time limit and more of a nudge to go do another thing and stop wandering in circles lol

It gives me plenty of time for my usual Ultra Meticulous Exploration that I'm prone to doing in... well every game. I like seeing all the things and talking to all the people- it's how I play games.

But it also pushes me to go different places and I haven't felt too punished (yet).

[autisticempathydaemon]

Hi hiii!! :DDD Doing this bad boy to see what happens. >:333

What song are you fixated on at the moment? What lyric or verse, and why? Rule 34 and Dinner and Diatribes. I don't know. Something about the just barely masked tension in both those songs, the way they both fit so well with characters/ships/dynamics I adore, and their general energy and instrumentation SINGS to me. <3 <3 <3. I may not listen to them as often as others but they are my entire brain constantly. Favourite lines from both are: "You look so good There on your knees Such a good girl knows how to please Look at me look me in the eyes Forget yourself, surrender your mind" - Rule 34 (Mostly for the visuals and the change of voice) And "I knew it from the first look of The look of mischief in your eyes" - Dinner and Diatribes (This line sets the tone of the entire song so well, the visual is so interesting and the way it's sung is so intimate in a way I cannot describe. Literally so good.)

What is your Enneagram type? 4w5 :3.

Do you love gargantuan Youtube video essays, and if so, which is your favorite and why? I fucking love them so bad <3. I think currently the Lightlark and Nightbane ones by KrimsonRogue are really good. Just... so much content, and also writing advice, and also dying inside listening to a review of a cringe book. Literally sustains my life.

Tell me about your childhood imaginary friend. I didn't really have them in the traditional sense, but the closest things I had was imagining chatting with or interacting with characters I liked from shows, especially once I found visual novels XD. And that evolved into characters running around in my brain and now I am a writer. :P So. These bitches clawed their way into my head at age 10 and never left.

What is your go-to way to fall asleep? Rain sounds. Storm sounds. Wind sounds. Especially if they just come from outside but I also do just put them on on my computer and turn off the screen often, letting them play on the stereo. :P

If you had to change your name, what would it be, and why? (In tandem, if you have changed your name, why did you pick that one?) Names are fucking weird man. I am currently in the process of reconsidering mine, and I am starting to like the idea of something more wacky, and star themed, or snow themed. :P I don't know if I'd like it long term but Redacted and DnD have very much warmed me up to names like that lol.

What is your favorite of Redacted’s audios, and why? Why must I chose one? You're so mean. Uuuuum... Deferred Judgment methinks. It shows a lot of Vega's softness and even some selflessness, while also a bit of the risk that his mission entails and MAN- THE EMOTIONAL IMPACT WHEN IT CAME OUT WAS SO MUCH. I hated it way back when but damn... it was really good. Still is. Cannot wait to see him again. Miss him real bad.

What Redacted boy holds no appeal to you, and why? Like, not the one you hate but the one who you don’t get the hype for. (I won’t judge, I promise.) Um... Guy, Ollie, NICK. OH GODS NOT NICK. And most of the fooliverse boys besides Milo. I am not exactly the type for sweet boys. I like some of them but their chaos or overt sweetness is... too much.

Tell me about that one book/movie/tv show you know all the words to. Can't say I have gotten that obsessed with media like that sadly. I am more of a Podcast/ASMR/Audioplay/Music person buuuut... hm... I mean- does a book I'm writing count??? I have quite a bit of the words of that thing up in the noggin often. It's not done yet but :P.

Which Redacted boy are you platonically attracted to? Like- forget dating, which dude do you want to be your best friend? Oh man. Damien. He is super similar to me in his passion and his love of learning and his general personality (minus the anger, that I am less prone to.) And the other boys up on top of my list I am more queerplatonic about so. :P

Do you have a go-to thing you ramble about when you’re tired, and if so, what is it? (For example, my boyfriend knows I’m ready to sleep when I start talking about space.) Oh no I will ramble about anything at any time. <3 <3 <3. I am not well ever <3.

Tell me your go-to gas station and drink combo. Spicy or Soup chips (Salt and Vineger, Chili/Cheese, etc), often Doritos or Cheetos (or Hickery Sticks if they have them), and either mineral water or an orange Soda/Slushy. And if it's cold I often go chips, sour candy and hot cocoa <3.

Tell me about your favorite playlist at the moment.  Hozier's Unheard and Wasteland Baby. Both have songs I utterly adore.

What’s your guilty pleasure media, and why? None. I feel guilty about nothing that I consume <3 <3 <3.

And whatever else you think tells me about who you are! I am a lover of art and the arts, and am actually studying art currently for my major. I would consider myself very much Vampiric in some ways (My disconnect in the way I write/speak from a specific time period or place, humanity is familiar but also fucking weird, the sun burns, I'm dramatic and want the fashion to prove it, blood good (no I won't explain) etc.), and I am a weird philosophical bastard who likes to make characters out of vague concepts, and then explore them to their most painful depth. Also varied morality and/or moral quandaries are very important to me. Morality is a weird soup and I like to play with it. (Ironic since my own morals are so strict and fixed, and yet I love writing characters who have different ones.) Aka Evil Bitches Good. And also I am one of them (if only as a writer. Love writing cruel angst to hurt my friends and characters with <3 <3 <3.) Anyhow that's all for me for now. <3 <3 <3 (Hope this is not too obscenely long.)

Pssssst- .3. Hellooo- I submmited a matchup thing but I think I did an oopsie XD. I'm an Enneagram 5w4 but I think I flipped them. So- just saying that. If it changes anything lol- My baddd- I just noticed when thinking on it. :P

Hmm, this enneagram type is characterized as creative, intelligent, and stubborn, with something to prove to the world- which tracks as you relate to Damien. With that in mind, who else could I pair you with but Huxley?

Huxley is a kind, patient, go with the flow kind of guy but not too silly which you said you don’t vibe with. You give me the impression of an insular, cerebral person, someone with a lot of ideas and thoughts that need to be finalized and put on paper, and Huxley seems like a good partner to help with that, to be your rock (ha) and help you keep those trains of thought on track while also being vocally supportive and hyping up your work the whole time. He’s sweet to you but not so sweet he doesn’t love you and your love of villains and their fucked-up deeds.

And it’s a wonderful love Huxley gives you every day, with the sturdy support and cool shade of a great tree. When you’re studying or doing schoolwork, he’s always there bringing you water or food, massaging your shoulders if you’ve been slouching. He listens to your rambles with rapt attention and affection, retaining every detail. He is your beta reader and biggest fan. He drives you to and from school with a thermos of homemade hot chocolate because his leagues is better than the store-bought stuff, and he won’t let you forget it.

Song:

And I remember being younger and my mother told me the truth/ Find someone who grows flowers in the darkest parts of you/ Take heed when things get hard and don't you ever turn around/ You'll find someone, someday, somewhere that grows you to the clouds

I feel like this song choice needs no explanation. One, the vibes are kind of just right if you’re a Hozier fan; the folk-y, country-like longing is just what the matchmaker prescribed (the matchmaker being me). Two, it’s delightfully charming and ironic given your dislike of the sun and the pet name of Sunflower I will soon have him give you.

Runner-ups:

Cam is a fun runner-up for you because I think he, as a therapist, would have a lot to contribute to your writing and dissection of villains along with the empathy to see the depth and dimension you want to give them. Lasko is another runner-up I like given how much you relate to Damien, because Damien/Lasko has always struck me as a darling pair, two sides of the same coin.

Bonus: (For you, my one hundredth match-up~)

“Sunflower…”

“Fifteen more minutes, Hux; I’ve almost figured this out.”

“You said that forty-five minutes ago, baby,” Huxley says with a soft, warm laugh and big, warmer hands on your shoulders, gently turning your chair around. “It’s time for bed.”

“But my chapter-“ you say with a tone you won’t admit has a hint of a whine.

“Will be there tomorrow,” he interrupts, taking your hand and gently tugging you out of your chair against your weak protests. “And you’ll be able to write and edit it even better once you’ve slept.” You fall into the bed with a fwump, a deep sigh, and a muttered stream of thought falling out your lips like the air out of a balloon. The earth elemental can pick out odd, familiar words in the ramble like “heart”, “stars”, and “Vega” and chuckles as the stream peters off into slow breaths and soft snores. Huxley queues up a familiar YouTube video on the tv, a ten hour loop of light rain showers, and places a blanket over your sprawled, sleeping body.

“Good night, Sunflower,” he says softly, pressing a light kiss on the top of your head before climbing into bed beside you, turning off the light with a fond, content smile.

Read this post and send me an ask if you’d like a match-up of your own! 💌

[danthediamondminecart]

yO

guess who couldn't hold it in

(I WONT SPAM I PROMISE 😃😃😃😭😭😭👍👍👍👍)

I just wanted to ask a teeny tiny lil question, can you give us a semi-detailed summary of how you potray the BLSMP battlers????

Like how do u wanna show them in the series, cuz i have a feeling we r potraying them VERY differently, and i wanna know how YOU think of them before i start to theorize once again >:3 (hopefully i will soon)

And also, ships. Can you ramble abt rbb ships?? U said u were gonna ramble abt some??? Im still waitin' Xd

Cuz some of them r so weird dude like WHAT 😭😭😭😭🤚🤚🤚🤚

I’ll start with the ships question first, because I feel like the second question is a hell of a loaded one. Basically, I’m not a shipper, and don’t really get it. But ship and let ship, don’t ship and let ship, as long as you’re not being an asshole about it, I won’t get upset. Hence why I haven’t made one of ‘em ‘ranking ships’ lists, because I really don’t care.

Won’t stop me from having capital-O-Opinions, though. My friends will know that TanqrCraft became a bit of a NOTP for me because of its overabundance and some poor interactions with the forefathers of the ship (2021/2022 RBB fandom was wild, guys, be glad you weren’t there), and my theory on PinkNebula feels controversial, as I've said. I am slowly working on the PinkNebula essay, but it’s not a priority, so it might not come out for a while.

As for the second question, as much as I love rambling about characterisation, I think attempting to show how I characterise all fourteen of BLSMP’s main cast (including Jimmy and Russo) would be quite difficult, especially trying to keep it short. I do have my hypothetical 'bios' for a hypothetical ref sheet, but those are as much about their backstories and set-up than it is about their personalities.

So…who’s up for a drabble under the cut? This is something that I feel like definitely happened during BLSMP, but it doesn’t fit anywhere during the story, plus you know the cast, so you don’t need a scene like this.

Perhaps I'll post this as supplemental material (like, in a separate 'work') on AO3?

“You know, Russo.” Jimmy pipes up, snapping Russo out of his thoughts. “Remind me. How many Robloxians got trapped again?”

“Twelve.” Russo answers. “How come?”

“Well, you know. I don’t know any of them, and I kinda want to know a little bit about your friends! Well, I know, BigB, but you get the gist.”

“Jim, if I attempted to explain my friends to you, we’d be here all day.” Russo chuckles a bit.

“Okay, well, why don’t we make it a game?” Jimmy suggests. “You attempt to explain your friends to me in 3 sentences or less.”

“Oh?” Russo raises an eyebrow, so Jimmy elaborates.

“Like, uh, using BigB as an example. Kind but mischievous, enjoys mucking about, cares deeply for his friends.”

“Hmm. Okay, I can do that, though I’m probably going to go over the limit. Repeatedly.” Russo takes a second to think, before starting. “We’ll go in alphabetical order:”

“AshleyTheUnicorn, RB Battles S2 finalist. Fearless, reckless, goes headfirst into battle, always encouraging her friends to be the same, BigB, we both know and love him, but he’s a little quieter around Robloxians from what it sounds like, DenisDaily, also a finalist - can charm anyone that he meets with just his smile, generally more aloof unless it’s a matter to do with someone’s wellbeing, DylanHyper, though we usually just call him Hyper - yet another finalist, prone to nervousness but also the smartest person in a room, if he's got a plan for something he'll have considered every detail, Flamingo, aka Albert, lover of chaos and breaker of rules, the type of person to kidnap people for fun, but does love his companions in his own way-"

“Slow down, what do you mean kidnap-"

“KreekCraft! Another finalist and the former victor. Jack-of-all-trades, super confident as long as you don’t question him and his determination is unmatched (even when it gets unhealthy), LeahAshe, finds it easy to make friends and teases them all, generally likes to act as both a mediator and as the cause of strife, adaptable but cowardly at times, MeganPlays, likes to know everything she can about everything and is always curious, a bit of a pessimist, and tends to hold grudges for longer than she can even remember, PinkLeaf, quiet and dislikes social situations, but with one heck of a temper so don’t anger him (we all think he’ll be the favourite to win Season 3), prefers to run away from fights both verbal and physical, iAmSanna, or just, well, Sanna, unafraid to speak her mind even with a sword pointed at her, super perceptive and spots everything, prone to intense emotions of whatever variety, Sketch, an ‘act-first-ask-questions-later’ kind of guy, likes to mess about and has a tendency to end up as a bit of a load, will look out for his team though always himself first, Finally, there’s TanqR, current reigning champion. Normally laid back and chill but has a fiery side, likes his control, likes the fact that people are intimidated by him, would rather solve his problems through punching.”

“Okay, there’s a lot you glossed over there, but I won’t bring it up.” Jimmy’s still reeling from the ‘kidnaps people for fun’ comment. “Ooh, ooh, actually, do me! You’re good at the 3-sentences thing, do me!”

“Hmm…only if you do me. SolidarityGaming, you’re, hm…prone to yelling and making mistakes, but more courageous than you first appear, and dedicated to whatever cause you choose.”

“Aww, that’s…you know, with the way that started, I really wasn’t expecting you to be nice there.” Jimmy admits, somewhat bashful. “As for you…well, you’re optimistic at all times and clearly will do whatever it takes to protect your friends, though I have to say, you’ve got some wild ideas.”

“I’m going to take that last part as a compliment.” Russo jokes, leading Jimmy to giggle.

“Well, your friends sound like a colourful bunch.”“We’ve gotten pretty good at controlling the more chaotic personalities. Uh, not perfect, but pretty good.” Russo replies.

“I certainly hope so.”

[purpurussy]

literally haven't eaten anything all day (it's gone 7pm) or been outside in several days or slept more than 4 hours/night in the last week so im probably just being insane for no reason atm but

i feel like I'm at a weird sort of crossroads with this blog?

when i made this account i saw it as kind of an experiment in vulnerability and positivity. i said i'm gonna try my best to post what's in my heart and not care whether it does numbers or not. if people like it they like it, if not that's okay because i like it and i'm having fun. and i'm gonna practise some kind of general radical positivity/acceptance towards others too. like i promised myself i would not allow this to be anything other than a positive experience, a nice opportunity to express myself in a way that's disconnected from how people see me irl and maybe connect with likeminded people along the way

and once i started writing fic i literally couldn't stop, like the idea of being able to share my writing and have other people enjoy it too is so exciting and motivating to me. there is so much happening in my google docs atm and it feels so good to be writing again after years of feeling too depressed to create anything

however unfortunately i am the grumpiest most insecure person on earth and i have never let go of anything in my life. i've already been unable to stop myself from wading into discourse™ and the general social media fomo/insecurity is starting to get to me. like when did i go from just gleefully shouting into the void, to constantly checking my activity, trying to figure out the best times to post, literally crying when my stuff doesn't do as well as i wanted it to??? taking note of which posts flopped and which ones did well, so i can post more of the popular content instead of just posting what i want. none of this is even real, yet it's been bothering me in a very real way. most of which is just my brain turning it into a negative experience for fully self-imposed reasons

i do think social media is poison in general. and i know it does not work at all for someone who is very prone to having a complete menty b at the first sign of any kind of rejection. and i know a big part of the problem is that i'm attaching too much value to this blog and how people respond to my posts (I have been connecting with my friends irl more lately, but social media is literally designed to prey on the part of your brain that perceives social rejection as a threat to your existence so unfortunately it feels like this matters to me a lot more than it should. also my irls do not want to hear about dan and phil lmao)

idk if i should just accept that this is not good for me and delete, or if it's possible to once again achieve the carefree fun i was having at first. maybe if i can work on my irl issues i'll start to feel a bit better and then it won't bother me as much?

i'm also sort of wondering how much i should reveal about myself? like i want to feel completely free to post as much cringe/insanity/weird smut as I want. and if i was posting in a way that would be easily traceable back to my actual identity then i'd definitely be a lot more careful with what i say. but on the other hand i wanna get to know people better! it would be fun to hop into a discord and actually have a conversation with people rather than just rambling in the tags on their posts. so i'm not really sure what to do with that either. it's kinda fun to truly exist as a completely formless entity in a way, like im literally just tumblr dot com slash purpurussy and there's something freeing about that, even if it does make me feel like i'm missing out on a chance to connect with people properly sometimes

also that idea scares me! everyone on here is genuinely so cool and wonderful and it gives me such a huge dopamime hit when someone i admire likes my stuff. so it's just scary to interact with people more because it feels like oh no they're gonna realize im actually a cantankerous little troll that lives under a bridge and is a nightmare to talk to lmfao

this makes no sense and i'll probably delete it in a bit i just had to get it off my chest

[asteria-argo]

If you are looking to ramble about Disaster Prone Teenagers, I’d love to know what both of their families look like in this AU?

Like for instance- does this mean that Eddie has oldest sister problems? Is she roped into babysitting her baby sisters all the time? Is most of their family still in Texas? Does her dad travel back and forth? Did he even make it to her quinceañera?

Assuming Buck’s home life is similar, what about the Maddie-and-Doug situation? Is Maddie perhaps keeping her sister at more of an arms length, more afraid of what Doug might do if Buck were to run her mouth around him? Does Buck still have a motorbike at that age that she rides around like a jackass? Does she have the exact same haircut?

My Most Beloved Mutual Readwing I am kissing you on the mouth I love you SO much for this ask. Their family situation is one of the main things that I am rotating in my brain constantly since I first came up with this AU a few months ago.

We'll start with Eddie, because I love her a lot and she means everything to me. Eddie's family, her mom, dad and two sisters are all still in El Paso. She moved to LA for what was supposed to be one summer after a Traumatic Event that is a whole post on its own to live with tia pepa and her abuela and then she just... never went back?

She has that Eldest Daughter Syndrome where she'd been raising her sisters since she was barely in double digits and moving to LA was the first time she really got to just be a teenager without the burden of being the second parent while her dad was busy with work. The deal was always that she would go back to El Paso eventually, but the more time she spends away the less she wants to go back. She definitely has a lot of guilt about it, because she feels like she's abandoning her sisters, and her parents don't really help with that because they want her home regardless of the fact she's happier in LA.

As for the Quinceanẽra, after a brief amount of research I have discovered that around the time the Traumatic Event took place would have been when she was supposed to be having it, so there's some fun angst potential there where I think Eddie ended up missing out on that milestone. There's also some solid potential for a hurt/comfort fic where she finally gets to have it, just a little later than normal, but I would have to do more research into it before writing anything like that since I'm not that well versed in the cultural significance of Quinceanẽras. Clipboard Buck helping her best friend plan her Quinceanẽra is a very fun potential fic in the verse though.

And Buck, oh the Buck of it all. Buck's family life is actually a lot different in this AU, unlike Eddie's whose is mostly the same just adjusted for teen angst instead of grown up angst, mainly because Daniel lived in this AU. At least until Buck was about 14.

It changes everything and nothing at the exact same time. Buck grows up being constantly micromanaged, not because her parents are worried about her, but because they don't want something to happen to her in case Daniel needs her. Daniel, being a reasonable person, thinks this is absolutely insane and does his best alongside Maddie to give Buck a semi regular childhood despite the pair of them having their own issues with their parents. Then, Maddie meets Doug, and it's just Daniel helping keep Buck afloat in their house.

When Daniel is 22, and Buck is 14, he goes into kidney failure. He doesn't survive, and their parents blame Buck, who refused to donate one of her kidneys too him. The first time Maddie sees Buck since she moved to Boston with Doug at 19 is at Daniels funeral.

Maddie and Doug move back to Hershey after Daniel dies. Things get steadily worse over the next year, Doug proposes to Maddie and they get engaged at the same time Doug becomes more outwardly abusive, the Buckley parents become steadily more neglectful of Buck in their grief over Daniel, which leads to Buck spending more time with Maddie in order to get away from them. which opens the door for two things. Buck sees how terrible Doug is to Maddie, and Maddie sees how terrible their parents are to Buck. This culminates in the two of them running away to LA together the night of Maddie and Dougs rehearsal dinner, after Maddie sees Doug get violent with Buck, because while I don't think she would be ready to leave for herself, I think she would for her baby sister.

As for Bucks hair I genuinely have,,, so many thoughts about it. I think Buck is a very stereotypical pretty, feminine cheerleader archtype. She's got this long, curly blonde hair that has always been at least mid back length since she was 10 years old, which is why when she chops most of it off during a Dramatic Moment and gives herself the classic bisexual bob it's a major deal for everybody involved. Which is in itself it's own fic about self image and expectations ect ect that I can and will get into eventually.

[arielmagicesi]

ok finished CBS Ghosts because again, I have nothing else to do for a few more days... Definitely grew attached to the characters. I’m less annoyed that Trevor is Jewish now that they’ve hardcore leaned into it so it’s not, like, he’s just an evil money-loving man that happens to say oy gevalt, he’s just a douchey frat bro with a surprising heart of gold who’s confirmed Jewish, which is whatever who cares. also I continue to have mixed feelings on Christmas Episodes- they’re usually the ones where we get to see the main crew in shows bond and have sweet loving friendship moments, which I love, but it’s also always in service of teaching everyone that Loving Christmas Is Equivalent To Morality, which is super weird, especially in the context of a several-thousand-year-old caveman who initially found Christmas to be a “new fad” saying that it might stick around (very “well, the other fads didn’t have Jesus Christ on their side” energy), or a Viking who was initially mad that Christmas appropriated his culture deciding that he “learned his lesson” that it’s about friendship instead? Again, I love Robin and Thor learning to soften a bit and accept the love of their found families, but what does that have to do with Christmas? (you can say the same for Abed Nadir or Leslie Knope or Frasier Crane, the list goes on) ANYWAY sorry for my annoying rants which I’m sure someone will come educate me on how it’s problematic of me to be Jewish or whatever, sorry, it’s not really specific to this show, I’m just PMSing which gives me a tendency to ramble on about unrelated things.

But re: the show itself I think CBS Ghosts is very cute and charming and heartwarming, and it’s fun to see them explore stuff that BBC Ghosts doesn’t. Like, it feels like fanfic in the sense that it’s self-indulgent, but instead of being self-indulgent with the specific details like regular fanfic, it’s self-indulgent about plot stuff, which I love. It’s like “fuck it, let’s have the ghosts be able to possess people. Fuck it, let’s have ghost romances and ghost romantic drama. Fuck it, let’s have Sam run into ghosts of people who are relevant to her life and the past lives of her ghost friends” which would not work with the more carefully crafted worldbuilding in the BBC version and would kind of feel like it was cheapening it, like “oh really, now the ghosts can just do anything? so all those emotional moments feel sort of unearned” but in the CBS version it’s already MUCH more lighthearted (again, I know they’re both comedies, but the BBC one is a little more... grounded? Well-written? Idk how to describe it) so it’s like, why not explore wacky Ghostbusters-level antics? It’s like the Three’s Company to the BBC version’s, idk, Parks and Rec. They’re both silly sitcoms but a Three’s Company plotline would feel out of place in Pawnee. Again, I am prone to rambling. But the point is that both shows are fun, even though I do like the BBC version better. It is weird that they currently have the same number of episodes released due to American seasons being way longer lol.

Also I thought it was fun how both Curtis and Cary from The Other Two AND Derek from Shadows show up in it

[ghostflowerhotpotch]

Oh sorry to hear you had been in pain, can we ask what it is? If you don't mind telling.

Normally I would try to redirect to at least my main account, but I also haven't really talked about it there. Guess since I was the one who brought it up may as well talk about it a bit.

A few years ago I broke my ankle, which ended up giving me arthritis, I also had some nerve damage in my knee because last November I had an accident with my knee being lightly stabbed. I am hypermobile in some of joints (very common with Neurodivergent people somehow,) which makes me more accident prone.

I also use light sensitivity glasses and will try to stay with headphones on most of the time I am outside to handle noise since I have auditory processing issues.

Mental health wise is a shit show, I have Autism and Adhd, these were diagnosed late, which ended up with me having Anxiety and Depression at a very early age.

I don't want to throw a name at this since I haven't been diagnosed, but more times than I would like I had issues at work because something (a song, a picture, something someone said,) may end up giving me a panic attack, or too anxious to talk properly; thankfully nothing really big has happened but it leaves me like a shaking chihuahua for the rest of the day. There is more to it but I don't want to make this too long.

Those would be the most pressing issues.

Oh jeez, this became a bit too long, sorry for the ramble. If I am honest mentally health-wise, I have never been better.

[trenchcoatsbi]

hallo!! its your nonbinary egg prosecutor again to talk about kin stuff :DDD, I hope you guys are doing alright with the entire thing with wil..and because rn things on the qsmp are a bit of a mess with the team, but I'm here to whip you guys back to reality and send you a lot of hugs!! this is a bit of a random thing but usually when I kinshift to franziska I picture myself as her young self either baby fran (that is basically child franziska) like rn or rookie prosecutor where she was like 13 and rarely when she is 18, maybe because I'm a teenager?? but I'm not really sure I was wondering if it could be an agere thing but I am not so sure about that either, regardless of that I'm feeling much more calm regarding everything that has been going on qsmptwt is burning ig? but eh not my issue at all I'm sure things will turn out fine in the end, I have faith in quackity as well as the admins

welp! see you later folks!!! please take care of yourself :DDD

-(cannon divergent llulah anon) franziska von karma ace attorney⭑

oh geez i didn't realize this was still in the inbox! I coulda sworn that I responded to it! ah curse my faulty memory! anywho geez sorry for leaving you on read so to say? i mean its not a big deal i just ughghg I like talkin to ya. lowkey sucks to realize i've left ya hanging but eh that's just how it is sometimes.

anyway franziska!! hi hello! happy to hear from you again :]! Hope things are all good with you too! Stuffs been fucked lately but I'm gonna pull through, t's gonna take a lot more than a little stress to kill me. [also thanks for the hugs. sending some your way too! hope they find you well]

Kinda piggy backin off of your thought cause t's really interestin to me. I remember a lil while back I'd align a lot more with the uh younger version of one of my kintypes but with time it's kinda shifted? idk augh I'm just more prone to reminiscing abt stuff that's more related to source which happened when I was older.

Just in general I've been thnking abt how like almost all of my kintypes are older than me rn. Feels weird tbh always thinkin I'm older than I am, but eh t's probably just a me skill issue on top of my habit of being old men in terms of kin stuff. Seriously some one stop me from being old geezers with children, I'm too young to be adopting people at the rate I've been at it...

Anyway I'm gonna just cut myself off there. The rest of my rambling can go into my private journal it's all a bit much haha. aight I'm gonna get back to responding to asks faster again I swear. I'm gonna claw my way back into being on top of things one way or another. I miss this blog which is a weird thing to say but idk I think about yall anons a lot. You all take care and all that! The eleventh month anniversary is right around the corner (it's the 16th so uh yeah literally just right there) and I might be sappy abt it again but I think I'll save the really sappy shit for the 1 year anniversary. yall watch out!!! it's ridiculous how easy it is for me to be emotional abt people I pretty much just know through an inbox.

[hekate1308]

Give me that, before anything happens.

Prompt: "Give me that, before anything happens."

Fandom: Supernatural

Pairing: Drowley

When Dean wakes up and finds himself alone in bed, he immediately gets up because it’s not like Crowley not to let him know when something’s gone wrong. There’s too much at stake for both of them if he wouldn’t.

So, really, he should not be surprised to find a guy he has never seen lying unconscious on the living room floor, but he sort of is, especially because his husband is holding –

“What the – how did you – “

He did not even know that they keep a gun in the house – he would have opposed it. He too clearly remembers Dad’s drunken rambles around with his own.

“I was just dealing with this –“                                                                

“Dealing? That’s not – give me that, before anything happens.”

And he does actually manage to take the gun out of his husband’s hand, studying the prone body in front of them. At least he only hit him over the head and didn’t actually use the gun. Then they would be in real trouble.

Not that they are not in a spot of bother as it is. It’s bad news that someone managed to break into their house. They’ve gone to great lengths to make sure their address is nowhere to be found – Charlie was a big help in that regard – and only friends and family know where they live.

“What were you planning on doing, anyway?” Dean asks.

“First of all we need to know how he found us” Crowley says matter-of-factly, leaning down. “Would you get me some rope? I’d say he’s going to wake up in about ten minutes, and I’d like to secure him before that.”

Dean knows this is not the time to start discussing things, so he does what Crowley tells him. He’s very good with knots anyway, since Dad insisted on taking him out hunting from the time he could walk.

“So what do we think?” he asks as they are working away. “Revenge? Or a hit?”

Crowley shrugs. “Probably no professional. He was too loud for that – when I came downstairs, he’d barely made it into the living room.”

Really his own fault, Dean thinks – if one wants to catch his husband, it’s not enough to get up early – one should not go to bed at all.

“Sorry about the blood on the carpet.”

Dean shrugs. “some things can’t be helped. AT least it’s the old one.”

“Oh, I made sure of that.”

And that’s just the thing – Sam can complain all he wants that Dean married a bastard, and he’s not even wrong about that, but deep down, Crowley is a big softie who would do anything for those he loves, and Dean’s just lucky enough to be one of them.

“I’ll call Gavin and Fiona” he therefore announces, “Just making sure all is well.”

“Thank you, darling” Crowley drawls before pulling him into a short kiss. “I’ll stay here with our guest, just in case.”

Yes, just in case he has to cut his throat or do something else drastic, but Dean doesn’t mention it.

It quickly turns out that everything is fine on Gavin’s and Fiona’s end, even if they sound rather worried, but Dean assures them they have everything under control and hangs up.

The man is just coming around when he returns to the living room. “All’s well. Nothing on their end.”

Crowley nods at him gratefully before turning to the man and saying calmly, “Since I assume you know who I am, you must be aware that this was a very stupid thing to do.”

The guy stares at both of them with big eyes.

“Now” Crowley announces, “You have about one minute for telling us what you were doing here and who sent you before I start to take measures…”

As it turns out, their guest is not as stupid as he looks (as his husband would say) because he immediately starts talking.

When he is done, Crowley brings down the handle of the pistol on his head once again and shakes his head. “Simmons” he mutters, “One really should think she should be happy enough that she got to take over the organization when I left.”

Sometimes, Deans till marvels that he did. But his simple ultimatum – Crowley could either have him or his mob, but not both – had the desired effect.

“We’ll have to deal with her, won’t we” he sighs as they carry the guy to the car. He’ll wake up at the other side of town, no doubt feeling very lucky.

“If we want to continue living here” Crowley says, sounding just a little bit too gleeful, but Dean supposes he can’t begrudge him a bit of fun.

“Fine. Let’s deal with this, then we can decide what to do.”

Crowley looks at him, his eyes sparkling, and Dean can’t help but grin, feeling like the luckiest guy in the world.

[squibbymun]

I genuinely forgot I gave Emperor a disability (He has problems with his ink pressure which makes him very prone to melting i wrote a whole post about it) but ANYWAYS i wrote some lore for it get jumpscared

do however keep in mind that i wrote this in dms to a friend randomly at 3 am because twitter was down so its not written in the most eloquent manenr but it should do the job okay GO

Considering that recovering from melting makes you so exhausted, Emperor was probably. very tired all the fucking time. hes probably still tired a lot actually thats why he conks out so damn hard. probably made him very irritable which you can imagine didnt help. It was probably an issue more-so when he was younger because it DID get better as he got older but after practice for the day he would immediately conk out. Gets home and he instnatly falls asleep for like. awhile ? I have no idea how long but he probably sleeps longer than average. Probably snacks on shit a lot (shoutouts to carbohydrates and sugar for the momentary energy boost). Between being stressed about people finding out and about training he was not fucking vibing. Now heres smth Navy and Emperor related though- During that 30 matches thing Emperor would strategically let Navy splat him. Why ? Respawning restabilized his ink pressure!! Probably not for TOO long but enough for the rest of a match so that means that Navy always got atleast 1 splat in during those battles Also Emperor definitely bought. some type of snake oil at some point. You know how people are like ''Buy this thing from me and youll be cured of whatever'' yeah Emperor was probably scared enough of people finding out he fell for one of those. THANKFULLY he ended up realising it was a scam and hes rich so he didnt lose a lot of money but its still sad how he was so worried about the public finding out about this that he got himself roped into a scam Also i entirely forgot about the melting feeling either numb or ''that tingly feeling your leg gets when it goes numb'' and oh my god that must be fucking horrible to be happening on your ears/face. Sometimes emperor's ears will just twitch WILDLY and no one knew why. Thats the fucking reason hes trying to shake out the fucking TINGLING. Thats not even getting into how worst it would be for reverse emperor (stressed all the time,even more so than regular emperor, anxious, doesnt eat as much because he just cant find the energy to eat before conking out, hes younger than regular emperor so hes more prone to it yadah yadah poor guys not handling it well its a shocker no ones realised smth is up)

ANOTHER THING the reason emperor didnt show any symptoms earlier is either because he was just nowhere near as active (really depressed 10-14, hes a rich white kid so not much to be stressed about yadah yadah that kinda stuff) or because symptoms only started showing when he reached humanoid form. I still havent decided on which one is canon but its one of those. Regardless he thought it was normal for everyone to be like that when they first get their humanoid forms until he randomly googled it when he was 15 one day and went ''oh.''

Anyways thats all i have thank u for reading my insane emperor ramblings

[vostok3-ka]

heyo friend! this is my official request to learn more info and/or backstory on Snowy Plain, White Moon, if you feel inclined to share :)

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HEY HEY FRIEND! You've asked this just as I updated the fic oh my goodness!!! Thank you so much for the ask, I'm so excited to ramble on about it because I love it so much, it's so gentle to me, and yet still somewhat uncanny.

Got the inspiration for it from a movie called Compartment No. 6 (an absolutely beautiful Russian-Finnish film that won multiple awards and yet I feel like it's very underrated!) I was like yo what if I put Bucky on a train and set the fic entirely around the train (the train is a character in the tags lmao), and I was also feeling very frustrated (I'd just watched The White Sound with Daniel Bruhl which is so heartbreaking and warm and kind all at the same time, would recommend even though it is a student film) about the lack of schizophrenia portrayal that doesn't make the schizophrenic out to be a nutcase, or a psychopath, or a tragic story and I just HAD to write in schizophrenia as an every-day way, as well as I wanted to subtly delve into Bucky's past with hints here and there as to what his time with the Soviets were like.

I also wanted to write a fic that kind of showcased Bucky's struggle with social skills, seeing as he literally had them all scooped out, scrambled and shoved back into him multiple times, and I wanted to focus more on the dissociation that he is bound to have, what with him losing time, losing awareness- feeling hazy. He feels like he is moving through a dream, he feels not quite reel, as if he is split in half, as if the winter soldier was somebody else and it had never happened to him, except he knows it happened to him because he wakes up with the taste of blood in his mouth and the smell of burning buildings choking him. He wakes up with flashes of his victims screaming, his victims dying in silent gurgles as they breathe in blood, the sounds of gunshots echoing through his mind. So they MUST have happened to him. He has nerve damage from all the electroshock therapy dialed up to a thousand he had to endure, it IS real, and yet doesn't feel real

I also am a sucker for the uncanny, it's the SCP fan in me, I think, so I had to add in a creepy element, and yet Bucky's so disconnected from everything that he finds it scary in the moment, but the fear fizzles out, because he doesn't feel alive. So I kind of wrote him as not really being able to care beyond terrifying flashes of clarity. He's a walking mess that boy.

I will also admit I have no idea what I'm doing with every single word as I write this fic, I don't have it plotted out, I just have a general goal and a rough idea in my head lmao, but I'm enjoying writing in all the aspects of Bucky I really want to see myself but cannot find in other fics, as well as I am enjoying myself making it subtly funny in a strained sort of way, like things are hysterical only because they're not quite right!

Alexei is a fun one to write. He's young, still in university, has a regular part-time job at a regular place, and yet he's ill. He's schizophrenic, he's been to psychiatric hospitals, and yet he has a life. He isn't a psychopath, isn't prone to violence, is somewhat aware of his condition, and is as silly and stupid as anybody in their early 20s (this includes me. i am 20. i am thoroughly stupid in many areas 😂) He however has a background with Bucky, one that I'm yet to reveal, and I think it makes him more aware, sharper, he KNOWS what Bucky is like, and he feels comfortable with him. The fact as to why they are on the same train I still haven't completely written out but I have the plot point down and it's borderline silly, serious and unreal, like I have tried to make everything in this fic feel like!

Panarin, the soldier, I wrote as being a regular soldier, climbing the ranks regularly, as any other soldier would do in the military, and he is somehow the image of Bucky in a different universe. Bucky could have been him. Could have lived a regular life as well as being a soldier during WWII. They're like broken mirrors. Panarin is a soldier. Bucky was The Soldier. It's different, and yet they come from the same essence. It's an interesting dynamic to write, and I think once Panarin figures out who Bucky is he's going to have the shock of his life.

Bucky also feels guilt for his time during the USSR, but at the same time he is so proud, he's so damn proud, he was the pride and heart of the nation at one point in time, before Hydra got their grubby hands on him even while the USSR was still around, and he feels so ill at the thought of this. He isn't supposed to be proud, proud of the rank he got in the USSR military but was never acknowledged in the States. Somewhere inside of him, he's feels affection for the communist cause and he hates this, he hates it so much it drives him insane so he tries not to think about it.

But yeah! I honestly lost the motivation to write for this fic for a while, but I got some real sweet comments that just kickstarted it all back up and I'm buzzing with excitement to get back onto wrapping it all up!!! Cannot wait to share more of it with you ;)

Thank you so much for the ask, I honestly coulda talked more about it, but the answer was getting way too long LMAO. Hope your day is absolutely lovely!!! :)) <3<3<3

[mysumeow]

Hello!! I've been a huge fan of your work for some time now, actually. I actually like your writing style because it's neat and somehow appealing to my eyes, from one writer to another! I'd like to try this matchup game and this is also my first time as well😭😭 I hope I'm doing this right. I'd like a genshin matchup please and thank you!!!

For appearance, I have long hair and I work out from time to time. I'm skinny with a slight curve!!! Working on that. I do dancing but never singing because many of the people I know express their distaste for my voice😭 Point is, I do exercise and dance a lot. (Im a girl btw!!! don't know where I should slip this in)

I'm not really smart, I consider myself to be quite dull but not at the same time. I have amazing grades and sometimes get into the top 5 but I get distracted too easily, especially the day before exams(somehow I still pass.) When I'm with the people I like, I get extremely comfortable no matter where the both of us are. There are multiple times where I almost got hit by a vehicle because of how carefree I am around my friends.

I'm a people person, talkative extrovert 100%!! I love people and everyone I meet, I wave at strangers who wave at me and I strike up a conversation whoever is next to me anywhere, anytime. There was this one time I talked to this cute mom outside of a mall because I was bored, I also remember getting scolded a LOT by my friends because why do I even talk to strangers willingly? I don't know. It's just who I am, really.

I have a strong distaste for shameless and loud people, I don't usually mind the most of them but when they are in front of me or during an important event where everyone is supposed to be quiet, my head just hurts. I also engage in gossip from time to time, but not those who bring people down. Just the sharing of opinions. I also don't like fish. a lot.

For my bigger flaws, I have a highly anxious avoidment attachment style and I apply it to everyone I meet. I am also very prone to overthinking and daydreaming, a day cannot pass without both of these happening. I'm not proud at ALL. All of this happened because of something that happened in the past, I constantly look for the same feeling the person gave me in everyone I meet, and feel disappointed when I don't find it at all. BUT I DONT LEAVE WHEN I DONT. I like people. But I'd like it better if they gave me the same warmth she did in the past.

Oh this is getting really long I gotta stop ramblingAAAHHH. So my hobbies are writing and gaming. I have great pride over what I write and I never doubt my plots. I also love animals except those that are taller than me(doesn't apply to dogs). I like eating. I eat four times a day and I don't even get breakfast.

OKAY I think that's all, sorry for the ramble!! 😭😭 Thank you for reading this, and wow this feels like a Twitter profile thread. Only thing missing is the More About Me ↓

. . . ꒰ MATCHUP II

A/N: A fellow writer!  Hahaha don’t worry anon, I like reading these submissions! Also, I think it’s the first time someone has described my writing like that, so it was a bit surprising for me :OOOOO  Thank you! <33

I match you with Kazuha! He finds it endearing how genuine you are and your knack of opening a conversation. Even as a wandering samurai, it’s few the amount of people he has met like you, and your friendly demeanor captures his heart with ease. When you ramble on about your day or anything you want to speak about with him, he looks at you with fondness. He pays attention to everything you say and remembers important details, without interrupting or feeling bored about hearing you speak.

He has a scarily excellent memory. He’ll ask you about how’s it going with the last story you were writing like, months ago—after you had spoken to him about it once…

He doesn’t scold you when you get distracted, instead opting for redirecting your attention or guiding you back into safety while keeping the conversation with you. If it’s a life-or-death situation, he’ll grab you by the arm and pull you away from the danger, while apologizing for taking such an abrupt decision but letting you know there was peril awaiting you.

Thanks to Kazuha’s patience and forgiving nature, he sees beauty in your amiability and in your whims. He does get extra vigilant when you get distracted or opts to choose safer routes within his means whenever the two of you are strolling around or traveling.

If you travel in the Crux Fleet, there’s plenty of gossip going around, even during your brief stay. Kazuha isn’t one for seeking gossip, but without putting any effort into it, they make their way into his knowledge. You’ll have lots of conversation with him.

Likewise, Kazuha likes to daydream. He enjoys the moments of silence too, and you’ll often find him daydreaming while looking at the sea or writing a haiku. He’ll recite it to you if he sees you’re curious about it.

Kazuha deals well with your attachment style. Even if your absence isn’t pleasant to him because he really enjoys your company, he’s understanding and won’t hold a grudge for it. He’ll wait for you to come back and welcome you.

Honorable mentions for this matchup: Thoma and Kaveh.

Very broad explanation: As long as you’re not causing any trouble to the Kamisato Clan, Thoma’s a people person too. Kaveh loves to talk. He’d match your energy when you want to chat with him.

[detective-ws]

i was full of poorly hidden annoyance and i just need to air it out bc the gc i normally ramble in theres something else going on

(this is NOT about anyone i know over here on tumblr /gen)

ugh why do people use the general chat, in a PUBLIC discord server, as dms

im just like, annoyed

there is a chance itll get covered, and they in general they are just WAY less likely to see it

i have to help moderate this chat, but i dont want to see 2 people talking at length about a show with no room for other members to join the conversation (thats the main issue with doing it)

i understand if a conversation starts from general and thus continues there, but @/ing someone and just attaching a link is like ‘??? just do this is dms, please oh my cod’

sorry im just like so annoyed, this has happened multiple times

when i asked the first person to take their messaging the person to dms though they were very nice

the second time the two people (different from the first person) just misinterpreted every single point i was trying to say..

while i am pretty bad at phrasing, but it feels awful to have people seem to constantly not listen to you or not care about what your politely asking/suggesting of them

im a mod, but i dont want to abuse mod privileges, because thats not cool of me, but i have to physically stop myself and force myself to step away (i muted the chat and moved to the second general)

they just continued chatting until one of them had to go, i feel so bad for feeling relieved that they had to go, because they are a known member (we have had many convos and they seem cool) but i feel so relieved right now

i need to get over these things but this members friend (the one who started the convo out of dms in the first place) just wasnt super nice in the beginning and also hasnt really been. i dont dislike them i dont think? but being mean to people as, what i presume to be, a joke, isnt funny from the outside if you dont know they are joking.

also, they just refused to get roles, it bothers me when people dont get a single role, or when people join a server for a SPECIFIC FANDOM, without being in that fandom for no reason other than their friend inviting them

i mean i dont think i hid my annoyance well, but they just responded to my ‘hey you can do that in dms you know’ (they were sending a link unrelated to literally anything that has happened in the server before, to my knowledge, seemingly umprompted) with just justifications. then when i responded with reasons they were constantly misinterpreted

maybe i should just try and learn to phrase things better.. its an issue

sorry i just needed to vent all that to nobody in particular, maybe delete(/private if its possible) this later,, idk

ive been really prone to almost crying today over slight things, maybe a side effect of forgetting my adderall, probably not though. im just more emotional today for some reason, so that may be affecting my feelings on the situation