#oh the girl with the racist bf?

[weezerlvr228]

It's giving the...main character syndrome. like who tf does she think she is??? Y/N???

NO OH MY GOSH ANON. LET ME TELL YOU. LET ME FRIGGIN TELL YOU.

[allamericansbitch]

since y'all seemed to want this.... here's the live notes i took while listening to each song for the first time (bold are thoughts i had during later listens)

fortnight: 

‘i was a functioning alcohol till nobody noticed my new aesthetic’ what the fuck does that even mean…

love the fact she gave post the female collab treatment. don’t wanna hear what he has to say. 

they’re voices sound actually good together? 

some pockets of the melody are catchy

okay i don’t hate this 

ttpd:

her red flags are on fire in this song lol

this seems very half-cooked

also jacks weird mixing continues to plague us all

CHARLIE PUTH???? WHAT THE FUCK WHY HE HERE

tattooed golden retriever??? ……no way

my boy breaks all his favorite toys:

i blinked and it’s half over

this also is like… half cooked and didn’t need to be released tbh

i love the way she sings the second verse tho

down and:

the production does not match the vibe

did tpain produce this

i’m… kinda bored lol

like i have nothing to say this also didn’t need to be released tbh 

this grew on me a lot actually

so long london 

the production is so futuristic? 

oh im obsessed with how she sounds on this one

her talk-singing in the verses is great

honest lyrics without any clunky unnecessary metaphors! a win!!

the fast-paced verses with th slow chorus is really really cool

a favorite so far

daddy i love him

i can barely hear her? the bad mixing continues 

‘growing up precociously sometimes means not growing up at all’ oh yeah WE KNOW

is this…… is this about her dating matty and loving how people hate him… no fucking way she’s this stupid

SHE IS BEING THIS STUPID

‘it’s white noise’ yeah yeah that’s exactly how id describe him  

.... anyway y'all remember when fans really believed the little mermaid theory and this song was supposed to be about how 'joe stole her voice' lmaooo

we will pretend this one doesn't exist!

fresh out the slammer

are we getting another ‘i didn’t cheat technically’ song lol

what is this weird tempo change….

okay kinda catchy

it’s sounds exactly like you are in love at the end….. jack is really out of tricks

florida

‘my friends all smell like weed or little babies’ what the fuck is she even talking about anymore 

i’m sorry but i’m laughing at the phrase ‘fuck me up florida’

again the production sounds so detached from the vocals 

i honestly still have no idea how i feel about this one

guilt as sin

an real instrument?? wow crazy 

okay she’s kinda cute? catchy and fun, love the melody

i love when she goes up at the end of the vocal 

okay…. i don’t mind this one she’s catchy, a little too long and drawn out but cute

who’s afraid of little old me?

what is this production? it’s way too soft to be as threatening as they’re trying for 

why did jack push her vocals back so far when she’s supposed to scream…. that’s ruins the whole thing…. she’s supposed to be screaming and threatening….. not quiet and far away…. hello

this song is trying very hard to be threatening but it’s not... vigilante shit 2.0

‘you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum they raised me’…………… upper middle-class pennsylvania? 

‘i’m drunk on my own tears isn’t that what they all say, that’ll  sue you if you step on my lawn’ okay bar?

the bridge was good but that’s about it.

i can fix him 

…………… not another matty song oh god

‘i can handle a dangerous man’…… im too stunned to speak this is so embarrassing 

wow taylor really is that girl who like ‘women supporting women’ and then dates/defends a racist bf…. a walking example of white feminism

intersectional feminism found dead.... twice....

loml

okay this is really nice? 

I WAS ACTUALLY ENJOYING THE SONG WHY DID SHE RUIN IT BY SAYING ‘MR STEAL YOUR GIRL’ 💀

if we ignore that one line we're good this is good. im refusing to let that line ruin such a good song

i can do it with a broken heart

‘bitch smile’ why are there so many cringey lyrics on this album lol

what is this song omg why do i kind of like it 

taylor please learn depressed isn’t a synonym for sad 

they recycled the mastermind production 

wait till taylor finds out most of the entire world is sad while they're doing their job and has to pretend they're not

smallest man who ever lived 

oh i think i like this?

‘you said normal girls were boring’ GIRL AND YOU DIDNT IMMEDIATELY GET UP AND LEAVE??? EWWWW??? she's not beating the pick-me allegations

'i just wanna know if rusting my sparking summer was the goal' okay love that line

i like this a lot

the alchemy

no….. no way this is real

i cannot

THE SPORTS METAPHORS WE JOKED SHED DO THAT AND SHE ACTUALLY DID IT OH NO 

touchdown ✅ teams ✅ benches ✅ winning streak ✅ the league ✅

she’s doing…… the worst thing ever this is so laughable 

the corny lyrics are on overload 

‘this time it’s heroine with an e’ didn’t she write folklore? i can’t remember 

that literally was an snl parody of a taylor song

clara bow

love how the guitar sounds… bet money this is an aaron track 

a stevie nicks reference!! a win!!!

i like this one a lot no cringey lyrics yet

nope never mind she name-dropped herself don’t like that

overall really liked it tho

the black dog

i think i like it?? this is kind of what i expected the album to be

okay for once the weird production choices kind of pay off

imgonnagetyouback

kinda catchy? 

she loves a fancy car getting wrecked line

the pre-choruses are the best part 

this would’ve been better without the jack of it all bc he loves a song that doesnt build to anything

this just comes down to personal preference: i don’t like her lighter vocals with jack’s heavy production (ie most of lover lol)

the albatross

a real instrument!!! production that matches taylor’s voice and is well mixed!!! aaron’s arrived!! 

i think it’s solid, has good writing and she sounds great. that's about it.

chloe or sam or…

took me a solid minute to have any semblance of a fuck to know what was going on but okay

okay i love this one

wayyyy more emotive than like… most of the original album

a lot of the 2nd version (or whatever this is lol) are way more emotive, maybe because her voice isnt drenched in reverb so we can actually hear her voice emote better

how did it end

this sounds like an old school adele song? 

i love this one too…. 

her being upset people wanna know what happened but then also feeding it while promoting the album oop 

i love the story of this one it's so refreshing

so high school

THE PRODUCTION is so good ugh aaron never fails 

the man here is a walking red flag girl and the lyrics are ~not it~ but the production is too pretty to hate it

fuck these lyrics are so bad lol

maybe if i disassociate hard enough i can ignore the lyrics and just listen to the production and vibe

give me a karaoke version of this song and we'd be so back

i hate it here

i mentioned disassociation and she made a whole song about it!!!! this one’s mine!!!! 

‘without all the racists’ GIRL HUH

WHAT WAS THE REASON

also... girl don’t act like we don’t know you’re fine with that lololololol

if i had a dime for every time i was liking a song to then have it slapped away because of a bad, out-of-pocket lyric…… 

thank you aimee

this isn’t grabbing my attention 

oh the bridge is interesting 

it’s meh 

i will never be thanking the people that bullied me thanks tho

i look in peoples windows 

what do you mean aaron didn’t produce this??? it’s well-made and has instruments? 

i love this one, again a really interesting and unique concept that's very refreshing to hear at this point when a lot of the songs feel repetitive

the prophecy

aaron guitar!!!! 

she’s nice i like her 

i've really grown to love how she sings this one, the melodies are cool.. however i feel like we've heard the same melody.. like on this exact album... where she upturns at the end of every line...

cassandra 

this seems very…. familiar… idk i feel like we’ve covered this (i mean there are 31 songs we’ve already covered everything lol)

this is such an aaron song, that's a classic 'the national' piano

i like her voice in this one tho, sounds good

peter

oh love i love this

now this? THIS feels the most like a taylor swift song

once again she’s at her best with a simple instrument and emotive simple lyrics

the piano reminds me of champagne problems

the bolter 

i like this! the chorus is so cute

oh i like that ending line a lot!

she’s cute, a little long and drawn out but cute

robin

i haven’t seen anyone talk about this one

welp…. i literally have no feelings toward this one but sounds pretty! 

the manuscript

oh this is soooooooo powerful 

i love this concept 

her ending the album on another introspective album that sums everything up a la dear reader yep yep!!

if you actually read of this ily 💗

[rzyraffek]

I don't know if you did this already but slashers with a black s/o?

Im so sorry for long wait! I had to rewrite it like twice and kinda forgor, have fun reading🌼🌼🌼She/her pronouns Request open

TW: mensions of racism in thomas (his family) and Billy(hes crazy)

Slashers with black!s/o

Billy Lenz

This man is one very curious bean. He will ask weird questions

I mean he is a huge simp, no matter what color she is really, give him attention and he can litteraly stab somone for her

If she has afro or dreadlocks he will play with them :( sorry he wont really ask about consent (dude is a serial killer no way 🤯) But if s/o is uncomfy with somone touching her hair, just Bonk him few times and he will shtop

Billy can be a good boi if somones patient enough to help him get thrue his sus mind

Thomas Hewitt

Bros in texas ofc his family is not very woke, not very #slay

Luda probably just silently judges her, but after she sees that Tommy is genuenly in love and happy she will give a chance. And after like few weeks she and s/o will get along very well! Making dinner with Luda sounfs somehow wholesome

They are more xenophobic than rasist, i mean its still bad, but they stop if tommy and s/o are getting along well

Please hold Thomas hands hes shy and worried

Micheal Myers

Boi been in mental hospital i doubt he seen something more than balding white man

I mean he is instantly in love! I mean he will think its just another obssesion to kill but oh boi he just loooves her

Not only is she easy to spot due to whole haddonfield population being white old people (exept this one couple in halloween kills movie) and also she seems like very lovley girl too

Oop somones racist? Welp somones dead.

Asa Emory

This boi is too smart for all this "racism" stuff, he does not care. Ofc shes gorgeus, but he does not really care about skin colors (he may be a serial killer but he is not a monster)

He loves her hair, if she allows him he will headpat her alot

Idk what to write about him, hes pretty no-probematic and he doenst have like any family members so he is really just loving bf (exept the whole 'i put people in boxes' trope)

Btw while I was writting this i realised that theres litteraly non exisitng representation of poc in horror movies(especially old slasher ones). Kinda cringe if u ask me

[phantomoftheparadise0002]

The reason why i am feeling bad is simple. I can’t express myself. Everyone hates who i am. When i tell people i’m bi they laugh. When i tell them i’m non binary they get mad. You are a straight girl. No i’m not. I’m not a girl, or a boy. I’m both. Yes i like women. I would date someone only if they knew i was bi. I’m just a joke. Omg your hair? Huh? Shaved? Huh? Omg your fave color is red why are you wearring blue? Huh? My bf is a cis man who absolute does NOT support me. Judges me constantly. Can’t you be normal for a sec? The fact that i have autismn doesn’t make anything better. Oh no your the weird kid who is into fandomshit and likes to draw but no one cares about that. Haha. So i am not valid? Do i have to pretend? I’m 32 years old and live in a cage surrounded by racists, terfs, bad people. When do i get my wings? I hope someday

[arlertwhore]

so do you support caitlin?

your response was kind of ambigous but i think you do right?

BROO PLEASE YALL KILLIN ME WITH THIS SHIT BRO pls understand i am NOT a WNBA / WCBB fan like i DO NOT SUPPORT ANY OF THESE GIRLS SERIOUSLY i'm just here because i think they're hot 😭 if caitlin's boyfriend is racist and she's choosing to stay silent about that i think her FANS, WNBA FANS, WCCB FANS have EVERY RIGHT to call her out. since I AM NOT one, i sit this discourse out! fun fact, i am black myself! i'd be offended if this was somebody i am a fan of but since im not 🤷‍♀️ only thing i thought about when i got that inbox was 'oh, shit.. alr." and i trusted her fans (or the opposite) would hold her accountable if it was true. i gave my general opinion. is she capable of controlling what her bf is liking? prolly not? does she use her platform AT ALL? nah? and i think definitely, whatever she's capable of doing, whether that be using her platform to speak out on wtv tf is going on with him, like idek.. she should do that! okay now let's stop it here

[thegeminisage]

STAR TREK UPDATE TIME. we have finally watched the voyager pilot! short verdict: nothing will ever be as good as ds9 but i enjoyed it!!

longer verdict: i will go through it character by character, in order of appearance, saving the maquis crew for when they have more than .5 seconds of screentime in the little opening. this feels like a REALLY big cast, by the way?? am i counting right? 11 recurring characters and we don't even have seven yet? tos has 7 with chapel and rand appearing sometimes, tng had 8 with o'brien and guinan sometimes, ds9 has seven with...man, jake nog rom garak AND keiko as recurring extras, and we don't even have worf yet. so i guess ds9's is technically bigger! anyway.

JANEWAY: i was surprised at how janeway sounded...her voice is different than i expected even though i've heard her be flemeth in dragon age. i was also kind of surprised to see her in the bun and her head looked So Big. like dax's in season 1-2 of ds9. i'm used to seeing her with it down in gifs which looks better but personally i also think she could have rocked the kira cut. that said, i like her so SO much. she has a couple of speeches that remind me VERY strongly of kirk - when she's lamenting harry left his clarinet behind and not getting to know him, when she decided she couldn't sacrifice an entire people to get one ship home. she's got the kind of compassion kirk did - when she pulled up a stool to listen to the caretaker's troubles, when she held his horrible little corpse, she was genuinely filled with real sadness for what had happened there. (as a side note, speaking of tos, the ship voyager also reminds me of the original enterprise WAY more than the tng enterprise was - especially their little cafeteria.) i was really surprised she had a boyfriend, because i feel like i've heard she gets with chakotay! sorry to her bf, she is gonna cheat on you (and i support women's wrongs), but the worst part is the dog. if they pull some odyssey shit with the dog i'm gonna be so upset. ALSO, i love that she insists on "ma'am" instead of sir (that always bugged me) and even that will only do in a pinch. YOU WILL ADDRESS HER AS CAPTAIN. even when her hair fell down she fixed it on her way down the hallway. she's such a badass. when she says she's gonna get them home I BELIEVE HER. she's got an iron fucking nerve and balls made of titanium.

TOM PARIS: i hate this man so much it's insane. i googled to see whether he died and found out he was played by one of those cadets wesley got in trouble with...girl, he was in prison, why not just make him the same guy?? anyway, he was kind of shitty to both harry and chakotay (oh boy we are already being racist to chakotay) and i cannot believe THIS is the man janeway is gonna have salamander babies with. he's extremely obnoxious all the time (him harassing that betazoid lady...fuck off lol) and i just KNOW people are writing paris/chakotay slash because of their whole deal which makes him more annoying. the "your life is mine now" thing is racist as hell. i'm not prepared to sympathetically see this man's hidden depths bc i know that as a snarky white man he already has half of whatever voyager fandom happens to exist doing that for him already. sadly, we will have to put up with him for all seven seasons. LUCKILY, aside from the racism, half of which came from this guy anyway, he was my only real sour note.

HARRY KIM: love this dude. i like how he managed to talk sense into b'elanna when she was wigging out and despite my wishing he didn't have to be friends with tom paris him going "i can pick my own friends" was a great way to show that he's not afraid to stand up for himself. i wish i wasn't feeling so anti-quark lately bc otherwise his scene in the bar with quark (and why is it always quark doing these surprise cameos!!) would've been pretty funny. i think it was a nice touch that harry, on his first EVER mission, got to be the one to deliver the news about how far from home they were. i absolutely love his whole deal of being completely green and meeting everything head-on anyway, he is so brave. as i said before, the way he is just charging through despite being out of his depth reminds me a little of chekov, if chekov had brain cells. he's very charming. i think he and b'elanna could get it also.

HOLOGRAM DOCTOR: he is so funny, i love him. like, i don't really know how he works? is all of medbay a holodeck? but it's kind of hilarious that he's sentient enough to get annoyed when people are randomly beamed away and when people forget to shut him off (he needs a nap!)

CHAKOTAY: oh i am already feeling how rough this is going to be. that "can't you use some magic to turn into a bird and fly away" and also the "your life is mine now" were rrrracist. (that said, "you're too heavy" was a really good comeback.) can we please be normal. that aside: i really like him. i like how quickly he came to grips with the situation and i like how much he hates tom paris (NOT SEXUAL!!! NO!!!!!! i just agree with him) and i especially like that he has a set of titanium balls to match janeway's like did we SEE that doomsday machine-esque suicide run he almost went on? he cut it even closer than kirk did and kirk cut it that close ON ACCIDENT chakotay was yelling at them not to beam his ass back until his ship was already on fucking fire. also, he's very handsome. ALSO, when tom paris asked him "you'd rather die than let me rescue you?" i had to laugh because quite literally 10 seconds prior out of mine own mouth was "if it was death or tom paris i might let go." i really hope there's more to chakotay than "tom paris's antagonistic buddy" because 1. a fate worse than death 2. this is not humans and vulcans this is real life racism you cannot spock and bones this. STOP THAT.

TUVOK: ALSO VERY HANDSOME. very like. he reminds me of spock so much because he's extremely bitchy but also very dialed down about it. i like that leonard nimoy was like yeah im gonna go stupid crazy and all vulcan will be like this from now on, including my funny little eyebrow thing, in which girlies will still see spock long after i'm dead. like what misha collins tried to do with cas but it actually worked. tuvok strikes that perfect balance of dignified and kind of above everyone else without feeling stuck up or prissy (though his scene where he tries so hard not to look at neelix's junk was great, he was justifiably a little prissy there), and with that undercurrent of wryness that nevertheless doesn't truly betray any emotion - you don't get the same sense of repression/unease with the self from him (at least in the pilot, who knows what will happen later) that you do from spock so it doesn't feel like voyager is copying tos's homework, and it feels nice to get to know another vulcan who's gonna be a main character instead of a one-off. i hope they are more normal about a black vulcan than they have been about chakotay so far bc we have got to get out from under all of that. i am a little worried janeway might kill him. i feel like i see people on reddit criticizing her all the time for killing some dude who i am pretty sure is tuvok and like. can someone tell me if he dies if he dies i will be SO mad

B'ELANNA TORRES: she is stupid hot. i'm a little "lol" when she's like yeah my klingon half is HARD TO CONTROL!!! (super saiyan scream of rage) bc like worf does fine (most of the time...) but i will never turn down a chance to watch a beautiful woman be insane with rage. i like how she calls harry kim "starfleet" derisively and then goes out of her way to give him breaks when he needs them and help him up the stairs when he can't make it. big tsundere energy. also like that she was questioning janeway's decisions. not that i disagree with janeway's decisions necessarily i just like that janeway will have to earn her respect from some people the way any male captain would. equality. also, potentially, girlfights.

NEELIX: i forgot to add him to "the things i know about voyager" post because i had only heard him mentioned a couple of times and got the idea he was just a horrible little gremlin there for comic relief. a rygel, if you will. a quark, if you won't. was pleasantly surprised to like him better than rygel and quark combined, though that's a pretty low bar. not only is he clever enough to outsmart the slavers, he was brave and caring enough to go back and rescue his girl. HE RESPECTS WOMEN. also, his water indulgence was pretty hilarious, as was, again, his scene with tuvok. i feel like those two could do straight man funny guy all day long. a dynamic duo. i hope they wind up having screentime together. i don't mind horrible little gremlins so much when they're charming and when they aren't trying to take holosuite videos of kira.

KES: i feel like kes hasn't done much yet except lecture her people on the dangers of having a cult-like mentality. but i like her! she's sweet and compassionate and pretty brave. she does a lot to humanize neelix, at least! maybe it's just me but i feel like she was barely in this. for now i am trusting that they do more with her later. or, idk, maybe they don't. we DO have janeway AND b'elanna AND seven eventually so i can't be too mad about it as long as they're not turning her into a holodeck sex toy like poor deanna

other things of note:

BANJOS? i counted three different southern accents in this section. it would have been offensive if it wasn't so funny. the people holding hands and jumping around in a circle like animated robin hood characters was a great touch. so was the corn on the cob. the emotional whiplash from an otherwise very serious episode was. certainly something.

the empty barn reminded me of this side of paradise <3 i love, in general, how voyager just FEELS a little bit like tos. certainly more than tng did, even more than ds9 does. like this FEELS like it's set in the same universe, it kind of bridges a mental gap between ds9/tng and tos for me, worldbuilding wise.

water thing reminded me of mad max. really good.

slaver aliens.......are these guys really our antagonists?? i thought our antagonists were the borg but maybe we don't do that until seven gets here. i feel like possibly a bunch of semi-primitive people in the desert who enslaved and beat (potentially raped, depending on how you want to interpret that dialogue) a pretty blonde girl is maybe um. not the best idea. maybe they'll get written down into side villains and eventually just guys. like the ferengi. siiigh, the ferengi.

that said, i kind of loved the story of the caretaker and the ocampa, enough that i almost forgot the caretaker was choosing to appear as a banjo-playing hillbilly. i like to think him and his wife were from andromeda like those guys from tos...and it's very nuanced that even after he fucked their planet forever he still didn't really learn to value life because he's kidnapping people and letting them die or stay stranded in order to attempt to procreate. NONETHELESS he is filled with remorse, and janeway's scene with him, comforting him that children could learn to grow on their own, was really sweet. i also like that when he died his little horrible goop body shrank down until it looked like a hunk of dried snot. do not take that to the ocampa.

i just like the PREMISE of voyager. a 75-year journey that they have to cut down by any means possible...it's like the odyssey, but it space. in tos and tng they wandered from place to place but always over the same stomping grounds in general. we have the same old players, like klingons and romulans and vulcans and andorians etc etc. in ds9 we stay in one single place and it's to our benefit because we get deep character work. but voyager is going in a straight line back to earth, and we've never been out here before, so whether or not it lives up to the potential right now it feels like anything truly could happen. we don't be running into the neutral zone and we can't call the klingons for help or stop by quark's for another cameo. we are just out here. it's VERY neat.

major concerns so far include of course tom paris and potentially him being handcuffed to chakotay as banter buddies. racism in general but also with chakotay in particular. and perhaps a lack of interesting points re: kes. rip girl.

stuff i'm looking forward to is janeway getting to be a person instead of A Woman, seven eventually, getting to know chakotay and tuvok better, and the salamander episode, someday.

okay. this concludes my voyager pilot write-up. TONIGHT: "parallax" and "time and again."

[the-epitome-of-sunsets]

you called?

testing, testing. jakob's my idiot of a brother, and i love sunsets.

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[kidotomy]

You know why I actually hate you???? Cause I do have a life it just sucks. Youve all echoed back the same sentiments ive felt my whiole life except you arent demons in my head you’re real people who actually said that stuff to me. I still LIVE IN THE SAME place sorry im not fucking god. Who tf where you people to make me feel like this. What you’re from video games and can whip up ways to scare me and hurt me and make feel guilty and baby me? Someone being pissed and hurt is harrassment and im a creep cause someone faked an interest in helping me based on who I kin only to say no one will ever me love me?? Get lost im not killing myself for you I saw ur comment. I just had to say that. And oh dont throw back some stuff about what ive done or cry to your bf either.

Girl I dont care. Write another 300 messages in my inbox and ip block evade me 20 more times if you're so vindicted by it. Give me some racist, transphobic bullshit in my inbox like you love to do. Refresh my blog 600 times in a day and act like you aren't fucking weird for doing it. Why are you this obsessed lol

[leclerced]

Oh babes I never intended to get famous or sth but if in any universe I would or would date someone famous that I had a crush on and wrote sth about him I’d proudly embrace it. Literally if this someone would ask “wait you literally wrote this so called smut about me???” I’d be like “well yeah you’re hot, I had a crush, I was and still am horny what do you think I should had done about it?” Because it’s normal for people to imagine themselves with others in different scenarios. Besides, for me at least, it’s cute that people think about their celebs crush/idols cause it means these people are dear to them and bring them comfort (and if some things are super duper weird and extreme then so be it our minds can go in that direction too)

i’ve kinda always wanted to be famous but in a 2000s it girl kind of way. i wanna be messy and surrounded by scandals and hot people in scandals. not like bad ones like being racist n stuff obviously, but like … hot girl scandals likensuper raunchy sex tape leaking. cheating on bf with super hot athlete while bf is off filming a movie. if a sex tape of me leaked as a celeb.. just know… i leaked that shit myself. i honestly probably wouldn’t even stop writing or posting until i got caught. then i’d be like “im just a girl?? leave me n my blog alone its my thing. mind ur own business.” and next week new fic is up.

i have been consuming and creating fan content for most of my life it’s very normalized to me and im aware there is still a lot of stigma around it but tbh its just a great outlet and there are really great communities within fandoms and on dif sites and stuff. it wouldn’t be weird for me for people to write about me, like mostly bc i am hot and horny and i would be disappointed if people didn’t. like i would slut it up every night to give people content and inspiration and it they didn’t use it to make edits and write fic, i’d be sooo disappointed. like what the fuck???

and yeah if i ever dated a celeb i wrote ab i would def show them what i wrote and turn it into foreplay or make them recreate it with me 😀

[helenascorpse]

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call me Xen, Puppy, Vsevolod, Pansy, Ghoul or just G

He/They/Xe/It and She for close friends (i use any and all neopronouns) and Er/Es

20 years old (May 14)

slavic german (belarus/polish)

horny on main (filter #mdni)

aroace transexual faggot with objectum tendencies (fictosexual/romantic and aegosexual/romantic and proculsexual/romantic) and pluralgender

t4t pussy4pussy transsexual (reclaiming it for myself) 👍🏻

butch boy dyke girl fag nonbinary tranny who wants to eradicate cisgenders, girl fundashi, male fujoshi, girl yaoi and boy yuri enjoyer, professional tranny, professional NEET, president of the leathermouth fanclub, male misandrist, obese and happy with myself (fuck diets), insane about cannibalism and its eroticism, Youngblood Chronicles enjoyer

If you see me post something extremly concerning and unhinged i probably had a drug relapse. it happens

semispeaking disabled level 2 autistic / cripple punk who is tired of ableds (use tonetags like /s or /srs for me)

Host of a DID System (18 alters currently known)

Future bassist and drummer

DNI and tag list under read more

Other interests are: Kpop, TF2, EARLY! PATD, fanfiction, genshin impact :( ,making fun of Frank Iero in a gay way, Pierce The Veil, being feral over Bert from The Used, Basement era Gerard Way, being hrony about Leathermouth Frank, bullets era MCR and TTYG FOB, Andrew Hurley labret and tongue piercing, Pencey Prep, Arma Angelus, Punk music, Peterick posting, Grant Morrison, black metal (NOT THE RACIST/HORRIBLE ONES)

I do selfship with celebrities BUT i respect their families and spouses and know i will never have a chance with them its just a silly little faggot thing i do

DNI

waycest shipper (kys), brendon urie, msi or lindsey ballato fan/apologist, proshipper, general dni stuff (transphobe, racist, general bigot) call yourself punk without engaging in punk politics/arent anti-authoritarianism/anti direct action, if ur under 16 don’t follow me oh my god or interact with my nsfw posts, self proclaimed “liberals”, anti sex work and prostitution, demonize drug addicts, demonize schizophrenia and other disorders, pro-israel, radqueers, associate with lakemichiganlolita, padawanryan and similar users, engage in CNC/ageplay/raceplay/fauxcest/stepsiblings things like that (die one million deaths)

how and what i tag:

Frank: #frankie tag

Gerard: #gee way tag

Frank&Gee together: #pissnvinegar

Ray: #ray tag

Mikey: #mikey fucking way

mcr in general: #mai homosexual romance / #my homosexual romance

Andy: #andy tag

Joe: #joe schmoe tag

Patrick: #patricky stumpy

Pete: #peter schmeter tag

Pete&Patrick together: #half doomed and semi sweet

fob in general: #my 4 bfs

Anthony Green: #ant tony tag

LS Dunes: #bisexual dilf band

Bert Mccracken: #release the mccracken

Jepha: #babygirl jepharee

the used as a whole: #used not broken

gabe saporta: #gabey baby UNUSED UNTIL HE GETS A GRIP. FREE PALESTINE

travie mccoy: #travie mccoy

ryan ross: #victorian child laborer

laura jane grace: #my queen

geoff rickly: #british looking american

pencey prep: #pencey prep

arma angelus: #arma angelus

for my soul :): #kat tag

[fireroll]

So a bit more on my personal Taang take:They are malegirlboss x malegirlwife <3 Both genderfluid and bigender but Aang is transfem while Toph is transmasc!Also i am a firm Kataang defender because of all the racist hate aimed at the ship so i simply have them happen in aus where Katara and Aang were always mutually platonic friends :3

TY LUKO IS MY FAVE Love me a grumpy goth bf x bubbly pastel gf ship!!Especially with how bisexual and pansexual and especially trans they both come across in canon!I think Ty Lee and Zuko are the best choices for eachother's love interest's and that it was a huge waste to not have them be childhood besties like they are with Mai.Also like with Taang and Kataang,i have them in aus to avoid Mai and Maiko bashing^

Maitara my beloved!!Fire x water,repressed x wears their emotions on their sleeve,raised to serve x raised to care and mooooooore!!Also the bad Zuko stans can kiss my butt,they are NOT and never would BE love rivals over him.In fact,they're girlfriends :)

Jinzula,Azula and the girl Zuko went on a one time date with!!I think Zuko's sisters should steal his gfs <3 (Azula is his regular sister and him and Katara are bonded like siblings)

The unifying factor(minus the last one lmao) for why they're my otps for the show is that the characters balance eachother's personalities out in a sweet,healthy and funny way and work well thematically in the story too!!I hope you like them or at least think they're good ships^

oh my goodness my brain is receiving so much information thank you for opening my eyes this is so interesting

T4T TAANG, screaming /pos

OOH i have never seen most of these ships, do forgive my lack of things to say, my brain needs time to process and mull over. Will reblog this later with more stuff to say promise

[suiciderape]

hahaha!! my crush is so to meeuh horror razors! ok? yes ok we will end it on a note hahaha!! ratchet darnel? funzies? on my hoo ride! oh shit?! hw! hw! hw! read about mpt mpt tomato skunk were hey does who does guy think he is? its 1980s skatepunk aesthetic and im hahaha!! geto boys ok so?? when can we smoke? hm hm haha uh haha eh haha huh? we dont give a shit desarae is the shygirl she finna do donuts why shygirl in a finna hrr hrr we?! yes! ok go home end it end it end it hahahahahum no we gangsta yea game over hahaha squirell ew!

nigga u lose ur life quick u get stumped on the battlefield r.i.p jesse vidal jr my ex bf 6/07/2022 east side castle manila folder? folder? ew! ew! ew ew ew ew

ew! i did it find a career i had one there too... fuckin biitch

white kichen fuckiin slut phew-wha!!! racist sluuht! i got a baby? ew ew pla dont tell my son p4p bitch

for all pfps i will disect my bffs tweets they know ok byee byee whore bath on tumblr girl bye baby boy ew!

she is so fun to hang out hahaha omg so is aleiah shes so good singing at the drop or dancing she can fix cars and gamea 2014 we are the exaxt opposite ew! no it was the backstory to the backstory so we get it? 28 yrs? what the fuck bitch? white kichen daaamn ok so ew! 2 fights damn ok so 3 fights ew 4 fights 5 5 5 it has been

𝖘𝖍𝖎𝖉𝖉𝖊𝖗𝖒𝖔𝖇 double dutch tonight bitch exactly! exactly exaxtly huh?! soulja stance come on c squad huh i am thee one with a broken skateboarding jaw stfu? sprawl is at the chinese liqour store? ew im dying for green what the fuck! extra johnson? extra johnson ok extra johson ok mhm burmingham mummy frequent princess pretty ew uhauahauauaumzzzrm damn? nah ah! go to class now! yup

[newjenns]

oh the punz milf thing is so funny all he rarely shows up to hang out with his friends anymore even when literally all of them are together and his friends will make jokes about it and anytime he Does go out and hang out with them the milf girl will tweet about wanting to kill herself like it is comical

also their relationship got leaked bc she was in a group chat that got leaked with a bunch of e girls who i think were racist? and she didn’t say anything bad in there but she Did talk about her “content creator bf” in it a lot and there’s no one it could have reasonably been besides punz

being a stepfather is a full time job !

[livemivida]

journal

i have so much to say. starting with i took a photo of myself tonight on august 29 2024.. i looked absolutely miserable. i looked 30 with a receding hairline😭 i look like i been doing drugs and shit. it felt pretty depressing to see if im honest… my life is moving so fast and i didnt even realize it. im turning 22 in 3 months.. i just turned 21. i barely even remember 21. probably because i didnt create very many memories.. i just need to make sure i get into school and take my classes and show up for them yk? it took me this long to start them.. its been 3 years since i graduated high school.. it feels long but would i think a 3 year okd baby is old? no.. id be like wow she has time. i dont know what this time crunch is when u get to ur 18 or 20s. it just feels like life speeds up and u have to get everything u ever wanted don. like there is this funny sound on tiktok that goes, did you know that u have 30 minutes??? and someone said me when blah blah life in my 20s to get their dream life. that is genuinely how it feels. it feels like i have 30 minutes to get all that i want. ngl im hust jappy imnnot where i use to be.. being 19 and talking to racist dudes all because i had no other options. i so badly wanted a bf i would make anyone fit the role. its like when u cant wait? so u jump the gun to early? like being in discord at 16… feining for make attention. male attention is so glorified. u think its some romanticcc thing but its really not… google says its because of socialization,, which makes sense i was taught boys dont like this they dont like when girls do that, etc. and if i was ever to get married i better make sure i hide this part of myself.

anyways.. what does this all rly matter!??!? it doesnt! thats the beautiful part i get to yap every thought this brain produces and reiterate it onto this rectangular device!! how exciting!!

and sadly i must. MUST. end my relationship with valorant for now.. as I have a theory my constant strife, frowning , upsetness or whatever ud like to call it, contributed towards my state in that picture. either way.. ill make it through. ill find a way through, ill show myself what im made of!! also. pray for my friend, he is struggling.. ):

OH! Also! one last thing! yk my dreamm about streaming valorant abd stuff? while being high and streaming with my facecam and my face appears symmetrical and my nose appears cutely and tiny shaped my face is snatched abd sharo and my eyes are alluring and hypnotizing?? that dream?? where i get paid for being so incredibly gorgeous that i could model and paid to play a game and paid to be high and have fun with friends abd create shit. i think my parents dont get it. they dont get that someone would just pay for u to live ur life? they dont get wats so interesting and they think the only way to make good money is through college. which is such a naive dilly thought bc so many successful billionaire entrepreneurs never even went or dropped out. they figured out another way to make their revenue. ANYWAYS.. i think about how disappointed my parts woykd be in me ifcthats how i lived my life? likr ploo? just gaming and playing games and and talking to strangers online?? and posting pics of musrlf??? i think they expect me to be something cool like a docyor but no im just gna be an inflenver guys… like ya no. talk more layer tho im sleepyyyyy gnightt evalissseeeee i love u evalissseee

[theuniverseawakens347]

Preston Jacob Taylor posed at pj …realized after forceabily fucking Lee garlgirls 4 he’s a pansexual who will fuck anything..oh sex addict taken advantage* of at Kristy Scott fucked him too and jalessa and garik girl for her proposal ring B…he’s a sex mule for lees weird racist fantasy Kevin spacey and hawl from Malcom n the middle …Ian McDowell too

DARK SKIN. LONE MEN N BOYS USED FOR SEX DNJOYMENT BY RACIST “in power” WHITE SUPREMACY* WE OWN U DO AS I SAY DADDY BS…

African dad from YouTube forced into his filapean wife she fucked Preston looks like RIA dated Chris was rape .. both ucla doctors rns like Trevor from lazzy Janet RAPE BY ANDRE N “Ian” BUT TREVOR WHITE BF FROM EASTER DINNER …KETAMINE QUEEN BUT LEE DOESNT KNOW WHAT IT IS 😉 just weed she’s ever only done

[apurikottotii]

may song recs!

i think this month has not been going well and FINALS ARE ABOUT TO HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK BUT THAT'S OKAY. I think I went from denial, anger, and bargaining, rn it's depression. but uhhhh it's fine. i'm hoping that i will find some more faith (in humanity, others, and myself) soon.also i need to find some hobbies because apparently you cannot be happy if you study for 10 hours every day.

--- kimagure mercy - hachioji-p

i was listening to the milgram playlist on spotify like normal. since i'm a peasant, i don't have premium and spotify adds random songs in it. the mmj cover comes up and i think it's yuno's cover of sticky bug for some reason. i go, "damn sticky bug sounds a lot better than what i remember". i google translate the title, realize it's the famous kimagure MERCY, and then proceed to loop it for days.

the vibe is so fun! esp while watching the mv and seeing miku bounce her leg to the beat and stuff. is it a stereotypical romance break up song? yeah. if it was in english would i hate it? definitely. however, because it's vocaloid, the lyrics and beat work so much better.

personal favorite lyrics include: "'demo ne', 'datte'" (the way miku sings it is so asdifnasdifnsadfi omgggggg. she's like imitating her bf with that indifferent...? pleading? voice), "come on, you’re not into me at all / i’d say the one you like is yourself, yeah!" (STOP BEING RELATABLE), "be my boy, you baby spoiled rotten / and hug me tight!" (fuck the expression she makes in the mv is so CONFLICTED ASJDNFASUDNFASDFU), "even if I cry and beg you not to go, nothing can possibly change!" (i'm gonna leave if there are more relatable lyrics), "but I get lonely sometimes too / so come for me!" (i'm leaving), "i’m a lonely girl. Hog me all to yourself, baby" (this is getting cringe).

--- aitai-lians - deco27

ofc being the #1 deco27 hater i had to check out his new release to make fun of him. OBVIOUSLY. and then i fell in love with the 2nd half of the chorus. like wtf. “hello earthlings, Aitai-lians, we are / blackholes for hearts we carry, aliens from afar, we are”. IT'S SO GOOD, especially the "we are" syntax works so well. i think what makes this song special is the beat, which is that like club party beat. i don't know what being "green-eyed" means but i'm gonna guess it's jealousy.

--- cinderella - deco27

i hate deco27. i hate deco27. WTF. this song is so catchy, and yeah it's part of the stupid mannequin album BUT. i really think that deco's in his element when he writes complex songs about love, which this is. it's just really, really catchy. for some reason, the 2nd half of the chorus (which starts out the song and IMMEDIATELY got me hooked) does not sound like it's part of this song? is there a meter change?? is that why??? the chants of "hey" in the verses is weird but... oh well. seriously, i really recommend this song, it's just really fun. on a scale from hibana (lots of emotion/soul) to vampire (no soul), i'd say it leans hibana (unlike the REST of the album).

fun fact: i checked this song out because someone on tumblr said that this could be muu's t3 cover song.

--- help me, erinnnnnnnn! - COOL&CREATE

this song is SO FUN. it's long as fuck but it's still engaging and fun to listen to. i found it bc of a muu and haruka edit at like 12 am and it was stuck in my head all nice. i really love the vocaloid cover for pjsk too, the tuning is just so FUNN!!!! i too want to shout and dance when i hear it.

--- another day of sun - la la land

do i know what la la land is? no, not really. my friend remixed this song for her physics final which is how this person who knows nothing about pop culture found out about this song. no but it's so fun and sweet?? the instrumental break is so whimsical and i love the brass instruments.

--- 折风渡夜 - (i seriously can never find the chinese composers)

gives of 科目三 vibes. maybe i'm racist. actually.. it might be the bass/percussion rhythm. no but wtf chinese opera + cpop is such a good combination. always, traditional musical styles + modern pop always works so well. i don't know why the youtube remix is in vietnamese but that's okay bc that remix SLAPS. idk the lyrics but i cried to this. the way the singer sings just sounds like she's longing for something, and idk man. ESPECIALLY that bridge in the youtube remix. it starts so quiet and in this hushed tone... and that BASS. wtf!!!

--- alter ego/silence - caramel column

seriously, awesome game. the reviews on the app store scared me on how overwhelmingly positive they were, but i can't say that they're wrong. it's kind of cathartic, clicking on speech bubbles for 10+ minutes that call you lonely and depressed. es is a really great character, and honestly a good reflection of ourselves.

about the music.... it's so contemporary! they really represented the calming yet brooding atmosphere of the game with just two tracks. but seriously, crazy meter changes (or wack-ass rubato), long pauses, weird ass accidentals, lots of jumps. yet, it really works out and never fails to calm me down.

honorable mentions: all of haruka's songs. seriously love this man's va.