#oh i feel old & emotional
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Something about older Jason looking at the child version of himself, the innocent victim, and feeling the need to defend and avenge him the way no one else will. They'll call him reckless and try to pin the blame for his death on some unique failure of his personality, the problem isn't Robin the problem is he was just a bad fit for Robin! And then older Jason coming back to life and spits on their twisted grief. Fuck you, that innocent child deserved more. You took his memory and ruined it to make yourselves feel better. If no one will give him justice then Jason will take it himself no matter who he has to kill to get there. It's the only way he can move forward.
Something about older Cass looking at this child version of herself, this innocent who has no idea what she was doing when she was tricked into killing, and finding her irredeemable. She will forgive everyone for everything if they need a second chance but she cannot forgive that innocent child. She spends ten years wanting that child to die for their sin, a standard she holds no one else to. And in the end she does have to die. She can never forgive that child until the price has been paid and the guilty, tormented, suicidal mess of a girl is dead and never coming back. Only then can Cass live on. Only then can she smile without feeling the weight of her kill on her back. If no one will give that child the justice they deserve then she will have to do it herself. It's the only way she can move forward.
#dc#cassandra cain#dc rambles#Jason Todd#They're so messed up in such fun inverted ways#Everyone's always like oh what would Robin Jason think of red hood but I think what red hood thinks of Robin#Is equally as important#Likewise baby cass would most likely feel relief that someday she escapes the all consuming self hatred#And older Cass would feel... A lot. Regret she spent so long hating this child. Grief for what she was tricked into doing.#But I don't think she's ever fully going to get rid of all that cold hatred. That emotion that let's her look at her 8 year old self#And sentence them to death. Only them. No one else. Because people are good deep down but this child is rotten.#She's so mentally ill and relatable <3#It's not even recognisable hatred because it's so clinical and all consuming. She doesn't hate herself she just believes she deserves to di#What do you mean that's a sign of self hatred Barbara don't be silly she's perfectly fine.
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for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of
also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut
the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)
#hs#homestuck#dirk strider#eye strain#probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!!#anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags#so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse#and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol#also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold#though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk#speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least#the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an#and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you#imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting#and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive#uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember#and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags#do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would ->#wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts#beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it#also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa#sigh poor thing#this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm#also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week#(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag.#and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!)#update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic#this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah
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so much for stardust we thought we had it all, thought we had it all
#fall out boy: *releases a new album*#me: oh i am going to listen to this for two straight days and experience EVERY emotion ever#eda clawthorne#raine whispers#raeda#the owl house#the owl house spoilers#toh spoilers#draws#i am in a ball on the floor#consumed by the tragedy of raeda#like i KNOW dana terrace loves them as a pairing so - in a meta consideration - they gonna have a good ending#but we're going to marinate in this FOB-flavoured angst for the next week#i love these old queers#rewatched eda's requieum! aaaAAAAAA she is SO blushy and nervous around them!#it's been YEARS and you still feel nervous and excited and happy to see their face and spend time together (doing SHENANIGANS)
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i know astrology is fake but i'm not too keen on how a lot of people on this website seem to be clowning on it as a hobby a bit too hard. i swear the woman who thinks it's neat how she and her friends with the same sun sign are all similar isn't trying to say that you are who you are born as and there is nothing you can do to change it. it's a hobby. an interest. what happened to finding meaning and joy in the small things. does it affect you if someone enjoys tarot reading or crystals. does it make you upset someone has interests that they enjoy.
#im not saying astrology/tarot/crystals/etc. get clowned on so much bc theyre hobbies mostly enjoyed by women But....#i saw a post about some astrology study and made the mistake of opening the notes on that bad boy#not fun. and that reminded me of that old post that was basically like ''liking astrology is transphobic''#anyways idk maybe its just that my bestie is very much a ''crystal girl'' but like. stuff like that are such neat hobbies#she makes some cute little jars with pretty rocks and they make her feel better bc if you believe in something you can make it happen#when it comes to small things#like yeah if you pick up a stone that's like ''this can help you be more open with your emotions'' and you are like ''oh hell yea!''#ofc that will be on your mind and the item will be a constant reminder and actually help you with your goals#and its like. ok what really stuck with me was when i was talking with my bff and i was like ''i think all this stuff is interesting but i#feel bad bc i am superstitious and believe in some signs like lucky numbers but i know that logically its just. if i pick a lucky number of#i pay extra attention to it but i want to believe its lucky but i know how human brains work in that aspect''#and she was just like. ''so? those things dont have to exclude each other'' and it clicked#if i have a little tigers eye with me it does not make me feel more grounded magically#but if i decide (or believe) it's grounding then it will b bc it's a reminder for me to calm down#and stuff#like. ah idk how to put my thoughts into words#but i just think its unfair that a few rotten apples have ruined the perception of fun hobbies for a lot#not every astrology enjoyer is trying to sell you mlm essential oils or genuinely believe peoples entire lives are dictated upon the stars#or something#idk i just feel like these things are v misunderstood even tho im not personally like super into them myself#but ppl super mean about that stuff arent invited to look at my medieval themed fortune telling cards#idkk im sleepy and cant articulate my points someone else say this but better#leevi talks#im just saying. i dont think its bioessentialism to decide to believe you personally have a season for growth when the stars are in a#certain position or whatever
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After this episode, I genuinely need to see that stoic neglect dad Ryuken losing his absolute shit on the fact that his son is starting to possess the same fucking eye color as his wife's murderer
#bleach anime#bleach tybw#thousand year blood war#ryuken Ishida#uryu Ishida#bleach spoilers#bleach tybw episode 27#I WANT THE CREEPING DREAD I WANT THE HORRIFIED REALIZATION I WANT THE BREAKDOWN#I need that fucking old man crumbling into an emotional mess I need him to suffer on-screen#how does it feel watching your son slowly mirroring the killer of your wife huh Ryuken?#tell me Ryuken. do you look at your son or your wife's murderer?#on the other hand this shit chills me because oh uryu you definitely bite more than you could chew
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Have any of you ever had this heart-wrenching experience where you see an amazing fanart of some character, that dies in canon relatively young, but is depicted in their would-have-been old age? Fanart where the character has grey hairs in their head, fanart with expression lines and textured skin, where it is undeniable that the character lived.
I remember the first time when that happened to me with a character I adored and really wished they could have had the opportunity to live and enjoy life, not just survive.
That shit brought me to tears.
#idk how to explain it#but it was heart-breaking and healing at the same time#the first moment of OH oh yes… they would have looked like that…#and BAM#feelings#it’s obvious with the acc im posting from#but having seen a fanart of Severus with greying hair for the first time devestated me#it sent me on a spiral of thinking how many people don’t get the priviledge of growing old#and how old age is such a beautiful thing#especially when having lived a fulfilling life and a life you felt ownership of#AND SEVERUS NEVER GOT THAT AND IT MADE ME SO GODDAMN EMOTIONAL#a character that was a means to an end and did’t get the opportunity to actually live#UGH now i just destroyed my own feelings#this is ehy i cant think about it for too long goddammit#severus#severus snape#pro severus snape
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This fairy has BPD and there's nothing you can do about it!
#I had to do an assignment for school abt fables and i remembered abt Tinkerbell and how much i adored her even though people hated her in#the second movie but i understood her even as a 5 year old i was like oh shes me ME#idk i remembed feeling so comforted as a kid knowing that my favorite characted ever struggled so much with her emotions Tinkerbell ily#no one understands you like i do#ik no one remembers the second movie but i remember!#oh i remember how she pushed away everybody that tried to care abt her! i remember her splitting! i need her back NOW i can't keep replaying#the second movie over and over again!
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just updated tumblr mobile for the first time in two years and mein gotte everything is so large. i am also now able to view polls for the first time in my life and it is stressing me out. i can only look at one thing at a time and there are now more than five
#i’m like one of those creatures that responds poorly to environmental changes#for once i think twit and ig were correct to limit the poll option number bc why are there polls with 15 options#that’s too many things to read and more shit i have to scroll past . maine goate#i’m on a personal quest to update my apps as infrequently as possible#i finally caved for tumblr because the old app was showing me post replies from the most recent ones onwards#and every time i scrolled up to see older replies the whole feed reset back to the bottom#I ONLY DID IT FOR HER!!!!!#well now everything’s sort of just there (sadly and with emotion)#oh well. or as they say. orwell. george orwell#i guess i’ll go back to my little life now#goofily and with feeling#gelmo
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Snoopy #33
3/11/2024
#peanuts#snoopy#art#33#music#PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS SONG THE CHORUS IS SOOO GOOD!!!!#the visual composition of this piece is kinda ass ngl. like it's just random stuff all over the place but oh well!#wired headphones because i'm a HATER of the wireless headphones revolution that has been going on for the last like 6-8 years or so#anyway i'm obsessed with this song#and it's maybeeee lowkey relevant to my life rn 👀#guy offering me a ride home despite me living out of his way = one of many dominoes in a chain of events that will probably lead to a crush#eventually... if not right now#idk i'm insane and a loser so i could slow burn for years but i am trying not to waste other people's time with my shenanigans anymore#so into another outlet these feelings must go!#how did CRJ manage to capture so perfectly how i felt in the car in 4 simple little lines... megabrained genius behaviour i have to say!#also that car ride home was a few months ago and i didn't discover this song until afterwards (despite this album being 9 years old lol)#so how i felt in the car was Not at all influenced by any pre-existing knowledge of this song#or any desire to shape the events of my life to fit the emotions of the song for the Plot or the Aesthetic or the Narrative or whatever#it just came into my life like a perfectly tailored jacket from a thrift store
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⟢ highlight of the hour: flex x cop [10/16] ⟣
welcome back home
#flex x cop#korean drama#ahn bo hyun#park ji hyun#fxchoth#mmkfav#mygif#i luv how lgh has been subtly comforting and supporting jys#she helped him gather the courage to return home#she helped him process his feelings and emotions#she wasnt pushy about it either and rather shared some words of encouragement in a respectful way#fxc is taking its sweet time with the slow burn romance#and even if it doesnt go all the way with lgh and jys i luv what we've seen so far between them#car rides back home together and jys complaining about lgh's car#just like the good old times#oh and the way that i squealed when lgh said no one's been nagging her about her car#LIKE GURLLLLL
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ok I just started the new detective Pikachu and I can't fucking breathe cause my stupid little transgender brain has decided Tim is trans based on his goddamn HAIR EVOLUTION
YOUR TELLING ME THIS ISNT JUST THE REF PHOTO FOR MY FIEST MASC HAIRCUT I GAVE THE HAIRDRESSER WHN I CAME OUT VS WHAT SHE GAVE ME????
#Pokemon#pokemon detective pikachu#detective pikachu#detective pikachu returns#Tim Goodman#Trans#transgender#POOR TIM#THAT FIRST HAIRCUT IS A CANNON EVENT FOR TRANS MEN EVERYWHERE#NO JOKE THE YOUNGER TIM LOOKS LIKE ME WHEN I GOT MY FIRST HAIRCUT#BUT SLIGHTLY LESS HORRIBLE#AND NO GLASSES#WHAT#Update#I'm like halfway through#Oh my god this game feels like I'm reading a twelve year olds first Pokemon fanfic while high on copious amounts of cocaine#What is going on#I JUST FINISHED IT I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT SERIOUSLY#I KNOW ITS EMOTIONAL BUT PLEASE FOR GOD SAKE GIVE THE CHARACTERS ACTUAL EXPRESSIONS!!!! SHADING!!!! MAKE EM LOOK ALL DIRTIED UP!!!!!#LITERALLY ANYTHING?????
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#[gritting my teeth] it’s just a show it’s just a show#james spader#alan shore#boston legal#*#unfortunately I fully recognize the emotions he’s feeling in this moment. oh gd#she got bored and dropped him like an old toy when she didn’t want to play with him anymore#he knows he’s not as shiny and fun as her new toy but his stomach still hurts. he doesn’t know why he used to be enough and now he isn’t#but he can’t say anything about it because no one’s done anything wrong! he just has to sit with it alone (again)#alan I will sit next to you in the dumpster and hold your hand
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this whole jack unfollowing mark thing, i can feel 16 yr old me trying to give a shit and i just don’t lmao
#at my old ass age this feels so juvenile#the parasocial relationship has stopped parasocialing#i dont care if theyre not as close as they used to be#they are grown men living in different countries of course theyre not gonna be as close#‘oh something big mustve happened!!’ or they just had a falling out#either way its not our business#until something comes out where one of them has done something actually bad it really doesnt matter#theres so much shit in the world that this just doesnt warrent any stress over#and thats not me talking shit abt people#like i said a few years ago i wouldve been one of them#but if this is genuinely making you stress out and feel anxious then you need to step away and ask why#these are men you most likely will never meet#their personal lives are none of our business and dont need any of your emotional energy#well that’s content#markiplier#jacksepticeye
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something about being a teen obsessed with loki back in the days of the first movies, where he is full of destruction and rage and constant suffering trying to claim power and agency in the world. he is tense and on his guard and not trusting anyone.
and now being in your mid 20's watching loki take control of the narrative, save the multiverse and take on this burden, not for power, but driven by his love for his friends. he is openly bi and admires his friends with a genuine smile on his face and sure he banters and jokes but never doubts their actual bond.
you get me?
#loki#loki spoilers#marvel blogging#loki s2#loki laufeyson#thought twice abt adding openly bi into this post but i feel like it is actually essential.#closeted 15 year old me trying to figure herself out. she had no idea we'd be here today.#i know some people might not like this ending but it rly ended up being something healing to me.#it isnt just about the endgame. the entire episode was loki at his most loki to me. oh man.#wasnt gonna get emotional but then the thor 1 parallels got to me. lmao.
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idg bullies bc if you think someone is committing some sort of social sin... why aren't u stepping in to help them, why are you watching them fuck up? clearly its important enough to you that you try to socially punish the fellow, if this is a social cause you are so very impassioned about, why not help that person not fuck up?
or... did you just want to laugh at someone fucking up? bc at that point you're providing nothing to anyone besides just being an asshole but hey ig some people are proud of their assholes so
#to me its just an unnecessary energy#like i have shit to do i have chores to go home and get to why are you wasting both of our time being an ass#what is this doing for anyone besides fueling your narcissism#cool bud happy for you and your fleeting superiority complex as soon as i leave the room#i wonder how you make yourself feel like you're better than everyone when im not around- oh yeah its bc you go online#and spread your disease-like assholery elsewhere so then everyone becomes an asshole and no ones happy#no one can be sincere... everything hidden under a million layers of irony... stuffing every last emotion down bc emotions are cringe#or whatever...#idk. i dont like the artificiality of every social interaction these days. i feel like the only genuine ppl i meet are like. old ladies lol#everyones always got some sort of scheme or some shit... older ladies only care about talking about tea n knitting n shit#you think an old lady has any reason to be shitting on anyone? when shes probably living her best lil humble life?#theyre old they dont have the energy or time to hate anymore all they wanna see are things to love and hey i think everyone should#try to see the world that way. they know they dont got a lot of time left so they're more appreciative and nicer (usually)#you never know when you'll run out of time so why not start appreciating now?#why spread hate when you can be love. cheesy but its true
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My favourite sunsets have always been with you.
#this is over a year old#but i realized ive never posted it here#deathduo#but not qsmp#i shouldve better flooded this tag with deathduo art before qsmp even started#i was slacking#anyway#rat server#but actually it's irl deathduo#just have to feel like i have to claify#because someone took our name#(this is a joke)#i cant be mad when the content is gorgeous#my art#oh#im contemplating drafting this#this feels bit personal now#or maybe im being emotional because its 4am#probably#i miss Icee#no one saw the typo#deathduo my beloved
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