#oh how i wish tumblr had a gold text option

[thewandererh]

it is spooky season chat. have some over-a-year-old artles of my kid gathering shadows, unending whispers. he’s an older oc so he’s a lil cheesy, but i still love him very much <33. last year i gave him a lore update where his eyes turn gold and he nearly dies in an event i called “gash”…and then wrote an entire fanfic about it💥. he’s very troubled and half of these images are outdated but it’s ok ^_^. look at my kid. my silly little guy. my EVIL little lad,, if you couldn’t tell from his mischievous smile.

i was testing a lot of stuff when making these way back when. different brushes and techniques and such. it’s was a formative time! since then i know more about ibis so woohoo :]. the silly laughing emoji is the most recent!

[fortisfiliae]

Against the Odds - Part 3 [James Potter x reader]

Prompt: College AU ❃ Jocks are disgusting. Too good looking, too aware of it, too drunk and too dumb. Or so you thought. This is the third part for @marvelcapsicle‘s writing challenge.

A/n:  Since tumblr doesn’t show posts with links in the tags anymore, you can find previous parts on my masterlist, linked in my bio. �� If you need to zoom in on the texts just click on the picture to do so. GIF is not mine.

Warnings: Swearing, sexual themes, fluff and a curly devil that will hunt your dreams

Word count: 3.2k

Part 3 - You up?

Thursday:

Half past nine in the evening, you had just typed the last word of your essay for English class and had clicked on the save-symbol when Louise entered your room, along with her boyfriend Mike. He was a frat guy. Jockish as hell. Maybe one of the reasons you hadn’t liked those type of guys.

You weren't sure why they had decided to come to your and Louise’s room – it was certainly too small to miss anything the other person said or did and Louise had told you countless times how lucky Mike was to have a room for himself at the frat. 

Anyway, you weren't going to ask them because they had decided to watch a movie on Louise's laptop and after arguing for twenty minutes, had finally picked something out. 

You were on your phone, texting with Remus, who had just started telling you things about his personal life and that he would go to the cinema with Sirius in a bit when you suddenly heard suspicious huffing from across the room. You turned over and caught Louise and Mike kissing. Vigorously. Not only that, but things were moving underneath their blanket and it didn't look like they were folding their hands to pray.

“Guys,” you said. “You know I can hear and see you from here.”

No answer. They just ignored you.

“Louise! What the fuck are you doing?”

She tore herself away from her boyfriend and took a breath before answering: “Sorry, Y/N. But you must know, I've just gotten off my period and we haven't-”

“Oh my god. Shut up, please. You can't be serious. Why don't you-”

Before you could finish your sentence, her mouth was on his again and now it seemed that she was climbing onto him.

“Hello?”

They ignored you again and now you heard something unzipping.

“That's it,” you said as you got up. “I'm leaving. And fuck you both. Or don't. Whatever.”

You rushed out the room and stood in the hallway, already typing a text to Remus, trying to ask him if he could help you out. Wait. He was going out with Sirius. So that wasn't an option. Shit. You walked over to the common room and sat down on one of the mouldy couches. Looking across the area you stared at the microwave for a minute, contemplating if sleeping here was the only alternative you had. Oh please no. It was gross and cold and people would notice. There was someone else you knew. Not that you preferred that. But it was worth a try, wasn't it?

So, yeah. Awkward.  

Oh god. Stupid. No one would believe that. Was there a way to unsend texts?

Okay, okay. Okay! Keep calm. You took a deep breath, smelling even more of the gunk that had built up on the kitchen counter, and stood up. Everything was better than spending the night between the remnants of pizza and hot pockets. You caught yourself walking in circles and finally brought up the courage to leave the dorm.

It was chilly outside, but you enjoyed the cool breeze as you stood on the pavement and pressed the front of your shoe into the concrete until it hurt. A car turned up on the far end of the street. Blinding headlights came closer with the engine revving until it slowed down and stopped right in front of you. A black and sleek Audi whatever-model. Rich parents – what else had you expected?

Last chance to run back in. He could still be a serial killer, right? But he had brought you a sandwich yesterday. Were you really just using food as refutation?  

The window rolled down and James' curly head poked out. “You coming?”

Well, curly hair and a sub would do as refutation for tonight.

You got in, closed the door and belted up before you finally looked over.

“Hi,” you said hesitantly.

“Hey. So... Drama at the dorm?”

“Yeah. And I’m sorry. That I asked you for this, you know.”

“Nah, it’s fine. I was at the bar and wanted to go home anyway. Actually, I'm glad you did.”

He put in the gear, started driving and looked like he wanted to say something but didn’t. There was a tiny smile on his lips that could only make you guess what he was thinking before you put your eyes on the road.

“So um... Who’s your roommate then? Do I know her boyfriend?” James asked after a while.

“Her name’s Louise. Her boyfriend is Mike. Mike um, Broogler or something? A frat guy, I’m sure you know him.”

“Brockler, yeah I know him. A frat guy, huh?” he grinned.

“He is a guy and part of the fraternity. Frat guy.”

“The way you say it makes it sound like that’s something bad.”

He was obviously joking, the tone of his voice still light and cheery, but there could have been a bit of truth behind his words.

“I didn’t mean it that way. Sorry if I hurt your feelings,” you said. “Frat guy.”

He chuckled as he backed into a parking space in front of the fraternity. “Frat guy is saving your ass tonight, so a bit more respect please.”

“Sorry mister frat guy, sir. I apologize.”

You followed James into the house, which had all the lights off and was empty, contrary to your prior beliefs.

“Boys are all out at the bar. Except for Mike,” he quipped.

The house looked completely different than it had when you were at the party. Classy and strict, a lot of old dark wood embellished the floors and furniture.  You peeked into the living room and it was actually quite cosy without the beer pong table and blaring music.

James walked up to the wide staircase on the end of the hallway and turned around. “Rooms are upstairs.”

“Uh yeah, I figured.”

So there it was. The moment you had to tell him that you hadn’t intended the same thing he maybe had thought of. There was a nasty lump in your throat. How should you bring it up? Maybe he wasn’t even thinking about it and you would just burst in with the unasked-for info that you didn’t want to sleep with him tonight.

“Hey um,” James began. “Just so you know, I won’t try anything. I can sleep in the living room if you want.”

God bless.  

“Thanks,” you said and felt a wave of heat on your cheeks. Where has your confidence gone? Get a grip.  

“Okay, let me show you my room then,” James said and offered his hand.

He led you up to the first floor that had doors to the bedrooms all around. They all had the initials of their names on the doors. His one was the third in line. JP in gold with a little lightning bolt next to it.

You pointed at it and asked: “What does that stand for?”

“I’m fast,” he said and smiled smugly. “Everyone in the team gets a nickname.”

“And yours is Bolt?” you asked as he opened the door.

“Flash,” he winked. “Excuse the mess.”

James went to pick up a bunch of dirty clothes from the floor. “I wasn’t expecting visitors.”

“No big deal, it’s not so bad.”

It really wasn’t so bad. The room was probably the same size as your shared one was, but with a private bathroom. The dream. His bed stood in the corner of the room - white sheets, very chic. On the opposite side was a sideboard with a medium sized TV on it, next to it was the door to the bathroom. His desk stood right by the window, a wardrobe to its left, a small fridge to its right. He’d hung lots of little photos of him and his friends and football fan articles on the walls. It was a bit messy, but it had character.

“Your room is really nice,” you said as you walked around and looked at the pictures.

“Thanks! Make yourself at home. I’m just putting the clothes away and I’m gonna take a shower real quick, I still smell like bar.”

“Sure.”

He closed the door to the bathroom behind himself and left you alone in his room. High level of trust. As you heard him turn on the water you walked over to the other side slowly, letting your fingers run over the sheets of the bed when you went by.

On the sideboard with the TV was his football helmet, freshly cleaned and shiny as a new penny. You noticed a small ball lying right beside it. The one he had gotten at the blood drive yesterday. It still had dents from his fingernails all over it. Looked like he had been more nervous than you’d thought. You smiled and dug your own finger into it, leaving one additional notch, before trying to switch on the TV. It would be nice to have some background sounds and avoid awkward silence later, but the remote was nowhere to be seen.

After looking at the sideboard, his desk and bed you went for the nightstand. Intrusive? Probably, but maybe it was in there.

You sat down on the bed and opened the drawer. No remote. But some other things. A small notebook and a nibbled off pen, as well as a framed picture of two people. They looked like husband and wife - both had grey hair, were probably in their seventies and smiled kindly into the camera. His grandparents? Well, since it was in there and not on the wall, he probably didn't want to talk about it.

You closed the drawer and swung your legs up onto the bed. Sitting, waiting, wishing. Wishing for confidence and poise and that your palms wouldn't start sweating every time James looked at you. Right now it felt like his whole room was staring you down. Like it was eating you up. But not in a bad way, it was a welcoming feeling to sit there and gaze over the bits and bobs of his belongings.

When you noticed that the water had stopped running you took out your phone to try and look like you hadn't been spying. A few moments later James returned in a plain white shirt and grey sweatpants. Quite the look on him admittedly. His hair was still wet, some drops of water running down the side of his face to his jawline and even further down to his chin. God damn, you couldn't take your eyes off him. He must have done this on purpose.

“You good here?” he asked as he ran his hand through the wet mess on his head.

“Uh-huh, I am. Was trying to find the remote, but didn't.”

“Oh um. I think I know where it is,” James said and threw himself onto the bed, half lying, half crawling and stuck his arm under the pillow. “There we go.”

He turned on the TV and switched channels for a while until he stopped on the news. The news?! You both sat in silence pretending to be interested in whatever the reporter was talking about. Note to self: There can be awkward silence even if you have background sound.

Trying to think of something to say turned out to be harder than you'd thought. What do you talk about with a guy that had taken you home because you had asked him to, while he lay next to you, smelling like a pinewood full of sunshine and fairies? The fact that there was an inch of skin showing between his shirt and pants wasn’t helping either.

“So-” - “Do you-”

After minutes of silence, you had both decided to start talking in the same second. Both of you laughed at your mutual awkwardness and James sat up straight.

“Sorry, what did you want to say?” he asked.

“Nothing really,” you admitted. “I was just... I don't know. Go on, please.”

He grinned like he was glad that you were more nervous than him. Looked like it gave him a confidence boost. As if he needed one.

“I wanted to say that I can give you clothes to sleep in. You didn’t bring anything in your handbag, did you?”

“No, I didn't really have time to pack when I was running from the fucking in my room. But it's fine, you don't -”

“Oh, come on,” he said. “You don't want to sleep in jeans. No one wants that.”

“Yeah, I guess I don't.”

He crawled off from the bed and walked over to the wardrobe. “I'm afraid I don't have anything sexy,” he joked. “But a frat shirt will do I think.”

He laid it down next to you before sitting on the bed again.

“Thanks, James. I'm gonna go change in the bathroom.”

“Sure. I put out a toothbrush too if you want to brush your teeth.”

What a mom.

The bathroom was small but still better than one on the hallway. You took off your clothes and put on the shirt James had given you. It looked huge on you. Dark red with the fraternity name Kappa Delta Rho on it, it reached almost down to your knees, like a really unflattering dress. It was soft and smelled nice though. Not like pine wood and fairies, but sweeter. Clean, fresh cotton with a hint of washed out cologne. 

The toothbrush he had been talking about laid next to the sink, still unpacked and new. Did a stock of dental hygiene products mean he had people here often?

After you were done in the bathroom you went back to James' room, where he was lying on his bed again, watching TV with one hand behind his head, the other one tucked into his waistband. This time, it seemed he couldn’t take his eyes off you. A dumbfounded expression on his face as you walked towards him and the way he eyed you up and down made you instantly feel better about yourself. There was your confidence boost and you had very much needed it.

He cleared his throat when you sat down on the bed. “Well. If you want to sleep now I can go downstairs and -”

“No,” you interrupted him, maybe a bit too eagerly.

“Sorry?”

“I… I think you can stay. If you want. I mean, it’s your room. That wouldn’t be fair, to invite myself over and send you down to sleep on the couch.”

“Oh.” He looked more confused now, his hand wandered to the back of his neck. “I mean yeah. I’m glad to stay if you want that.”

You smiled, lifted the blanket to crawl underneath it and lay down sideways to face him. “I think that’s what I want, yes.”

He got under the blanket as well and said: “We can watch a movie if you want.”

Half an hour into “Baby Driver”, you had caught James looking at you twice. But the only reason you caught him was that you had looked over as well. It was absurd really, how every move he made got your heart rate up to 180. Every time he breathed in deeply or stretched out his legs you thought he would reach over and hold your hand. And suddenly, after checking his phone, he did. You were so focused on coming off relaxed that you didn’t even grip it back. It must have felt like you were dead until you remembered that you weren’t. You held his palm tighter and felt his thumb running over the side of your index finger, which made your stomach tingle.

“James?” you asked.

“Yes?”

“You’re really nice. I mean really,” you said even though you didn’t know where those words were coming from. “You know at first I thought you were just this guy, screaming with a beer keg on his shoulder. And I thought you were cocky, which… You are when I think about it.”

He laughed lowly. “That started as a compliment and ended as an insult.”

“I know, sorry” you bantered. “But you’ve been a real gentleman, very sweet and respectful and I didn’t expect that. Thank you for that.”

“You’re welcome,” he said, wearing a smile that showed he was really full of himself right then, but that didn’t matter because his face neared yours now.

A kiss so sweet, it would have literally swept you off your feet if you hadn’t been lying down already. His lips, soft and mellow, skimmed over your own and it felt like listening to music; easy and pleasant as you found your rhythm and moved to the imaginary beat. His damp hair tickled your forehead until a simple peck brought your song to an end and a foolish grin seemed to refine it.

“How does it feel?” he asked after some seconds of silence.

“What do you mean?”

“Being in a frat, wearing a frat-shirt, kissing a frat guy in his frat-bed?”

“Oh shut up,” you laughed pushed him off by his shoulder.

He countered and started tickling you, to which you started screaming, turned around and kicked his legs.

“Whoa, easy Rambo,” James chortled and held you tight.

“No mercy for a tickler,” you answered and let your hand rest on his arm. “You’re a fool, James. I like you.”

The next time you opened your eyes was when a ray of sunshine beamed right into your face. You tried to shift but couldn’t until you noticed that James’ arm was still around your waist and held onto you even in his sleep. His breaths were slow and deep, his skin soft on yours and you could have easily spent the rest of your day in this position.

That was until you took your phone from the nightstand and checked the time. 9:17! Shit. You had forgotten to set an alarm last night and your first class started at 10. You had to leave right now, or you wouldn’t make it on time. So you shuffled away from his grip, got up, put your clothes on and went out the door.

While on your way to the dorm you took the time to shoot James a message:

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[cherryxjae]

NCT Fic Rec

Here is a list of some of my fave NCT fics, I thought I’d post just in case anyone wanted any good recommendations. I’m very Jaehyun biased though sorry! A lot of the fics on this list include him, but I do have some other members. I will try update with any other good ones I read. 

Ngl I really like angst / slice of life type fics, but unfortunately there’s not many here, I couldn’t really find any. Most on this list are fluff and maybe some angst.

I have read other good ones, but I unfortunately don’t have the links, if I ever find they will be added.

  ♥ - favorites            ! - new

I’ve had to remove some tags due to max limit

Love note  ♥ ♥ by chipsandwaffles  

I love the concept behind this one so much, its so cute. It’s one of the shorter ones on this list.

Comfort by stormae

Gold Leaf by stormae

Punch Drunk  ♥ ♥ by stormae 

Oh no 1 2 3 4 5 6   ♥ ♥ by arckook

I remember waiting for the parts to be released for this one, I’d usually check when I came on tumblr. I loved it so much, I ended up reading it a few times.

Trouble for the taking by versigny 

Space between us by ewuta

Please remember me by sugarednct

Chrysanthemums    ♥ ♥ by huangults

This is so cute! Short again, but so sweet.

Reverse Idol by jieqs

There’s enough room for the both of us by jaebesoindetoi

Oh boy by jaehotbuns

33%  arigathanksgozaimuch

Elevator Music 1 2 3 4 5 by chipsandwaffles

Memoirs of the broken people  ♥ ♥  by bba-sae

Plummet 1 2   ♥ ♥ by f1gs 

Escape by xofanfics

I think I’m in love with you and I’m terrified  ♥ ♥  by honeytaeyong

Dark chocolate 1 2  ♥ ♥ by planettaeil  

Memories by monbabu

I’ll be waiting by chittafont

Vice Versa by chittafont

Goodbye Summer by chittafont

Delusional  by chittafont

Death of the cat 1 2 3 by kaepop-trash

Fix you 1 2 3 4 by @leetaeyongwonhi

Freckled Beauty  ♥ ♥ by leetaeyongwonhi

The space between girl and friend 1 2 by leetaeyongwonhi 

Last Dance by xofanfics 

“Do you ever think we should just stop doing this?” + “Are you happy with him?” by fluffyjenope

 Dusted Confessions by @taeyongtime

 Brothers bestfriend by @suhsexual 

 Tempting  ♥ ♥ by xofanfics

Blue jeans ♥ ♥ by @phantasmct

Lines  ♥ ♥  by phantasmct 

First date   ♥ ♥ ♥  by tuanstrash

Friday boy 1  2  ♥ ♥  by heartachetosing 

Jealousy by @yoonohmg 

The ones with thorns  ♥ ♥ by  tensify 

Back 2 U by @idolimagines

Anemoia by kaepop-trash 

Hallway to heaven by sopewriters 

Luminous   ♥ ♥  by carminseok 

circles by zeromilenct 

Documented feelings 1  2  by alabastertouch 

Always by chittafont 

Unfortunate Events  ♥ ♥ ♥ by turtletaemin 

3am ♥ ♥ ♥ by @timelessjae 

Stepping back  ♥ ♥ ♥ by @welovekpopscenarios 

From paris with love   ♥ ♥ ♥ by alabastertouch

Catching the right time  ♥ ♥ ♥  by alabastertouch 

Baby don’t like it 1  2  3 by @maknaesdancersrappers

I missed you  by @camomileteasposts

Devoted by maknaesdancersrappers 

And in the end  ♥ ♥ ♥ by  bba-sae  

Too good at goodbyes (pt 1) by @jeongjaehyum 

Dalliance in drudgery by @c-aurelius 

roommate!jaehyun by @taeshu 

Pink  ♥ ♥ ♥  by @enaasteria 

Every breath you take (series complete) by @neoculturetechonmymind 

Messy Boy by @chipswithfanfics 

Hiraeth by @august-angel0802 

A slight smell of strawberry shortcake ♥ ♥ ♥ by minigguk 

Love you goodbye by  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ @serendipityseulgi 

Falling from grace by  ♥ ♥   @jaehoneyed (series ongoing masterlist on the profile)

Waking up beside jaehyun by @crimsonwars 

Breaking up 1 2 by crimsonwars 

Black and blue by @okmica 

Saudade by ♥ ♥ ♥  @taezhu 

Canvas ♥ by @ohmyonibugi 

Please, please, please ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ by @softestsehun 

Juliet alpha echo  ♥ ♥   by stormae 

Summer’s over and so are we (three parts)  by @dyngdo !! 

Come back by @chipsandwaffles

Holier Than Thou  ♥ ♥ by @stormae 

omg I loved this one, tattoo artist ten yes.

Painted are the living by stormae

Order of the Diadem 1 2 3 final  ♥ ♥ by stormae 

Offended by stormae

Punch Drunk Recreation  by @bba-sae

Grow  ♥ ♥ by chittafont

Illustrated Haiku by chittafont

Universe by chittafont

friendstolovers by chittafont 

Two Houses by chittafont

Seven Minutes in Heaven by @chittafont

Thursday by @sweaterpawstaeyong

Deep space by stormae

Natural Disaster  1 2  ♥ ♥  by @chittafont 

Homeroom   ♥ ♥  by @sopewriters 

Freelance by suhsexual !!!!

The roommate code by @taeyxong

Crush by @floraltaeil

Art and other things by @bba-sae

Moon River  ♥ ♥ by @chittafont

How would you feel by @chittafont

Regret by @jj-nyoung

Reasons why I can’t forget you  ♥ ♥  by @taeyongtime

Dangerously, You’re Beautiful 00 01 02  ♥ ♥ by @yougotthatbilly  

His thoughts at midnight by @chittafont

Drawing Hearts  by @tensify 

Fragile by @f1gs

Covert Affair by @suhsexual 

Briar and bramble by taeyongtime 

The way gravity works ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ by @gijeon !! (oh my goddd I loved this one)

Tabula Rasa by  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ taeyongtime  

Across the hall (series) ♥ ♥ ♥  by @jaehoneyed !!!

Sun dust   ♥ ♥ ♥  by @stormae

Hands down one of my all time faves, I loved this one so much, everything about it.

Home  ♥ ♥  by @starlightyukhei 

Our secret by xofanfics 

Pseudonym by @kaepop-trash 

Sweet Lies by @neocultvretechs

Breath by sugarednct

Some people have angels  ♥ ♥ by stormae

Cigarette daydreams  ♥ ♥ ♥ by taeyxong  

How to let go by @am-phitrite 

Secret Crush by @hwarang-my-loves 

Used by  ♥ ♥  nctctzen 

Locked hearts by hyuckios 

(not) meant to be by @yougotthatbilly 

Lit by stormae 

Johnny / Jaehyun - Let it go  ♥ ♥ ♥  by @yougotthatbilly

Disaster Training  ♥ ♥ ♥ by taect

Soleil luna by taeyongtime !!!!

Floor by chittafont 

Old flame by xofanfics

Bliss by @suhsexual 

High hopes  ♥ ♥ by chittafont 

Promises   ♥ ♥  by taeyxong  

Happiness   ♥ ♥  by tensify 

Confession by imaginemarklee 

Lilac  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ by @serendipityseulgi 

Anticipate the moss rose  ♥ ♥  by stromae !!!

Heartbeat by chittafont 

Its right there  by @mikemikebungee !!!

la vie en rose ♥  by taeyxong !!!!

Jungwoo x Yukhei

Different by softforjungwoo

This isn’t a written fic, but the story is told through snapchats, texts and messages etc. I have never read anything like this before ( or even seen something like it tbh) but I wish there were more like it bc this was so cute and told in such a good way! 

softforjungwoo 

Masterlist (I really like all their work so i’ll just include the masterlist)

OPTIONAL BIAS

Masterlist

by thorns-and--thistles 

Thought I would include this since shes probably my all time fave author on here. Everything is optional bias and I decided to just list the master list since they are all really good.

[smolfangirl]

Please don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

A sound so sweet of you and me - 14 - First goodbye

Word count: 2.2k

Since Tumblr mobile is messing around since the update, I tried to fix this but as long as support doesn’t help, I decided to not give a duck and post this anyway. I’m sorry to clog your dashboards, but welp, I tried to avoid it. And I’m really sorry for the new, non-matching structure of the chapter...

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“How many minutes until we definitely have to get up?”

Her hand rested on his chest, drew traces and lines that formed letters confessing her love. Matteo reached out for his phone, half smirking at the groan Luna produced as he shifted.

“One hour won’t hurt.”

“That’s a lot of time…” Her voice trailed off. The sun already sneaked through his curtains, it hit her eyes and painted them into an emerald sea.

“You say that like you already have an idea on how to spend it”, he echoed, smiling at the kiss she planted to his cheek. Luna chuckled, even more at his surprised moan when she lifted herself up to settle down on his lap. “I might.”

One kiss. A second. Third.

“A very good idea”, he said after she broke away for a moment. Nodding, her fingers followed the trails of his cheekbones down to his collarbones. “I think I’ll give you a small gift before you go.”

Matteo frowned, not sure what she meant – she’d already given him a little photo album of their time together on the goodbye party two days ago.

It’d been a surprise for him, and his first goodbye party at that, which provoked tears all too easily. Luna sniffed too at some point into the evening, while Gastón outright looked like he attended a funeral. Matteo enjoyed the party though. It warmed his heart to know he’d be missed. And after midnight, they sneaked away from their friends to watch the night sky and kiss the last breaths out of their lungs. He had tried not to cry, not to think of where he’d be in barely three days and where he wanted to stay.

He almost had succeeded.

Now, he still wondered what Luna could get him. “What do you have in… oh.”

He closed his eyes.

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One hour and a quick shower later, Matteo stared at the purple masterpiece spreading on his neck. “You really gave your all, huh?” he asked a smug Luna entering the bathroom.

“Of course. Only the best for my astronaut.” Wrapping her arms around his waist, she watched him doing his hair. “Hey, can I have that t-shirt you wore before we went to bed yesterday?”

“What if I need it in Italy?”

“You said it’s winter there, you won’t need t-shirts.”

He shook his head, simultaneously checking the mirror to see if his hair stayed in place. “But you do?” She loosened her grip while he grabbed the remaining toiletries and threw them into his opened suitcase. “Can you give me that towel?”

With a pout, she handed it over. “Of course I need t-shirts. Especially the ones that smell like my boyfriend and are way too big.” He trailed behind her as she walked back into his bedroom, hips swinging and reminding him she only wore one of his shirts and underwear, and he really, really wanted to dread going to the airport.

But they were out of time, although they pretended the opposite with their banter.

“And why don’t you just buy them?”

“Oh, right, okay, I will get them right when I go shopping for a new boyfriend”, she said, laughing. If he listened closely, it sounded different, not half as joyful as usual.

A knot appeared in his throat, or what felt like a stone wearing his voice down. This sorrow clouding her mind wore a name, his name when he had claimed to never cause her any harm.

Matteo cleared his throat.

It wasn’t his fault, he told himself, it was a matter out of his hands. So, instead of apologizing, he pulled her close to let her get a taste of where he’d go to keep her by his side. “On second thought, you can have the shirt.”

“Awesome.” Her voice sounded like she almost meant it.

///

His legs got heavier with every step further down the stairs. Every step could be a last one, and the echo from Luna’s feet told him she said goodbye too. Just in case.

With a few hours left till take-off, his parents still kept them in the dark about a possible return to Buenos Aires. Whether it’d be the worst case or only a few weeks of vacations, Matteo had grown eager to know. Saying his farewells to his friends – and Luna especially – without knowing how long it’d take him to come back damn near killed him.

Not that his parents seemed to care.

When Matteo and Luna walked into the living room, his suitcase neatly stored in the hallway, the swing their mood completed could have won an Olympic gold medal.

Everything about his parents screamed stress. His mom hurried through the house, packing their last belongings and throwing angry glares at whoever stood in her way. Meanwhile, his dad began one phone call after another, sometimes in Spanish, sometimes in Italian. Once an angry mix of both.

A silent sigh on his lips, Matteo waved Luna over to the couch. From his experience, there was nothing left for him to be done, so they might as well get the most out of the mere two hours remaining on the clock.

Luna curled up next to him. Buried her head in his shoulders, hand stroking his stomach. With closed eyes, he saved the sensation in his heart. Who knew how long it had to last him…

“Are you coming to the airport too?” His dad threw them an impatient look, finger tapping on the back of his phone. As he spotted Matteo’s hickey, his eyebrows raised too.

“Yes, I’d love to bring”, Luna began but he cut her off. “Okay.”

Then he yelled at another poor person at the end of the line.

Matteo slightly shrugged at his little moon before he gently kissed her forehead. She smiled. Soon his parents faded into a minor detail in his perception, meaningless over the sweet encouragements and love confessions she whispered into his ear. He replied with more kisses. Her hands, neck, face… wherever he could reach her. Not one part of her body should be left without knowing how much he adored her.

“Matteo! Stop being glued to her for one second and help me!” his mom shouted out of the kitchen. Before he got up, Luna threw him an apologetic look. Matteo shrugged once more. To be honest, just her presence eased this loaded atmosphere his parents radiated.

///

As soon as they sat in the car, a sickness moved into his stomach pit, one that couldn’t be fought with one of his mom’s pills. Not with being close to Luna either.

She chose the middle seat, so she was closer to him, and their hands intertwined the very second they put the seatbelts on. Yet it didn’t feel like enough, he craved to be buried by everything her one last time, like a junkie searching for one last hit before going into rehab.

But Matteo knew he had to be satisfied with what he had now, despite the desperation in his heart that ran as deep as the ocean.

Every attempt to not think about leaving her only caused him to think about it more. Before he met her, his grudge about moving steamed from a general frustration. Over having no say in his life, over having to adapt to yet another city, another language, another life without any other options.

Now it was so much more pain than just being fed up with changes.

Now he wished he could chain himself to his little moon, so his parents had no choice but to leave him with her.

Instead, Matteo had no choice but to leave her.

///

“Come back, okay?”

Two meters till they hit the queue for the security check. Luna clung to his side like she counted as a handbag if she just pressed herself close enough to him. Matteo knew he needed to let her go, his dad already warned him with his gaze.

Yet he lacked the strength to.

“There isn’t a world where I wouldn’t”, he promised. Stealing a kiss from her mouth, he couldn’t stop dreading the inevitable. “I love you. We’ll make this work.”

She stood on her toes, reached for his lips, a bittersweet peck, before she tousled through his curls. The smirk she attempted nearly worked out. “I love you more.”

“Doubt it”, he countered while he repaid her the messy hair favor.

His mom cleared her throat, an impatient click of the tongue ensued. Luna glimpsed at his parents. Looked back at him. The shimmering teardrops in her eyes stole his breath, crushed his heart.

“Don’t make me fight you”, she mumbled, a weak try of a smile on her lips. Sadness leaked into her tone in the same pace it spread all through Matteo’s chest.

“You wouldn’t. Not today.”

“Matteo”, his dad snapped. But he focused on Luna, his moon and stars, the fixpoint his life revolved around. One last time, he traced the soft skin on her cheek with his thumb, watched her eyes flutter shut at his touch.

“Chico fresa?”

“Yeah?”

A green sea in which he discovered himself, just to get lost again.

“I think you should go now.” The end of her sentence faded into the last breaths of air they shared.

“You’re right”, he admitted as much as he hated to. A hug, another kiss. The last one.

“I love you.”

“I love you more.”

///

While Matteo waited in line, Luna never left her place in the terminal, as close to him as the glass walls separating them allowed. She wiped her tears away whenever his gaze strayed from her for a moment, but in the endless stream of her grief, she drowned again before her hand even sank to her side.

When he disappeared out of her vision, a pained smile on his face, she wondered how she had grown so attached to what used to be a stranger twelve months ago. And how her heart could hurt so much without ever being broken.

///

Novia delivery: Have a safe flight! And text me when you landed

To novia delivery: Thank you, solare, you’ll be the first to hear from me

             And thanks for coming with us

Novia delivery: Always ♥ Is your dad mad at you? Bc of our goodbye?

To novia delivery: Not more than usual, don’t worry solare

Novia delivery: I miss you

To novia delivery: I miss you too

///

Gastón called ten minutes before boarding started. Matteo was standing by the windows, staring at the incoming flights and wishing he sat in one of them.

As he picked up, he hoped his voice wouldn’t reflect exactly how miserable he felt.

“Hey.”

At the sigh that followed, he must’ve sound as if he walked the edge to a mental breakdown. “You’re already at the gate?”

“Yeah.”

“Have a good flight, okay? And message me when you’re there, I wanna know you got there safely. And try to sleep on the plane or watch some movies and tell me if I should get any of them on DVD. Where do you sit? Nina said in the front is safer in case something happens. Not that I hope anything will happen, I’m counting on you to be back for the last school year, okay?”

His best friend’s ramble finally elicited a chuckle from him. When they moved to Buenos Aires, Matteo never thought he’d find a friend who worried enough to call him before take-off. Or a soulmate, and most definitely not two of them. Still, here he stood, heart swollen from all this love and bittersweet homesickness.

“Take a breath”, he told Gastón (and himself), chuckling, “will you? You’re worse than Luna.”

“Good. That is my job as your soulmate.”

“She is too, remember?”

His best friend snorted, not a surprise as this was a nerve Matteo could always hit if he wanted to get some payback for a particularly stupid pun. “Details. I am your better soulmate either way and you can bet your cute little ass I won’t let you forget that.”

Before the comeback sitting on the tip of his tongue could slip out, his mom motioned him to walk back to her. Matteo sighed. “I have to go, but don’t think this means I agree with you. Except for my cute ass.”

Something along like “Buzzkill” reached him from the other side of the phone. “Whatever. Have a nice flight, love you.”

“Love you too”, Matteo replied. Then the line went dead.

///

Underneath him, the houses shrunk to the size of Lego pieces. Cars first resembled the toy ones from his childhood before they transformed into moving pinpoints on blurred lines.

Somewhere down there, Luna walked the streets, perhaps staring at the sky, perhaps spotting this very plane, thinking of him. Somewhere down there, a piece of his heart remained, tied to the people and places he loved.

Somewhere on the other side of the ocean, there was a place his parents called home. But it wasn’t Matteo’s home no more, no matter whether he returned to Argentina for the new school year or not. Whether his parents accepted it or not.

Home was in Buenos Aires now, and with the sight of it vanishing, homesickness hit him. And he knew it would stay by his side until he came back.

[eldritchsurveys]

o67.

Have you ever talked to someone online, but when you saw each other in person, it was just super awkward? Have you ever made a really good friend online? >> Nah to the first question. But yes, at this point all my friends are people I’ve met online.

Do you enter sweepstakes or scratch lottery tickets or anything like that? What’s the best thing you’ve ever won? >> I’ve done scratch tickets, but usually because someone bought them for a group or something (like Hallie’s mom buying them for all of us way back when, or Sparrow’s mom doing the same thing at holiday dinners).

Right now, would you be upset if you got pregnant, or would you not mind? Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? >> I would definitely be upset if I was pregnant, because first of all, how did I even get that way... and second of all, I have zero desire to ever carry a child and I also have zero desire to have multiple abortions done, so... yeah. I have had a pregnancy scare, and it was founded, so.

Have you ever let someone be your everything? >> I don’t know, really. I don’t think I’ve ever thought of anyone by that exact terminology. It’s just not my attachment style, but it doesn’t mean I don’t still love people in my own way.

Do you have any weird inside jokes? >> All my best weird inside jokes are with Hallie, lmao. We’re just good at it. ;p

Could you go the rest of your life without a cigarette? >> Yeah.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now? >> Nope.

Do you have alcohol in your house? >> Yeah, there’s a wine in the fridge and I have a Backwoods Bastard and some Malört on my desk and we still have about half a bottle of Svedka mango-pineapple vodka left. Oh, and I still have a screwdriver in the fridge because I made it and then didn’t actually want it, lmao, so I just shoved it in there.

Have you ever wanted something you couldn’t have? >> Sure, a lot of things (mostly because I couldn’t afford them).

Are you a morning or night person? >> I don’t think my personhood is adequately described like that.

What is your favorite color? >> Gold.

It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it? >> A wrong number, I’d presume.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend? >> ---

Has someone ever called you at midnight on your birthday? >> I don’t think so, but I’ve probably gotten midnight texts.

Are any of your friends virgins? >> Not that I’m aware of.

Do you prefer relationships or friends with benefits? >> I mean, either is fine in general, but what I have right now are relationships and I’m happy enough with those.

Has anyone got on your nerves today? >> Nope. Just that one neighbour who keeps playing their music with the bass cranked up to 11 so that I can feel it vibrating through the building and my SKULL. It’s so distracting and overwhelming.

Has anyone told you they would never leave, and left? >> Probably, but I don’t hold that against anyone.

Do you have a member of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? >> I don’t think I could possibly tell anyone everything, like, I know I take this question too literally but I can’t really imagine how else I’m supposed to take it.

Did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 48 hours? >> Can Calah, and Hallie through text.

Are you usually early or late? >> I mean, to what...?

What’s annoying you? >> Nothing.

How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing and where are they now? >> Hallie is hopefully doing okay, he’s offline right now I think, doing some self-care I hope. <3 Sparrow is all right and she’s in bed. Can Calah is as he always is, being my copilot.

Do you have anything to pay off? >> No.

What are you wearing right now? >> Green and white harem pants and a grey Rush shirt.

Do you know anyone that wants you dead? >> I don’t think so.

Do you believe that regrets are lessons learned? >> I personally prefer to take that philosophy in general, but I understand it doesn’t necessarily apply to everyone. I also don’t usually regret things -- I can’t even think of anything I really regret right now -- so it’s probably easier in my case.

Last person you talked to, and through what you talked to them? >> Sparrow, in person, before she went to bed.

First color name you can think of that isn’t in the rainbow. >> Grey.

What timekeeping devices are in the room you are currently in? >> Normandy, my laptop; Senketsu, my phone; and a PSP Vita.

What gaming consoles do you or your family own? >> We have an Xbox 360, a PS4, a PS2, and the aforementioned PSP Vita.

What’s the best job you’ve ever had? >> Selling merch for local bands.

What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? >> Working in a family restaurant as a teenager.

What email service do you use? >> Gmail.

Is there anything hanging on the walls of the room you are currently in? >> Yeah, an Odin print and a poster from the Rebirth Brass Band show I went to last month.

Earliest moment in your life you can remember? >> Sitting on the kitchen floor at a dog breeder’s house.

What did you have for dinner yesterday? >> Was last night when we had the Burger King...? I think so. Time is fake, leave me alone.

How often do you brush your teeth? >> Once a day.

What’s your favorite candy/chocolate? >> Dark chocolate with sea salt and chili peppers (pop rocks optional).

Have you had other blogs on Tumblr? Do you have any other blogs currently? >> Yeah, my main blog is foundcarcosa and I have a few other sideblogs, and my RP blogs that I keep neglecting.

If you were suddenly really hungry, what would you choose to eat? >> Right now? Whatever I could grab, I guess...

What fandoms would you consider yourself a part of? >> Oh man.... so many, tbh.

What kind of position are you in at the moment? >> A seated one.

Do you wear much jewelry? >> Not much, because I can’t afford the kind I’d like to wear (I like costume jewellery but it’s fragile and makes my skin wig out sometimes, so I prefer not to wear it no matter how cool it looks).

Furthest away from home you have ever been? >> The farthest distance I’ve travelled in general is probably to/from NYC/Colorado.

How many times have you moved houses? >> Enough times that counting is just not something I feel like doing right now.

Who was the last person you had a conversation with on the phone? >> Some woman from a place around here. I was really hoping there wouldn’t have to be a phone call, I just wanted one little piece of information, but urgh.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex? >> ---

Has anyone said they love you in the last week? >> Yes, all my SOs. ~

Who was the last person to comfort you as you cried? >> Can Calah.

Do your computer speakers work? >> Yeah.

Which friend are you most similar to? >> ---

Your ex calls wanting to hang out. What do you say? >> What ex? The only ex I’m even still friends with is Anubis, and I think he has my number but I don’t see why he’d be calling me -- like, we don’t even live in the same state anymore.

Would you get back with your last ex if they asked you? >> That’s... Phoenix, I guess? And no, forget it. He had his chances.

Have you kissed anyone whose name starts with a M? >> I seem to remember a Matthew. Long, long time ago.

Would you kiss the last person who texted you, on the lips? >> The last person that texted me was Sparrow, so sure.

Camping with a ton of friends or hotel with a few friends? >> Either is fine.

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name starts with P, J, R, M, C, or D? >> Yes to all.

Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? >> Sure.

Do you think your ex will ever want to be with you again? >> There was only one ex who even still mattered enough for this question, and he’s not an ex anymore now, so!!!

Where would you rather live: England or Australia? >> England, I guess.

What’s your relationship with the last person you texted? >> Sparrow is my fiancée.

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? >> I don’t remember, probably something hygiene-related.

Do you fall for people easily? >> I don’t think so, no.

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? >> I mean, I guess in a passing sense, maybe sometimes? Like if they come up in a survey or something I’m obviously going to think about them in passing.

Have you ever kissed someone who was drunk? >> Sure.

The nearest window to you now - what color curtains are on them? >> No curtains, just some busted-up blinds. :|

The shade of the color of your eyes can be described as: >> Dark brown.

When was the last time you drank alcohol? >> Earlier today, I had a beer at the Wayland house.

At what age did you stop believing in Santa? >> I never did.

Do you own a wok? >> No.

Is there a particular type of music you really don’t like? >> I’m not crazy about bluegrass, but I keep an open mind.

Do you like going to weddings? >> I don’t know, I’ve never been to an actual one.

What do you have on your toast? >> I haven’t had toast in ages, but I usually put ghee and cinnamon on it. Sometimes jelly, too.

Who was the last person you know who became pregnant? >> *shrug*

Beach, city, or mountains? >> Yes.

Do you have a stapler at your house? >> No.

Would you rather read a book or listen to an audiobook? >> Read, I can’t focus on audiobooks at all.

Which is larger - your book or dvd collection? >> I don’t have a DVD collection, I literally own ONE DVD, so books win by default.

What is the last spontaneous thing you did? >> I don’t remember.

You get a call at 2:00 a.m. - your first thought is: >> My first thought is supreme annoyance.

What is your middle name? >> Frey.

What are you passionate about? >> Storytelling, my special interests, music.

Do you have any fears? >> Yeah, I developed a kind of delusion-based thanatophobia that I guess I deserve considering all the tripping I’ve done, but I really wish I didn’t have it. I was so much better off without it.

Where are you from? >> I don’t know, space?

What’s your sign? >> Gemini Sun.

Future names of your children: >> ---

What are you listening to right now? >> Nothing.

Do you believe in fate/destiny? >> I suppose I do, but I also try not to put all my eggs in that basket because adhering too strongly to one belief regarding existential matters tends to tip me into delusion more than anything else.

What are your career goals? >> ---

Something you are working on right now: >> Being a ‘good’ (helpful, kind) SO, managing the anxiety from the thanatophobia stuff, watching all my shows on Netflix lol.

Have you ever had a near-death experience? >> Yeah.

Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early? >> I tend to procrastinate, but sometimes my executive function pulls through.

TV shows and anime you watch regularly. >> Grey’s Anatomy, Preacher, Vikings, some other stuff more intermittently.

Halloween costume idea for this year? >> ---

Your best friend’s name? >> ---

Do you prefer liquid, mousse, or powder foundation? Why? >> I don’t wear it.

How much does your mother know about your sex life (or lack thereof)? >> Nothing. She doesn’t know me, period.

Do you enjoy watching cooking shows? >> Sure.

Do you worry about gaining weight? >> No.

Have you ever used fake tan? >> No.

Do you ever look at someone cute, and automatically make a move? >> No.

How many times have you been to Walmart in the past week? >> None.

Do you live in a house, apartment, or another type of arrangement? >> Apartment.

Are you kind of a loner? Do you like being alone? >> I don’t think I’m a loner, per se. I like being around people and I like to socialise. I just have low social energy in comparison to other people, so I need more recharges.

Are any of your siblings married? What are their spouses’ names? >> I don’t know.

Does your father have any creepy or scary friends you don’t like? >> No.

What color are the walls in the room you’re in right now? >> Off-white.

Do you watch any shows that you know your parents wouldn’t approve of? >> I mean, I’m 31 years old, I probably do a lot of things my parent disapproves of by now.

Do you have any siblings who still believe in Santa, and are over age ten? >> No.

What color were the last pair of headphones/earphones you bought? >> Navy blue.

Are you attracted to the last person that you fell in love with? >> Yes.

Something you really want right now? >> This survey to be over, ngl, I want to go do something else now lol.

If you could seek revenge on someone, would you? >> No.

How long have you liked the person you like? >> I don’t feel like doing time-math right now, forgive me. It’s late and I drank my sleepytime tea already, lol.

Does any part of your body hurt right now? >> No.

Can you recall the last time you liked someone? >> Yes? Now?

Are you happy with the way things are going? >> More or less.

Would you ever get a tattoo? >> Sure.

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now? >> Relationships, yes.

Who was the last person you talked to in person? >> Sparrow.

What plans do you have for tomorrow? >> Nothing unusual, just... same stuff I do every day, I imagine.

Has a friendship ended recently that you wish had not? >> No.

What happened at 9:00 a.m. today? >> I think I was still in bed.

Where are your biological parents? >> My father’s in Elizabeth, New Jersey, and who the fuck knows where my mother is.

Do you have any summer plans yet? >> It is summer. No special summer-related plans.

Do you tend to waste a lot of money? >> I don’t think so, but maybe someone else would think so.

What did you last drink? >> Sleepytime tea.

Do you have trust issues? >> I don’t think so.

Do you think this year will be better than the last? >> It’s been good so far.

What are you doing? >> This.

Are you a jealous person? >> No.

Do you think age matters in relationships? >> Sure, in some cases.

Who is the last person you rode in a car with? >> Sparrow.

Did you sing at all today? >> Nope.

Where will you be 2 hours from now? >> In bed, hopefully asleep.

Are your lips chapped at the moment? >> A little dry, is all.

[specialagentfluffstein]

All the asks!

Okie Doke. Except 84. I answered that yesterday. 

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? My ex. 2. Are you outgoing or shy? Outgoing as hell. I’ll talk to anyone.  3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? My new potential beau.  4. Are you easy to get along with? I think so.  5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? I think so.  6. What kind of people are you attracted to? People with presence. A nice face doesn’t hurt either.  7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? Maybe. We’ll have to see how things go tomorrow.  8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? The same dude who always is.  9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Nope. The last officer I rode with tried to test this and failed.  10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My sister, probably.  11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “okay don’t get into anything too life threatening”  12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 1. “I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do, I Do” - Abba; 2. “My My My!” - Troye Sivan; 3. “Mystery of Love” - Sufjan Stevens; 4. “Edge of Town” - Middle Kids; 5. “Paris Latino” - Bandolero.  13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? Unless you are a hair stylist, not really.  14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Luck yes, miracles maybe.  15. What good thing happened this summer? This past summer? I got to play with the SWAT team! I went to the Lake with my bestie! The solar eclipse was a thing! 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Negative. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? Affirm. 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? Nope. I wonder what happened to that kid. I wonder if he still wears Hawaiian shirts every day.  19. Do you like bubble baths? Yes. 20. Do you like your neighbors? Most of them.  21. What are you bad habits? I tend to smack my gum.  22. Where would you like to travel? I’d like to visit every Disney park. I’d also like to visit Norway.  23. Do you have trust issues? Affirm. 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Makeup! or Coffee.  25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My tummy.  26. What do you do when you wake up? check the time.  27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? Negative. I’m good being pale. 28. Who are you most comfortable around? My bestie. 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? Not to my face. 30. Do you ever want to get married? Maybe? IDK. 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? It is! 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Tom Hardy and Armie Hammer. 33. Spell your name with your chin. flu8ff6y 34. Do you play sports? What sports? Negative. 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? I’ll just die. Thanks anyways. 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? Affirm. 37. What do you say during awkward silences? Random “fun facts” 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? 6′3″, dark hair, blue eyes, spent some time in the military, not a cop.  39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? I love Macy’s and T.J. Maxx.  40. What do you want to do after high school? Already did it. 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? Negative. 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? That I’m pissed.  43. Do you smile at strangers? All the time. 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? Outer Space. 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? The need for coffee.  46. What are you paranoid about? Owing people.  47. Have you ever been high? Negative. 48. Have you ever been drunk? Affirm. 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Affirm. 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? Black. 51. Ever wished you were someone else? Affirm. 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? My metabolism.  53. Favourite makeup brand? Too Faced 54. Favourite store? Safeway. 55. Favourite blog? Can I say my own, or is that too self-centered? I’m digging @symphony-in-silver they post Chris Isaak gifs and I am here for it.  56. Favourite colour? Tiffany blue. 57. Favourite food? Sushi or pizza.  58. Last thing you ate? A smoothie I made for lunch.  59. First thing you ate this morning? I had a cup of coffee… 60. Ever won a competition? For what? Yes! I won four Golds and Bronze medal for SkillsUSA in high school for  Broadcast News Production (gold), Prepared Speech (gold, two years in a row), Crime Scene Investigation (bronze), and CPR/First Aid (gold). I was the first female in Nevada to win two gold medals in the same year. I also won a short fiction award senior year of college.  61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? Negative.  62. Been arrested? For what? Negative.  63. Ever been in love?  Affirm. 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? I got cornered like a wounded animal and it was awful.  65. Are you hungry right now? Negative.  66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? Negative. I like you all about the same.  67. Facebook or Twitter? Twitter. 68. Twitter or Tumblr? Tumblr.  69. Are you watching tv right now? Negative. 70. Names of your bestfriends? I call my bestie “favored person” quite a bit.  71. Craving something? What? Yes. Chinese food. 72. What colour are your towels? Yellow and Blue.  72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Five. 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Sometimes.  74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Not as many as I did when I was six. 75. Favourite animal? Dogs. 76. What colour is your underwear? Black. 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? If it’s ice cream, vanilla. If it’s cake, chocolate. 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? Chubby Hubby. 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? Plum. 80. What colour pants? Light rinse denim color. 81. Favourite tv show? Adam -12 82. Favourite movie? L.A. Confidential (fuck you, Kevin Spacey) 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? Mean Girls. 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Same as last night.  85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? Karen.  86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Pearl. 87. First person you talked to today? My mom. 88. Last person you talked to today? My ex. 89. Name a person you hate? My advisor. 90. Name a person you love? Officer Male Model (A nickname given to him by a toothless motel clerk).  91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Affirm. 92. In a fight with someone? Negative.  93. How many sweatpants do you have? Like two, maybe? IDK. 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? Oh my god soooo many.  95. Last movie you watched? Boondock Saints (It was St. Patrick’s). 96. Favourite actress? Gal Gadot. 97. Favourite actor? Colin Farrell 98. Do you tan a lot? I don’t tan so much as fry.  99. Have any pets? No. :( 100. How are you feeling? Pretty okay.  101. Do you type fast? If I’m not thinking about it. 102. Do you regret anything from your past? Affirm. 103. Can you spell well? Affirm. 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? Affirm.  105. Ever been to a bonfire party? Negative. 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? Affirm. 107. Have you ever been on a horse? Unfortunately.  108. What should you be doing? Putting my laundry in the dryer. 109. Is something irritating you right now? My eczema flared up again, so yeah, that’s irritating.  110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? Affirm.  111. Do you have trust issues? Didn’t I already answer this? 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom, probably. 113. What was your childhood nickname? Fona.  114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? Affirm. 115. Do you play the Wii? Negative.  116. Are you listening to music right now? Affirm - The The’s “Beyond Love” 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? I’m largely indifferent. 118. Do you like Chinese food? I don’t like chinese food. I love chinese food.  119. Favourite book? John Steinbeck’s East of Eden or S.E. Hinton’s The Outsiders.  120. Are you afraid of the dark? Negative. 121. Are you mean? Yeah, kind of.  122. Is cheating ever okay? On people or in cards? People no, cards maybe.  123. Can you keep white shoes clean? Negative.  124. Do you believe in love at first sight? Affirm. I saw at least three dogs today and I fell in love with every single one.  125. Do you believe in true love? Maybe? It seems like a ploy to sell engagement rings to me. 126. Are you currently bored? I’m almost always bored.  127. What makes you happy? Television, records, things that go ~squish squish~ or at least look like they embody the ideals of things that go ~squish squish~ 128. Would you change your name? Affirm. I’m working on getting my last name changed to distance myself from a deadbeat male parent. 129. What your zodiac sign? Virgo! 130. Do you like subway? No. Port of Subs or Jimmy Johns. No subway.  131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? Say “too late asshole. That ship sailed, sank, and is now home to a colony of octopi” 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? I definitely already answered this one.  133. Favourite lyrics right now? “Give your love freely to whoever that you please, don’t let nobody tell you ‘bout who you oughta be.” - Josh Ritter “Getting Ready to Get Down.  134. Can you count to one million? Probably not.  135. Dumbest lie you ever told? “my mom won’t let me give my number out” I was seventeen.  136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? Closed. 137. How tall are you? 5′4″ in my 5.11 boots. 138. Curly or Straight hair? Curly. 139. Brunette or Blonde? Can I go with option C - red.  140. Summer or Winter? Summer! 141. Night or Day? Day! Unless it’s a ride along and then Night. Nothing fun happens on day shift.  142. Favourite month? May.  143. Are you a vegetarian? Negative. 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? Milk. 145. Tea or Coffee? Coffee. 146. Was today a good day? So far it’s been whatever. 147. Mars or Snickers? Snickers. 148. What’s your favourite quote? “When you’re curious, you find lots of interesting things to do.” - Walt Disney 149. Do you believe in ghosts? Affirm. My grandma’s house is absolutely haunted.  150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “Out of Elivagar sprayed poison-drops” (The book is the Oxford World Classic translation of the Poetic Edda.)

Thanks for asking!

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❝ 92 statements tag ❞

i was tagged by jeonghan’s amazing gf @jeonghney for the 92 statement’s tag. thnk u my gold rose petal.

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 10 people ! if there are questions that are too personal or you don’t want to answer, skip them or make a new one :^)

THE LAST (1-5):

drink: h2o

phone call: oh gosh, i can hardly remember. pizza pizza? who doesn’t deliver so thnks for soiling my day.

text: to a group chat.

song you listened to: exo - touch it bc i appreciate art.

time you cried: lmao like yesterday bc i was watching an emotional ep of hotel hell.

HAVE YOU (6-11):

dated someone twice: nope.

kissed someone and regretted it: i dont think so?

been cheated on: in uno yes.

lost someone special: yep.

been depressed: depression is received at many levels. extremely sad yes, but not depressed.

gotten drunk and thrown up: im the one holding ur hair back.

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS (12-14):

pink!!

light purple!!

silver!!

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU (15-21):

made new friends: lots irl n online!!

fallen out of love: yes.

laughed until you cried: yes everyday bc i gave myself a laugh n a half.

found out someone was talking about you: nope.

met someone who changed you: i havent met them!!

found out who your friends are: ive been with the same squad for 4 yrs n we’re just chillin.

kissed someone on your facebook list: i have never used fb a day in my life.

GENERAL (22-34):

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: ^

do you have any pets: im living with 2 kitties right now!! but ive owned many different animals in the past.

do you want to change your name: she can stay as she is.

what did you do for your last birthday: my friends nd i booked a hotel room!!

what time did you wake up: 11:30am lol.

what were you doing at midnight last night: eating cereal!! every time i stay up past midnight i will eat cereal 2 celebrate all the hours of sleep im wasting.

name something you can’t wait for: to hang out with my bff’s we have not seen each other all summer.

when was the last time you saw your mom: yesterday bc she broke into my room for m&m’s.

what’s one thing you wish you could change in your life: hmm, idk. i’d like 2 be taller bc i cannot reach the popcorn shelf!!! :(

what are you listening to right now: a lot of dua lipa!!

have you ever talked to a person named tom: yup.

most visited website: tumblr / instagram / youtube / twitter

LOST QUESTIONS (35-64):

moles: a few on my arms n a trail tht’s up my shoulder. tht’s abt it

marks: i have a mark on the side of my head but my hair covers it. n one on my knee from when i fuckinj fell down a bridge.

hair color: blonde.

long hair or short: medium length is more fitting.

do you have a crush on someone: i would rather crush on a thumbtack than half the b*ys in my division. there are some nice girls tho!!

what do you like about yourself: some days there are many things!! other days there’s like 2 things. so im not sure!! im just trying my best i guess!!

piercings: two lobe piercings on both ears n im set for an industrial.

blood type: i would know the scientific notation of the distance between earth and sirius b before i knew this.

nickname: i h8 when ppl make nicknames outta my real name so i dont have any.

relationship status: sasuke and i are going on a trip to berlin next fall.

zodiac: aquarius.

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: the office / teen wolf / house / american horror story / atlab

tattoos: nope.

right or left hand: right.

surgery: no surgeries.

hair dyed in a different color: ive been a blonde bitch my whole life.

sport: basketball / sleep.

vacation: i just got back from a vacay n it was gr8 i got 10/10 sky pics!!<3

pair of trainers: im rlly obsessed with shoes but ive been wearing the same vans for 5 yrs. (my feet never grow!!)

MORE GENERAL (57-73):

eating: i like eating watermelon, twix bars n marinated ribs!! just fuck me up.

drinking: iced tea n orange juice are my faves.

i’m about to: it’s just past lunch which means it’s time to eat breakfast.

waiting for: some mf’ motivation 2 punch me in the face so i can write some more today!!

want: i rlly want a specialized rice krispie spoon ive been trying for a year!!!! :((

get married: i just dont think ill ever like someone enough 2 wanna live in the same house as them for tht long.

career: an english or bilingual teacher. i wouldnt mind teaching chemistry either.

WHICH IS BETTER (65-73):

hugs or kisses: i rlly dislike physical contact so i would pick neither, but hugs!!

lips or eyes: eyes!!

shorter or taller: it does not matter.

older or younger: older, but i wouldnt mind if they were a few months younger.

nice arms or nice stomach: i have this weird attraction to forearms so. also next time u look at  a junhui pic look at his wrists he has such nice wrists!!! what cream is he using??!?

sensitive or loud: this is so complicated. i rlly dont like loud ppl just bc im easily overwhelmed n agitated with their… over-boisterousness?? nd i will always protec the sensitive ppl n respect their tolerance levels. we just dont mesh well bc ill always worry abt hurting their feelings. u just gotta get someone who knows ur vibe. idk what im saying. i guess loud.

hook up or relationship: relationship.

troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker lol.

HAVE YOU EVER (74-83):

kissed a stranger: nope.

drank hard liquor: just picture tht vine of the kid goin “yo, all this vodka down the hatch” then being completely revolted. tht’s me

lost glasses/contact lenses: every day of my life.

turned someone down: yes.

sex in the first date: nope.

broken someone’s heart: yes.

had your heart broken: i rlly try not 2 wallow in those emotions n instead distract myself so not entirely.

been arrested: no but someone called the cops on me n my friend. (it was just a misunderstanding. i swear i wasnt doin a line of cocaine in an alley way or anything like tht tjgnjt4e)

fallen for a friend: yes!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN (84-89):

yourself: *insert meme of me watching my own back*

miracles: it would be a miracle if junhui grew out his hair. but also chunks ahoy chocolate chip cookies.

love at first sight: not rlly. it’s usually falling for the idea of being with that person, instead of who they actually are as a person.

santa claus: im still waiting for my easy bake oven u jolly piece of shit.

kiss on the first date: maybe a cheek kiss? idk. a little spice is always nice.

angels: yes. who else is up there bowling?

OTHER (90-92):

favorite thing to do when you’re bored: zone off and completely disassociate.

do you wear socks to sleep: ive done it like 3 times. it’s not tht bad.

favorite movies: FLIPPED. captain phillips / my neighbour totoro / napoleon dynamite.

tagging : oh gosh idk (ofc this is optional!!) @jeonghangif / @sukaato / @meanei / @lolitasletters / @jaehyunsleatherpants / @boysbe / @seokshuas / @trbld-writer

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92 Statements Tag!

Rules: Answer / complete the statements and tag 20 people [optional].

Thanks @wisteria-and-honeysucklefor tagging me :)

I’m just gonna tag now: @emmastudies @teaandstudythings @pippistudies

LAST:

1. Drink - milk  2. Phone call - my sister 3. Text message - my boyfriend 4. Song you listened to - a song on the radio that I didn’t know lol 5. Time you cried - 2 days ago

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice - yup! My current boyfriend haha 7. Kissed someone and regretted it - yes 8. Been cheated on - yes 9. Lost someone special - yes 10. Been depressed - yes  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - got drunk and threw up in the morning BUT I FELT PERFECTLY FINE AFTER SO NO REGRETS

3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: navy blue, rose gold, charcoal gray

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends - yes 16. Fallen out of love - yes 17. Laughed until you cried - yes omg 18. Found out someone was talking about you - nope 19. Met someone who changed you - yes 20. Found out who your friends are - yes and I’m thankful for that 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list - yes

GENERAL:

22. How many Facebook friends do you know in real life? oh god maybe like half haha but I don’t have that many  23. Do you have any pets? yes I have a dog named Lilly Beans 24. Do you want to change your name? nope 25. What did you do your last birthday? went out to eat haha nothing exciting (as my again after my 21st in March *wink wink*) 26. What time did you wake up? 6:00 AM 27. What were you doing at midnight last night? girl I was asleep 28. Name something you can’t wait for: my vacation and going back to school and visiting my boyfriend at his school (aka the school I’m trying to transfer to (not just because he’s there I am in love with their writing program)) 29. When was the last time you saw your mom? currently staring at her lol 30. What’s one thing you wish you could change in your life? I wish I had gone on college visits and hadn’t just gone to my current uni just because my sister is there AND I wish I would’ve gone with my gut in the beginning and gone into publishing because I wasted 2 years trying to find something else to go into only to go back to that now haha sorry I’m rambling bye  31. What are you listening to right now? the real housewives of NYC talk to each other drunk on vacation (Bethany is my fav) 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? yeah! 33. Something that is getting on your nerves - my shitty internet 34. Most visited websites - tumblr, youtube, pinterest, Google (mail and Sheets)

RANDOM:

35. Mole(s) - yes  36. Mark(s) - I have a scar on/under my belly button from my incision for my surgery a few years ago and a super tiny scar between my belly button and nether regions where my drain was (”it won’t scar” my ASS) 37. Childhood dream - be a singer like Hannah Montana (yes including the double life I’m not proud of this stage) 38. Hair color - it’s been described as “dirty dish water” kind of an ugly light brown but I’m starting to get low lights to darken it 39. Long or short hair - medium-- a little past my shoulders, short hair suits me better imo but I’ve always had long hair to my butt  40. Do you have a crush on someone? haha yeah my boyfriend and like every actor in the Marvel/DC movies and Eddie Redmayne 41. What do you like about yourself? I can write better than anyone I know, I’m good at spelling words (so lame what), and I like that I have thick hair. 42. Piercings - no I’m too much of a wuss to get anything pierced even my ears 43. Blood type - wait should I know this??? 44. Nickname - "H” “Lil H” “Hay” “HayHay” “Hayden Marie” feel free to call me any of these my favs are “H” and “Hay” 45. Relationship status - taken! 46. Zodiac sign - pisces 47. Pronouns - She/her 48. Favorite TV Show - Parks and Rec, The Office, Jane the Virgin, Girlfriend’s Guide to Divorce, Real Housewives (most of them) 49. Tattoos - no but hopefully soon! 50. Right or left hand - Right 51. Surgery - I’ve had two   52. Hair dyed in different color - omg I tried to go blonde in middle school and it looked horrible I have all the regret in the world 53. Sport - I played volleyball and basketball all throughout high school (track in middle school) 54. Was missing from the previous person’s post. 55. Vacation - I’m gonna list all of mine because fun! Disney World, Florida about a million times, drove to Georgia, road trip out West, Cancun, and I’m about to take a road trip out East!

56. Pair of trainers - I just got a super basic pair of Adidas

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating - basically anything unhealthy I’m awful 58. Drinking - Mountain Dew, milk, water, anything Smirnoff 59. I’m about to - go eat something and watch Jane the Virgin 60. mood: exhausted 61. Waiting for - sleep 62. Want - more time, to write a best-seller 63. Get married - hopefully in the future and hopefully to the guy I’m with :) 64. Career - editor, work at a publishing company, hopefully write my own book someday 

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses - Hugs but also love kisses 66. Lips or eyes - eyes! 67. Shorter or taller - doesn’t matter 68. Older or younger - younger I guess (my boyfriend is a few months younger and a grade behind me) 69. Movies or books? : books always but I love a good movie 70. Nice arms or nice stomach - both? omg I’m kidding I don’t care 71. Sensitive or loud - I’m really sensitive so I need someone sensitive but I can be loud so I need that too? Why can’t we have both? 72. Hookup or relationship - relationship, BUT if I weren’t in my current relationship maybe I’d just go for hookup. It’s a life I’ve never experienced

73. Troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger - nope 75. Drank hard liquor - haha no girl. I stick to my Smirnoff, Pine Apple-Ritas (I think?? I was drunk when I tried these the first time), and Long Islands (these bitches fuck me up bad but they’re so good) 76. Lost glasses / contact lenses - I don’t wear glasses but I’m convinced I need them 77. Turned someone down - yes :( 78. Sex on the first date - uh NO I’m too shy for that 79. Broken someone’s heart - god I hope not but probably (I don’t mean that in a self-righteous way or something) 80. Had your heart broken - haha yeah it’s great 81. Been arrested - no 82. Cried when someone died - of course 83. Fallen for a friend - uh yeah and now we’re dating lol (he wasn’t into me at first but don’t worry guys I annoyed him until he caved and now he can never leave)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself - I’m told that I don’t as much as I should but I’m working on it 85. Miracles - kind of but also not really? 86. Love at first sight - hell no 87. Santa Claus - no :( 88. Kiss on the first date - hey sure why not

OTHER:

89. (missing but I made this one up) favorite book: asking me what my favorite book is is the equivalent of asking me which parent is my favorite 90. Current best friend’s name - Jacob (my boyfriend, not ashamed, he’s the best) 91. Eye color - like blue gray 92. Favorite movie - Star Wars: A New Hope

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ninety two truths //

Rules // Write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people  Tagged // by the phenomenal Em @seoulscapes

♡ all the good stuff is waiting lol

LAST…

[1] drink: Vietnamese coffee

[2] phone call: one of my favorite people in the world (my friend Jae lol)

[3] text message: my (annoying) little brother

[4] song you listened to: 'If I Get Drunk Today’ - Suran

[5] time you cried: yesterday (I’m a highly emotional individual)

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: no

[7] been cheated on: yes

[8] kissed someone and regretted it: yes

[9] lost someone special: definitely

[10] been depressed: sigh. mmhmm.

[11] gotten drunk and thrown up: um....yes. it was not fun. i do not recommend it. but i was having an off day so...

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLORS:

[12] gold

[13] all shades of purple

[14] pastels

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: i have! it makes me very happy because i am very shy and people think i’m a bit stuck up without getting to know me so it’s lovely when people give me a chance.

[16] fallen out of love: no.

[17] laughed until you cried: oh absolutely. i’m always laugh/crying lol.

[18] found out someone was talking about you: oh. yes actually. 

[19] met someone who changed you: absolutely. 

[20] found out who your true friends are: yes, yes!

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: hmm no lol

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: um more than half. granted, many are family lol.

[23] do you have any pets: yes! the best puppy.

[24] do you want to change your name: no i’m cool

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: i had kbbq with my absolutely amazing squad of best friends

[26] what time did you wake up: today? a little before 9 am.

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping. i knocked out lol.

[28] name something you cannot wait for: the endless travel

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: this afternoon

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i’m afraid. things scare me and i wish i had a little more courage.

[31] what are you listening to right now: the sound of me typing lol

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: no, can’t say that i have

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: that my father and i are not on the same page currently about a certain issue. he isn’t getting my side. sigh.

[34] most visited website: tumblr hands down lol

[35] elementary: a simpler time lol

[36] high school: senior year was the best. the rest was just alright.

[37] college: still here. it’s insane. i’m lost and sometimes it’s scary. but i’m pushing through.

[38] hair color: dark brown but i have these caramel highlights more towards the tips of my hair with red lowlights. it’s all fading now lol.

[39] long or short hair: in between.

[40] do you have a crush on someone: hi mark tuan ♡  

[41] what do you like about yourself: i’m loyal. and witty.

[42] piercings: just the one in each ear

[43]blood type: AB+

[44] nickname: mo & mads (ate & noona if you’re asking certain people lol)

[45] relationship status: happy.

[46] zodiac sign: cancer

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: the list would run for miles. “favorites” are too hard for me.

[49] tattoos: i want one. actually three.

[50] right or left hand: right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: none

[52] piercing: ears

[53] best friend: mah girl brittany. 20 yrs strong.

[54] sport: soccer and ballet for a bit

[55] vacation: philippines & LA

[56] pair of trainers: hmmm i can’t remember lol

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: kimbap

[58] drinking: the rest of my coffee lol

[59] i’m about to: watch Sailor Moon (that’s a favorite haha)

[60] listening to: the scurry of puppy feet

[61] waiting for: a little more freedom.

[62] want: be with my family, be in love, be happy (and travel)

[63] get married: someday

[64] career: pediatrician (secretly, a writer)

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: BOTH

[66] lips or eyes: again BOTH

[67] shorter or taller: taller pls

[68] older or younger: depends but not too old and not too young

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: sucker for the arms

[71] sensitive or loud: ...both?

[72] hook up or relationship: relationship.

[73] troublemaker or hesitant: whatever is in between

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? no

[75] drank hard liquor? yes

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? yes

[77] turned someone down: yes

[78] sex on first date? noooooo

[79] broken someone’s heart? sadly.

[80] had your own heart broken? oh yeah.

[81] been arrested? no lol

[82] cried when someone died? of course.

[83] fallen for a friend? yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? maybe sometimes lol

[85] miracles? yes but i have yet to witness one

[86] love at first sight? no. infatuation, sure. but love needs more. i used to though.

[87] Santa Claus? BAH sure

[88] kiss on the first date? maybe?

[89] angels? also maybe?

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: oh but i have a few.

[91] eye color: brown. hazel in the light.

[92] favorite movie: oooo currently Your Name. and weirdly enough? Kubo and the Two Strings lol.

Tagging: @engraved-in-the-moonlight // @marktuansflip // @jingogi // @the-princejinyoung // @the-porcelain-doll-xo // and ofc anyone else that wants to jump in (optional naturally)

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Keiran - Inumimi - Seke - M/M or M/F RP

AVALIBLE FOR LINE/MESSANGER RP, TUMBLR SOON.

Well hello there, how do you do? My name is Keiran. Its a pleasure to meet you. You want to know a bit about me? well please dont be afraid to ask, though most of my info is below in the Bio my admin so gracefully put together. The pictures? Oh the ones above this text, well the top one is me in my human form, the bottom is in my wolf form. Anyway please enjoy your stay. and remeber if you want to play with me, Ask, Submit or message my admin.

Bio:

Full Name: Keiran James Hashira 

Age: 21

Height: (human) 6′3, (Wolf) 4′5″

Weight: (human) 160, (Wolf) 76lbs

Hair Color: Black

Eye color: Heteroclematic, one blue, one gold

Likes: Music, reading, swimming, movies, and drawing

Dislikes: Pain, Mean people, traffic

Personality: Very sweet and caring

Job: Teacher (Science)

Race: Inumimi (werewolf) Bottom picture is his wolf form.

Penis size: 9″

Knot size: 4.5″

Sexual likes: Back scratched, Neck kisses/suckling, Body worship, Oral

Sexual Dislikes: whips, chains, anything that causes massive amounts of pain.

Sexual orientation: Bisexual (seke)

Scars/Tats/piercings: Very faint bite scar on his right abdomen. 

Transformation cycle: Full moon from Dusk till dawn, Heat cycle is triggered after Transforming.

Options:

Knotting

Oral

Masturbation

Light Bondage (handcuffs, silk around the wrists, Blingfolds)

Sex toys (I will NOT do cock rings, you may on your characters only)

Fluff

Mutiple Characters (either myself or yours I can even play one of yours if given guidlines of how you want it played)

NSFW (Not safe for work, Descriptive sex)

Bad past may be used

True Omegaverse RP can be used (meaning only the alpha will knot ect)

Requirements:

1 one liners ok

Paragraphs ok

No Text Talk

Grammar not an issue as long as I can understand.

Mpreg (Either my O/C or Y/C)

Some sort of Plot even if its smut based plot. it cant just be PWOP

No Real life pictures

Donts That will end the RP:

BDSM

RAPE

Starter:

Past:

Keiran had gone through live minding his own business as he had always been teased for his eyes which were different colors. For the most part he shrugged it off and just kept to his own. He was extremely smart, Graduating high school at the age of 16 and graduating collage at the age of 19. He became a teacher as he loved children and education. He also felt it was important to offer a one on one service to any child he had in his class, if they were struggling.

When he had entered Collage he started to join in on a few frat parties. One night in particular he had gotten extremely drunk, he was 16 at the time, almost 17. He ended up having a one night stand with a guy in the frat house. While he was being mounted, in the heat of passion and just at the breaking point, his partner for the night bit down on his right side just under his rib cage, starting the never ending cycle of pain.

He had been left alone that night to deal with the pain of his blood transforming to that of a werewolf. once he got over the pain, he never trusted anyone, as far as relationships go. Until recently he hadn't even thought of getting into one. He was now ready though, seeing as he got his degree and has moved on. He has been single and without any kind of partner for 5 years. and on each full moon, he turns into his wolf form. only to deal with the painful ache of his muscles the day afterward, turning to a prescription muscle relaxant, and pheromone reducer that was created for werewolfs and was non habit forming.

Present:

Keiran sat at his desk after a long day of teaching. he was grading some papers before he head home for the night. He sighs deeply when he notices that a student was failing his class but hadn't come to him for help. He reaches up and rubs his shoulder. ‘I wish this kid would come to me.’ he thinks to himself quietly as he sets the paper aside so he could talk tot he kid later about it. He leans back in his chair and hears the door open and looks over to see Y/C standing there. “Hey. What can I do for ya?” he asks quietly.