#ofc i'm kinda a good driver at the end of the day so I didn't but yeah wanna kms

[pk-heart]

cried at my driving lesson as usual but god knew I needed a reason to live after that because I got a call right after that I will 100% get the studio appartment ^_^

[sunnyie-eve]

13 | Need You

Series: Never Leave You | OBX

Paring: (JJ Maybank x OFC! Rafe Cameron x OFC!)

Word Count: 1954

Warnings: broken Rafe, angst, near death

MASTERLIST

Sneaking out of her room walking to John B's place a bike shows up in front of her but sadly it was Rafe instead of JJ.

She walks to him as he gets off his bike hitting the shit out of his chest, "You almost killed JJ! You almost shot him you fucking psychopath! You need help!" She shouts hitting him over and over as he just stands there.

"So you guys didn't get too far." Rafe chuckles so she hits him harder.

"I was worried about him!" She shoves him back.

"Callie, I need help." He stares at her.

"No, shit Rafe! You need a lot of help!"

"I know that! I fucked over my family! My father hates me! He showed that when he fucking hit me screaming at me." Rafe runs his hands through his hair.

"Well, he wasn't lying. And I told you, stop trying to prove to that man. He doesn't deserve it. Ward is a terrible person and you are following his footsteps. I don't know you very well, Rafe. But when we've had a decent conversation... I actually liked Rafe Camron. But this in front of me, off the rails Rafe, scares me."

Rafe just stares at her as she looks at him with soft eyes and not glaring into his soul, "Man up. I just need to man up." He talks to himself looking at the ground.

"No, don't do that. Manning up isn't going to help you. It's going to make it worse, Rafe." Callie tries grabbing his arm.

"No, manning up works." He moves away from her.

"Rafe!" She grabs his face so he will calm down, "It's okay." She tears up looking into his eyes to see a broken boy.

She pulls him down to wrap her arms around his neck hugging him. She still hated Rafe for everything but she developed a soft spot for him and she hated it so much.

Rafe stands there for a few seconds before wrapping his arms around her waist holding her tightly, "It's not... I'm not okay." His voices cracks.

"I know and I'm sorry." Callie gets out of the hug walking away from him leaving him alone so he goes to where he was supposed to meet Sarah.

When Callie gets to the house Kie and Pope were rushing to the car, "We gotta go save your boyfriend." Kie says so Callie runs to get into the car.

They get to JJ in time to distract the driver so JJ can run away and they go pick him up, "You have lost your mind." Callie slaps JJ's chest as he breathes heavily from running.

"Look, I busted the wrong guy out of jail. Sue me."

"What?" Kiara looks back at him, "Why are you always doing such stupid shit?"

"Well, I'm gonna end up in jail anyway, so... so why does it matter?"

"You only will if you keep doing stupid shit without thinking things through. Don't make me worry about you." Callie leans into his chest so he puts his arms around her.

"You okay, man?" Pope asks.

"Yeah. Just a doozy of a day." He leans his head back holding Callie.

"Why do you have a bag?" JJ asks as they get to the Chateau getting out of the car.

"Kinda ran away from home. My mother slapped me across the face for saying I'm a Pogue and won't leave my friends..." She tells him, "Both Will and Scarlett want me to find a nice Kook and get with them for the long run."

JJ just pulls Callie into a hug before they go sit on the hammock and he wanted her to tell him everything, "I went to Will asking for money for a good lawyer and he said no. He wants me to do the opposite of him. Get with a Kook and have a baby with them since life is easier. That he regrets trying to live like a Pogue. I told him I chose a Pogue because I see a life with them over the Kook."

"You see a life with me?" JJ smiles.

"Well, you saw one with me. You had our whole wedding planned out." Callie smiles with teary eyes, "Anyway, he said if I want a Pogue life, he's not giving me the money for John B. If I want any money it's to send me to Boarding School. When I got home I asked about how did he know about boarding school and my mother said she contacted him. She said she gets I'm a Pogue but doesn't what me to fail like her. Find a good Kook and have a better life than what she got stuck with. It's shouldn't be hard being half Kook."

JJ pulls Callie into his chest giving her a kiss, "You'll have a better life with a Pogue, who loves you to death."

"I know."

-

"That's a lot of wax on your board. Put too much wax, it's gonna be slippery." Pope tells JJ as the four sit around while to them their friend was in a jail cell and Sarah didn't come back from seeing Wheezie.

"Are you telling me how to wax my board, Pope?"

"No, I was just saying that's a lot of wax." Pope says as they start to bicker.

The sound of a car horn honking they knew so well gets their attention to see John B free making them group hug. They learn they drop the charges and were happy. John B realizes Sarah was missing do they tell him she still wasn't back.

Out on the dock John B tells them about the guy trying to kill him and still was worried about Sarah, "No, literally, it's okay. She's right there." Kie points at her with Topper.

Sarah tells John B why she didn't come back and Topper adds to it saying Rafe was unhinged trying to drown his own sister.

While Topper was saying someone had to rescue John B's girlfriend, John B tells him Sarah's not his girlfriend hinting at them being married. But Sarah doesn't tell Topper making everyone who knew feel awkward.

"Kie, can I borrow your car real quick?" Callie walks up to Kiara.

"Yeah." Kie gives her her keys.

"Hey, where are you going?" JJ asks as Callie walks to Kiara's car.

"Going to get more things from home. I'll be back soon. I don't want you going in case it makes things worse." She smiles kissing his cheek before leaving the group.

She was going to stop by her house but on the way back after going to Barry's to see Rafe. She knew that's where he would be if the police were looking for him.

Pulling up she gets out of the car yelling Rafe's name out to the trailer. "Yo, Pogue Princess. Get the hell out of here." Barry walks outside.

"I will after I talk to your fucked up friend. Rafe, get your ass out here!" Callie yells flipping Barry off.

Barry looks back at Rafe, who takes his time getting up going outside, "What do you want?" Rafe asks her.

"What do I want? I want to have a word with you." Callie walks up to the house.

Barry starts to step forward making Rafe pull him back, "Don't you dare lay a finger on her. She's the only Pogue that's off limits to you." Rafe growls at him.

Barry and Callie both look at Rafe so Barry backs up while Rafe walks forward for Callie to starts hitting him, "You really have lost it! You tried killing your own sister! I'm never going to feel bad for you ever again after pulling that shit!"

"You're right! I've completely lost it and I regret it! I just couldn't stop myself. I have really bad anger issues, Callie. I'm sorry. I wanna get better but I don't know how to do that alone." Rafe tells her after she gets a good punch to his face.

"Get help! Drowning your sister isn't going to help! Hell, you tried drowning me when you didn't even know it was me! Stop trying to kill people, Rafe." Callie screams in his face.

"I need you! You help me some. Please just help me, Callie." Rafe grabs her by the shoulders.

"I can't do that. Not after everything you have done. I can't make my soft spot for you grow any bigger, Rafe. It's wrong. I'm supposed to hate you because you're a shitty Kook, and you're supposed to hate me because I'm a dirty Pogue." Callie sighs as they look at each other.

"I can't...even though I want to." Rafe touches her cheek so she leans out of his touch.

"No, Rafe. I'm with JJ and I'm happy." She walks backwards to Kiara's car heading home to get more things and luckily no one was there.

Going back to John B's no one was there so Callie laid on the hammock alone before getting up walking to the water jumping into staying underwater as long as she could.

Slowly she could hold her breath anymore but she kept herself underwater as she struggles with no air. Deep down she just wanted everything to end so she didn't have to deal with shit. As she was getting ready to go back up for air, her foot gets caught on a fishing line making her fully run out of air.

The others get back after checking in on Pope's dad and see Callie was back but didn't see her. "Cal?" Sarah calls out.

"Well, she's somewhere." Pope looks around.

JJ looks toward the dock and walks over just having a feeling and sees her shoes on the dock. "Callie!" He yells looking at the water making the others rush over.

"Where is she?" John B looks around.

JJ jumps into the water and sees Callie not moving slowly sinking. He swims towards her grabbing her swimming up but she can't get back to the surface. He swims down and sees she was caught on the line.

"She's caught on a line!" JJ comes back up for air then goes back down quickly trying to get her free.

John B grabs a bottle and breaks taking a piece jumping in to cut the line so they can swim to the top with her.

"Is she breathing?" Kiara asks in a worried voice not seeing her friend moving.

They get her up onto the dock and John B tells JJ to give her CPR helping him along the way. The others watch starting to tear up as Callie wasn't waking up.

"No! You can't do this to me! Wake up, Callie! I can't lose you, please!" JJ keeps pressing down on her chest hard as he cries to her.

Kiara covers her mouth watching the scene in front of her, Pope was covering his face with his hands, Sarah was running her hands through her hair, and John B sat on the ground with his head tilted all the way back.

"Please! Wake up! I need you! Callie, please. I love you." JJ begs her not giving up until she coughs up the water. "Oh, my god!" He leans down kissing her before crying into her chest, "I thought I really lost you this time. I thought you were gone."

Everyone was wiping their tears away as Callie laid there trying to breathe staring up at the sky before crying as everything comes back to her what happened. JJ sits up pulling her to sit up leaning into his chest as he was still crying about the thought of her being gone.

"I didn't mean to. I was trying to come back up." Callie cries so they all get down having a group hug.

[archeriexriverdale]

American Horror Story: Apocalypse - S08E01 REVIEW ♥️💀

Seeing as I'm so hyped for AHS and I have been Evan peters trash ever since Asylum, I've decided to start doing week by week reviews on the show lmao. (Basically what I liked/disliked about the whole thing ep and etc so....enjoy 😉)

.I didn't know what to think about this new season when I saw the trailer...so I didn't have that much high expectations ( cause I knew the last two episodes were most likely going to cover coven/haunted house characters anyway...so there was no reason for me to be hyped for the first episode lmao 🙄) so I didn't know what the rest of the show would entail...but boy was it good! ✊🏾✊🏾.

The end of the world storyline makes me so proud of Ryan because it had all the elements of making a great post apocalyptic movie 👏🏾 and I enjoyed it!

. Evan peters playing a gay hairdresser? 😂✌🏾 Ok. I Stan 🤣♥️👏🏾

.It annoyed me to the fucking core when it was the 'end of the world' and people in their office clothes were standing there or walking around like it was no big deal 💀. I know they are in shock but...come on dude 😩😭

MOVE YOUR ASS 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Also you know DAMN WELL that driver could of gotten in that plane 🤣🤣🤣 like? Its not like the airport workers metal bars could penetrate the plane so what was the hold up? 💀 I just thought that part didn't make any sense 😂

. Btw who tf was driving the plane in the first place? Like who took off? ... Nah seriously I wanna know 🤣🤣🤣🤣 cause u can't expect me to believe the plane went into the sky by itself lmao. So unless this is Infinity War did the pilot vanish into thin air?

. Evan peters is a bae and I fcking love him! 🤣♥️ Totally the comedic relief in this shit storm. But it was sad af when him and that next guy was rubbed down of ' diseases' when it turns out it was BULLSHIT anyway 🙄🙄 like...my poor babe 😭💔

. These people who have been 'chosen' are kinda ungreatful highkey lmao. I know it's frustrating and the hospitality could have been better (cause it's shit tbh) but why don't they act like the teenagers and sit tf down and be quiet 🤣🤣🤣🤣. They have been there long enough to see how unhinged the staff r in there...i.mean..thats what I would do. 🤣🤣🤣🤣

. Now I don't know what's wrong with this physcopatyh but she needs to relax yo 🤣

I mean...yes I can see she is gonna be this seasons Villan but come on? Human meat? No sex or intercourse rule (how are they gonna repopulate 💀), tricking a person into thinking they were unpure so she could what? Wear a purple dress 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 this girl.

But I am interested in her past though..like..how did she get there? Why does she have a cane? What is her background. All of these unanswered questions got me intrigued.

. They said they have been making this 'post apocalyptic' sanctuary (laughs) for years...and people (apparently) have paid money over time to be there in case the world ever got to shit...so tell me please... why is the only food available is just these small white cubes for 24 hours of the day 🤣🤣🤣🤣 like..what? They don't have any other edible food left over? I find that hard to believe lmao.

I wouldn't be surprised if the people in charge are fcking hiding it somewhere🙄.

. What is Cordelia Goode goal? Really? To kill everyone off and make their lives miserable? Cause she/her minions seem mad and high mighty for some reason 🤣🤣 like? What is going on?

. Now...before y'all roll your eyes. I couldn't care less. I ship these two already ♥️♥️♥️♥️ don't @ me 🤣🤣

(unless they do something stupid that could get them BOTH killed) I think they are cute lmao. The first romance of the show, some chocolate and vanilla swirl going on 😂😂, and a post apocalyptic romance? Relying on eachother when the world has gone to shit? I Stan 🤣🤣✌🏾 I just hope for my sake they make it!

TIMOTHY X EMILY 🔥♥️🔥♥️

Cause like...Tate and violet are a loss cause like ...literally and forever lmao . so...might as well? 👀🤣

. Now.. who tf is dis? 💀🤣

When he walked in he looked like a 'vampire pretty BOI' NGL 🤣. But how unnerved it got Cordelia Goode was reason enough for me to take interest in him 👏🏾👏🏾. He seems like the TOP DOG in all of this and had this very unnerving and a sinister evil presence about him (which ofc ain't good for the residents cause shit could get even worse 💀)but let's see what happens. Who knows? Maybe he won't end up a total asshole....but I ain't holding my breath.

Annyywaaaayy, I give this a 10/10 because the episode was actually good! I was entertained and I was at the edge of my seat and NEVER bored with what was going on. I'm so hyped for next week u don't understand! 🤣✌🏾.

[metalhandcunt]

My Rant:

I hate this fucking world.

First, there's this one teacher (let's just call her S) that I FUCKING hate. Why?? It's because S is always wants to make our lives pure HELL.

Second, there's this shitty project our teacher (S) gave us that we have to interview an individual who is a professional. And we have to pick a partner and obviously I picked my friend (K). So we decided that we have to interview K's mom.

I went to her house on Tuesday to interview her mom but her mom said we should do it in Wednesday.

Thursday comes and guess what happened???

IT.WAS.FUCKING.DELAYED.

And she insisted we should do it again in Thursday because she didn't understand the questions. And ofc I was angry bc ffs I was motherfucking tired to go to her house everyday (bc her house is pretty far) just for the project.

But I can't blame her since the question are fucking hard to understand.

When Thursday comes, when I came again to her house and *sighs* ofc it didn't happen again bc she wants it to be in Sunday. And of course, of course *rolls eye*

I WAS FUCKING PISSED AF.

I can tell that she is getting pissed at me for going to her house every.single.day. this week but it was not my fucking fault for always delaying you fucking piece of shit.

So k and I are fucking stressed and pissed at her istg I wanna rip her head off and feed it to sharks.

You see, I tried to be nice to her but it seems like she doesn't even like me.

I think that's because she thinks I'm a..... Bad influence to k but little does she knows k is really a bad influence one.

I don't want to admit it but I can't fucking stand her like if she is getting hit by the bus, I would be the driver lol.

We finished interviewing her mom earlier which is I'm really fucking thankful of. But we were legit scared to the point that i'm going to have an anxiety attack tbh. But in the end it was tiring and good I guess???

Third, I hate this family.

I don't even know how to start damn.. It was pretty messed up and complicated.

I don't want to talk about them atm lol

Fourth, fake friend

God, I just wanted him to not go near or breathe because I felt like I was going to catch a disease jk hahahaha. Let's just call him J.

So I have a crush on him before and when he found out, he humiliated me on our class group chat and said "Hey, @/YourName, if you have a crush on me, i will not going to catch you lol". Those words got my hands cold af and I almost cried and ofc I fucking roasted the fuck out of him and unexpectedly, my classmates sides on me.

I described him as a narcissists, smart but always brags about it *rolls eye*, perfectionist (but in a bad way), has a BIG ego, prideful, fake, obsessive and assuming especially to his crush and it kinda gives me creeps xD.

Even his crush hates his guts and ofc we tried to wake him up to reality but unfortunately, he is getting worst.

And yesterday, he posted an art on our squad gc and then saying he "drew it" on his sketch pad and idk my guts is telling me that I should research it to see if it is truly "his" artwork.

And BOOM, k and I found out that the artwork was not truly his and the artwork was actually on deviantart.

And that's the day I lost my trust on him.

K is asking on gc if anyone has a deviantart and J said nope. And ofc the next day, we exposed the fuck out of him on gc but he said it was just a "prank". I mean who believes this kind of bullshit? Wtf???

And that's for today lol. Sorry if there's so many grammatical errors and for being a shitty writer lolol.

I promise to keep y'all updated, sweet dreams bitches!!!

~Rae

[sunnyie-eve]

19 | Spilt Up?

Series: Valentine Addams | Wednesday

Paring: (Xavier Thorpe x OFC Addams! Tyler Galpin x OFC Addams!)

Word Count: 1778

Warnings: tricking, comforting Enid, scared for the first time, Xavier jealous of Tyler

18. Birthday, Yes | 20. A Hyde

The next day Tyler said his dad didn't want him seeing me for awhile because Wednesday always ends up in the center of everything bad. None of us were allowed to leave because the school was on lockdown so I just stayed in my room or hung out with Enid. "Let's go." Wednesday opens my door confusing me. 

"Wednesday." I get up rushing after her. 

"Ready for our girls night?" Enid pops up. 

Outside I realize we were getting in Tyler's car. "Wait, he's our Uber driver?" Enid asks confused. 

"Uber driver? I thought you said Valentine needed to see me? You made it sound serious." Tyler asks confused. 

"I thought this was a girls' night out." Enid looks at Wednesday. 

"If I needed to see you I would have texted or called you." I tell Tyler. 

"A change of plans." She tells us. 

"What's up with the weird matching hoodie scarf things?" Tyler asks us three. 

"Don't ask. Just drive." She tells him. 

Enid crosses her arms leaning back upset. "I didn't know." I whisper to her. 

"I know." She huffs.

Wednesday had Tyler drive us to the Gate's mansion wanting to go inside making Enid nervous. "Okay, this isn't what I signed on for." Tyler tells Wednesday. 

"Ditto." Enid agrees. 

"If we get caught you're going to be in more trouble. And I'm going to get dragged into making Tyler's dad not trust me again and make Weems want to keep an eye on me." I speak up. 

"I want to do this for my birthday. Not a dinner or surprise party like you did Val." She looks back at us as she unlocks the gate. 

"Then you shoulda just said so. You didn't have to trick us." Tyler tells her. 

"If you want to go, you can. I'm going to go check out the garage." Wednesday heads in so I look at the two then follow her and they follow me.

Wednesday, Tyler and I couldn't open a door so Enid steps in getting it open. We go into the garage and see the car that hit the mayor. "Okay. This just took a dark turn. We need to call Tyler's dad right freaking now." Enid panics. 

"Why? So he can take me back to Nevermore and get me expelled? It's not gonna happen." She walks off again. 

"Come on Enid." I link my free arm with hers. 

"This is the night I'm gonna die." Tyler makes me laugh so I apologize. 

"Enid, it's okay." I tell her as she whimpers as we go inside the house.

As we explore a room something catches my eye. "Kinda like at home." I say pressing a piece on the bookshelf making it open. 

"You're right." Wednesday gives me a slight smile. 

"Who doesn't have a spooky built in alter in their family library?" Enid asks. 

"Ours is in the living room." Wednesday tells her and I nod my head, 

"More seating for year-long Dia de los Muertos." I add. 

Wednesday finds out the candles are still warm and make us split up. "Why don't we go in twos?" I ask since Tyler was going to be alone. 

"He can handle himself." She says making Enid drag me with her. 

"Stay safe..." I tell him as we go upstairs. 

"You two go left, I'll go right." Wednesday tells us making Enid say splitting up is an bad idea. 

"This is when every best friend dies in a horror movie." Enid whines. 

"I'm going to be with you, it's okay." I hold her hand as Wednesday leaves us.

"I know what my mom would say. Enid, you're a doormat. You're too needy. Show some teeth. Nobody likes a desperate little furball. Shut up, Mom. Get out of my head!" Enid talks to herself. 

"Your mom is rude. My parents would never talk to us like that. Is your dad better?" I ask trying to distract her. 

"Oh, he's way better. He doesn't care I haven't wolfed out yet compared to my mom. You know she tried sending me to werewolf conversion camp. I told her no. If I'm going to do it, I'll do it on my own." She tells me. 

"Good for you, Enid." I squeeze her hand then a room catches our eyes. "Wednesday, come look at this." I call out to her.

She comes into the room that had no dust or cob webs, the bed was made, and fresh flowers on the nightstand. "Maybe she didn't die. Faked her death and became someone else." I tell Wednesday as she explains it can't be Laura Gates like Enid suggests because she died 25 years ago. 

An object shatters making her say it's time to go. "This is officially the worst girls night out ever." Enid says as we rush out of the room and Tyler tells us to get out before screaming. 

"Tyler!" I panic making Wednesday shove me back. 

The three of us somehow all fit in the dumbwaiter to get away from the monster. Wednesday closes it right on time as it sees us. Enid panics while Wednesday and I stay calm. Well that was until it clawed at the little door. The rope snaps and we fall to the lowest level.

"You okay?" I ask Enid as we get up from the floor.

"Not really? But physically, yes. You?"  She coughs. "Both okay." I lie a little getting slightly scared which was not normal. 

As I look around I see body parts in jars before footsteps above us boom. I grab Enid's hand leading her to window to get out then she helps me as Wednesday goes to look at the jars closer before we help her out too. 

"You okay?" Wednesday asks Enid. 

"Since when do you care." Enid rushes off and I remember Tyler running off to find him. 

"Valentine, what the hell are you thinking?!" Enid yells at me. 

"I have to go back for Tyler!" I shout. 

"The monster's back there!" I hear her and Wednesday following. 

"I don't care! I have to make sure he's okay!" I run faster ahead of them.

I find Tyler breathing heavily making me rush over to his side to see he had claw marks across his chest. "Shit." My eyes widen and my hands slightly shake as I don't know what to do at the moment because my mind was spinning. "You're going to be okay. Can you walk? We can't stay here too long." I eye his chest and his face. 

"Where'd you come from?" Wednesday asks and I turn to see Xavier. 

"Here. Take this" He gives me his scarf to press on Tyler's chest. "What happened to him?" He asks. 

"What does it look like?" I sigh and help Tyler up.

-

We all end up going to Tyler's house where I take care of Tyler's wound and catch our breath. "I'll try to be careful." I help Tyler take off his jacket. "Enid, get me a wet washcloth and a blow of water. Xavier, find me scissors. Wednesday, find me the first aid stuff." I tell the three and Tyler tells Wednesday where it was. 

"Here." Xavier hands me scissors and I cut Tyler's gray shirt to get to his wound. 

I clean up the blood and wound, put medicine on it, then use butterfly closures on each scratch. "Thanks, Doc." Tyler says as I get closer to finishing as the three watch us so I look away from his chest to give him a smile.

"Not to make this about me, but I am having a full-blown panic attack right now. We need to get back before Weems realizes we've been gone." Enid says before the sheriff walks in. 

"What the hell happened?" He asks looking at Tyler. "This was you, wasn't it?" He walks closer looking at Wednesday. 

"Wait, Dad, please. I'm okay. See Valentine, patched me up." Tyler gets up to stop him. 

"Sheriff, I understand you're upset, but I think you need to see something." Wednesday tells him so he agrees to take a look.

"I'll give you three a ride back to school." Tyler grabs his keys. 

"No, we can walk. You need to rest up. You got attacked." I try to stop him. 

"I'm fine now thanks to you. Let me do this for you guys. I'm sure Enid wants to get back as fast as possible." He looks over at her and she nods her head fast. 

"Fine." I say and we get in his car while Wednesday left with his dad.

"Thanks for the ride, Tyler. Hope you heal up quickly." Enid gets out of the car with Xavier who doesn't say a word. 

"I'm sorry, Wednesday dragged you into this tonight. If I just stayed with you downstairs." I lean my head back so Tyler grabs my hand. 

"No, what if this happened to you? I rather it be me than you. I could never have you get hurt around me. You need to go get some rest too because I can tell tonight was tough on you." He gives my hand a squeeze. 

"I've never been scared like that... For myself, Enid, and you. When I found you hurt, when I heard you scream downstairs. I wanted to cry." My voice cracks. 

"I'm fine and I know. I saw your hands shaking. Go make sure Enid isn't having a break down right now." I nod my head undoing my seat belt before giving him a kiss, 

"Goodnight." I get out smiling as he sat there shocked by my actions.

"Enid..." I walk into the room to see her sitting on her bed crying. 

"I was scared tonight. We could've died and Wednesday doesn't care unlike you. I can't do it. I've tried being her friend but I get no where." She cries into her hands so I go sit next to her. 

"I'm sorry, Enid." I put an arm around her pulling her closer to me. 

"Don't be sorry. You did nothing. You were a great friend tonight being by my side." She wipes her eyes.