#of forgot to add that by louis not singing this song

[zot3-flopped]

How are Louies jealous of Lewis Capaldi? Lewis may not be conventionally “handsome” like Louis, but Lewis actually has talent and comes off as likable. Louies made up a completely different person than who Louis is and that’s why they don’t understand why no one besides them like him. If they take him for what’s actually come out of his mouth they’d see he’s an uncultured-needy-whiny-don’t wash his ass-can’t sing on key-can’t write a song because he refuses to read or be cultured-homophobic-lucky SOB whose mom just happen to know someone at the perfect time so he was placed with 4 actual singers and is now an undeserving-multi-millionaire.

I forgot to add: alcoholic and bully to that list about Louis.

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Lewis has that beer-and-swearing image too but it comes across as much more authentic because he's had it since Day 1, whereas Louis used to be a preening theatre kid. The main difference is that Lewis has a nice deep voice people enjoy listening to, and much, much better songs than Louis does. He's not cosplaying anyone.

[oookaline]

Miss You - Lyric Analysis

by me because im bored.

yet again because whats more fun than going over lyrics for the 2736843th time? Absolutely nothing! and if you thought of something, you're lying to youself

So, miss you was a song released in the 8th of December 2017.

Some backstory before.

ObViOusLy, the whole babygate thing, add a lil cherry on top with the Elk split up (23rd march 2015 - 2 weeks prior) and them getting back toguether in 2017 (17 Feb). All of this aswell as Danielle and Brenda in the middle of it.

K with all the smol context under us we can already look around and see that just by the title 'Miss You' people had speculated it was for Eleanor, and since Louis said :

I wrote this song about a time in my life when I was going out partying every night. In hindsight throughout that time I was pretty numb and just going through the motions. Deep down it was always in the back of my mind that what I really missed was the girl that I loved

which obviously links the song to two occurences:

Babygate: 'was going out partying every night' (since we know for a fact he literally went partying every week)

The split up from Elk

but the thing is right- lmao Danielle just danielled away. No mention whatsoever.

This, all of this, and JUsT that quote that Louis gave us already destroyed like- half the narrative of 'Really good friends w an oops baby' and (obviously) just tarnishes yet again the 'engagement' route they were going to take. BUT IT ALSO leaves Danielle behind as if she didn't even exist!!

Which by the way things look, she might not've anygays.

The music video was made in LA

which again (If I could I would literally kiss louis brain) links it to Babygate.

Now the lyrics

verse 1:

"Is it my imagination?

Is it something that I’m taking?

All the smiles that I’m faking

“Everything is great

Everything is fucking great”"

Obviously we can literally hear the sarcasm on the last two lines. 'All the fake smiles' reffering to all the pap pics he did while the lead up to the Holy Conception. Aswell that him reffering to the scene as 'imagination' or 'something that he's taking' could emphasize that its so bad, so unreal that he thinks its a joke and that he's either too drunk or thinking it.

Going out every weekend

Staring at the stars on the ceiling

Hollywood friends, gotta see them

Such a good time

I believe it this time

Again, him reffering to him being papped every week on a club with the first line, the 'stars on the' ceiling reffering to the lights in night clubs, 'Holywood Friends' reffering to Annas, and specially reffering to Snoop Dog and his launch party, which was when this picture happened:

pre chorus:

Tuesday night

Glazed over eyes

Just one more pint or five

Does it even matter anyway?

One of the fucking smartest lines in my opinion, him reffering to tuesday. Which is him reffering to the day the first article of him being out partying came out:

The next are him reffering to what always happened; drinking and feeling shit. 'does it even matter anyways' is his subcontious trying to tell him to give in and just do what they wanted him to do, saying that it doesn't even matter because either way the end will be shit (and bla bla bla, but again, its his subcontious. not him.)

chorus:

We’re dancing on tables

And I’m off my face

With all of my people

And it couldn’t get better they say

the first two lines are ofc reffering to the feeling of being drunk, 'dancing on tables' and 'of your face' are ohrases people use to refer to drunken states. The 'people' Louis is reffering to is his escorts; people paayed to carry out what is supposed to happen that night (bodyguards, pr managers, paps, in cases the girls aswell he appears papped with), and the line 'couldn't get better they say' has both the connotation of this being the LA dream, of always partying, knocking chicks up, drinking to your hearts desire- aswell as having the connotation of 'his people' telling him it will not get better, so don't try to oppose it. (which links back to the previous verse 'does it even matter anyway')

We’re singing 'til last call

And it’s all out of tune

Should be laughing, but there’s something wrong

And it hits me when the lights go on

Shit, maybe I miss you

'singing til last call' refers to how late he spent in the clubs and 'out of tune' suggest again the drunk state. 'Should be laughing but there's something wrong' is again, elluding to that LA dream partying state that should've been what he was feeling, since that's what the media said. The 'lights go on' is reffering to the paps, when they take pictures (and obviously the miss you is talking about eleanor because he'd much rather stunt with her than be here lmao ) And yes, the miss you is reffering to Harry.

There doesn't have to be a reason and obviously it could also be a stunt line in the song- but let me explain what I think: We can see Louis' state by the end of the paps shoots, how he slowly just becomes VERY tired towards the last few ones. And keep in mind he was also touring with 1D WHILE HE PARTIED. Which meant it was Show-Party-Show-Party with things thrown between it aswell. Giving close to little time to spend w Harry.

(Pretty sure that's not at all what happened, its just what I think- it was such a fucking busy thing, I'd not be surprised if they both were stressed and not having enough 1-1 time)

Verse 2:

Just like that and I’m sober

I’m asking myself, “Is it over?”

Maybe I was lying when I told you

“Everything is great

Everything is fucking great”

First line reffering to how in the morning, next day of partying, he was again sober- for the shows- and him asking 'is it over' refers to how he just wanted it to be over with, all the patying and paps.

The two last lines could signify him talking to someone about his life- I'd say that the 'you' here does not mean Harry- but someone else- them asking "How's your life going" and then him going "Great Great, yeah- fookin great ykwim"

something along the lines of that you get me.

And all of these thoughts and the feelings

Chase you down if you don’t need them

I’ve been checking my phone all evening

Such a good time

I believe it this time

the first and second lines here are again, Louis talking about his subcontious; that 'this will turn on us' reffering to him and Harry. About a (probable) fear that this will make a strain in their relationship and stuff.

(a/n: kind of like how a lot of shippers unlarried while babygate was happening because 'louis couldn't cheat' or how a lot of shippers say they broke up during that time because 'Harry couldn't take the stress' and stuff)

Im not saying they broke up not that he cheated. What I'm saying is that there was a fear that this would make them break up- he says 'chase you down' which has the animalification of the wolves chasing down the pray to kill them etc.

Bridge:

Now I’m asking my friends how to say “I’m sorry”

They say “Lad, give it time, there’s no need to worry”

And we can’t even be on the phone now

And I can’t even be with you alone now

the first line links to what I said about Louis' subconcious; this would be that constant need to say 'I am sorry' for something that isn't his fault or something that he can't control, and then the second line goes on to say that he doesn't have to worry because, again, its not his fault and Harry undertands that.

Now the 'We can't even be on the phone now, I can't even be with you alone now' refers to their public appearance, on how other than that Paris interview there are no other interviews with just them two, on how we didn't get a Larry hour on 1Dday... It refers to them literally being unable to say anything to each other because of management.

Oh, how shit changes

We were in love, now we’re strangers

I WANT TO ALIENATE THESE TWO LINES BECAUSE OF HOW FUCKING LOUT IT IS.

this one links ti the last two of the previous, again on their public image (His and Harry's) about how they were once in love (fetus) but now they're strangers (the mortal enemies narrative)

When I feel it coming up, I just throw it all away

Get another two shots 'cause it doesn’t matter anyway

And to top off these last two lines of the bridge is him linking all of this back to the start of the song: 'is it my imagination, is it something that I'm taking' with 'when I feel it coming up, I just throw it all away'; when the thoughts that this is all fake and once he wakes up or stop imagining its all going to be better (aswell as with the connotation of over partying and vomiting) but at the same time him making himself stop those thoughts because he knows this is reality. And then round back again with the repetition of 'doesn't matter anyways' with it feeling like a dead end to him.

[twopoppies]

Hiiiiii Gina! Im so sorry to bother you dfkflflftktlt but can you help me find a fic where i think harry and his uni friends, niall, ziam, jesy and pixie(?) go to vegas after graduation and louis and nick work in a bar?

Im so sorry the description is not really helpful but my dumbass accidentally deleted this fic while i was reading like the first chapter ig so i dont really remember much and i tried looking for it in your clubbing tag but didn't find it there either djdkdkd

Ugh. It’s not on that fic rec because I’m an idiot and forgot to add it (just cheated that, though). I love that fic—it’s one of my comfort fics I’ve read over and over. 😅

The light to guide me home by Star_Henderson / @tommosgun (E, 65K)

He was mesmerised by the guy on the bar.

Laughing and singing along to the song, grinding and thrusting in time to the music, shaking his cocktail shaker.

“Relax, don’t do it when you wanna come . Relax, don’t do it, when you wanna suck do it, relax don’t do it, when you wanna come..”

Harry’s throat felt constricted, rooted to the spot.

“When you wanna come…”

He came to his senses and edged through the crowd, not taking his eyes from the guy, gyrating and tossing his shaker. He flipped it down to a girl behind the bar and concentrated on his moves, grabbing his crotch, throwing his head back, tongue out.

Harry could feel himself getting hard in his pants. It was the most erotic thing he had ever seen.

The guy was standing on the same spot but stamping his feet, arms aloft, rolling his hips suggestively.

He brought his head forward to the crowd and locked eyes with Harry.

His jaw fell open, mouth slack, pupils blown.

Or the one where Harry and his friends hit Vegas for post Uni blow out, he meets a bar owner called Louis who rocks his world. Pure lust overtakes them both but it's more, it's just so much more than that..

[daffenger]

I now realise I forgot to post this at the time ! details and references from IWTV's third episode, Is my very nature that of the devil.

A bit obvious but I just adore that even past the first episode's courting period they're still chilling on that bench (plus bonus shadow theatre in the background)

This naturalist that fogs your mind... No name on the book but probably Darwin's Origin of Species (first published 1859) presenting his theory of evolution as Louis states They came from apes.. we came from them... (of course, he adds his own moral spin to it).

Know your enemy, Lestat says, then plays the minuet in G major from one of Germany's great composers, Johann Sebastian Bach (listen to it and read the score here).

edit : as per this brilliant piece of meta, the minuet was actually written by lesser-known Christian Petzold and later on attributed to Bach. Compare and contrast with Lestat's earlier malapropism of "infinitesimal" for a commentary on Lestat's varnish of erudition.

Didn't see it on my first watch so putting it here just in case ^^ Louis sees his self-biting marks are still there and immediately turns his wrist away so Lestat doesn't see. It is killing me softly that his first instinct is to feel ashamed of what he is, a gay man to his family, a weird vampire that doesn't feed correctly to Lestat.

After some time spent searching, I found what song Lestat is singing with his guests. Where do we go from here is a 1917 army song (lyrics here).

[violence, racism tw]

Same as the plague during which Claudia is found in Anne Rice's novel is based on an actual event, the race riot reflects the history of New Orleans. In 1900, a black man named Robert Charles (wiki article) shot and killed a policeman. He was shot to death, then a white mob attacked black residents of the city and killed at least a dozen people, wounding many more. In the earlier New Orleans massacre of 1866 (wiki article), a black protest was set upon by white rioters, leading to at least 30 deaths and more than a hundred wounded.

[louistthegreatest]

List of things Louis DOES NOT LIKE on tour (and therefore you should act accordingly to evite)

- Avocado jokes, plushies...

-Carrot jokes, costumes...

- Middle fingers without any context (please, know when and don't be rude on his face... 🙄)

- Throwing things on stage (he and his band need space to walk without accidents)

- Miss you, No Control... (you are going to a LOUIS TOMLINSON concert not a 1d show, know your place)

- Singing like a mad person 'it's been ages... Princess Park' (he does not like you making his song about one single quote)

And since we are making a list of rude things, please, stop screaming more for the 1d songs than his solo songs (again, you are at a Louis Tomlinson concert, not a 1d show)

Feel free to add if I forgot something...

[faithinthefuture28]

Larry songs timeline & what it tells us about the evolution of their relationship

**These are all just my interpretations but the more I listen to the music they wrote, the more it all fits together. ESPECIALLY BECAUSE THROUGHOUT THE YEARS THEY’VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT WRITING “AUTOBIOGRAPHICALLY” AND “FROM PERSONAL EXPERIENCE”

I deffo missed some songs but these stood out to me:

2013

L-Strong: Love isn’t easy (waves trying to break it) but what we have means something and it’s worth fighting for. read: love is only for the brave (Think of how much love that’s been wasted...there’s nothing i’m running from...i don’t care, I’m not scared of love) And we bring out the best in each other so lets not throw this away (i’d do anything to save it...when i’m not with you i’m weaker). 

H-Happily: I want to fight for us too bc we’re on fire and our love is powerful af. ik we have to do stunts and stuff (and if (s)he feels my traces in your hair, sorry love but I don’t really care) but what we have is insane and fuck everyone else bc you’re MINE and i’m YOURS at the end of the day (i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep). Together, we’re magic so just be with me so happily

H-Something Great: ****this song is very straightforward so i won’t explain it much***** (i want you here with me like how i pictured it so i dont have to keep imagining... We’re better off together here tonight). Written as a longing for what could be if they dont have to suppress the relationship. (script was written...want to rip it all to shreds) Louis’ response (you’re all I want so much it’s hurting) basically says “it’s not too much to ask babe, i want it too.” This has the kind of longing that ‘wouldn’t it be nice- beach boys’ which Harry has admitted is kind of a theme song. 

L-Through the Dark: I know all this bs we’re going through is taking a toll on you and hurts you and i hate seeing you upset (you tell me that your sad...you tell me that you’re hurt and youre in pain and i can see your head is held in shame...i just wanna see you smile again) but I will do everything physically possible to protect you from any pain bb (i’d never let you fall and break your heart, if u wanna cry or fall apart, i’ll be there to hold ya). We’re going through this together and I will take on any responsibility needed to keep you happy.  I’M WILLING TO GO THROUGH HELL TO FIGHT FOR US HARRY LOVE (entire chorus basically).

L-Better than Words: holy fuck our love is amazing can’t even describe it can i just sing to you foreva love u babycakes

L-Why don’t we go there: what if...we just forgot about the world and escaped and enjoyed each others love and rode the high??? Also sex

2014

L-Ready to Run: *******Followup to Why Don’t We Go There*********** But this time let’s escape for real bc (there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time). Like i’m ready to get out of here and it could just be us living happily ever after (this time i’m ready to run). Honestly nothing else makes sense (without you i’ll never make it out alive...wherever you are is the place i belong). I know what i want out of life and IT’S YOU HARREH (i want to be free and i wanna be yours, i will never look back). 

L-Steal My Girl: all u thirsty hoes find someone else bc Harry is MY pretty princess. Srsly ask his family. But you can still admire how he looks in those jeans. We all do. You know the ones

L-No Control: boy u fine, let’s do what lovers do IN THE MORNING. bc we can. also you own me and i am urs

L-Clouds: WE KNEW THIS WAS GONNA BE HARD SO WHY ARE YOU BEING A LITTLE BITCH (you dont like it complicated...but love is never ever simple...you are tired of all the changes, but love is always always changing). We could be great yo, just keep fighting (if we’re never coming back down, we’ll looking down on the clouds...we go and we go and we dont stop)

H-Where do Broken Hearts Go: IM SORRY LOU BABY YOURE EVERYTHING (rest of my crimes dont come close the look on your face when i let you go... the taste of your lips...is at the top of the list of things i want). H&L’s call and  response at the end is basically forgiveness and acknowledgment (come on baby come and get me out, come on baby cuz i need you now)

H-Two Ghosts: *****was written around this time according to Harry******. This is fucking hard yo. We’re drained and exhausted and idk how much more we can fight for this... (it’s not you and it’s not me...sounds like something that i used to feel). That infatuation and electricity and hope that fueled our younger selves isn’t really there anymore and i’m just tired man (we’re just two ghosts swimming in a glass half empty, trying to remember how it feels to have a heartbeat, we’re not who we used to be...this was all we used to need). We’re empty vessels going through the motions (same eyes blue, couple more tattoos). AND WE AREN’T FUCKING COMMUNICATING (we dont say what we really mean). 

2015

H&L-Perfect: so what if... we get rid of the pressure of forever? What if we just have fun doing the stupid shit we love and makes us feel alive (trouble up in hotel rooms, secret little rendezvous, things you know that we shouldn’t do). Like we won’t be out of each others’ lives, I’m still around and we can find comfort in each other and even mess around here and there (I can be the one you love from time to time). Remember how we used to be young and EXCITED (when i first saw you from across the room, i could tell that you were curious) let’s get that energy back without the responsiblity of an adult relationship. And we can keep making art lmao (if youre looking for someone to write your breakup songs about). 

L-Long Way Down *****this song fkn hurts man. It’s overlooked a lot but shows so much insight**** We were...everything. And maybe that’s the problem? We’ve been through so fucking much, more than anyone our age should have to endure. (We've been in fire, Went down in the flames. We sailed the ocean And drowned in the waves. Built a cathedral But we never prayed) We didn’t know what we had. We were damn kids man. We weren’t prepared for all this. We didn’t know how powerful this would be. We didn’t know what it required of us. (We had a mountain But took it for granted. We had it all yeah. Who could’ve planned it). We didn’t know what to do with it, how to deal with it, so here we are. (We had a spaceship But we couldn't land it) We’re each other’s everything, but we can’t keep going on like this babe. (We found an island But we got stranded). I don’t want to leave you but being together is breaking us down. (Point of no return and now It's just too late to turn around) We thought we were untouchable. That love conquers all. Maybe, we were wrong. This is gonna hurt like a bitch (We built it up so high and now I'm fallin', it’s a long way down)

H-Olivia: I LIVE FOR YOU, I LONG FOR YOU, I LOVE YA. And i think i’ll always love ya. And I’m scared...of life without you (i get the feeling you’re walking out, time is irrelevant when i’ve not been seeing you, the consequences are falling now, there’s something i’m having nightmares about...dont let me go). But maybe just maybe thats okay, because you’re AIMH (you live in my imagination...i love you, it’s all i do). 

L-Love you Goodbye: I fucking love you and I’ll always fucking love you but i think this is the right thing to do even though it feels so wrong (i know there’s nothing i can do to change it, but is there something that can be negotiated?) We made some goddamn fireworks together though (unforgettable together held the whole world in our hands) and do ya maybe think...we can make them just once more? (if tomorrow you wont be mine, let me give it to you one last time, baby let me love you goodbye...one more taste of your lips just to bring me back to the places we’ve been and the nights we’ve had because if this is it, then at least we could end it riiiiight). ********in the interview with our FAVE Gwen Garcia, she asked if it’s better to say goodbye and end a relationship that’s not feeling right or keep trying even if your heart’s not in it. Harry responds with “I think it’s better to say goodbye...but sometimes if youre trying to protect..” Then Louis cuts him off and says “you’re going deep aren’t you”, brushing the question off as a joke but imho i think there was pain in that answer. Then Harry continues “if you’re not 100% in it, I think it’s better for both parties if you say goodbye”. And Louis adds a “yeah” at the end.********

H-Walking in the Wind: I know this is scary but i think we can do it, (you said to me do you believe i’ll be too far? if youre lost just look for me you’ll find me) I think because youre AIMH and i’m always in yours, it’ll be good for us. And look at us being mature, we’re killing it babe. We can live our separate lives and grow on our own. We dont need to make it messy and hurtful. We’re on the same page. (the fact that we can sit right here and say goodbye means we’ve already won. A necessity for apologies between you and me, baby there is none). At this point, we’re kinda part of each other right? So it’s healthy for us to be apart for a bit. (it’s not the end, i’ll see your face again... i know we’ll be alright...just close your eyes and see i’ll be by your side any time you need me). And you’ve helped me grow into the person I am, and I you, so that’s cool as hell, right? (you will find me in places that we’ve never been). We had a TON of fun (we had some good times didnt we) so i feel okay that we’re doing this (goodbyes are bittersweet) and starting the next adventure in our lives. 

H-If I could fly: I. am. yours. Louis. William. Tomlinson. (for your eyes only, i’ll show you my heart). Maybe this growth thing isn’t worth it, let me prove to you how much you mean to me (i think i might give up everything just ask me to). This is gonna be hard as shit because i’m so dependent on you (i’m missing half of me when we’re apart). I’m being honest and I’m being scared and I’m being vulnerable because I can’t lie to you and pretend I’m strong (i let my guard down, right now i’m completely defenseless). But we’re part of each other, right? (i could feel your heart inside of mine). I’ll always be here for you Lou (for when you’re lonely and forget who you are) even if for now we can’t physically be together. 

L-Home: I’ve tried, Harry. I’ve tried to play pretend (told myself i kind of like her but there was something missin in her eyes). But i was lost (i was stumblin, lookin in the dark with an empty heart) because none of it was enough, none of it was YOU (it was there i sawr it in your eyes). And then i met you and you felt the same and we’re both lost souls playing pretend who found magic in each other (but you say you feel the same, could we ever be enough?) Is our love enough to overcome everything? Maybe we can be enough. Maybe I can make this enough, let me try to make it enough for you. And if we go our separate ways, know that I’m here for you no matter what. I won’t let you be lost again. (When you’re lost I’ll find a way and I’ll be your light, you will never feel like you’re alone, I’ll make this feel like home). So go. wander. find yourself. Then when you’re ready, come home. 

 2016-2017

H- Sweet Creature: ***Harry admit that this was the first song he wrote for the album**** We aren’t in the best place rn. We’ve been fighting (had another talk about where it’s going wrong...it’s hard when we argue, we’re both stubborn). But it’s you Louis. It can’t be anyone else. (don’t know where we’re going but we know where we belong... wherever I go, you bring me home). That’s not even a question. I’m still trying to figure out who I am, but the one thing I know is that a large part of who I am is you (we started 2 hearts in one home). And aint no way I’m losing that part of myself (when i run out of road, you bring me home). It was always you. 

H-MMITH: Whenever you’re ready, I’m ready (just let me know i’ll be at the door,  hoping you’ll come around). I know I need to work on myself a little more (i gotta get better, and maybe we’ll work it out) but honestly i’m getting impatient and i want things to go back to how they were and i want to be yours again (once you go without it, nothing else would do). But I can’t communicate this to you clearly so let me just put this in a song and hope you get it (we dont talk about it, it’s something we dont do) ****Harry mentioned in an interview that he expresses himself through songwriting when he can’t say the words directly to a person because it’s easier to just write it in a song than have difficult conversations*****

H-ESNY: ****honestly no idea what this song is about but it’s something to do with them fighting and not communicating and being in a weird place before their relationship is rekindled******* edit: this could be about his stepdad

H-FTDT: I MISS YOU AND I’M TOO FULL OF PRIDE TO TELL YOU DIRECTLY JUST COME BACK INTO LIFE LOU I’M LONELY AND SAD AND EMPTY AND IM NOT FUCKING FINDING MYSELF LIKE YOU SAID I WOULD (woke up alone, played with myself where were you...we havent spoke since you went away, why wont you ever say what you wanna say) So until then I sit and wait for your sorry ass to make the first move (maybe one day you’ll call me and tell me that you’re sorry too...but you never do). Also like i have to hear from other people how you are?? (i saw your friend that you know from work, he said that you feel just fine) ANd you’re sharing OUR clothes with people?? wtf just swallow your pride and call me 

L-Miss You: OKAY BUT I CANT JUST CALL YOU BECAUSE I HAVE PRIDE TOO also my mates are trying to make me get over you (now i’m asking my friends how to say I’m sorry, they say lad give it ttime there’s no need to worry, and we can’t even be on the phone now). So i’m just numbing your absence with partying and drinks but CLEARLY ITS NOT WORKING (should be laughing but there’s something wrong...shit maybe i miss you...when i feel it coming up i just throw it all away, get another few shots cuz it doesn’t matter anyway...such a good time, i’ll believe it this time). This is weird bc like you were my everything but im trying to get used to this and it fucking sux (oh how shit changes, we were in love, now we’re strangers). And tbh, its scary af bc what if this is it (i’m asking myself, is it over?). BUT ALSO LIKE WTF U COULD REACH OUT FIRST YA KNOW (i’ve been checking my phone all evening).

H-Anna: wtf Louis how do you not see how much this is killing me. I miss you so much and seeing you on tv or in pics drives me wild bc you’re not mine. (I don’t want your sympathy but you don’t know what you do to me...everytime I see your face there’s only so much I can take...I guess it would be nice if I can touch your body). And idk if you’re replacing me (don’t know where you’re laying, just know it’s not with me) and we’re in SUCH a weird place rn how do I tell u you’re the loml (don’t know what I’d say if I passed you on the street...don’t know what I’d tell you if you asked me for the truth) so I refuse to put this song on the album and let you know this and give you satisfaction from knowing how gone I still am for you bc I have 0 idea how you feel (hope you never see this and know that it’s for you)

L-Always You: SO THIS IS ME SWALLOWING MY PRIDE STANDING IN FRONT OF YOU SAYING IM SORRY FOR THAT NIGHT... ok but fr i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u and nothing else compares like i can travel the whole world and all i think about is how much more fun it was with you and the memories we shared and i wish i could just say thx fr th mmrs and move on but actually no thx actually fuck you for making me not able to enjoy my life without you. So like...come home? and wrap your legs around me? also lmao i took El to a gay bar in amsterdam for her bday lmao i miss u come cuddle me and i’ll tell you all about it

L-We Made It: looks like we made it, look how far we’ve come my baby. They saidd I bett they’ll never make it, but just look at us holding onn, we’re still togetherr, still going stronggg. Also to the fans, miss our single bed and the nights we talked about our dreams :-* also Andrew my man luv u

2018-2019

L-KMM: our love was youthful and exhilarating and fucking electric and i think it still can be. dont know what i’d do without you now H 

L-DLIBYH: We’re strong babe and we’ve grown and we aren’t gonna let life drag us down. I’m doing better, you’re doing better, this is what we wanted. And now any shit we go through, we’ll go through TOGETHER 

L-Too Young: Okay but looking back, that was a lot of shit we went through and we were just babies and i’m sorry for not fighting harder (i cant believe i gave in to the pressure when they said a love like this would never last so i cut you off cuz i didnt know no better) baby i tried, i tried to protect you but like it was just so much and i hate that you got hurt and i wont ever let that happen again. ALso go us for being mature and COMMUNICATING (face to face at the kitchen table, we can finally have a conversation that I wish we could’ve had before). ANd i know you’re an arrogant son of a bitch who can’t admit when he’s sorry so here let ME say i’m sorry that i hurt you darling. Like we were too young to know we had everything BUT now we’re old(er) and can realize that when we’re together, we DO have everything now and omg is this our happily ever after and we can have a daughter and name her Darcy 

L-Habit: do i need to spell it out for you iiiiii aaaaaaaaammmmmmm sssssssoooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyy. But tbh i let you go because it felt right because mentally you were already out the door and i needed to give you room to grow babe. And i needed the space too (you gave me the time and the space i was out of control and i’m sorry i let you down). but like also i’ve learned i can’t escape you Styles. You’re always in my fucking heart and my fucking mind and in every essence of my being and somehow I knew that 9 years ago and it took me this long to realize how powerful this really is (guess that that i know what i already knew, i was better with you and i miss you now). Ooooh also my favorite line i wrote (took some time cuz i ran out of energy of playing someone I heard I’m supposed to be and honestly i dont have to choose anymore) like who am i kidding, im done pretending i just wanna be yoursss now

L-Defenseless: I can’t help it okay theres something about you that doesn’t let me stay away. I need you and I know that rekindling this relationship isn’t going to be easy even though it feels so so right. It’s going to be hard work (sleeping on our problems but we’ll solved them in our dreams, wake up early morning and it’s still under the sheets) and we need to communicate and solve our problems but here I am, raw and unfiltered and emotionally naked in front of you ready to lay it all on the table (not sure how to say this right, got so much to lose. NEver been so defenseless). So like this branch I’m reach out to you and you be honest with me too babe (you dont have to keep on being strong for me and you. Acting like you feel no pain, you know i know you do...I can’t get inside, when you’re lost in your pride but you don’t have a thing to prove). Be open with me. Lets talk. Let’s solve problems. Lets have an adult relationship. I’m asking for a little vulnerabiltiy babe. It’s just me. Theres nothing to be scared of

L-Walls: And here you have me in my purest form. No lies, no secrets, no insecurities to hide behind. Losing you was fucking painful but i got through it. I’ve been through hell and back and I’ve fought. And without you, I grew into the person I am. And any further growing i’m doing is gonna be with you. bc it was all for you babe. and honestly i can take anything life throws at me now. I’m strong baby. I’m fucking strong and fucking brave and fucking resilient and...fucking yours. ***** wtf is the I just hope i see you one day and you’ll say to me oh oh********

H-Golden: You are the literal sun and I’m not ready. YOU’RE SUCH A GOOD PERSON (you were way too bright for me, i’m hopeless, broken, so you wait for me in the sky). I’m scared to go through this alone, I need your comfort and your guidance (i can feel you take control of who i am and all i’ve ever known). But you’re scared to go through this with me bc you dont wanna get hurt and i’m too open so where tf does that leave us. ******this could be about coming out especially with the London AND NY secret shows where Harry added the lyric I’m hoping someday you’ll open*******

H-Adore You: You dont have to say you love me, you dont have to say nothing, you dont have to say you’re mine. I’d walk through fire for you. Just let me adore Lou. Like its the only thing I’ll ever do. read: Louis is a great person to just admire what he’s like. ALso I dont need anything back. I just dont want to hide my love for you anymore. I don’t need answers or promises. Just let me adore you. ********the music video is also basically a Louis appreciation post. He was the boy with the smile that the world took away from him. He found Harry lost and loved him and nurtured him and made him confident and allowed him to be who he wanted to be. But in doing so, Harry became big and unsatisfied and wanted to explore the world and was clearly interested in Hollywood and Rockstardom especially evident in his behavior 2014-2015. And Louis wasn’t about that life and didn’t want to hold him back. So he let him free. But they realized that they don’t work apart. Wherever they’re going, they’re going together, as the boy sails into the unknown following the fish. I see it as Harry’s version of “this one is a thank you for what you did for me” ************* I see it, I appreciate it, and I love you for it

H-Lights Up: ****fight with Louis. (What do you mean I’m sorry by the way) About coming out? About fame? (Step into the light, so bright sometimes) Either way, L is the guy driving the motorcycle in the video who makes H feel comfortable and safe until they get pulled over because SOMEONE wont let them love*******

H-Falling: What if i’m out, what if i’m someone you won’t talk about? Okay maybe I lied I do want you to claim me. Would me coming out of the closet make that hard for you? I CAN’T GO THROUGH AN IDENTITY CRISIS WITHOUT YOU LOU. I picked someone supportive and now I’m spoiled and I dont know how to be with myself. You want back in my life but what if I dont deserve it? (you said you cared and you missed me too...what i’m someone i dont want around). What if you’re better off without me? (i get the feeling that you’ll never need me again). I know youve been through so much shit because of me, things you’ve never even told me about and im afraid...that I wasn’t worth it. Am I being selfish? because either way, i want YOU (what if you’re someone i just want around). Does that make me a bad person? 

H-TBSL: ****Probably when they starting talking again but it was v casual and they didn’t really discuss their relationship yet*****. I MISS U BUT I WONT TELL U THAT and its nice to talk to u again i missed your voice but if u call me baby i will kill u bc that word has weight OKAY. Like i know you just call everyone babe and darling and sweetheart but baby is FOR ME and only for me when you wake up with me and cuddle me and if you think you have any right calling me baby without giving the luxury of being in a relationship with you then piss off because that shit hurts dude. (i know that you’re trying to be friends, know that you mean it...it’s hard for me to go home to be so lonely). ALso it’s not my fault i’m like this, you literally captured my heart when i was 16 like wtf do u expect (dont blame me for falling, i was just a little boy)

H-Sunflower Vol. 6: we were babies and i was so enamored by you and you’re so bright and beautiful and i want to watch you all day and make you smile and i want you to touch my hair and call me curly and i hope im not making you uncomfortable with my heart eyes but like how are you so perfect. I hope you think i’m cool, i’m really trying but like you’re SO FUNNY and charming and everyone loves you i hope im not embarassing myself. And now it’s like 8 years later and i think i can have you again and i want you so bad but i dont wanna seem too eager and im trying to have dignity and not text you first but like also i want nothing more than to talk to you. Do you think i’m cool now? did you like my new hairstyle? Do you think i’m funny on tour? I want everything i want to be domestic again and kiss in the kitchen and i want to cook for you and as;ldfa;sdhaf i want to buy you flowers everyday and shower ur cute face with kiss. boopx28 

H-Canyon Moon: Hell yea i got ma man back and i have a girlfriend named Jennifer ;) and we are domestic and even though I HATE being away from him for work (so hard to leave it) we have the 2 week rule yall then i can wrap my legs around him and after so so so long I’ll be h.o.m.e. Also did i tell you his eyes are so so blue like sky who i dont know her

H-TPWK: So we’re really doing this. We don’t need to have it all figured out. We can just be us. and happy. and dance. The world loves us babe. (Giving second chances, I don’t need all the answers and if we’re here long enough we’ll see it’s all for us and we’ll belong)

H-Fine Line: You’ve got my devotion but man I can hate you sometimes....We’ll be a fine line. Between what? love and hate? public and private? out and in the closet? each others’ and ourselves? Idk. But i’m going to swallow my pride (my hands at risk I fold) because no matter what, the worst possible outcome is not having you. And I never wanna go through that again. I know we have work to do on our relationship (spreading you open is the only way I know you). And there’s lot of unknown here (there’s things that we’ll never know) but what i do know is that i cant resist you (you sunshine you temptress) and i cant be without you ever again. I think it’ll be hard as hell. But when have we known love as anything but hard? And when have we known our love as anything but worth it? We’ll be a fine line baby. But i know, i knowww with every part of me that we’ll be alright. Because these past 10 years, we’ve been through A LOT. ANd it could have ruined us and made us cynical and cold and closed off. And I think at one point it did. But you know what we did? We fought it. We fought it together. Then we fought it individually. And we became BRAVE. And a brilliant man once said, “love is only for the brave”. 

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Hi, all! So it seems that the wonderful AO3 user - objectlesson - aka on tumblr as - horsegirlharry - has sadly deleted their fics. I have only a few saved in my files, but there are some I would really love to possess, if anyone has them? I would really appreciate it if you would message me and let me know! :)

Also, I am posting the whole list of amazing stories they shared for our fandom, and I am marking (with an asterisk*) the ones that I have myself, in case anyone else would like them too! <3

Silver White Winters

by objectlesson

In which Louis catches a cloud and pins it down.

Words: 5106, Chapters: 2/2, Language: English

I Must Confess (I Still Believe)

by objectlesson

Louis shrugs, eyes on the road. “You look cute in the blazer, too,” she says nonchalantly, and what the fucking fuck, what is Harry supposed to think?

“You probably do, too, but I wouldn’t know because I don’t even think you own one? Do you ever actually wear the entire uniform?” she asks, deflecting.

“Not since freshman year!” Louis boasts proudly. “They stopped giving me demerits because it’s, like, a lost cause. I literally haven’t seen my blazer in three years, I just borrow Veronica’s when I walk into Mass.” Her grin is very cheeky and bright, and she’s squinting in the sun, aviators pushed up into the overgrown auburn shag of her hair. The horizon is hazy and pink-orange as dark sneaks up on them, the air smelling of sprinkler water and BBQ smoke from people leaching the last warmth of October before summer’s gone for good. Harry feels alive with possibility, eyes watering as she smiles at Louis, unable to stop. She wrinkles her nose like it’ll somehow hide the way it looks on her face to be in love.

Or, Harry is the new girl at an all girl Catholic Girl’s School, and Louis is the unattainable, dashing senior who changes her forever.

Words: 44304, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Powerless (and I Don’t Care It’s Obvious)

by objectlesson

“Oh no, Lou, don’t make me laugh,” he whimpers. His Ribena-purple mouth twists into a glorious, breakable shape, and Louis’s heart stops. He should not be getting turned on by Harry’s full-bladder discomfort, his little twitches, his hips-stuttering. And yet.

Words: 4090, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

The Pink Ghost of Princess Park

by objectlesson

The thought of the vibrator does not go away. It’s sitting there collecting dust all through January, and every time Harry and Louis have to leave town for a press event or a show or to record or what have you, they come back home, and it’s still there, the Pink Ghost of Princess Park, the fucking glittery haunting that Harry cannot stop thinking of Louis stuffing up his arse.

Words: 7556, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

*Life Saver

by objectlesson

Nerd Boy’s giant, dorky, adorable hand shoots into the air. Louis notices he has chipped red polish on a few of his nails and some tattered friendship-looking bracelets, like the sort you make in camp, and he might hear the distant chime of wedding bells. He thought he didn’t even believe in marriage because it’s, like, oppressive and heteronormative or whatever, but that was before Styles, Harry (Harry Styles!!! What an absurd, wonderful name! What a perfect thing to scrawl in the margins of all his notebooks surrounded in hearts!) appeared in the bio lab at his new school and ruined all his principles forever.

or, Louis is a sweetheart punk with a theater background and a heart of gold, Harry is an inexperienced nerd who plays by the rules. Classmates, lab partners, and eventually friends, what happens when Louis knows he’s in love, but doesn’t know how tell Harry?

Words: 14809, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Even Your Honey Dew

by objectlesson

It probably says something about Harry that he’s so obsessed with another omega’s arse.

Words: 9512, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

What a Heavenly Way To Die

by objectlesson

She’s thought about it a lot, and two big things seem to be holding her back, aside from the uncontrollable paralysis that overtakes her body every time she so much as tries to sneak a hand under the waistband of Harry’s knickers.

Or, Louis is afraid to do stuff to Harry, who has done a lot of stuff to her.

Words: 8052, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

A Firm Believer and a Warm Receiver

by objectlesson

a few months ago, Louis had his first heat. It was no big deal, aside from it being awkward and weird and all the other things it was supposed to be. He figured he would present as an omega, so he wasn’t exactly surprised or anything.

But then, last week, Harry had his first heat, too.

Or, the omega/omega sleepover fic no one asked for but y'all really, really need.

Words: 10895, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

You’ll Know What Makes The World Turn

by objectlesson

Sometimes, when things are messy and they have more than a few weeks apart, they need the reminder. It’s comforting to have stars to map your course by.

or, Harry’s blue bandana is a day collar.

Words: 4624, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Sing You Butterflies

by objectlesson

Louis stares for a moment before some primal sympathetic force in him activates. He has to help this boy. He can hardly walk, and he seems so young (yet ageless, beyond age, like a sea turtle or a parrot or a tree or something else odd and magical), and on top of all that, he has body glitter clinging to his skin, like that roll-on stuff his sisters used to use as preteens, only pink-gold and twice as thick. It’s, like, professional grade. He’s also wearing grass- and dirt-stained pink silk women’s underwear, so maybe he’s from London. Maybe he’s a drag queen who crawled all the way from a nightclub in Soho just to save Louis from his horribly mundane and woefully heterosexual neighbours out here in the middle of nowhere.

or, Harry’s a clumsy unicorn who accidentally stomps on a witch’s garden and is turned into a human as punishment, so he wanders into a nearby village covered in glitter, still figuring out how to walk on two feet, and meets the fairy-tale-fine Louis, who has to teach him how to live as a human and stop him from eating soap.

Words: 22701, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Holy

by objectlesson

She deserves not to be so goddamned put together all the time. Being in the world’s biggest and highest exposure girlband means she’s never seen without a flat stomach, a spray tan, contouring, eyelash extensions, the whole of her body inescapably toned and plucked and waxed so frequently she genuinely forgot what fucking color her own pubes are. Louis wants to eat burgers and smoke weed and be twenty three. She wants to wake up with Harry and spend the whole day in bed fingering each other because they finally don’t have to have goddamn acrylic nails for once. She wants to grow her pubes out. She wants to lounge around in a posh, red-velvet High Hefner robe.

Or, Louis is dressed like a fucking queen, Harry’s begging please.

Words: 6608, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Only One I Dream Of: A Drabble Collection

by objectlesson

A collection of all the m/m One Direction drabbles and timestamps I’ve written on tumblr, so my readers on here aren’t missing out!

Words: 5164, Chapters: 5/13, Language: English

Diamonds in the Moonlight

by objectlesson

The 70s au where Harry is a rich girl stuck in the suburbs who thinks she loves Shaun Cassidy, and Louis is the skater who breaks into her backyard and changes everything forever.

Words: 16136, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

In the Heat of the Night

by objectlesson

“You’re sleeping with me, obviously,” Harry says then, pausing to regard Louis with a funny expression, nose wrinkled and brows drawn tight. “Don’t tell me you thought that I’d let you freeze out here!? Absolutely not! C’mon, the bedroom’s cozy, I dragged a space heater out.”

Louis wants to protest about as badly as she wants to sleep next to Harry Styles, which is a lot. Too much.

Or, Louis is the only butch in London with a truck and Harry needs to move a couch.

Words: 7726, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Once Upon a Dream

by objectlesson

“M’not gonna half-ass our fake relationship,” Louis almost snaps, voice sharp with a defensive edge, like Harry wandered too close to a bruise with needy fingers. “Now kiss me again. We’re gonna make every shitty tourist here wish they had stayed in the Midwest. We’re gonna burn Disneyland down with our gay. ”

Harry shuts his eyes and opens his mouth, because he can’t fucking say no to Louis.

Or, a fake dating AU where everyone is lying and they happen to be at the Happiest Place on Earth.

Words: 16643, Chapters: ½, Language: English

From Now Until Forever

by objectlesson

The girls go to Britney Nite and Louis wears Juicy track pants and Harry is not ok.

Niall takes the pint glass back from Harry and takes a swig, regarding her over the rim knowingly. “You’re nervous,” she observes with a grin. “Because you’re gonna get drunk at a gay bar with Louis, and you haven’t told her yet that you wanna marry her.”

“Oh, my god, stop,” Harry scolds, hiding her face in her hands, everything suddenly hot and shivery. “It’s not that,” she adds, even though it most definitely is.

“Then…you’re excited to see Louis in a schoolgirl skirt and bra? Covered in that body glitter that smells like cotton candy?” Niall presses, waggling her eyebrows, making Harry blush at the mere thought of Louis’s golden skin shimmering and sticky under club lights.

Words: 9223, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Hello, Heaven (you are tunnel-lined with yellow lights

by objectlesson

“Oh, yeah?” Harry asks, playing dumb as he helps Louis out of his coat before hanging it up. “A new phone charger? Mine’s still broken, the electrical tape didn’t work.”

Louis makes a face at him, all arched brows and tongue pressed into cheek. “Oh a phone charger? Is that what you need?” he quips lightly, voice high and lilting in this sing-song way that’s so, so high and gentle that it’s scary. He’s putting on a show for Harry, and Harry’s thrilled with it, already shivery and hot-cheeked because Louis got him something naughty, and they’re talking about it without really talking about it, wrapping it up in layers of mundanity and domesticity, still so excited to play the role of two Adults living in their new Adult flat in London that they bought with their own money from the X Factor. Harry’s living an unimaginably glamourous life so suddenly, and Louis and his gifts are right in the middle of it, the heart of his every dream.

Or, Louis buys Harry things sometimes.

Words: 2988, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Dream About That Casual Touch

by objectlesson

And that was the first thing Louis noticed about her. Not her nipples, or not only her nipples, anyway, but the fact that she was so confident with her body and didn’t seem to care that her tits were sort of soft and floppy and uneven or that she had a little roll of pudge around her hips that poked over the top of her jeans when she wore crop tops. She wore what she wanted to wear whether or not it was in fashion or technically even flattering; her hair was always messy, she only wore makeup half the time, and she seemed to like heeled boots even if she was already fairly tall and they made her tower over the boys. Louis always thought it was so fucking sexy how unconcerned Harry seemed with what people thought of her, how comfortable she was in her own skin. That by itself seemed like a sort-of gay thing, so Louis kept a remote, careful eye on her, hoping to one day see something else that blipped her radar.

Or, Louis and Harry fuck up two dates before they finally get it right.

Words: 7678, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

*Smoke Dreams from Smoke Rings

by objectlesson

“When I get a craving?” Louis says, “You have to help me chase it away. Distract me”

Oh. Harry can think of about one hundred different ways to distract Louis Tomlinson. One hundred better uses for his mouth, for example. “Erm,” he squeaks, well aware of the fact that he’s grinning and dimpling and blushing all at once, his whole face a suddenly mortifying warzone of transparent emotion. “How?”

“By hitting my arm as hard as you can,” Louis announces, holding out the arm in question. It bridges the gap between them, stiff and expectant, and Harry stares, not entirely sure if Louis’s being serious, if this is some prank that he isn’t clever enough to understand, or if the promise of touching Louis under any circumstances is so titillating that he just can’t process it. Louis rolls up the sleeve of his hoodie then, revealing his pale inner arm in maddening increments, pushing Harry somewhere between drooling and vomiting, he isn’t sure which. He just knows that his mouth is flooded, and the barely-there ghost of Louis’s veins through his skin is the prettiest thing that he’s ever seen. “Go on, hit me,” Louis orders. “Don’t be shy,”

or, Louis enlists Harry to help him with his bad habit.

Words: 18116, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Black Stars and Endless Seas

by objectlesson

Or, A Star Trek Original Series AU where Lt. Styles is a young science officer on his first away mission, and Louis is the headstrong ensign assigned to his security detail, and maybe they would be able to function together professionally in a normal setting, but not when their shuttlecraft crash-lands and they end up marooned together on an improbably and unfairly beautiful planet.

Words: 32246, Chapters: 3/3, Language: English

Rose Garden Dreams

by objectlesson

Harry thinks it’s a fever-induced delirium, at first. After all, she’s been sick in bed for a full forty-eight hours following the Best and Most Important beach trip of her entire life because fate is a cruel and jealous bitch who doesn’t want Harry to go on a date with the girl of her dreams.

or, Harry is sick and Louis comes to visit her.

Words: 9464, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Palms Reflecting in Your Eyes

by objectlesson

Harry visits Louis at his campus and finds a crop on the wall.

Words: 6496, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Wrap You Up in Daisy Chains

by objectlesson

Ten minutes later, an awkward, long-legged, curly-haired, so pale she’s reflective, and so obviously gay-looking Harry Styles is sitting shotgun next to Louis in a bikini, denim cut-offs, and heart-framed sunnies.

Or, Harry and Louis and a too-small bathing suit.

Words: 10613, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

To Keep the Night From Ending

by objectlesson

It doesn’t always feel real to kiss in the dark, Harry guesses. He wants it to feel real. He wants it to be the realest thing, burnt indelibly into his skin.

Or, Harry and Louis take a night swim.

Words: 5036, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Good Enough to Eat

by objectlesson

“Fuck,” Harry mumbles, shuffling. “You won’t give me shit for it? It’s sorta weird.”

“No,” Louis breathes. “Promise.”

“Okay. I just…fuck, I can’t believe I’m telling you this,” Harry whimpers, and he must be blushing because Louis can feel waves of heat coming off him, his embarrassment a hot, palpable thing. “So, like…I love rimming videos. Nothing makes me come harder,” he admits, covering his face with his hands so his voice comes out muffled and strangled.

It takes Louis a few seconds to process, to mentally rifle through his Pornhub search history and remember what rimming even is; Harry has him so stupid he can’t keep stuff straight. His ears ring, and then it hits him, and, oh, fuck. His stomach turns and tightens so quickly he’s gasping, an audible and shameful scrape of air in the dark. “You…really?” he chokes out.

Or, Harry is convinced he’s never gonna be able to try his favorite porn fantasy on a real boy, and Louis offers to remedy this.

Words: 6722, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Grenadine Sunshine

by objectlesson

Harry’s only sixteen, it shows right now, and Louis wants…he wants so many things. He wants to taste the faint, sugary ghost of lip gloss, he wants to cup Harry’s face between his palms and swipe the shimmery wet shadows from beneath his eyes. He wants to show him everything he knows, even though he doesn’t know anything about this, about kissing boys or flirting with them or doing their makeup or even showing them it’s okay to want to wear makeup in the first place. Still, Louis just wants, wants and wants and wants. It’s what Harry does to him.

Words: 18067, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Only Angel

by objectlesson

Louis pops his hip out, looking down at Harry from beneath the cut of his fringe sassily. “How do I look?”

Harry…Harry doesn’t have words, not really. He sits there on the floor with a half-hard cock, gazing up at this taller, scarier version of Louis with wide eyes. “Like I want you to spin-kick me in the face,” he admits after a moment, shakily inhaling. “You look…really good.”

Or, Louis finds a pair of heels that fit, and Harry wants to be ruined, as per usual.

Words: 6599, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Someone Who Knows How To Ride

by objectlesson

Harry gives Louis a lap dance. Or, at least, he tries to.

Words: 5114, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Copper Kiss

by objectlesson

Harry’s not allowed to fly back to the UK without marks to remember Louis by.

Words: 4604, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

You Drive Me Crazy ( I Just Can’t Sleep)

by objectlesson

The first time Louis ends up in Harry’s bed is a total accident.

Words: 18520, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Christmas Without You

by objectlesson

It’s Christmas Eve and Harry misses Louis so badly he might be going little crazy.

Words: 5639, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Vinyl and Lace

by objectlesson

Harry tries on a skirt in the X Factor dressing room as a joke. Louis doesn’t think it’s very funny.

Words: 7541, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Touch of My Hand

by objectlesson

Words: 3104, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Fandoms: One Direction (Band)

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Categories: M/M

Relationships: Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson

Additional Tags: Tour Bus Sex, Bus Sex, PWP, Up All Night Tour, Uan era, Canon Compliant, baby boyfriends in love, Masturbation, Mutual Masturbation, Established Relationship

Born to Make You Happy

by objectlesson

Harry makes a quiet vow to himself that he will be the very best girlfriend Louis has ever had, even if he never actually gets to be Louis’s girlfriend.

Words: 25662, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Taste of a Poison Paradise

by objectlesson

Louis notices Harry’s mouth right away.

Words: 9894, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

A Little Love (is better than none)

by objectlesson

It’s supposed to be no strings attached sex, but Harry’s in love with beauty and tragedy and Louis Tomlinson so there might actually a few strings they’re not talking about.

Or, alternately, the four times they fuck and don’t kiss, and one time they fuck and do (with a few more times thrown in because I’m a mess and know how to write short fics).

Words: 15074, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

*Take Me Under the Blue

by objectlesson

Louis hasn’t even seen his legs yet. He doesn’t know how they work or how long they’ll be. Maybe they won’t suit the rest of Harry at all, and he’ll have to grow into them or something. It doesn’t matter; Louis has loved Harry for a year with scales, so he can’t imagine wonky legs putting a damper on his attraction. 

He supposes he’ll just have to find out. In the meantime, he wonders how the fuck he got here, in his squelching wellies about to save the love of his life from the sea and take him to bed and bang him for the very first time.

It’s sort of a long story.

Words: 19011, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

[liam-93-productions]

We refuse to believe you haven’t heard of Liam Payne before. Not only did he audition twice for the X-Factor, but he has also been part of the biggest boyband of the 2010’s, One Direction, along with Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, Niall Horan and formerly Zayn Malik. Add to that his solo career he started three years ago with his first single ‘Strip That Down’ featuring Quavo, a first solo record LP1 released on December 6th 2019, and a new modelling career as Hugo’s face. Is there something Liam Payne can’t do? We don’t think so. Therefore, we’re here to remind you -or give you- 5 reasons why you should stan Liam Payne.

1. He’s a bop-maker

If you don’t know a Liam Payne, much to our dismay, there’s still a 99,99% chance that you’ve heard – and adored- one of his songs. This guy only has bops that you can’t forget when you’ve heard them once. If you’ve danced all summer back in 2018 to ‘Familiar‘, he was featured on it along with J Balvin. Have you ever cried over an ex listening to ‘For You‘, the original soundtrack for Fifty Shades Freed? Well, he was the one duetting with Rita Ora. You’re a Jonas Blue fan? Then you probably have lost your mind on ‘Polaroid‘, on which Liam was singing along with Lenon Stella. It certainly looks like Liam is that cool and super talented guy who’s easy to work with and ensures your song a huge success. We 100% recommend him.

2. He’s a mood-booster

We’ll be honest. We couldn’t give the name of one single person being sad, upset or mad after listening to Liam Payne, or doing anything related to him, really. Through his own human being, music and videos, Liam radiates positivity and kindness. There’s not much about the man that wouldn’t make a bunch of grumpy grandmas give up on their very first idols to watch him work out at the gym or cook eggs – yes, he cooks, too – on his YouTube channel. We’ve heard that watching him smile is as good as taking Vitamin C (but we forgot the name of the doctor. Don’t blame us.) Anyway, for a cure of that, head to this YouTube channel and watch his last two quarantine vlogs on which he preciously reacts to Twitter threads, TikToks and much more. You do want to see that. Just trust us.

3. He shares a lot with his fans

We’re sure you’re aware of how present Liam is on his socials. The way he interacts with his fans to acknowledge their support is one of the cutest things ever -right? In addition to his activity on Twitter (which mainly consists in him thanking his Liam Nation for their hard promoting job and positive vibes), he also goes live on Instagram every now and then, sometimes with Alesso since their collaboration on his brand new single Midnight, sometimes with other surprise guests such as his former bandmate Niall Horan. After ten minutes trying to get his attention in the comments to signal him he was watching him, Liam finally joined Niall’s live. Full of funny anecdotes, sweet memories, laughter and smiles. That’s what we like, that’s what we like.

4. He’s an actual source of inspiration

Fourth of the 5 reasons why you should stan Liam. For those who haven’t been following Liam for too long, you may not have heard of his childhood and the issues he encountered back then. After spending most of his first four years at the hospital to get taken care of for a kidney failure, he grew up facing bullying at school. In an interview for a french TV show in December 2019, Liam admitted that he didn’t have any special advice other than speaking up. Overall, he proved all of his bullies wrong, started working out and took part in tons of athletism competitions. Now he’s a model for Hugo Boss. The revenge, please. The success he built firstly in the band and then in his solo career is just the best example of achievement that one can need at their lowest times.

5. He’s a kind soul

We know we’ve listed a lot of qualities about Liam and you might start to think this guy has no flaws. You may be exactly right. Amongst other things, Liam is also a kind soul. While he was in the band, he and his former bandmates got involved in dozens of charities, auctions, fundraisers and balls. Maybe you remember him visiting ill children at a hospital for Christmas, or having his face painted as a tiger for £10,000 at the Cinderella Ball for Believe in Magic. Thus, he recently donated 360 000 meals for the Trussell Trust, a British charity that provides food in foodbanks for people in need, and volunteered for them to manage the stocks.

Did your heart melt already? Because ours did. <3

[ericsonclan]

A Spooky Good Time

Summary: The group of friends spend Halloween together enjoying all the candy and movies that come with it.

Notes: This is chapter 19 of the Persona AU if you want to read more or start from the beginning click here

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Clementine couldn’t believe it. She had told her friends about her boyfriend before she had told Lee. Dreading the conversation, she rolled out of bed dragging her feet towards the dining room table.

“Morning. sweetpea,” Lee called out from behind the stove. The smell of bacon wafted through the air.

“Morning, Lee,” Clementine stifled a yawn as she sat down at the table across from her brother. It was only a few moments before a plate of breakfast appeared before her. Eggs, bacon and toast covered her plate. She began to dig in, her fork piling the food into her mouth. Clementine wanted to enjoy every last bite of the food, but her nerves made it hard to do so.

Lee seemed to pick up on it, pausing his eating and looking at his daughter. “Clem, is there something on your mind?” he asked, looking over at her with concern.

Clementine placed down her fork.She should just go for it.“There’s something that I need to tell you…” Clementine took a deep breath. “I’m dating someone. His name is Louis. You've seen him a few times when he’s dropped by.”

AJ looked up from his plate.“The guy with that big spider hair?”

Clementine chuckled, “It’s called dreadlocks,”

She turned her attention away from her brother, glancing over at Lee who seemed deep in thought. Slowly he lifted up his coffee. “I’m glad for you. He seems like a good kid,”

Her nervous expression was changed to one of shock at his words. She reached over for her orange juice, taking a long sip from it. He lifted the cup to his mouth, muffling his words. “ I’m seeing someone too.”

Clementine choked on her orange juice, hitting her chest a few times before she could give a response. “What the hell, Lee! When were you going to tell me?”

“I could ask you the same thing.” He gave a stern look back, but his eyes seemed playful.

“Well, who is she?” Clementine asked, leaning forward in her chair.

“Her name is Carley Porter. She’s a news reporter who was doing a piece on the university and we sort of just hit it off.” A gentle smile appeared on his lips at the memory.

Wait, I’ve heard that name before…

She was the reporter on the news station that had covered the first two cases that Clementine and her friends had been involved in.

“Hit it off?’ AJ asked, confusion overtaking his features. The eggs on his fork slipped off and landed on his plate.

“It’s a phrase that means you immediately get along with them,” Clementine responded, looking towards her father for further clarity.

“Well, I guess it makes sense that we did get along so well,” Lee started. “She reports the news of today, I report the news of the past. It just works.”

Clementine’s head was still trying to process all that just happened when her phone suddenly buzzed. Looking down, she noticed it was two texts from Louis to different group chats.

“Is that him?” Lee asked with a teasing smile. Clementine felt her face slightly blush at the words.

“I’m done, I’ll see you later after classes.” She slipped out before either of them could reply. Her class didn’t start for a while so she had time to check what Louis had sent.

L: Hey there! So thanks to the brilliance of Aasim and myself we came up with the wise idea to start two Discord servers. One will be for persona topics only and the other will be just for the daily chats with all you lovely people that we all enjoy so much.

Below his text was the link to get access to the server. Clementine switched to the second text and realized the reason for two servers Prisha was added to this group text. A warm smile covered her face; she was glad that they had thought to add her. It meant that they could still include her without worrying about spilling their secret. Quickly making a Discord account, she paused. What should her username be?

A proud smile pulled on the corners of her lips as she entered the answer. After a few minutes the two servers were added and she entered the non-persona one, fittingly named Team Fun. Entering the basic channel, she saw that she wasn’t the first one to arrive.

Sing-us-a-song: Welcome to Team Fun!

Knife2meetU: Why is it called team fun?

Aasim: I couldn’t come up with anything better so Louis named it.

Bro: I like it.

OrangeuGlad: wait we should do introductions. This is Clementine.

Sing-us-a-song: That’s a good idea! This is Louis. Love the username Clem.

Knife2meetU: Violet

OrangeuGlad: Thanks

Aasim: I’ll add an introduction channel to be safe in case we forget. So be sure to add your info.

Sing-us-a-song: Who’s Bro?

Bro: It’s Brody. I tried to add my full name cause I couldn’t think of a username but I forgot the last two letters and by then it was too late.

Aasim: You can change it.

Sing-us-a-song: No don’t! Your username is good

OrangeuGlad: I need to go - have class.

Clementine closed the app on her phone. Her class was all the way across campus so she needed to leave now if she was going to be on time. Her classes were just the same old same old. A very long lecture filled with lots and lots of notes that she had to take, causing her hand to cramp up. As soon as she had a break she opened up the Discord again. Nothing much had been added since she left, just the others saying they needed to go too. It had only got interesting within the last half hour.

Sing-us-a-song: You ever just smell your finger and it stinks but you don’t know from what?

Knife2meetU: Louis Shut In class

Sing-us-a-song: well sorry that I had an important question to ask.

With that Clementine put away her phone. She was planning to meet with her professor soon. The rest of the day went by about as slowly as the first half. It seemed everyone was busy today so when her classes were done she went back home. Kicking off her shoes, she hopped up the stairs entering her bedroom and lying on the bed. Wonder if anything else was said in the chat.

It wasn’t much added to the chat, just a single message.

Prishafacie: Thank you for letting me join.

Clementine looked at the username. Prishafacie? Knowing Prisha, it was some smart play on words. Soon more messages appeared.

Bro: Prisha!! Glad you joined

Sing-us-a-song: it wouldn’t be the same without you.

OrangeuGlad: welcome to Team Fun

Sing-us-a-song: ^^^

Prishafacie: Thanks, everyone.

Knife2meetU: I hate everything.

Bro: bad day?

Sing-us-a-song: well fear not I have a solution.

Aasim: Oh no.

Sing-us-a-song: why don’t we all get together for Halloween and throw a party? We never celebrated all our work on the investigation.

Prishafacie: But our investigation was a bust.

Bro: doesn’t mean we can’t celebrate

Sing-us-a-song: hear hear

An image appeared on the chat that Louis shared. It was the Ericson University newspaper. The front page held the story of Professor Weathers’ arrest.

We were right on the money

Knife2meetU: where would we meet?

OrangeuGlad: I can check with Lee and see if he’d let us have it here.

Clementine ran down the stairs, searching around for Lee. Her eyes soon found him on the couch.

“Hey Lee, can I have a few friends over on Halloween after trick or treating with AJ?”

“Sure, that’s fine with me. Will your boyfriend be coming?”

She couldn’t see his face, but she knew he had a teasing smile on it.

“Yes.”

“Alright then,”

Clementine took out her phone again, heading back up to her room.

OrangeuGlad: He says it’s fine but we have to do it at 8 Promised AJ that we would go trick or treating first

Aasim: Works for me.

Knife2meetU: same here

Prishafacie: For me as well.

Bro: 8 works

Sing-us-a song: well then all we need to do is figure out the movie and we need to get some snacks and candy

Bro: I can get the snacks and candy

Aasim: Get candy corn.

Knife2meetU: don’t

Aasim: I want it.

Bro: I can get some for you Aasim

Sing-us-a-song: Now onto movies

Bro: can we watch It’s the great pumpkin, Charlie Brown?

Aasim: Thanks I’m fine with that choice.

Knife2meetU: what about a horror movie?

Sing-us-a-song: i don’t know

Prishafacie: I’m down for a horror movie.

OrangeuGlad: just bring both and we can decide when we’re together.

Sing-us-a-song: sounds like a plan.

Bro: Ok send me some different snacks you guys want.

Brody looked down at the different answers her friends had sent. There sure was a lot of variety here. She pushed open the door to the convenience store, her attention still on her phone.

“Hey, Brody.” She looked up to see Mitch, a friendly smile on his face.

“Hey, Mitch,” A warm smile overtook her face as soon as she saw him.

“What are you getting today?”

“Just some snacks and candy for the Halloween party that my friends and I are having.”

Mitch nodded. “Sounds fun.”

“You got any plans for Halloween?” Brody asked from one of the aisles, grabbing snacks from different shelves.

“Just some trick or treating with my brother.” Mitch replied. Brody leaned out from the aisle to look at him.

“You have a brother?”

“Yeah, his name’s Willy. He’s twelve so all he wants to do for Halloween is go trick or treating and pig out on candy.”

“Sounds like a good plan.” Brody walked forward, her arms filled with different snacks and candies.

Mitch started to process the different items, stopping when he got to the candy corn.“You like candy corn?” His nose scrunched up with a mixture of disgust and confusion.

“Nope, can’t stand the stuff. But my friend likes it.” Brody responded, grabbing out her wallet to get ready to pay.

“Neither can I. It’s just so fucking nasty. It really is the ass of Halloween candy.”

Brody laughed at Mitch’s words, which caused a smile to form on his face. After a few more items the order was processed, and with a few bills exchanged Brody lifted up the bag of snacks. “Enjoy your Halloween.” Mitch called out to her.

“Thanks! You too.”

Brody looked down at the assortment of treats she had gotten, an excited smile appearing on her face. She couldn’t wait for Halloween.

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Clementine shifted in her Halloween costume. She had promised to dress up with AJ which she was happy to do. It was just that the outfit was a bit itchy. She was going as Calypso Cauliflower to match her brother’s theme.

“Ta-da!” AJ jumped out of his bedroom, proudly displaying his outfit. He had decided to go as his favorite character of all time: Disco Broccoli. His eyes were covered with the signature purple sunglasses. His white disco outfit shone as a gold chain dangled on his neck. He really wanted to go all out this year so he had come up with the brilliant idea to dye his hair green. It was temporary dye, but there was still the chance that his hair would stay that color for a few days afterward. With the shape of his afro he really did look like Disco Broccoli.

“You look great, AJ!”

AJ struck a disco pose dramatically. “You ready?” he asked excitedly, swinging his candy container back and forth.

“I was born ready!” Clementine grabbed her brother’s hand and headed towards the door. She turned her head back around her shoulder. “We’re heading out!”

“Ok, have fun!” Lee’s voice rang out from his office.

With that the brother-sister team was off walking around their neighborhood. AJ’s eyes lit up every time they got to a new house.

“Come on, Clem!” He pulled on her arm, making his way towards the next door.

“Slow down, kiddo.” Clementine tried to keep up, smiling at the pure joy on her brother’s face. AJ reached forward, knocking on the door. He impatiently swayed back and forth as he waited for someone to answer the door. It only took a moment for a person to show up at the door.

“Well, hi there! What are you dressed up as?” a kind lady asked, reaching inside to grab the candy bowl she had prepared for the trick or treaters.

“I’m Disco Broccoli!” AJ declared proudly, displaying his best disco move. He quickly gestured over to Clementine. “Clem is Calypso Cauliflower.

“Silly me, I should’ve known,” the lady chuckled. “Take as much as you like.” She held out the candy bowl which AJ and Clementine took generous amounts from, thanking the lady before heading to the next house. After a couple more houses the duo realized that their time was up. Grabbing a hold of AJ’s hand, Clementine headed back to her house, excited for the Halloween party that was soon to come.

Luckily she had timed it out right and had left enough time for herself to change and make the living room look decent for her friends. Soon a knock on the door came.

“Coming!” Clementine shouted, running towards the front door and opening it.

Louis and Violet stood in the front of the group, the rest peeking out their heads from behind.

“We have arrived,” Louis exclaimed with his classic charming smile. “With us we carry the delicious treats for this spooky night!” The group slowly shuffled in. Clementine grabbed the bags from the group, making her way to get some bowls from the kitchen.

“Thanks, Brody.”

“No problem.” Brody made her way to the kitchen. “Do you need any help?”

“Yeah, actually. Can you help pop some popcorn? It should be up in the lower cabinet by the fridge.”

Brody nodded, quickly fulfilling her given task.

“So what movie are we watching?” Louis asked, sitting down on the couch.

“I brought Texas Chainsaw Massacre.” Violet replied, simply placing the DVD on the couch.

Louis looked warily at it. It was pretty clear horror wasn’t for him.

“My DVD is in my bag.” Brody called from the kitchen.

“We have time for both if you want?” Clementine offered to which the group agreed almost immediately.

“I think we should start with horror.” Violet added.

“Sounds good to me.” Prisha stood beside her.

“Okay, maybe it would be good to get it over with first.” Louis gave a sigh. He walked forward, grabbing the DVD and heading towards the TV. “Vi, help me set this up while Clem and Brody get the snacks ready.”

Violet followed her friend.

“I’m not sure I’ve properly introduced myself.” Aasim walked over to Prisha. “I’m Aasim,” He offered his hand which she accepted, giving it a firm shake.

“Prisha.”

“I saw on the intro channel that you’re a law major. That’s really interesting. What made you choose that career path?”

Prisha’s expression changed to an excited one as she answered his question.The two soon got wrapped up in their conversation, each of them interested in what the other had to say.

“Popcorn’s ready.” Brody placed two bowls in front of the group. Clementine was close behind, placing down the bowls of candy. A small bowl filled with candy corn was beside them.

“You got the movie set up?” Clementine asked as she watched her two friends work together.

“Yep, just about.” Louis replied, standing up and grabbing the remote control.

With a few clicks the movie began. Brody made her way over to one of the couches, joining Aasim who was already there with his candy corn. Clementine had settled down on the other couch which Louis soon joined, sitting beside her. Prisha sat on the other side of the couch while Violet sat next to her on the arm of the couch. The lights were off and the snacks were distributed. It only took a few moments to make it abundantly clear who enjoyed horror and who didn't. Brody tried to not get overwhelmed by the death scenes, averting her eyes when they happened. Aasim tried to help her by whispering different facts about the history behind the film which actually did help her calm down a bit.

On the other hand Violet seemed to enjoy the movie, tossing popcorn in her mouth casually when the massacre started. Prisha didn’t seem fazed by it either. Instead most of her focus seemed to be on Violet. Her hand slowly made its way over to Violet’s, brushing against it. Violet seemed shocked for a moment before accepting Prisha’s hand. She was glad that it was so dark in the room so the others couldn’t see the slight blush forming on her face.

Clementine also seemed to enjoy the film, but not because of the plot. Instead it was because of Louis. He really couldn’t handle horror so he ended up curling up in her arms. He would try to make some sort of funny commentary to cope with the scarier moments, giving quippy one-liners from the safety of Clementine’s arms. She felt his warmth against her. A warm fuzzy feeling enveloped her body as she looked down at her boyfriend. She didn’t mind this arrangement. In fact she hoped that the movie would somehow drag on so she could enjoy this moment.

Her eyes were suddenly drawn away from the screen however when she noticed Lee standing in the kitchen. He had a playful smile on his lips as he motioned towards Louis. Clementine’s arms were protectively around him as he continued to try and watch the movie. Lee raised a thumbs up to his daughter. Clementine felt her face grow hot while she tried to focus back on the film.

“That was awesome.” Violet commented, grabbing some more candy as the end credits rolled on the screen.

“Funny, you and I pronounce ‘terrifying’ differently.” Louis mumbled, freeing himself from Clementine’s arms to put in the second movie. Within a few minutes the title screen was on the TV.

Brody shifted on the couch, a child-like joy appearing in her eyes when the movie started. She must’ve seen this movie countless times with how frequently she said the lines word for word as the scenes happened. The group looked over at her with smiles on their faces, happy to see her having a good time. It wasn’t long before Brody’s line for line commentary stopped though, her shoulders slumping while her head fell back. The slow rising and falling of her chest indicated that she had fallen asleep. Aasim made sure not to move too much so he wouldn’t wake her up. After a while Lee made his way into the room.

“Hi there. I forgot to introduce myself. I’m Lee.”

The group looked over, quickly returning their introductions.

“It’s nice to meet some more of Clem’s friends. She always talks about you.”

Clementine awkwardly shifted from her spot in Louis’ arms.

“Look at you guys, six friends that make up three couples."

The mood instantly changed in the room. Louis and Clem looked at each other with awkward smiles on their faces. Meanwhile Prisha and Violet were both overwhelmed by Lee’s assumption, their faces both turned away to hide their blushes. Their hands were still intertwined. But the most shocking response was Aasim’s. He was in the middle of eating some candy corn when Lee suggested that he and Brody were a couple to which he inhaled the candy corn wrong, causing him to choke. Brody’s eyes fluttered open, widening when she saw her friend struggling to breathe. With a few strong whacks to the back Aasim coughed up the candy corn which went flying and landed by Lee’s feet.

“I’m sorry if I misspoke! Let me grab you some water.” Lee ran into the kitchen, pulling down one of the cups.

“That’s the price to pay for eating candy corn.” Louis shook his head in mock sadness.

Aasim glared over at him. “Don’t blame this on the candy corn.”

Lee soon returned and handed the glass of water to Aasim who accepted it gratefully. “Well, I better leave you kids to it.” Lee gave an apologetic smile before returning into his study.

The rest of the movie passed by in no time.

“I love that movie.” Brody stood up, stretching out her arms.

“It really is a classic.” Louis agreed.

The rest of the group slowly got up to their feet, each of them tired after the two movies but also sad that the party was over.

“Well, we should probably head out.” Louis took out his car keys. The four of them made their way to the front door.

“This was really fun,” Brody turned back to look at Clementine “I can’t wait for the next party.'

“I’m sure with our group it won’t be long until the next one.”

“Thanks for inviting me tonight.” Prisha looked up at the group. “It really means a lot."

The group all shared a warm smile.

“We really should go.” Aasim commented from the front door.

��Yeah, we have class tomorrow.” Brody added.

Violet let out a frustrated groan.

“Alright, alright.” Louis leaned forward, planting a gentle kiss on Clem’s cheek. “See you tomorrow.”

“See you tomorrow.” Clementine waved to her friends as they left, shutting the front door behind them. She walked up to her bedroom, falling backwards onto her bed. A huge grin overtook her face. To think that she would have this amazing of a group of friends, that she would have such a sweet boyfriend… she couldn’t believe it but she couldn’t be happier.

[lunawings]

King of Prism SSS Episode 12 commentary (FINAL!)

Crunchyroll was awesome this time! 

No significant complaints on the subs!

You guys were awesome this time! 

So many people stuck around for the late viewing in the stream and even after just to chat! 

Now on to the actual episode. 

Once again sorry this is so long. But with this being the last one, can you really blame me.....?

.....As much I love this episode, this scene was just so painful. Worse than Shine’s show. Worse than that whole last episode combined. 

A lot of my predictions about Part 4 were wrong (will discuss later) but I was absolutely sure of one thing. I knew no matter what happened in Part 4 just one thing was FOR CERTAIN. And that was... I was going to have to see Shin cry. This precious boy who deserves nothing but love is going to suffer. And I tried to prepare myself. I tried. 

But somehow. Even though I knew. EVEN THOUGH I KNEW... It was way worse than I could have ever imagined.

I always assumed he would cry because he found out about something terrible about the past. But instead HE NEVER KNOWS THE TRUTH and we get him sobbing over something entirely NOT HIS FAULT... in front of everyone.... HOW.... HOW COULD THEY.... DO THIS... TO.... HI...M................ 

This scene upsets me so much I don’t know if I have ever even seen the whole thing. I always end up turning away at some point, or just curling up into a ball.....

Did anyone else feel like they were watching a totally different anime for a few seconds here? I’m having trouble telling if the style actually changed or if I.... just am not used to seeing Shin make expressions like this............. ba.....by..............

Leo always cries when anyone else is crying.

Even though everyone claps for him at the theater at cheering shows, it doesn’t make me feel better. AT ALL. Because Shin never knows the truth. NONE OF THEM DO. Okay we’ll talk about this more later but just..... gah it hurts........................................ So much that it actually hindered my enjoyment of what amazing thing comes next......

Back in the first movie era, the idea of a full CGI show of the Edel Rose boys with Shin as center was something that I could not imagine coming true even in my wildest dreams. And I love this show. I just wish it wasn’t proceeded by so much suffering. 

Shin being their center was something they decided at the Christmas live (before performing Dramatic Love for the first time) BTW. While it seems obvious to us that Shin would be center, it wouldn’t necessarily be as such in-universe. They had to decide at some point! And I’m glad it was a part of that story. 

I LOVE THESE OUTFITS. 

THEYRE PERFECT. The rainbows, the stars, the colors. Everyone looks AMAZING. And I know the rainbows are probably an homage to Over the Rainbow... BUT..

its just so gay

Prism stone beam???

This is orange I guess? It looks more yellow to me. A lot of the hand colors are kinda vague and I’m just like... WHO DID YOU TOUCH 

For anyone who read my I THINK I MARRIED ALL THE EDEL ROSE BOYS. OR THEY MARRIED EACH OTHER. ANYWAY EVERYONE IS MARRIED NOW shitty out of context spoiler I wrote in a comment obviously it was this ahahaha

I really do love this show, and like with the new Shuffle’s show last week I’m so glad I can finally watch it without the.... suffering. 

The first time I saw this in theaters, this exact frame right here was when I first started feeling any semblance of better after all that had happened. He looks so confident and gallant and his eyes are shining and he just.... Shin............... I love you so much....................................................................

Also this is a good spot to talk about their feathers I guess. So these are different from the other (male?) wings Shine had. Why? What does that mean? 

*throws hands in the air*

So, some folks may not be aware of this but the feathers from Rainbow Live were a feature of the arcade game. 

You could unlock them by raising the PairTomos, and even the night dream feathers look like they were available at one time during an event it seems?? I am not entirely sure how it all worked since I never played the game back in the heyday. (You can no longer obtain all the feathers now even if you bring a memory card to a currently running Pretty Rhythm machine since some just aren’t available anymore.)

But anyway, the actual point I was trying to make is that the feathers had a set  structure within Rainbow Live since it was grounded by the arcade game. But in King of Prism...... that just kinda do what they want.... s....o.............

The first time I went to cheering for this it was the premiere date, and it was also the first time I ever did cheering the same day. In between the morning/midnight showing a whole bunch of people had the idea to go to the 100 yen shop and get glowstick rings just for this scene. I was like daaaamn. 

But then...

Our first official non-Crunchyroll translation of prism no kirameki? 

Even the Juuouin group worships “the prism”. 

And I can’t help laugh at the irony that Crunchyroll abandoned using “the prism” but also just ignored the translation ALREADY ON SCREEN

I can’t take his scream here. It’s just like.... HE WAS ALREADY DYING, WHY DID THEY HAVE TO SPEED UP THE PROCESS. 

LOUIS. 

LOUIS NOOOOOOOOO. 

Even as late as it is, I am really, really grateful how they took a few seconds to establish for the new audience exactly how much of their shows are powered by prism sparkle. 

Note that they did not change out of their costumes though. But my headcanon on this is that Leo just prefers to make the real thing because he can. 

Singing at cheering shows is also everything I have ever wanted. 

I feel bad though since I pretty much always get tongue tied here every time. It’s hard to just sing acapella to a song you’re not that familiar with. Especially with the sparkely lyrics appearing and disappearing like this. I actually don’t hear that many other people singing in the theater, perhaps for that reason? But I always try my best. 

And now that this is finally out, I can finally practice at home and nail this down with confidence just in time for...... SSS to leave theaters..... um............ ye....ah........

I also mess this up like every single time ahaha. It’s just slightly too fast for me to read. 

Someday I will succeed in properly marrying all of the Edel Rose boys. Someday. 

(Also I don’t think this was rainbow-colored in the theatrical version.)

So Edel Rose and all their fans just up and created a prism goddess so we don’t need the prism gods anymore. Can they do that? Can we do that? I guess we can! 

WE DID IT GUYS

It’s oddly fitting that Hijiri is kind of an ugly crier. I mean, he’s just so beautiful the rest of the time. It’s only right. 

So let’s unpack this for a sec. Unbeknownst to them, because the Edel Rose boys all married each other they put a new seal on Shine. But this seal is entirely dependent on their marriage their bond with each other. 

How literal is that I wonder?

Because like.... Edel Rose won’t last forever. Kakeru, Minato, and Yukinojo are gonna be going to college in a year and a half.... ahah ha.....

I just imagine like. A couple of them meeting on the street in the distant future being like “Oh man I haven’t seen you in forever!” “Yeah! We really lost touch! Hey, have you heard from Shin lately?” “No, you?” And behind them is like a TV report of Shin become Shine destroying a city or something. 

.....................Reminder again that this commentary is coming from the place where I am after having a couple months to let this all sink in and get to the point where I am comfortable joking about it.... ahah ha........ 

This is one of my coping mechanisms for dealing with the idea that my favorite character basically has the devil living inside of him trying to take over at any moment.....

Another one is thinking back to older King of Prism media and wondering what Shine was doing at that time. Like, I imagine him floating there inside Shin all bored and pissed off making sarcastic comments at whatever the Edel Rose boys are doing. And I find this hilarious for some reason. I’d make a webcomic about it if I could draw.

ANYWAY 

So my understanding of this scene (which may or may not be totally correct) is: The Edel Rose boys’ rings put a seal on Shine which drags him down back into the depths of where Rinne first plunged him. But before he goes, he installs(?) his powers into Shin so that Shin is free to use Shine’s powers on his own now. (Up until now he was just like borrowing them?) 

If you also briefly wondered how they could have gotten a perfect score after failing a jump, my guess is the Prism System just wasn’t recording at that time due to the lack of prism sparkle ahah ha. 

They absolutely mopped the floor with the new Shuffle, and it did not matter.

What makes this so nuts to me is that even before I saw Part 4, like way back after I first saw episode 5 I was already comparing Joji to a twisted Hiro. (Elaborated on this in my episode 5 post.) And then this aha. 

So in the theatrical version I swear the crowd here has light blue lights. And I wondered if it was on purpose to be like inverted Hiro (who goes from light blue -> yellow in the Prism King Cup, so Joji went yellow -> light blue?) but nope, I guess somebody just forgot Joji’s theme color is yellow ahaha. In the TV version they just made it multi-colored. 

So to add more context to some things, you may remember I mentioned before that Part 4 premiered in Japanese theaters in the gap between when Taiga and Kakeru’s episodes aired on TV. So by the time Joji’s episode aired on TV... I already knew this was gonna happen. I already knew we were watching the number one prism show. THE CHAMP. The only 2D prism show.... SO MUCH IRONY. 

But you know what. Despite his show being what it was..... After all the time to let it sink in.. After all the dust has settled.... the one solo song which is my clear favorite..... The only one which has gotten stuck in my head WAY MORE than ANY other.... is Joji’s. 

(Well, Ace’s. But still.)

So. 

Congrats Prism Champ. 

Never thought I’d say this but poor Jin. Even when he ACTUALLY TRIES to do something fair for once...... still......

(Goddammit Shine.)

Poor Joji? Or not. It’s hard to feel bad for him when he’s THE PRISM CHAMP ahaha. Like. He made it. He has everything he ever strived to obtain. On the surface anyway. 

How Nori-kun feels about this though, who knows. Will we ever?

DOES IT REALLY NOT? Haha I really don’t understand this at all. Like. Was it really political pressure? Did Jin fold since he didn’t win in the way that he wanted to? Did Kakeru pull some strings behind the scenes again?

*throws hands in the air*

AND THIS

It’s framed to be this super significant scene but

WHAT DOES IT MEANNNNNNNN

I have already touched on this in separate posts, and this post is so long already that I’m going to kind of leave it hanging here but I consider Kakeru’s plot in SSS to be a loose end. He was the only boy who did not have a plot with some kind of resolution about himself. Instead Kakeru’s plot was only about other people.....

FINALLY, the ultimate conclusion to the infamous curry plot of Pride the Hero.

AND FINALLY

YOU

GUYS 

I WAS SO MAD 

The official King of Prism Twitter and such were actually pretty good at hiding Dorachi before Alexander’s episode aired. But Torachi was just EVERYWHERE and I was like COME... ON. REALLY.

So you may have noticed this but he was added to the opening too. For us seeing SSS in the theaters, we only get one OP per showing. So this means Japan actually got this spoiled before episode 10. 

But I didn’t. I didn’t even notice because I just wasn’t thinking to look for it. (Also I guess sitting in a terrible seat to the far right twisting my neck at an angle may have had something to do with it but.) When I first saw the reveal of Torachi in episode 12 it was TOTAL SURPRISE for me......

But as much as I love Taiga though, Dorachi is my clear favorite. My Dorachi merch collection will start as soon as I can get my hands on ANYTHING

Also I wonder at what point Alexander figured out that DJ COO was Rei, because he sure knows now ahah. 

But anyway, speaking of spoilers....

I know I said at one point Nikkanen and the twins didn’t have any significant appearances in SSS, but that was before Part 4 and I just decided not to correct that and let you guys be surprised AHAHAH you’ll just have to hate me *BLASTS OFF INTO THE SUNSET*

(I’m so glad they seem to have cleaned up Nikkanen’s face a little. He looked so weird in the theater. Or like.... weirder at least.)

(If you don’t know these boys they are already established characters introduced on the Prism Rush mobile game.)

And what do THESE feathers mean..... 

LOUIS ISN’T DYING ANYMORE DONT CARE *NYOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMM* 

By the way I can’t believe the prism sparkle disappearing and Louis becoming the protector of the world WAS FORESHADOWED IN ROAD TO SSS 9. That’s why I reblogged this post the other day.

It’s so funny how much of Road to SSS didn’t matter. Then you get to event 9 and LITERALLY EVERYTHING MATTERS. 

And again.... speaking of spoilers............

The week before Yu’s episode aired I AGONIZED about whether to put in some kind of vague hint that the Edel Rose boys new unit name was revealed in that episode (as part of Yu’s prism jump). Ultimately I decided not to. Because even though I didn’t figure it out at the time, I think with even a vague hint I probably would have. Because even when I saw it back then I was like.... “...... huh........” 

So you’re just gonna hafta haaaaaaaaate ahahaahah ha sorry

But anyway! Now I can finally stop referring to our seven stars as the “Edel Rose boys” and from now on call them SeptEntrion! Since calling them just the “Edel Rose boys” isn’t really accurate anymore since it would also include the twins and Nikkanen, etc. I’m happy that the main seven finally have a good name to distinguish them. 

(Now I need to learn to remember how to spell SeptEntrion....) 

Also

You guys in the livestream ruined this for me so I’m ruining it for everyone too.

Look at the red letters. 

Then flip over your desk and storm out of the room like I almost did when I noticed. 

WHY

THERE IS NO WAY THAT IS NOT ON PURPOSE

WHY 

So, a few weeks ago I was in Tokyo and I decided to stop by the Yotsuya station area.

I found the site of the supposed Yotsuya Credit union  (which is actually a lottery ticket stand) and the KPO KFC almost immediately. 

I also found out there is a Catholic university in the area, and although it doesn’t look anything like Edel Rose that seems like not a coincidence. 

So I started to walk around that area, but try as I might I could not find any little  shopping streets like the one in the anime. The area didn’t look like it would have that sort of place at all. Also it was POURING RAIN, I was just at Aqours 5th live the previous day, I had at least 6 hours to get home, and I was anxious to make it there with plenty of time for the stream of Alexander’s episode which we were doing that night. I decided to give up and head to the KFC to console myself over chicken, coleslaw, and biscuits before beginning the journey home when LOW AND BEHOLD 

RIGHT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE KFC

WAS THIS 

IT DOES EXIST 

And there is not nearly enough room for SeptEntrion to perform here ahaha. 

I can’t help but notice that while they used Prism One performance snapshots for all the other boys, Shin is in his old Over the Sunshine outfit. Well I mean. OF COURSE HE IS. But.....

But I really can’t help but wonder what the boys are thinking nowadays in retrospect about what happened. 

I mean, not that they shouldn’t love and trust Shin. Of course they should. 

But if my friend turned to pure evil for a solid 15 minutes I would be.... CONCERNED for him? ?? To say the least. 

The fact that THEY DONT KNOW AND MAY NEVER KNOW really just eats at me

I suppose Louis or June could tell them. But I don’t think Louis ever will since he just wants to protect Shin, and June..... where would she even start. 

Not to mention what does Yamada-san think about how Shin just BECAME Wataru Hibiki like I.... I just have several questions but......

The cheering audience for the half second we can see Torachi here: “..............................................................AHHHHH!..................................................”

I wondered for weeks what the TV ED would be for this episode, and as soon as Boy Meets Girl started playing I was like...... OF. COURSE.

Hahah I’m glad though. So far the only SeptEntrion version Boy Meets Girl we’ve had was live (at MRS) and I often thought of ripping the audio from the DVD just to have it, but now I won’t have to. The TV audience never got to hear the theatrical ending 366 Love Diary though, which is kind of a shame. That song is such a big part of SSS to me.

So when we do the livestreams, I often have the live episode playing on my actual TV with the sound off. The stream is delayed by a few minutes so it’s been great for cues to help prepare stuff to type into the chat about things coming up.

While you guys were still in the meat of this episode, I casually glanced over my shoulder and saw THIS on my TV

Shin in the outfit Leo originally made him for the Prism One.

And just started having a seizure that lasted until the credits ended BECAUSE THEN THIS. THIS RIGHT HERE.

Playing to the left is the theatrical weekly video we got in the third week of Part 4. 

(It has actual dialogue in the theaters, but here they just muted it and laid it over the credits. I went to the theater yesterday JUST to take notes on this for you guys ahaha. Glad I didn’t need to though.)

But like. When I first saw this in the theaters... 

I was so SO sure this was a joke. I mean Prism 2!?! Seriously!? 

But now I don’t know WHAT to think. 

ESPECIALLY ABOUT THIS

But um. Someone tell me the anime references I’m missing here:

And which of these are newly revealed YMT29 boys ahah:

And..... that’s it....

This is Louis’ coded way of telling Shin he’ll love him forever I guess. 

Aw man

you guys

we made it

ROUND OF APPLAUSE 

Ahhhhhhhhhh

ITS BEEN A JOURNEY

So Part 4 turned out way differently than I predicted. When the episodes were first announced and episode 12 was “Unknown”, my immediate thought was “it’s gonna be Shine.” Especially since the quote for Shin’s episode was something like “what have I done,” I assumed he would gain some memories of the past in episode 11 and was talking about something he/Shine did in the past. Then I thought Shine would perform in episode 12 and cause a bad end. Even though we knew Edel Rose was scheduled for a unit performance, I was skeptical if it would actually happen or not as I doubted Shin would be in any condition to perform in episode 12. (I also wondered if maybe we already HAD already seen their unit show in the OP and thus wouldn’t be getting a new song.) 

But when the CDs were announced and I saw the last one said “unit song” I was like.... ohhh.... I guess they will perform as a unit after all? That’s good? 

Turns out I was right at least in predicting that Shine would get a show, but not that he would STEAL SHIN’S SHOW, and that Shin’s “what have I done” quote was about THE PRESENT DAY and something that Shin DID NOT DO. AHHH THE PAIN. 

Although it really cuts me deep that Shin never learns the truth, I am grateful we got that unit show and a happy ending. 

But.... 

OR IS IT? 

says a voice in my head.

Shine’s coming back someday. And we can’t kill him without blanking Shin. Hghkhgkdhlkdh.

If I didn’t know any better I’d say the grand endgame climax of King of Prism would be SeptEntrion teaching Shine to love. But we already know from director spoilers that supposedly the grand climax is about saving Jin. I have a sinking suspicion Shine and Jin may be connected in some way though. 

Who fucking knows where we’re going from now. 

Other than WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON with Jin, another one of my big questions is does the Prism King Cup even matter anymore? Since the Prism One was supposed to replace it, but that didn’t go so well. HAHAH are we REALLY doing the Prism Two come on now..........

But anyway. I suppose there is no point in drawing this out it any further

for now

this is THE END

Thank you all SO MUCH for coming on this journey with me

It’s been such a joy sharing all this with you

And I hope to see you around

SHINY SEVEN STARS FOREVER

EDEL ROSE SPARKING

[old1ddude]

The Phil Lester (Dan and Phil) tweet about Kiwi has me feeling all kinds of feels about that song again. I know you love looking at and thinking about lyrics, and now that we've had some space from Harry singing it live every night, I'm curious about your take!

Oh anon!  This is a subject dear to my heart.  I’m afraid you’ve provoked my propensity to pontificate!  Last weekend, I wrote a short post about the striking similarities in theme between Niall’s ‘On the Loose’ and ‘Kiwi.’  (I had heard them back to back on my shuffle.) (I know you’re supposed to put quotes around titles, but it’s too awkward to type them all the time.  I’m going back to quote-less titles now.)   

Kiwi and Cowell

Harry writes lyrics in a very particular way.  The vast majority of songwriters and poets use imagery, but Harry takes it to another level.  He uses fewer words than most and it’s been said that he paints pictures with his music.  Looking at it this way, I think his lyrics sketch the outlines shapes and structure while his music paints in colors, light/shadow, emotion.  His language is often vague and very open to interpretation.  Only in understanding the pictures he paints, can we attempt to understand his true meaning.

I believe interpreting music is best done backwards.  It’s easy to pick lyrics apart and make them say virtually anything.  Becoming very familiar with the whole song allows one to then break down the “pictures” it has painted.  Once you know you’re looking at a elephant, it’s much easier to explain how all the parts work together!  A picture is worth 1,000 words, but I’ll try to be as brief as is practical.

A few of my favorite images from Harry’s songwriting:  “Fridge light washes this room white.  Moon dances over your good side.”  “Even the phone misses your call, by the way.”  “Running through the garden, oh when nothing bothered us.”  “Welcome to the final show, hope you’re wearing your best clothes.”

I think it’s helpful to go back to the X-Factor days to understand Kiwi.  “The boys” (the 1D boys) wanted to make it in music.  Once they had a taste of performing they lusted after it, it consumed them.  I was a once a boy in my late teens.  Sexual thoughts and desire were omnipresent - they were an obsession.  Harry is painting a picture of what it was like to be seduced by the lure of fame.  It was every bit as powerful as the sexual desire of a teen boy with raging hormones.  (That’s why the sexual images are necessary - they give Kiwi it’s power.)  The seductress is attractive, she appeals to the eyes and libido - the desire of teen boys to smoke, drink, party.  (Also, important elements of the pop star lifestyle.)  She mixes a “bit of intellect” into her honey trap.  She seems to be the whole package.  It was getting crazy.  The boys were getting into it, they were losing it - surrendering to their lust and desire.  

Then the foreshadowing begins:  “Oh, I think she said, “I’m having your baby (hey), it’s none of your business.”  Notice it’s “I THINK she said.”  The boys are intoxicated with lust - they’re becoming aroused.  Harry thinks she said, but he isn’t listening closely enough.  Pregnancy doesn’t reveal itself right away - the results of giving into temptation take time to materialize.  He’s far too intoxicated by his lust for fame to worry about the consequences.  The intellect is a distant memory now - it’s only raw lust and desire.  

After this first foreshadow, Harry gives us a glimpse behind the curtain.  He shows who the seductress really is - who she turned out to be.  “It’s New York, baby, always jacked up, (hey) Holland Tunnel for a nose, it’s always backed up.”  (I didn’t really need to quote that line, but honestly, has there ever been a better image in music?  No, there has not!)  She’s a massive coke head, a lonely fraud and a fake.  Her promises are as empty and cold as her barren home, with only a cactus for comfort.  (How often does fame end up in drug addiction, etc.?  Way too often.)  Even so, Harry brings us back to the prophesy.  He’s still losing it,  even though he again thinks she might be having his baby and taking it away from him.

Now we’re back in the bar where it all began.  The seductress has increased her intensity.  She’s all over him to the point that he’s spilling his drink all over his shoes.  He can’t believe she’s into him this much - as if he paid her attention.  Even within the fog of lust, he has that tingle of warning - his brain is giving self-preservation one, last ditch effort.  “I’m gonna pay for this.”

Even knowing he’ll pay for it, Harry consummates the relationship.  He does not wear a condom, but willingly gives her his seed.  All while the foreshadow of, “Oh, I think she said, “I’m having your baby (hey), it’s none of your business.” plays in his mind.  (A distribution deal is like a condom.  It gives an artist some measure of control over what becomes of their “seed” - their creative output.)

I don’t think the seductress represents Jungleworms.  For one thing, Louis would never, in a million years, fall prey to her wiles.  She’s a pawn, not a mastermind.  I very strongly believe she represents a combination of “lady fame” and Simon Cowell.  Simon is the one who seduced the boys and convinced them to sell their souls (and give up any meaningful control) to get the fame they wanted.  Simon finds his nourishment in the souls of “his” artists.  I believe the foreshadowed baby has dual meaning.  It’s not so subtle shade on baby-gate and it represents the boys’ having their creative output and their images under the oppressive thumb of Simon and the music business.  “It’s none of your business” which singles I choose, what your public image is, etc., etc..  Also, I’m pretty sure Cowell is a coke head, so…

I’m going to add a quick edit here, since I forgot about the title!

A kiwi isn’t only a fruit, it’s also a flightless bird.  I can’t help but be reminded of SoTT - “Why are we always stuck and running from Your bullets, the bullets.”  The kiwi can’t fly away, can’t soar to safety, but is stuck running from it’s enemies on the ground.  The image is a small flightless bird, helpless when it’s seductress reveals her true, malevolent nature.  

[wintersxsoul]

They can't take that away from me

Summary: You and Bucky are friends and deeply in love, but none of them dares to take the step and confess it. But that changes when Bucky suffers a nightmare one night.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes X Reader

Word Count: 1392

Warnings: Swearing??? Idk nothing weird. And of course my bad writing ups.

A/N:  I had this idea while I listened to "They can't take that away from me" by Louis Armstrong and Ella Fitzgerald. And the song they talk about is  "Ain't no sunshine when she's gone" by Bill Withers. I hope you like it! 

It was around 4 am, I couldn’t hear a single noise in the whole tower, only my feet carrying my sleep-deprived body to the kitchen to make some coffee. I had a crazy sleeping schedule, I’m not sure if sleeping three or four hours a day should be called schedule, honestly. I’m a huge fan of naps, what can I say? So yeah, I was preparing coffee because I was reading a really boring book, but I detest not ending a book/movie/tv show, so I had no option, I needed the boost. I love being a crackhead. The book was about two idiots in love having the best time of their life but then one of them dies, tragic . It was full of clichés and sentiment, and I basically live for that kind of shit, but it was too cheesy even for me. I will never understand why I love romantic stuff so much, it’s like a huge contrast because, well, I am an ex-HYDRA trained assassin. Makes no sense at all. Once I filled a cup of coffee, I dragged myself to my room, as silent as a ghost.

Luckily I was on vacation and didn’t have to get up early to train, because Steve would have kicked my ass for sleeping less than two hours, I must add that it has happened before. I really love training with my favourite blondie, but he hated when I didn’t sleep because I was more grumpy than usual.

I was approaching my room when I heard a loud noise coming from Bucky’s room, so I stormed in, ready to attack, coffee spilling all over the floor. The only light the room offered was the pale moonlight coming from the windows, and after scanning every corner of the room, my eyes landed on Bucky’s sleeping figure. His whole body was tense, fists clenched and his jaw was tighten but his mouth was slightly open letting out sharp breaths. I slowly approached the bed to wake him up, humming a song I knew it was his favorite one. I hated when Bucky had nightmares, my poor child, he had them too often, and because I usually am the only one awake, I helped him. According to Nat, and I quote, “you’re just so in love with each other that breathing the same air calms you both” and of course my answer was always denying those feelings, because it made no sense, right?

Steve usually stayed with him when he had breakdowns during the day and Wanda helped to ease his mind. Bucky was a bit reluctant at first because it was mind control, but once he trusted Wanda, he let her in, but only if I was around. I gently placed my hand in his flesh shoulder, still humming but a little louder. He started blurting out russian words I couldn’t understand and his body started to tremble. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shitty. Shit.

“Buck” I shook his shoulder, whispering his name. Nothing. I tried three more times and it only made it worse.

“James!” I shouted while I shook his shoulders harshly, trying to wake him up. “James open your eyes, you’re having a nightmare.” Nothing .

What came after, was the best and worst idea I ever had. I hopped on the bed and straddled him, I took a deep breath and shook my head knowing this would end bad.

“I’m so sorry, Buck.” I whispered right before I crossed his face as hard as I could with the palm of my right hand and his eyes immediately opened, emotionless. Fuck . His left hand landed on my neck, I gasped.

“Bu-Bucky. It’s me. Please...wake...up, it’s me.” I said, almost breathless. I was about to faint when he let go of my neck and sat down abruptly.

“Oh my God, I’m sorry.” He cupped my face gently, afraid. He looked like he had been shot. The moonlight showed his features and he looked...beautiful. I really need oxygen, I’m pretty sure my brain is shutting down at this exact moment. “Y/n, speak to me.”  

“I’m sorry I hit you. The usual wasn’t working. It’s fine, I’m fine.” He was looking at me with glossy eyes, like he was about to cry. He dropped his head, avoiding eye contact.

“Buck, look at me.” I cupped his face and made him look at me. “I am alright. You were having a nightmare and I hit you, it’s fine.” I smiled at him, but I couldn’t stop the tears that were rolling down my cheeks. Bucky wiped them off with his thumbs. Deadly assassin my ass. I could see that his mind was still in the nightmare. Before I could open my mouth to ask him, he started speaking.

“They-they had you. They wanted to kill you because I was refusing to comply. And they tried to wipe you off my mind.” He sniffled. I looked at him, trying to read his ocean eyes. He was looking at me with tenderness and admiration and lo... NO .

“James, I’m here. Nothing happened to me.” I tucked a piece of hair out of his face, brushing my thumb slowly and cupping his cheek. He leaned to the touch. My little softie. At that precise moment, Nat’s words echoed in my mind. Was I really in love with him? With my thoughts spinning through my head, my heart started beating faster. Oh shit. I do love him. Fuck.

I realized I was still straddling him, so I slowly moved to sit down next to him. I leaned my head on his metal shoulder, not caring at all, and started humming his song again. After a few minutes, he sighed.

“I would prefer to be killed rather than forgetting you.” I was speechless. “I would die if that meant remembering your smile, your voice, the way you cup your cup of coffee every morning like it’s your most precious treasure, the little frown that appears when you are concentrated and every little thing I know about you.” I couldn't speak, I had a lump in my throat and tears filling my eyes. He took my hand and tangled his metal fingers with mine. “I would gladly die if that meant remembering the love I feel for you, Y/n.”

At that moment, I forgot all the languages I spoke, I think I even forgot how to breathe. I felt my whole body shivering and I heard myself sobbing. Bucky looked at me, frowning, afraid he said something he shouldn’t have said.

“Y/n, sorry I just...I just…” He was cut by my laughter. I felt like I was in a damn rollercoaster. I was fucking laughing and sobbing at the same time. What the hell?

“Fucking Natasha.” I muttered. Bucky was blinking, trying to understand what was going on.

“She knew all along and we were so blind.” I looked at him while I cupped his face, and leaned in. His lips were soft against mine, like a caress. He placed his hand at the back of my neck and pulled me closer to him. The kiss was filled of love and affection, nothing sexual. I broke the kiss to breathe and to look at him again. He was a real vision. I couldn’t believe how I’ve been lying to myself.  I started laughing again, the weight on my chest lifting. Bucky smiled at me, but I could see he was confused.

“I can’t believe how in love I am. Aren’t we stupid, Barnes?” He looked at me, startled. Well bitch, it’s your time to be speechless.

I started singing the song, more like  whispering.

“I know this is your favorite song, but what you don’t know is that I always sing it or hum it to you because I think of you. There’s no sunshine when you’re not around, no warmth and time is painfully slow.” His eyes widen, full of love and joy.

He kisses me again, slow and sweet, stroking the hair at the back of my head. I felt like I was melting under his arms. He broke the kiss this time, he lay down pulling me with him and hugged me.

“I love you, Y/n.” He said, kissing the top of my head. I giggled.

“And I love you too, my little softie.”

[bluewinnerangel]

Omg yes thank you yes hnng imma add what my last braincell is spluttering out

It's been 2 years since louis followed harry! (On the 10 yr anniversary)

It's been 1 year since nothing happened on the 11 year anniversary!!

We thought for a bit it was 369 days since louis left syco because we forgot about a wholeass year, so today it's been ONE YEAR AND 369 days since louis left syco absolutely useless but I guess let's clown anyway

Liam gallagher was tweeting directed at louis in the night in Australia while louis is also in Australia, I'd like to think (I'd love it for louis if) they're hanging out, right after responding to a tweet about harry

Louis was pointing at multiple 1d signs and flags during his show

He also gave a happy middlefinger / pointed at / made crazy eyes with a fan dressed in bluegreen

Harry waved @curlyhairedprince s flag at his show!!! But then he quickly bundled it up and I think he might have been afraid of the text on it? it just said love on tour! But he didn't try to check what he just bundled it just pompommed it instead of waving a flag I'm just thinking maybe he was experiencing AIMH flag warflashbacks djfhsjs

He called the crowd "perfect"

He also started the "this is a family show" but didn't say orrrrr issss itttttt he just kinda had a moment considering that maybe it might be dhdhs

I think the crowd doing the lights up and down thing during lights up was spontaneous??? It was glorious tho. Also all the light projects that were planned. Youre amazing.

Harry talked to someones pregnant aunt (and also fan) via FaceTime on stage and showed the belly on the big screen with a big happy fetus harryesque face behind it hehe. He also talked to a fan about her grandma that didn't know where she was on vacation so he turned it into the grandma being lost. He also talked to a dad he was happy about dad

He looked at a sign for a long time and then just ignored it without a reaction

There was also a sign that said rock paper scissors if you lose you have to sing falling and then he pretended he was gonna do rock paper scissors but walked away before he picked one and didn't acknowledge it again lil shit

Harry picked up a piece of paper and a shirt not showing either to the crowd until later. The shirt was the 1d one (WHICH WE KNEW IT WAS GONNA BE AS SOKN AS WE SAW A WHITE SHIRT DHDSH) that was PERSONALISED amazing love, and rhe piece of paper was "we want medicine PLEASE" and as medicine started he showed the paper and said IT WAS THE PLEASE IT WAS THE PLEASE

MEDICINE!!!

He put on sunglasses and a boa at the same time and it was fabulous

I nearly peed my pants during kiwi

Harry's outro song was pillow person - bleu

I will make a playlist with his preshow stuff but the only one I didn't know had been played previously was Ohio players - love rollercoaster but it probably has SHEEPLE PLS DOCUMENT THESE SONGS WAKE UP🔪

Louis' outro song was A Thousand Years, which has been on his potential exit songs playlist since may, and we had a moment watching ancient 1d/larry edits with this song overlayed

DJ Elf posted a pic where you can vaguely make out the songs of the outro playlist but because we got to see his playlist for a lil bit we now know a bunch of songs have been taken out between like 6 weeks ago and now.

Louis' wore the black and white checkered🏁(stop) 28 programme top 7 days (stop it) after harry wore the black and white checkered pants paired with a kiwi top

I am fried

here's a recap of the last... let's say 30 hours:

hslot cologne with h talking to fan who just had a breakup + holding up 1D tshirt like it's a pride flag

1d anniversary commences

it becomes known louis does not follow el anymore and does not like any of her posts either

he goes on stage wearing black/white/yellow checkered top (themes. multiple themes.)

photos come online of him meeting bentley, the kid with whom he facetimed during lockdown and who then also met freddie - WEARING A CHECKERED 28 PROGRAMME TOP

the x factor posts never-seen-before content of how nicole and louis slayed the selection process and came out with the most perfect boyband the world has ever seen. harry and louis as gaspingly cute together there is no way louis isn't in there they look too good coupled up like that

el posts a story where she's next door to harry's house (chronology of this one is wonky for me sorry)

for the wonderfully overwhelmed @bluewinnerangel kiss on the head goodnight it has been an insane time

[justnarry]

Always the Best Friend

Chapter 4: Take Out

"I want, I want, I want, to be loved by you"

I want was the last song on their setlist. When they finished you see the boys run off stage towards you. Harry grabs your arm and you run with them towards the exit and into their tour bus. Thank God you never wore heels.

Their adrenaline rush hasn't worn off yet and all five of them were bouncing all over the place, raving about how great the show was. You can't help but join in and point out specific times you thought were an absolute laugh.

"Haz, that must have been the 100th time you've fallen on stage." you say and the boys laugh

"Really hope someone's got it on camera, that'll be all over twitter tomorrow!" Liam adds.

"Oh sod off will you?" Harry directs this at Liam

"Think was funny, eh?" Harry says laughing while grabbing you into a tight embrace and tickling your sides

Liam and Zayn exchange funny looks, while Louis looks nervously at Niall who at that moment chose to pretend to be interested in something outside the tour bus window.

You manage to free yourself from Harry and sit yourself between him and Niall. You notice Niall has been uncharacteristically quiet so you decide to break the ice by saying, "Hey who's up for take out? Can't deprive our little leprechaun here, can we? Been almost 2 hours since he's last eaten!"

The boys agree and you manage to get a smile out of Niall. You decide to take that as an opportunity and give him a little cuddle in the hopes that that might cheer him up. He lets out his signature laugh, and you're happy that that did the trick. You hated it when any of your boys felt down.

You and the boys decide to get McDonald's drive thru. While you were waiting for your turn to order, you notice Harry's phone was blowing up with message alerts. "Whoa, someone's determined to get a hold of you." you say.

"Uhh, it's nothing." Harry replies.

"Nothing?! You and her have been texting nonstop for weeks now!" Louis says in an offended tone.

"Yeah bro. I hear you late at night in your bunk snickering too. Some of us want to sleep you know." Zayn adds laughing.

It's the first time you've heard of this, and you can't deny it stings a bit. Harry has always been a big flirt ever since you knew him, but he was never one to follow it up with long exchanges of text messages. As far as you knew, the only girls Harry's kept in constant contact with was always just you, Anne and Gemma. But it seems like that's changed, and 'for weeks now' according to Louis.

"Y/N?" Harry asks in a concerned tone. You must have been quiet longer than you thought, so you scramble to save face and say, "So who's the unlucky girl?" in tone much too cheerful than you intended.

"She wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts, She's cheer captain..." Liam started to sing.

And all you could say was, "No way..." as your heart sank for the second time tonight.

Felt like everyone was struggling to find the right words to say, and there was an awkward silence that made your cheeks burn with embarrassment. You must have looked so silly fooling around with Harry tonight, laughing as he tickled you and genuinely being happy because you missed him so much and you were finally together. "What an idiot" you say to yourself

Still the silence droned on until "So Y/N, it's a large coke, large french fries and a cheeseburger for you right?" Niall asks.

And you could not have been more thankful for your Irish best friend than at that moment, you flash a grateful smile at Niall "You forgot something else, Horan. Im offended" you joke.

"Hold the pickle on that burger" Niall winks and you laugh. It was no surprise Niall's got your order memorized by heart, what with all the late night take out you two get. You go over to Niall and the window where the cashier was handing out your order, partly because you remembered you haven't eaten anything since breakfast and was starving but mostly because you just couldn't stand Harry staring at you since the conversation about his new fling started anymore.

Niall hands you your take out and hands the rest of the boys' theirs.

For the rest of the drive it felt Niall was determined to distract you with hilarious stories from the time you spent apart while Louis, Liam and Zayn kept badgering Harry for details on how he and Taylor were doing.

When the tour bus came to a stop at your hotel, you and Niall were the last ones to alight but before you do,

"Ni, thank you..."

You didn't have to say what for, Niall just replies with a smile

"I got you, love."

He says back looking into your eyes with those deep blues of his, and you smile back. Your heart feeling a little less heavy than it was just a few moments ago.

Check out the next chapters here :)

[khiphop-discussions]

Geeks - Fireworks review

My review for Geeks’ 2nd full length album!

20 Questions - The instrumental on this one INSTANTLY made me dance. It’s so nice and fun but chill too. The chorus is so catchy. I can’t even really live review this one because I’m too busy dancing to type. LOL.  Louie and Lil Boi’s raps are on point as usual. It’s a nice song

Woo - I already heard this song and posted it here earlier today just putting that out there so you know this one isn’t live reviewed. This one is nice as well. Not as danceable but just a chill song. I’m guessing this is just gonna be an overall laid back album based on the first two songs. If you know me then you know that already gives this album an unfair advantage over others I reviewed. The chill vibe is one of my favorite styles. This is a nice song too. I like “20 Questions” more still though. 

Troubles Travels - This song is bit harder than the other two. Still keeps the laid back style though of course. This is rare but I like Louie’s rap better on this song. I see you Louie! The featuring artist (the singer) is Taylor. I’m not familiar with this singer but he fits well on this track. doesn’t “take up too much space” and make it sound like his song. He does his job well as a featuring artist and Geeks don’t let him outshine them on their own track (cause that’s embarrassing but happens a lot unfortunately).

#midnightdream #summer #rsh - Not quite sure what this is supposed to be. Maybe it’s an interlude type thing or something? It could have been done better. I don’t know if this is a sampled from SK or what. I’ve never heard it. It doesn’t connect the first part of the album to “Divin’” and the next part of the album all that well. Not sound wise at least. It doesn’t have Geeks on it. Just a guy singing. It could have been worse though. No harm no foul I guess.

Divin’ - You guys know this is my jam! I’ve heard this MULTIPLE times as you guys probably have too. It’s a great song. So again, DEFINITELY not live reviewed. I’ve heard it way to many times to even pretend like this is anything close to a first hearing. 

247365 ft Sik-K - *paused the song so I can give a preface* So first, I wanna talk about how Sik-K is in this song. Sik-K does a style similar to this album now so I think he’s gonna be a good addition to this. *unpaused* Lil Boi is going in! This is gonna be another song where I can’t stop dancing so excuse me if this is a bit short. OK so Sik-K’s part fit perfectly on this track! At one point I kinda thought he was gonna end up taking it over because he was really good. I thought he’d end up outclassing Louie but then Louie came in and killed it. (Why do I keep doubting my boy Louie? Please forgive me!). Sik-K doesn’t even sound like a featuring artist on this song. Usually that would be a sign that the main artists are getting outclassed and I’d call that a negative. On this track, it sounds as if Geeks is a trio. Geeks are really killing it. I honestly, did NOT expect to like this album that much. I’m NOT the biggest Geeks fan but by the end of this album I might be.

Good Girl ft Duplex G, Hyorin - Give me a break. Geeks pulling no punches on this album. Came through with a Hyorin feature too!?!? And you guessed it, this song is great too. Geeks is standing their own with some pretty strong artists on this album. Duplex G doesn’t really do much but say one line. “I wanna get it” basically. Doesn’t add that much to the song but it’s not bad.

Analog ft Cheska - *preface* Alright I’m a little  familiar with Cheska’s work. I expect her to be good on this track *unpaused* This album is so damn sexual. He’s a Big Boi now. They aren’t such Geeks anymore. The glow up is real (alright I’m done lol). I really like this song. It’s an R&B-ish track. 

F.U.L.U - Lil Boi is so on point. I don’t know why I’m so surprised because he’s always been dope. Not my favorite song but ,as usual, not bad. It’s a pretty nice song and would I would probably like it more if it hadn’t been among so many other good songs.

#LoveYou #fall #rsh - OK so this one is another interlude with the same guy singing as the #summer one. Guy has a nice voice. Can’t doubt that. I still think they should have done something different with these. Because they are really rock style but the rest of the album isn’t. So there’s a dissonance. Again, it could be worse. They aren’t terrible but could have been done differently and better. I see what they are doing though. 

#Wecanteventhink - This song is much more somber than anything else on the album so far. Definitely has a different feel as expected given the interlude to this part. Louie’s rap is so awesome. 

Troublemaker ft Stella Jang - This one is much less somber. Kinda goes back up to the style of the other songs. The instrumental is kinda weird. There’s some weird random, out of place drumbeats at certain places and it REALLY could have done without them. Without those beats it could have been a perfectly fine instrumental. I legit thought something was happening out side but it’s actually part of the instrumental. So there’s that. Otherwise this a perfectly fine song. Again, i’d probably appreciate it better if it wasn’t among so many other great tracks.

Back 2 U ft Channel 23 - Not much here. Just an alright song. Not all that remarkable. 

Ring Ring - I like this one. It’s catchy. Definitely not my favorite though. 

*preface to track 15* I’ve already heard this one as well. “Sometimes” is the song. Geeks already released it before this album but I haven’t heard it in a while and never listened to it more than probably twice. 

Sometimes ft Crush and Giriboy -  I didn’t like this song all that much when I first heard it. It was alright but wasn’t all that interesting to me so I kinda forgot about it. Crush’s voice sounds nice as expected. I actually kinda like this song? I wonder why it didn’t hit with me when I first heard it? Of course, it has an unfair advantage to other songs since this isn’t my first time hearing it. A lot for the time songs sound better to me upon further listens anyway so it’s not all that surprising. One problem I will say though, by the time Giri gets on I can’t even remember Geeks verses. So that’s a negative. Not bad though. Glad, I  got to revisit this one because I probably would have never listened to it again.

Fireworks - This song sound kinda out of place with the other songs on this part of the album. I think maybe having it somewhere else would have been better but then it kinda sounds out of place in general lol. Again, not a bad song but doesn’t stand up to other songs on the album. I think I’m just so spoiled by the other songs that the bar has been raised WAY to high. 

Overall, this is a GREAT album. I’m gonna have to cop this. I was NOT expecting to be this impressed by this album. IT’s GREAT. I think this is the BEST review I’ve EVER given to any LP or EP on here. Again, I WASN’T a big Geeks fan going in to this review. They’ve completely surprised me with this. I had no clue this was gonna be this good. I was waiting for since I was curious to see what they’d have to offer and they really brought it. As for my favorite song? I’m gonna exclude Divin’ because I’ve already been a fan of it for so long. Maybe I’ll revisit this again after I’ve really had time to take in all the songs and I won’t exclude Divin’ but for right now I am. I’ll say my favorite songs “20 Questions” and “247365″ with “Analog” and “Good Girl” as seconds. Great job Geeks! I’ll be looking forward to your next releases. Sorry for ever doubting you.

[blnx3-oldblog]

#MUSICMONDAY

HELLO EVERYONE! I AM BACK WITH MORE CONTENT!

I took a small break but I AM BACK!

Louis Tomlinson Feat. Bebe Rexha - Back To You

OBVS I was going to start with this BANGER of a tune from LouisLouisLouis! I absolutely love this and this isn’t from a biased point of view! I find this song is PERFECT for both artists and I love their friendship/chemistry they have in the video! I am constantly singing this song or playing the music video, I’m actually addicted! Click here to listen to Back To You on Spotify.

Imagine Dragons - Thunder

I absolutely love this band so of course I was going to add it! Imagine Dragons can’t do anything wrong in my opinion and their songs get better and better. I love hearing new content from these guys! Click here to listen to Thunder on Spotify.

Olly Murs Feat. Louisa Johnson - Unpredictable

I’m not going to lie, when this song first came out, I wasn’t a fan. BUT I love Olly and I love Louisa, so I knew it was only going to be a matter of weeks before I fell for this song! And I was right! Their voices meld so well together and the music video is just hilarious! Click here to listen to Unpredictable on Spotify.

Ariana Grande Feat. Nathan Sykes - Almost Is Never Enough

This started playing on our work playlist last week and I instantly added this into my 2017 playlist. Because I forgot how much I LAV IT! It’s so emotional and sweet and I can’t even put together words to explain why I love this song! Click here to listen to this song on Spotify.

Shawn Hook Feat. Vanessa Hudgens - Reminding Me

I MEAN WHO DOESN’T LOVE VANESSA HUDGENS?! I mean, when I found out she was releasing music - I HAD TO HEAR IT! And I love it. Vanessa and Shawn’s voices work so well together and they fit. I do find it weird that she’s singing about an ex when she’s in a committed relationship, but I still love it! Click here to listen to Reminding Me on Spotify.

And that is all for this week! I’ll be back Wednesday - BYE!