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Calm Before the Storm
Hwang Jun-ho x wife!reader
Summary: After your husband's disappearance, he starts to act different.
Warning: Angst, disappearance, gunshot wound, head injury, hospitals, mention of death, marital conflict, mention of divorce, guns
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The worst day of your life happened after one of your husbandâs work trips. He said that his team had gotten a lead on what might have happened to his brother and that he had to investigate. That was par for the course, every couple months there would be another potential lead on where your brother-in-law could be, but every couple months Jun-ho would be sorely disappointed.Â
This time was different. He said he would be gone for a couple of days, and that he didnât know if he would be able to get in contact. He left for one day, and then two, then more. His department panicked, apparently, it wasnât a work trip and one of their detectives went missing. After a week his picture was on the nightly news, and after 10 days you were doing interviews begging for anyone who had any information to step forward. His mother came to sleep at your apartment, and she said she just wanted to help out with her daughter-in-law, but you could hear her sobs in the middle of the night through the thin walls between your bedroom and the guest room.Â
At 5 AM, a week after Jun-hoâs disappearance, you got a call. They had found him. He was in a specialized emergency hospital on the outskirts of Seoul, and he was in a coma. You rushed to your car with your mother-in-law and broke speed limits that Jun-ho would never let you break when he was in the car with you.Â
The hospital parking lot was nearly empty. The lobby was quiet when you walked in, and the front desk woman almost looked shocked when she saw two women with deep circles under their eyes and hair sticking in every direction. Honestly, you couldnât care less. She was the receptionist at a hospital, if that was the craziest thing sheâd seen she was in for a rude awakening when an actual patient came up to her desk.
She quickly directed you to his hotel room, on the 3rd floor, where his supervisor was already waiting. Time seemed to slow down as you rode the elevator. It couldnât have taken longer than 20 seconds, but it felt like years. What if he was dying? What if he didnât wake up? What if he was getting worse? Your thoughts kept racing, and you and Jun-hoâs mother couldnât share a single word between the two of you between all of the panic going on inside your heads.
The floor was so quiet you could hear the squeak of a nurseâs shoes down the hallway. You shouldâve run to your husband's bedside, but you couldnât. You took one step at a time, terrified of what might await you. His supervisor stepped out the door and closed it. He looked at you with tired eyes. âMrs. Hwang, Mrs. Park, Iâm glad you could make it.â
âHowâs my husband?â Formalities could wait. Formalities could go to hell.
He sighed, and your heart skipped several beats. âHow is he?!â Jun-hoâs mother yelled.Â
âHeâs okay, he seems to be mostly stable, but I-â He raised his hand and scratched the back of his head, looking away at the ground, âI gotta be honest. Heâs not great. He was shot and fell from a high distance into water. He passed out in the water and the doctors think he breathed in water and fell unconscious. Theyâre not sure of the extent of brain damage because he hasnât woken up, but the lack of oxygen to his brain likely caused some sort of impact. Thereâs more, but they would only tell me the basics because Iâm not family.â
You couldnât breathe. You couldnât think. What if he didnât wake up? What if he did and he wasnât the same? Memories of the last night you spent together raced through your head. It had been a long exhausting day, and he somehow knew how terrible it had been. He brought takeout home and made an extra stop to get your favorite dessert from a bakery. He set the food down on the kitchen table and immediately made his way to you on the couch, leaned down, and kissed you until you needed to come up for air. You turned off the tv and sat on the couch for hours, eating and talking and eventually fucking. Right before you went to bed he told you that he was going on the trip tomorrow, and you just smiled and nodded, thinking it was going to be like all the other times.
You pushed past the sergeant and walked into your husbandâs room. His bed was separated from an empty one by a curtain. You couldnât feel your own feet as you walked towards it, and it almost felt like your hand wasnât moving at all when you pushed past the curtain.
Jun-ho looked like death. There was a tube shoved in his throat and his skin was so pale it looked translucent, the blue of his veins showing through on his arm next to an IV. The circles under his eyes were deep and dark, and he was in a neck brace, with his head bandaged.Â
It felt like all the air had been sucked out of your lungs. The second his mother saw him, she collapsed at his side and laid her body over his legs. Her cries were guttural and came from something that mustâve broken inside of her. âMy baby, my baby. I lost one son, Iâll die if I lose another.â
You couldnât think. Couldnât breathe. Couldnât cry. You sunk to a chair at his side and reached out for his hand. He was so cold. His skin felt like he had just been taken out of the ocean minutes before, and his heart rate was so slow it felt like it was second between beats.
You didnât hear the doctor come into the room until he spoke. Jun-hoâs mother looked up and stared at him like he was an angel, but you couldnât look away from your husbandâs unmoving body.
âMrs. Hwang, can I talk to you about your husbandâs condition?â You didnât move, his mother had to beg the doctor to continue speaking. âHe was shot in his left shoulder, luckily the bullet didnât hit any vital organs, but because of the time between the injury and his arrival at the hospital, he lost a significant amount of blood. We think he hit the water head-first, and the impact caused his neck to break, luckily, there was no spinal cord damage. We induced him into a coma once he reached the hospital, so unfortunately we arenât able to tell the extent of the damage unless he wakes.â
Your mother and law stood up âUnless? What do you mean by unless?!â she screamed. âMy son is not going to die, do you hear me?!âÂ
You felt broken, Jun-ho had to wake up, he had to. You didnât care if he couldnât walk, or speak, but he had to wake up.
You could hear fists banging against the doctorâs chest, but you didnât turn around. Just kept staring at your husbandâs pale face, and pale hands.
The hospital had apparently received a large grant during COVID to expand, and when the pandemic had died down they became designated only for acute emergency cases and recovery care, and many rooms were kept vacant. The staff let you stay in the other bed in his room, and there was a shower attached to the room, designed for patients in long-term recovery and their family members. The hospital had a small cafeteria that made shockingly delicious Korean food, and they delivered the meals to the room three times a day. Before long, you became used to the tired routine of late-night check-ups and tired smiles from the nurses urging you to go home and rest. You were terrified that if you left the hospital Jun-ho would die before you could get back, but you couldnât tell the nurses that. You just told the nurses that your house was far away and it was more convenient to stay at the hospital as opposed to making the commute or getting a hotel room.
It was three weeks before Jun-ho moved. In that time, you hadnât left the hospital once. He squeezed your hand while you were holding it, and at first, you thought you imagined it. You called the doctor, and she said she would keep an eye on it, but not to get your hopes up- apparently twitching was normal in coma patients. Several hours later you felt the squeeze again, and when you looked up, you saw Jun-hoâs eyes open the slightest bit.Â
It was like a monthâs worth of fear and pain cascaded over in a heartbeat, and you collapsed on his chest in broken sobs, staring up at your husband. His mother was there, and she leaned over at him, pleading his name. He stared at you for as long as he could, until his eyes closed again, his eyelids twitching like he wanted them to stay open. Once his eyes closed your hand was still holding his in a tight grip, and you reached open to press the button again.
In the next couple of days, he went in and out of consciousness at increasing intervals. The first moment where you felt like you could breathe again came a week after he first squeezed your hand, when you awoke from sleeping laying on his lap while you sat in the chair to the sound of gagging. You heard his heartbeat increase and saw his throat convulse and his eyes flash open as he fought his breathing tube.Â
You immediately pressed the call button for the nurse, and when they took too long you went out into the hallway and screamed for a nurse. There were only a couple of patients on his hall, and they could go screw themselves if they thought their sleep was more important than your husband's choking. The nurse and doctor came running and closed the door on you. Within a couple of minutes the nurse opened the door, and let you step inside. The doctor tried to talk to you, but you couldnât hear anything she was saying as you walked past her toward your husbandâs side.
âBaby,â Jun-ho whispered. His voice was hoarse and broken, and you could feel tears streaming down your face.
âHoney, youâre- youâre here.â You cried more and more, and he painfully reached his arm up to you.
âItâs okay (y/n), I was never going anywhere, Iâm here.â You tucked your head into his neck and sobbed into his hospital gown.Â
He stroked your hair slowly until his hand rested on the back of your head. You looked up to see that he had fallen back asleep, exhausted from the ordeal of choking on his breathing tube. You pressed a kiss to his cheek, wet from a single tear rolling down his face, and tucked your head back down to fall asleep again.
You woke up to a nurse gently shaking you away, informing you that you had to sleep in the other bed to prevent infection. You wanted to fight her for doing her job, but obliged. You fell back asleep quickly, too tired to stay awake because of the crying you had just finished doing.
â(Y/n).â You awoke to a quiet voice, blinking your eyes because of the bright sunlight streaming through the window. You immediately looked over at Jun-ho to see your fiance with his head turned looking at you.
âJun-ho.â You stood up, stumbling out of bed in the clothes you had to have been wearing for at least a couple of days before now, and went over to kiss him on the lips, the same way he had the last time you had seen him before he went missing. He reciprocated with more force than you thought someone who hadnât moved any part of his body in a month could.
âI missed you so much honey, I couldnât breathe for so long.â He smiled and wiped a tear off of your face.Â
âI know baby, but Iâm here now, Iâm here.â He looked at you with so much love and life in his eyes, exactly what you had been missing for the past month.
âI was so scared Jun-ho, first I couldnât find you, and then once I did I- I wasnât sure.â You paused, another tear streaming down your face. âI wasnât sure you would make it.â You whispered.
âI know (y/n), and Iâm sorry. Iâm so sorry.â
âYou- you got shot. You fell from really high into the water far out in the ocean. You have no idea how scared I was.â
His brow furrowed painfully before he suddenly pulled his head back and winced. âJun-ho, Jun-ho? Are you okay?!â
You frantically pushed the call button and within seconds there was a team of doctors and nurses entering the room. They slowed slightly when they saw the scene in front of them, and quickly determined there was no immediate danger, and quickly began examining him and asking you both questions. Once the rest of the group left, Jun-hoâs main doctor sat in a chair to explain the situation to the both of you.
She explained what the team had seen when they had checked Jun-ho over, and explained the need for another set of scans to ensure there was no serious brain injury. âWe also will need to call the police back to the hospital, because of the gunshot wound.â
Jun-ho froze, and his back grew stiff. âBaby, whatâs wrong?â You rested your hand in his grip, tightening it around his.
âNothingâs wrong, just nervous about the tests.â He squeezed your hand back and smiled up at you at your position sitting next to him on the bed. His body remained stiff, and your brow furrowed in confusion. He was likely traumatized and in pain, both physically and mentally.
Once the doctor left, you apprehensively asked him âHoney, I know you probably donât want to talk about it, but⌠What happened when you were gone, with the fall, and the gunshot wound?â
He looked away from you and glanced out the window. He paused, âI donât know. I donât remember what happened.â
You leaned in and squeezed his hand again. âItâs okay if you do, I just want to help you.â
He remained looking out the window, until he looked back at you, something tight across his eyes. âI really donât know, can we please talk about something else. Iâm going to get enough of that from my coworkers later anyways.â He laughed, but the tightness across his face remained the same.
Smiling a similar tight smile, you squeezed his hand back. âOkay. Just, let me know if you remember anything.â
âNow, is there anything I can do to help you?âÂ
âJun-ho, Iâm not the one who just woke up from a coma, thatâs my line!â Jun-ho smiled a real smile, and you copied him, smiling your first genuine smile in weeks.
After the tests, you wheeled Jun-ho in a wheelchair back into his hospital room, where you were greeted by his boss sitting in your usual chair next to his bedside. He stood up to greet you, âDetective! Itâs so good to see you awake again!â He bowed to Jun-ho, and your husband nodded his head in return.
âIâm sorry to bother you, but do you think we could do the interview now? Just so we donât get more in the way of you and your lovely wife.â He smiled, but there was anxiety furrowing his brow. He was clearly using many tactics that you watched Jun-ho explain that the police force used on victims and their families.
Jun-ho smiled back, âof course.â He looked up at you and smiled a similar tight smile towards you. âHoney, do you think you could go and get some coffee from downstairs for us?âÂ
You nodded, unsure of what to do as you could clearly tell that the coffee run was just an excuse to get you out of the room. âOf course.â There wasnât anything you could do about it, and confronting your husband about something he is clearly not ready to talk about would certainly not be a solution. âOfficer, would you like me to get you anything?â
He waved you off and you hesitantly exited the room to go downstairs.
Due to the emptiness of the hospital, it didnât take you long to go down to the cafeteria, pick up some coffee for you and Jun-ho, and come back upstairs. When you reached the floor that the room was on, you hesitated, noticing that the door was cracked and the sounds of him and his boss were still quietly filtering out into the hallway.
You debated for a second staying and eavesdropping, but your moral compass won out in the end. Whatever it was, Jun-ho was clearly not ready to tell you. You didnât want to betray his trust, and eventually, he would share it with you. The two of you had no secrets between you. If there ever was a night when Jun-ho would have to stay later at work, or was suddenly asked to hang out by his friends, he would call you immediately and tell you what was going on and when he would probably be home. Not that you necessarily needed him to, you trusted him, but he insisted that he never wanted you to worry after him. You did the same in turn, even though your job was far less demanding than his and plans came up far less sporadically for you than they did for him.
As you walked away, you heard a sliver of the conversation âhundreds⌠shot.â It made you pause in your step. You mustâve misheard. Maybe he had said something else. Maybe you were too sleep-deprived and stressed to think clearly. Still, you turned those words around in your head as you sat in a chair in the hallway next to the nurseâs station.
If you hadnât misheard- if; what would it mean? Did Jun-ho have a brain injury that didnât turn up on scans that makes him misremember what happened? Or- or was he telling the truth? Your husband wasnât a liar, he was the perfect detective because of his strict moral compass, so that must mean⌠That must mean that if there was no brain injury, and if you didnât mishear, wherever Jun-ho was he had watched hundreds of people die.
You heard a knock on the doorframe, âMrs. Hwang, weâre done with the interview.âÂ
You stood up and walked toward the door when the other detective put his hand on your shoulder while his face grimaced. âI hope everything works out well for the two of you, I really do.â With that foreboding line of encouragement, he walked past you and towards the elevator.
When you entered the room, Jun-ho smiled at you. â(Y/n).â You walked towards him and kissed his forehead, handing him the cup of coffee.
Kissing his forehead, you asked, âHow did it go? Are you alright?â
Jun-hoâs brow creased, but he smiled back at you still. âIt went well, I just told him that I didnât know anything.â
That didnât make sense. You had to have been gone for at least 20 minutes, there was no way those 15 minutes were filled with the other detective asking questions that your husband kept saying no to.
âIâll have to go into the station later on after Iâm discharged and give a longer more formal statement, but for now theyâll leave us alone.â
âGreat, Iâm glad to have you all to myself.â You leaned over and kissed him on the lips again. You trusted him, and whatever it was that he wasnât telling you, he would open up about soon.Â
He didnât. After another 2 weeks, the hospital was completely sure there were no long-standing effects. Besides having to regularly come in for check-ups and to carefully not hurt the shoulder where he was shot, miraculously there were no other serious effects.
You had finally gone back into the apartment after he woke up, although you werenât happy about going back when it was lifeless due to Jun-hoâs absence. By the time he was discharged, the apartment was dust-free, and you made sure that everything was the same as it had been when he had first gone missing.
In the past couple of weeks, Jun-ho had been too calm. He was casual about just about everything. He was smiling, and making jokes, like nothing had ever happened. But, underneath it all, you could tell something was different. When youâve been with someone for so long, had exchanged wedding vows, and slept in the same bed for years, you just knew them. You knew your husband, and something was off about him. He refused to go to sleep in the hospital room with the door open, and every time you came or went he would make you close the door behind you. He insisted that you spent the night in the hotel room with him (not that you were complaining) even when he was far out of the danger zone. On the car ride home from the hospital he would check the mirrors every time he thought you werenât looking.
There was something completely off about him, he seemed paranoid, and for the first time in your relationship besides his brotherâs disappearance- scared. But every time you would ask him what was wrong, he would just smile and say âIâm alright, just adjusting.â
You carried all of your stuff to the apartment, insisting on doing so even though your stubborn husband wanted to carry luggage even with a bullet recently being removed from his shoulder. But, when you left the elevator and were about to go into the apartment, he stopped you by putting his hand out.
âBaby, I just want to get inside. This is heavy.â You complained.
âI know, just- just give me a minute. I want to check something.â He silently turned the key to your small apartment, took off both his shoes, and stepped inside. He pulled up his pant leg slightly and took out a gun that you didnât even notice was there.
âJun-ho!â
He turned back to you and put his finger to his lips, shushing you. âIâll be back in a minute.â
He closed the door behind him, and you stood there shocked. You knew something was wrong, but you didnât expect him to take out a gun and search your home.
In a couple of minutes, he came back out. âWhat the hell Jun-ho? What was that!âÂ
âIt was nothing, Iâm sorry.â He put the gun back away.
âWhy would you search our house? Youâve never done that before. Seriously Jun-ho, whatâs going on?â You shouted, exasperated by him saying one thing and acting in a completely opposite way.
âItâs nothing.â He sighed, âIâm sorry (y/n), Iâm just scared. Itâs been a while since Iâve been out of the hospital, so Iâm nervous.â He leaned in and gave you a hug, which you reciprocated. But still, that wasnât the whole truth.
âI think you should see someone Jun-ho, this isnât normal.â You said into your husbandâs chest.
â(Y/n), Iâm fine. I promise.â You leaned your head up and kissed him again.
The first week back was difficult. Jun-ho seemed terrified of just about everything around him. The both of you barely left the house, and when you did his hand held yours in a tight grip.
Your job had given you an extended leave to take care of Jun-ho, but your leave was ending in a few weeks once the two-month mark passed.Â
You were laying in bed one night, Jun-ho tracing circles on your shoulder as you spooned after making love. âJun-ho, Iâm worried about you.â
He kissed your shoulder, âwhat about?â He said casually.
You rolled over to face him. âAbout everything, youâve been so scared and stressed. I donât know whatâs going to happen once I go back to work.âÂ
He propped his head on his hand as he laid on his side, âI know, Iâm sorry. Iâm starting to feel better. Iâm sorry Iâve been so paranoid lately.â
You sighed, âI want you to see someone Jun-ho. I donât want this to fester and fester.â
He sighed, âI know (y/n), I promise itâll get better soon. I talked to the chief today, Iâll go back to work next week.â
You shot up in bed, âtwo weeks? Babe, that isnât nearly enough time. You still canât lift anything heavier than a paper clip with your left arm.â
Jun-ho reached back towards you and stroked your arm. âWell good thing Iâm right-handed.â He smirked.
Tilting your head, you just looked back at your husband anxiously. âJun-ho this is serious. You arenât ready to go back to work.â
â(Y/n), please trust me. This will all be over soon, okay?â He looked at you pleadingly. He didnât want you to drop it or ignore it, he wanted you to- trust him? There was a secret, but he clearly didnât want you to know it, and just to wait.
Sighing, you said, âOkay, Iâll wait.â You didnât know what else to say. You couldnât make him tell you the truth, and he wanted you to not push it. There was nothing to do. âBut I really want you to talk to someone.â
He leaned in to kiss you, and right before he touched your lips, he said âOkay, I will; for you.â Then he closed the distance and kissed you until you needed to come up for air.
Your house was quieter after you both went back to work. When Jun-ho came home from work he would make his way next to you on the couch, lay down, and put his head on your lap. It was nice at first, after so much stress you could simply relax and enjoy each other's company.
Soon after getting home, he would get tired. Sometimes falling asleep on your lap.
After a month of him getting back to work, you were exhausted from the silence. It became oppressive. You grew tired of the same routine, and how your husband never quite grew less paranoid. He became better at hiding it, attaching cameras and extra locks around your house under the guise of burglaries in the building that you had never heard of. He would stand up from his crouch install the locks and wrap his arms around you, kissing you and telling you that he just wanted you to be safe.
Before his accident, he would wake up every morning and make breakfast for the both of you, insisting that it was the most important meal of the day. After the accident, he started to make lunch as well, and whenever you suggested that you go out for dinner, he smiled and told you that he enjoyed your cooking so much more.
Then, after 3 months, he came home completely exhausted. It was later than usual, and you stayed up late to greet him, completely concerned by his lack of response to any of your texts. âJun-ho, where the hell were you? Are you okay?!â You ran up to him as soon as he opened the door, looking him up and down for any injuries.
âNo, Iâm fine.â He smiled a lopsided and insincere smile at you. He smelled like alcohol.
âWere you drinking?â You demanded.
âMe and my coworkers went out for a couple of bottles of soju after work, nothing much.â He shook off his shoes and went to hug you.
You pulled away, âwhy didnât you tell me? We always tell each other these things.âÂ
âBaby, I had a long, long day, letâs not do this right now.â
âNo, we have to do this right now, what happened? Youâve been so strange lately, and you never went to talk to someone like you said you would.â You paused, tears beginning to well up in your eyes, âIâm really concerned for you. I want you to get tested for PTSD.â
He stepped closer to you, âI donât have PTSD, I just had a long day.â You didnât move. He sighed, â(Y/n), please, Iâm exhausted. Can we do this tomorrow?â
You didnât say anything but didnât move when he closed the distance between you to pull you into a tight hug. You finally reciprocated, pulling him closer, when you heard silent sniffling from next to your ear. In a heartbeat, you felt a drop of wetness on your shoulder.Â
The next day, Jun-ho quit being a detective. After he started crying, he pretended like nothing had happened, got silent, and took a shower before going to bed. You barely spoke another word the rest of the night, but after he thought you went to sleep you could feel him trace circles on your shoulder.
He told you as soon as he got home that being a detective was too much work for him after the accident, and he tired more easily, but you didnât buy it for a second.
âJun-ho, you love your job, why would you quit? Do you want to go back on leave?â You pleaded at your husband.
He smiled back at you, âOf course I love my job, itâs only temporary.â And he leaned in to kiss you on the lips.
Temporary. Although your better judgment told you otherwise, you put all your faith in that one little word. Temporary, this, like everything else making your husband act so different, would pass.
Jun-ho came home late the next day. Then the next. The first you waited up for him, sitting at the dinner table, your food growing cold. When your husband came in, he didnât smell like alcohol, he simply kissed you on the forehead and sat down across from you, not confronting his tardiness. You cried yourself to sleep that night, with your husband laying stiff as a board next to you, unsure of what to do.
The next night, when he was late, you didnât bother to wake up. You left his food in the fridge and went to bed early, tears streaming down your face. You were still awake when he came into bed but pretended to be asleep. You could feel the bed shaking from his silent sobs.
The next month went on in the same way, with the only escape from the monotony of your miserable silence being Jun-hoâs one day off. On that one day, you would pretend that you didnât have any problems, that you were a normal couple who would go walking through the cherry trees and go out drinking together late at night. You went on a double date with one of your coworkers and her husband and sat awkwardly through one of their arguments. It wasnât the same, but having some bit of refuge away from your stress was a lifesaver.
But even that changed. One day, you decided to go kayaking out in the bay, and while you were out in the water, Jun-ho stopped for a minute. There was a gap in your conversation, and during it, your husband stopped paddling.
âBabe, are you alright?â
He looked up at you as if startled. âYeah, Iâm alright.â He paused, âWould it be okay if we went back, I need to do something important.â
âUm, yeah sure. What is it?â You hesitantly asked.
âItâs nothing, donât worry about it.â Your face sank. Every question you asked your husband ended with him saying âItâs nothing,â no matter how big of a deal it likely was.
A couple of days later, when your husband came home late again, he told you that he would be busy on his day off and that a friend of his needed help on his boat. You just smiled and nodded, because what else could you really do?
Then he was busy the next weekend, and then the next, and the next. You only really saw your husband for a couple of minutes in the morning, and a couple of minutes in the night. Sometimes, you were able to make time. Sometimes, you would go out for a nice dinner, or go out to a friendâs party for the holidays. On your birthday he took the whole day off work and planned every single thing you would do all day. He made breakfast, took you shopping in the morning, went out to a nice lunch, took you out to the countryside to the ocean, and bought you lunch in your favorite tiny spot next to the shore. It was like for just 24 hours you had your husband back.
But other than that, it was like living with a ghost. He got more and more stressed over time. He smiled the same amount, but even with taking a demotion to a regular cop, he was getting worse and worse over time. He felt tenser, and more on edge than he had ever been before.
Every night you would fall asleep crying, you became used to waking up with a wet pillow or having to look at your puffy eyes when you wiped the condensation off the mirror after crying in the shower. Whenever Jun-ho saw the tears, whether you were laying in bed or cooking dinner on one of the rare nights that he came home early would wrap you in a hug from behind, and say, âIâm so sorry honey, I promise this will pass.âÂ
And you would plead, âPlease honey, please, just tell me whatâs happening, please be here more.â
And he would press his head into your back and whisper, âI canât, Iâm sorry. I love you.â
Your hopes would drop all over again, âI love you too.â
It was three years before anything changed. You would constantly beg him to do anything, to see someone, to talk to you, to do anything. Your friends asked you if he was cheating, but you knew he wasnât. You knew, somehow that whatever was happening, was big, and important. And that it was eating you and your husband alive.
You didnât see him for three days. He answered all of your texts with âJust something for work, Iâll be home soon. I love you.â Nothing else. No explanation for anything.
You slept on the couch and stayed there when you were awake, racked with anxiety. When he finally came home you sat there staring straight ahead. He didnât speak.
You had pictured a fight, a confrontation. You had begged and pleaded, with tears in your eyes before. But nothing had happened. And after almost four years, you didnât have any energy left.
âI want a divorce.â You surprised yourself with the words.
You looked up at him, and he stood there, his expression unreadable.Â
âIf you canât tell me what the hell is going on, tomorrow Iâm going to a lawyer.âÂ
He stumbled toward you and dropped to his knees in front of you, â(Y/n), please. You just have to trust me. This, thisâll all be over soon. I know Iâve said it before, but this time I mean it, soon itâll be just like before.â
You looked into your husbandâs eyes which were beginning to fill with tears. âI donât believe you.â
âBaby, please. I canât tell you, I really canât.â His head dropped, breaking eye contact as you saw a tear fall down to reach the floor. He whispered, âIf- if you know the truth, I donât know whatâll happen to you. And I canât risk that. I- Iâve risked everything else. But I canât risk you.â
You couldnât cry, your tears were all dried up. You should be shocked by what he was saying, but your mind went back to what you heard him say from outside that hospital room years ago âHundreds⌠Shot.â
âI know, Iâve known. I know that you remember, and I know that itâs related to when you went missing. I just need you to trust me. I canât do this anymore.â
He looks up at you, grabbing your hands and wrapping his around yours. âI know, Iâm so sorry, but I need you to just wait a little bit longer-â
You stood up. âI think you should leave.âÂ
â(Y/n), please.â
You walked away from him, towards your bedroom. â(Y/n), I love you.â
âI love you.â And then you heard the door shut.
As you lay in bed, you couldnât help but feel empty, like your heart had been torn out of your chest. The brutal calm you had been through was over, but storm had just begun.
Part two will be out with the next season, stay tuned for more!
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18+ mdni.
You've never suspected the evil would have taken the form of Jay, a hot guy from your college, but when he takes interest in you, you rapidly discover the secret he's been hiding.
pairing: jock!jay x fem!reader
wc: 5.7k
warnings: graphic description of gore (mention of blood & injuries), dubcon, implied inexperienced!reader, unprotected sex, jay's kinda mean but hey he's evil so ain't my fault lol.
a.n.: jennifer's body au cause why not. old fic from an old blog, but it's still my fav of all time <3
Jay thinks he never felt that much pain in his whole entire life. Itâs like his soul is screaming from the inside out, as if someone stabbed him in the stomach, tearing his guts apart.Â
Oh, but thatâs what actually happenedâŚ
How can he still be alive? He swears he was dead seconds ago, losing liters of blood through the cut in his stomach. But heâs very much conscious right now, getting out of the woods he was brutally murdered in.Â
Well, is it still even murder if he survived?Â
It doesnât matter anymore anyway. All he can think about at this moment is how hungry he is. He would devour anything he can put his hand on, and god, why does the person on the other side of the street look so⌠edible?Â
He feels the dried blood that dripped from his mouth stick to his skin as his hands are stained in the same red substance, holding his stomach where, surprisingly, he is no longer bleeding from.The pain is atrocious, but he needs to fucking eat, and so he approaches the person faster.Â
The moment they notice him, their eyes grow bigger and they let out a strident scream, but Jay gives them no time to leave.
He doesnât know what in the hell possesses him to jump on that poor human, his teeth becoming sharper than they ever were, shredding their neck in pieces, their screams slowly dying down as he eats like a starved animal.
The fresh blood is coating the dried layer on his chin. He feels like an uncontrollable beast, and heâs literally acting like one right now. No one with a right mind would have ever done this⌠but itâs like he isnât a human.Â
He was revived from the dead, thereâs nothing human about him anymore. Nothing.
He has an idea as to why this happened.Â
Those girls â that girl band who he seemed so enthralled by â sacrificed him, and for whatâŚ? For fame? For money? Whatever it is, they killed the wrong person because obviously the sacrifice didnât fucking work. Heâs still very much alive.Â
Heâs cursed now, thatâs for sure. Or whatever the hell is happening to him.Â
He looks down at his victim; itâs a man.Â
He suddenly feels nauseous, vomiting what he had so far swallowed. A dark liquid comes out of his mouth, and god, itâs even more painful than the cut in his stomach.Â
He feels disgusted by himself â why isnât he full? Eating felt so good, considering how starved he was, but itâs like he ate something ⌠expired.Â
Whatâs wrong with him⌠He ate someoneâs guts, of course it doesnât taste like a 5 stars meal. Then why did his instinct tell him to do that?Â
Thatâs fucked up.Â
The next few days are horrible for Jay.Â
After that night, he doesnât eat anything except for raw chicken and other types of meat that are just not enough to satiate him. It doesn't taste good either.Â
He lays in bed most of the time, having no energy, skipping the gym and his practices, which he usually never does. He gets texts from his friends, but he doesnât bother to check his phone.Â
Itâs on Sunday night that he decides to leave his bed, going to look at himself in the mirror. He has big dark circles under his eyes â not particularly flattering. Heâs still very hungry, but none of the food in his fridge makes him want to eat.Â
Thereâs one thing heâd want, thoughâŚÂ
Itâs when he receives a text from a specific person that he knows what to do.Â
iseul: hey, jay. wanna study together for the finals?
â-
âHey, man,â Jayâs teammate, Jungwon, greets him. âHeard about Hana? Thatâs fucked up,â he says, walking beside his friend. âAnd right after Iseul⌠My parents refuse my sister to go out alone now.â
âYeah, I heard,â Jay replies, not really caring, but still listening.Â
Itâs not like anybody liked Hana before, he doesnât understand why everybody suddenly cares now that sheâs dead. She needed to die to finally have some importance. How sad.Â
She wasnât that good of a laid either, so really, whatâs the matter? Sure, itâs tragic, but whoâs going to miss her besides her family.Â
âCanât be an animal at this point,â his teammate says under his breath, âDo you wanna know what Iâm thinking?â
Not reallyâŚ
âWhat?â
âIâm thinking itâs gotta be some âJack the Ripperâ kinda guy. You know those freaks who wanna be the modern this or that.â
Kind of offensiveâŚÂ
Jay rolls his eyes without Jungwon noticing, snickering at his words.
âThe policeâs saying itâs a bear or some shit,â Jay explains, reaching his class. âThatâs more believable than your âmodern Jack the Ripperâ.â He mimics quotes with his fingers, stopping in front of the classroom.Â
Jungwon still doesnât seem convinced, but itâs not Jayâs job to make him less stupid. He can believe what he wants, heâs not an investigator even though he thinks he is.Â
âSee you at practice, alright?â
âYeah, later, man.â
Jay has never been very attentive in class. He doesnât care about a lot of things and college is one of them. He wouldnât be here if it wasnât for his parents and their high expectations of him.Â
Heâs looking outside the windows, noticing the grey clouds, heavy rain pouring from the sky. A flash of lighting breaks through the sky, hearing the thunder a second after.Â
Nobody seems attentive either, all interested in the thunderstorm thatâs starting. It might be the strongest theyâve seen in a couple of years.Â
âCrap,â the teacher says as the electricity is cut off, surely because of the thunder.Â
Girls are gasping, some of them whispering to each other about how creepy the situation is while the professor waits for the power to get back on.
Jayâs phone lights up as he gets a new notification. He takes a look, reading the text he just received.Â
jungwon: practiceâs canceled..Â
Great, Jay thinks. He really needed to get some steam off, but it wonât happen today.Â
âSir!â A girl raises her hand, catching the attention of the professor. âAll classes got canceled. Can we leave? Apparently the power isnât coming back for a few hours.â
The professor seems quite disappointed, but he lets everyone go back home, seeing no point in staying if he canât teach.Â
While exiting the classroom, Jay gets bumped into by someone. He doesnât move much, but the person drops their books on the floor, bending down to pick them up hurriedly.Â
âShit⌠Sorry, I wasnât looking where I was going,â you apologize, standing back up when you have all of your books in your arms.
âItâs fine,â Jay mumbles and you give him a straight smile.
He recognizes you from highschool, a girl he never talked to, but who he knew the name of. Then, he watches you walking away for a short moment, eyeing the curves of your silhouette, memorizing it.Â
â-
Youâre in the cafeteria, sitting with your friends, waiting for about a good 30 minutes now. The storm from yesterday is still ongoing, and the power is very unstable, cutting off every now and then.
The finals are scheduled for today and the administration told the students to come regardless of the storm, thinking it would stop during the night. So youâre waiting to be sent to the gym where the exams are usually taking place, but seeing the electricity goes off and comes back every second, it isnât the best time to start an exam.Â
People are free to go, itâs college after all, but most of the students are staying in case a decision is made. You know you wouldnât want to skip your exam, thatâs why youâre staying, even though itâs starting to get really long.Â
No murder has happened since the beginning of the storm, confirming the police suspicions that it might be a wild animal doing this. A bear wouldnât come out during a thunderstorm, hence why no bodies have been found or anyone going missing.Â
You donât really know what to think of the whole thing. You never really experienced anything of the sort before, only ever seen it in the news, taking place in a far away city. Now, itâs really different to be a witness of it.
You donât understand how an animal would do such a thing, especially since they arenât known to attack humans, or⌠eat them. But everybody is kind of desperate to find a culprit.Â
As youâre looking through your notes, you notice that youâre missing a piece of information that you absolutely need to know for your test. You would ask your friends, but none of them are in this class with you. Plus, you forgot your book so the only solution would be to go to the library.Â
The place is lit up by candles and oil lamps. The power doesnât seem to have come back here either.Â
The librarian isnât even here, so you canât ask her for directions, which would be really useful, but youâll do without. You go to the biology section and start searching for the book you need. It takes you some time, carefully looking through the shelves until you notice an older edition of the book. You hope what you need is in there.
You start flipping the pages to the right chapter, but you jump out of surprise and drop the book to the floor at the sound of someone elseâs voice.Â
âArenât you supposed to attend your exam?â
Itâs the guy you bumped into yesterday; Jay.Â
Whatâs weird is that you didnât hear him at all, you could have sworn you were alone in the library. You suppose heâs a really quiet walker.
âUh, y-yeah,â you stammer out, furrowing your brows. You bend down to pick up the book, his eyes following your movements closely. âJust had to come here for this,â you say and show the object in question in your hand. âWhat about you?â
He leans on the shelves beside him.Â
âDidnât feel like wasting my time back there,â he explains and you nod, not really sure what he wants exactly⌠Itâs not like youâre friends or anything.
You canât see much of him with the low lighting in the library, but you still catch on the way heâs looking at you intently. It makes you slightly uncomfortable, considering heâs towering over you with all his height. And Jay is very tall compared to you.Â
âIs- Is there something else you wanted to ask meâŚ?â You manage to let out, voice a bit shaky and uneasy.Â
âAre you scared?â he asks casually.
He steps closer to you, and you donât understand why you donât step back. Itâs like you donât dare.
âWhat?â
âThe storm. Pretty intense, right?â
Is he really interested to know if youâre scared of storms or is he playing with you? Why would he even play with you in the first place, thatâs what you wonder.Â
His behaviour really confuses you. Itâs true that you donât know him, but he isnât the type of guy to just⌠creep girls out. Maybe itâs not his intention though?
âOh, yeah⌠itâs nothing I've ever seen before,â you confess in a small voice.Â
âMe neither,â Jay replies.Â
You hold the book against you tighter like itâs some sort of protection, or just as emotional support. You donât know whatâs up with him, but it has you feeling some type of wayâŚÂ
You feel the knot in your stomach getting tighter as he gets even closer, trapping you between him and the bookshelves.Â
Yes, youâre scared, but not of the storm⌠of him.
And⌠thereâs a part of you that likes it â likes the attention he gives you, the way his dark eyes look at your body. His gaze makes you think of a carnivore, a predator.Â
Youâre the food he was looking for.Â
âItâs really loud, isnât it?â he observes. âI wonder⌠if you had to scream, would anybody hear you?â
That startles you right away.Â
âJay-â Saying his name seems to catch his attention, his eyes looking directly into yours. âStop it.â
He doesnât break eye contact, and youâre destabilized by how long he can hold your gaze, a shiver running down your spine, making the hair on your arms stand up.Â
Itâs only to whisper in your ear that his eyes leave yours.Â
âStop what exactly?â
His hot breath hits the side of your neck, hearing your heart pounding in your chest, the knot in your stomach becoming heavier and heavier. Your hands clasp around your book, holding onto it for dear life as you gulp down the excess of saliva in your mouth.Â
You scrunch your eyes shut when you feel his hands on your hips, fingers sneaking under the hem of your top. Your core heats up, blood rushing to your cheeks.
âWhat do you want?â You breathe out, opening your eyes when Jay faces you again.Â
He takes the book from you, putting it back onto the shelves, not caring if itâs the wrong placement.Â
âJust a little bit of fun,â he answers, âwouldnât you like that, hm?â He slips his index finger under the band of your skirt then, pulling you closer to him, his lips only centimetres away from yours. âI know girls like you are too shy to ask for it⌠So Iâm making the first move.âÂ
âNo, I-â You begin, but donât have the time to finish your sentence.Â
âItâs fine, Iâm gonna take the lead. You donât have to worry about anything, pretty,â he tells you, tilting his head and pressing a light kiss to your lips. Surprisingly, you reciprocate it. He pulls his hand away from your skirt, putting it around your neck instead. âI knew youâd be into it, youâre a little freak, arenât you?âÂ
You donât know what to answer. Is there even anything you can say back to him? Whatâs the point of lying when he has you trapped between his large body and the bookshelves, his slender fingers gripping your neck, his lips brushing over your face.Â
But would that be really a lie saying heâs wrong about you? He doesnât know youâŚ
He kisses you again, this time sloppier, his tongue dominating yours easily. He nudges your legs open with his knee, his other hand swiftly diving under the hem of your skirt, groping your flesh in a lewd way that keeps you out of breath â apart from the fact that his tongue is currently exploring your mouth.Â
He graces the bump of your pussy with his knuckles, making your knees buckle at the unexpected contact. He rubs the pad of his middle finger over your clit, a whine escaping your throat, muffled by his mouth on yours. The moment is brief until he slips his hand into your underwear.Â
You try to make him stop by grabbing his wrist, pulling away from his lips to pathetically whisper a âpleaseâ that makes him chuckle.Â
âAlready begging for me, sweetheart?â He softly laughs, smirking at you. âExcited by the idea of a guyâs fingers in your little cunt instead of yours? Is that it?â
You frown because that wasnât the reason why you begged him, but now that he said this⌠your thoughts are going into a completely different way. Whatâs wrong with you?
âDo you wanna know how it feels, baby? How itâs like to have your pussy stuffed by someone elseâs fingersâŚâÂ
Heâs not waiting for an answer as he starts stroking your bud of nerves in slow circular motions, applying some pressure to really make you feel it. You let out another whine, this time of pleasure.Â
Jay then shifts down to your entrance, circling it with a lot of delicacy, but this gentleness of his doesnât go on for long as he pushes a finger into you. You bite down on your bottom lip â the size of his fingers are in no comparison to yours. Your eyes well up in tears, little cries escaping your mouth when he adds a second digit.Â
âI know, I know,â he whispers, âmust be uncomfortable, hm?â You nod your head, confirming his words. âItâll feel good soon, I promise. Youâre used to the feel of your tiny fingers, itâs normalâŚâ
When he says this, you have a hard time believing him. How could it feel good when you werenât at all prepared for this â when itâs not what you wanted.Â
He begins to move his fingers inside of you, slow and long strokes at first, circling your clit with his thumb at the same time. He curls his fingers, making a little hook, patting your sweet spot. The intrusion is uncomfortable, but it progressively gets so much more pleasurable as he thrusts into you at a regular pace.Â
Tears are still falling down from your eyes, eyelashes wet and sticky, but they arenât the result of your painâŚÂ
âYouâre pretty when you cry,â Jay murmurs beside your ear, butterflies in your stomach when he tells you this.Â
He unwraps his hand from your throat to instead grab your thigh, placing your leg around his hip. You now feel his fingers way deeper inside of you, gently and deliciously stimulating your g-spot. You dare to look down where his left hand is operating between your thighs, sliding in until heâs knuckles deep into your pussy. This makes you breathless, head rolling back on your shoulders and hitting the shelves behind you.Â
âOh, my god-!â You exclaim when Jayâs ministrations bring you so close to your orgasm. Your legs are twitching, your body warning you of your approaching high.
Youâd probably be more aware of his hard cock trapped in his baggy jeans, but you literally cannot focus on anything else other than Jay fingering you, hitting your sensitive spot each time he thrusts in.Â
âThatâs it, baby,â he encourages, moving faster. âYou feel it? Huh?â He asks and you croak out a weak âyesâ. âTell me how it feels.â
You hate his questions â you hate them so much. He knows how you feel, but he wants you to say it, he wants you to say that you enjoy it, and⌠your body really does.Â
âG-Good.â
âYeah?â he breathes out, fucking your cunt with his fingers, enthralled by the little moans you let out.
âYes,â you confirm, closing your eyes and nodding your head. âFuck!â You curse out when you finally reach your high, grasping onto his forearm as you ride out your orgasm, your entire body shaking.Â
Jay helps you by slowly rubbing your puffy clit in circles, telling you more dirty words in your ear, all said in the sweetest voice, as if what heâs doing can be described as anything sweet.Â
âGood girl,â he praises, âsee, I told you itâd feel great.â
He still has his head in the crook of your neck, and you frown at the feeling of sharp teeth against your skin. Itâs barely there, just brushing over it, as if hesitating to act⌠but Jay retrieves back, looking into your reddened eyes.Â
He could stop there, but he wonât â though he got what he wanted, he needs moreâŚÂ
He pulls his hand out of your panties, fingers glistening in your arousal. âOpen wide for me, baby,â he instructs.Â
You glance at his hand, a little repulsed. Youâve never thought of tasting yourself and itâs surely nothing youâd have ever done if not for Jay.Â
You then reluctantly open your mouth and he enters his wet fingers in.Â
âSuck,â he adds on, expecting you to follow his orders, and you do without a second thought.Â
He stares down at you while you lick his fingers clean and he slides them a bit deeper, pushing down on your tongue. The taste of yourself isnât what you thought itâd be⌠It doesnât taste much, in fact.Â
He removes his fingers from your mouth only to put them in his own after. âAs sweet as you are,â he grins. âTurn around.â
You hesitate for a moment, looking at him credulously, before doing what he asked you to do on trembling legs.Â
âAre youâŚ?â You say under your breath, looking over your shoulder and seeing Jay pulling the zipper of his pants down.Â
âGoing to put my cock into you?â he finishes your question, âyeah, I am.â
You stop breathing at his answer, sensing his deft fingers touching your thighs and hips, going under your skirt to drag your panties down.Â
He soon gets his cock out of his briefs, pumping himself a couple of times before aligning his head with your dripping entrance. His right hand keeps your skirt crumpled up over your ass, laying the other one on your hip.Â
âCareful, sweetheart,â he says softly beside your ear, âbecause this might sting a little bit more than two fingers.â He swipes the head of his cock through your sticky folds and all you can do is moan pathetically at the feeling, lewd, wet noises echoing in the big library.Â
You canât see his length even with the way you contort your head to look over your shoulder, but youâre still able to see his chest and hips moving as he pushes his cock into your pussy. Though you have no idea what he looks like, the painful feeling of your cunt getting stretched out to his size tells you heâs really big.Â
And he was right. This hurts way more than his fingers, the two feelings are not comparable at all.Â
âJay-,â you cry out, holding onto the shelves in front of you till thereâs no more blood in your knuckles.Â
He hears you, loving the sounds youâre making because of him and the way you say his name with eyes full of tears. When he bottoms out inside of you, his pelvis flushed against your ass, he lets out a low grunt and throws his head back, closing his eyes to savour the pleasure entirely.Â
You involuntarily clench around him, making him tighten his grip on your hip. He then starts thrusting into you, his cock sliding in and out of your pussy at a slow but harsh pace. Each time he bottoms out, Jay makes sure the skin of his thighs slap against your ass, the sounds almost as loud as your little moans and whimpers.Â
But the storm is so intense and noisy that heâs pretty sure nobody else in the library could hear you â if there was anyone else here apart from the two of you anyway.Â
Your wetness allows him to fuck his cock into your pussy back and forth, welcoming him so perfectly without any restraint. Itâs almost impossible for him to not hit your sweet spot, and he reaches so much deeper when he lifts up your thigh with the hand that was previously placed on your hip.Â
You donât know how long you can stay in this position, especially when Jayâs drilling his cock into you like nothing else matters. Itâs like he needs it from you, and as the pleasure only builds up in you, you start thinking you need it desperately, too.Â
Youâre breathing heavily, and so is he, feeling his hot breath on your neck when he tilts his head down closer to yours. You can clearly hear his breathing now as well as his deep grunts that leave his mouth every time your walls close tightly around his girth, literally sucking him in.Â
âShit,â he curses out as he pushes lightly on your back, deepening the arch of it so your ass is flushed against his pelvis. âHow could I have ever missed out on you⌠Youâre so- fuck,â Jay chokes out, not finishing his sentence, but you have a guess on what he wanted to say.Â
He then kisses your neck pretty messily, but it only raises the temperature of your body, your skin boiling hot under his soft lips. He leaves a wet trail behind, going up to your ear, down to your shoulder.Â
Telling him to stop isnât even possible anymore, it wouldnât make any sense⌠would be absolutely stupid when youâre so close to your second orgasm.Â
As he thrusts into you, his balls slap your pussy, and the sounds are just too vulgar, but itâs honestly arousing you so much. Jay lets go of your thigh to take a hold of your jaw, turning it around so he can look at your face.Â
Your mouth is ajar to let out big puffs of air, and itâs the same for him, his breathing being irregular and heavy. He didnât think he would ever need something that badly, which is making you his, surprisingly enough.Â
Making you his in whatever way possible; whether itâs by fucking you or eating you â or both. Jay doesnât care, he just wants it.Â
It doesnât take long for your second orgasm to pass through you, arms and legs shaking as the knot at the pit of your stomach snaps. Jay feels it very clearly, your walls hugging his cock terribly tightly, bringing him closer to his own orgasm as well.
âHoly fuck,â he hisses, his hip thrusts accelerating, literally burying his cock in your cunt until he slips out. He rapidly strokes himself and cums on your ass, strings of white cum falling on you. âOh, godâŚâ
He stays in this position for a couple of seconds, catching his breath. He then slightly backs away, making sure to keep your skirt crumpled up over your butt, looking at the mess he made of you.Â
Suddenly, you both catch on the voices entering the library, making you rush to dress up and clean yourselves.Â
â-
Youâre in your bedroom, studying and writing down in your notebook while lying on your bed. Itâs relatively quiet in your house, hearing the TV downstairs playing and the ceiling fan above your head running.Â
The ringtone of your cell phone breaks the silence, buzzing on top of your bedsheets. Itâs a number that you donât recognize, but the first digitals show that itâs a number from your area, so you pick it up.Â
âHello?âÂ
âHey, pretty.â
âUh, who is this?â You ask the person on the other side of the line because you have no idea who would call you like this. They must know you.
âTake a guess,â they say, and their tone is oddly flirty.Â
You frown, starting to remember where you heard this voice for the last time⌠And in which situation exactly.Â
â... Jay?âÂ
He laughs at that and you can imagine the cheeky smile heâs sporting right now.Â
âYou got it,â he replies, âsee, I knew youâd remember me.âÂ
You immediately feel uneasy despite the fact youâre just talking through the phone, but things have happened since your encounter with Jay.
Things such as more dead girls, all brutally murdered by this supposed âanimalâ.Â
You suspected nothing until you noticed how tired looking Jay was a day or two after what happened in the library. Normally, you wouldnât have looked at him, but you literally couldnât get him out of your head after how intimate the both of you had been.Â
Every time he was in the same hallway as you, youâd give him a glance and nothing more as you were too shy to talk to him or even look at him for too long.Â
But sometimes you dared to watch him a little longer when he didnât know you were there.Â
And you saw the dark circles, the bad attitude he had with his friends, and the disdain look he seemed to give to everybody. You also saw him get in his car with a girl. You were jealous for a second, but you felt totally different the next day when that same girl went missing and that Jay was doing fine again.Â
At first, it was just silly thoughts, but it was too strong of a coincidence, you couldnât think about anything else.Â
Jayâs an incubus.
âYeahâŚâ You say back, shoulders tense as you sit up on your bed. âHow did you get my number?âÂ
âAsked Jungwon for it,â he simply explains. âYou did a project back in highschool together. Remember?â
You do remember. You were so stressed out about it. Paired with a popular jock? You believed the teacher was against you, but it turned out that Jungwon was way nicer than you thought.
âLuckily, you didnât change numbers.â
Lucky for who?
âRight,â you huff out, looking through your window, a shiver passing through you at the thought of Jay hiding somewhere.
âWhatâre you doing?â he asks.
âUhm, just studying⌠Why?âÂ
âWanna go out with me?â Jay proposes after a few seconds of silence.Â
You look through your window again. Itâs dark outside. This would be such a bad ideaâŚÂ
âItâs 9 p.m. on a Thursday night,â you begin, sounding way too bitchy for his liking, âwhere would we go? And why would I even go out with youâŚâ
âThe parkâs always open,â he adds.
âWhat-â
âRelax. Nothing bad gonna happen, alright?" his voice resonates through the phone, hearing a slight laugh after. "I miss you, that's all."
You bite down on your lip, shaking your head to get all of your stupid thoughts away. As much as you hate to admit it, you love hearing that from Jay. Thatâs all you wanted him to say since he left you in the library⌠tell you he needs you as much as you need him.Â
But this isnât the time for that â there wonât ever be another time anyway.Â
You respond nothing and so he takes it as a yes. âSend me your address, Iâll come pick you up in 10 minutes. Put something pretty on,â he chuckles, hanging up.Â
â-
The park isnât an open space with benches and a fountain. Itâs basically the woods where you go for hiking. There are paths you can follow that will all lead you to the same place at the end.Â
You could have thought of something smarter, or less dangerous, but you didnât have any time. Jay showed up at your entrance precisely 10 minutes after he hung up and you werenât exactly ready to see him just yet.Â
You had to get in his car anyway, the whole ride being quiet until you arrived at your destination. Your stomach churned up the moment you entered the woods, Jay behind you.Â
Your heart is still beating super fast right now, whether itâs because youâre absolutely scared or because Jay is kissing you feverishly, it doesnât matter. You canât do this, and you donât know how it might end for you if you let yourself be distracted by him.Â
âJay,â you manage to say between kisses. You push harder on his chest, making him stop from putting his tongue in your mouth. âWe need to talk,â you say firmly.Â
âAbout what?â he chuckles, diving back down to the crook of your neck where he plants wet kisses, his hand sneaking up under your dress while the other holds your hip.Â
You squirm, fighting hard to not let yourself give in to his touch.Â
âI saw⌠I saw Kazuha and you getting into your car the other day,â you confess and he backs away from your neck when he hears that, looking intently at your face.Â
âAnd? You were jealous, is that it?â He questions, lifting one eyebrow.Â
âNo! I mean-,â you answer right after, thinking about what to say and how to say it. âShe went missing the day after you saw her, and-â
Jay gets visibly annoyed, trapping his bottom lip between his teeth. He lets go of you, still looking at you, but not with lustful eyes anymore.Â
âWhat? What are you trying to say, huh?â He huffs out. âThat I killed her? Fucking crazy.â
Is he really guilty? He has to be. You know he is.Â
âBack in the library,â you begin to say, âwere you⌠did you intend to kill me?â You eventually say it all, breath caught in your throat as you watch Jay registering your words.Â
He sighs, âwhy would it matter?â You frown at that, about to respond, but he steps closer to you, trapping you between him and the tree again. âJust let me take care of you, gonna make you feel so good, babyâŚâÂ
He slips his hands under your dress so rapidly that you donât have any time to react, immediately overwhelmed by his groping and his lips all over you.Â
But you get back to your senses, using all your force to push him away. You succeed to have a safe distance between the two of you.
âSo youâre admitting it!? You wanted to- to do the same thing to me!â
âNo,â he disagrees, his voice harsh, sounding quite annoyed. âI just wanted- Fuck!â he exclaims angrily, but itâs like he doesnât know what to say.Â
âYou could have had everybody you wanted, Jay,â you state, looking him into the eyes, âwhy me?â
He looks back at you and you wonder how you couldnât have seen it before⌠The evil.Â
âWhy not? Youâre hot, kinda stuck-up, but I had to try it, you know,â he chuckles. âFor a nerdy girl, you sure know how to take dick.â
This angers you to a pointâŚÂ
âFuck you!â
And without thinking twice, you reach down to pick up the pocket knife you hid in your boot before.Â
You open it and you rush toward Jay, stabbing him in his lower stomach. You retrieve the knife a bit too hastily, resulting in you dropping it and falling down on your butt to the ground.Â
Jay also falls down, holding onto his stomach, red blood dripping out of his cut onto his hands. He yells out many curses, sucking air through his teeth to appease the pain as much as he can.Â
You watch him, startled and out of breath, eventually turning around and searching for your knife through the dirt and dead leaves. When you find it, you get back up and to Jay, but he isnât there anymore.
He has completely disappeared.Â
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Back with batsis stuff and kinda wanna do the whole isekai thing. Have reader meet their end somehow and wake up in a fanfic that was never finished of a neglected batsis. Have them wake up at the incident that made them get sent over to Bruce.
Have the original girlâs memories and knowing already they didnât like her, didnât want her, etc. she decided to just live for herself and future. Girlie went with her father who gave her that initial attention but after that she was taken to her room. Sheâs six. Have her give that grieving period of two weeks where she just got used to the room and the manor before she started asking for things. Itâll be probably one form of martial arts and later on probably also either music or dance. When she isnât doing either of those things she sketching in her book and sheâs actually really good.
Have her be closest with Alfred but still keep a certain wall up against him just like the others. Have her be a few months older than Damian and Damian isnât quite in the picture yet. She ignores when the others are in the house despite being a part of said home. She only looks for her father for school needs and while still keeping her distance will set birth cards and Fatherâs Day cards on his desk in the study. She never hands them to him so she doesnât know what he does with them nor does she care.
If the character she is reborn as is meant to be neglected, why should she bother trying to reach out?
She eventually had no choice but to meet Jason because he was there⌠they didnât know how to explain to her why red hood is there. She simply said âHello, I would chat but I have Jujitsu in 20 so I have to leave. Nice meeting you.â It was concerning how she brushed it off. Of course she realizes after âoh none of them would know I know⌠nah I���ll just continue on. Who knows, it might bother them!â
By the time Damian gets there, sheâs been through karate, jujitsu, and only a year of Taekwondo while also taking dancing/music lessons. She has won art competitions but only Alfred has ever seen or heard. Bruce may have heard but he barely listened to the announcement of it. He knows from a portrait she was forced to sit for with Bruce, Tim, and Dick, she exists. Yet, it takes a week for him to ever see her.
He asks questions like in the original, but what batsis reader doesnât understand is she changed how Damian sees her since she wasnât immediately clingy to anyone. Dick TRIES to remember anything and realizes he doesnât really know her. Tim canât really tell him anything either other than medical records in case anything happens. Literally all Tim gave Damian was that Damian and batsis have the say blood type. They realize they really donât know batsis which does unnerve them. All they can say is she stays to herself. That both irritates Damian and intrigued him. He tries Alfred next who is able to at least tell him what she does routinely at least. How sheâs been in martial arts after her first two weeks living here, implied she was grieving, and sheâs also been in music/dance lessons as well. Also explains she enjoys participating in art contests. He goes on about her being an A+ student and explains she doesnât interact much with the rest of the family. He even says âTo be honest, Iâm pretty sure Iâm the only one she talks to in any capacity that isnât out of necessity.â
Jason pretty much only knew about one of the martial arts being jujitsu. He explains she didnât seem phased that red hood had entered her home and that she didnât know about the Batman secret.
He doesnât immediately approach her either. He doesnât have all the information he needs. All he knows is sheâs his half sibling, her usual activities, at least one of the forms of martial arts she knows, and that otherwise sheâs a bit of a mystery. Eventually theyâre forced to eat at a family dinner together. Since it really bothered Dick that he didnât know anything he starts asking her about school. No one ever asked her questions, half the time they act like she isnât there, so sheâs confused, but politely says itâs been fine. Talks briefly about her classes, the mention of what classes sheâs currently taking makes Tim and Dick shocked. For Tim itâs simply the fact that *she* was taking them and for Dick itâs the fact someone her age was taking such advance classes. Tim coughed and asked her what she did after school on Friday, mostly to hear anything else and sheâs like âOh just another art competition. I placed first with my painting.â She says and continues eating.
Bruce honestly is trying to process what he heard and saw and Damian treats it as a way to analyze her. The way she eats, the way she talks, her posture, and of course the tiny bits the boys were getting out. She then says âIâm sure Alfred has already told you about that, however, right father?â He coughs for a moment and nods as to hide the fact he himself has been caught off guard. For Damian she isnât like a role model for what heâs grown up with, itâs more sheâs a role model for what a Wayne is. Sheâs perfect in all things youâd expect the public to see a Wayne for. Knows arts, has some martial arts background, and has a certain air of modesty yet wealthy around her.
This attention to her is still brief at this time for Tim, Dick, and Bruce. They ask if sheâs met Damian and she says âNot really, at best some glances. Iâm always moving after all.â That dinner felt awkward, but Damian decided she wasnât Particularly a threatâŚ
And by all things holy it annoys the crap out of Tim. He actually tries to speak to herâwhich she is cautious at first because she knows what he did to the original Batsis. Instead of drawing his sword on her, he asked about her martial arts since thatâs really all he can⌠talk about with her⌠and the part that annoys Tim on it⌠is simply he wonât shut up about her-
And he thought when Damian called himself the blood son was annoying! Now itâs âblood siblingâ this and that if bringing her up in conversation occurs. Itâs clear he respects her in such annoying ways.
I just imagine the Yandere Batfam doesnât all happen at once. It starts with Damian. You donât see it at first because you blame his upbringing. Heâs stuck to your side during banquets as much as he despises them. He mirrors some of your âmaskâ etiquette in that all the Wayneâs have an image. You kept yours on as rock solid as possible, you are not the same person. He can tell you must have some inspiration from your father as yours is a rather innocent persona. You act like a social butterfly amongst the people and seem so damn sweet. He just doesnât like how many eyes are on you. You acted like you couldnât feel it, but itâs hard to ignore Damian. In fact, it accidentally wentďżźinti his persona as people saw him as a clingy little brother to his slightly older sister. That it just made âsenseâ since you two are so close in age.
Damian would just get worse as time went on. Itâs get to the point you realize he isnât faking or anything he actually just likes you. Then you get kidnapped.
I imagine no one but Alfred and Damian realize something is wrong. Heâs the reason they find you and he nearly kills the guy who kidnapped you. Of course itâs not like you just let them take you, there was evidence even before they were brought to an inch of their life. You hadnât made it easy and they could tell you had injured them beforehand. However they had broken your legs and thatâs when Iâd get worse for Damian and start in Bruce.
I might add more thoughts later I dunno itâs kind of an idea dump
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đš cw: suggestive, fluff, angst
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PT 1 â PT 2 â PT 3 â PT 4 â PT 5 â PT 6. PT 7 [SOON]
English professor Nanami could tell that you were uncomfortable the first couple of days that you stayed with him. He could see it in the shy way you asked for permission for every little thing. "You don't have to ask," he tells you. "I'm glad you're here," he says. He feels suddenly warm, the way you smile at that. It takes a while, but it seems you're finally comfortable, if the way you hum moving around the kitchen and plop down right next to him on the couch with your laptop are any indication.
Professor Nanami tries his best not to stare, but it's hard. He can't understand why seeing you do mundane, domestic things, like making coffee or rinsing dishes, makes his heart feel so full, but it does. He guesses he is probably in love with you, and if that's the case he is well and truly fucked because it can never come to anything. He hopes it is just a passing infatuation, not that he is particularly prone to those. It has never happened to him before, actually.
Professor Nanami knows that, when you leave, his house will feel quiet and empty and he'll torture himself with thoughts of who you're with and what you're doing. He knows it will be soon. The selfish part of him dreads it, but his practical and morally upstanding side will be relieved. The couch situation is becoming potentially problematic, after all. The shorts aren't helping.
"Professor Nanami, what do you think of this paragraph, like, is it actually terrible?" He couldn't truthfully tell you because the plush of your thigh is pressed up against his as you lean over practically on top of him. Your hair is falling over his arm and, although he doesn't mean to look, he can see down the front of your shirt over your shoulder. It is so much worse than when you would crowd in on him in his office.
"Why are your eyes closed," you giggle "Is it that bad?" It is that bad. His cock stays at least half hard pretty much around the clock, now. It has a mind of it's own. He is squeezing his eyes closed, desperately grasping at any thought that might direct bloodflow away from his twitching dick. But he doesn't tell you that, of course.
"Just thinking," he says, instead.
Professor Nanami opens his eyes and your face is so close it kind of takes his breath away. You have never been this close before, and you are so still. Still like a coiled spring holding tension until it just can't anymore. He doesn't mean to, but he looks down at your lips. When he looks back at your eyes, he knows he's caught. He knows he should look away, create distance between the two of you, but he is frozen in place.
And by the time he has done all that thinking, it's too late anyway. The crush of your mouth against his is soft and warm, like the press of your body against his as you crawl into his lap.
Professor Nanami wants to pull you closer, taste you deeper. He wants to undress you and explore your body with his hands and his mouth. Really take his time with you, memorize you like a favorite lyric. His hands find the angle of your jaw, trace the line of your neck he had so often admired before coming to rest on your shoulders.
Professor Nanami pushes you away. "Stop," he says, an alien strangled quality to his voice. "I can't."
Professor Nanami stands in the doorway of the guest room, saying your name softly. You are a quiet blur of motion as you stuff your things into a bag and tug on your shoes. Your face a shiny, red mess of ruined mascara. He says he wants to talk about it, but you don't care, you're too ashamed. You feel like a stupid little girl with a stupid crush who did a stupid, stupid thing.
Professor Nanami doesn't try to stop you when you go.
a/n; hey guys, spoiler alert, but I'm thinking of making the next part a smau. It would be texts between these two. Idk. I love reading smau but I've never made one. Or maybe the next part will be readers POV, then a smau. Anyway, any thoughts on that? & ty for reading as always.
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đť Naimeryn âRookâ Thorne is 30 years old. Her birthday was the day of the Ritual. Naimerynâs birthday has always been a low-fuss affair, acknowledged by those close to her, but thereâs never been money for gifts or a cake or anything if the like. She and Varric shared a beer at the bar.
đŞťprior to Veilguard, the injuries she sustained fighting Darkspawn in the battle that put her on leave from the Wardens were the most painful, as the head injury was substantial. It left her mostly blind and mostly deaf on her left side. This impacts her interpersonally â she struggles to hear and see people who stand on that side â and in the field, leaving her at a distinct disadvantage from that side. She can be jumpy and appear paranoid, as she takes extra caution to check her surroundings in unfamiliar situations. Iâve written my headcanon most painful injury for her now, during the events of Veilguard â getting blown up by a gaatlock trap Taash inadvertently set off with their fire while on the Fangscorcher mission. Those scars are large and gnarled, and have a hugely negative effect on her self esteem.
đš I havenât written it yet, but the first time Lucanis calls her âbeautiful,â theyâre going to get into a fight because she wonât believe him. She can wrap her head around, maybe, that he likes her for her, enjoys her as a person, and *maybe* finds her pretty, but â¨beautifulâ¨? She never expected empty, blatantly untrue flattery from him, and is hurt. Lucanis â with Spiteâs help, of course â is gonna have to make a point of spelling out just how all those things she hates about herself are beautiful to him to convince her⌠and get forgiveness.
đ¸ Naimeryn is an only child, and sheâs always been kept at armâs length â or, perhaps, kept others at armâs length â so the Veilguard is the first time sheâs really had close friends. After Weisshaupt, she grows closer to fellow Wardens Antoine and Evka, who helped secure victory with her plan at the Blighted village, and Greta, who is the only other remaining member of her Joining. She and Teia also grow close throughout the events of Veilguard.
đž Several demons have tried to get their hooks into Naimeryn, but theyâve always been thwarted by her determination not to lose herself or endanger those around her. He may not be Determination any longer, but she still has Spite around to beat back any and all challengers.
đą Naimeryn has had crushes before, but never any relationships. There was a fellow slave who pretended to like her to get close to another girl when she was 13, and a few Wardens who ultimately decided they werenât interested in doing the extra work it would take to get into her pants. Generally, if someone flirts with her first, she assumes they want something from her. If she flirts and they flirt back, she assumes sheâs given them the wrong idea, but they donât actually *like* her. Lucanis will be her first everything.
đź Spite says Naimeryn smells like Blight and Lavender. He remembers other scents â the air after a downpour, honeycomb and mint, musty books, but she doesnât smell like those things anymore.
đˇ Rookâs go to place for peace was a secret nook in Weisshauptâs library. She hadnât been there since leaving with Varric, and now that place is gone. She often feels trapped in her role, because now she feels she has nowhere to go when she needs to think or be alone. This makes good fanfic fodder, however, as companions get to walk in on her in moments of weakness â which makes her feel like a failure, but makes them appreciate her more as a person.
đĽ Naimerynâs mother will make an appearance in the regret prison.
𪡠Itâs not really *irrational*, but Naimeryn for a very long time was absolutely terrified of becoming an abomination, like to the point that she kind of thought it was inevitable and was just afraid of the not knowing WHEN it was going to happen. She mostly isnât afraid of this anymore, as she trusts herself more now than at any other point in her life, but it still tears itâs ugly head from time to time.
â�� Naimerynâs whole life has been a near-death experience. However, specifically she almost died saving that town from the Darkspawn horde. As she lost consciousness, she wondered if the plan had worked, she wondered where the spirit that had been following her around her whole life had gone, and, upon hearing her fellow Wardens searching for her, she found peace that she wouldnât die alone after all. I also wrote a near death experience for her after the Fangscorcher mission. All she could think was she COULD NOT DIE with Taash thinking it was their fault.
đ The First Warden has hated Naimerynâs since the day Saimaeria Mahariel, Hero of Ferelden, showed up on Weisshauptâs doorstep and said âhere you go. Train her up!â Varric honestly rescued her from this manâs ire â she survived the Ogre and he was ready to kill her himself with his bare damn hands.
đş Naimeryn has never had â¨anything.â¨Before Loghain sold her and her mother to Tevinter slavers, however, the one thing she did have was a hand knit baby blanket the alienageâs elder gave to her mother when she was born. It was on her bed when she was taken.
đż Naimerynâs first tattoo was the snake on her forehead. A Tevinter Mage Receuit who completed the Joining with Naimeryn dated her to get a snake tattoo, saying she wouldnât because she was too âsoftâ to permanently put the iconography of the people who had enslaved her on her body. Naimeryn was damn proud of having survived that house and desperate to prove she belonged, so she came back the next morning with it on her forehead. A few years later she was working in Weisshauptâs library and devoured any bit of information she could on griffons â albeit there wasnât very much â and decided she wanted a tattoo that *she* chose and genuinely wanted, and so she got a griffon tattooed on her left thigh. Once Davrin & Bellara drag her around Arlathan enough and she gets to touch grass and smell flowers, and after she sees the Bronaâs Bloom cavern, sheâs gonna get some floral tattoos done as well.
đ Naimeryn doesnât talk about it, but she was actually the one who like the magister who enslaved her when Saimaeria and the Shadow Dragons freed her and the other slaves in the manor. She lost control of her magic and killed him in an instant, in front of his young children. It took Saimaeria almost a full week to get her to talk at all. To this day, she doesnât know how to feel about it.
This was so fun! I hope you guys like it!
Woe! Rook ask game be upon ye!
đť How old is your Rook? How do they feel about celebrating their birthday? What gift has meant the most to them? 𪝠What is the most painful injury your Rook has received? How has it affected them once it healed/scarred? đš Whatâs the first genuine fight Rook got in with their love interest about? How was it resolved? đ¸ Does your Rook have any siblings or close friends they see as such? Where are they during the events of Veilguard? đž If there was a demon trying to trap/take over Rook, what kind would be the most successful? What would break their hold? đą Was Rook involved romantically with anyone before Veilguard? What was their partner like? How did the relationship end? đź If someone was to ask Spite what Rook smells like, what would he say? đˇIf Rook needed to get away from their responsibilities for a moment, where would they go? Where is their safe space outside the Lighthouse? đĽ What figure from Rookâs personal past would be added to the regret prison? 𪡠Does your Rook have an irrational phobia? (ie spiders or large man-made objects submerged underwater) đ Has Rook had any near-death experiences? What went through their mind during what they thought was going to be their final moments? đ What is the relationship Rook has with their faction mentor? What was the moment they sent Rook away like? đş Is there an object from Rookâs childhood they look back on fondly? (ie a favorite stuffed animal, book, or food) đż Does your Rook have any tattoos? What was the moment when they got them like? If theyâre a Crow where is their de Riva brand located? What vallaslin do they have/how did they earn it if theyâre Dalish? đ What was it like the first time Rook killed someone? How did they react afterwards?
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haikyuu ! captains and how they plot on fem!reader because who doesn't love a guy that puts in the work
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Daichi he first met you during 1st year and was instantly hooked. Maybe because it was how you carried yourself or your personality but he knew for sure he would make you his girlfriend. Now just because he met you during 1st year didn't mean he made his move then. Nope, he made it during 3rd year.
Daichi He started small (with the help of Kiyoko and Hachi) first it was compliments.
"your hair looks lovely l/n"
"you gotta tell me how you always make people smile"
"you really are funny l/n"
Daichi then started inviting you to practices because he wanted to show off needed a 3rd opinion on his new move. This was all part of his plan which was to impress you sooo much you would ask for his number. Did it work?
nope
Daichi showing off didn't work neither did his constant compliments so now what was left?
"KIYOKO PLEASE LET ME HAVE HER NUMBERR"
"No, ask for it instead. She likes a guy who has confidence."
and so that's what he was going to do man up and ask for it himself.
Daichi who after class sprinted to your class to catch you and ask for it. When he did make it he saw you talking with your group of friends
"excuse me ladies may I borrow l/n for a moment?"
your friends who started teasing and whispering about how you actually pulled
"shes all yours"
After your friends left it was awkward for just a moment he was trying to put it into words I mean it was supposed to be simple right? But-
"Is there something you need Sawamura?"
"oh right, well l/n I've been trying to court you all year which maybe it was my fault for not being straight forward but is it possible I could get your number? So we can get to know each other and maybe ask you out?"
He scaratched his neck waiting for your response..
"well I'm free right now if you want to come with me to a cafe.."
"that would be lovely then l/n"
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Bokuto he first met you because you were friends with Akaashi. Now he noticed you really didn't have friends to hang out with during break and lunch. So he started inviting you to hang out with him and Akaashi and a trio was created.
Bokuto after a few months of your new found friendship he started getting that feeling. He was always nervouse around you and definitely always wanted to be in your good graces. Of course he didn't realize it was a crush until he saw another 2nd year try to ask for your number. Now he knew he would not let you give your number away to anyone that wasn't him. Even tho he already had it.
Bokuto now his approach to plotting wasn't the best but it was definitely something- scare off any guy until he was your last option. Did he even realize he was being overprotective? No, but it was bound to work at some point. Or that's at least what he was telling himself.
Bokuto It actually took you a while to find out what was happening. After another case of ghosting you started to question it. Was it your appearance? Or the long distance? Of course you would tell your friends about your problem and how you scared away guys.
"Wait so there just ghosting you? They clearly don't know what their missing y/n"
"Yes they just are! I don't even know why it's happening Keiji"
"Its because of me y/n!!"
"Whatever do you mean Ko?"
"Because they aren't worthy of courting you y/n so I tell them to go away"
"Why would you even do that?"
"Because I want to be the person who courts you not someone from Karasuno"
Bokuto got a talking too after his little confession about how that wasn't the way to get your attention but safe to say you did give him that chance and in the future its something you would never end up regretting.
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Oikawa now he definitely thought something was wrong with you. You were never apart of his group of fans and never reacted differently towards him. Games you attended? You would cheer on anyone BUT him. And this, caught his eye. He was gonna make it his mission to get you to go out with him one way or another.
Oikawa since he had never struggled before trying to charm a lady he was more confused then ever how was he supposed to do this? Well the only thing that came to mind was make you feel special. This resulted in you being embarrassed ever single time.
Oikawa every single set he would do during a game? Point you out and give you a wink. During school he would start ignoring his fans and would only talk to his team or you. He always offered to carry your bag or help you with work but you were still warry about his true feelings towards you.
Oikawa hoping he at least he made his intentions clear to you he would now leave small stuff at your desk. Sometimes it was small snacks with a note, or a small tricket that reminded him of you.
Oikawa the way he finally got you to agree on a date was when he gave you a boquet of your favorite flowers. It was special to you because you had only told him once what flower it was and he had still remembered it.
"Here l/nn its your favorite flowers just for you"
"You still rememeber what type of flowers I like?"
"Of course and I'll keep remembering small details about you - like how when your favoring song plays you start forgetting the worlds around you just to pay attention to the lyrics."
Now this had touched your heart, after weeks of chasing you maybe it was time to allow him to ask you out. Because he had clearly put effort into this.
"Fine, just one date trashykawa"
"You wont regret it l/n!"
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Ushijima he didn't even know he was "courting" you until Semi told asked him when he was going to ask you out.
"You know l/n is a sweet girl why haven't you asked her out yet? I'm sure she already likes you."
"What on earth are you talking about? I havent been courting our manager-"
Lets just say it hit him like a brick when he started connecting the dots that it did LOOK like he was indeed courting you.
Ushijima You were the manager of the team and dealing with a group of teenage boys wasn't easy- so he as the captain of the team decided he would be the one to show his gratitude. He would give you chocolates every day after practice or invite you to grab lunch with him alone.
Ushijima after thinking about it for days about how own feelings towards you he decided he was going to invite you on a real date. Because even if he wasnt completely sure about how he felt he wanted to at least give it a try. So, one day after practice as you were cleaning and packing up everything he decided to shoot his shot.
"l/n are you perhaps free this evening?"
"Yeah I don't have any plans. Is there a reason for asking?"
"I was wondering if you would like to accompany me on a walk in the park. It would be nice having someone - you around"
"Sure! let me go get my stuff and I'll meet you outside."
"Yes absolutely, its a date then."
As he walked away you stood there dumfounded, he finally had the balls to ask you out huh.
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Kuroo now he was crushing on you HARD. But, he always found it hard to talk to you. Different group of friends, different hobbies, different clubs there was practically no way to start a conversation without it being difficult.
The 3rd years were preparing for the English final when your teacher suggested forming study groups within the class so you could prepare. Now this was his chance.
Kuroo had to work up the courage to ask you to be his study buddy and when he did you were almost surprised that he asked you but you didn't say no. You moved your stuff to your left so he could sit next to you.
You started asking him what was his strong and week points in English. When he asked the same thing back he wasn't focused on your answers, more like the view Infront of him. The way you talked and the way you explained things was magical.
Kuroo The two of you exchanged phone numbers so it was easier to communicate. You didn't say it was only to text about the final - so he started sending memes he found funny or goofy cat pictures in hopes of it turning into a conversation.
Of course the way you texted back was short and fast but when he sent you a meme of your favorite video game it was like he had found a cheat code. You started geeking out and explained the story and characters to him. Although he didn't know anything about the game it was certainly working and after talking about it until wee hours into the night you decided to call it off and go to sleep.
"Goodnight Kuroo thanks for listening to me yap lol"
"Of course l/n, I'll always listen to you talk."
You hearted the message and he knew this was only the beginning of a new found frienship and hopefully a relationship.
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Kita he never really thought about dating he was always more focused on his studies and vollyball. You were more like a close friend then anything. Sure he thought you were cute but he believed there was nothing there but pure friendship.
"My parents aren't home I guess I'm gonna have to order food.."
"Y/n you cant cook?"
"Nope, my parents do"
"Well I believe I'm gonna have to teach you then"
"yayyy"
Kita 3 times a week Kita would go over to your house (with your parents permission) and show you the basics + a few recepies. He enjoyed spending time with you outside of school but something had changed inside of him. Maybe the proximity but the way you *preferred hair style while cooking* looked on you was mesmerizing.
Kita Knew your parents travlled alot for work and even days without a lesson he would leave a bento on your desk early in the morning enough for the whole day. Even if it was more work added to his plate he didn't mind doing it because it was for you.
Besides, the best way to get to someone is through the stomach.
I swear I don't have a favorite. Anyways that concludes my first post! I'm open to criticism on my writing!
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can i req smth with sub!abby? literally anything there's a severe drought creative liberties all yours
a/n: ngl, as someone who never rlly saw abby as a sub, i was stumped asf at first. but i adore a challenge and ended up with this! enjoy <3
always the polar opposite of her girlfriend, abby anderson was never much of a smoker. sure she's tried it a few times in high school, and maybe once or twice in college, but that was as far as her experience led.
she didn't like the way weed made her feel, not one bit. the paranoia, the anxiety, the feeling of someone always watching you even when you're the only one in the room. she didn't like how her thoughts wandered and her mind grew blank and everything seemed to move in slow motion. it terrified her.
and as her resident pothead girlfriend, you respected that. sure, you loved your mary jane and couldn't really imagine life without it, but you also understood that everyone had their own experiences and boundaries and that someone's yum might be another's yuck. so in short, you were cool with it.
that was just how your dynamic worked.
but...abby would be lying if she said that she wasn't curious. she saw the effect the plant had on you, how it would have you laid out on the sofa for hours on end, not a thought in your pretty little head as you giggled your ass off at some random cartoon. or how creative it made you. or how sensitive. it was so easy to get you all worked up and soaked when your head was so far somewhere else, melting into the couch as her tongue worked magic in between your thighs. she envied that relaxation, craved it a lot more than she'd admit.
okay, okay, so maybe she's had a few not so fun experiences with it. but get knocked down nine times and get up ten! this time was going to be different, she was gonna make it be different. and that's the mantra her brain had on loop as she approached you sitting by the coffee table, screwing the top onto one of your grinders.
"....you wanna smoke? little ms. abby "i'll never touch another joint for as long as i live" anderson? very funny, where's the cameras?"
"i'm not joking."
you looked at her with thinly veiled skepticism before continuing, giving her your full attention as you placed a rolling paper back on the table. "are you sure about this? last time you smoked was like, what? 2 years ago? and didn't you say you were hallucinating horses or some stupid shit like that?"
"....that happens to everyone."
"no the fuck it does not."
but at the end of the day, she wore down your resolve, insisting that she was a grown woman capable of making grown woman decisions. and that was exactly how you ended up here, staring in shock and disbelief as she took a deep hit and gently exhaled, her eyes getting redder by the minute as she passed the blunt back to you, all dopey and lightheaded. "i love you."
"you're very high. but i love you too."
now unbeknownst to abby, depending on the type of strain you smoke and who you're around, it could have certain...asphoradic effects. effects that she was not at all prepared for.
she was feverish, lacing your neck with kisses and bites galore as she climbed on top of you, straddling your hips. she dug her teeth into your shoulder, eliciting a whine from you as she grinds her hips into yours. she was only wearing a thin pair of boxers and a wife-pleaser (no bra, because of course not), and you felt the damp spot on her crotch rub against your lace panties pleasurably.
you grinned against the hasty kisses across your face, quickly realizing that you had the upper hand here. you harshly twisted one of her puffy nipples over the cotton, causing her to unconsciously increase the pace of her hips against yours. you lightly bucked your hips, pushing at her arms to try and get her off you. "lay back for me, baby." for once, she actually complied, laying flat against the couch as her she felt all of her blood rushing to her pussy. "let me take care of you this time."
she watches you with a gaped mouth and hazy head as you make quick work of both of your clothes, leaving the two of you naked and sweaty on the sofa. you twisted your legs together, glued on top of her as you lightly began to whine your hips, testing the waters. her reaction was priceless, knocking her head against the cushions as her eyes crossed.
"fuck! fuckfuckfuckmommy-" she gripped at your hips feebly, the strings of slick and arousal keeping you together as you began to move your hips in rhythm. you pressed your full weight onto her, dictating the pace and making her cry (this was going in the fucking books) and there was absolutely nothing she could do about it. she felt the coil in her tummy tighten and before she could stop it, she was cumming with the cutest whimper you've ever heard, various spurts of cum flying onto your bodies as you continued to work her into overstimulation.
she began to slap her hand against the flesh of your hip, too stupid to speak but still trying to signal that she was done. you rode her through her orgasm and then some, reveling in the way her wet cunt pressed against yours. why on earth would you want to stop something that felt this damn good? all you did was glide your wet clits together even more, not planning on stopping any time soon.
and when she starts to complain? just give her another hit!
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Hii! Could I perhaps ask for a yan! Caitvi with a darling who is scared of them? Ty 4 reading my request!
fun fact: i donât like either one of these people ( vi is 50/50 on a good day )
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warnings : objectification , fem!reader , poly relationship , violent outbursts ( vi ) , manipulation ( cait ) , sexual touching ( nothing explicit ) , dehumanization ( ? )
caitlyn and vi are the best couple to be around in public. but privateâŚ
caitlyn
doesnât understand why youâre scared. she been nothing be nice to you and even dolled you up like a pretty princess.
everyday, she has a set routine for you that must not be ruined by anyone or anything. they will face the consequences if such happens
if you refuse to obey , she start manipulating you into thinking very differently about some people you care about.
she tends to do treat you more like a doll than a real person , âdolls must look pretty. dolls always obey their masters. dolls are obedient.â â her motto. ďżź
she honestly care but also donât care that youâre scared of her, she has nothing to worry about she may not put hands on you ( physically at least ) but someone else can take care of that ( more fear the more sheâll listen )
vi
i hc that vi is a really short tempered one but she tries to keep her cool around you and i mean TRY
every time you flinch, refuse, or ATTEMPT to run away from home escape, she ready to blow up and take out on anything or anyone.
âhoney bun, pleaseâŚstop getting me mad for attention! you know iâm completely devoted to you no matter whatâŚjust ask next time, k?â sheâs delusional ! she thinks we asked for this.
she uses her anger to control you! you donât want to get hit right? great! start listeningâor else.
she does deeply care for you and she wishes you would just cooperate with her so she doesnât have to use her anger to control youâshe also cares about the fact youâre scared of her but she also uses it to her advantage clearly but then again, whatever keeps you with her, us, it doesnât matter.
vi + cait
they love touching you. and i mean love touching you, boundaries donât exist with them. from your hair to your lips, lips to your neck, neck to your collarbones, collarbones to your tits, tits to your stomach, yea you got the point.
cait will always scold vi for intentionally scaring you/using her violent outbursts to strike fear into you but she never actually stops her. if anything sheâs watching from a distance, the scolding is just an act and they both know it except you of course.
whenever they argue about you, they never address you as a person, youâre an object, or not even consider human in a way, and since cait loves to keep you a doll you feel even more less of a person and more of a prop.
if you misbehave, vi will hold back cait from feeding you, showering you, etc. your punishment is either dehumanizing or rough housing sex; and cait most definitely does not agree with roughing you up have to keep up your precious porcelain skin, not taking care of you is the next best option, but cait is against that one too so vi has to hold her back. this punishment can go on for 48 days to about a week or two.
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Side bit of AEIWAM Lore for funsies: Akon and Shuuhei were roommates for a long time and still close friends.
What happened was Akon got a work release from prison as a kid so that Urahara could use him in the 12th*, but when Mayuri tried to promote Akon to seated officer some years later, Yamamoto put his foot down and demanded Akon actually receive some formal training as a shinigami before he would be allowed to command other shinigami. So An adolescent Akon had to enroll in Genryusai Academy the same year that Shuuhei FINALLY passed his entrance exams, and the two were assigned roommates.
The introverted and socially unskilled Akon latched onto outgoing pretty boy who makes friends with everyone Shuuhei like a remora latching onto a speedboat. He frequently asked (and STILL asks) Shuuhei the most are-you-a-space-alien social questions and took notes re: the answers. Shuuhei never noticed anything odd about Akon because he's operating on golden retriever "well they're not kicking me so I guess we're BEST FRIENDS FOREVER" rules.
The undiagnosed dyslexic/ADHD/OCD and six other major aniety disorders in a bucket Shuuhei latched onto "called out and corrected the teacher on day one and then assumed control of chemistry class" nerd Akon like a remora latching onto a speedboat. Akon never did Shuuhei 's homework for him, but he did basically personally tutor Shuuhei by tism ranting 24/7, and proofreading his work. Akon never noticed anything odd about this, because ofc you share knowledge and correct people mid-conversation, what the fuck do you think science is FOR?
Both were promoted to Seated Officers immediately after graduation but they still lived together in a shared off-division apartment for several years until Shuuhei made lieutenant and Akon became president of R&D and they both had to move into thier divisions full time, but they're both Members of the Shinigami Men's Association, and co-presidents (and only members) of the Seireitei Rat Fancy association. Shuuhei has had pet rats ever since he was a poor kid in the Rukongai, and Akon since he was a little kid in prison, and it was one of the things they really bonded over when they were in the dorms together, much to thier RA's horror.
Shuuhei wants to breed the softest, cuddliest rats with the longest lifespans possible. His prize animal now is "Florence", a doe with a positively satin-smoot coat approaching her twelth birthday with no real signs of aging so far. Akon is trying to breed rats large enough for him to ride into battle and his prize animals are a pair of Bucks called Gilbert and Sullivan who are approaching 40lbs apiece. They both spoil thier rats rotten.
Another thing they have in common is a love of Mahjong. Shuuhei learned to play (and make money on it) from his grandmother. Akon was taught the same by the other inmates at the maggot's nest, and in each other, finally found worthy opponents. Of course, Mahjong is best played with four people, so each of them has been trying to train others to play with mixed success. Akon has had made good players out of Nemu and 9th seat Niko Kuna (Mashiro's younger sister) but both of them are just as likely to want to play "Operation, but with a real body" and are not reliable partners. Shuuhei taught Tousen how to play and he's an exceptionally canny player and reliable partner, but often struggles to remember what tiles have actually been laid down, since his glasses tend to jumble the characters when trying to read the tiles to him.
Upon her return to Soul Society, Mashiro Kuna suggests they combine their interests and breed rats capable of playing Majong and both of them think about it for just a little bit longer than is reasonable.
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*AEIWAM Akon actually hates Urahara's guts: While it was Urahara's signature on the work release, it was *Mayuri* that pettitioned that the child Akon be released from the maggot's nest. Mayuri really only wanted Akon for his expertise in biomechanics, but also did do the badgering of Urahara to get him out. Akon hates Urahara because when Urahara was in the 2nd division, he arrested Akon and threw him into the maggot's nest as a small child, just because he was born part Yokai.
Akon once described the debt he feels to Mayuri as "Imagine if a raccoon saved your life. Now imagine if the raccoon was a meth kingpin that could kill you with telepathy. You'd owe it forever but also. It's a little complicated, you know?"
This comes to something of a head after the winter war when there is a question about who is actually going to run the 12th as Mayuri is Goop, Nemu is emotionally compromised about him being Goop, Hiyori is only sort of qualified, Akon is even less qualified, Hikifune is in the royal realm, the 12th has completely locked down and gone on strike rather than let Urahara put one toe in the door, and there aren't that many captain-class people who also know... anything about scientific research or provisioning.
Yamamoto is forced to approach Tousen, who was forced to do all of Aizen's lab work is still in his mandated year of recovery and had been granted an actual, legal retirement by Yamamoto, to beg him to take over the 12th before they run out of food and/or the 12th actually explodes.
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so your crow strider au gave me inspiration for my own au, but i've built up the idea in my brain so much that now im scared to try to put it to paper (oops) did you ever deal with this while making crow strider? (and if you did, how you got over it would be much appreciated thanks fhdjks) also your art is cool :]
Hi, sure, i encountered a few blocks when writing CSAU and other projects. I think my method comes down to a couple rules
You need to know how the story ends from the start, so everything in the story leads to the end. Things can change about the contents of the story as you write it and you change your mind about the events that will transpire in it, but you need an end goal you can build your story towards. Most importantly, this is what allows you to add foreshadowing for said ending and structure the narrative in a clear direction. Otherwise, you might come up with a cool ending too late and regret some choices from past chapters that now donât help this new ending you want
On that same note (and iâll proceed to copy and paste from an old post) You need to have a Word document with a rough timeline of the events from start to finish. You need to know how it ends from the beginning and how they get there. It can be really, really vague, but it has to be there. It can go like
. They start the game, the trolls bother them.
.both games go to hell
.scratch
.trip, develop relationships
.new set of kids/teen drama
.old kids they get there
.to hell again
.John retcons everything
.new timeline
.they win
And that's homestuck simplified, Those are your Acts. With them, you will know where you're going and if you need to change something earlier. Everything will be constantly up to change of course, but you will be going from point A to point Z more easily.
From there, you go to every point in that list and create a Word document for all of them. I have them in different folders to have every act separated and in order.
A folder for each Doc for every Act, Numbered, and in each one make more lists like that one telling what happens, for example
WordDoc1 - ACT 1 "They start the game, the trolls bother them"=
.John needs to get his game
.introduce Rose
.introduce the trolls on pester chats
. John gets the game
.introduce Dave
.etc
And those are your chapters. Now you can know the extent of what you want to do and if it makes any sense.
I addition to that, every Folder can contain not only the Word document for the Act but also relevant texts and art that are connected to the Act, so evey folder is all about that specific act and any inspiration for it.
Another piece of advice I can give you is to hint at anything important. That's a rule of comedy; actually, the comedian usually closes the show with something related to the first things they said.
That works for everything, and makes people go, "Oh the thing! The meaningless thing they said earlier, it was a clue all along!"
Interconnect it like a web, and that web will stop the story from falling
Homestuck is so ridiculously interconnected that you lose track of the stuff and objects that repeat that have no way to be where they got to be, songs and people and events that are too similar to not be connected but nobody addresses, things like that make it feel like you're dealing with a universe and not just a line of events.
3. Yet another thing, it's something I'm still trying to assimilate, and is that less is more, sometimes things don't need to be said, specialy not bluntly, and an expression, a gesture, a flinch can summarize them. Backgrounds can be reduced, and ideas can be conveyed.
one example is, In homestuck, it's never said that Dave was raised with lack of food. He never sais it, but it's shown in how happy he was to find a warm bottle of juice in his closet, how there is only weapons on the kitchen and no sign of food, how he later sais he never learned what the purpose of a fridge was until he saw it on tv. If someone is lacking something, don't have them say, "i grew up without X thing" show what filled that space in the absence of X thing.
Instead of some character saying, "My dad was never there for christmas" have them say how they thrited for presents at the local goodwill, payed with their lawn mowing money and put the presents under the tree themselves for their siblings and mom.
4. Something that I always have in mind when writing the dialogs and sketching the scenes, is
"I have an idea; what's the easiest way for someone to get the idea, to get the feelings i want to transmit from the idea?" I made the art something I could handle drawing hundreds of times, simplified the coloring, the aspect symbols, the way I draw backgrounds, the way I write dialogs, etc.
That will save you time and work and could prevent you from getting stuck with a project too big to handle
5. This is the most important one: The first draftâs only purpose is to exist.
Writing is like playing darts sometimes; you only get closer to hitting the center by missing it and learning what not to do. Thatâs an actual rule on animation and a motto on the Disney office. âGet it wrong as quick as you can,â because when you learn what youâre doing wrong is when you start learnign what doing it right means.
If it helps, title your first draft âthe dumb version,â because thatâs what it isâthe version to get the idea out of your head, and then you built over it.
On the same note, once you write "the dumb version" donât correct it. Rewrite it. Itâs annoying, I know, i know, but fixing and fixing a text only carries the mistakes from the first draft, and everything looks kind of disconnected, because it ends up being a Frankenstein text of all the versions of the story mixed together.
This also applies to art; thatâs how I handle both writing and drawing; if itâs not working, hold onto the core idea, new page, restart.
Rewriting it puts it in perspective; it feels like a text of its own, with a clear intent in mind.
I think thatâs all I have. Making a story is mostly about managing your strengths and weaknesses, organizing and not being scared of it not being perfect.
Hope this helps.
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CW: Sfw. (A little bit of tension)
WC: 2k
Waffleâs Note: Rin is aged up here, even this itâs not mentioned. Itâs my first time ever writing for Rin so he might be a little ooc. A bit of self insert. Also you have a pet owl? Kinda proofread. (I literally had to stop cuz I kept changing/adding things)
You sigh, lost in your thoughts.
You and Itoshi Rin have been acquaintance for two years now. Yes acquaintances. Itâs ridiculous right? Youâve been trying to convince him ever since but he just ignore you every time.
You two are friendsâ if not even best friends because clearly, if it wasnât the case, how could he explain why âacquaintanceâ are constantly glued together like you two? How could he explain how well you two know each others so well, to the point where he could see when you were faking a good mood? And come on nowâ what sensible person would crash at their acquaintanceâs apartment out of the blue just to see their pet owl?Â
Still, no matter what proof you could possible give him, he simply refused to acknowledge the truth. Yep. Even after two years of friendshipâor should you say âacquaintanceshipâ, you still are a lukewarm nuisance.
Actually, he said pest at first⌠But you like to think of it as an auditory hallucination on your part. You knowâ for the sake of your ego.
To be fair, you do annoy him on a daily basis anyway, so you kinda see where heâs coming from. But whatever, he likes to yap about how much you annoy him but never takes action. That man loves your company.
You giggle, your eyes drifting to the ceiling, while your fingers idly tap one of your thigh. Lazily slumped on the couch you sink even deeper into it, your head resting against the armrest as you yawn. Yep, youâre bored.
Last week you needed cleaning supplies for your apartment. So you decided to go to the mall. But you donât have a car. And you hate the lack of space and the pace of public transportation. So you asked you so generous and awesome friend that happens to have a car to drive you there. But of course he said no. You werenât surprised though. Thatâs why you innocently mentioned needing to buy bedding and food for Hooâster your pet owl. And of course, as soon as you mentioned your pet, he changed his mindâ begrudgingly but you didnât care about that!Â
Terrible mistake. Like people say karmaâs a bitch, because you got yourself a ticket to a Friday movie night. Again. âYaaayâŚâ You keep forgetting about the local video store on the way to mall, that for some reason, always have a display of their most recent arrival of horror movies. Seriously, how itâs only the horror section that gets displayed??
Oh, of course Rin immediately went to buy a copy.Â
âWeâre watching in next Friday. You better show up.â He said. You facepalmed.
A movement to your right jolted you out of your thoughts, making you turn your head. Rin, sitting beside you slightly shifted in his seat, slowly leaning forward. Eyes a little bit widened and the tip of his tongue sticking out. His head is even moving along with the scenes shown on the TV screen.Â
You blink. âWowâŚâ you were definitely used to this sight by nowâ yet you still look at him with the same fascination youâve had over the year, dripping in your eyes.
The first time Rin invited you to watch a movie with him, you were ecstaticâ well at least until you realised it was a horror movie. But anyway, at first you thought that he was finally warming up to you! You thought that you could ask him a bit more about himself and his hobbies! That you two could chat while watching the movie, even! Oh boy, how wrong were you. Itâs also when.. you discover thisâ quirk, of his? You remember being a bit weirded out back then. You even tried to punch him. You know⌠to bring him back to reality.
Yet nowâŚ
Now, seeing him so fully immersed in the movie this way is⌠quite endearing.
â - Rin?â You called out to him.
He doesnât answer.Â
⌠And thatâs all youâve been waiting for. The game begins.
In this game, you just need to shift Rinâs attention on you. Even if itâs for one second. The moment his eyes leave the screen, you win.
A cunning smile creeps up your face as you gently bite your index finger while trying to contain your excitement. When Rin is in this state, you can do pretty much anything you want to him and he wonât mind. Well not that he wonât mindâ heâs just so focused on the movie that heâd basically ignore or let most of your shenanigans slide.Â
Itâs only fair anyway. Since Rin seems to have a passion in forcing you to watch movies that bore you to death, youâll certainly enjoy your new passion: annoying the hell out of him when heâs hyper focused.
Of course at times it was pretty challenging, because the movies he chooses are generally pretty good, so nothing you did could really break his focus. But right now youâre confident. A gut feeling tells you that you can do it.Â
You shifted on the couch straitening up yourself back into a sitting position. Your lips pressed together in a suppressed smile while your right hand discreetly makes its way to Rin's head, poking it.
â- Rinrin?âÂ
Of course he shows no reaction. You knew he wouldnât. It takes more than that.
â- Rinrin~ Iâm boredâŚâ You say poking at his left cheek again and again.
â- Rin?â Poke. â- Riiin!â Poke. â- Rinrin.â Poke, poke.
Nothing.
Rinâs eyes are still glued to the screen. Itâs as if nothing happened, like youâre not even here. Normally heâd have already smacked your hand away, scowling at you to stop that. But you refuse to let his lack of reaction stop you.
You raise your hand again, about to poke at his side, but he stops you before you can do it, simply grabbing your hand before placing it back on your lap.
âHehehe⌠itâs workingâ
You start to poke his side again, changing location often to avoid hurting him. And you even shamelessly move closer to him, little by little as you poke him. Until thereâs no space left between you two. Then, you place your right hand on the back of his neck.
His head twitches slightly at the touch of your cold hand.
Now, now you just got a big reaction. A sly smile tugged at your lips.
Okay. So now you have to be careful, because breaking someoneâs concentration could get them mad somtimesâ like really mad. And in Rinâs case, it always result in a fightâ not a physical on though. He would just spend days ignoring you, and you didnât want that.
So to make sure that scenario doesnât happen, you try to ease him a bit by gently rubbing his back. Your hand slipping further down tracing a line along his spine until you reach the small of his back, making him shiver.
You tilt your head a bit. Itâs the first time heâs reacted like thisâ then again, itâs the first time you touch him like this⌠âDid that tickled?â you ask yourself.Â
Without pulling your hand off his back, you use your left hand to poke his shoulder repeatedly, letting it slide down to poke at his side again.
With a low rumble, Rin slaps your hand away. âOh! There you go!â
You stare at him, trying to meet his eyes, but theyâre still glued on the TV. Itâs usually at times like this that he gets mad at you and demand you to stop. But right now he just slapped your hand away! You totally have a chance in winning! You almost want to get up and bounce around the room.
When you glance back at him, you immediately notice something. Something important. His tongue. He tucked it back into his mouth! Oh~ You are so winning this little game of yours! And for the first time ever!
Now, you just have to deliver the final strike.
 âA kiss on the cheek.â You thought, internally cheering your victory already.Â
You never kissed him on the cheek beforeâ for obvious reasons, itâs Rin duh he wonât let youâ so youâre hoping that this bold action would be enough to break the remaining bits of his already thinned concentration. So you went for it, placing just a little peck on his cheek.
But, the second your lips brushes his skin, he spins around, grabbing your arm with his left hand while shoving you a little bit roughly on the couch. You closed your eyes due to the impact.
When you open your eyes again, the first thing you see is Rin on top of you, pinning both of your hands above your head with his left hand, while supporting his weight with his other hand, placed right next to your shoulder. Suddenly, time freeze as you lay there, completely stunned. How are you supposed to react to what is just happening now?
âWhat the hell is he doing??â
And what the hell is this situation? Rin Itoshi currently has you pinned down on the couch? This is completely new to you. Rin has never been like thisâ like grabbing you and shoving you against a wall to cage you between his arms? Never. Why would he even do that? Rin never really touch you. And if he does, itâs to push you away. So yeah, never. You almost thought he was playing a prank on you, for some reason. That is at least, until you meet his eyes.
His gaze on you is cold. Chilling you to the bone. Yet, you can feel the intensity of his stare burning a hole your face.
âWhatââ From then, you desperately try to look for a hint that heâs messing with you. You search desperately in his eyes some form of anger caused by your little game. In vain. Thereâs not a single drop of hostility or even his usual annoyance in his eyes. Just an intense and fiery gaze piercing through your defence, leaving you speechless.
You try to steady your breath as your eyes start to water from being open without blinking for too long. Your senses went numb yet at same time, you can still feel his hand slightly brushing against your shoulder, his knee pressed on your hip, and every single pore on your face, trying to regulate the rising temperature of your cheeks.
You can feel Rinâs shallow breath matching the rise and fall of your chest.
All the noise in the room disappear, filtered by the intensity of the moment. Your heartbeat is going crazy as he lets go of your hands, still staring you down. His, now, free hand makes its way to your cheek, gently brushing his thumb on your jawline.
Heâs still looking at you, with the same burning intensity, which is now way too intense for you as time passesâ intense to the point where youâre no longer able to withstand his gaze.
You avert your gaze, turning your head away from him. You feel dizzy, as if the room is spinning. Seeing your reaction, Rinâs hand slowly stoking your cheek, leaves abruptly, making your breath hitch. You got used to its warmth and now the cold sensation of its absence bites your cheek painfully.
You desperately want to say something. You want to ask Rin what has gotten into him, however the lump in your throat is forcing you into silence. Itâs the first time that youâve ever been this shy in front of him. But itâs also the first time that you canât figure out what heâs thinking at all.
You just know that him pinning you under him this way, makes you feel so tinyâ like a little mouse trapped in the paws of a cat. All you can do is to pray that he doesnât eat you whole.
You finally muster up the courage to face him, turning back your head to face him. And right at that moment, you catch him staring at your lips. Your eyes widen instantly and your breath hitches. You try to say something. Anything. Yet nothing but a quiet squeak comes out, which makes him look back into your eyes.
Though, itâs too late. Your brain has already crashed.
Youâre no longer present, well yes, you are because your body is here, but your mind? Long goneâliterally evaporated.
Rin just looked at your lipsâŚ
Youâve never imagined yourself with him before. It never even crossed your mind once. Heâs just a friend, thatâs all heâs ever been to you. A friendâ well okay a fucking good looking one. You canât lie about that. And even if his personality can be quite the challenge, once you get to know him heâs not that hard to deal with. So⌠why does the idea of being in a romantic relationship with him doesnât bother you at all? Like at all. If he asks you to go out on a date with him, like right now, youâd definitely accept right away.
Now that you think about it⌠since when did you even started to feel this way about him? Since when do you want to him to hug you and kiss you so badly?
And Rin? Does he feel the same way as you do? Does he feel something more than friendship for you. Is it for this very reason that constantly refuses your hugs and your affection? Was it why he looked at your lips?
As those questions swirl in your head, Rin gets up and turns off the TV, making is way to the kitchen. You bite the inside of your cheek, hearing him sigh softly while one of his hand runs through his hair.
â- Letâs get something to eat. Iâm hungry.â He says.
You only nod, still a bit shaken up by what just happened.
In every movie nights, youâre in charge of the food. Rin tells you what he wants to eat and you either make itâwhen you feel like it, or you order it. But this time you didnât even ask him what he wanted to eat. You canât verbally face him yet, a ton of question still spinning in your head making it impossible to focus. Well, to be completely honest, youâre also being too shy to voice any of your questions. Which is really not like you.
Rin sits down on the dining table and looks at you briefly. Itâs quiet. Youâre quiet. Too quiet. Youâve never been this quiet ever with him, and that seems to bother him deeply. He tsk in annoyance, a frown tugging at his brows as he seats down at the dining table.
â- For someone whoâs always pestering me, trying to get a reaction out of me, now that youâve got it, youâre this quiet? How tepid.â
Your heart begins to race again as he brings up what has just happened. You never expected him to be the one to mention it first.
â - I was just⌠Itâs weird! Youâve never done that before, thatâs why!â You blurt out defensively.
â - Keep messing with me like that, and Iâll do it again.â
Thereâs a brief silence and you blink, processing what heâs just said. Did he just...? You tilt your head and raise an eyebrow, well you were used to Rin being bossyâ but not like this? Feeling more confident thanks to him, you smirk, your true self slowly coming back out.
â - Iâll just have to get used to it.â You retort with a challenging tone.
Rin locks eyes with you, and for a brief moment, you spot that same intense look he had earlier when he pinned you down on the couch. And, just as quickly, his gaze shifts to your lips, then back to your eyes.
â - Iâll just have to shut you up.â
Rinâs phone suddenly rings, cutting through the silent stare down, the building tension between you two had created. And not without glancing at you one last time, he gets up, heading out of the kitchen to answer the call.
Youâre left sitting here, heart racing like a wild horse in your chest. A big but dumb grin plastered on your face, your cheeks and ears burning hot, as you couldnât help but think out loud.
â - Guess weâre still not friends then.â
GOD⌠this took longer than expected. I KEPT ADDING STUFF THATS WHY đ I yap a lot when i write. I swear it was supposed to be a 700/1K drabble . But anyways I really had fun writing this!! I Got inspired by my interaction with the Rins RP blog! (I love them so much! Shout out to the mods!) I might do one for Sae but Idk yet.
Well thank you if you read till here!
#â˘inking waffleâŁ#bllk rin#blue lock rin#bllk x you#bllk x reader#bluelock x reader#rin itoshi x reader#rin itoshi#rin x reader#rin itoshi x you#rin itoshi x y/n#blue lock#blue lock fic
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the indisputable fact that inho's only blind spot is his brother. he could have (and would have) killed any other intruder. if anyone else would have infiltrated the games instead of his younger brotherâthe younger brother who idolizes him, admires him, whose entire world within the narrative frame of the show revolves around himâinho would have killed them. he would have not done it personally, he had enough guards with him to assure that. but then, it turns out that the person who has crawled into this pit of darkness he has vanished to, year after year, is junho. junho, who loves him enough to bring him back. who has ventured into this hell on earth to bring inho back. who could not stand a week of his brother's disappearance, that little vanishing act, who is perhaps just alike enough to come as far as he did. who else could have made it that far? junho has a singular advantage compared to anyone else who might have ever wondered, or tried. he knows his brother. he is the only living person who knows inho better than anyone else.
but, see, of course junho had to survive. he could have never died after the first season, because the person who shot him is inho, and not the guards. the mirror image of himself (which is a motive repeated when inho sees junho while he is extracting the bullet out of his matching gun shot woundâit could literally not be any more obvious), his achilles heel. inho never intended to kill junho. instead, he sent the boat that would save junho's life and bring him back to the shore. despite the increased risk of keeping an intruder alive, inho does not care and does so anyway. junho is his brother, and because that is all that inho has left in the world, his brother cannot die. because inho could watch hundreds, thousands of people die with the resolute detachment of a business man, but he could not watch junho fall into the ocean without inspiring a haunting. he could not stand the fact that his brother would die, that he could have killed him. inho is not even the first to pull the triggerâthat is junho. junho shoots first, draws blood, and inho watches him, stunned into silence.
do they know each other? better than anyone. maybe this violence should not come as a surprise then, but it does, to the both of them. inho does not expect junho to harm him, he thinks, genuinely, that junho will come with him. and, for a brief moment, he believes that junho will. junho, who has followed him into the police force and onto that wretched island. why would he not follow him further?
but junho has also been changed, and this is the one place he cannot follow his brother to. his own desire is, once again, a mirror image of his older brother: he wants inho to follow him back home. this is the main motivation for junho's entire character arc, which has followed him into season two; it has remained unchanged, instead only increased in fervor. junho, honestly, could not care less about these games; actually, gihun cares much more about the games and the sacrifices than junho does.
because junho cares about inho.
and inho cares about junho, enough to keep him far away from him. which goes directly against junho's need to bring inho back, of course. now, the question isâwhat will happen when those two forces will finally push against each other? and that is very much the central question of the show.
#junho = orpheus; inho = eurydice & hades#squid game#squid game meta#hwang inho#hwang junho#tuseral#i don't think inho will survive the show but godddd i cannot wait for junho to find him again
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Ëââ§ę°á Chapter 10 ŕťęą â§âË
ŕ¨ŕ§âpairing: Telemachus x fem!reader
ŕ¨ŕ§âthe argument between antinous and reader seems to go around in circles just ignore that, I was tired when I wrote that a while ago.
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The next morning, Y/N stood near her brother, Antinous, in the great hall as the suitors feasted and laughed, their voices echoing through the loud space. She stayed close to him, her usual confidence subdued. Her sharp gaze darted around, avoiding any chance of locking eyes with Telemachus, who sat at the far end of the room, his head bowed and his movements tense.
Antinous noticed her uncharacteristic quietness almost immediately. âWhatâs with you?â he asked, tearing into a piece of bread. âYouâre usually causing some sort of chaos by now.â Y/N shrugged, leaning against the back of his chair and crossing her arms. âJust tired.â
âTired?â Antinous smirked, looking up at her. âSince when does the great Y/N get tired? Did someone knock you off your pedestal?â She scowled down at him but didnât take the bait. âDonât start, Antinous. Iâm not in the mood.â Antinous raised an eyebrow, intrigued. âNot in the mood, huh? Thatâs new.â He leaned back, resting his arm over the chair. âWhat happened? Did Telemachus finally grow a spine and say something to you?â At the mention of Telemachus, Y/Nâs jaw tightened, and she looked away, pretending to study the bustling servants in the hall.
âAh,â Antinous said knowingly, his smirk widening. âIt is about him. Whatâd he do? Trip over his own feet trying to fight you? Or did he cry about his daddy again?â Y/n shot him a sharp look, her eyes narrowing. âShut up, Antinous.â Her brother blinked in surprise at her tone, then chuckled. âTouchy, arenât we? Didnât know youâd get so defensive over the little prince.â
âIâm not defensive,â Y/n snapped, straightening up and crossing her arms tighter. âI just donât want to talk about him.â Antinous studied her for a moment, his smirk fading slightly. âDid something happen? Did he do something to you? I swear if he did, Iâll make sure I beat his ass so hard he begs Thanatos would take him already.â he asked, his tone losing some of its teasing edge. Y/n hesitated, then sighed, leaning against the table beside him. âItâs nothing,â she said finally. âJustâŚheâs irritating, thatâs all.â
Antinous snorted. âHeâs always irritating. Whatâs new? Itâs like everytime you see his mother, you think you can go and flirt with her, but his titty sucking ass is already with her. You can never get her alone anymore.â She hesitated again, her fingers gripping the edge of the table. âHeâsâŚjust different lately. Heâs trying to act all noble, like heâs something more than he is, like he can stand up to us. Like he actually has the right to even touch usâ
Antinous rolled his eyes. âThat kid couldnât stand up to a gust of wind, let alone us. Let him play hero if he wants, itâs not like itâll change anything.âY/n nodded, though she didnât seem entirely convinced. Antinous glanced at her again, his brow furrowing slightly. âYouâre sure thatâs all it is?â
âOf course,â Y/n said quickly, straightening up and forcing a smirk. âWhat else would it be?â Her brother shrugged, picking up his goblet. âJust making sure youâre not going soft, little N/N. Wouldnât want the prince to win you over with one of his grand speeches or pathetic little stunts.âY/n scoffed, rolling her eyes. âPlease. Like that could ever happen.â Antinous grinned, satisfied, and raised his goblet in a mock toast. âThatâs my sister.â
But as Y/N turned away, her expression faltered. Her thoughts drifted to the previous night, the look on Telemachusâs face, the softness in his voice, and the vulnerability he didnât quite manage to hide. Antinous leaned back in his chair, tearing a chunk off his bread and giving her a sidelong glance. She still stood nearby, arms crossed, a faraway look in her eyes. For a moment, she seemed to have forgotten she was even in the great hall. âAlright, whatâs really going on with you?â he said, breaking the silence.
âI told you, itâs nothing,â she replied curtly, though her tone lacked its usual bite. Antinous raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. âYouâre acting weird. Donât think I havenât noticed. Youâre quiet, avoiding peopleâavoiding himâand now youâve got thisâŚmelancholy look on your face.â He waved a hand at her, looking faintly disturbed. âYouâre not getting soft, are you?â Y/n hesitated, her fingers twitching against her arms. Finally, she sighed, dragging out a chair and sitting beside him. âDo you ever wonderâŚwhat weâre even doing here?â
Antinous blinked, genuinely startled by her question. âWhat?â She gestured vaguely around the room. âThis. All of this. Sitting here, wasting time while you gamble and insult people. While weââ she paused, her voice dropping, âmock a family thatâs already suffered enough.â Antinous stared at her like sheâd grown a second head. âY/n, what the hell are you talking about?â Her eyes flicked to his, a rare seriousness in her gaze. âDonât you ever think about it? How pathetic it all feels? Fighting over Penelopeâs hand like vultures over scraps, while Telemachusââ She stopped, catching herself.
Antinous frowned, leaning forward. âWhile Telemachus what?â She shook her head, looking away. âNever mind.â
âNo, no, no.â Antinous held up a hand, still staring at her like he was waiting for her to confess a crime. âYouâre not just gonna drop that. What about Telemachus?â She hesitated again, then sighed. âHeâsâŚjust a man. He doesnât deserve all this. Losing his father, having us invade his home, disrespecting his mother. Itâs cruel, Antinous. All of it.â Antinous gaped at her, clearly at a loss for words. âAre youâŚare you actually feeling bad for him? The kid who glares at us every time we breathe too loud? The one who can barely string two insults together?â
âI know it sounds ridiculous,â she admitted, her voice softer now. âBut heâs hurting, Antinous. And here we are, making it worse.âbAntinous put his bread down, rubbing a hand over his face. âWho are you, and what have you done with my sister?âY/n gave him a faint smile, though it didnât quite reach her eyes. âIâm serious. Donât you ever stop and think about the damage weâre doing? To them? To ourselves?â Antinous stared at her, still dumbfounded. âYouâve never cared about this kind of thing before. Why now?â
âI donât know,â she admitted, leaning back in her chair. âMaybe Iâm just tired of it all. The games, the insults, the cruelty. Itâs exhausting.â Antinous leaned closer, his voice dropping. âY/n, this isnât like you. Youâre the one who loves the games, who lives for the insults. Are you sick? Did you hit your head? Because Iâm honestly getting concerned here.â She laughed softly, shaking her head. âMaybe Iâve finally grown a conscience.â
Antinous groaned, slumping back in his chair. âGreat. Thatâs just what I need, a sister whoâs suddenly decided to be all sentimental and righteous. Do me a favor and snap out of it, would you?â She rolled her eyes, but the weight in her chest didnât lift. Antinous studied her again, his brow furrowed. âYouâre really serious about this, huh?â She didnât answer immediately, but when she finally spoke, her voice was quieter than heâd ever heard it. âI just donât want to be the reason someone else falls apart.â
For once, Antinous had no clever response. He stared at her, the usual smirk wiped from his face, replaced by something unreadable. Finally, he muttered, âGods, youâre weird today.â She chuckled lightly, though her expression remained distant. âYeah. Maybe I am.â Antinous shook his head, still looking baffled. âWell, try not to get too noble on me. I donât need my little sister turning into some hero overnight.â
âDonât worry,â Y/n said with a faint smirk. âIâll leave the heroics to Telemachus.â Antinous snorted, his smirk returning. âNow that Iâd like to see.â But as she leaned back in her chair, staring at the ceiling, her thoughts drifted again, back to the boy sheâd spent so much time tormenting, and the growing guilt she couldnât quite shake. Antinous leaned forward, his smirk fading into something harder, his voice sharp. âListen to me, N/N. You need to stop thinking like that. Right now.â She raised an eyebrow at him, her arms still crossed. âThinking like what?â
âLike they deserve your sympathy,â he said firmly, pointing in the vague direction of where Telemachus and Penelope usually lingered. âTheyâre rich. Theyâve got everything, power, status, this gods damned palace. You think they need your pity?â Y/n frowned, shifting in her seat. âItâs not about what they have, Antinous. Itâs about what theyâve lost. Their lives have been torn apart. You canât tell me you donât see that.âAntinous scoffed, leaning back and folding his arms. âLost? Oh, please. What do you think people like us deal with every day? You think the worldâs been kind to us? You think we havenât had to fight tooth and nail for everything weâve got?âY/Nâs gaze hardened. âThat doesnât mean we should make it worse for them.â
âIt means we do what we have to,â Antinous snapped, his tone rising. âYou think Odysseus gave a damn about anyone he trampled on his way to the top? He was ruthless, just like every other so called great man. And now weâre supposed to kneel and weep because his brat of a son canât handle the game?â She shook her head, frustration flaring. âThatâs not the point, Antinous. Just because the worldâs cruel doesnât mean we have to be.â
Antinous let out a harsh laugh, standing up and towering over her. âYouâre missing the bigger picture, N/N. People like them? They donât need our kindness. They donât even know what to do with it. Theyâll take your pity, chew it up, and spit it back in your face the second itâs convenient. Thatâs how power works.â She stood too, meeting his gaze with a defiance he didnât often see from her. âMaybe they donât deserve kindness. But what about us? What kind of people do we become if all we do is destroy?â
He narrowed his eyes at her, his voice dropping to a dangerous tone. âWe become survivors, thatâs what. Do you think anyone gave a damn about us when we were clawing our way up? Sympathy doesnât get you anywhere, little sister. Strength does. Cunning does. And right now, youâre acting like neither.â Y/Nâs jaw tightened, but she didnât look away. âMaybe surviving isnât enough, Antinous. Maybe thereâs more to life than this endless cycle of cruelty and ambition.â Her words hung in the air, and for a moment, Antinous didnât respond. Then he shook his head, a bitter smile on his lips. âYouâre soft, N/N. Youâre letting that little prince get into your head.â
âIâm not soft,â she shot back, her voice firm. âIâm just tired of pretending that thisâ she gestured around the room, at the feasting, the shouting, the mockery âis all there is.â Antinous stared at her, his expression unreadable. Finally, he sighed and sat back down, rubbing a hand over his face. âGods, youâre impossible today. JustâŚsnap out of it, alright? Stop overthinking everything and remember who you are.â
âAnd who am I, Antinous?â She asked quietly, her voice laced with a challenge.
âYouâre my sister,â he said, looking up at her with a hard glint in his eyes. âWhich means youâre not some bleeding heart fool. Youâre smarter than this, tougher than this. Donât let them ruin that.âY/n didnât respond immediately. She stared at him, her mind churning with thoughts she didnât dare speak aloud. Antinous sighs and pulls her close, a rare action he almost never did, âListen N/N, you know I love you right? You know how Iâd rip out someoneâs spine if they ever did you harm to you right? Then you should know how Iâm only doing this for your own sake. Empathy makes you good but it doesnât always make you right, you should know this, weâve had this conversation much before ever since you were a little girl.â
Pandora goes stiff, itâs rare to see Antinous act like a proper person, considering almost every action he makes, would make even the crazed seem rational. âYou know, I remember one time when you were younger, you used to be deathly afraid of thunder storms, to the point where the second you would sense one, you would come crying to me and holding onto me like I was some lifeline. You were adorable!â Antinous boasted as he ruffles her hair while her face was crimson red from sheer embarrassment.
âOr the time where you accidentally called me fatherââ she immediately shuts him up by covering his mouth. Her expression still scarlet. âShy much?â Antinous manages to mutter out as he smirks and grabs her arms, slowly pulling them away.
Ëââ§ę°á â ŕťęą â§âË
Y/N finally slips away from Antinous. The hall had grown stifling with the usual boisterous laughter of the suitors, and she needed space to clear her head. She wandered into the quieter corridors of the palace, her steps echoing softly against the stone floor. As she rounded a corner, she paused, leaning against the cool wall. Her mind had been restless lately, a tangle of conflicting emotions she couldnât untangle, and her brotherâs words hadnât helped. For once, she wanted silence, to be left alone to think.
But The Fates, as always, had other plans.
âY/N.â
Her name, sharp and tense, echoed down the hall. She froze, the voice instantly recognizable. Turning her head, she saw Telemachus striding toward her, his face a mask of barely contained anger. She sighed, straightening. âWhat do you want, Telemachus?â He didnât answer right away. Instead, he closed the distance between them with quick, determined steps. Before she could react, he grabbed her arm and pressed her against the wall, his eyes blazing.
âWhat is wrong with you?â he demanded, his voice low but furious. âWhy have you been avoiding me?â She blinked, momentarily stunned. She had never seen Telemachus like this, so intense, soâŚforceful. It was almost amusing, if not for the way his grip tightened just slightly, his frustration palpable. âI havenât been avoiding you,â she said with a casual shrug, as if his anger was nothing more than a passing breeze. âDonât lie to me,â he snapped, leaning closer. âYouâve been stuck to Antinousâs side for days, refusing to even look at me. Why? Did I do something wrong?â She raised an eyebrow, tilting her head. âAnd why does it matter to you? Did you miss me, little wolf?â
âStop calling me that!â he barked, slamming his palm against the wall beside her head. âJust tell me why, Y/N! Why are you hiding?â
She stared at him for a long moment, the smirk slipping from her lips. âWhatâs gotten into you?â
âWhatâs gotten into me?â he echoed, his voice trembling slightly. âYouâve been driving me insane! First, you humiliate me, then you act all sad and pitiful, and now youâre acting like I donât even exist! What kind of game are you playing?â
She narrowed her eyes, her voice dropping. âItâs not a game, Telemachus.â
âThen what is it?â he pressed, his face so close she could feel the heat radiating from him.
She was silent for a moment, her gaze flickering over his face. âYouâre too young to understand,â she said finally, her tone dismissive. Acting as if sheâs not basically the same age but okay
âDonât patronize me.â He growled. âYou think you can just toy with people and walk away? Iâm not going to let you do that to me.â Her smirk returned, though it was smaller this time. âOh, Telemachus. Youâre so naive.â
His grip tightened on her arm, and she could feel the tremor in his hand, born not of strength, but of raw emotion. âIâm not naive,â he said through gritted teeth. âIâm frustrated. And you donât get to brush me off like this.â
Y/Nâs gaze softened for just a moment, but it was fleeting. She leaned in, her voice low and dangerous. âAnd you donât get to pin me against a wall and act like youâre in control. What, Did your balls just now grow? Does bwig stwong Telemachus wanna play the role of the man of the house?â
Telemachusâs grip on the wall wavered as his frustration reached its peak. He leaned in, his face so close to herâs that he could feel the warmth of her breath. Her smugness, her teasing, it all melted away in the intensity of the moment. Her lips parted slightly, as if she was about to say something, but the words never came. Before he could think, before either of them could stop it, their lips collided in a clumsy, heated kiss. It was a mixture of anger, confusion, and something neither of them could quite name.
For a split second, everything else disappeared, the tension, the insults, the chaos around them. All that remained was the electrifying realization that they had crossed a line they couldnât take back. Then, just as quickly as it happened, they both pulled away, breathing heavily. Y/n back pressed harder against the wall, and Telemachus stumbled back a step, his eyes wide with shock.
âWowâŚâ she muttered, her voice uncharacteristically quiet. She blinked, her cheeks flushed. âUh⌠okay then.â
Telemachus ran a hand through his hair, his face as red as the setting sun. âYeah. Okay. That⌠just happened.â
Y/nâs lips quirked up into a small, nervous smile, but for once, she didnât have a snarky comment ready. âGuess weâre, uh⌠even now? No! What the hell was that?â she demanded, her voice louder than intended.
âI donât know!â Telemachus said quickly, his words tumbling over each other. âI didnât meanâI wasnât thinkingâI justââ They both stood there, frozen, staring at each other in stunned silence. The corridor, which moments ago had been filled with tension and anger, now felt suffocatingly quiet. Y/nâs mouth opened and closed like she was searching for something to say, but for once, she was at a loss for words. Finally, she managed to choke out, âYou⌠you kissed me.â
âYou kissed me too!â Telemachus shot back, pointing at her like a cornered animal. Y/Nâs brow furrowed, and she crossed her arms, though her cheeks burned red. âThatâs not how this works! You started it!â
âI didnât mean to!â Telemachus said, his voice rising in pitch. He looked like he wanted to disappear, his hands now fidgeting wildly at his sides. âIt just happened!â They stood there in awkward silence, the air between them thick with unspoken questions and emotions. Finally, she broke the tension with a shaky laugh.
âWell, little wolf,â she said, her voice regaining some of its usual edge. âNever knew you had that dog in you.â Telemachus groaned, covering his face with his hand in embarrassment. âDonât. Just donât.â
They lapsed into another awkward silence, neither of them daring to move or speak for what felt like an eternity. âIâm leaving,â Telemachus finally blurted, turning sharply on his heel. He took two steps before tripping over his own feet, stumbling forward with an awkward flail of his arms. âIâm fine!â he said loudly, throwing a hand in the air as if that would somehow restore his dignity.
Y/n watched, still plastered to the wall, as he stumbled down the hallway, nearly tripping again before regaining his footing. He didnât look back, though his awkward hand motions as he walked away spoke volumes. She stared after him for a long moment, her heart pounding and her cheeks still burning. Slowly, she raised a hand to her lips, her fingers brushing over them as she tried to process what had just happened.
âWhat⌠the hell was that?â she muttered to herself, sinking back against the wall.
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Y/N wandered aimlessly down the dim corridor, her thoughts spinning like a cyclone. She could still feel the warmth of Telemachusâs lips lingering on hers, and it both irritated and confused her. What was that? What in Hades was I thinking? Her fingers brushed against her lips, her mind replaying the moment over and over, despite her best efforts to forget it. She muttered to herself, âIt didnât mean anything. Just a stupid, impulsiveââ
âWell, well, well,â came a sly voice from the shadows behind her. âLooks like Eros was busy shooting his arrows tonight, hm?â
She froze, her heart leaping into her throat. She spun around to find Eurymachus leaning casually against the wall, a knowing smirk plastered across his face.
âEurymachus,â she said, forcing her voice to stay steady. âWhat are you doing lurking around like some creep?â
âOh, donât mind me,â he said, his smirk widening. âI just happened to witness something⌠fascinating.â He tilted his head, his tone dripping with mockery. âYou and the little princling, locking lips in the middle of the hall, like you were the next Orpheus and Eurydice? Now thatâs a story worth telling.â Her eyes widened, panic surging through her.
Y/nâs eyes widened, panic surging through her. âYou saw that?â Y/N clenched her fists, her mind racing. This couldnât be happening. If Eurymachus had seen them, then it was only a matter of time before he toldâ
âClear as day,â Eurymachus said, crossing his arms as he took a step closer. âAnd I have to say, it was quite the spectacle. Antinous is going to love this, your dear brother wonât know whether to laugh or strangle Telemachus.â
âNo,â she said quickly, her voice sharp. She straightened, trying to look composed despite the alarm coursing through her. âYouâre not telling him anything.â
âOh?â Eurymachus said, feigning innocence. âAnd why wouldnât I? Antinous deserves to know what his baby sister has been up to, doesnât he? Especially when it involves Telemachus of all people.â He exclaimed, uttering Telemachusâs name like it was some kind of curse. She clenched her fists, her mind racing for a way out. She took a step forward, her voice lowering to a dangerous whisper. âIf you say a word to him, Eurymachus, I swear Iâllââ
âYouâll what?â he interrupted, his grin turning smug. âThreaten me? Beat me up? Donât forget, Pandora, Iâm not a little virgin bitchy prince, who hasnât been touched by a woman who isnât his mother, up until now, you can just threaten.â
Y/nâs nails dug into her palms. âYou donât have to tell him,â she said, trying to keep her tone calm, almost pleading. âIt wasnât anything. Just⌠a mistake. It doesnât matter.â
âOh, it matters,â Eurymachus said, his voice dripping with mock sympathy. âAntinous will think it matters a lot. And you know how protective he can be.â Her swallowed hard, her heart hammering in her chest. Eurymachus had her cornered, and he knew it.
âPlease,â she said through gritted teeth, hating herself for even uttering the word. âWhat do you want, Eurymachus?â He leaned casually against the wall, inspecting his nails like he had all the time in the world. âI might be willing to keep my mouth shut. For a price.â She narrowed her eyes. âWhat kind of price?â
Eurymachus straightened, his grin widening. âJust a few errands. Simple stuff, really. Things that someone as resourceful as you should have no trouble handling.â She scoffed. âErrands? Do I look like a servant to you?â
âWell, no,â he said, stepping closer, his tone darkening slightly. âBut if youâd rather I tell Antinous about your little midnight rendezvous with Telemachus, then by all means, feel free to decline.â
Y/N clenched her fists at her sides, fury bubbling under her skin. She wanted nothing more than to knock that smug expression off his face, but she knew she couldnât afford to take that risk. âWhat kind of errands?â she asked through gritted teeth.
Eurymachus chuckled. âGlad you asked. First, I need you to âborrowâ a certain necklace from one of the servants in the palace. Letâs just say itâd make a fine addition to my collection.â
âYou want me to steal for you?â She snapped, her voice rising.
âBorrow. sheâll get her rings back, if she sleeps with me that is.â Eurymachus corrected with a smirk. âSecond, I need you to find out whoâs been sneaking food to the servants late at night. I have a hunch itâs one of the other Suitors, and Iâd hate for someone to get too charitable around here.â
Y/n glared at him. âAnything else, or is that all?â
He tapped a finger to his chin, pretending to think. âOh, one more. Tell that little prince to put in a good word for me to his mother..â
âYouâre disgusting,â she hissed.
âAnd youâre out of options,â he shot back, his grin never faltering. âDo these for me, and your little secret stays safe. Refuse, and, wellâŚâ He shrugged, letting the unspoken threat hang in the air. She stared at him, her nails digging into her palms as she considered her choices. Finally, she gave a sharp nod. âFine. But if you go back on your wordââ
âI wonât,â he interrupted, holding up his hands in mock innocence. âIâm a man of my word, Y/N. You should know that by now.â With that, he turned and walked away, leaving y/n standing in the hallway, seething with anger.
âIâm gonna fucking kill him.â she muttered to herself. âOne way or another.â
#epic the musical#epic the musical x reader#epic telemachus#antinous#telemachus#telemachus x reader#antinous x reader#eurymachus#Aphrodites gamble
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The MOMENT I laid eyes on that rollbar I thought "Huh! How Caterham-like!", lol. Turns out I know my favorite car well.
Funnily enough, the Caterham Seven has been given a sleeker body before, by Caterham themselves no less, and this new year marks 21 years since that happened. And given the result was named Caterham 21, and specifically because Caterham had been making Sevens for 21 years by then, this would be a very funny coincidence if I hadn't planned it.
Okay, there is to say the name may also have been influenced by the goal of making something like the legendary Lotus Eleven racecar...
...but enough dwelling, let's get you a picture of what this thing looks like!
Oh, what's that there?
But that's my blogpost on it I wrote eight years ago, on the news section (bafflingly) of automotive publication Car Throttle!
"Wait, you wrote published automotive articles eight years ago?"
Well, not really.
See, Car Throttle did have an articles section, but at heart it was a car-centered social media platform. There were larger, more structured posts in the "Blog" community, and the editors sometimes picked the better ones and shared them in the Official Featured Articles Of The Staff Whose Job It Is To Do This section. And a couple of my posts were picked, which at my then tender age of [too young for unsupervised internet networking] was an inconceivable honor.
But then at some point they decided, I believe to quote the chief, their attempt "to make the Facebook for cars" was ill-conceived, because "the Facebook for cars was already Facebook", and the platform pivoted to just being a news outlet. And, infuriatingly, pretending they never were a social to begin with. Forget preserving the posts, we weren't even given a tool, a deadline, a warning for archival. Posting ability was removed and everything was just hidden and hushed away slowly and gradually enough to frogboil away all attention before deleting all those posts I and countless others poured heart and soul into.
Except the Editor's Picks - a layout change could make those look like proper articles and pad their offerings. Clicking the author name leads to a cryptic "Forum" section. No mention of upvotes -embarrassing memories- but the comments are there, they make it look like a visited website. Who's this blank circle? Can't click the username. Who are they tagging? Page wasn't found. How do all these commenters seemingly know each other? Good luck googling them. Now visit our shop.
So, in the spirit of fuck that, here is that article remastered for Tumblr - a platform that, for all its ills, refuses to shut its doors in the face of all sense and all the internet rowing against its model of a free, unalgorithmic feed where all forms of content are welcome.
Fair warning: you'll need to be up to speed with the story of the Seven itself. Here's the link again - last chance!
Caterham did something other than the Seven? Yep. This is the 1994-1999 Caterham 21, the only other production Caterham. It was pretty much a more comfortable, everyday-use Seven.
What's with that crazy silver look? That's the aluminum prototype. The production version was made out of fiberglass, and looked like this:
Hold up⌠Why do those taillights look familiar? Well, you know how it is with small sportscars... and when the design team cruised the motorway looking for lights that would suit the design...
And the parts sharing doesn't end there either.
And what about the interior? Was it comfortable? More than the Seven, of course (in the end, that was its goal): It had more creature comforts, such as proper doors, actual glass windows (which, as a trade-off, didnât roll down), a dashboard that actually looks like the product of design work, and a soft-top you closed rather than assembled. Though comfort was still one of its weaker points.
Why so? Isnât it a lot wider? Where did all the extra width go? WellâŚ
Yes, this is for real. You could have a football match on those sills.
Engine-wise? UK car industry experts are waiting for me to say it - and indeed, the almost stereotypical Rover K-series engine (found from the Land Rover Freelander to the FSO Polonez and a wealth of little British sportscars in between) was offered either as a 1.6 (offering 1or as a 1.8.
Oh, yeah, and it had one of those cool forward-opening bonnets, since the whole front was a single piece so good luck with any other way.
Any specs? Plenty.
The 115hp 1.6 reached 60mph (for yankees, that's the same) in 6.4 seconds and carried on to 118 (for non-yankees, that's 190km/h). That's a pretty low top speed, but these cars were always oriented towards acceleration and lower-speed roads. If you wanted more though, the 1.6 Supersport upped the power to 138, lowered the 0-60 to 5.8 and reached 131 (210km/h). The 1.8 started at 122hp but its Supersport variant developed 138... and the Supersport R 190, rocketing to 60 in 4.5 seconds. But those are very rare.
How was the sound? Better than a Viperâs. At least, according to Mike Rutherford from this Men and Motors segment from 1998. If you want to spare yourself some ear-piercing music, skip to 2 minutes for the bold claim and some chatting with Jez Coates (Caterhamâs technical director) about how they managed that.
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How did that power get to the wheels? As standard, it had the Ford Type 9 transmission, the one youâd find in a MKIII Capri or a Sierra, though a Caterham-made six-speed gearbox was offered as an option. It also had a limited-slip differential, of course.
So, how was it like to drive? Probably better than the Seven: the chassis was 50% stiffer, the wheels were further apart and the suspension was tweaked for a better ride. And while it was bigger and heavier than the Seven it was based on, weâre still talking about less than 4 meters and 1500 pounds (for Europeans, that's about 1800 euros at today's exchange- wait no).
Oh, and then there was the GTO, a racing version with the Seven R500's 1.8l engine. Some specs? 230 hp, 0-100 in 3,8 seconds, and all in 1994.
And, as if it wasnât mad enough already, it later received the Levanteâs V8 - supercharged to 500 hp! In a car that weighs not much more than that in kilograms!
Wow, what a cool car! How come it failed to replace the Seven? That was never its goal! The production was already meant to be limited to 200 cars a year. Which of course, multiplied by the five years it was sold-
Lightnings strike. Thunders echo. Typhoons blow. Lotuses handle. But their quest to revive the Seven's ethos called for much more than coasting on that fact of life. They pushed aluminium manufacturing itself to new bounds to create a chassis less Seven tier rigid and more seven times that. The engineers' pursuit of lightness was so absurd that their own electric window mechanisms were lighter than their supplier's manual ones. The result was a beautiful mid-engined sportscar with proper development budget about as light as the 21 and only ÂŁ200 more than its base version, which it beat in 0-60, top speed and being preassembled. Yeah.
It was the raw British performers' iPod. Compact, light, capable, yet refined, simple and comfortable to use... a great enough product to push its brand away from the edge of hasbeendom and towards a new renaissance, ushering in a boom of its category... which was really more a boom of just itself, given how few other real beneficiaries there were.
Sure, you could buy a Morgan if your tophat stayed on during sex. You could buy a TVR if your views on ergonomics aligned with The Joker's. You could even buy a Creative Nomad Jukebox. But then, you'd still probably want a car with a radio to plug it into. So, while yearly Elise production, targeting 750, peaked at 5000 (or, spot the theme, seven times that), not 50 Caterham 21s were ever produced. Of which just two were Supersport Rs. I told you they were rare.
But that still doesn't explain it, does it? Sure, the Elise might've made it redundant at best and even stolen its spotlight when first showcased in '95, but the 21 still had a full year when the Elise was but a rumor, so surely, at least for the briefest while, there was room to shine for the idea of a plusher take on the cheap, basic British sportscar recipe, ri-
Yep. The 1989, or 1990 depending on your address, Mazda Miata. The iPod of the British sportscar. And no, I'm not refuting my first use of this analogy. The original concept behind the Miata was putting the ethos of the traditional British roadster in a package so usable the everyman could have it not just as their weekend car but as their only car. The original concept behind the Elise was updated because of pesky regulations to, ugh, have doors. We are talking about two very different levels of commitment there - and by extension two very different breadths of potential customers. To clarify: the uproarious success of the Elise led to the production of a whole 55 thousand between its every variant when production stopped in 2021. That's half of all cars Lotus ever made in its seven decades. In 2016, Mazda produced its millionth Miata.
Yeah.
And sure, the 21 was much lighter and faster than the Miata, but those who wanted that enough to both pay a ÂŁ3k premium and put up with an unreliable, temperamental handmade British car, but not enough to go for the even lighter and faster Seven were evidently... not enough.
Which is a shame, really, isn't it? However much I may love the Seven's looks, I'm not blind to them being... let's use "polarizing". To have something not just more conventionally attractive, but also much more approachable (you know, things like knowing you won't have to frantically fiddle with two dozen buttons if it starts to drizzle) could, for the right person, not just make the proposition more appealing, but be what pushes it into the reign of justifiability.
Right, it sucks for those people! Now that itâs a rarity, prices must be sky-high⌠Well, youâre about to be pleasantly surprised: those Caterhams you saw above are actually up for sale, and with prices that rival used Sevens, too!
Okay, that was eight years ago, but from what I've been able to tell any time a 21's gone on sale since then the price has closer to the first figure than the second - when not lower still!
And that's the end of the article, engagement prompts aside. That transition from small edits to a whole new section was pretty jarring, eh. Writer improves after third of life. More at 7.
Anyhow, here's your first post of the year - and here's to one more year here on Tumblr, making the kind of content every other social platform welcomes as merrily as the plague.
Thank you all for sticking around for it. Means a lot.
Scoperta, 2024, by Camal Studio. A sports car based on the Caterham Seven is to be offered by Turin-based design studio. The cars will cost âŹ150,000
#camal scoperta#caterham#caterham seven#caterham 21#ford mondeo#rover 200#suzuki cappuccino#lotus elise#mazda miata#mazda mx-5#Youtube
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it might be an awkward question but-
HOW DO YOU MANAGE TO DRAW SO MUCH?? how do you get so many beautiful ideas? how do you keep yourself motivated? tell me your secret I will sell you my soul
𩵠𫴠take it.
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Ah the question ever
Truthful and simple answer is that thereâs no secret
This might seem contradictory considering how much I post, but I genuinely am not as motivated or as inspired as I seem to be
I struggle a lot with ideas and motivation and that is a problem I have on a daily basis thatâs been happening for years (I have SO many wips that I never shared)
Itâs not about the struggle, itâs about how I curated my art to that struggle
Iâm at a constant threat to experience burnout (certified chronic pain and chronic fatigue haver), so to combat that, I take measures to make sure I donât burn myself out and actually reserve the very little energy I have to continue doing artworks/comics
To give you a specific example, if you notice with my comics, theyâre always sketchy and are never colored, thatâs not because I donât want to make colored comics, but because of knowledge from previous experiences that if I actually forced myself to make colored comics, Iâd immediately plunge to burnout and would probably not be able to draw for a few weeks after because of it (in fact the last time I made a colored comic was here, which is a rare occasion even then btw, and that comic caused me to experience a near burnout)
Which was extremely frustrating to me at some point might I add, because before 2021, I had no problem making so many colored comics and artworks at a short span of time, I actually had motivation before (something that is lost to me now), so you can imagine how genuinely frustrating it is, it even made me feel like Iâm not a âreal�� artist
(The concept of what is considered a âreal artistâ is bullshit btw, someone who draws stickmen everyday is as much of a real artist as someone who makes diverse fully colored artworks with backgrounds and everything, as long as you use your creativity and turn it to something meaningful, youâre already a real artist, regardless of skill or the extent of which you are able to conceive with your art)
That being said, itâs all about finding your own footing and workflow, what works best for you? What doesnât?
Some things that youâd love for them to work (in my case making colored comics) might not work in reality, life is disappointing like that, so itâs also about acceptance
Acceptance of yourself as you are, maybe itâs not what you truly strive for, maybe you wish you could do more, but sometimes taking a step back and looking into yourself to see if you can actually achieve what you want with the resources you have could be life saving
So when it comes to motivation? Find your workflow, what are the things that you know could make you lose your motivation? On the other hand, what are the things that preserve your motivation?
Not only that, but time management is also a contributing factor
Of course, my own way to preserve my motivation/energy is as follows:
1- never force myself to finish artworks/comics if I feel like I canât (even if I really really want to), I save them up for later when my motivation for them kicks back in
2-let perfectionism go, if I keep fretting over whether every line in an artwork looks good Iâll never accomplish anything but destroy my mental health (certified perfectionist speaking btw)
3-comics stay as sketches, as much as I want to make beautifully colored comics, I know this will only contribute to my burnout, so keeping it real with myself and what I can accomplish with my own resources (energy, time, health, etc) is important
4-making multiple sketches in a day then choosing what fancies my brain that day, or getting back to older sketches I already made before (sometimes months before) to see if my brain has the itch to work on any of them, by doing that, then Iâm giving myself actual diversity in choices to choose from, which helps me feel like I donât have to be forced to work on anything new, or something that I donât wanna work on
For clarification, Iâm talking actual sketches, not cleaned up ones, if you make clean sketches you wonât be able to make multiple ones in the same day
Hereâs an example of what I mean by sketches
5-stop beating myself up over things I canât control, if I keep being harsh on myself over the fact I couldnât finish an artwork or the fact Iâm not satisfied with it, itâll only contribute to make me feel bad about myself and that would only contribute to me losing even more motivation which contributes to beating myself up and so the self torture cycle goes on, myself deserves to be pat on the back gently and be told âitâs ok, youâll get there in timeâ
6-teach myself that itâs ok to lose motivation, there are times in which I do not open my art app for weeks, instead of hating myself for it, I tell myself âyou need time, youâre tired and you need the breakâ, and itâs true, if you lost motivation, itâs most likely due to something else contributing to it
So i just ask myself whatâs up, sometimes, Iâm overworked in other life aspects, other times Iâm in too much pain, so instead of forcing myself through my demotivation, I take care of these factors demotivating me so Iâd feel comfortable enough to be able to work on artworks again
If I couldnât identify a factor contributing to my loss of motivation, then I take it as my own brain telling me that it needs the break, it needs the dopamine if doing something different and I do that, whether by watching my favorite shows, playing my favorite games, trying a different hobby like writing or reading, etc
7- work on my own time, sometimes I do finish artworks quickly, and I do have the capacity to do so, but Iâve noticed that my loss of motivation became less of an issue when I gave myself the actual time to work on artworks, sometimes, a simple artwork that I could finish in 20 minutes takes me weeks to finish, not because I canât finish it earlier, but because I intentionally worked slowly on it as Iâm working on other artworks just as slow, that way, I donât overwhelm myself and Iâm making progress on multiple artworks/comics at the same time, and seeing such progress gives me even more motivation
Cough, anyway, got lost in talking about motivation ghcchch
As for your other question about how I get my ideas, itâs usually something I saw that inspired me, whether an artwork, something irl, etc
Or even sometimes, my own artworks inspire ideas for comics, so Iâd draw something, then ask myself (asking yourself questions is such a great helper when it comes to coming up with ideas) why is the character doing this? How did they get there? Etc
That helps me come up with answers which are then answered via comics or multiple different artworks
For example, this comic, what inspired it was me asking myself one simple question, âwhat would happen if Murder actually asked Nightmare for a visit home for once, instead of running away like he always does?â, and that immediately got me to work on the comic
Of course, it doesnât mean I always am on the ready for an idea, in fact, a lot of the time my mind is blank, nothing up there to help me, which is why I turn to mindlessly sketching sometimes
I just open a canvas and start sketching, what? I donât know, Iâm just gonna sketch something, could be a character, environment, scribbles, meaningless lines etc, itâs my iwn version of a warm up, and it helps a lot with making my brain get into the zone
Thatâs all I can think of off the top of my head
Enjoy a look into my brain chhcchch
#ngl sometimes I wanna stream my art process from the beginning somewhere#just so you guys would see how much I struggle behind the scenes chchchhc#i know I make it look easy af#but I promise you if you see what I go through youâll be even more confused by the frequency of which I post chhcchhv#anothers ask
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WHEN OUR LIPS WEREN'T READY TO KISS
Pairings: Eddie Munson x Fem! Summary: the times you've talked to Eddie. Warnings: none A/N- guys i'm gonna make this a series because i love these two so much.
THIS IS A PREQUEL PART 2 OF Should have kissed you
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-August 20th, 1985- first day of senior year
your locker was next to Eddie's, so it was kind of hard to avoid him even if you tried, you'd always see him at least once a day.
of course you've heard of him, everyone has heard of Eddie Munson, the super senior, the freak.
so to say you were panicking on the inside as you walked up to your locker, seeing him stading right beside yours, digging into the metal box, numberd 169, is an understatement.
you had swallowed thickly before stepping up to your own locker, putting in the code.
in the corner of your eye, you noticed Eddie looking at you and you wanted to run, he was going to sacrife you, wasn't he? or planning to. oh no, oh God no, you have to run.
you hid behind the door when you heard his slightly cough
you had squeezed your eyes shut before you peeked over your door, finding him looking at you
but when you looked into his eyes, you didn't see a deep pit of fire so hot you felt like you would burn if you got too close.
you didn't see the devil looking back at you
you didn't see anything people described him as, all you saw was a pair of deep brown eyes looking at you softly, a tight smile planted on his lips when he looked down at the floor
you frowned, of no, this was a trap, the devil was disguising himself, he's checking you out to see if you're worthy of sacrifice, run
when he looked back up you looked away, back to digging in your locker, you were scared, to say the least
"that's fine, s'just tryn'a tell ya, you dropped your pen" he bent down picking your pen. feeling the feathery pompom on the end
you looked back at him and stared at your pen. you judged him too quickly, maybe.
"thank you" you mumbled, taking the pen from his hands when he held it out for you
he turned around without another word, shutting his locker and walking off
you might have been a bit rude. but you were just looking out for yourself, right?
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-August 21st, 1985-
it was the next day, and you waited by your locker until the bell, trying to catch Eddie before class.
yesterday was slowly eating you up, you had no reason to be so standoff-ish towards him
he hasn't done anything to you personally, so you have no reason to be scared until he kidnaps you..and kills you.
the bell rang and you watched as he walked into the school. his eyes were dull, yet you didn't see any dark storm following him. he wasn't scary at all.
"Eddie! hi" you called out to him, drawing his attention.
Eddie looked in your direction when he heard your voice. his eyebrows furrowing as he walked to his locker
he looked behind him, but everyone was had gone to class already.
he opened his locker, confused when you stayed there, peeking over the door as he opened it.
"hello?" he spoke wearily, moving his head back to get a better look at you
you looked nervous. of course you were, most people were scared of him. he wouldn't expect you to be any different
pretty girls, ugly hearts, only choosing to follow the rumours. it's a tale as old as time
you looked down, and he had noticed you playing with your fingers when you spoke
"I uh...I wanted to say sorry... for ignoring you..a-and being rude.." you apologised
when you looked up, you saw his eyes blink, but it looked more like a twitch or flinch, in a way.
Eddie had never been apologised to, so to hear those words...it meant...a lot.
"oh" he started, swallowing thickly "thanks"
you smiled sheepishly; you had actually smiled. at him. that never happens.
"so um. you have history? right? Missus Click?" he mumbles
you nodded your head, holding your history book to your chest
he shut his locker and nodded for you to follow him.
you did, not knowing he was in your class as he hadn't showed up yesterday for the last period lesson.
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-September 11th, 1985-
you walked around the school, official papers in your hand, counting the number of signatures you have so far.
you strolled into the cafeteria and looked around the tables, trying to figure out who would sign the paper for you, until your eyes landed on the hellfire table.
surely, right?
you walked over and tapped Eddie's shoulder, ignoring the looks you got
Eddie huffed and got ready for a rut with a peer when he turned around, but he saw you, standing behind him with that smile again.
"hi, Eddie" you swallowed "I was wondering if you'd sign my petition, the school is trying to cancel the play this year but my friends and I-" you started before he cut you off
"-sure" he grabbed the paper and pen, signing messily on the paper, passing it around the table for the rest of the club to sign
that's when you took the time to look at him.
his hair was wild and frizzy, falling just past his shoulders. his shirt wrinkled with the sleeves rolled up. his jackets hung over the back of his chair. thats when you noticed the tattor that adorned his right arm.
there was one just peeking out from his sleeve, one that looked something like a dragon.
there was one on the inside, a puppet skeleton? with horns, was it the devil? you didn't know
but then the bats, the swarm of bats right below his elbow. you stared at that tattoo for a while, why? you don't know
you liked it
they seemed faded. or a bit rough, like he had done them himself, you wouldn't put it past him. he's very crafty, you've noticed.
he grabbed the pen and paper when everyone had signed and handed it back to you "good luck with the..play"
you thanked him before reluctently walking away. frowning to yourself
you can't stare at him.
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-December 28th, 1985-
Christmas Holiday started a week ago and you were walking through the town with some christmas money, planning to spend a few bucks on a cd that one of your favourite artists released.
you walked into the music store, hearing the soft bell above your head as the scent of new vinyls filled your nose
you loved that smell
the sound of softly playing music can be heard from the radio on the front desk, something from Kate Bush's new album.
you smiled. strolling to the back of the store to the genre you were looking for
your hands reached up and found the plactic cases, flicking through them to find the album, looking through the order again and again, sighing when you couldn't find what you were looking for, maybe it sold out quicker than you could get there, or they didn't get it yet.
your frowned, turning back around, your eyes finding the big METAL sign.
you looked around but it was an empty store, the only person was you and the owner, reading a magazine as he sat down at the front desk.
you stepped forward, intrigue taking over you as you peeked at the front albums, finding grusome covers, images of hell or a woman being ripped apart, only wearing a bikini made you frown.
no one dares touch this section, that's why dust covers your finger as you swipe the sign.
only satanists listen to metal. that's why you looked around again, still, finding no one.
if anyone saw you looking at metal music, word would spread, and you would be a social outcast. a freak. that couldn't happen
you raised your hand, feeling a breeze of heat wash through you as you picked up an album.
it was orange, with a man in a tight black bodysuit, his chest in view, showing his hairy nipples and he held a flag, he looked kind of scary as he snarled.
the writing in the corner, a nuetral yellow wrote W.A.S.P
a hand on you shoulder is what brought you out of the trance, making you jump and let out a squeal.
that was it. your social life was done, over.
you turned around frantically, dropping the album at your feet when you saw Eddie in front of you
he threw his hands up
"sorry.. didn'mean to scare ya" he let out a short, surprised chuckle
he had immediately noticed that you were on edge, blinking quickly and he bent down to pick the album up from the ground
"ah. the last command, exactly what I came here for...you alright?" he looked you up and down
you nodded vigorously, blinking up at him.
he licked his lips "the critics don't seem to like this album, scored it a 45. but i know better than to listen to assholes that call themselves critics"
his lips curled into a smile, it almost looked wicked as you let the anxiousness wash away.
but you blinked one more time and focused on the plush of his lips, the way they upturn when he smiles, his dimples full on display.
it almost made you weak, but you quickly snapped out of it.
you noticed the silver pin on his denim jacket, W.A.S.P.
"don't worry.. M'not gonna tell anyone I saw you" he sighed "it'll be our little secret" he winked
you felt your cheeked redden at the action and you look away
you stood there for a second before rushing out the store, leaving him there, confused, but he didn't let himself be surprised
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-February 7th, 1986-
you avoided Eddie like the plague after your run in at the music store. school had been back for a month and you timed out when you'd go to your locker every day
hiding behind the wall to see if Eddie was there, if he was, you'd wait until he left, or if he wasn't, you'd quickly get your things and rush to class before he was there.
Eddie obviously noticed this, he told himself he didn't care that much, because mostly, he didn't care, he understands, he just thought you were a little different.
he walked the halls, metal lunch box in his hand as he came back from the cafeteria. he opened his locker and stuffed the box in when he heard a bunch of girls giggling, coming out of the cafeteria, going to the bathroom, probably. but he heard you. your giggle.
he doesn't know when he memorised your laugh. he only cared when he heard his name.
right, they were laughing at him.
he looked back into his locker and reached for his campaign book when he heard the locker beside him open.
"hi" you mumbled
how could you go from making fun of him one minute, to trying to be friendly the next. fuck that
you watched as he slammed his locker shut and walked away
oh.
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-February 15th, 1986-
you were sitting in History, Mrs Click rambing on about something, you wouldn't know, you weren't paying attention.
you were too budy staring at him.
the sun was shining through the windows, casting a glow on his pale skin as he played with his pencil, tapping his foot.
his jaw was clenched, and his eyes were closed as he slumped in his chair
you propped your chin on your hand and just stared, you just weren't aware of it.
you must have been staring a while because when Mrs Click turned around from the board, she immediately caught you
"please pay attention" she scolded your name, hand on her hip with her strict voice
everyone turned to you when you woke up from your trace, finding Eddie looking right back at you with a slight frown.
your eyes widened and you looked away, mumbling a quick sorry before you looked down at your desk
you got to get a hold of yourself, you thought to yourself
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-April 1st, 1986-
You could feel the tension in the air as soon as you spotted Eddie by your lockers. You should have known heâd be here, but it didnât make it any easier. The space between you and him felt heavier, like there was an invisible line drawn that you couldnât crossâno matter how much you tried to avoid it.
You took a deep breath, stalling for a moment in the hall, your heart pounding in your chest. You werenât sure if you were more afraid of him, or what people would say if they saw you talking to him. Maybe both. You had made it this far without looking like an outcast, without drawing any more attention to yourself than necessary. But here he was.
Eddie didnât say anything when you got closer, but you could feel his eyes on you. That gaze. That steady, unblinking gaze that made everything inside you twist. You tried not to react. You couldnât show that you were nervous. You couldnât let him see how much you hated the way you were reacting to him.
The locker door creaked open, and you focused on your books, your fingers fumbling to pull the right one out. You could feel the weight of the silence stretching between you two. It felt suffocating, like you were caught in some moment you couldnât escape from.
You glanced up once, just enough to see Eddie watching you. His expression was unreadable, his dark eyes intense but not hostile. He looked like he was waiting for something, but you didnât know what.
Your throat tightened. There were so many things you wanted to say, so many things you didnât want to say. Apologies. Excuses. But instead, you just let the silence fill the space. You turned your focus back to your locker, shoving your books inside quickly, anything to avoid looking at him for too long.
You felt him shift beside you, like he was about to move, but he paused. You could feel his presence next to you, like a shadow you couldnât shake off. The air between you seemed to hum with unspoken words. You couldnât bring yourself to break the silence, so you kept your head down, trying to make the moment end faster than it had started.
The seconds dragged on, and you were sure your heart was beating loud enough for him to hear. You could practically hear the thoughts swirling in your head, and none of them made you feel better. Why couldnât this be easier? Why couldnât you just ignore everything that made this so complicated?
Finally, Eddie exhaled sharply, his voice quieter than you expected. "You know," he started, his words deliberate, as if he was trying to find the right thing to say. "Not everyoneâs as bad as they say. Not everyoneâs like the rumors make them out to be. Iâm not some... demon they talk about. Just a guy, yâknow?"
He stopped there, his eyes still on you. There was a moment of raw honesty in his gaze, something vulnerable that made your chest tighten.
You couldnât bring yourself to respond. You didnât know what to say. His words lingered in your chest like a weight, but you refused to acknowledge them.
"just thought you were a little different, guess not"
He gave a small shrug, almost as if dismissing the conversation, and stepped back slightly. Then, without another word, he turned and walked away.
You stood there for a long moment, staring after him, your hand still resting on your locker. You could still feel the sting of that brief interaction, the confusion it stirred up inside you. Why did it feel like it mattered so much?
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-April 10th 1986-
You stood in front of your locker, fidgeting with your books, heart pounding in your chest. You knew you couldnât keep avoiding him. You had to apologizeâno more hiding. Taking a deep breath, you finally spotted him, walking toward you, looking as relaxed as ever, but you could sense the tension in the air.
You called out, your voice a little shakier than you intended. âEddie!â
He stopped in his tracks, his eyes meeting yours, and you could see the flicker of surprise in them. He didnât say anything, just waited, his posture still tense.
You swallowed, feeling the weight of everything youâd been avoiding. âI... I wanted to apologize,â you blurted out, not knowing where to start. âIâve been avoiding you, and I shouldnât have.â
You looked down, feeling a rush of guilt, but you forced yourself to meet his eyes again.
âI donât think youâre a freak, Eddie.â
He raised an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth twitching. You werenât sure what he was thinking, but his silence made you anxious.
âI just⌠I care too much about what people think,â you continued, stepping closer to him.
Eddie glanced at you for a long moment, his gaze unreadable. Then he let out a slow sigh and rubbed the back of his neck. âYeah. People⌠they donât exactly paint me in the best light.â
You nodded, your stomach flipping. âI know. But thatâs not⌠I donât want to be like that.â
For a long second, Eddie didnât say anything. He just watched you, his expression softening, the walls around him starting to come down a little. He leaned back against the lockers, folding his arms.
Your chest tightened, and you took another step closer, feeling the weight of the moment. âIâm sorry. I really am. I don't think you were what people say you are.â
He looked at you then, like he was really seeing you for the first time, his eyes softening, the usual hardness gone. âYou donât have to apologize, you know. Itâs just⌠youâre not the first person to avoid me.â His voice was a little gentler now, and you could tell he wasnât angry.
You nodded, the tension in your shoulders easing. âI know. But I donât want to be like them.â
For the first time, Eddieâs lips curled into a small, almost amused smile. âWell, I appreciate that.â
You both stood there in the silence, a little awkward, but it didnât feel as heavy as it had before. You had no idea where things would go from here, but it felt like maybe you could start over. Slowly.
âThanks,â he said after a moment, his voice quieter now, but not without a trace of warmth. âItâs⌠good to hear.â
You gave him a small smile in return, relief flooding through you.
Eddie shrugged, like it didnât matter much to him, but there was something in the way his eyes lingered on you that told you it did. He straightened up, then, looking like he was ready to move on.
becuase he knew what he was. and he knew you did too. he wants to believe you though, he really does, but actions speak louder than words, he's come to find.
With that, he turned to leave, but not without a glance back over his shoulder, his usual smirk making an appearance again. It wasnât like everything had changed in that moment, but maybe youâd both taken a step toward something different. Something real.
You couldnât help but feel a little lighter as you closed your locker, the weight of the tension between you finally starting to lift.
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