#oc: sam kettering

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💕for sam (feat. faith seed), asked by @intearsaboutrobots

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bex or becca. 24. she/they.

mostly an spn blog but also posts about atla, the last of us, doctor who, sense8, hotd/got, lotr, and whatever else im currently into

sam-coded casgirl slight dean apologist

i sometimes post with nsft tag

terfs/swerfs are NOT WELCOME

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BECCA'S 23RD BDAY BASH MASTERLIST

fics:

my ao3

flames & ashes / destiel / ~600 words / rated t

his & mine are the same / destiel / 1.5k words / rated t

marlboro reds / hbo!sam, samjessbrady / in progress / rated e

spn kink bingo 2023 masterlist

the edge of the devil's backbone / destiel / 3k words / rated e

you'll be a doormat for every vicious narcissist in the world / sam & lucifer / 1.5k words / rated m

take your fast car and keep on driving / destiel / 3k words / rated e

kiss with a fist is better than none / destiel / in progress / rated m

grace and gasoline / annaruby / ~800 words / rated e

riding through all these western nights / edizzy (ofmd) / 1.1k words / rated e

haunted of you / the doctor x oc / in progress / rated m

20 songs in 20 days drabble series

spn kink bingo 2024 masterlist

gonna love you til we're food for the worms to eat / destiel, sastiel / 2k words / rated t

god lifts up the lowly / destiel / ~700 words / rated t

when I'm home I'm never there / sastiel / ~600 words / rated t

mourning doves / destiel / 2.6k words / rated m

fanvids:

lilith / sam winchester

kettering / destiel

second child, restless child / happy birthday sam winchester 2022

virgins go to hell / samruby

i love you. / destiel

edits:

ways to say I love you for v-day

your father who is god who is your father

sam & lucifer & god

sam&mary, my mother and i

jess moore, the fridged woman

sam&lucifer, religious trauma and autonomy

hbd dean + broken crown

sam&mary freedom hangs like heaven

dean + this year

castiel falls from grace

messiah!sam and saint!mary

hbo!sam

baby next time lower the volume

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my main squeezes: Vince, Sam, and Vespa! + your Skyrim OC 👀👀👀👀👀👀🔍

fghjdfskj the boys!!!!!!

Vince

The only person to ever call Vince Vincent is his mother. And Rush that one time.

Speaks English, Spanish, French, Haitian Creole, Portuguese, and Arabic.

Was attending NYU for cinema studies. Loved loved loved cinematography studies and film theory. Wanted to be a director! Had actually written & directed two short films already and had been shooting two more that he hoped to premiere at a few local film festivals. Had to drop out of the program after the accident that cost him his left arm because of the medical expenses and the long hospital stays. To say he was crushed is,,,, an understatement.

Was in California having an experimental prosthetic arm fitted & attached when the bombs dropped. He’s told that he followed everyone else to the bunkers but he has no memory of it. The doctors assume it’s either shock or the anesthesia that was in his system when it all happened, but regardless he comes to in immense nerve pain and in a crowded hospital bunker underneath Los Angeles with no clue with the fuck is going on. 

Actually knows Ghost, ran with the same group Ghost did in Baja California for two years. Ghost had a big hand in how constantly battered Vince was during those years, liked to goad Vince into worse and worse shit because Ghost wanted to see how far someone like Vince - who was one of the few people in their group with morals - could be pushed before he broke. Ghost got their answer, too, when Vince turns around and - in a nearly blind rage - kills two of their group just before a planned attack on a community of mostly non-combatants.

Lost his right leg in 2030, an infected bullet wound that they (in the middle of a medicine shortage after a brutal winter) didn’t have the means to treat. His eventual leg prosthetic was built based on close study of his arm. Connecting it alone puts him out of commission for almost two months.

Does actually,,,, steal rings off corpses sometimes. A habit he picked up while with Ghost’s crew, a kind of trophy-hunting activity that turned into an unconscious action because he did it so much. He’s got,,, a pretty substantial ring collection. He pretends he feels worse about it than he actually does because what use did a dead person have for jewelry anyway?

Rush is the one who teaches him to shoot, a year or two after Vince joins his group. It comes to the group’s attention that Vince had never even held a gun prior to Rush - acting on a hunch - putting one in his hands one stupid hot California day and told him to go hog on some static targets. Vince missed pretty much every single one. Thankfully, his aim has gotten much better since then.

Vince feels conflicted about a number of things that he has done over the years but killing Ghost’s sociopath ass when they cross paths again in Hope County ain’t one of them.

Sam

Sam, good old midwestern boy that he is, legally cannot cuss.

He’s tall as hell but also thin as hell. He’s 6′6 at least but he’s also probably 145lbs soaking wet. A toothpick.

Nick calls him Sammy. (One time Nick slipped up and referred to the Judge as Sammy and everyone had a bad day about it.)

Sheriff Whitehorse is actually Sam’s godfather! Whitehorse and Sam’s dad (a retired sheriff from South Dakota) were really good friends & still kept in touch pretty regularly before the cult business started up bad in Hope Country. It’s Whitehorse that pulls the strings to get his anxious pothead veteran godson a position as a deputy. (Sam calls him uncle). 

Sam is bisexual but how do you say very very repressed about it. Lots of religious-guilt-tinged self-hate because of growing up Catholic in the midwest and then in the south. Definitely had an “in love with my same gender best friend and very ashamed of it” phase.

Sam and John Seed actually ran in the same circles growing up, just at different times. John’s a few years older but they went to the same high school & John’s adopted parents and Sam’s mom were actually well-acquainted. As a teenager, Sam used to be invited to John’s parties & would go with friends and get a little too drunk (which John would them use as fun leverage against Sam’s fairly powerful mother).

On that subject, John was 100% Sam’s bougie weed man all through high school and later when he got out of the Air Force & was self medicating his PTSD.

Sam, realizing he played right into Joseph’s hands: You played me like a fiddle!Joseph: Oh no, Deputy. Fiddles are actually difficult to play. I played you like to cheap kazoo you are.

& some Judge stuff bc 💔💔: Sometimes he’ll disappear for hours on end and most of New Eden is just *solemnly* “he must be doing something very important” except instead of doing that he’s sleeping in the most secret, softest place he could find.

Has an adopted daughter, a little girl named Abigail who attached herself to him at the hip - because she was born mute and he is also mute and she thinks that’s neat, she’d never met anyone like herself before. She and the Judge make up their own version of sign language - that actually ends up being shared between a lot of the residents of New Eden, especially the scouts that the Judge trains.

Vespa

Card-carrying member of the billionaire boys club. 

Corporate CEO mom who raised him in a very hands-off way because she was always too busy. Homeschooled, raised by nannies. A lot of his education came through the net, which he learned to navigate at a terribly young age while ignoring his tutors because they bored him.

Has a “rival” in Dare Aranya, his mother’s former protege and the person who (“allegedly”, but definitely) orchestrated her assassination and the woman who is currently CEO of Sasaki Industries and is the executor of Vespa’s mom’s will.

Even though his mother is assassinated when he is 16, he stays in Night City for a year after and blows through whatever bits of his inheritance he can get his hands on, on parties and drugs and vehicles and whatever else a traumatized teenager who saw his mom’s murder can spend money on. A spoiled disaster of a teenage party prince of the highest caliber. Ends up leaving Night City when his money suddenly dries up, syphoned off by Dare.  

Bounces between countries and netspaces for years, never spending more than a few months in once place (aside from significant stays in Mumbai, Moscow, and Tokyo). Only returns to Night City after a botch job in Tokyo. 

Is actually an Arasaka on his dad’s side, is the great grandnephew of Saburo Arasaka. He ends up staying with a branch of the Arasaka family in Tokyo until he fucks up a job for them while high and gets thrown out on his ass. 

Has constant splitting headaches because of his bionic eyes - which are half the reason he self-medicates so heavily. Had to have them replaced and maintained constantly as a child because of natural human growth, which was always a terrifying experience for him, not helped at all by the sterile white rooms he would be taken to or the cool detachment of his doctors who did not work with children and were not paid for their bedside manner. It culminated in a scalding dislike for doctors and a refusal to go to them unless he is literally dying. Ripperdocs are equally, if not more, off limits.

Is notorious for turning off his hearing aids when he wants to focus better or when he is getting too sensory overloaded to function, frustrating everyone he has ever worked with. 

He’s adamant his nickname is from the Italian word for “wasp” (as a riff off Dare’s last name, a phonetic spelling of araña, Spanish for spider. one time - while he was in Milan like the rich idiot he is - he heard about these wasps that kill spiders and he has a Justified Grudge against Dare so. wasp) and not from the scooter but he’s scooter boy forever now. 

Jackie Welles, hefting Vespa “idiot bastard who spent all his money on drugs and passed out in the back room of a bar again” Sasaki over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes: god damn I wish you’d take care of yourself

I didn’t know if you meant Katja or Sylon but I’m gonna go with Sylon because I love him & bc he’s the more developed of the two rn 😬😬

Is some mix of Breton and Bosmer but no one really knows for sure because no one knows who his actual parents are. The ‘parents’ he was taken from were skooma addicts who had been hounding Khajiit merchants for weeks and were irresponsible to the point that a whole caravan of Khajiit, stressing out while watching this couple neglect their tiny child, collectively lost their minds and just went “listen here’s the stuff you want, don’t even pay us just give us the baby. give us the baby, please.” The caravan finds that couple again not two days later, dead in the desert, and no one is even surprised.

Amazing singing voice but doesn’t actually think he can sing at all. Will hum or sing absent-mindedly sometimes and get real surprised when he looks up to find people have come over to hear him better.

Doesn’t have time for destiny, just wants to steal.

Becomes a thieves’ guild merchant in Riften & moves his business into the Ragged Flagon when their reputation starts getting better. Is also a thief in the guild itself but legitimizes himself as a merchant in Riften by actually running legitimate goods (which helps Khajiit caravans a lot because they can’t trade in the cities but he can and he’s always happy to help the caravans he crosses paths with).

Being raised by Khajiit, Sylon had been taught from a young age not to rely on people and to only rely on his own talents and abilities & to be out for himself and only himself & he believes in this doctrine fully. That is, he believed in it up until the second he meets Karliah and Brynjolf and then he just *lays face down on the ground* “hmm maybe caring about others and wanting to have people that care about me is okay actually.”

Is definitely in love with Brynjolf but no one will ever get him to admit it, least of all Brynjolf.

Meets Katja after she catches him stealing a box of jewelry from her home in Dawnstar. Gets roped into a quest to kill giants with her as a form of recompense because she knows he’s the dragonborn and she’s pissed he isn’t living up to expectations. They end up becoming incredibly close friends whose favorite pastime is jointly roasting Kali, the stupidly naive exiled Redguard noble that Sylon saved from being assassinated one time and who Katja is now housing and feeding (and terrorizing).

Would adopt every orphan in Skyrim if given the option. Despite being fairly aloof and coming across as self-serving, he is shockingly doting and attentive to kids. Makes a name for himself in the cities as a friend of children and someone who will provide without asking for anything in return. Is the unofficial patron god of orphans and strays. And although he doesn’t ask it of them, they make a great information network for him & are happy to tell him everything they overhear in the cities that might be of interest to their thief dad.

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“Have you ever known someone that made you think ‘it’s an absolute miracle that idiot’s still alive’?” 

“So, Rook?” 

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the only reason joseph actually loses his influence over judge!sam after they found new eden is because the second roman & jordan join the community, every single time joseph attempts to tell sam to do something or reinforce his “teachings”, roman’s standing behind sam like

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john and sam have a history, but instead of it leading to a meaningful or in any way significant reunion in hope county, sam sees john in the church when they go to arrest joseph and almost exclaims, out loud for everyone and god to hear, “hang on that’s my old weed dealer” 

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Planted in the house of the Lord, They will flourish in the courts of our God (Psalms 92:13) • • • Sam Kettering, Eden’s Gate cultist

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Tagged by @chuckhansen to do this incredibly fun oc meme 💕💕💕

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sam forgoing stealth approaches altogether and choosing to just drive up to cult outposts blaring 80s music is

dumbass culture

bi culture

his only real offensive tactic

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my brain, any time I make even the most basic outline of a male oc: okay that’s great now make him a single dad raising an adopted daughter who he dotes on constantly

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2, 4, 6, 8, 10, 12, 14, 16 + my son samuel, & 18, 20, 22, 30, 32, 40, 42 for my mans vince! 💕

Sam!

2. What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like? 

Sam actually has a really good relationship with his mom! After his parents divorced when he was a teenager, he moved with her from Deadwood to Atlanta, where she’d been offered a job. Being so far away from home and their extended family, they were all they had so they stuck pretty close to each other. She remarried when he was 17 to a guy he liked well enough and he even develops a pretty good relationship with the guy’s two teenage daughters, who are 4 years younger than him.

His mom can be critical and does tend to get on him about not having any kind of intrinsic motivation to do anything with his life but she absolutely wants the best for him. After he got out of the Air Force when he was 21, he ended up staying with her until he finished his police academy training and she was pretty instrumental in helping him get a position in the Atlanta PD. They remained close (there were lots of fairly comfortable Sunday meals with her and her husband) until he moved back to Deadwood in 2017 after his dad got ill. Even then, they talked every few days. The last person he called before the raid on Joseph’s compound is his mom, actually.   

4. Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

So, the big thing that pushed Sam to not re-enlist in the Air Force was a gun range accident he saw a few months out from his 4-year anniversary of enlistment. During pretty routine training, a guy fumbled with his weapon and it accidentally discharged, fatally shooting him in the head but not killing him right away. While the only other person on the range that morning called for help, Sam used his own shirt to try and stop the guy’s bleeding and maybe hopefully keep him alive until emergency services got there. The guy was dead before the base medics ever arrived. The medics had to pry him away from the guy and he ended up spending a day in the hospital being treated for shock. 

Next to no one knows this. People know about the incident but it’s never publicized that he was the person who attempted to save the guy. He carries a lot of guilt for not being able to save that person (who, he finds out later, was only 19, two years younger than himself). He’s got some not insignificant PTSD from it and its made it hard for him to actually use guns, as his hands tend to shake uncontrollably and he can’t shoot straight anymore. It was also the first time he’d ever seen someone die so it has really stuck with him. 

6. Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

He has a lot of snake dreams? Never nightmares, he’s always entirely calm during them, and usually the snakes are dead? Walking on paths full of dead snakes, finding a dead snake in a field, stuff like that. And dreams with deer – which has always been a symbol of his in general, from a really early age – usually a single deer, but he rarely remembers much else from those dreams except the deer. Other than those, he doesn’t really remember his dreams.

8. Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

He was 10 the first time he fired a gun – his dad’s hunting rifle. He and his dad used to deer hunt in the winter and the first time he ever fired the gun, it was at those practice deer targets while his dad was training him to shoot. Sam never really took to guns the way his dad had hoped (and later events made him even worse at handling and shooting) so he ended up learning how to use a bow instead. He thinks bow hunting is more humane, anyway.

10. Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

What’s that Mulaney joke? “She told me to undress to my comfort level so I put on a sweater and a pair of corduroy pants and I felt safe”? That’s Sam 24/7. Even in the summer (even in southern summers), Sam’s out there wearing at least two layers beyond a t-shirt, usually including flannel, and leather boots. Hipster idiot ready and willing to die from heatstroke to uphold his aesthetic.

12. In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

Actually… probably the first time in the Bliss? Artificially induced calm, sure, but after weeks of being hunted and tortured by John and Jacob, it’s a very welcome relief. It’s the first time since that failed arrest that Sam doesn’t feel like he might die at any moment, that the weight of responsibility has been lifted from him and replace with an all-encompassing weightlessness and peace, not all that dissimilar to how he feels after confession or while high, or well–  

It’s the way he felt while at the funeral of his best friend who dies on deployment a year before Sam outprocesses. He’s sad, of course, the guy had been his best friend since he moved to Atlanta at 13, but it’s at that moment that he feels like he’s been freed of an obligation he regretted and hated feeling tied to: it was always his friend’s dream to go into the military and make a career out of it and Sam had followed him out of an obligation as a best friend to stick with him and never out of any desire on his own part to serve. He’s standing there in his dress uniform, watching his best friend’s mom (the woman who used to make them peanut butter and jelly sandwiches after their weekend baseball games, the woman who let him sleep over on school nights and fondly told them at 2am to stop playing video games and actually sleep) accept his flag, feeling like some sort of weight has been lifted off his shoulders. He hates himself a little for it, but that comes later. Then, he only feels peace.

14. Does your character remember names or faces easier?

He’s admittedly terrible with both but is a touch better with names than faces. He’ll much quicker put a face to a name than a name to a face. Usually though, he’s in that position where someone will know him and he has no idea who they are or how he is supposed to know them.

16. Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

Very much happiness – success is honestly not important to him at all, which is hilarious seeing as his parents are both comfortably wealthy and well-known in their respective fields, or maybe their success is why he doesn’t feel the need to be successful. They’ve already done it, why should be? And he hasn’t really done much with his life that people would consider a success – he barely graduated high school, he only did four years in the military, he’s a sub-par cop who can barely pass his gun quals.

He’s definitely of the mind that as long as he’s happy, as long as he can make enough money to satisfy his needs and maybe have a little extra for things that he enjoys, that’s all he needs.

Vince!

18. Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

Wisdom, definitely. He has a lot of respect for people who are worldly but also people who are well-learned and well-read. He prizes knowledge in general, regardless of the type of knowledge it is, especially because in the world they live in now, no knowledge is expendable and experts in anything are hard to come by.

Excess ambition, in Vince’s experience, tends to get people killed faster than anything else, sometimes even stupidity. Ambition makes you prone to taking large risks for small rewards and putting yourself and those around you in danger. He’s pretty suspicious of ambitious people whose ambitions aren’t to survive.  

20. In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

Vince is pretty constantly comparing himself to others, both for self-validation and self-criticism, and usually for self-betterment. He mostly does it in order to see how far he has progressed in a given skill and if he could do something better or different in order to progress faster or correct himself – especially when he is training with weapons, which he had no experience with before the apocalypse, and with engineering. He relies on others to teach him new things and is constantly checking himself against them. He’s incredibly self-critical if he sees that he isn’t doing something correctly or isn’t efficient enough but he’s very willing to ask for help or further instruction so he can get as good as possible.

22. What does your character like in other people?

Strong protective urges, regardless of if they’re on his side or not. He likes knowing that people have someone important they’re fighting for – there’s a level of selflessness inherent in people that fight for others that he respects, even if they’re his enemies. After the bombs dropped, he grew real attached to the people around him and made a decision to always protect those closest to him, regardless of the personal cost, so seeing that mirrored in others is good.

He appreciates a good balance between a sense of humor and seriousness –both in a partner and in a working relationship. Someone that can plan but also take (or tell) a joke is someone he’s happy to be around. Someone too serious or uptight is often too high strung and too difficult to work (and usually ends up dead from over-caution) with but someone that takes things too lightly is prone to underestimating threats and overestimating their own skills (and usually ends up dead from under-caution.)

Vince really prizes survival instincts and the traits that work best for survival. He hasn’t gotten this far without learning a thing or two about the kind of people that survive in his line of work.

30. What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

You’d have to work really hard to find something that Vince hasn’t seen, either before the apocalypse or after and can’t stomach or at least tolerate with some mild complaining. He does have a disgust for canned beans, especially baked, though. They make him gag even if he’s just thinking about them – mostly because it was half of what he survived his years underground on and he was so sick of them after the first few years that he contemplated just starving himself rather than eating any more Bush’s baked fucking beans. And also because anymore they make him think of bugs. Slimy bullshit.

Which, I mean – he hates maggots and any kind of worm or bug larvae. One time he saw a body cut open from groin to ribcage with its intestines spilling out, flies everywhere – he was sick for three days after that.

32. Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable?

When people try to pull him into arguments – especially when they want him to act as mediator. He’s level headed and fairly calm and collected and people falsely assume this means that he won’t take sides or will referee someone’s screaming match. Which could not be more wrong, and usually it ends up with him on the sidelines attempting to burrow into the ground or get someone to cause a fight so he can escape. He’s always hated arguments, especially when they escalate to yelling, as he’s always appreciated peace and quiet and also, I dunno, healthy debate?

This happens fairly often among Rush’s crew, especially in arguments against Rush and he hates being in conflict with Rush more than anything else. Also, his opinions are way too strong to ever mediate anyone, and especially to mediate when Rush is involved because they’re so similar in opinion that it never goes well for anyone.

40. How does your character treat people in service jobs?

With absolutely nothing but respect. He worked a bunch of service jobs – lots of busboy positions, a few cashier positions –  as a teenager and young adult and remembers how hellish it was. Everyone and anyone in service jobs has his full love and sympathy.  

42. Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Two people - one of his science teachers in high school that noticed him struggling academically and emotionally after his elder sister passed (whose death of cancer when she was 17 and he was 15, sent him into a tailspin). She was an elderly woman with a stern, grandmotherly face and a thick Dominican accent that made her classes sometimes sound like poetry, the way she pronounced her consonants. When he started to fail her class, she started to have him stay after school and clean the chemistry lab with her and finish his homework and eventually he started talking to her about his problems (and his sister, who she had also taught). He ended up being her student assistant for the remainder of his high school years and he grew to love science because of her passion for it. She pushed him to apply himself to his studies and it’s half because of her that he graduated high school at all. After he graduated, after she retired from teaching, he would visit her and they would catch up. Often he would bring her baked goods from his own mom, as a thank you for all that she did for him when he was a teenager.

Even though Rush is only a few years older, and their relationship develops into something that is definitely not platonic, Rush is definitely something of a father figure towards him for the first few years they know each other. Vince lost his parents when the bombs fell, and even though he was an adult when it happened he never felt like he had learned all he could from his dad. So someone like Rush, who seemed so much more worldly than him, was exactly what Vince was looking for when they met. Vince looks up to him a lot, especially because Rush got real world training and experience that Vince couldn’t because of the bombs. Rush teaches him a lot, especially about weapons handling and first aid and just how to be in their new reality. Without Rush, Vince probably would have died not long after he exited his bunker.

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tagged by @chuckhansen 

height difference | mutual pining | first kiss | first love | wedding | in-jokes | lgbt+ | family disapproves | friend disapproves | would die for each other | fake relationship | arranged wedding | cuddlers | pda friendly | and they were room mates | holding hands | secret relationship | opposing worldviews | opposing personalities | opposing goals | getting a pet | have kids | want kids | grow old together | relationship failures | rests head on shoulder | share a bed | token dummies | relationship doubts | they have a song | first date | share a jacket | sharing a blanket | mutual interests | study buddies | bathing together | crash into hello | accidental nudity | laundry | same hobbies | cooking for each other | big fancy gala | sibling rivalry | hair stroking | dancing | laying in the grass | watching stars together | watching the other sleep | shared values | friends to lovers  | enemies to lovers | lovers to enemies | childhood friends | slow burn | love triangle | toxic relationship | sitting on each other’s laps | can’t be together | hugs | forehead touches | neck kisses | car/motorbike rides | compliments | nicknames | falling asleep together | late night talks | gifts.

height difference | mutual pining | first kiss | first love | wedding | in-jokes | lgbt+ | family disapproves | friend disapproves | would die for each other | fake relationship | arranged wedding | cuddlers | pda friendly | and they were room mates | holding hands | secret relationship | opposing worldviews | opposing personalities | opposing goals | getting a pet | have kids | want kids | grow old together | relationship failures | rests head on shoulder | share a bed | token dummies | relationship doubts | they have a song | first date | share a jacket | sharing a blanket | mutual interests | study buddies | bathing together | crash into hello | accidental nudity | laundry | same hobbies | cooking for each other | big fancy gala | sibling rivalry | hair stroking | dancing | laying in the grass | watching stars together | watching the other sleep | shared values | friends to lovers  | enemies to lovers | lovers to enemies | childhood friends | slow burn | love triangle | toxic relationship | sitting on each other’s laps | can’t be together | hugs | forehead touches | neck kisses | car/motorbike rides | compliments | nicknames | falling asleep together | late night talks | gifts.

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oc + negative traits

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aggressive | arrogant | authoritarian | bitter | brutal | callous | cannibal | careless | cold/cold-hearted | compulsive | controlling | corrects others constantly | cowardly | critical | cruel | delusional | demanding | disillusioned | domineering | envious | emotionally stunted | greedy | grim | guarded | hard | harsh | hypocritical | impatient | impolite | intimidating | irritable | kidnapper | lazy | liar | lustful | materialistic | mean | merciless | messianic | mistrusting | murderer | narrow-minded | obsessive | opinionated | over-bearing | over-critical | over-emotional | over-thinking | patronizing | proud | remote | repressed | rigid | rules with an iron fist | ruthless | sarcastic | self-righteous | self-indulgent | serial killer | taciturn | torturer | touchy | traitorous | unsympathetic | unpredictable | uptight | vain | vengeful

aggressive | arrogant | authoritarian | bitter | brutal | callous | cannibal | careless | cold/cold-hearted | compulsive | controlling | corrects others constantly | cowardly | critical | cruel | delusional | demanding | disillusioned | domineering | envious | emotionally stunted | greedy | grim | guarded | hard | harsh | hypocritical | impatient | impolite | intimidating | irritable | kidnapper | lazy | liar | lustful | materialistic | mean | merciless | messianic | mistrusting | murderer | narrow-minded | obsessive | opinionated | over-bearing | over-critical | over-emotional | over-thinking | patronizing | proud | remote | repressed | rigid | rules with an iron fist | ruthless | sarcastic | self-righteous | self-indulgent | serial killer | taciturn | torturer | touchy | traitorous | unsympathetic | unpredictable | uptight | vain | vengeful 

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// you’re waging a war against a man who holds every card and you’ve never been much of a fighter, but you’re still optimistic about your odds. perhaps rethink that, you’re not equipped for what will happen if you lose.

// he speaks to you as if you’re the last two people left on earth. trapped here, you might as well be. he hates you, and you think you hate him. you think maybe he’ll kill you, and you think that would be a mercy. you don’t think about how you’ll beg him not to.

// he’s been dead — or gone, run away, buried, burned, you don’t know but it’s permanent this time — for a month. there’s sunshine on your bare face and nick’s hand on your shoulder. you think you should be happy, but you’re not sure you know what that feels like anymore. maybe you can learn again.

deputy sam kettering — a beginning, an ending, some sort of hope for the future. [listen]

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roman greenway, a notoriously bitchy and unfriendly hope county recluse: I really don’t understand caring for other people. they’re only burdens and they’ve only ever let me down. I’m perfectly happy being alone.

also roman, any time someone even kind of threatens sam:

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me most days: sam’s time in dutch’s bunker with joseph was a constant nightmare of gaslighting, religious indoctrination, and possibly violence that started to break him in a matter of weeks 

me today apparently: joseph and sam sitting side by side in that bunker, five months on, eating slightly stale ramen noodles from the same chipped coffee cup and calmly listening to crosby, stills & nash, whom they both hate