#oc: sam brinely

[processed-meat]

a bunch of doodles from the past week or two

[zadragon]

OC List

(I've written this out before, but I can't seem to find it, nor do I seem to have posted it, so I'm just gonna do it again) (categories are for the most part not by genre, but worldbuilding) (will certainly be updated later on)

Fantasy (birds are dragons and there's several gods):

Crow (Rafn, Crowma, Bucky Johnson, Kretchet, unnamed old lady clad in a wolf pelt) - heir of a cult worshipping birds

Angel (Sera, Joel, Wingless, Cosmos, Wraith, Crysit, Deimos) - Sci-fi fantasy, very related to the god stuff

Fantasy (Bastion, Enn, Uzzie, Fendell, Zalarome, Wraith) - god stuff relevant

BB - (Unnamed, unnamed)

DF - (Oreg, Dolores, Gabriela)

Sci-fi (robots, set on earth (except when it isn't)):

Altus (Lowelle, Sanitate, Dezer, Medic, other) - space

Brainworm (PB, Sam, Xylva)

Ocean (Thomas, Mard/MRD) - underwater, robots

Alive (Ayesha, Soleil, Virgil, Timmy) - space

ALOH (Emmerich, still unnamed robot, Daisy) - 20th century

Western country robot thing? (unnamed, unnamed) - 20th century

Other:

Living Armour - Hexes in the Arctic and Frozen Armour (Ambrose, unnamed, unnamed, unnamed) - taking references from european folklore

Dàyáng - Vak, Brine, [don't-remember-the-name pirate captain]

Hamble

First robot thing

[shenanigans-and-imagines]

@ihaveatypeanditstrickstergods this one is for you. I’ve got to expel some cringe demons.

So my OC was originally named Evelyn because I just like the name, but I’ve come up with a few Evies since then so her name is Amelia now. Amy to just about everyone. Holding last name Walker, but that’s subject to change. Here’s a quick picrew rendering for reference.

So basic introductions. Amelia comes onto the scene part ways through season 2 in what seems like a standard monster of the week situation. There's been what looks like witch activities that the boys go to investigate. While there they meet Amelia, a perfectly ordinary front desk agent an a local doctor's office. Some shenanigans goes down and the witches it's clear the witch's next target is Amelia as a sacrifice for some yet unknown ritual. They boys are able to stop the ritual, but Amelia is killed. The mystery of what the ritual was for is still in the air, so they send over what remains to Bobby including some of Amelia's bone that has strange markings they can't explain.

Cut to an episode later where Bobby is calling them because Amelia spirit is in his house and she just. won't. leave.

Dean and Sam arrive and see that Amelia's spirit is where Bobby said it was, but unlike ghost they've dealt with in the past, she's not vengeful or stuck in a loop, she is just...hanging out. Bobby has her trapped in a salt circle, but she's able to communicate with all of them perfectly easily.

Bobby reveals that the ritual they interrupted was some serious demon shit while the markings on Amelia's remains seem to be something else entirely.

Amelia has absolutely no idea what is going on. She's never been in contact with the supernatural before and is honestly just scared.

Sam is sympathetic, but Dean is all about getting her gone. Queue more research and some bonding as it's made more and more clear that Amelia isn't a threat and just wants to make herself useful.

Still unsure as to the exact circumstances, but Amelia ends up tagging along with Dean and Sam and soon becomes their hitchhiking ghost.

This is the status quo through season 3, with on going hints as to what exactly happened to Amelia and what in her family's past she doesn't know about.

It's then in season 4 things get shaken up again.

Seal are being broken and a group of demons kidnap Amelia to use in some sort of ritual. It's at this time it's revealed that Amelia was never human at all, but a nephilim. The markings on her bones were meant to keep her hidden from angels. Castiel at this point has his prejudices, but Sam and Dean don't really care. They just want her back.

It looks like the ritual is going to be completed, but Castiel is able to stop it by brining Amelia back to life and back into her body.

With a new understanding of herself and the development of new powers, Amelia decides to stick with Sam and Dean because who else is going to stop the Devil.

Anyway, those are the broad strokes. I had initially thrown out the nephilim angle because it would be too "mary suey". But I've grown since then and have lost my shame. Also, I'm a better writer now, so I think I can pull it off.

I'd also initially thought to pair her with Castiel. It's been a while since I wrote it, so I might stick with that plan, but who knows. It's been years since I watched the show.

I’m not sure if this speaks well to my mental health, but I dug up an old Supernatural OC and now I’m thinking about her again. Why am I like this?

Anyway, let me know if you want to hear about some cringe.

[heliosandtheminecraftians]

Chibi OC Icons - Batch 2

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[Some more chibi icons for my OCs! :D

Karla | Celina | Steve

Brine | Cenlar | Stephanie

Irona | Sam | Alex ]

[resilientreader]

hello!! all the ocean asks !!

my answers will wash u away xdxdxdxddxddddd im sorry

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why? ny bc :^)))))))))))))) also it’s just the Iconic City

sails: describe your perfect partner. someone simply understanding, bc intuition and the capability to understand others goes a long long way. also preferably they wouldnt be a fake bitch lmao

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear? none. nadda. zilch. my face is all natural and that’s all anyone will get

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf? shit, vampire probably. vampires are immortal so like??? documenting history would be interesting.

mermaid: most embarrassing moment? i mean i remember once yelling at everyone in the middle of class to shut up and they just wouldnt stop talking and i was stared at for .5 seconds before everyone started talking again. that was a day

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had? i remember having a dream where it started off as a pet competition but it turned into a battle with human-sized nutcrackers, to simplify the whole thing

waves: favourite season and why? winter, cold weather in my area for once + xmas + my birthday. also it’s the most bittersweet yet hopeful season

breakers: would you ever consider getting married? sure, although honestly at this point in time the idea of finding a lifelong partner seems kinda idealistic

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation. going to stay in a cabin with some friends + family members and just exploring the area and having a good time with them

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet? red panda. i could have it drape itself across my neck 24/7

sunlight: least favourite song? uhhhhh actually im rlly irritated by break up in a small town by sam hunt bc i just. my family constantly listens to it. my brother ALWAYS sings it. and it just gets,,,,,,v irritating after a while. esp considering country music isnt even that g,,ood

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery? no. bitch if i cant even have the heart to keep my face how am i gonna have the heart to do anything in life? i look alright and that’s enough

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature? uhhhhhh. i dont necessarily have,,,good features,,,,,but not /bad/ ones,,,,,,, i have freckles though??? freckles are nice

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not? sure, they’re a neat way to accessorize urself

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple? probably sheith

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why? im too tired to think about this but this reminded me of potato-based foods and now im hungry. idk what kinda food would describe me though 

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor? old-fashioned??? anything cozy is game

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched? i dont remember honestly i dont really watch scary movies at all

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage? shit, probably a mage??? rogue always sounds badass but im. not. but mage still sounds cool

tempest: your favourite Pokemon? uhhhhhh idk pokemon but the eeveelutions are cute (eyebrow wiggle @ u)

tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance? my nose??? is kinda big?????? also my hair is frizzy as fuck it will never not be that way and it’s annoying as fuck

aquamarine: describe your dream date. laying on the roof of a car w someone and listening to the radio while gazing up at the stars. that seems aesthetically pleasing enough

brine: gold or silver? silver

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality? uhhhhhhh same as the food thing. i just dont know and im too tired to search for one that fits

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy? listening to music while messaging friends, staying up until 3-4am with said friends, sleeping lmao

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years. shit man, idk. i really,,,dont know where i’ll be in 5 years

coastline: what is your favourite flower? shit uh. lavender is a nice flower, that’s the first one that came to mind so there that’s my favorite i guess

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order? i dont drink starbucks

voyage: what are your favourite names? idfk i dont have favorite names bc i dont necessarily kno a lot of names but uh. oliver and aristophanes and 

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them. many many many ocs. too many ocs. gimme a species and/or “type” and ill give u some details abt one th ough, i just cant choose a rando one out of all the ones i have if u feel me

cerulean: do you believe in true love? not really

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why? spanish bc im taking classes for it and learning another language is :^)) and it’d be nice to have something less to worry abt

tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours. lmao dream outfit????? a hoodie and blue jeans and sneakers is ay okay with me. 

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this? idk, probably introverted???? im not exactly the greatest at communication anyway

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours. uhhhhh i bite my bottom lip a lot to the point where skin comes off, but like. that’s not exactly,,,,”strange” u kno

[felassan]

OC associations meme

Rules: Repost and fill in the answers you most associate your character with to each question.

nobody tagged me, I just felt like doing this. blacklist “MJ does a meme” to save yourself. cut for length & clutter. 

Gryff Lavellan -

1. ANIMAL:  wolfhound (also other hunting dogs, warhounds), halla (particularly golden halla), to a lesser extent wyverns, harts, wolves and red deer

2. COLOR(S):  greens (Dalish greens, emerald green), woad blue, ironbark blue (I imagine it like a sort of blue-gray, like silver birch with a blue tinge), white-gold, silver

3. MONTH:  Firstfall

4. SONG(S): "A Rose For Epona", "The Call of the Mountains" & "Omnos" [ELUVEITIE]

5. NUMBER:  6

6. DAY OR NIGHT:  dusk and dawn actually I think, they remind me of her standing watch

7. PLANT:  ironbark trees (if that’s what they’re even called lol), elfroot (especially Bitter), pine, gorse, nettle

8. SMELL(S):  sword & armor oils, halla musk, elfroot pipesmoke, dog, sweat, hunting leathers, woodsmoke, heather, dragonblood (thanks Iron Bull), elfroot, sometimes cloves

9. GEMSTONE:  emerald, greenstone

10. SEASON:  autumn (winter’s comin yo we must prepare)

11. PLACE(S):  atop her halla, battlefields, clan campsites, aravels, Din'an Hanin, highlands, Antiva, Rivain, the Dales

12. FOOD:  lean game meat, chewing roots, traditional Dalish hearth cakes, trail rations, halla dairy products

13. ASTROLOGICAL SIGN:  shades of Taurus, Capricorn, & Aries

14. ELEMENT(S):  metal

15. DRINK:  mead, dandelion wine, halla milk, scotch whisky, alcohol Dalish elves might make like beer brewed from wild grasses or fermented fruit drinks

Logan Hawke - 

1. ANIMAL:  birds of prey other than owls (particularly sea eagles and common buzzards), phoenix, mabari, bear 

2. COLOR(S):  red (blood-red, rusty-red), black, dark gray, yellow-gold   

3. MONTH:  August   

4. SONG(S):  "Radioactive" [Imagine Dragons], "Lovers on the Sun" [David Guetta ft. Sam Martin], “Jungle” [X Ambassadors, Jamie N Commons], "Icarus" [Bastille]   

5. NUMBER:  8 

6. DAY OR NIGHT:  night   

7. PLANT:  Blood Lotus, Dark Embrium, carnivorous plants   

8. SMELL(S):  brimstone, charred paper, burning refuse, blood, booze, damp feathers, rust, wet dog, dirt, lyrium, sea brine, ash, stale acrid taven air

9. GEMSTONE:  bloodstone, red tiger’s eye

10. SEASON:  monsoon season, summer (summer storms!)

11. PLACE(S):  shitty taverns, the deck of a pirate ship, alleyways, docks, city underbelly   

12. FOOD:  pig oat mash, Fereldan stews 

13. ASTROLOGICAL SIGN:  I see her in.. Aries, Scorpio, Leo

14. ELEMENT(S):  fire, blood (not an element but bloodbending in Avatar always reminds me of her, go with it)

15. DRINK:  cider spiked with brandy, ale, anything alcoholic and free and that burns going down

[youaremypatronus]

survey

OCEAN ASK

pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

new zealand

because lord of the rings and it looks gorgeous over there

sails: describe your perfect partner.

loyal, honest, humorous, kind???

lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear?

none

shells: would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf?

probably vampire

because werewolves dont have control over the whole full moon deal and are they conscious of their actions during the werewolf form or what we gotta clarify

also it seems painful to transform from a human body into a werewolf body ya feel

mermaid: most embarrassing moment?

my whole life is an embarrassment

turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

i havent had a weird dream in awhile so i’m not sure

waves: favourite season and why?

autumn because it’s not super hot and it’s not super cold

also the whole leaves changing sounds pretty

breakers: would you ever consider getting married?

maybe

seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation.

appalachian trial hiking

rain: if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet?

does a raccoon count as “exotic”

i just love their cute little hands and their cute little faces

sunlight: least favourite song?

that one song in that one spotify ad where the dude’s like “uh skip” and then he’s like “oh yeah this one’s cool” and it’s the shittiest song that has ever assaulted my ears ever

marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery?

no

sea glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature?

EVERYTHING

storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not?

yes

because i am influenced by my sociohistorical upbringing

boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple?

bob and linda

coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why?

pizza

nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor?

i dont know???

seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever watched?

there was this horror movie i watched when i was younger and it gave me nightmares for a week

idr what it was called but i still remember the gist of the movie

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage?

probably a rogue

tempest: your favourite Pokemon?

arcanine

tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance?

i’m flawless

aquamarine: describe your dream date.

harry potter marathon

brine: gold or silver?

silver

tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality?

blue??

azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy?

read books, watch movies/tv shows

fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years.

cryin over my disseration

coastline: what is your favourite flower?

lilies

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order?

some frappucino

voyage: what are your favourite names?

alex, sam, riley

shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them.

yes

it’s basically my skyrim character

they’re named shadow and they’re an epic archer and rides a loyal horse and they’re friends with dragons

cerulean: do you believe in true love?

sure

shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why?

chinese

cd tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours.

cool ass boots with some cool ass jeans and some cool ass shirt with a cool ass leather jacket and some cool ass wind blowing through my cool ass hair

riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this?

i’m probably a mix of both

hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours.

i like to drink around the cup rim

like i can’t drink from the cup at the same spot until i go around the rim

[simonxriley]

All I those questions back, because I'm so original!😂💕

 Pearl: if you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go and why?

There are so many places i want to visit, the top one would be Italy, mostly cause i want to visit Rome.

Sails: describe your perfect partner?

Ok, i have no clue tbh, i guess i’ll know when i find him/her

Lighthouse: how much makeup do you wear?

None unless i have too (i’m very lazy, and i’m more of a tomboy and never really worn it lol)

Shells:would you prefer to be a vampire or a werewolf?

Werewolf definitely, how cool would that be, you be a totally normal human with a job/life and during the full moon you’d turn into a werewolf and do whatever they do, and if you have someone you hate, oh look you could just kill him (i mean what) i’ve thought about this way to much lol 

Mermaid: most embarrassing moment? 

i don’t really have any embarrassing moments cause i don’t give a shit and make myself look like a fool anyways but this was kinda embarrassing, when i was in high school, i was out for like a week cause i was sick and when i returned my friend and i had a different class in the morning and she didn’t know i was gonna be there so anyways she spots me from down this long as hallway we had and she yells “Megan you slut” that wasn’t the embarrassing part tho, she said it in front of my crush at the time, now that was embarrassing.

Turquoise: weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

ok so i had a dream that i was with Nate & Sam on some random treasure hunt anyways we get to this like room and there’s a person in the room which ended up being Zoran, which was weird since he’s suppose to be dead, anyway we were gonna fight him for some reason and when i go to look at the Drakes…THEY WEREN’T THERE, THEY FUCKING DISAPPEARED ON ME, so guess what i did? i started to cry and that’s how it ended, just me crying my eyes out in front of Zoran Lazervic.

Waves: favorite season and why?

Autumn because it means football season starts and i love the changing of the leaves and you get to wear boots and cozy sweatshirts and drink apple cider and hot chocolate and pick apples, i just really love fall :)

Breaker: would you ever consider getting married?

Yes i would, in the future though.

Seafoam: describe your ideal summer vacation?

I’m not really picky but somewhere on the beach, don;t care where just give me a good book and i can lay out there all day.

Rain:  if it were possible, what exotic animal would you keep as a pet?

I would LOVE an owl, they’re one of my favorite animals and i just love them.

Sunlight: least favorite song? 

Friday by Rebecca Black, i hate that song so much

Marine: would you ever consider plastic surgery?

No i haven’t.

Sea Glass: what do you consider to be your best physical feature?

My ass ;) tbh tho 

Storm: do you like piercings and tattoos? Why or why not?

Yes i do, imo i think it cool especially when i see someone with tattoos and i think to myself that almost all their tattoos has a meaning with a story behind it and i think that’s awesome how you can have memories permanently on your body.  

Boardwalk: who is your favourite fictional couple?

Nathan Drake & Elena Fisher from Uncharted

Coral: if you had to describe your personality as a food, what would you be and why?

idk, this one is actually hard lol

Nymph: old-fashioned or modern decor?

I’m a fan of both but i lean more to modern decor.

Seawater: scariest movie you’ve ever saw? 

Killer Clowns from outer space, this was also the first horror movie i ever saw, but give me a slasher film or even a paranormal one and im fine but if it has clowns nope not happening.

siren: in a fantasy setting, would you be a warrior, rogue or mage?

Probably rogue 

Tempest: your favourite Pokemon?

Pikachu and Charmander

Tropic: what is your least favourite thing about your appearance?

my height and/or teeth

Aquamarine: describe your dream date.

I’m pretty basic, dinner and a movie, maybe a walk around town, then back to my or his/her place for whatever happens afterwards.

Brine: gold or silver?

Gold or rose gold

Tidal: what is a colour that best describes your personality?

Dark blue.

Azure: what is something that you do that makes you happy?

Play video games, watch movies, go though tumblr, annoy my niece

Fog: describe where you think you’ll be in five years.

Hopefully back in school, and i have my license (yes im 21 and i still don’t have it)

Coastline: what is your favourite flower?

Roses and lilies

shallows: what is your typical Starbucks order?

I’m more of a dunkin donuts kind of girl, and it’d a french vanilla ice coffee extra extra (extra cream and sugar)

Voyage: what are your favourite names?

Phoenix, Wyatt, Ellie, McKenna, and Kingsley to name a few.

Shipwreck: do you have an OC? If so, describe them.

No i don’t.

Cerulean: do you believe in true love?

Yes for the most part.

Shoreline: if you could become fluent in another language, which would you pick and why?

Italian, Romanian, and hieroglyphic Egyptian, i don’t really have a good answer as to why lol  

Tsunami: describe a dream outfit of yours.

It’s skinny jeans with a pair of doc martens with a black shirt of some kind can be a band tee or not and a leather jacket, i actually wear this a lot except i don’t have a leather jacket yet :( 

Riptide: are you introverted or extroverted? Are you happy with this?

Introverted and yes i am

Hurricane: describe a strange habit of yours.

I don’t have a strange habit’s but during football season, i have to wear the exact same thing or i feel like we will lose.

Thank you :) and sorry it took me so damn long lol

[miladinzecevic]

STANA

Neoni paraju nebo, buka i žagor na svim mogućim svjetskim jezicima, velika jabuka, kako je zovu u punom sjaju. Hiljade ljudi na ulici, u haosu se gura i provlači. Sirena se prodra na desetak metara, ambulantna kola su zaglavila i neće se tako lako pokrenuti. Samo privid, već je na uglu, još jedan urlik i izmiče iz vidokruga. Haos ima svoj red i pravila, jedino Stana na vrhu ulice, novo lice striptiz bara negdje oko Džejmstauna. Jedino ona ne može da se uklopi u taj haos, pa opet je tu već druga godina. Sa osmijehom se okreće ženi koja je umalo oborila i nasmijana kaže mater ti tvoju kravo odvratna. Smije se sebi, a neznanka slično njoj, vjerovatno pozdravlja Staninu ujčevinu negdje u Podrinju isto se osmjehujući. I tako produžavaju put. Sva u znoju jedva se probi do bara provlačeći se izmedju gostiju. Pijani gost, hvata je za ruku i dobija specijal bosanski šamar, koji ga patosira prije obezbjedjenja. Yeah Stana, smiju se izbacivači, dok iznose ošamućenog gosta. Ona se već pozdravlja sa koleginicama golim i znojavim. Brzo se skida, i počinje neki svoj ritual, dok se trlja velikim peškirom i prska litre parfema na sebe, jedna crnkinja joj podiže kosu i pravi frizuru. Debeli menadžer, navikao na golotinju i gomilu histeričnih žena proziva jednu po jednu. ' Polak Stana' , pas ti mater nijesam Polak idiote unosi mu se u lice, speluje S R P K I NJ A. Polak, Srpskinja anyway, go go its time, here we go, idemo svinjo jedna, idemo. Izlazi na podijum i prilazi šipci, toliko vremena a pogled joj preleti salom da vidi ima li ko poznat, postidi se i zarumeni. Preglasna muzika i desetak djevojaka oko nje i polako popušta nervoza. Kako vrijeme odmiče, prepušta se tome ludilu. Uvija se i vrti oko šipke, kao oni derviši na kraju rata. Dok je bila vezana u kućnom zatvoru negdje u Tuzli. Savija se i kao da je rodom iz Afrike skače uokolo. Veze nema sa muzikom i ritmom, a publika to voli, gledaju kako joj odskaču grudi. Balave po podu, na pauzi užagrenim očima samo bulji u jednu tačku i velikim gutljajima ispija limunadu. Obliže se jezikom a mulatka sa strane mjeri sve na njoj, i kad se Stana oblizne i ona uzdahne. Bliže su joj žene od muškaraca, a ova Polak baš bi joj legla. Stana je pogleda i puna mržnje se strese, pokaže joj prstom preko grkljana. Znam mila moja, želja će te biti bogami zaklaću te, ko' kokošku. Any ponavlja koškoka, koškoka i opet se oblizuje. Opet veliki peškir i trlja se jedna pored druge, opet debeli menadžer požuruje, lets go girls go go, mora da je Njemac Stana na glas, nema taj druge nego go go. ***** jedno, tako se krivi i dere kada ga u svlačionici dohvati njegov dečko, prvi put se ispovraćala kada ih je vidjela. Ponovo je na na bini, sada ne gleda okolo prilazi i proba da igra na muziku, nekako jadno i traljavo. Sreća tu niko zbog muzike i ne dolazi. Padaju novčanice ispred, kao ispred trubača u njenome Podrinju, samo krupnije i više, više i koštaju. Ili ne koštaju, ko to zna? Svako prodaje to što ima. Udesio tako onaj gore, kada sve rasprodamo uzme nas nazad, mene nije vala morao ni slati. Ni do rata se nijesam naradovala, petoro djece u planini, druga po starosti, dok je otac ispijao piva pred prodavnicama, ona i majka sa starijim bratom. Kosila i brala drva, tražila je i tu da radi sa motornom testerom, nijesu htjeli da čuju. Tukli bi se radnici oko nje, a onda slaba vajda. Stopirala je pet dana nazad do Njujorka, i tražila bilo šta da preživi. Baš sam i našla, a opet su pošteniji i iskreniji od većine onih koje sam upoznala. Pokupi nekoliko krupnijih novčanica, i na znak menadžera sađe u publiku, ostatak novca ostavi drugim djevojkama. Dogovor je da svaka ponese bar nešto, kroz gužvu dopiru urlici Stana, Stana zadihan čovjek crven u licu, drži snop novčanica u ruci, htio bi da je kupi za to veče. Obezbjeđenje je već na oprezu. Prihvati da sjedne za sto sa njime, ne gleda je u oči već u gole grudi i stomak. Samo klima glavom i oblizuje se, mami je sa deseticama. Trpa ruku u pantalone, Stana krenu da ustaje, sory sory, im nice gay, a jes' u pizdu materinu. Čitav si fin i sigurno neđe imaš familiju skote, not Scot no, Flint pokazuje na sebe prstom, nice gay. Ponudi je pićem, djevojka spusti ispred njega viski a pred nju sok iste boje, namignu joj. Brzo popi i on joj se pridruži na iskap sasuvši otrov u sebe. I još jedan, i sad je baren, vadi stotku i lijepi joj na grudi dozvoli mu. Ovacije iz gungule oko njih. Proba da je dočepa za kosu pomamljen, izmače se i otvorenim dlanom ga posla na pod. Predstava je završena, ovacije i aplauzi. Polako ide uvijajući kukovima a zvižduci paraju uši. Zastade kod šanka, popi čašu vode not fight, not fight money, menadžer joj pokazuje palcem i kažiprstom, da je trebala da pođe sa njim, nice gay. Gleda ga i razmišlja na šta je podsjeća, ne nalazi ništa slično. Težak i ogroman dlan stade joj na rame, okrenu se i nasmija moj čovjek, my man iskreno se nasmija. Iza crnac težak za trojicu sav u mišićima i osmijehu. Ispod neona bijele se zubi i neki dječiji osmijeh. Ma i nije drugo do dijete, poveliko ali dijete. Đes' ba Časlave, čitavo veče, zove ga Časlav ili Đorđe kako kad. Pravo ime mu Isak, ili kako ga ovdje izgovaraju Ajzak. U njegovome društvu pođe do svlačionice, ne puštajući ga unutra udje i istušira se na brzinu. Bili su napolju, pronadje cigarete i zapali, on se namršti. No smoke, your health Stana, stvarno brine, e moj Časlave neće mene ubit' duvan nego ova tvoja zdrava Amerika. Nasmija se i privi uz njega, podjoše ka podzemnoj željeznici. Na peronu ih zaustavi policajac, ocijenio da su tu poslom, gleda njene papire pa onda njegove i priča u šiframa u radiostanicu. Prezrivo ih gleda, i Časlav njega, na jedan Stanin mig otkinuo bi mu glavu golim rukama. Pruži im dokumente i bez pozdrava otrča niz peron otkopčavajući futrolu pištolja. Oni brzo udjoše u voz, samo se pogledaše i nasmijaše. Naslonila se na njega a on joj najdubljim glasom zapjeva nešto sjetno sa juga. Skoro je zaspala, kada ju je iznio iz voza. Toliko brdo od čovjeka a nježan, polako par stepenika i u stanu su od trideset kavadrata. Nema neku naročitu vezu sa Isakom, opet je on pazi i čuva. Upoznao je na ulici pijanu i drogiranu i doveo kući. Ima od tada godinu i kusur, sažalio se na ludaču koja psuje na nekome svojem jeziku. Nikada nije tražio ništa za uzvrat, samo društvo ljepotice a Stanislava, kako joj je pravo ime jeste ljepotica. Doduše ona misli samo spolja, rat ju je silovao i ubio pola porodice, i nju čitavu. Probudila se poslije razmjene na psihijatriji u Beogradu. Poslije mjesec, obrela se u zadružnom domu negdje oko Rume. Sa paketom Crvenog Krsta, ulje brašno i tako. Ispod plavog mosta zaradila za put i samo jedno jutro u hladnjači prešla pola Evrope. Što dalje i od kuće i od sebe. Mislila je to ljeto da sprema upis na fakultet, bilo je drugačije. IMG_20210527_185215087.jpg

Evo je sada sedam godina kasnije, u crnačkom bloku i osjeća se kao jedna od domaćih. Psuje i gadja limenkama i bocama dilere ispod prozora. Poznata u komšiluku kao crazy Stana, ipak poštena i odana ljudima sa kojima dijeli život u tudjini. U početku je obilazila klubove sa zemljacima, tu je upoznala i Dejana, zaljubila se u njega i počela da živi sa njime. Dejan je došao da napravi karijeru kompjuterskog genija, ali se uvalio u drogu, kocku i druženje sa svakakvim ološem. Na kraju je pokrao i nestao bez traga, javio se poslije godinu iz Teksasa. Nije htjela da čuje više za njega. Već ga je i zaboravila, preko nekih Isakovih veza došla do papira i ostala tu. Isak sušta suprotnost, pouzdan i predan. Njen Časlav ima jednu manu, ne može da odoli Stani. Ubio bi za nju, i vidjela je da bi to i uradio. Kad vodi ljubav sa njim, e to je za priču komšiluk se okupi kao na finale NBA, navijaju i smiju se. Poslije izlaze posramljeni oboje, a ulica odjekuje od smijeha i komentara. Svi znaju koliko su vezani jedno za drugo to poštuju i cijene. Čak i lokalne bande naprave im mjesta kada šetaju ulicom. A to ne važi baš za puno ljudi. On radi na gradjevini, rijetko pije alkohol i svaki cent donese kući. Isto i ona, planiraju da obidju njene. Oteže se to evo neko vrijeme, i to zbog nje. Ne zbog njegove boje kože, zna Stana da on ima ono što treba, obraz i srce. A za drugo je nije briga. Nego ne želi da se prisjeća, kaže ponekada da je rodom i ona iz Afrike. Isak se tada smije, not Africa not Africa Stanislasa, Georgia. Isti ***** Isak, Bosna, Afrika ili Georgia. ' Oce ide fidi family, oce oce Isak trazi' . Legne naspram nje i sluša je i uči srpski. Prvo ga je učila psovke, kada je skontao šta ga uči, bio je ljut. Kupio je rečnik i podvlači riječi. Našao je i riječ, prvo joj na engleskom rekao ' shame on you Stana' , a onda 'sramotna rec nece ucim'. Zaplakala je od sreće. On je bio ljut danima. Nikada joj nije prebacio gdje radi, drugačije gleda na to. Zna da je lijepa i da se to plaća mnogo bolje nego njegov rad. Ponekad mu na Youtubu pusti neki domaći film, i prevodi mu. On netremice gleda i sluša. Gledao je Isak i Kosovski Boj, pustio suzu za Obilićem. Ugasio kanal i okrenuo se ledjima, i baritonom otpjevao nešto tužno, pola bloka prihvatilo pjesmu. Bila je Stana i kod njegovih kući, otac mu je nestao netragom, niko ne govori o njemu. A braća njih trojica i Isak kao blizanci. Kada udje majka ustaju i slušaju kao pačići, ona im podvikne a oni u glas ' yes ma'. Stana se ubila od smijeha, oni kao četiri džina ispred starice. Nije vjerovala da nije neka fora, dok nijesu počeli da joj postavljaju pitanja. Postidjela se tih ljudi, u takvome ludilu biti toliko pristojan i pažljiv. Ponos im je najmladji brat Adam, završava koledž. Prvi školovani član porodice i svi gledaju u njega kao u sveca. I on je posebno pažljiv prema njoj. Kada razgovaraju izmedju sebe, uvijek sačekaju da jedan završi što je mislio da kaže. E Stano valja lećet' a kajaćeš se boga mi. Aman luda glavo bježala si spaljene duše, đe ćeš? Mora se majke i braće viđet' , ubiće te neki ludak na ulici a onda ostaviš tugu za sobom. A šta je sve bilo, i šta će se sve dešavat', baš me briga. Umalo iz Beograda do Loznice, sletješe nekoliko puta u provaliju. Gleda vozač Isaka, navikao on da gleda krupne Bosance, ali ovo čudo nije. Malo pa u retrovizoru mjeri Isaka kada ustane i pogne glavu da ne udari u plafon. Trebalo je da mu naplatim tri karte. Onda ga sirene drugih kola opomenu i psovke putnika. A i oni u čudu gledaju u saputnika. Ramena mu pokrila oba naslona. U Loznici je čekaju braća, stariji Jovan i mlađi Stevan. Rekla im je još davno da je Isak crnac. Ne sprdaj se Stano, kad' je za tebe dobar neka vala bude kakav 'oće, ne smeta nam, samo sestru da nam čuva. A mi ćemo njega ovamo kod nas, neće ga niko u selu smjet' pogledat'. Autobus je stao između njihovog golfa i stanice. Gužva na putu, Stana i Isak izašli i čekaju da autobus produži dalje. Ona jedva zadržava suze, tu na par kilometara vršena razmjena zarobljenika i u džaku kosti najstarijeg brata. Sve kao juče da je bilo. Isak primijeti i pridrža je, da ne padne.

Kola napraviše prostora, vozač autobusa još u retrovizoru gleda grmalja i odmahujući glavom dodaje gas, autobus nestaje u dimu isparenja. Stevan pretrčava put, širi ruke put sestre, a onda zatečen bježi nazad, Jole kolki' je **** te bog. Jovan zabavljen nečim ispod haube, još uvijek nije vidio sestru i gosta. Ne budali, kolki' je pa kolki' je, okreće se i sijeda na haubu. Njihova Stana krupna, kao i svi u familiji, ne mere ni zet bit' mali. Al' vid ti belaja, šta je ovo bog te veselio. Bojažljivo prilaze i grle i ljube sestru, plaču sve troje zagrljeni. A Isak plače sam, par metara dalje pogodila ga scena. A sejo što on plače, šta je njemu? Stana ih gleda ponosna. Lijepi su joj i stasiti kao sa filma.

Nastaje problem, sve su nekako uvezali i upakovali. Skoro se ne vidi koja su kola, e sada valja i Isaka upakovati unutra. Kako ga god namjeste po' njega viri napolje. Što ne reče sejo, traktorom bi došli po njega vid' kolki' je ko' bik. Jovan ga munu rukom, zar sa zetom tako i sestra ti došla. Vozio je golf u tim krajevima, svakojaki teret e ovo do danas nije. Oboriše zadnju klupu Isak sjede na pod gepeka a glavom podupire peta vrata, oko njega posložiše prtljag. Tek uz puni gas uspješe da krenu, prilijepljeni uz asfalt. Sat vremena se vuku do prodavnice tristotinak metara do kuće. Posle je loš put, moraće ga izbaciti napolje. A kako sad je čitavo selo ispred, neki piju a neki hvataju zjale. Neka bude kako 'oće. Na rupi ispred Isak otrese glavom u vrata, 'what a ****'? I prihvati se za glavu, Stojan se zacereka, Njemac je to bolan i Stana i Jovan se smiju do suza, i Isak počinje da se smije sve trljajući glavu. U tome su baš kod prodavnice i kafane. Gužva i krkljanac, došli i poznanici da je dočekaju, kada je nestala svi su plakali. A evo je sad' žive, vala ćemo popit za to. Izvlače stvari i pomažu Isaku da se izvuče napolje. Posle desetak minuta ispravi se Isak pored golfa i spusti ruku na krov. Golf malo iznad pupka, Stana u čudu gleda svoje seljake, nikad ih niko nije ostavio bez teksta. Evo i to čudo da vidi. Najkrupniji od njih, njoj nepoznat momak prilazi i obilazi oko njega. Bagerista navikao na krupne i batalne stvari ispravi se i isprsi pored njega. Nezadovoljan i postiđen ode i sjede na gajbu. Narod se ljubi i grli sa 'njihovom' Stanislavom, a opet preko ramena gleda u gosta. Polako se razdvojiše Jovan zastade, uđe u prodavnicu i kupi dvije gajbe piva da časti, ostali produžiše put kuće. Hvala vam komšije na dočeku i živjeli, popi pivo na iskap i kolima pođe kući. Majka je bila u kući, nije bila napolju. Nije mogla, šta ako se ne pojavi, njena radost i nadanje. Ovako će bolje sakriti suze i tugu, a neće doći znam ja to. Sjedi i čuje razgovor ispred kuće, njen djever i rođaci od podne su tu. Pekli su i prase, do sad' su ga i pojeli, eto ih pola pijanih napolju. Čim je poštar počeo da pjeva, to je kraj.

Neko se nakašlja na vratima, pa onda sitno pokuca. Stevan se šali sa mnom. Majko ja sam, tvoja Stana. Čuje joj korak, drugačiji je a mogao bi biti, i glas isto. Tek dlanovi preko lica, prstima dodiruje hladne dlanove. Možda me srce i starost vara. Samo da je ona, ići ću u svaku crkvu odavde do Banjaluke. Polako se okreće i ustaje otvara oči i gleda. Onda dlanom prelazi preko lica, lijepa je, obrve, oči, širi ruke i grabi je na njedra. Stežu jedna drugu bez riječi u zagrljaj. Pričaj mi bilo šta srećo moja, samo da te slušam. Stana je miluje i priča, isto kao ona njoj dok ju je kao malu uspavljivala. Jovan i Stevan brinu da neko ne uvrijedi zeta, bespotrebno jer kad se džin nasmije i kada su vidjeli da mu zidarsko pivo nestane čitavo u šaci niko nema komentara. Samo se laktovima dohvate i ućute. Zaboravili što su došli.

Nekako bez dogovora, rat se ne pominje, ni groblje. Priča se o svemu i svačemu, Isak shvatio da je on i bez želje da privuče pažnju, glavna atrakcija i preko dana zabavlja djecu. I oni ga zovu Časlave, čuli od Stane i svidjelo im se. A ne može ni da gleda Stanu kako plače, bude mu muka. A svako malo se smiju i zaplaču. Ne izdrža, 'sto vi stalno place i smije'? 'Isak tesko, ne voli place. Pomognem ne place'? Došao ispod trešnje i jedno po jedno dijete stavlja na grane kao vrapce. Idu za njime i nagovaraju ga da ide sa njima u drugo selo. Stariji su pa ih biju u školi, sad sa Časlavom naplatili bi sve razbijene noseve. Jovan pokosio livadu, onoga dana kada su došli, mora se sijeno pokupiti a sestre mu žao. Izvlači se da ne primijete. Isak primijetio došao do njega i traži vilu, vidi da i Jovan ima jednu u prikolici. Tek tu se vidi, Isak radi kao mašina već do podne sve u plastovima. A on se jedva zagrijao, Jovan zapanjen gleda kako radi, samo jednom mu pokazao a ovaj ne staje. Ni vode da popije, kamoli sjedne. Poče da kači plastove i prevlači do stožišta traktorom. 'Ide tamo ja ti donesem', zakači po dva tri i lagano kao krpu bez napora dovuče. Dodje i Stevan donese im ručak, ne vjeruje očima. Odmoriše u hladu nekoliko i Stevan sa komšijom poče da đene sijeno. Nekako sporo i nevješto, Isak pruži ruke ka njemu spusti ga kao pero dolje, okrenu se Jovanu, 'ti zna bolje'? Jovan klimnu, 'onda ide gore' i pomože mu da naskoči na stog, uze najduže vile i kao mašina poče da izbacuje i po pedeset kila na stog. Samo se čuje cviljenje drveta i Jovanovo, alal vjera. Kad' izbaci sve onda iz livade dovuče još i do tri sata sve je završeno. Ono čega se plašio, kiša poče desetak minuta poslije. Njih dvojica sjede na vratima štale jedan s' jedne drugi s' druge strane vrata. Dobar si ti čovjek Isak, 'zna Stana kaze isto dobar', 'kaze ofako i konj je dobar pa jase'. Obojica se smiju njegovome izgovoru. Naucim bogami ja sve, evo vidis obećavam.

Desetak dana prošlo, svi pokunjeni spremaju se za povratak. Braća ne dižu glave, jedino majka srećna. Eto molila se Svetoj Petki, i ispunila joj želju. Stana prebira pogledom brda oko sela, da joj duže traju. Teško guta i izbjegava sve i Časlava i braću. Samo sa majkom ćutke sjedi i gledaju se netremice. Razumiju se i bez riječi. Deset sati leta u tišini, bez i jedne riječi. Provjera na aerodromu i pitanje upućeno Isaku, you American citizen klimanje glavom, answer please? Yes, also Srbin from Bosnia. Uzima kofer i uzima Stanu ispod ruke. I sada su valjda negdje oko Džejmstauna, za drugo ne znam osim da se vole i da im je to dovoljno.