#oc: lazar jetz

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@starwars-art-events look at my lil guys that i totally didn't just draw

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ok one last thing before i probably disappear for a couple of days

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lil potato sleepsing @constellation-skirmishes

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lazar pre-Incident vs post mirra's death. life (me) fucked them up

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look it's lazar and @constellation-skirmishes' thetra aka the blue man(?) group before all their horrors! nice

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apparently i drew this last week and forgot?? omg

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uhh 👁️🫦👁️

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ai-less whumptober day 9: scar reveal

but that's not all! i've also written a thang. cw for heavy(?) body dysmorphia

there was no word strong enough to describe how much lazar despised communal freshers. at least the ones that higher-rank clone troopers used on the ship had actual running water, and not whatever sonics had in them. not unlike many chagrians, lazar was rather traditional in regards to what constituted an actual shower— water, for example.

although, if they were completely honest with themselves, lazar also missed feeling water on their skin; even this poor approximation of a proper swim was better than nothing.

someone should probably look at whatever the problem with the general’s own fresher was. not that it was such a pressing concern at the moment, but still.

at least there were no mirrors here

lazar quickly shed all their clothing and stepped under the stream of water. if he was quick enough, he probably wouldn’t encounter anyone else here. not many commanding officers were up at this time of night, anyway.

don’t look down don’t look down don’t look down

spreading soap on himself using only one hand certainly didn’t add to his speed; the fake skin on the prosthetic was far too slippery to hold a bar of soap, and the arm itself lacked the needed precision to do anything, really. what a shame, though. lazar would give anything to avoid touching the scarred flesh that covered half of his body. at least his right hand was still fully functional.

because you lost something much more important that day

who made the kriffing soap so slippery. they bent down to pick it up.

you looked down

gritting his teeth, lazar straightened up. he needed to deal with whatever this was like a grown, mostly functional adult. so, he looked down, now on purpose.

the missing arm, the vast expanse of burnt skin going all the way down his leg, was nothing new. but it was wrong, wrong, wrong.

nothing was right, not since i lost her.

not since you killed her?

i didn’t—

keep telling yourself that. maybe you’ll even believe it someday.

I DIDN’T—

“general? shit. general, look at me!”

“i did—” the world started slowly coming back into place. it was, frankly, too bright, and too much of it was taken up by some— no, by a certain clone commander.

shit. shit. shitshitshitshit. fuck.

“get out,” lazar said, hoping it passed as a command. it did not.

“yeah, no. you hit your head pretty hard on the floor here. i’ll get you to the medic.”

lazar glared at hex. hex returned the glare. lazar suddenly remembered that he was completely naked, and hex could see all of him, and— not again.

“at least let me get dressed first,” they bargained, pointedly avoiding any thoughts that would bring whatever that was back.

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whumptober day 6: conditioning / mind control / forced to hurt someone else

that must've been an awkward comm call ::))

so anyways. version without the fuckery and just the sketch bc i like them

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"do you like this colour on me?"

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:)

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"with all due respect sir, just kiss me already."

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well. at least lazar died in his sleep surrounded by loved ones?? idk

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You have a Chagrian oc right?? If you’re ok with it would you tell me about them? I love Chagrians I think they are super cool.

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uhhh yeah lazar is a chagrian

i guess i posted most of my thoughts about them in their tag (and a little in veles' tag) so you can look through that if you want

but! i also have this rough timeline for him that goes from veles dying to o66

one square is one year; lazar (is forced to take) takes a padawan (whom i know nothing about for now) a year after what i call the Incident, then a year after they're knighted mirra happens to lazar. then the clone wars start and mirra dies about a year before o66 (she dies bc of lazar and he is even more fucked up than before that)

yeah then hex kills them </3 what a shame

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ai-less whumptober day 4: hiding an injury

(yes i went a bit away from the prompt but like. past injury? they're still trying to hide it bc they're Very Fucking Uncomfortable? meh)

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What about one of your OCs? Your pick which one.

ehehe since you asked so nicely you get two

(pov when the council randomly gave you an emotional support teenager and didn't tell what to do with them)