#now oops im a different person. what do i do with the remnants of my past self i've kept. she's in there somewhere but no longer here.
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averlym Ā· 1 year ago
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#i have little to no rationale for this but this is an art blog after all so here is a random little something i did on break#wanted to do smth more illustrate-y for once and render. i missed painting and. faces are always fun to paint so i just started shading and#tadaa? out of the dreamscape indeed and inspired quite heavily by anastasia#<blinks?> i'm!! not sure!!! what i'll be posting from now on!!! welcome back to the avvy-has-a-crisis-over-blog-content //#ending-with-the-resolution-to-post-whatever // and then feeling like since people are following for six ... should. post that instead. //#i saw somewhere in a ted talk of smth that be yourself and your people will find you. i feel like that applied here when i was fifteen and#now oops im a different person. what do i do with the remnants of my past self i've kept. she's in there somewhere but no longer here.#so i guess. revamp. post whatever current me wants and ignore any and all stats.#last time i went on (what i thought was permanent hiatus) i think i was trying to end on a high note. this is now a ??ship of theseus thing#perhaps. whatever!!! <stops thinking of myself as a content creator and more of a silly little blog> wow this is so chill#the true goal of this all is just to get better at art. and have it be shareable. that part is bonus.#on another note i have picked up crochet! started another side acc! began the ridiculous flood of exam season. read two whole books#and listened to a bunch of songs i either discovered or rediscovered. kept cooking experiments in the kitchen. hashtag lifeupdates i suppos#it's getting better. im usually dehydrated and stress is forever there but i've come to like my life enough to cope with it?? hooray#i think. me-who-started-this-blog would be terribly proud of how we've grown. it's a comforting thought#also i can paint actually! hehe
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b0rista Ā· 4 years ago
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i just saw your connie hcs and omg IM SO IN LOVEšŸ˜©šŸ’• is it okay to request an angst fic where connieā€™s s/o, gets shot instead of sasha?
ā€” us.
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an alternate universe where instead of losing his best friend, connie springer loses his soulmate.
AN: we love traumatizing q-ball here <3
WARNINGS: violence, death, extreme angst. && this is unedited, oops.
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as the night deepened in its severity, you were swerving atop the disarray like that of a fallen angel. no matter how inhuman it felt, your duty was inevitable, as was the cause that came alongside it. you were a soldier. you, and your family. well, they werenā€™t linked to you through blood, but through experience, and even sorrow. as far blood relative, you were sure that you were nearing the final remnants of your family tree.
you win some, you lose some. even through all of the heartbreak and the waste, you'd managed to gain one thing. one beautiful, perplexing thing. well, it was more of a person than it was a thing; your love, your life, your will to move onā€” your connie. while you'd only become an item recently, you and connie's feelings toward one another go back, and far. in all honesty, you couldn't exactly recall when it was you first started loving him. and with his feeble memory, you were sure that it went both ways. fortunately, you can't bring yourself to care all that much about the past. you were living in the now, and turbulently so.
currently, you were in the midst of a mission. an intense one, at that. while each and every one of your assignments served with severe purpose, this one in particular wasn't meant to be taken lightly. after all, this had to be your very first time off of the island. not only were you standing on unfamiliar soil, but you were also standing within the core of an established battle between two entirely seperate worldsā€” that fact alone was enough dangerous as it was exhilarating.
however, the said battle was soon coming to a close, and it was nearing the end of your abrupt visit at the marleyan headquarters. the assignment was meant to be brief, if not a little tightly knit. you were to fight alongside the opposing combatants, retrieve your distant comrade, eren jaeger, and retreat immediately. and while you were still a bit skeptical of the literal aircraft you'd be traveling on, it was surely something you could get used to.
standing alongside your given sector of the battlefield, you were preparing for takeoff. due to having excelled in hand to hand combat during your time as a trainee, you were put closer to the ground than the rest of your associates, much to your worried boyfriend's dismay. as always, he fretted over you. if you so pleased, you could drop him on his ass whenever you'd like. even so, it always felt as if your capabilities were underestimated.
nevertheless, this wasn't the time nor the place for you to sulk in your own bitterness. soon, you'd be home. in the mere matter of hours, you'd be back within the comfortable abode of your home, cozied up in the arms of your beloved. in the moment, that's all you could bring yourself to even think about. you were tired, you were. if anything, the fighting only drained you. you were drained, and the only one able to comfort you was halfway across the battlefield, fighting the same fight as you. once you were to rejoice on the aircraft, you would be sure to pester him for the affection you craved ever so intensely.
with that being said, a call from afar was quick to pull you out of your own head and back to reality. from across the calloused ground that you stood upon, a familiar face waved in your direction.
"y/n!" they would call, "we're boardingā€” it's time to go home."
at that, you wasted no time in gathering yourself. with a nod, you readied your gear, intertwining your fingertips in between the metallic leashes that resided on your hips. with a single jolt, you propell yourself forwards, releasing your gear's wires onto the nearest rooftop. the moment your feet left the ground, you headed toward the jet. alas, your work here was done.
just as your comrade had said, it was time to go home.
while the carnage beneath you served as a grim reminder of just how destructive your livelihood was, it was the thought of returning to your sweet home within the walls that urged you to look away. a fire had been lit upon your very own accord, and you despised this war. still, it was your war to fight, and with good reason. at least, that's what you told yourself.
as your team's blimp came into view, your voyage into the sky became rushed. clearly, you were aching to leave. little did you know that below the latches of your ODM gear, a tiny pair of copper hues were watching you; and with the utmost fury.
with that final clasp hooking to the aircraft's entrance, you swiftly flew into the air, inured hands grasping at the rescue ropes that fluttered against the metal exterior. the air serving a harsh breeze against your skin, you climbed to the door. however, before you could pull yourself in, a hand reached out to your aid.
"come," the voice would say, earning quite the look from you. to your immediate relief, it was the exact person you'd been meaning to see. looking down at you from within the jet was connie, his arm extended out toward you. and while you couldn't exactly see it due to the circumstances, there was a faint glimmer of consolation poured within his golden hues. thank god, you were alright.
taking hold of his hand, you allowed him to pull you up, bringing you into the craft with such a force, you'd have assumed he was angry with you. however, you knew that that wasn't the caseā€” he was relieved, in the same way that you were. and immediately, he began checking you of any possible harm.
"how are you?" he'd ask, fingers moving to pinch at your cheeks. you only winced at the feeling, the literal life being squeezed out of your face as your boyfriend hurriedly scanned you. this was an occurrence that happened at the end of each and every expedition, much to your displeasure. "are you hurt? anything happen while we were seperated? i didn't realize it'd get so hectic, or else i would have-"
in the midst of his banter, you would only place your hands on his forearms, lowering his touch from either side of your face. gently, you would give them a squeeze, providing him with that reassurance that he desperately needed. softly, you would smile, "i'm okay. by the looks of it, most of us are. that's good."
with a sigh, connie would nod. after all, you were right. only few soldiers were injured, and from what the two of you could tell, most of them were coming home. considering the rare occurrence, you could only smile.
from the corner of your eye, you could see more and more comrades boarding the aircraft. and with time, a particularly familiar face would pull himself on board. having made himself out to be quite the leader, it brought warmth to your core to see jean return safely. the same went for your other friends, of courseā€” sasha, mikasa, armin, and so on. at this point in time, you couldn't even classify them as friends. they were family.
seeing as though your lover was quietly waiting to reconcile with the others, you would lay a brief pat to his shoulder. "i'm gonna put up my gear," you'd say, bringing yourself up to your feet. "while i do that, you ought to thank those two for making it through."
with a nod, he would comply. as always, you were the one to nudge him in the right direction. it was your straightforwardness that balanced out connie's constant uncertainty, adding yet another reason as to why the two of you were simply perfect. without any further discussion, he would make his way over to the entrance of the jet, rejoicing with jean and sasha. as he did, you made your way to the compartment sector of the craft, stowing away your gear. after all, there wasn't any further need for it.
as you situated yourself for the trip back to paradis, you would exchange small talk with your fellow soldiers, both congratulating and thanking those who made it back alive. because truly, you were thankful. it wasn't often that you gain such a victory. though, as time went on and you'd circled your way through the plane, you found yourself headed right back to where your heart lingered.
sitting along the back of the carrier, you saw your love hooked in the middle of his fabulous trio of friends, pulling an immediate smile out of you. he was yet to see you, but you could see him. with both of his arms latched onto the other two, you could hear his quiet confession from where you stood.
"it's not very fair to the others, but you guys are special ... to me."
not wanting to spoil the three's moment, you would only watch. it was the tender silence that stitched together a memorable matter of seconds, despite the circumstances. from a fair couple of feet away, you smiled. unfortunately for you, he was able to catch it.
"and you," connie would add, quickly reaching over to grasp your hand, "you're no different."
melting into his touch, all you could do was interlock your fingers in his own, lips tipping in yet another smile. taking advantage of the opportunity, the boy would pull you into his shared embrace, tugging you in between him and the other two. the iron outline of your uniform managed to graze jean's side, causing quite the exclamation: "ouch, jackasses. don't go for the hug when you're covered head-to-toe in metal."
of course, you would only ignore the brunette's antics, further sinking into the heavenly embrace of your lover. with your cheek pressed against his chest and his fingers tracing along the locks of your hair, you immediately felt at ease. this was home.
"now, now," sasha would coo, adjusting her ponytail, "now isn't the time to overflow the aircraft in your PDA, lovebirds. when do we get to eat?"
pulling your head from connie's chest, you would let out a chuckle, "not until we land, sasha. you do realize we're in the air, right?"
"ah," the girl would sigh, sheepishly moving to scratch the back of her neck. adjusting yourselves, the bunch of you moved to your feet, "i suppose i haven't quite adjusted just yet. just three years ago, we relied on our horses for everything."
"yeah," jean would add, "somehow, it feels like that was just yesterday."
now that you were all situated, the four of you shifted further towards the rest of your team, who were all dancing and shouting in celebration. you hadn't even realized how elated everyone was, having been so focused on the others. out of everyone boarded the ship, it was those who were apart of the 104th that had witnessed the most. with that in mind, acts of celebration were more mild than anything else. while you were glad, you were glad quietly.
still, something felt off. somebody was missing.
just as you were about to make a comment regarding the missing member of the squadron, a quick remark from sasha caught your attention.
"did you hear a sound just now?"
while the other two dismissed the thought, it was you that took it into a much more thorough consideration. compared to anyone else, sasha's sense of hearing was impeccable. while the others may have failed to realize it, she heard something. and with her senses mixed with your paranoia, you were quick to take the remark into account. out of instinct, you watched the door. the door was open, and one of your comrades from below remained missing. the door was open, and sasha heard something. the door was open, and it was vacant of any sort of movement.
the door was open, and someone slipped through.
a miniature figure with a barreled weapon pounced through the doorway and onto the aircraft, and at the sight of a single finger latched onto the trigger, your heart itself dropped. before anyone else had the chance to react, you did. seeing as though the muzzle was aiming toward the center of the flood, you were quick to lunge sideways, pushing whoever it was that stood before the armed figure out of the way. as you flushed whatever will you had to live into the force of your push, sasha simply looked at you in horrorā€” the horror of having to survive, simply due to your own accord.
it was quick. it was immediate, the single bullet, plunging directly into your chest. it was quick to enter you, and it was just as quick to warp you of your senses completely. while you saw that you were falling, you couldn't feel the impact of the wooden floor beating into your back. you couldn't feel it. you felt nothing.
and while you felt nothing, connie felt everything. his entire universe, crumbling apart before him.
in a blend of absolute horror, you could see from your hindsight as he rushed to your side, palms immediately moving to cup your face. moving your blurred gaze towards him, he would shout at you. he would shout, but it was all unintelligible.
"no, no, no," he would mutter, fiercely shaking his head. you were in an absolute daze, and he couldn't sense what you were feeling. hell arose in the back, and your attackers were being mercilessly beaten into defeat. your friends, however, didn't leave your side.
tears brimming in her eyes, sasha would rush to get some sort of a bandage for your wound, which was bleeding profusely. before anyone could process anything, you were laying in a pool of blood, the crimson flow staining your uniform.
"goddammitā€” HURRY!" your lover would scream, eyes wide. your head lay in his lap, and his fingers tenderly graze the sides of your cheeks in a loving, desperate manner. soon enough, he would feel the raw set of tears begin to well at the corners of his eyes, too. this wasn't happening, this couldn't happen. not to you. dear god, not to you.
"look at me, y/n." he would say, to which you tried your absolute hardest to oblige. you tried, but as your life itself began to drain, you only struggled.
"you can't leave, baby. you can't go, not yet. not after everything we've been through, everything we've fought for! it's always been us, it's always been you. look at me!"
however, you couldn't look. no, you couldn't do anything. instead, you could use whatever strength you held, and mutter the very last of your words: "us."
it's always been us.
with that, your blood went cold. and as your eyes closed, and your skin paled, a blood curdling scream begging you to stay filled the air around you.
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ahwait-no-yes Ā· 4 years ago
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Letā€™s talk about if Saihara hated Ouma
So lately Iā€™ve actually seen a bit more comments on how Saihara doesnā€™t actually like Ouma and people have gone as far as saying he hates him and idk why people genuinely believe it so here I am about to refute that (Iā€™ve been waiting ages to make this post just so you know so this came out as a horribly unstructured ramble more than anything oops)
some notes beforehand:
I have an obvious bias as I do ship saiouma. although iā€™ll try to be neutral on what I say here, I canā€™t hide my bias. I have tried to include what people that hate this ship believe to counter them though, also if you ship other things thatā€™s totally fine?? donā€™t think of any of this as an attack at your ship and Iā€™m not saying Saihara loved Ouma, Iā€™m just tired of people saying Saihara hated him.
Youā€™re allowed to respectfully disagree as long as you donā€™t berate me or say I donā€™t know the game when the majority of the screenshots in this are from my own gameplay, lmao.Ā 
and massive whole-game spoilers! Donā€™t read this if youā€™ve not finished DRV3!
Glad to know you made it under the cut! now I can begin with where I think people got this idea that Saihara hates him from- the infamousĀ ā€œYouā€™re alone Kokichi and you always will beā€ line.
I admit this was very cold and still breaks my fragile saiou heart, but to base Saiharaā€™s entire perspective of Ouma on this one line he said while he wasnā€™t thinking straight is just.. no.. Itā€™s unrealistic. weā€™ve seen how Saihara is able to adapt his views and grow (Iā€™ll come back to this later), heā€™s not stubborn in this regard like Momota or even Ouma is, so even if he did mean it 100% (which I doubt because when *anybody* is angry they will say or do things they may regret had they been calmer), itā€™s not like his view on Ouma from chapter 4 was his final view on him. And thatā€™s what people fail to realise.Ā 
So, how does Saihara view Ouma then?
well, Iā€™d say heā€™s been interested in Ouma as a detective from the moment he met him with his curiosity piqued at Oumaā€™s claims of leading a secret organisation.
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and he remains curious about Ouma throughout, always questioning why Ouma says certain things, what Ouma is lying for, he just wants to figure him out- and this doesnā€™t just apply to free time events either
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I think you get my point there, now, I think if I didnā€™t ship saiou and read this, Iā€™d argue these are all pre-chapter 5 and before the breaking line so he may have been curious before but not after- that then brings me to my next point
Saihara was confident- dare I sayĀ believed-Ā in Ouma, especially after Chapter 5.
how bold of me to say ikr, but this ties in to Saiharaā€™s ability to adapt his views. Heā€™s sort of like a mixture of both Kaito and Ouma honestly, because naturally as a detective he has to be suspicious and think logically as Ouma does, while at the same time Kaito taught him to believe in his friends which has also helped him to advance in trials. I think he might have extended this belief to Ouma, because he trusts that Ouma is doing what he does for a reason.
In fact, Iā€™d argue heā€™s the only one of the remaining group who wouldnā€™t readily accept pinning Ouma down as a villain. If anything, itā€™s the opposite- Saihara fought to clear Oumaā€™s name, and never stopped trying to understand whether or not his intentions were true or false
iā€™ll just drop this screenshot hereļæ½ļæ½(that i named THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY.png in case you were wondering)
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this is what I mean when I say he wouldnā€™t accept it as fast as the others and would second-guess it, bear in mind this is the moment Ouma ā€œadmittedā€ to being the mastermind. and itā€™s not like this doubt was sudden or anything, cause I can recall this moment (that I actually didnā€™t catch on to on my first playthrough)
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which gives me the idea that hadnā€™t Ouma purposefully messed with everyone and built up his bad reputation, it wouldā€™ve been so much easier for Saihara to disprove him being the mastermind at the point he said it.Ā 
Anyway, going back to my point- excluding Kaito (cause Ouma directly told him), Saihara is the first to bring up Oumaā€™s innocence, and this is what I mean when I say Saihara believed in Ouma
note that I say believed in. believing Ouma and believing in Ouma are different, itā€™s like how loving someone and being in love with someone are two different things, so donā€™t argue that by sayingĀ ā€œhe didnā€™t trust himā€ because ik that and thatā€™s not what Iā€™m trying to say.
but he did believe that Ouma had his reasons, and he tried to discover and understand them. I mean, take this for example
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heā€™s already on board lool look at him go, but no really look at the confidence
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heā€™s both confident in himself and in Ouma not lying here, then goes back to being curious about his intentions
oh and letā€™s not forget who it was that searched Oumaā€™s lab to find clues to prove he is a remnant of despair. Why do you need to search for evidence for something you (and the others even more) think is irrefutably true? the answer is obvious- he was doubtful of it from the start, and needed evidence to convince himself it was true, but then as he found nothing to prove it (and even evidence against it), he had to convince the others of it too- and prove Oumaā€™s innocence
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(the last screenshot was from Hikkieā€™s playthrough on Youtube)Ā 
But as you can see, heā€™s clearing Oumaā€™s name as the leader of the Remnants of Despair.Ā 
Now, I bet someone would argue that this only proves Saihara was determined to find the truth in general, because heā€™s mister detective, so Iā€™ll raise you the fact that Saihara didnā€™t need to try figuring why Ouma does the things he does- he could leave it at just knowing the truth and if he really didnā€™t like Ouma like people say then thereā€™s not much merit to it.Ā 
ā€œSo what if I know this now? I didnā€™t care about him, itā€™s pointlessā€ he couldā€™ve thought something like that, but no
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(I also think theĀ ā€œyouā€™re lying again kokichi, thereā€™s a method to your madnessā€ moment fits here too)
Not only this, but thereā€™s also how Saihara learnt from him.
honestly im still kinda mindblown from this ever since I first realised it, but when you think about it, Ouma hinted to Saihara in his FTEs how to win the game.
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(those 3 screenshots are from justonegamrā€™s kokichiā€™s FTE video; random fun fact this was the playthrough that i watched while first getting into drv3)
But if you think about it, Ouma tried this again in his own trial in his attempt at ending the killing game and then Saihara also used this to actually end it
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Not only that (which personally i think is pretty powerful in itself), but Saihara also tries to take Ouma seriously and picks up hints he leaves and uses them later
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as well as
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(and generally just)
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generally, Ouma will hint and then Saihara will pick it up. itā€™s been like that for the whole game- why should Saihara give any extra thought to what Ouma hints if he dislikes him?? really, he couldā€™ve just ignored him the same way he did at the end of chapter 4- but again, he didnā€™tĀ ā€œā€hateā€ā€ Ouma enough to keep ignoring him, he considered him a friend in the end anyway.
and the end is what Iā€™ll talk about now, too.
first- can we just acknowledge this?
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he doesnā€™t ignore Ouma at all here. even though he didnā€™t trust him, he was sad to have lost him.Ā 
Not to mention the way he thinks about lying at the end of Chapter 6. (like, please this is just-Ā  *chefs kiss*)
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IMAGINE Ouma was alive to hear him say that omg but Saihara could (and probably would) extend what he says here to Ouma himself- yā€™know, theĀ ā€˜embodiment of liesā€™
by thinking about lies in a different angle instead of at face value like this, he gets a more neutral view on them rather than just thinking ā€œtheyā€™re bad!!ā€, why wouldnā€™t he be able to do the same for Ouma? especially now that he knows Ouma was innocent and actually hated the game as much as they all did. I mean hey, even after chapter 5ā€²s trial he sort of already thinks about lies differently
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and throughout this post, Iā€™ve tried to avoid talking about his free time events or his salmon mode ending because people always sayĀ ā€œwell theyā€™re not canonā€ and to that I say not canon to the plot, yes, but still canon to the characters. so yeah, I donā€™t disregard any of them.
from this point onwards these all technically happen before chapter 5, so itā€™s not entirely relevant to my point that saihara still liked ouma even after the end of chapter 4, but itā€™s still something that shows he liked him beforehand at least. I mainly just wanna ramble though haha
one thing Iā€™ve always thought was interesting was how Saihara easily lashed out at Kaito in his own free time event
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and Kaito is undeniably Saiharaā€™s best friend who he holds in high regard. If Saihara having backbone means he doesnā€™t like someone then damn bye bye momota have a nice trip in space
in terms of ouma and saihara thoughĀ 
how about the fact that Saihara willingly sat there and played rock paper scissors (janken pon!) with Ouma 100 times?? bruh I got bored playing that with my brother after 8 rounds yesterday how would Saihara manage 100?? would you really have the patience for that when you donā€™t even like the person youā€™re playing with?
how about his third free time event too?
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(from justonegamrā€™s kokichi fte video)
Saihara wanted to spend some time with Ouma, thatā€™s- its literally written there I donā€™t know what you want from me the guy wanted a nice time with someone he supposedly doesnt like
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what I love about this is howĀ ā€œreaching outā€ could be taken both literally and figuratively. Wanting to understand someone and trying to find a way to but them being too unwilling to trust anyone.. damn šŸ˜”šŸ‘Š also shuuichi either wanted to handshake or hold hands, what else do you do when you reach for someoneā€™s hand come on
oh yes and how about that heā€™s content with the refusal because it allowed him to figure out a small thing about Ouma? understanding that Ouma has a different way of being reached out to? mhm please think about that for a bit
that parallel in the salmon ending too...
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he considered how itā€™ll be like with him after they get out and how heā€™ll learn about him, then ultimately decided when ouma reached out to him that he does want this, and even comments on the warmth of his hand... afhskfdlj
his blush when ouma mentions how his lies didnā€™t bore saihara was also a very cute moment
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ooh and what about the love hotel???
thereā€™s that one lineĀ ā€œI know iā€™m meant to be Kokichiā€™s ideal in this fantasy but when he tells me he loves me I feel like he means the oppositeā€ or something like that- iā€™d argue itā€™s because heā€™s cautious of Ouma for one but also am I getting something wrong here or is he talking about how he, Shuuichi, thinks Ouma doesnā€™t like him?Ā  because I see people argue this is proof saihara doesnā€™t like ouma but all heā€™s really doing is just doubting ouma loves him
well in any case
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WHY would he want him to stay in a love hotel of all places if he disliked him?! I know Iā€™m just a broken record at this point but I canā€™t think of anything logical for it. they didnt even need to include that line in the scene at all but they did like they couldā€™ve easily said something to do with realising where he was instead but nah. even after the eventā€™s over, he says to himself
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doesnā€™t he sound disappointed by it? and the fact that he even questions if it was a dream- okayĀ Ā 
ooh, something iā€™ve realised while writing this as well: it kind of seems like Saihara might not want to like him but does anyway; he quicklyĀ ā€˜smothered the thoughtā€™ of staying with Kokichi, didnā€™t want to admit that Oumaā€™s lies never bored him, and I also thought about how in one of Kaitoā€™s free time events he says to himself ā€œI shouldnā€™t be talking about another boy like thatā€- well, maybe itā€™s similar for how he thinks of ouma? itā€™s not like Saihara didnā€™t care for the othersā€™ opinion on him (probably the opposite ngl if you mess up in class trials he says something along the lines ofā€œAh I screwed up! They probably think Iā€™m a fraudā€) and considering nobody else liked ouma (except for maybe gonta) I wouldnā€™t be surprised if he felt shame for liking him, thus repressing that feeling (especially around the others, thereā€™s that part in trial 4 where heā€™s trying to convince kaito he isnā€™t siding with ouma cause he knows by doing that could damage his friendship with his bro)
I mean this is something I only thought of just now, but it could be plausible (i hope?)
One last thing- I find it incredibly funny how in chapter 2 when ouma is literally on top of saihara he doesnā€™t freak out or scream and everyone else in the room is also completely chill with it and unquestioning. no really theyā€™re just standing there.. andĀ how long was ouma even in that position for??
Now, I think thatā€™s all. So to finish off, Iā€™ll just say
People get the idea that saiouma is bad because some donā€™t realise Saihara can still like a person without idolising or putting them on a pedestal. Idk if this is gonna sound controversial or not, but I honestly do think he did exactly that to Kaito and Kaede- which doesnā€™t make what they have with him toxic or bad at all, I just think his view on Ouma is a lot more realistic and less clouded. Heck, if Saihara canonically liked Ouma as much as he does with the other two I donā€™t know if Iā€™d ship saiouma as hard as I do (it is fun to imagine though).
If you actually read through this then.. wow? Iā€™m surprised you got through this unstructured mess? I hope you can agree with me for some of my points at least but Iā€™m not here to convince you or anything, this has just been on my mind for weeks now I needed to get it out somehow.
I said it at the start and iā€™ll say it again now too- i didnā€™t intend on attacking or comparing saiou to any other ships so I do apologise if I seem like it, iā€™m just terrible with my wording (lmk if something genuinely offended you, iā€™ll probably change it) but youā€™re free to ship whatever you like cause at the end of the day itā€™s just a bit of fun. that being said, I donā€™t want to actually argue on this so please donā€™t haha, iā€™ve contemplated just deleting this but Iā€™ve put a lot of effort into this post even though i cant analyse for šŸ’©
I hope you can enjoy the rest of your day!
have the kokichi gaygun as a farewell present
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