#now im going to eat and hang out on discord

[attroxx]

live footage of my wishlist to santa this year

arranged marriage plot

knight x royalty

pretend dating

amnesia plot

enemies to lovers

friends to enemies to lovers

assassination attempt turned romance

singer / idol x fan

tattoo artist x barista or florist

' there's only one bed oh no '

creature / immortal x human

[bigintorobotsrightnow]

Hi!

-> Fishi . He / him . 23 . im gay person

Heads up a lot of my posts are suggestive, I am just a simple computer fucker enjoyer you cannot blame me

I am here to vent my gay computer hyperfixation, this blog is 100% self indulgent and there will be gross amounts of computer yaoi. Look away!

Current character obsessions; Edgar ( Electric Dreams ), AM ( Ihnmaims ), and Hal 9000 ( 2001 ASO ).

As a side note, I am totally chill with people using my art or designs as inspiration for their own. And if you want to draw my designs, go for it I will literally eat you alive lovingly. (( I'm @/wishi_fishi on twitter, this is just my secret side account shh ))

I have a discord server for people who are also big into robots by the way, free for anyone to join ;

[anachronistic-falsehood]

hi king how was the worm did you enjoy the worm how many Normal Feelings did that fucking d&d ending give you because they fucking. DEMOLISH me every time I think about it

I ENJOYED THE WORM I ENJOYED THE WORM SO FUCKING MUCH. GODDDD. SHAPE IM GOING TO THROW UP AND DIE BADLY. god. okay. alright. locking the fuck in im going to just rant about literally everything holy shit

ok so first of all taylor. TAYLOR. holy shit dude. girl who makes good decisions!!!!! sooo many good decisions!!! amy you have to alter my brain you have to do it to defeat scion you have to do it!!! im going to explode!!! taylor hebert thinking about how things could potentially help in the long term but never ever thinking about how her decisions effect people in the short term!!!! not thinking about how rachel and lisa and anyone else would feel seeing her ruin herself in a crazy attempt to get more powerful to defeat scion!!!!! GOD!!! and after the fact when she was talking with contessa, she admitted she would have done it differently. she REGRETTED IT. she has never ever admitted that she regretted any of her plans BUT SHE REGRETTED THIS ONE. SHE WOULD HAVE DONE IT DIFFERENTLY. HEAD IN FUCKING HANDS. TAYLOR HEBERT ADMITS SHE DID SOMETHING STUPID!!!!

and she's in another world with her dad now. hang on i sent messages 2 the hornfreaker discord that perfectly encapsulate my feelings about her i'll just put them here if i think about her for too long i feel like eating my carpet

ALSO DEFIANT. OKAY. DEFIANT. drives me fucking crazy that taylor was controlling all of the tinkers and having them make a huge fucking machine and the first time she had them use it she "gave defiant the honour of flicking the switch" <<EXACT PHRASING. like she KNEW that was something he'd want to do so she made him do it!!!!!! and i talked abt this in the discord too but i dont wanna scroll back that far to find my messages but when the tinkers left her influence they kept fucking building it!!!! and i just know defiant was the one to convince the others to keep working on it once she wasn't controlling them!!! i just fucking know it!!!! he would have been pissed about being controlled but he and taylor are So Fucking Similar he would have UNDERSTOOD what she was doing and pushed to make her plan happen. AND WHEN THE DEVICE WAS READY. HE WAS THE ONE AT THE SWITCH AGAIN. BUT WILLINGLY THIS TIME. THAT DRIVES ME FUCKING CRAZY. the story started because of taylor and colin and it fucking ended because of taylor and colin. it started with them at odds and ended because of them working together. AUGHHHHH

AND D&D OUAGHHGHHHHH THEYRE SO FUCKING. IMPORTANT TO ME. SHE'S FREE NOW. SHE'S FUCKING FREE. NO TEACHER IN HER CODE NO ONE FUCKING AROUND WITH HER MIND ANYMORE. NO ONE CHANGING HER AGAINST HER WILL. SHE'S FREE AND DEFIANT FREED HER. BUT ALSO SHE FREED HERSELF BECAUSE SHE MERGED WITH PANDORA WHICH WAS LITERALLY AN EARLIER VERSION OF HERSELF. IM GONNA EAT LEAD. THEY DID IT. SHE'S FUCKING FREE. SHE CAN DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS NOW. dude if you had told me back when i was reading the aftermath of the leviathan fight that colin arm master wallis would be one of my favourite characters ever i would have spit on you and cursed your name and thrown you out a window or something. god. he and dragon are so everything to me. im gonna throw up and die. he's no longer zeus he's content being a hephaestus....... "my worst days with you are better than my best days alone" "you saved me" "i never thought i would be a cape wife" im going to eat my carpet

[rmgkyle]

@tiredsmashbros

OHHHH TOMM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Christmas special

HERE YOU GOOO

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I'm going to honest, I generally think I'm not going to be there for the party since I'm dealing with some stuff rn😞

Tomm, man I LOVE UR ART SO MUCH, ESPECIALLY THE COMICS. Your comics are top amazing in general that I can eat them one by one and ur arts? Oh man they are so delicious and I love ur cartoon style eeee it makes me want to look at it everytime you post. Another thing I like about you is your silly little obsession with South park and Scott Pilgrim. I'VE BEEN DYING to see someone in the fandoms, its like I'm trying to find someone with the same fandom as me through the popular ones. I've been ur fan for a long time now and I was so excited/nervous to meet you! I love when we talk and yap about anything ESPECIALLY when we talk about our favorite fandoms. You make me smile and sequel everytime I see u in Vc's or channels in your discord server, it makes me feel special and happy to get to talk with you even if I'm being annoying. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 🥹🥹🥹OH AND U LITERALLY MADE ME SCREAM WHEN U MADE A LITTLE DOODLE DOODLE OF RMG GIVING BURGERS TO TSB AAAAA I STILL LOOK AT IT AND HOPE I GET MORE DOODLES, THE FACT UR A COLLEGE STUDENT I UNDERSTAND WHY U CAN'T MAKE STUFF FOR PEOPLE RIGHT NOW SINCE UR BUSY WITH OTHER THINGS!!! BUT I WILL BE PATIENT AND WAIT ✋ I PROMISE . Also, you just lighten my mood and I'm so glad I found someone with the same energy with me because EVERYONE IS GETTING SERIOUS NOW?! IM JUST A LITTLE SILLY KYLE. I want to thank you for yapping to me because I just adore u so much it's making me go koo koo HEHEHEHEHEHE.

I'm collecting all the yellow hearts u gave me and I think I counted them all /j

I'm so happy that I get to hang out with you and make silly jokes with you since I'm to comfy around you. Like, when I talk to someone I'm so shy but when I got a little closer to you IM SILLY HEHEHEHE. I was going to make more fanart but I'm pretty busy with a comic coming up. Speaking of comics, IM GOING TO STRANGLE YOU WITH THE "comic" YOU ARE MAKING. It's such a relief to join in the VC with no one except radiant, blue, or even doodle because that's the time I get to Yap to you or even make you laugh. WAIT HOW DO I EVEN MAKE U LAUGH?!? AAAAAAAAA. I LOVE LOVE LOVE UR INTERESTS BECAUSE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PEOPLE HAVE POPLAR FANDOMS BUT HERE WE ARE STILL OBSESSED WITH SCOTT PILGRIM AND SOUTH PARK.

You made me keep going on my art after seeing yours, obviously because you are my idol and I would do anything just to Yap to you again. It's such a great fact that you love RMG, she is just a basic deer jeezzzz /j

Anyways! I hope we can be good friends someday!

[branwendaughterofllyr]

hiii, I just read both of your fics, and I’m going crazy because they’re not finished!!! do you have a d!scord or tw!tter account for spoilers? please save your impatient fan, Im losing my mind lol (seriously, whose body is ‘the body forgotten’?? Is robyn reswell from the stark family tree related to our robyn? how does aemond marry alyssa? how does aegon react when he learns the truth about the fire at harrenhal? why your joffery arryn's mother is a royce? I couldn’t sleep last night thinking about these, really)

Hi! So excited to hear how much you liked my fics. I dont have a twitter or a private discord server, but I do hang out a lot at the Braavos server run by the lovely @visenyasdragon and can be induced to talk about spoilers there fairly often lol.

The title of "the body forgotten" is loosely taken from a poem by Ono no Komachi (translated by Jane Hirshfield and Mariko Aratani) that goes like this:

Since this body was forgotten by the one who promised to come my only thought is wondering whether it even exists

I have always really enjoyed the themes of existentialism that permeates Heian poetry, and I often turn to it for fic titles, haha.

I think the body in question could be Sybelle's, who is very much trapped in her own head, but it could refer to her dead sister, Irinna's, or to any of the various long forgotten tombs in the barrowlands. I also picked it after reading H is for Hawk by Helen Macdonald, specifically this passage.

You want the hawk to eat the food you hold – it’s the first step in reclaiming her that will end with you being hunting partners. But the space between the fear and the food is a vast, vast gulf, and you have to cross it together. I thought, once, that you did it by being infinitely patient. But no: it is more than that. You must become invisible. Imagine: you’re in a darkened room. You are sitting with a hawk on your fist. She is as immobile, as tense and sprung as a catapult at full stretch. Underneath her huge, thorny feet is a chunk of raw steak. You’re trying to get her to look at the steak, not at you, because you know – though you haven’t looked – that her eyes are fixed in horror at your profile. All you can hear is the wet click, click, click of her blinking.

The idea that you must become invisible, nothing, so that the hawk learns not fear you, that you forget even yourself. Hawking is going to feature pretty majorly in "the body forgotten," so I thought it fit.

In my head, the canonical Robyn Ryswells is probably descended from Sybelle's brother, who will go on to be the next lord, rather than from Sybelle herself, whose only child right now is an Umber, not a Ryswell. But I did use her as the name inspiration for Birdy, since I try to use canon names where I can.

To answer "how do Aemond and Alyssa get married" and "how does Oldgon react when he learns the truth about the fire," well, I can't really, bc spoilers, haha. I will say that my take on the Fire in Harrenhal is going to be different than the show's, and it should be coming up relatively soon in the fic. Such drama.

And for Joffrey Arryn's Royce mother, the answer is I wanted higher stakes for the Vale, and to partly explain why Jeyne Arryn chose Joffrey over closer relations. Jeyne Arryn had a very good relationship with the Royces, particularly her regent, so her choosing his grandson was a safe choice for her and showed how much faith she had in them. But also, not nearly enough families were torn apart by the Dance, and I really wanted that element. For a civil war, families themselves and even whole regions were remarkably united (especially compared to the Blackfyre Rebellions and the War of the Five Kings), so I wanted to add in some higher stakes by having Joffrey's Royce cousins ultimately choosing to back Eldric Arryn (as the Royces did in canon) and move the war in the Vale up, so it actually happens during the Dance. Joffrey Arryn and his Royce cousin will be making an appearance at some point before the Dance, to keep us updated on Vale politics, lol. Also, I wanted Rhea's death to actually have some relevance, and to make it a point of conflict for the Royce-Arryn alliance, so making Joffrey's mother one of Rhea's canonical unnamed sisters was my solution to that.

Hope this answered some of your questions!

[the-ultimate-pie-family]

Luna and discord encounter with the pies part 3

"Discord and luna teleported to Blood Realm seeing the pie castle already decorated for nightmare night, then luna knocked on the door of the castle." it's open, "Pinkie said, cooking. They walked in the castle seeing kids and blood decorating. " luna? discord? your here? Huh? Yeah, we came to see what your realm is like, so here we are. "Discord and luna smiled." Are these your kids' blood? Yeah, all 20 of them, ah 20, see discord 20 wait WHAT "Luna fainted"

~luna woke up in a random bed in a random room~

Discord? "Discord appeared withbsome tea." Tea babe, Pinkie made it for us,"Discord smiled, seeing luna awake." we'll have to tell Pinkie thanks later. mhm bloods kids are a handful. "Luna saw 15 kids hanging on discord trying to bring him down," Luna, help me, please? "Then five more kids jumped on discord, bringing him down" "Luna asking the kids to get off him they did out of respect then discord got up and walked to luna hugging her" you guys have manner ill say that "discord chuckled then luna felt sick and ran for the bathroom vomiting and crying" Hmm, pregnant, you are, huh luna s-shut...... "Luna yelled vomited again." look sweetie you'll do great being a mom. I said..... "she vomited again." Luna, babe, you ok in there

"Pinkie was in the same bathroom cleaning," but Discord was a loving father to my sons till he turned evil again, but your discord seemed more reform than mine but I know what you need for a healthy diet for your pregnancy miss pie this stays a secret no pony needs to know not even discord please I Pinkie promise luna "luna sighed in relief" but what is this diet you have in mind i can't say but after the normal dinner which you will nothing of ok good "Pinkie smiled" but then everypony goes to bed your dinner will start prefect "Pinkie teleported away" she....teleports?.......hmm odd? "Luna walked out of the bathroom feeling sick." Ugh...... huh? Doctor red heart, huh? "Luna knocked of the door" come in

"Luna walked, vomiting in a trash can crying." Ugh...... "Red hooked up fluids for luna because she was dehydrated. luna was passed out till she smelled food, but a blind fold was over her eyes." Huh, miss pie, is it my dinner yet? Yes, but keep the blind fold on this meal to improve your baby eye site, improve the brain, improve the brain, improve the brain, and improve the brain and improve the bone so three thing to eat miss luna amd some may be crispier then the other two. Gotcha, thank you for helping me miss pie. Hey, I'm a mother of two trying for more hopefully, heheh "luna ate her food while talking to pinkie" so how did you do it raise two kids? Well, the only ponies who helped me were my friends and my wife, my Princess luna. Wait, you're married, then who's the father of blood and your other son? Discord, he uh did things to me to get my sons...... "Luna felt Pinkie saddness," but he's no longer here, but my wife has been with me even when my sons were born. "Luna was getting emotional from the pregnancy. And crying from Pinkie's sad story," That's a true wife there, miss pie. Mhm, "luna finished for dinner she felt happy and good." Can I take off the blind fold now? No, hahaha, please? No, it's time for dessert. This will help your baby lung build strong for the first breath. "luna ate the dessert she tasted hot fudge and salted caramel with strawberry syrup." My mouth is having a sugar melt down, miss pie. Good, im not the famous baker for nothing, my dear. babe? "Pinkie's wife, luna teleported in the room. Pinkie was in," Babe blood needs your ingredients list so he can go get them. Ok, love, tell him I'll be down, "luna teleported away." Now luna, "Pinkie took the blind fold off, taking the plates away." Enjoy the rest of your day, luna. "Pinkie tele to the living room downstairs then discord teleported in the room" how you feel love? sickness, babe. I'm fine. "luna smiled, hugging discord crying." Love you, discord. Love you too, luna. Everything ok, your emotions are high? Yes, babe, I'm fine "then out of nowhere, the sun rose, and 20 kids ran downstairs to eat, then school while running over red hearts." damn kids, "Red closed the door," you discord out me, and luna needs to talk, but? "Red threw discord out of her office." Now miss luna, everything came back good, even your little thing. So I'm healthy? Yes

To be continued

Mod pie: to be continued party 4 will be good i hope

Tag: @ask-luna-and-discord

[beanghostprincess]

when did you start watching the anime (also how/why)

and how many episodes do you watch per day to go that fast??? (im asking because im genuinely impressed)

It's a funny story, I think-

Basically, I was hanging out months ago (like, the start of this year?? End of last year?? I think??) with my brother and his friend at his friend's house and they were like "Oh! What if we watch One Piece? The first episode, cmon, Robin!" and I was like: "Fuck, no. Shit's too long. Not watching all that. I'm sure it's cool and you two love it but I'm sooo not getting into this". But then they wouldn't stop insisting and the show started playing out of nowhere and, like, I just wanted to eat my salad so I guess I just didn't care if they made me watch a few episodes. The salad was really good, btw.

Anyway: I watched the first two episodes and I kind of?? Fell in love?? With everything about it??? Luffy was so charming and early OP is amazingly beautiful in all the ways. I kind of miss the energy, honestly, sometimes. But I loved it. I laughed. And I was like "Oh, okay. This is good. I'm probably not watching the rest because there are a lot of episodes but, like, cool show, guys!"

Spoiler: I did watch the rest.

But I didn't watch more until February. I was on my period and when I'm on my period I get really, really sick and I feel like shit in general. And I wanted to watch something to distract myself from that torture. So I asked my brother where he watched the show in Catalan (here in Spain/Catalonia it's also dubbed in Catalan and let me tell you, it's one of the best dubs I've seen. It's SO good) and I started watching it for real then.

The thing is, I was really, really slow watching the show because I was studying at the time and I could only watch at night sometimes and in between classes or whenever the teacher wasn't in class (or, you know, I just did it without the teachers noticing. The hyperfixation was growing). Besides, I started talking to my brother's friend more and more and more (now he's kind of like my best friend??? What the fuck lmao) and I literally told him every fucking thing that happened so, yeah, I wasn't quick watching the anime at the time. I would've probably caught up by now if it wasn't because I didn't have much time to watch it then.

Then I started Arabasta, and ever since, me and my friend have been watching the show together on Discord (I started watching it in Japanese and subbed, then). We watch the show every single night (except when we're busy, but it doesn't happen often) and we usually watch, like, 6-10 episodes every day. That's the average amount, but we've pulled all-nighters before when we've watched like 20 episodes during the night (we watched Marineford like that and we kind of did that too with WCI).

I think I don't go THAT fast tbh I could watch more every day if it wasn't because I watch the show with him only because it's sort of an 'us' thing. Now I'm on episode 1015, so I guess I'll catch up with the anime soon! Then I'll catch up with the manga and then I'll cry because I'll have to wait for episodes/chapters every week. What a torture.

TL;DR: I started watching in February, because my friend and my brother told me to and I fell in love with the show, and I watch 6-10 episodes every day unless I'm busy or I pull an all-nighter.

Fun fact: I watched the Baratie arc exactly on Sanji's birthday this year. I think he was truly meant to be my favorite character.

Oh, and the only reason I wasn't online commenting on my experience watching it before is because I physically stopped myself from looking for content because I didn't want to get spoiled. When I got to post-time skip, I created this side blog!! So, if you want a lil bit of a timeline: Started watching in February, got to post-timeskip in September when I created this blog (so 516 episodes in kind of half a year) and now I'm on episode 1015 (so 499 episodes in three months). I think it's pretty obvious that I'm not studying anymore and I'm just working 20 hours a week, huh.

[manneatcrarc]

get to know the author!

name : Sara

pronouns :  she/her

preference of communication : Discord, I'm still kinda slow there but I have a tendency to forget about the IMs

most active muse : 100% Dama, I’m only in the mood for my other muses every once in a while

experience / how many years : … that’s a really great question. I just generally go with saying 10+ years cause that feels right but I’ve been rping for a long ass time and couldn’t tell you exacts

best experience : When I wrote as Hestia (Greek goddess of the Hearth) and the first time I had Ishtar (Mesopotamian goddess of Love & War) a few years ago cause let me tell you, the mythology community was poppin. Everyone was so open and it was beyond fun to explore all these kinds of relationships, especially the familial bonds within a pantheon.

rp pet peeves : Hands down godmodding. Most of my muses I've had for years and have poured an insane amount of love into them and for someone else to control them??? Especially my ocs? Hardblocked on sight. Minor godmodding is chill, like if you're muse hands mine something and its assumed that they take it or if your muse wants mine to follow yours because that moves the thread along. But to essentially write my muse for me and change core things about them or what their realistic reactions are is an absolute no go. I recently had something like this happen to Dama where the other mun turned her into this sniveling little girl to make their muse look better and it was so fucking gross. If you want something specific to happen I'd prefer we talk about it.

fluff, angst, or smut : I love me some good fucking fluff, and if we have a fun/close dynamic going on I'll absolutely eat angst up. As for smut, I used to write it a lot a few years ago but it's not something that interests me now.

plots or memes : Both! I like plotting around memes with new partners and I think it's the easiest way to get things going.

long or short replies : I prefer shorter replies, like 1-2 paragraphs, for the most part. Anything longer I need a plot to follow and they tend to take longer for me to put out. I have to literally be in love with you to have muse for a novella thread though.

time to write : When I can't lol Like when I'm at work or its really late and I have to go to sleep soon-- or even like rn. I have a lot a muse but I have to leave in a few minutes to hang out with my family.

are you like your muses : Kinda but not really. Parts of myself will seep into my muses, but it's nothing ever too crazy.

tagged by: @worthless-weight-in-gold thank you beeb <3 tagging: you! Tag me so I can be nosy!

[climaxbattles]

vent dont read (unless the curiousity consumes you i guess. if you know me personally it might suck)

i havent been able to leave the house since may and it seems like every day i get worse and worse

i just cant deal with anything i dont know why

i dont go outside, i cant be alone, i cant even eat too fast/slow or i just like completely freak out

i started therapy and this is the first time ive ever been hopeful about interacting with a therapist but i still kind of dread it every week. im not even sure its helping like maybe shorter sessions would be better but i use so much energy just getting through the day i cant communicate until its too late

i dont even understand what made this happen my only guess is that one of the medications i tried really messed me up (or i have a brain tumor or thyroid problem or something) because a few of them had really really terrible side effects and i almost had to go back to the hospital for the 3rd time in a year, but i dont get why im not getting better when i dont do anything and im not on those meds anymore.

and if it is physical i cant leave the house without panicking like. i dont know how else i would go anywhere to get it checked out unless it got so bad i had to call an ambulance again so they could lie me down and give me oxygen and turn all the lights off and hold my hand again but that also was like very traumatic so im afraid i would just completely break

my friend is over visiting and i havent seen her in forever bc she moved 4 hours away and i cant even bring myself to hang out with her because she brought her boyfriend and i already have problems talking to anyone but her even though i fucking live with her family and leech off them. so im just hiding in my room

i dont really talk to anyone much anymore and i dont even know if its Because i want to be left alone or if its something making me lonely/im upset about. it also kind of seems like people r moving on from me but that could be like entirely self inflicted bc one on one conversation terrified me even before and now i like have panic attacks if a breathe wrong let alone attempt something thats always scared me

i think like some of them maybe also have a seperate discord server i wasnt invited to. this happened literally months ago where i accidentally found out and its not really my business i guess. and i dont even rly know if its true or even used anymore

it just feels bad because i lost a friend of like 7 years and a friend i really related to but didnt know long because i took their side in multiple arguments and i dont regret the 2nd one but the first one kind of still sucks. the people i lost had a lot of their own problems that made them unpleasant but idk. the first person was kind of always open to talking to me even though we r both fucked up and wouldnt ignore me even when i sometimes would bc of my own problems

and then if there Is a second server thats kind of why the second person lost their shit. so its like Maybe they were right in a small way (they were completely fucked though they would like suicidebait randomly and ive never had any other friend do that so its still for the best i think)

it seems like i keep losing or pushing away good friends kind of. or maybe im bad at all friends idk. ive never enjoyed socializing so it seems like my fault probably

i honestly just wish i could get on food stamps and/or disability on top of medicaid but i think people are still insisting i can go back to the way i was before. idk if thats possible. i just want to be able to stop taking As much Directly from other people and maybe like. buy legos or a 3d printer or something. i dont have much to do in the house 24/7 and my computer is getting old. and i think the internet is making this all worse but thats like my only activity

im so tired

[rookfeatherrambles]

Bro, I'm fuckin eating my computer screen with your au (/very positive). I love monster storys and for me it echoes an au I had for a diffrent fandom because I love man eating sea monsters who are just so charming with a partner who is normally their enemy.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA GOSH I AM SO HAPPY RN!!!! Hi thank you for taking a look at my au im going FERAL over it and driving all my discord friends batty because I will not shut up about it! I'm like... 25% done the first chapter of the fic and I AAAAAA so loudly!!! thank you for this ask aaaaaa your words just made my day! Here's a cute image I absolute will write just for you keeping the hype alive! Martin and Jon hanging out on some deserted beach, and just chatting. Merfolk don't speak underwater, they sign! So halfway through explaining to Martin (who's got lovestruck eyes) about the biggest fish that got away, Jon stops talking and slips into signing it. Martin doesn't understand, so Jon does it again, slower. Martin is really amused now and his heart is SO FULL. "Jon love, I don't speak that language?" Cue Jon looking sheepish and putting his hands down and saying "I forgot the word for it in English," and then they both start laughing because it's silly and funny and they're in love!

[lonelyy-clown]

eddie brock sona redesigned :)

asked ppl on discord what to draw and they said venomsona redesign, so heres this.

drew most of it on a stream of consciousnes. didn't know where i was going with it but thought they deserved to be more of a beast.

man im tired. uhh some story thoughts:

after the initial panic and confusion of discovering the symbiote, kay realizes it's actually really cool having an alien buddy they can do so many awesome things with. like eating raw food! they're kind of a mess ngl.

although i don't know if i'll design them myself, but things change when they eventually meet the spiderman of this universe.

actually it all goes to hell when the inevitable blow up between them happens. a lot of pain and trauma incoming.

but for now, the two are just hanging out and having fun with all their powers and all :)

[keefwho]

July 15 - 2024 Monday

11:12pm

4/10

No cleaning this morning, I might stop the scheduled cleaning time or treat it differently. Or maybe it's the one thing I should try to stick to no matter what to start my day off with some discipline and sort of self care. I had a snack of cheetos and pears for breakfast since my body didn't want to eat.

After work today BD wanted some time with me to ask about some stuff which was a little surprising. We had a deep talk about a lot of things, both her and my issues. The topic of what it means to be a social leader came up and I think my view of it really benefitted her. Likewise, having someone there to understand and reaffirm some of the things I've been up to was nice. We went for about 2.5 hours, past my lunch time but I much preferred the chat. Lunch ran me extra late too but I reminded myself that the afternoon stuff I have scheduled isn't super important, not like commissions.

All I did was the request today and about 10 minutes finishing something personal because I had a headache and was kinda tired. I was with BR and friends in her Discord server for most of the evening except for one point I went to mega-goon which was a mistake, I wasn't really feeling it. I've learned that self pleasure is one of my coping mechanisms and maybe only slightly a problem. I dont do it a lot but the way I do it usually feels kinda bad so I'm trying to be aware of that.

Hanging out in the server was fun. I've been stressed a lot today and struggling with the classic loneliness but I've learned a few times that forcing myself to stick around who I know are good people will usually do me good. And it did, I had a bit of fun by the end even with everything still bothering me. We watched the new Wild Manes show and BR drew her pony as a WM horse. I'm going to do that too but make myself female since stallions haven't been shown in the show yet. I've also never represented my sona as female before (because I'm not) so that'll be interesting. Not trans btw. BD literally asked me that today for some reason which was hilarious, she hasn't even heard the comments I make elsewhere about wishing I was born a woman. But I really am okay being who I am, I just wish I wasn't lumped into "men" sometimes.

Im in a weird place in my life right now because everything has changed so quickly and I'm in a lot of legitimate pain. I also might be really hyperfocused on what is happening and need perspective. But what I know for sure is that instead of thinking I'm in the wrong and that my pain isn't justified, I'm accepting that it is and that it simply hurts. Its going to keep hurting and all I can let it do is heal. I think I'm handling everything maturely, I am doing my best to be fair to myself and others. I want to heal what has been damaged as opposed to abandoning everything. I just hope other parties are willing to do that too because I'm committed. Thats the biggest thing I worry about.

[dinosaurzzz]

Hi! Welcome to my account! I'm Dino, also known as the (self-proclaimed) CEO of XVials (Ink/XGaster)! I'm multiship but I don't talk about the other ones as much since XVials kind of runs my life.

My art account is @dynobitezzz and I post finished works there and sketches here; my art tag is 'dynobite art'

This is mostly a main/reblog account and I do tend to spam when I'm in a good mood about something I really like. Please be aware.

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Here are some things about me:

PLEASE let me scream into the void about xvials. i won't bite, i promise. literally shoot me a message, tell me the most obscure thoughts you have on them, even ask questions about what i think on them!! i want it all. i need people to hear the xvials propaganda. these two goobers are so in love it HURTS that they aren't talked much more about, and i can give you a list of everything that has happened, and every concious decision jakei has made to develop their friendship. on top of that: i reocgnize their aroace identities and respect it VERY much. they are my lil guys. 🫶

i have a difficult time regulating my emotions and can come off as really rash and sensitive. it's not personal, i've just had a stressful(re: trauma-filled) life and my diagnoised ADHD and undiagnoised autism really go hand in hand. im also very bad at telling where a line may be crossed.

im kind of really dumb and big paragraphs, sentences, and words can short circuit my brain. english was something i used to be kind of good at but now i dont know whats going on with it. despite being a fanfic writer. so i may ask you to elaborate or word differently.

i AM 19yo and sometimes my work can become less than sfw. actual nsfw content is posted elsewhere.

im trans masc and bi/aroace(general term) and have a loving bf who i just adore! i go by he/it pronouns. <3

i used to powerlift competitively in highschool, my maxes are as follow; bench 140lb, squat 215lb, deadlift 240lb. i unfortunately couldnt get the last deadlift since its really strict about how you do things, but i could pick up the weight which meant more to me than some score. :]

im an aspiring video editor and im actually certified to use adobe premiere pro! i got the highest of my class with 920/1000 and im so proud of that !! <3 im obviously a beginner but ive edited tons of things before! Here's the proof because again. So. Proud.

I have several tags that I use that you can find and use below to navigate through my stuff. I believe most of them are self explanatory!

dinosaurzzz rambles is a general tag i use to talk about things, so reblogs, other posts, myself. just a lot of things. i dont ever tag reblogs btw so you won't get a cluttered screen!

Okay peace! Drink water, eat a snack, sleep well!

[khodorkovskaya]

You should full on start charging for asks, it's like a job but we value your responses xoxo

thx bestie <3

i wonder if there are any tumblr influencers who like monetise their tumblr presence. i don't just mean like sharing affiliate links but like you know how some youtubers/streamers charge for one on one calls or access to their discord and stuff like that. like are there any people on tumblr who like charge for asks? that would be so funny.

but omg speaking of making money, i have a friend of a friend i follow on instagram who's fascinating. ive only talked to this girl irl maybe twice and by talk i mean i said hi. we had a couple of classes together in 2019 and then covid hit and then i dropped out of that faculty. but i still follow her.

and my friend told me that she just like randomly converted to islam. which is like okay, i have another friend who converted, we all go on our different journeys. but my friend was really upset bc she was like besties with this girl. and her whole village was destroyed by isis, so she has a bone to pick with islam. and she had told this girl her whole story and everything. and then her bestie just like converted to islam and stoped hanging out with her. and then she started going around uni trying to get people to sign a petition to organise a prayer space for muslim students.

and okay, getting sidetracked like i always do, the muslim convert girl was organising a picnic and she said "it's gonna be 100% halal". and my friend was like "i only eat haram" and left the groupchat...

but anyway, whatever. so the girl never used to post on her stories. and all of a sudden she starts posting every day with like a huge smile like "do you want perfect white teeth like mine?". and i was like ooo this is fishy so out of curiosity i messaged her like girl what's going on. and turns out she joined an mlm and was now selling toothpaste. and i was like oooo girl be careful. and she was like "yeah no im so happy to be a part of this mlm! :D".

she was posting all of these girlboss events of her like on stage in a pink blazer with the toothpaste with all of these women around her with creepy white-toothed smiles. i was like jeez girl.

then silence again. i was like ooo what happened with the toothpaste cult? a couple of months go by and she starts posting her at events again. and this time.... it's crypto!

so now every day her stories are like "i just made x amount of money off crypto, dm for more info". like girlllll why does she keep being sucked into these things.

im scared that like the next big step for her is gonna be joining a cult or something. like yeah, being part of a community is great and the promise of making money is great but likeeee

[espytalks]

Im ready to talk about what happened on sunday. Long post under cut, and to save time, its mostly copy pasted from a convo with a friend, so the tone is a lot more upset than i am now. i added extra thoughts in italics, and fixed typos.

Tldr, i fell into a boat, sustaining minor (but worrying) injuries, and had a big argument with my brother. Everything's fine now.

My brother has a boat, we know friends of the family who has access to a river we can boat on. Hes my brother, i like spending time with him, and he enjoys fishing. Hes super excited about this boat, man. He doesn't have anyone else to hang out with but me, so regardless im kinda pressured to go with him. I want him to be happy, ya know?

And today, we went out, second time ive ever been in a boat, and the truck gets stuck getting the boat in. Not a big deal, we can call my dad later. I have a hard time getting in, but i get in and we have a fun time.

I have severe psoriasis, and the patches on my arms started getting sunburned, so i say we should head back.

Tides low. Man.

He wanted me to get out of the boat. Im fat, man, im short, im not strong. He kept saying i can do it, that i can get out of the boat myself, and that there wasn't any other way, but when i tried, i fell back into the boat, scratching my back and leg enough to draw blood. I landed on my brother, i feel guilty about that cause we were both pinned and i hurt him because of the fall. I barely manage to roll around and get up.

Editing me coming in: i only had his foot pinned. He made it clear when we talked about it that night i didn't hurt him. He was tense at that moment cause we almost capsized, and he was focused on holding the paddle in the water to keep the boat in place, and because of me he couldn't move.

We loose the paddles we needed to push the boat to shore, he uses a fishing rod to reel us towards the paddle, we make it back to a place we could get out, but he still insists i get out first.

I cant, man. Im tired, im still not strong enough, and im scared now, and pissed, and sad, cause falling is one of my biggest fears and it already happened once.

We were actually close to the ramp with the trailer for the boat, so since i couldn't climp up and balance to get on land the hard way, i decided to wade through near waist high water to get to the slope, cause it was easier for me to get out.

Hes pissed. I learned later he heard a gater was in the area, he didn't tell me this info before i jumped in, cause he didn't want me to panic (it would have liked to know that, bro)

Editing again: unrelated but apparently discord has a word limit. Ive never reached it before this point.

I get out, im tired, were both pissed at each other. He wont let me get in the truck to sit down ( i decided to respect this, actually. I coulda said screw you and got in anyways, but i know that woulda been too far)

I sit on the bench, he calls dad to come get me (dad later called me, i gave him more info, and told him the truck was stuck and we needed help) im cold, wet, lost one of my crocs (i have both back, they're fine. Crocs can float, apparently)

We wait for about half an hour or so getting eat up by bugs in the sun and Florida heat.

Dad comes, i get in his truck, dad pulls the truck (and boat, by this point my brother got the boat onto the trailer) out of the water. My brother hands me my stuff, and dad and i leave.

I feel guilty leaving my brother to himself to wrap all that up, but he wasn't too far behind us, i guess, cause he was home by the time i had finished a shower.

Edit: he told me later he needed the time alone, and i shouldn't feel bad.

I washed the scratches as best i could, and put antiseptic on them, but im still worried about whether its gonna be ok. I don't have insurance, actually, and us healthcare is notoriously expensive, so if i get sick from this, i might be screwed. Dad seems to think its fine, i wanna trust him, but i was sitting in wet pants filled with who knows what kinda river germs for almost an hour so. Ya know.

Edit: im probably fine. Nothing looks infected, its been a couple days and i feel alright, and im being careful to make sure i know if anything develops. I have anxiety, so im always gonna worry about it, but i think ill be fine. Also, my favorite pair of pants is kinda ruined. Bummer.

Its been hours since we've all been home, we've ate dinner, ive calmed down, aside from worries about my health, and i know my brothers tired and still a bit upset about it. I think hes calmed down enough that it'll be ok, but im still anxious to really address it. He doesn't like talking about arguments and stuff after they happen, so its hard for me to get closure from events, and it leaves me feeling guilty for a long time. I have issues letting go.

Im tired, im anxious, im sad, im worried about my brother, and i think i don't ever wanna get on a boat again, but im gonna have to, i just know it, if i want him to be happy.

At this point i had a message from my brother, asking me to get him something. Didn't make a bit deal about it, (didn't even mention to my friend what the message was about) but man, im actually a bit miffed, even now. Like,??? He knew what i went through, i was tired sore, and hashtag done?? We talked about everything later, and we're ok now, i vented and we're putting this behind us, but man, he can be annoying. My friend said some reassuring stuff, mentioned it sounded like my brother was pretty rude, and i added this next part on.

Ya know, the worst part?

My brother mainly kept insisting i get out cause he thought i was only holding back because of fear. I kept telling him i couldn't, i physically cant, cause im weak and i have bad balance. He kept giving me the "believe in yourself, you can do it" advice. He didn't believe me when i said it wasn't psychological.

He was rude, but its cause he really loves me, ya know? He cares about me a lot, and he had a lot of faith in me. He's there for me when it counts. He's also just. A bit bossy, and doesn't explain things well, and he thinks he knows best all the time, and gets mad when people don't listen to him.

Im not much better, im kinda a bit of a bitch when im angry, too, but he was clearly a lot more stressed than i was, but he absolutely thought i was panicking when i wasn't.

My brother can be a bit hard to reason with, especially in stressful moments. He kinda gets locked in a mindset, and its usually easier to just let him go through his own motions and let him make mistakes. It usually means i get bossed around. Ive been trying to make it clear to everyone i don't like being treated like a child, but its still something i keep experiencing. When it bothers me a lot, i go and talk about it when everything settles.

He tries to be respectful of me and listen, which is why i tolerate it. We have a good relationship, i swear, its just. Difficult. When hes good, hes great, hes a good person, but hes also got some genuine problems, and so do i, and we need to communicate.

I was really rattled yesterday, basic stuff was thrown off, and i had minor difficulty focusing, and i was really sore. I found a bruise i didn't know i had, and i don't bruise easily. Ive been keeping the antiseptic on everything that needs it, and they're healing well.

He says it'll be a while before we go in that boat again. He does still want to go fishing, but hes gonna take me to various ponds and stuff instead. I just wanna go to the beach. He joked about how we can fish on the beach too. He laughed at the dirty look i gave him. I know hes not that serious.

Also, we saw manatees! I have some video, but it doesn't show em well. Its sad how that was by far not the highlight of the day.

[bloodhailmp3]

today was really really good !!!!!