#now if only. i could dye it. so it could be green like the mv has .

[crystalpallette]

wanted to do a styling based on uni's design for 종이비행기 파일럿(paper plane pilot) because surely. a design as simple as this is easy to do in a game so full of pretty clothes. and thus began the hell of trying to find anything that could feasibly pass as part of this outfit (how is it that the icon for tops fits better than anything I could find in tops. why is a short sleeve button up with neck tie so hard to find here)

[waiting-on-a-dream]

Prisoner 007: Shigeru Rin - Trial 2

General info

Verdict: GUILTY

Physical changes: He's grown out his right strand of hair, reaching down to his chin while the rest of his hairstyle stays the same. His once dark purple strand of hair has been dyed turquoise. He's been diligent in following his usual routine, but the nightmare make it hard for him to sleep well, so eyes bags have formed under his eyes.

Behavioral changes: His whiny and demanding self from the first trial is no more. He's become more withdrawn and quiet, no longer interacting with anyone except Noa who approaches him first. The only request he's made since the beginning of the second trial is for some turquoise dye, which Noa requested for him. Why did he decide to dye his dark strand of hair turquoise? No one knows.

He's been having nightmares and hearing voices, which puts a huge toll on his mental state. He's always very tired now, his typical expression alternating between blank and sullen. His emotions are extremely unstable and he lashes out at his fellow prisoners when he gets angry. His self-imposed isolation isn't helping him either.

Trailer art: Rin stares at you blankly with his hands by his sides, standing surprisingly relaxed. Behind him, an elegant white wooden door with delicate carvings of flowers and flying leaves. The flowers are painted pink and their leaves a dark green, while the flying leaves are red and brown, embodying the themes of spring and autumn.

Voicelines

– Second trial trailer

I can't take it anymore.

– Character voice trailer

What are you doing here?

Cover info

Canon Milgram song cover: I love you (Yeah, he's basically like an angry Mahiru. The lyrics really fit his feelings towards Renho and his guilty verdict. Its fun to imagine him matching Mahiru's cheerful tone as well since its so unlike him.)

DECO*27 song cover: Candy Pattern (Ah yes, unhealthy relationships. Also, his first vd had the word candy in its name too, so that's a nice little detail.)

Non-DECO*27 vocaloid song cover: One of Repetition by Nekomushi (Gentle reminder that this is all based on Rin's perspective, and he really did feel hurt due to whatever Renho did. Haha :D)

Music info

Song title: Fall

Song preview: Life and death are two sides of the same coin. If only I could rewind time back ages ago. Maybe then I would have never gotten to know you. Did you wish the same?

Am I living? Am I really here? Endlessly, I babbled these questions to the void of wisdom. The answer never echoed back. Running and running, but never catching up. How pointless.

MV description: Most of the music video takes place in a park just like the first MV (Rin just loves this park huh?), but new locations like a hospital and Rin's school are featured for a brief second. The song itself is more emotional compared to his first song, and his tone shifts between lots of strong emotions throughout the song.

The MV starts with Rin lying on the floor of a small white room. The walls and floor appear to be made of the same smooth material. The camera rotates from a bird's eye view. Rin's eyes remain closed.

The camera cuts to a scene of a park in summer. The sun is bright and the leaves swaying in the wind are dark green. Children run wild in the playground as adults stand by, owners taking their dogs for a walk, a few old ladies using the outdoor gym equipment. The girl from the first MV steps into sight, younger and beaming cheerfully with a missing front tooth. The camera cuts to a young Rin sitting on a bench. Hs face is quite pale and sunken. Renho reaches out her hand. Rin takes it. She helps him to his feet.

Then a montage of Renho playing at the playground as Rin follows her around. She rocks furiously on the spring riders, barely makes it through the monkey bars, and squeals as she goes down the slide. Rin struggles to keep up, having to catch his breath at some points. He looks nervous as he slowly goes down the slide.

He gets back onto his feet and his surroundings change, the seasons going by like a sped up recording. He grows taller and his outfit changes with the seasons. Five winters pass and the surroundings stop changing on the sixth autumn.

The camera cuts to an older Renho walking along the park path covered with leaves. Rin notices her and runs over. He was slightly shorter than her when they were younger, but now they're the same height. There's a pile of leaves up ahead, and he pushes Renho into it. Some of the leaves fly up into the air when she crashes down. Rin laughs gleefully. Renho looks up at him and laughs as well.

The camera cuts back to the white room. Rin opens his eyes and gets up. A door appears by the wall in front of him. He starts walking towards it. A scene of little Rin walking through an empty hospital hallway, dragging a bag of fluids with him. A scene of an older Rin walking through a crowded school hallway. Back to the white room, where Rin pushes the door open. A crack can be heard from the audio. It reveals a smaller room inside, like a closet. A life-sized porcelain doll lies in the tiny space, limbs positioned in weird angles. It lacks eyes and has a large crack on its head, with purple hair and two dots painted below its right eye socket. A replica of Rin. Rin stares down at it apathetically, then closes the door. End.

Author's notes

The first picrew's only skin tone is more greyish, and the second picrew doesn't even have any mole or eye bag options. So the two pictures of Rin ended up not looking like each other. The second one looks more like Rin's healthier long lost bother or something.

I changed his dark purple strand of hair to turquoise just because it looked nice and definitely not because its so hard to find picrews with two shades of purple hair options.

I don't know where his deep lyrics came from. They came to me just like that, like Rin had possessed me for a while.

Picrews used: - https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1171011 - https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1453974

[jiminiediminie]

A not-at-all brief commentary on BE-hind story interview.

We really got over an hour of BTS just talking about their music. They really told the media yall don’t ask the right questions so let me do it for you. Love that for them. 

But honestly I am so happy that they decided to do this. Because most of the time interviewers don’t ask the right questions or it is in a situation where they have time constraints. Or the interviewer never even listened to the album in the first place (think james corden saying his favorite track on be is dynamite probs because it seemed like that was the only one he knew).

I appreciate as well that it is the members interviewing each other. They could have just as easily sat each member in a room and asked them the questions off screen. But they didn't. I think that adds such a personal element to the interview. Bts members likely know about each other’s music (even solo music) better than anyone else. So who better to talk with the members about their music than each other? 

Running commentary of each interview below the cut. 

JK interviews Jin

Blonde jk for the win

I lost count of how many times they shook hands please they are so annoying 

Jin please don’t downplay your talents. That hurt my heart. If I could describe his voice in one word it would have been powerful. I hope that jin got to see all the praise after the fix you cover. Because he killed it in that. 

I loved getting to hear the behind the scene of jin’s role in stay; I didn’t know his role in it before he talked about it.

I’m glad jin got to release abyss and put so much of his own work into it. It is also so amazing to hear how much help joon is to all of the members when it comes to lyrics and music. A talented king. 

Slightly surprised there wasn't more clowning around in their interview since these two are usually so chaotic together. I thought jk would clown jin when they started talking about jin being older but he didn't. Growth. 

Hobi interviews JK

Hobi looks so soft in that cardigan 

Hobi right off the bat asking about the mixtape. He knows what we want. 

Jk talking about how he wants to try writing songs not just about his own experiences was so interesting to hear; can’t wait to see what he comes up with in the future. 

Him talking about all the different things he wants to try but it’s almost too many was very relatable. That feeling of having so many choices you don't know where to start. But that does mean that when we do get a mixtape from him it will be from varying styles of music and i am all here for that. Personally holding out for rocker jk or acoustic jk. 

His favorite song to sing is euphoria; that’s so sweet it is such a gem of a song. I think I would have chosen still with you since it’s pretty different than a lot of the other songs he sings.

Hobi saying “you’re all grown up” to jk and jk saying “i'm not the old me” really hit me in the feels. Hobi and bts really did watch jk grow from a slightly awkward pre-teen to the confident man he is today. They must feel so proud of him. 23 yo jk is not a baby of bts anymore. He does what he wants. He wears what wants. He has long hair and dyes it blonde then blue just because he can. He even talked about how his voice has matured. Im glad that the members see that too and seem to be proud of the person he has became. 

3 main tracks. 3 mv. 3 choreos of different styles. Yes do it jk please im begging. After seeing him dance in black swan at mma i want to see more contemporary dancing from him. And i feel like after getting still with you and stay he can write songs that would fit that vibe. I just want to see jk’s dance talent showcased more. 

I don’t know if the fans could survive 3 separate jk mv. We barely survived a live performance of my time. 

Tae interviews Hobi

Tae in that emerald green sweater. He looks so good. He should wear that color more

I love how serious tae is about playing the interviewer. The actor in him never sleeps. 

Hobi talking about the dual meanings behind the title of Dis-ease was so cool. Fans obviously caught that it could mean multiple things. But as far as i know that was never confirmed. Now that it is I am once again impressed with the thought they put behind everything they do. 

A psychological occupational disease. Your mind hobi 

I think it’s so cool that hobi recorded it by himself and how he said that doing it like that allows him to grow as a producer since he has to listen and edit himself. They really just always continue to grow in their roles in music don’t they? 

Hobi talking about how he would love to solve his own problems but then remembering that he is part of a team really shows how much they trust and rely on each other. So he and jimin worked on the melody of the bridge together and then joon wrote the lyrics. And now we have the most iconic bridge of all time. Still holding out for a dis-ease live performance or music video (I’m a clown I know). 

And lol at tae being like call me next time dude 

“I would like to share my music with everyone” -- please do

Please tae is so sweet and attentive!? “When you talked about music i noticed you had a smile on your face and i thought ‘he really loves music’”. “But personally if i had your skills I’d be showing off and be proud of myself”. Kim taehyung is the embodiment of a teddy bear 

And closing it with actor tae again -- “can i get your autograph” 

Jin interviews Jimin

Two seconds into the interview they are clowning each other with jin saying to talk informally. Yet as soon as jm did (and that slight smile when he did), jin is like I was talking to myself. Chaotic as expected of these two. 

Jm talking about his process for music being “just go as i feel” makes so much sense for him. He is an easy going person and it makes sense that it reflects in his work style. 

It’s so cool that him coming up with the melody of the dis-ease bridge was just because he was humming to himself and the producer liked it -- almost serendipitous if you will  

I love when people praise jimin for his vocals. So hearing him talk about how they used his vocal in place of a female for lgo’s chorus stroked my jm bias ego

Joon is seriously the best human ever. Jimin didn’t want to bother the other members to help with christmas love but joon contacted him and helped with the lyrics anyway. Bts seriously has the most amazing leader. 

“I’d like to try making an acoustic style song”. Please do it jimin. Acoustic bts is my weakness but especially acoustic jimin. Songs like promise sound so good with his singing style.

Jin shaking jimin’s pinky 😂

“I’m a little disappointed in the MC” “but you know if you looked around there is no MC like me” -- jinmin’s relationship everybody 

Jimin interviews Joon

Minimoni look so cozy in their sweatshirts sitting on a plush rug. 

“You know we have this youngest member”. “Oh jungkook?” “No the real youngest” “Oh seokjin. That’s a shame” -- please minimoni are so funny and joon knew immediately who jm was talking about when he said the real youngest. 

“It felt like I was doing the only thing i could do” . Please let me give you a hug joon

Joon’s mind continues to amaze me. How he talked about needing the concept or key word to give “flesh” to the song was such a good way to explain how he approaches music. 

“What do you mean little? You play a very big role” -- lol jimin speaking facts. I already mentioned how amazing it is that he helped jimin and jin with their individual songs. The fact that members who want help with their own music always seem to go to joon really tells you how much of an amazing and talented human being kim namjoon is. I can’t remember the context, but there was this moment that jimin (or was it hobi?) said something like “what would we do if we didn't have rm”. They are truly lucky to have him. 

Release that minimoni subunit now please and thank you 

Tell us what you’re working on joon don't be shy. Joon mentioned that his music is like a diary. I would love to know his thoughts expressed in music now. 2018 joon who made mono and 2021 joon are two very different people. Bts has grown so much since then. 

Joon interviews Yoongi

The work colleagues! Did you know they have worked together for 10 years? 

Yoongi’s fuzzy sweater. So soft

Yoongi saying he writes songs when he is bored. Lol i love him so much

It’s really interesting to hear them talk about their lyrics getting rejected. I guess we don’t hear much about that part. And lol at joon just laughing and saying he guesses he didn’t grasp tae’s intentions for b&g. 

I like that this was more of a conversation than an interview. I love it when these two just sit together and talk about technical stuff that i don’t understand (like the festa interview)

Yoongi is such a good person to make music with. JK wanted to add humming to telepathy? They added humming to telepathy. I had wondered the reason why there are two different versions of the song. I prefer the longer one tbh

Yoongi wants to make an acoustic song? Hell yeah. Jimin does too. So yoongi x jimin subunit acoustic song with yoongi playing the guitar (please). Also a folk song?? Yoongi your taste i like it

I can’t wait to hear yoongi sing im so excited for him

Yoongi talking about how they made this album with no pressure and got to just do what they wanted and that it was received so well. How he wants to keep making music like that. That makes me happy. I want them to continue to get to do that. I love the big productions and concepts of their albums. But if they are happier making albums like be that do not have that then that is what i want them to do. 

“Please listen to telepathy a lot” -- what yoongi wants yoongi gets. Go stream telepathy 

Yoongi interviews Tae

The title of blue and grey is because tae wants to overcome that feeling. My heart. 

He looked so shy talking blue and grey. I am so excited to see him get to talk about kth1 when it comes out. I could listen to him for hours. 

English guide track? Release it tae

“I felt kind of proud of myself” -- you should tae 

Yoongi straight up asking tae why he didn't include joon’s lyrics was interesting. It’s cool to know that tae had the kind of power to choose what he felt would fit the emotion of the song.

It doesn’t surprise me that tae feels so much pressure to make sure the tape is good before it is released. It seems like when it comes to solo work the members really do feel more pressure since they aren't sharing the burden with the others. 

“Please look forward to it” -- don’t worry tae everyone is

We know from the preview that there are 13 songs potentially on the mixtape. That would be so amazing if he released it with so many songs. Tae’s voice sounds so good in so many different styles so i know that it would be so varied.

Final thoughts -- I love that they got to do this. I hope going forward they do this more for their albums. And from what the members said they enjoyed getting to be so involved in the process of making the album. It would be amazing if that continued. While a lot of their hit songs are not made fully by the members, those songs that are often have more meaning to the fans. b&g, stay, telepathy. These were songs from the members. We got to hear their actual thoughts put into these songs. I hope that bh sees how well this album did and lets that continue.

Congrats if you made it to the end! 

[leejungchans]

— juliet’s hair through the eras.

aka i finally stopped being too lazy to make this and also i’m losing track of juliet’s different hair colours so this is also a reminder for me 🤠🤠🤠

note: 99% of these aren’t juliet’s face claim hwjsjw this is just to give you guys an idea of what her hair looked like!!

as for in between comebacks, she will either keep the hair colour from the last comeback or dye it back to her natural hair colour (dark brown) if the break was longer!!

— debut era (pirate king/treasure era);

all throughout her trainee days juliet kept her natural hair colour, so for her debut she wanted to change it up but at the same time not have it be too different ahjshwjs 🤡

the end result turned out to be a slightly lighter brown with blonde highlights

one of her favourite styles to this day!! she likes it especially when it’s curled like in the photo on the right!!

— hala hala/say my name era;

she said chop chop bitch ✂️

her hair was dyed to black and cut to around chin-length

this was a pretty sudden decision ie. the boys didn’t know about it until after she got back from the salon

seonghwa: “BAEK MINYOUNG WHAT DID YOU DO WHERE IS THE REST OF YOUR HAIR?????”

“i ate it 😀 of couRSE I CUT IT OFF WHERE ELSE WOULD MY HAIR BE????”

her hair gradually grew into a long bob throughout promotions which she also loved!!

— wave era;

two hair colours for this era!!

she started with a golden blonde which she liked but then atiny started to joke about it looking like spaghetti 💀

so for revenge juliet dyed it to a light, ashy brown mid-promotions like lmao sIKE who’s the spaghetti now 🤠🤠🤠

another very sudden decision; one day she was blonde and the next day she showed up on stage as a brunette and everyone was like wtf when did that happen????

a lot of atinys thought the brown was spray-on dye but it wasn’t (she dipped like half of her hair in water during a vlive to prove it and sat through the rest of it with sopping wet hair 🤙)

— wonderland era;

haha turns out the brown didn’t last long at all bc juliet went back to blonde for this era!! 🤡

compared to the blonde from the beginning of wave era, this one was a lot paler so it looked more like white than blonde

she liked it but she really felt the hair damage during this era can we get a big yikes in here 💀

it had to be maintained all throughout promotions so she had to keep bleaching it and touching up the roots to make sure it stayed whitish-blonde

one night during practice she was extra emotional from exhaustion and sleep deprivation, so when she accidentally pulled a small clump of her very damaged, very brittle hair out she started crying which scared the boys bc ??? what happened ??????

jongho, very concerned: is everything okay??? who do i need to beat up??????

juliet, holding out the hair for them to see while crying: HHHHHjonghoimgonnabebaldwhatdoidoHHHHHHHHHH

it wasn’t that much hair but she was very tired at the moment oKAY 💀

— answer era;

so yeah after that crying incident she went back to dark hair right at the beginning of december 2019 so her hair could take a break 🤡🤡

she also got those wispy bangs which she really loved!!

sometimes her hair stylist would part her bangs down the middle just for some variety!!

kept the dark hair all throughout answer era; she felt it got a bit boring but she wanted to let her hair rest so she wasn’t complaining too much 💀

overall, nothing too special to note during this era but her hair looked a lot healthier and also more luscious!! i mean it was also thanks to hair extensions but shhhh

— inception/thanxx era;

another one of her favourite hairstyles!!

juliet kept the dark hair but this time she added green highlights!!

she loved it bc it was simple but still had some ✨Spice✨ to it

this hairstyle also made her feel a little like shego from kim possible so she definitely wasn’t complaining 🤩🤩

at first only the pieces framing her face were dyed green but towards the later stages of promotion she added more highlights!! (not really shown in the above collage)

— fireworks era;

definitely juliet’s brightest/most unconventional (?) hair colour since debut

but she loved it!! after having mostly dark hair for a year she was ready to sacrifice her scalp to the hair gods again!! 🤠🙏

in the mv and during early promotions the purple was brighter and more saturated

but as promotions went on it started fading to a more muted shade which she also liked!!

the purple lasted until early april before she went blonde again (a similar shade of blonde from wave era)

she’s bringing the spaghetti back yessir yessir yessir gracias 😋🍝

a/n: writing this made me think of a few things 🤠 1) yeonjun pulling out a clump of his hair mid-interview (?) which inspired that bit about juliet crying when she yanked out her hair 2) just how damaged is rosé’s hair???? 😭😭😭 she’s been blonde since 2019 is her hair okay?????? 3) wanting to dye my own hair kinda like the first one with the blonde highlights 🤠

[fmdcandy-archive-blog]

❛ ❪ too sweet ｡

date: 03XX19-04XX19 mentioned: n/a word count: 962 trigger warning/s: mentions of mental health synopsis: how candy reminded bc she can’t be tamed. creating the concept, styling, and storyline for fantasy’s mv.

Candy had learned early on her career that people will try to control her like her mother if she doesn’t blatantly tell people what she wants. Candy isn’t the person Hwayoung wanted to be but she was the person she had to become to survive this ugly world. It was a mask wielded by the society and in time, Hwayoung was wearing the mask like an extra layer of her skin. After years of being in the industry, Candy made sure people around her knew she can’t be controlled, only to be compromised with. The more they force her to do something, the less she wants to do it. She’s unapologetic for who she is, simply because no one apologized for what they did to her. Many girl groups deal with having to act innocent and lovely for the sake of being liked by the public. 

Candy is sweet as can be but she always made sure she provided people, especially the fans, a hint of reality they wish to ignore about idols. She’s made comments about how fans shouldn’t deprive idols of dating as it pushes idols to lie more to the fans and how mental illness is a real underlying issue that idols have but most people choose to ignore it. 

The difference between Candy and the other idols is that she makes sure the people she works with know that she’s a star. 

This album wasn’t made solely under bc’s orders. Candy took part in writing, choreography, and basically finding people who were worthy of being in her album. She didn’t want what BC can simply offer. She wanted to make a point from the very beginning that she’s more than capable. For years, she’s been overlooked and turned down. BC downplayed her talents. She wants to prove to them that she was more than just visual worthy. She can sing, dance, and now she’s proving she can write a song and she has more than steady connections to get her the extra shine she wants. Her voice in the company is much louder than before. She has a number of brands under her belt and she’s got companies sending her lovecalls. The number of offers she has does ensure that she won’t be out of job for the rest of the year. For all those years that BC tried to use her only for her visuals, Candy just recently decided to use it to her advantage. It’s their fault that Candy never listens to them. 

The more they pushed her to do something she disliked, the more Candy made things difficult for BC’s staff. She’s the one who goes on stage, the one who manages her own image, and she’s the one bringing money to them. Candy walks into the meeting room with her manager, coffee at hand and glasses covering her eyes. She’s tired so she wants to get this over with. She’s part of the senior groups now. She doesn’t have to kiss anyone’s ass to please them. It’s the other way around with Candy. 

One of them finally speaks up to start the meeting. The director and the writer discuss their idea for the mv. The storyline pleased her. Visual reality is a thing that most people dive into these days and who doesn’t want a one on one moment with their idol. It does require some CG and that means she’ll be dancing with the green screen behind her. Which was fine by her. 

The stylist then takes over and discusses the plan for her MV outfits. She has an image of herself in her head already. Having discussed the theme she wants with Ash, Candy rejects their idea right away. “I don’t want to wear anything too fancy for the mv. We’re here to make the fantasy feel as real as possible.” They suggest different styles but none seems to fit her liking. “I want something laid back and comfortable. Think about it for a second. Does your lover wear formal clothes at home? No. I want to wear lingerie instead.” She tells them. The stylist looks at her, flustered as she tries to tell Candy why she shouldn’t do that and how the public could react negatively to it. The idol quickly raises an eyebrow and takes off her sunglasses. “So, you’re telling me I can’t film the MV of me dancing comfortably in my lingerie but you can put my group in swimsuits where we barely hide anything and it’s fine?” A scoff leaves her. Taking a deep breath, she chuckles. “We’ve worn lingerie for Drama before.” A few people nod in agreement with Candy’s words. She leans back on her chair then. “This song is entitled Fantasy. The lyrics suggest intimacy.” 

To get away from the topic, the stylist clears her throat and suggests Candy to dye her hair a bright red or slightly more of a pink shade, which, Candy rejects again. “Lipstick’s comeback is just around the corner and so is the tour.” She points out quickly. “I don’t want to bleach my hair and dye it into some color you like just because you find it aesthetically pleasing. No.” She firmly tells them. “One, you’re going to ruin my hair and two, you’re gonna ruin my scalp with the bleaching.” The sighs from people was an indication that she’s doing what she wants to do. Make their lives hell. “How about a wig?” Candy suggests, smiling at them. “Find me a good natural wig. Not synthetic. Didn’t you suggest I have a different hair color for this? Why let’s make it happen!” It was funny to think these people were the ones who used to scold her when she was a rookie and now she’s just ready to tear them a new problem to deal with. 

“Now, if you’ll excuse me. I’ve got another business to attend to.”

[serendibidibidis]

Issa Vibe Tag 

I was tagged by @ssamdominic whom I love more than Kiseok loves not posting on ig. & @soul-less23 whom I love more than jay loves posting his stories on ig.

this has been sitting in my drafts for months 

How tall are you? 5'7(/67inches/170.18cm according to google)

What color are your eyes? Gray/hazel

Do you wear contacts and/or glasses? Glasses because I'm super blind.

Do you wear braces? Yes I did from 3rd grade until my birthday in 5th grade.

What is your fashion style? Kinda boho, martial artist, painter, hip hop dancer, punk rocker, dog sitter, girl on her period...??? (I wrote this when I first got tagged and I'm looking at it now thinking “hmm makes sense”)

When were you born? I was born when the doctors decided to take me out.

How old are you? 18

Do you have any siblings? Yes.

What school/ college do you go to? I'm the hottest student in my school. Granted I'm the only student in my school but it still counts right?

What kind of student are you? Well my semester ends tomorrow, and I have 40+ over due assignments so. (again back when I was first tagged.. but I’m on my final semester & have yet to do any work..) I think I'm a great student

What are your favorite subjects? I love asl, Photoshop & photography

What are your favorite movies? Thats a really good question

What are your favorite pastimes? I don't really do anything with my life so 

Do you have any regrets? So if you watched EXO on 'knowing Bros' when Chen shared his philosophy about 'i will not regret the the things I've chosen to do, whatever decisions I make, I will be responsible of them.' I live my life kinda the same way. I don't regret anything I have control over, because it was something I once wanted, something that once made me happy, or something I learned from. I refuse to regret the shit I've been through that's made me who I am. I joke about having regrets with non serious things like getting into kpop or trying to find a bias but I don't genually spend my days wasting away wishing I could go back in time. There is nothing I want to change about the past 18 years of my life regardless of how good or bad it's been. So therefore no, I do not hold any regrets. (this is gonna make me sound like a little bitch, but I’ve been through some shit I hope none of you never even hear about, and I refuse to regret my choices that possibly helped put me in those situations because I refuse to let people hold power over me.)

What is your dream job? I actually wanted to work in Asia for quite some time now and help with the mental health stigma. But I don't know. (I haven’t ever really been open abbot that and I only recently started telling people about it.. and the lack of support I've gotten, actually kinda surprised me.. so yeah I probably will end up doing something else)

Would you like to get married? yes and no, I put so much pressure on myself to be like my parents, who’ve been together for 26 years, married for a majority of those years. Who are just like my great grandparents that were together for more than 60 years, my parents have two wedding bands each. even my grandparents were together like 40 years. And I am so terrified that I’ll marry someone and we won't last. like I don't want to bring that shame to my family.. but I also don't want the shame of being unmarried either you know.. I want to please them.. 

Do you want kids? How many? I don't know. When I was younger I dreamed of having a big family because I have such a small family, but now I'm kinda like? Terrified of the idea of even becoming pregnant so I'm pretty sure I'll end up adopting my children (which I planned to do anyways ngl) but that causes me to have a slight problem cause I know I'd adopt older children but I have one name picked out for a daughter that I'd literally leave someone over if they said they didn't like it. And I kinda want that to like biological but it only works if it's a girl.. so it's very difficult.. idk.. I’ll probably foster children before I get married lol.. (that’s how you can tell if they're real or not, lie about the foster children.. and if they're chill with it that’s when you hit them with the truth and marry them)  

How many countries have you visited? I've never left my own country before

What was your scariest dream? I have ptsd nightmares and to me I think those are the worst.. but I also have really fucked up dreams like Idk if any of you have ever fallen asleep high before or started hallucinating but I'll get dreams like that on the daily..

Do you have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ significant other? Nope, it's literally been a year since my ex and I broke up (I'm not counting I only know this biased off of hair color 😂 most of you don't understand that but every year around this time I dye my hair a certain color and I know we broke up right before I did it last year because I was SUPER petty with that) in that year , I've made all these beautiful mutuals & become happy because yay friends. Whilst my ex got married (😂) to someone who only wanted them for a green card. #goals. I think I won.

skipping the first 15 songs

아라리오 (Araio) - Topp Dogg (one song in and I'm already feeing attacked)

뱁새/Baepsae/Sliver Spoon - BTS  

Champagne & Sunshine - Plvtinum featuring Tarro

Hey - Jimin 

Never Changed - Gmni featuring Chaun from the start

Deep End (Tarro remix) - THEY.

Post It - Loco Featuring Jay Park(’s vocals are higher than my self esteem)

Naked - The Tide 

GO - NCT Dream

King Sh*t - Yo Gotti featuring T.I. (this was one of U-Kwonie’s hit the stage songs) 

Trust Fund baby - Why don’t we (pls support this bop, I'm friends with someone in this group and I'm so proud of him, he’s worked so hard to get here. please don’t sleep on them.)

팡파레 (Fanfare) - SF9 (the original boomerang) listen I don't even care how much shit I get for that, wanna one gets accused of plagiarism far too often and it's usually with groups that mad slept on, and I don’t find that to be a coincidence. SF9 deserves better (plus fanfare is better than boomerang..)

F**k You - Derek Luh (I'm so proud of him)

Let’s get it - Woodie Gochild Featuring Jay park & Dok2 (when people say there’s not lgbt people in Khh show them this..)

Caroline - Aminé (not linking the mv, but instead an extremely powerful performance everyone should see) skip to about the 3 min mark if you don't want to watch the whole thing

why do these tags always make it look like I only listen to guys??

I’m tagging: @merlionmen , @pendulumandthepoet , @vangoghwithaflo , @fishiepower , @realmckitten , because you angels have all been in my notifs recently and I love you all very much 

[onotherflights]

taggie tag

I was tagged by my lovelies @ghostmoonchild @aftgonice and @otasucc  ♡

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST…

Drink: Water

Phone call: my friend calling me to leave the bookstore and join her for dinner oops.

Text message: a dude i should probably block lmao oops

Song you listened to: Nothing’s wrong - HAIM (their new album!! eep!!!!)

Time you cried: Watching Kesha’s mv for “praying” honestly.

HAVE YOU…

Dated someone twice: stupidly.

Kissed someone and regretted it: yeah, big time.

Been cheated on: sort of? It’s weird lol

Lost someone special: yes

Been depressed: when i was young, really bad. 

Gotten drunk and thrown up: not yet!

Made new friends: of course, all the time!

Fallen out of love:  yeah

Laughed until you cried: yepp!

Found out someone was talking about you: i think everyone has been through this lol

Met someone who changed you: only a little bit

Found out who your friends are: this is a constant struggle lol

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: yeah

Kissed a stranger: nope! i’m too shy. 

Drank hard liquor: oh yea

Lost glasses/contact lenses: i lose my glasses a lot but always find them eventually. 

Turned someone down: yeah lol

Sex on the first date: noooooo

Broken someone’s heart: probably

Had your heart broken: yes

Been arrested: nah

Cried when someone died: yeah

Fallen for a friend:yeahhh

Kissed on the first date: nope i’m a prude

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors:  olive green, lavender, sky blue

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: most are from my hometown so know of them, not really in touch much now.

Do you have any pets: I have a shih tzu named Gizmo!

Do you want to change your name: not really.

What time did you wake up: 8:20 am

What were you watching at midnight last night: my eyelids lmao

Name something you can’t wait for: graduation....fuck....so far away

When was the last time you saw your mom: last night.

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: pathetic but not being single would be nice.

What are you listening to right now: HAIM’s new album, loving it.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: actually no?

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: the laundry sitting in front of me i need to fold.

Most visited website: My school’s online courses site lol

Mole/s: nope

Mark/s: surgery scars...super sexy.

Childhood dream: To be a writer :,) also to be a mom but we’ll see about that.

Do you have a crush on someone: I do, but it’s in it’s fading stages.

What do you like about yourself: I try to be a really nice person, I have AMAZING music taste and no one will tell me otherwise, I’m loyal to a fault but i think that’s a good thing.

Piercings: Just ears

Blood type: I really should know but i don’t

Nickname: I don’t really have ones except silly ones my parents call me

Relationship status: chronically single

Zodiac: Taurus Sun / Leo Moon

Pronouns: she/her

Favorite TV show: Currently, big brother! that’s my shit in the summer omg.

Tattoos: I love looking at them but I don’t have any of my own!

Right or left hand: right.

Surgery: quite a few. Thanks HS, you horrible curse. 

Hair dyed in different color: I used to have blonde/caramel colored hi-lights and lowlights. And then briefly a red. Right now I just dye it to cover greys.... yes i have greys at 21 i want to die about it but w/e. I’ve always really wanted blue hair, like so badly.

Sport: ...I swim a lot? I did like soccer a lot in school.

Vacation: I really have always wanted to go to Italy.

Pair of trainers: I have a few pairs of chucks (converse) I wear lovingly 

Current and all-time best friend name: MY MOM! She’s the most loyal friend ever lmao. 

Eye color: dark green

Favorite movie: PS I love you (Gerard Butler is babe #1)

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: kisses

Lips or eyes: eyes

Shorter or taller: taller i need to feel smol

Nice arms or stomach: nice arms are hot.

Sensitive or loud: sensitive please. If you’re loud, leave.

Hook up or relationship: relationship.

Troublemaker or hesitant: i’m more hesitant

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Yourself: for some things, other things idk....she struggling

Miracles: perhaps

Love at first sight: I’m a hopeless romantic, so yeah.

Santa Claus: Sure! The spirit of Christmas always lives on lol 

I think everyone I would want to tag has done this bc i’m late as hell ooops  ;__; but if you want to do this tag, Just say I tagged you!  

[xiao-jxns-archived20210217]

85 questions ☆

tagged by @jaehyuns-milk ♥

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people.

Last

1. Drink _ coffee

2. Phone call _ my grandmother

3. Text message _ my little sister

4. Song you listened to _ stray kids - my pace (i streamed mcountdown last night and they were on right after loona so i watched them and them fell asleep lmao)

5. Time you cried _ some time really early this morning watching loona’s debut stage

Ever

6. Dated someone twice _ no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it _ no

8. Been cheated on _ no

9. Lost someone special _ yes

10. Been depressed _ yes

11. Gotten drunk and threw up _ nope

Fave colors

12. mint green

13. hot pink

14. pastel purple

In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends _ probably???

16. Fallen out of love _ was never in love

17. Laughed until you cried _ oh probably .

18. Found out someone was talking about you _ not that i remember?

19. Met someone who changed you _ probably??

20. Found out who your friends are _ no??

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list _ lmao never

General

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl _ all of them. i don’t add people on facebook i don’t actually know... granted i a) only go on fb for the group chat with my bffs and b) haven’t added anyone since uni

23. Do you have any pets _ no :(

24. Do you want to change your name _ yes. honestly if it wasn’t such a hassle i would legit be remi

25. What did you do for your last birthday _ nothing i’m pretty sure. get annoyed bc i didn’t get a single card

26. What time did you wake up today _ like 2pm

27. What were you doing @ midnight last night _ new loonatv episode

28. What is something you can’t wait for _ getting a fucking job just so i can stop stressing about it

30. What are you listening to right now _ loona~ favourite to be specific

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom _ i don’t think so??? i went to school with a thomas but in the like... ten years we went to school together, i don’t recall anyone calling him tom

32. Something that gets on my nerves _ so any things literally don’t get me started

33. Most visited website _ tumblr, yt, my rp site probably

34. Hair color _ naturally dark brown, partly blonde atm bc i need to rebleach and dye it

35. Hair long or short _ shorter?? it’s to my jawline??

36. Do you have a crush on someone _ celeb crush i guess, but that’s it

37. What do you like about yourself _ my creativeity

38. Want any piercings _ yes :s money is an annoying issue (i’ve wanted an industrial piercing since the 10th grade. i will get it one day)

39. Blood type _ ab

40. Nicknames _ kelsey mae?? remi counts i guess??

41. Relationship status _ single as the day i was born

42. Zodiac _ virgo

43. Pronouns _ she/her, they/them. i don’t really care honestly

44. Fave TV shows _ atm... kamen rider build (bc i’m still watching it but i’m loving it.) d-day is forever my fave kdrama (i’d say bnha but i’ve only seen the first two episodes of the anime tho i love the manga so i’m sure i’ll love the anime too lol)

45. Tattoos _ zero, but i want at least one

46. Right or left handed _ right~

47. Ever had surgery _ if you count having teeth pulled, yes. if not, no, thank gods

48. Piercings _ ears pierced once (i had them done twice, but i haven’t worn earrings in the second set for years so they’ve grown over)

49. Sports _ i’m terrible at them don’t make me

50. Vacations _ i’ve never really been on one?? we used to occasionally do a trip to the farm/zoo (yes my zoo is a farm/zoo it’s great) but we haven’t gone in years

51. Trainers _ i have a pair? i prefer boots bc i heave weak ankles but i have a pair for when i finally gt a job bc i love my boots, but i can’t wear them for six to eight hours in a row while standing

More general

52. Eating _ nothing rn, tho i should make something

53. Drinking _ coffee

54. I’m about to watch _ whatever mv i click on on yt (spoiler alert: it’s my pace)

55. Waiting _ for somewhere that isn’t a big grocery store or walmart or fastfood to be hiring so i can apply

56. Want _ sleep. money. also more coffee atm

57. Get married _ if it happens, it happen. i don’t really care

58. Career _ i always say english (lit) teacher and i still want that, but i’m not sure if i’m ever going to get back to uni so like... idk???

Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses _ i’ve never kissed anyone but probably most definitely hugs anyway

60. Lips or eyes _ eyes

61. Shorter or taller _ taller (i’m short okay)

62. Older or younger _ i honestly don’t care

63. Nice stomach or stomach _ wut?

64. Hookup or relationship _ relationship, duh

65. Troublemaker or hesitant _ neither??

Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger _ nope

67. Drank hard liquor _ no...? no. wait... what denotes hard liquor?? if i’m not getting confused then yes, i’ve had a little? flavoured vodka is very good and if i could afford it, i would drink slightly more often

68. Lost glasses _ cheap reading glasses maybe, but i can’t remember if i’ve actually lost them or not

69. Turned someone down _ that would require being askd out?

70. Sex on first date _ sex never

71. Broken someone’s heart _ no???

72. Had your heart broken _ no??? (for non-romantic reasons yes, but for romantic reasons no)

73. Been arrested _ nope

74. Cried when someone died _ lots usually... except when my grandmothers bf passed away, but i think that’s bc i knew he probably wasn’t going to make it

75. Fallen for a friend _ nope, thank gods that would be awkward

Do you believe in

76. Yourself _ sometimes? i try, but it’s hard sometimes

77. Miracles _ sometimes

78. Love at first sight _ lol no

79. Santa Claus _ nope, haven’t since elementary school

80. Kiss on first date _ depends??? i’ve never kissed anyone nor been on a date so idk??

81. Angels _ eh... i guess

Other

82. Best friend’s name _ i have three. ellen, jessie, kaitlyn

83. Eye color _ haezl

84. Fave movie _ star wars but specifically rogue one the most; lotr; most mcu movies but especially iron man 3 and captain america the winter soldier; pacific rim; mad max fury road; the martian

85. Favorite actor _ uh... so like, jdrama wise, if you put yamada ryosuke or yamazaki kento in something, there is a very good chance i will watch it. there’s at least one america and korean actor like that too but i can’t think of a name off the top of my head lmao

not gonna bother tagging anyone bc i’m lazy lol