#now I've had time away from them i want to redo some of the lore for the ship and their fankids

[silverpsychedelic]

A bit curious of Nights and Balan's kid.

Any basic info about them?

I have a bunch of stuff about them (and their other kids) if you look through the fankid or wonderkid hashtags on my blog! But since I haven't talked about her for a hot minute, I'll give a refresher!

Ambi (full name: Ambivé Balan Jr) is the firstborn of NiGHTS and Balan, and was created when I had originally drawn a fusion of the two characters and liked it so much I decided to make it into a fankid design! She's very much a perfect blend of both her folks, chaotic and hardy from her Nightmaren side and massively powerful with a flair for theatrics from her Maestro blood.

Figuring out how to parent her in the early years was a wild ride, especially with her being the first documented offspring of a dream demon and a theatre god. She came with hurdles. One week it was creating fire from nowhere, the next it was disappearing through random portals, and then learning that manipulating sound means she could set off airhorns at any time she liked. Two a.m. was her preference for a solid week.

Eventually, Ambi grows into a powerful being and decides to go off on her own and be a travelling Maestro, going to places that's more inaccessible for a large, omnipresent building such as the main Theatre. She works a schedule with Balan, so she's in frequent contact with her folks even after she leaves home.

Her voice claim is also Annapantsu!

[existslikepristin]

What's your writing process like?

Uh, I think I used to think I had a real answer for this, but I've come to realize I don't have a full process set in stone, so keep in mind there's a lot of variation in this:

First, I get an idea. Pretty obvious. The idea can come from anywhere and anything. You just have to be perverted enough. That is mostly a joke.

Then I write the idea down. Ideally, putting it in a google doc or other place that I go back to regularly.

I extend the idea document into an outline. This used to be a detailed play-by-play of everything that would happen in the story, but now I write specific moments/lines/inspirations that I want to be somewhere in the story, not necessarily in chronological order.

Here's the important part:

Then I neglect to do anything about it for a really fucking long time.

Eventually I come back to the document, and I'm like "Oh I should work on this... Hang on I used that line in my last fic. I was wondering where I got that idea. Can I repeat myself so soon? No, I can't." And so I rewrite some of the outline to fit with the new me and any new lore I might have revealed.

Then I don't do anything again for a REALLY fucking long time.

When I sit down to work on the fic, I pull up a bunch of relevant pictures of the subject of the story, inevitably distracting myself with finding said pictures until I need to go to bed and decide I'll work on it the next day.

The next fourteenth day, I have the time again, so I write roughly 100 words because I've decided that writing 100 words a day is a good, low-stakes commitment.

One month later, having written 208 words total, I suddenly get the inspiration to write crazy fast, and I get 80% of the way through the story and it is garbage.

I delete large swaths of the story until only a few choice morsels remain, then write filler in between them, explicitly staying away from the ending, because endings should always be rushed and suck ass.

Once I'm back at the point where the story is practically done and just needs an ending, I look around for editors and tell myself that if I ask them to edit, that will kick me into gear so I can finish the last few paragraphs that will close the story out.

So now the story has been edited and the ending still hasn't been written. What do I do about that? That's exactly right. I neglect to do anything about it for one more month.

I then see a picture of the subject I was writing about which makes me want to redo the entire thing but, knowing how long that will take, I tend toward rapidly finishing the ending.

I apologize in advance to my editor for not letting them do the last little bit, making it look to readers like they are incompetent, when in reality they did a great job on everything up to that point. Before they have a chance to edit those last few paragraphs, I dump some ridiculous but applicable tags at the beginning of the fic, give it a punny name and a shitty slapchop cover, and post it everywhere.

Finally, I stop thinking about it entirely, and move on to whatever other fic I am halfway done with.

*Does the Bruce Lee nose touch thing* Yeah, I'm basically a successful author.

[lestefanmar]

I made a post a few days ago about making some fixes to the Rise of Darkrai by just removing Mr. Nightmare Guy's ability to speak, and I've been thinking about other changes I would make to it, which I ended up compiling here in a timeline.

I would really love to either find a good fanfic rewrite of that movie or to make one myself, even if that would be effort.

Warning: it's kinda long.

General changes:

• Take away Darkrai's ability to speak at all. It makes 100% of all misunderstandings in this make sense and doesn't make him seem just dumb.

• In general, have Alice be both admirative of Alberto throughout while sympathetic to Tonio, some type of overworked town serviceman whose ingenuity the Baron leeches off of.

• If you want to have the plot be more of an intrigued, you'd probably need to redo the Palkia and Dialga fight scene at the start, either by removing it and doing the exposition in the Arceus movie (with the mystery around why they were fighting being clearly pointed out by the characters by the end of this one) or by having the relation between both events be murky at the start, which would be harder to accomplish.

• Ideally, Ash and Co. should just totally be removed from the plot. This is a secret technique that makes 90% of all Pokemon movies better. But it would require too many changes here.

As for a partial timeline:

• Have the contest going on later be an actual issue for the plot, establish Baron Alberto as a character earlier by maybe having him greet future contestants. In general, I'd want him to actually be shown to care about the image of *his* town around the world.

• Have Alice be a tour guide or something here, explaining the town's history, says that she had a grandma who lived here before her mother moved out and now she came back (admittedly you could probably do more with her lore here, but I don't have any ideas atm).

• While she explains the Towers, I'm going to be bold and have the Time Space Towers be renamed to something else and remove the prophetic dream that lead to them. Godey just wanted a musical tower to play Oracion, which is said to have soothing and healing properties, something along those lines.

• They go to the gardens, spend the time with their pokemon and leave once they see the deformed structures. Alberto comes and drops the Darkrai exposition, but tells them not to fear, as he is there to protect them and they'll find a solution. Alice mentions the townsfolk experiencing chronic nightmares for a few days. A vital point is that they now believe that Darkrai only arrived recently to torment them with nightmares.

• Here, have Alice actually feel safe because of Alberto and, somehow, make this romantic triangle actually seem worthwhile and not be resolved within the first two seconds of the characters meeting.

• Nightmare Sequence: They go to sleep and get nightmares about Palkia's oncoming attack.

• Alberto promises a solution, a part of which is just delegating to Tonio.

• They run to the gardens, accidentally enter an uncharted section devoid of other Pokemon, where Darkrai attacks them and chases after the human trio. Alberto and Gallade come to their defense and are just as successful as expected, with Gallade being put to sleep. Darkrai leaves and the Baron gloats about having scared it off to Alice, who believes him for the most part, but would rather go and heal Gallade.

• Nightmare Sequence: Gallade is woken up at the Pokemon center and gives them images of his nightmare with psychic powers. Broken up scenes of the garden getting destroyed and the Pokemon there getting eaten up by darkness. Everyone interprets this as a threat.

• After this, a bunch of trainers there specifically for the event start to leave, but Ash and Co. stay, wanting to protect the place and go through with the contest.

• While the contest does happen Dawn almost wins quite handedly because everyone else is half asleep now. They get pissed at Mr. Nightmare Guy for ruining the occasion.

• On command, Darkrai crashes the contest and tries to put specifically Ash, Brock and Dawn to sleep. After a short fight between Darkrai, Pikachu and a few others, the first is repulsed but Ash gets nightmare'd.

• Meanwhile, trying to find a solution since the morning, Tonio has been looking through the library and eventually finds Godey's diary. Because, if the tower legitimately can soothe the soul or whatever, then it should be able to solve Darkrai's hostility or at least stop the nightmares, right?

• Reading the journal, Tonio discovers that the former got the idea of Oracion soothing the soul when it healed Pokemon from Darkrai's nightmares. The apparent discrepancy here being that Tonio only knew that Darkrai had arrived in the garden recently, which is seemingly not the case.

• While he reads on the journal and about how Alicia actually met Darkrai, have more extended flashbacks, with Mr. Nightmare Guy (TM) and Small Blonde Child (TM) interacting more (this is perhaps, no, this is definitely the most necessary change). He runs back once he reads these.

• Nightmare Sequence: Here, Pikachu gets swallowed up by the ground, as does everyone around Ash, who interprets it as a threat as well.

• Ash wakes up at the Pokemon center and is livid.

• Trainers who tried to leave before the contest come back to say that they can't leave the town. Scene at the bridge happens and the Baron forms a mob.

• Ash is ready to join but they all get picked up by Tonio, who starts infodumping everything he's learned to the main cast minus Alberto.

• Darkrai had lived isolated in his corner of the garden this whole time, undetected.

• Ash deduces that the reason Darkrai was specifically targeting them was because they, unlike the Alamosites he had been tormenting before, were perhaps willing to listen and understand.

• They start to think that it was sending warnings to them and agree that they need to try and hear Darkrai out somehow before attacking it.

• While the mob is returning through the now warped and mangled town, the sky gets ripped apart and the place gets shrouded in darkness. They see Darkrai and do their best to fight it, not doing much in the process. He almost gets hit once but Ash and Co. come to stop the attack. Darkrai disappears off into the sky and Alberto gets all pissy about this, Alice getting pissed off at him in turn for not wanting to take precautions while trying to protect the town.

• Alberto wants to go after Darkrai, but gets transformed into a Lickilicky and then scared by the dream ghosts of all of the Pokemon put to sleep.

• They get all of these pokemon to the center, where Tonio is and he tries to explain what's happening. Notices that all of the dream ghosts are trying to get their attention to something (this is about as useful as I could make those, really).

• One of the ghosts, probably a Pokemon of the bunch, maybe Alice's Chimchar, leads them to this place and the center of the town. They see Darkrai circling there and he attacks them. They try and explain that they understand he isn't evil but he won't stop trying to drive them away. Baron Alberto says that he knew that they were mistaken and tries to attack, with little success once more, before Darkrai is driven into the ground by a Spacial Rend from an emerging Palkia.

• They try and fight it off to protect the injured Darkrai, but can't do much against Palkia, leading to Darkrai then saving them by blasting the Pink God Lizard (?) away.

From here on, my ideas for what happens next get really fuzzy, but things that probably should happen are:

• Tonio saves Alice and cements that couple. There was no memory of him saving her from falling off a cliff here.

• Darkrai saves Alberto specifically, with the latter not knowing how to feel about that. Maybe at least telling him to go and protect *his* town.

• An idea not my own (from the Conqueror AU by Witchysolfan on here, who has a lot of great ideas for a Lovecraftian Alamos) but way too good to ignore: to mirror the dream ghosts from the melding of dimensions, have time ghosts that start to appear as heralds of Dialga's arrival, one of which is Alicia, a distraction Alice needs to avert Darkrai from. Play the sentimental and necessary flashbacks of both of them playing in the garden.

• Darkrai does his thing where he forms the bubble of darkness to hold them both off while the cast climbs the tower, but when he gets struck by both of their attacks at once, he just tumbles to the ground but doesn't die. Instead, Alice comes over to help him, while Alamosites give their excuses and maybe heal him up with some moves.

• Here, Ash saves the day, Oracion stopping the fighting and alleviating Darkrai's pain, as well as the fear of the Alamosites. The light bird thing can be removed.

• The following day, the contest gets a rerun with viable contestants (and Darkrai making a timid appearance? Maybe not, he should probably continue to be secretive)

• Someone points out the mystery surrounding why Dialga and Palkia were fighting, as stated above.

[dreamquackity]

Mish I won't lie to you, I'm feeling so incredibly burnt out but stressed at the same time it's worrying.

I'm already a big worrier, something about hereditary anxiety or whatever, but now I'm in year 11 (final year of secondary school in the UK), and my GCSE exams around around the corner, quite literally. But the thing is, I can't find the motivation to revise and study the material. I was marks off of failing my chemistry mock, and now I have more but what the fuck am I supposed to do?

It's all made ten times worse because I've had Tourette's pretty much my entire life, but it was only minor and has recently gotten much worse. I'm in the middle of trying to get a diagnosis, but because of Covid, and the fact a newer and more dangerous variant has reached the UK, I may not get it in time for my exams - which is bad. I have many vocal tics, so should I make the slightest noise on the day in that hall, all my marks are discredited and I have to redo it until I can repress them long enough to get through a near 2 hour exam. The exam board is bretahinf down my neck to get the diagnosis, which isn't fair because of Covid and the entire situation, but they don't listen.

All the stress from that combined with helping my friends and dealing with other things is just getting to me a lot. I talk to my parents and they just say, "calm down, put it into perspective, it's not that bad in comparison to what other people are going through" and I know that, but I don't want to know how other people deal with things, I want to be able to fucking feel again.

I'm very apathetic now, I'd say. I feel very little emotionally, and that is scaring me. I want this burn out to go away, but everyone I've asked has just said to wait it out until exams are over, then I won't have to deal with it again.

I'm impatient, and this is taking too long, I can't wait until May/June to fucking feel again.

MCC was last night, and usually I'd be screaming with happiness. We got prison lore the other week, and all I could manage was a smile when I predicted the Final Disc Confrontation. Dream won so many awards, and when usually I'd be sending love to him through Twitter and stuff, now I can only go "well done" and that's it just because I don't have the motivation for anything.

This was only brought on by my mock exams in October, and it hasn't gone away yet, and I'm worried that I'll just. Stop feeling all together.

I used to be a very emotional and sensitive person. I'm usually quite empathetic, so whenever I used to get like this, I'd just cry it out and it's all be fine, but now I don't know what to do because that doesn't work anymore...

Do you have any advice? I want to be able to feel again asap

Thanks for reading, Mish, I appreciate it <3

if i can tell you anything from my own experiences, it’s that 1) school mock exams don’t reflect how you’ll actually perform in the GCSEs, at least that’s how it was for my country 2) take things day by day, sometimes you’re just going to feel a little fucked up and empty and so SO trapped but the endless feeling you get about this time in your life WILL pass, and whatever happens you will make it through. your fate hasn’t been decided yet so don’t think about what could happen, just do as much as you can now. that’s the best you can do, and it is an amazing effort :) 3) our hyperfixations make us happy, but there are ups and downs where these interests are concerned too! don’t feel bad if you don’t have the energy to be bursting with emotions. you’re growing. your brain is developing, your hormones are all jumbling together. just remember to eat well, sleep well, and remanage your expectations. set realistic goals for yourself when you do work/study. try to get some simple exercise to help with your mental health :) you’ll be shocked what that does, it’s something we all forget from time to time 4) diagnosis wise, im assuming you’ve done what you can and reached out to whatever resources you have access to. it’s a waiting game at this point im guessing? which is out of your control too so just keep telling that to whoever’s pressuring you about this!! i’m sorry if this isn’t the best advice, but i do hope it helps somewhat and that things get better soon! im rooting for u :)

[indecisive-v]

NINJAMUFFIN DOING ANOTHER AMA ON TWITTER, HERE'S MORE SHIT FOR YA! keep in mind i'm just sharing the funkin related stuff, though i am including WAAAAY more than what i shared before 👍 go check out ninja's twitter profile for questions about stuff like ritz! questions in blue, answers in orange. if yall don't wanna read everything i MIGHT make a version of this post where i replace the answers with my own summaries of em (and if the questions are long, those too)

and here's a link to the ama tweet itself! dunno if it's still goin

Q: I figure the answer will be yes but do you have more plans to implement more guest appearances from people in the newgrounds community into FNF? Or are you all gunna focus on OG lore and stuff going forward

A: for guest appearances, I think we have always seen it as getting a healthy mix of both. PERSONALLY I'd like to lean towards having more OG stuff than guest stuff, BUT it's all a matter of what other boys think of that as well. I'm not the sole person working on game!

Q: Are you gonna release the full FNF game or are you gonna be releasing week after week? Like, are you gonna release week 8 or are we gonna wait some years until The Full Ass Game comes out?

A: Release plan for FNF right now is a few more updates or whatev to the 'demo' we have out right now, and then a long silence of probably no updates whatsoever until the full game is done (which will likely be a few years). That's partly why we made kickstarter for game.

Q: Hey so like, how much will Fnf cost after it's finished? And when will you ask the supporters what they want the game on?

A: It's all subject to change, but right now it prob gonna be standard 15-25$ lil steam indie game.

We will ask Kickstarter pledgers and whatnot what they want the game on SUPER close to when its released, to keep options open if we get onto anything like a console people want.

Q: 1. how was your day

2. are you releasing a week 8 song early like week 7, or are you goin full lockdown

A: I am doing GOOD today, and I think recently I've been good in general.

up to the mood, but so far we doing good about not having anything leak or whatev, so I think it'd be fun to have update come out with people not knowing what to expect at all. Build dat intrigue

Q: Will fnf ever get official plushies?? Seems like an untapped market

A: FNF plushies will prob happen some point, we have a lot of current merch stuff on our plates already though! (Mostly kickstarter type stuff, shirts, pins, posters, and all the physical OST stuff) Its a lot to sort out, but in time more and more stuff will happen. We r jus 4 boys!

Q: did you ever expect your game to blow up as it did? what was your first reaction to seeing it become super popular

A: FNF never had a humble moment, literally day 1 before the prototype even came out, the vid on twitter had like 5K likes overnight. Then when ludum dare version came out, it got 5K likes again, like it wasnt just a fluke. Was crazy, and def felt like somethin was different wit FNF

Q: Do you plan on getting other people to come in to help with the music? That seems like a lot of work to dump on one person, what with the erect mode and whatnot.

I guess the question could apply to all aspects of development. Will you be bringing on more people to help?

A: We definitely are getting help from other people. We are always keeping an eye on people for various different things. In terms of programming, already I've gotten 2 people (MtH and Geokureli) to help with certain Week 7 stuff (charting/polish, and loading stuff). Shit like dat

Q: Oh, also, will the Steam version be Workshop compatible? That'd really help streamline the process of downloading mods.

A: Steam version of FNF will likely NOT be Steam workshop compatible, because we want all the mods to NOT be spread out through different places. There WILL be modding support that is as streamlined as Steam workshop though. Mainly for non-steam versions of the game!

Q: Are there any chances that the game will have a physical release? Also any updates on a switch port? I remember one of you guys talking/joking about it.

A: Not impossible for FNF to get a physical release. We would want to see how far we could go with it though. I think it'd be super easy to do something wit people like LimitedRun games or whatev, but I think stuff like that can only go so far. I wanna see Funkin in mf Walmart!!!!!!

not that LimitedRun isn't going to be an option! Just we consider and pursue many different things! FNF release is years away, so we have time to think about everything. Whole mindset can be different just a few months from now.

Q: Out of curiosity, how are you dealing with all the popularity? It blew up so fast id barely be able to handle it if I was in your shoes.

A: The only way I've been able to handle it is having the other boys on the crew and being able to talk to them about all the overwhelmingness.

Part of it feels very lonesome, feels like NO ONE can come close to comprehending exactly how I'm feeling, except them. also other PALS!!!

Q: Do you own any of the bootleg FNF merchandise? Like any bootleg plushies or anything?

A: i dont, i genuinely think they r a waste of money, and I know any bootleg shit that gets made, we can prob go about and make it, and make it 100x cooler because we actually put effort into shit. bootleg shit just in it for the coin, so they aint gettin that from me

Q: How did you go about getting in contact with sr pelo for skid and pumps vocals?

A: Pelo i think was familiar and pals wit PhantomArcade a bit thru various Newgrounds things and collabs and whatnot.

pelo retweeted the first OG FNF posts first ever, and brought a LOT of attention to it. to pay him back, we put skid and pump in game! ask dave for more info prob

Q: what's the plan for having the full ass game open source if it's gonna cost money? couldn't people just download the source and compile the game for free?

A: when FNF is fully released, the full source code will be released as well.

the game will be DRM free so it will be way easier for people to redistribute the released/offical .exe instead of compiling it, so that's not the issue anyways. people will pay for things if they like it

Q: What are the chances of it getting on consoles like switch or Playstation, ps5 would definitely be my preferred way to play

A: it'd be a matter of hiring someone to build out backend stuff for those specific consoles. someone who knows their way around all the wacky code stuff, AND knows console hardware stuff. Then its just a matter of hittin up those console manufacturers (Sony, Microsoft, or Nintendo)

the CLOSEST one is SWITCH. pretty much all of that backend is already made, so it just a matter of gettin all that access and shit.

i think in any case though, there's a lot of NDA stuff required, i dunno how much we'd be able to talk about it even IF we get that stuf sorted

Q: any ideas of releasing it on epic store or another platform?

A: Right now, the only thing that is 100% confirmed and WILL happen is a Steam version, itchio version, and mobile versions on respective app stores. Other storefronts aren't out of the picture though, but we don't want to spread ourselves too thin with it.

Q: Will you continue using HaxeFlixel to make the rest of FNF?

A: yes, because it is what I'm the most technically proficient in, and generally is VERY flexible. just a matter of ME becoming a better coder. It's ALL open source, so if I need something done a certain way, either I can do it, or we can hire someone to do it.

Q: have you seen game theory's videos on your game yet and if so, what do you think about them? (not talking about his predictions because i dont want spoilers. i like mystery)

A: it is always good silly fun to watch the Game Theory vids about Funkin with some pals, and see what matpat thinks of the game. i lov the vids, but wish he used my face less! Or at least used a cuter pic of me like this one!!

Q: Ok so: What does the future of FNF look like to you?

A: future of FNF is a rhythm game that not only exceeds every expectation that people have of it, but subverts most expectations and conventions as well.

Q: Do you plan on retouching on older weeks once the game is fully out? Like reanimating sprites, redoing some charting, updating the background, etc

A: retouching and probably overhauling certain aspects is almost definitely gonna happen. Everything is fluid and can be changed (and should be changed when necessary). i dont think anything should be too attached to, especially this early on in development

Q: I honestly do not care if the answer to this is vague as hell to keep surprises and shit lol but… Since Week 7 was the closest we’ll get to a playable girlfriend (still bf controlling tho), do you have plans to make girlfriend playable in spin-off things or just freeplay?

A: wouldnt be out of the picture for a playable GF, i don't think we've had some hard thing AGAINST it. just a matter of what we want out of the game, and what sort of story or whatev we could do with that concept

Q: How do BF and GF manage to meet famous newgrounds characters (such as pico, tankman and the others to come) like is this all in one universe/ timeline or are they being brought in?

A: i think they are all just there existing. i think there's a lot of wacky things in other media that try to justify crossovers, like MULTIVERSE bullshit or TIMELINE shit, but i dunno, its like subspace emissary. Captain Falcon and Olimar from Pikmin just hang out. Shit like dat

disclaimer that all lore shit is in phantomarcade head pretty much and maybe there is wacky dimensions or somethin

Q: Will the game have dlc?

A: its not too unlikely that we'd have expansions of some sort, but i mean right now we plan on packing in as much as we can into base game, and trying to make that as pure as possible.

if there is ANY dlc, i would personally want it to be 100% free updates

Q: How did you meet Phantom Arcade, Kawai Sprite, and EvilSker? And what do you think about the community and its controversies?

A: me and phantomarcade been fukin around NG for years so years and years ago we naturally crossed paths and became pals

about 2 years ago i found kawaisprites music on NG, and started talkin wit him, made Ritz wit him and we fell in lov

and evilsk8r i met cuz of FNF!!!

quik elaborate on evilsk8r, wanted artist for gamejam FNF was for (ludum dare), and OG person i asked wasnt available, so he referred me to evilsk8r, who I have never met or talked to before ever.

[greatoneforsaken]

Hey, I've always wanted to ask this, and since it seems that Bloodborne 2 may be a bit far off I feel like now may be a good time to make an oc for it. So I wanted to ask: How did you come up with Halfsies? What inspired you to create him, what inspired his backstory? I've been struggling to muddle together any semblance of a coherent character, and wanted to ask around to see what inspired the people I look up to!

Oh man, I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to answer, life is hard and my time management skills are A+. Halfsies’ backstory is kinda how I start most of my characters: It starts with a vague idea or by an ‘inception’ idea, if that makes any sense? It could be a trope you like, shit it could be as simple as there’s a faceclaim you like, or a character from an existing work that you draw inspiration from. Personally I find the idea or inspiration to be the easiest start and work from there. For Halfnut in particular it came from the notion of ‘I wanna have a character who is part beast’ because of how the beasts are treated in the bloodborne universe, and the lore surrounding them and how they came to be. It was also assisted by the fact that I love ‘human’ monsters, or monsters that inspire some form of empathy? So that was his start - the basic ‘this is what I wanna do with him’; from there on out it was filling in his details. “Part beast” could only take me so far - if you wanted to end there, that’s perfectly fine, but I find the next steps help make a neat character; and there is so much lore in the soulsborn series that there’s so much to go from - find an idea you like and run with it! For halfsies, the next step was figuring out a ‘how’ and ‘why’ he became like what he has transformed into. This step was pretty easy actually, I’ve always ADORED the idea of ‘great ones’ or gods that are so powerful they’re beyond human recognition; add in the fact that they’re one of the reasons why the beast plague was on old yharnam and I knew I wanted to go with that. I was actually super torn on having Halfsies’ true backstory rely on a cannon character so heavily - I’m always scared to make my characters “””mary sues””” or w/e (someone called my characters that once upon a time and it kinda has stuck with me?), so I struggled for a while until I said fuck it and had Halfsies get how he did via: Ebrietas. Honestly if people don’t like your character, that’s okay, you’re not gonna make everyone happy and it took me a long time to really let that sink in? I still get worked up about it though...But anyway, so we have the basic idea, the follow up idea, and then the ‘how’ covered, but now for the why? Making this part was super easy for me actually XD; Anyone who knows me knows I LOVE to torture my characters - the more strife, pain, and angst they go through the better! So it fell down to ‘why would a man seek out a great one, and how would he piss it off badly enough to make it curse him’. A father’s desperation to save his family? There’s little power in the world that could stop someone for doing what they think is right to save whom they love - and of course having his kid die in the process to really solidify the fact that he went completely bonkers enough to go seeking out an incomprehensible god. Now all of this didn’t happen right away, Halfsies is actually one of my older characters all things considered, and it took quite a while to really establish a solid background. If it takes you time, don’t stress it! AND if you don’t like how a character is turning out, don’t be afraid to scrap the idea! A professor once told me ‘Don’t be afraid to kill your babies’, and while he was talking about art at the time, it’s really applicable anywhere. If an idea is not working, don’t be afraid to try again - or edit out bits of their history or whatever. They’re your characters, do what you want with them! If you redo their story 15 times, who cares! Have fun with them. I put a lot of empathy into my characters, it’s a double edged sword at times, but I really do connect with them a lot. Halfsies is one of my closer characters because of how much time I’ve spent on him? Honestly he feels like a friend / a part of me, and I don’t think I’ll ever let him go. Halfsies was helped incredibly by the fact that I’ve also had some amazing rp partners too - both in private and here on tumblr. While I don’t really rp much on tumblr at this time, I still rp (that said I do have discord and if anyone wants to pick up something with Halfnut, just gimme a holler! He’s certainly not dead and I am around! I have this blog attached to my main so I see anything that happens here c: ). People help get a fresh set of eyes on something, they can work out things with you or throw your character into situations that you never expected. I never really ever considered his fake name to be Ebenezer, but yet it happened in play - and while it’s not his real name he answers to it in character because it stuck around in play. So having a circle really helps, but I also have had so many private thoughts about halfsies and how he’d interact with my other characters that haven’t made it onto the tumblr rp scene. I guess just love your characters, but if they’re not working, don’t be afraid to nix the idea and try again. I gave the steps to starting the character and working from there. I hope some of this helps you! Don’t be afraid to message me