#not to mention the issues with my partner and the increasingly hostile political environment

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-I've been off work from my office job for almost a month

-I've been in an IOP program for almost 3 weeks

-my antidepressant dose was upped 2 weeks ago

-i started adhd meds 2 days ago

-I finally got laid and then got told she doesn't want to do it again anytime soon (for her own reasons)

-I lost my other job (that I liked way more and wanted to stay at really badly)

And yet here I am, laying in bed, thinking about how much easier it would be if I didn't exist anymore