#not so silly sillytalking

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Ghhhhggg overestimulated :[[[[[

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when i was younger i thought if i left the ceiling fan on for too long or over night, the ceiling would fly away.

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Vent under the cut

i cant fucking understand what the fuck just happened except for how my bitch of a mother just pulled the fucking favoritism card during a terribly painful experience both mentally and physically for me

Its ok though, i think

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Oh boy.

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Random vent where i scream about my living situation

Oh my goddd

DOES MY MOM EVEN UNDERSTAND MY CURRENT PHYSICAL AND MENTAL SITUATION???? I CAN BARELY EVEN FUCKING WALK WITH OUT SHAKING SO BADLY OR JUST STRAIGHT UP FUCKING BLACK OUT. AND THIS FUCKER STILL THINKS I CAN GO TO SCHOOL LIKE THIS??? BECAUSE SCHOOL WONT DO SHIT ABOUT IT.

"ooh i will just put my kid in a mental hospital where they would lose complete connection to reality and fuck them up socially and mentally even more! That will fix em!"

SHE KNOWS MY TRIGGERS AND THE FACT THAT BEING YELLED AT IS ONE OF MY BIGGEST TRIGGERS AND SHE STILL YELLS ANYWAY.

MY EYES CANT FOCUS ON ANYTHING CORRECTLY ANYMORE, I BARELY EVEN GET OUT OF BED, AND I HAVE TERRIBLE INSOMNIA.

AND SHE EXPECTS ME TO BE ABLE TO DO NORMAL HUMAN THINGS?????????????

Fucking HATE IT HERE

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Mmm uh oh

Its getting loud here

Headphones arent available

I really should say something about my noise sensitivity

But i know im just going to get a "youre just being overdramatic" in return

Kinda wanna cry

Actually really wanna cry

Im just going to draw to maybe keep me distracted hopefully please drawing has to keep me distracted

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WHY DO I FEEL SO INSECURE ABOUT MY DRAWINGS SUDDENLY

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Goddamn that gender dysphoria hit me real hard just now

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Hm. My mom just called my sound sensitivity and shit like that "being dramatic" i would like to escape this place thank you very much.

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Lemme kill and do a murder please

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OooooohmyfuckinggodiamabouttoexplodewhowouldhavefuckingthoughtlettingmybrotherhaveafriendoverforasleepoverwouldhavebeenabadideaigotNO SLEEP LAST NIGHT THERE IS WAY TO MUCH GOING ON RIGHT NOW

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Heeey uhhh i just remembered something i wanted to say about my art

Just remember that its chill if you just like my art and not reblog but i would reeeally appreciate it if you reblogged it too cuz GOD DAMN do i feel insecure when i post art that took a loong time to make and it gets 4 likes and no reblogs or some shit like that.

Sorry i ranted a bit there, but you get the point [hopefully]

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So many stuff going onnat once ggehwhejenwnwjsjehehjehwhsjswjkwjwhehdhrhjdjejejwjwhejjsjsjdhdjejejehejwwjhwehe

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✨️i cant fucking do this shit anymore✨️

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Fuck school for bringing down my genuinely happy mood this morning and bringing up my social anxiety and stress :[

This is how i feel mentally rn :[ atleast my mood changes super quick so i feel more silly now than wet sopping cat :3 :3 :3 :3 :3

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Awh man ::[